{{{{{{{Alex}}}}}}}


And From Your Loving Mama Always, Angel xoxoxox

I Brought You Some Friends Sweet Alex. I Love You!!!



And From Your Loving Mama Always, Angel xoxoxox

Just in case anyone is reading this, the plot thickens even after all these months. I'm going to copy and paste part of the latest email to my lawyer so as not to have to think about this since I ain't in too good 'o shape. Please pardon the CAPS. John prefers all things emailed to him to be in CAPS. I'm not sure why but it could either be poor vision or that his eyes go wacky after reading hours and hours of emails. So again, please pardon the CAPS in the following cut and paste portion of my email to John my lawyer. I promise that I am not shouting. Many thanks and here it is ...

"I'LL TRY MY BEST TO TELL YOU WHAT I FOUND OUT ABOUT ALEX AND WAS TRYING TO TELL YOU WHILE STATING FACT AS FACT AND SPECULATION AS SPECULATION.

1. FACT: JULIA GALPIN TOLD ME FROM THE BEGINNING THAT IDA TOLD HER ALEX BIT "THE GRANDSON" THEN FLEW AWAY. UNTIL A COUPLE DAYS AGO, I THOUGHT SHE MEANT HER (JULIA'S) GRANDSON SINCE IDA ALSO SERVES AS NANNY TO JULIA GALPIN'S GRANDCHILDREN.

2. FACT: IDA CECAREO TOLD ME FROM THE BEGINNING (10/16/07) THAT SHE GAVE ALEX AWAY AND REFUSED TO TELL ME WHERE HE IS. SHE HAS STUCK TO THAT STORY ALL THESE MONTHS.

3. FACT: JULIA GALPIN TOLD ME THAT IDA HAS NEVER EVER TOLD HER THAT SHE GAVE ALEX AWAY. THE FIRST TIME JULIA HEARD OF THAT WAS WHEN I TOLD HER A COUPLE DAYS AGO, THREE DAYS AT THE MOST. JULIA TOLD ME THAT SHE WOULD APPROACH IDA, TELL HER SHE'S NOT IN TROUBLE BUT TO TELL HER WHAT REALLY HAPPENED.

4. FACT: WHILE SPEAKING WITH JULIA WITHIN THE LAST 2 TO 3 DAYS, I INFORMED HER THAT IDA KEPT ASKING ME TIME AND TIME AGAIN TO PLEASE GIVE HER ALEX, TO LET HER KEEP ALEX, BECAUSE SHE AND HER HUSBAND LOVED HIM SO MUCH. THOSE PLEAS FROM IDA TOOK PLACE DURING EVERY PHONE CALL I MADE TO HER TO SEE HOW MY PETS WERE DOING WHEN I WAS STAYING IN THE HOTEL WHILE MY HOUSE WAS BEING TENTED IN OCTOBER 2007. JULIA WAS NOT AWARE OF THIS FACT AND, IN MY OPINION, JULIA DID SHOW INTEREST AND SURPRISE AS WELL.

5. FACT: JULIA GALPIN TOLD ME IT WAS IDA CESAREO'S ADULT GRANDSON WHO ALEX BIT THEN FLEW AWAY. THAT IT TOOK PLACE INSIDE IDA'S HOME, AT ALEX'S CAGE. NOT OUTSIDE.

6. SPECULATION: I DO NOT KNOW WHAT THE HECK TO BELIEVE ANYMORE BUT IF #5 IS TRUE, IT IS POSSIBLE THAT IDA'S ADULT GRANDSON BECAME ANGRY WHEN ALEX NIPPED HIM AND EITHER KILLED ALEX OR THREW HIM OUTSIDE OR I JUST DON'T KNOW, ETC.

7. FACT: ALEX NEVER, EVER BIT ANYONE UNLESS HE WAS FRIGHTENED, UPSET OR IF ANYONE PUT THEIR HAND (OR ANY BODY PART) INSIDE ALEX'S CAGE WHILE ALEX WAS INSIDE THE CAGE. IF ALEX WAS FRIGHTENED OR UPSET, HE WOULD "WARN" THE PERSON NOT TO TOUCH HIM SO THEY WOULD NOT BE NIPPED OR BITTEN. ALWAYS, ALWAYS, ALWAYS, AND WITHOUT FAIL, THE ABOVE IS FACT!

I MADE CERTAIN TO WARN IDA SEVERAL TIMES BEFORE SHE TOOK ALEX NEVER TO REACH INTO ALEX'S CAGE IF HE IS INSIDE AS THAT IS HIS TERRITORY AND HE WOULD BITE. I ALSO TOLD IDA SEVERAL TIMES THAT ALEX WILL WARN A PERSON IF HE'S SCARED OR UPSET SO THEY WILL KNOW NOT TO TOUCH HIM. I ALSO INFORMED IDA IF ALEX WAS OUTSIDE ON TOP OF HIS CAGE OR NEST BOX, OR ANYWHERE ELSE, THEN IT IS FINE AND DANDY TO REACH INSIDE HIS CAGE AS HE DOESN'T CARE.

I ALSO GAVE IDA MANY OTHER INSTRUCTIONS REGARDING ALEX'S CARE AND HOW TO KEEP HIM SAFE, ETC.

DID I COVER IT ALL? IN SUMMARY, IF IT IS TRUE THAT ALEX BIT IDA'S ADULT GRANDSON THEN I CAN ONLY TAKE A GUESS AT WHAT HE WOULD DO TO ALEX. MY GUESS IS NOT EVEN AN EDUCATED GUESS SINCE I DO NOT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT IDA'S ADULT GRANDSON, HIS PERSONALITY, TEMPER, BEHAVIOR PATTERNS AND SO ON. I JUST WANT SO BADLY FOR THIS NIGHTMARE TO END AND SO I SUPPOSE ... WELL, THERE'S MORE BUT I'LL STOP THERE FOR NOW."

It's me Angel talking again. There's a bunch more but I ... I will be back to tell anyone who wants to know. God Bless!

If anyone has read the post above this one regarding my ongoing investigations, could you please tell me what you think may have happened? I've got tons and tons more information to share but ... I need to know the truth. I just have got to know the truth about what happened! I'm torturing myself practically 24 hours a day and I feel so guilty. Most of this is ALL MY FAULT! Tears! If I hadn't been so stupid none of this would have ever happened. Please, what is your opinion of what happened to Alex taking into consideration the latest findings? And that Julia? OMG! You would spit if you knew the latest about her and ... Okay, I'm done for now. Thank you so much and Blessings!

Hello, my Friends. I am so desperate and at the end of my rope that I've begun to leave messages on different talk shows that might be able to help me. This may be my last chance to find out the absolute, positive truth about what REALLY happened to Alex. I pray that one of them is interested, contacts me back and follows through. Please keep us in your prayers and wish me and my feather child Alex luck. God Bless!

Alex, I swear on all I hold Holy and Sacred that I shall not stop my ongoing investigations. I'm going to get the appropriate authorities to request polygraph tests from all involved, including myself. In fact, I hope I'm able to make those lie detector tests required because I know that Nico, Julia and especially Ida would never ever volunteer to take a polygraph in order to clear their names. My Gosh. I just thought of something this very moment. All three of those monsters very well may be required to take a polygraph regarding their part in robbing my house blind and then the person administering the test can slip in a couple questions about you, Alex. That sounds like a plan!

Also, if Ida refuses to take a polygraph (of course she'll refuse), then I'll know that one of two things happened to you:

1. You're alive and were either sold, given away, Ida kept you as she begged me over and over to let her keep you, you were taken for a ride and tossed outside, etc. Still you're alive. OR

2. Ida's adult grandson murdered you right there at your cage inside Ida's house.

From all I found out last week about Ida telling Julia that you bit Ida's adult grandson ... In her house ... Right at your cage ... Then flew away? Excuse me!? Did you fly right through the walls? Well, let's just call you David Copperfield. Hey, I only *look* stupid. I mean really. For pity's sake! Also, how about all my witnesses who will swear that you never, ever went near a door or window even if they were closed because you were terrified!

Alex, as Sherlock Holmes would say, "The game is afoot!" And as said in the movie Network: "I'm mad as hell and I'm not going to take it anymore!" I can't even begin to express how guilty I feel and sorry I am that this is taking so long, my very best friend ever {{{{{{{Alex}}}}}. For now, I'll quote one more TV show called The X-Files and that is "The Truth Is Out There!" Yes, my darling Alex. The truth IS out there and I swear I will find it and perchance go Jackie Chan on some people's arses to force the Truth out of them! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, PRECIOUS ALEX!!!

Oh My Gosh! The nightmare continues! Please see below the copy and paste of an email I just sent to my lawyer. Please pardon the CAPS. It's just that John prefers all his emails in CAPS so no, I am not shouting.

DEAR JOHN, NICO PAVAN SHOWED UP AT MY DOOR A COUPLE HOURS AGO. I DID NOT RECOGNIZE HIM THROUGH THE PEEP HOLE OR I WOULD NOT HAVE OPENED THE DOOR. IT IS THE VERY FIRST TIME I HAVE SEEN HIM SINCE BEFORE HE WAS SERVED. I FELT SO SHOCKED, INTIMIDATED, FRIGHTENED AND DID NOT KNOW HOW TO REACT! OH MY GOSH!

HE BEHAVED AS IF ALL WAS HUNKY DORY, SMILED AND ASKED ME SEVERAL TIMES HOW AM I DOING. HE RETURNED SOME ITEMS AS YOU'LL SEE BELOW. NICO PAVAN STATED THAT JULIA GALPIN HAD COME BY YESTERDAY TO RETURN THEM BUT SHE COULD NOT GET HOLD OF ME. THAT'S SO STRANGE BECAUSE IT WAS YESTERDAY EARLY AFTERNOON THAT I HAD A TERRIBLE NIGHTMARE ABOUT JULIA GALPIN AND THIS SITUATION AND SHARED IT WITH MY FRIEND DEBBIE BEEBY. SHE WILL VOUCH THAT IS TRUE.

HERE IS MY QUESTION: PLEASE GIVE ME YOUR HONEST OPINION OF THE FOLLOWING EMAIL AND IF I OUGHT OR OUGHT NOT TO SEND IT TO NICO PAVAN. OR PERHAPS YOU OUGHT SEND IT TO HIM FOR ME INSEAD? THANK YOU! THE EMAIL TO NICO WOULD READ AS FOLLOWS >>>>>>>

Hi, Nico. I appreciate the return of my Alex's cage, nest box, toys and parrot carrier. However, the following were not returned: The cage's food, water, vegetable and fruit receptacles, large bag of K-Tee brand compacted pine shavings, several full bags of assorted types of seed and Alex himself was not returned.

I also appreciate the return of Buddy dog's two metal dishes and stand. However the following were not returned: His toys, bag of food, his treats, the 50 foot recoil extender leash, his brush and current license tags. You did return Styx kitty's food dish and pooper scooper. However, the following were not returned: Large box clumping formula cat litter, litter box, cat food, cat carrier, heating pad bed with red cloth cover and his current license tag.

Thank you for returning these items and I will Cc a copy of this to John Hamel, Esquire to make him aware so that he can remove those items from the Notice of Civil Remedy for Theft: Section 772.11, Florida Statutes which was sent to you, Julia Galpin and Ida Cecareo on 5/23/2008. I do believe that is the only charge which has been served to you personally thus far.

Nico, I'm not aware if you've been in touch with Julia Galpin. However, I am perfectly willing to make the same offer to you that I did with her regarding dropping all charges regarding the Notice of Civil Remedy for Theft as well as other pending charges against you personally in return for the following:

1. That I find out the truth about Alex. What I am being told at this time could not possibly have happened. Remember, Alex was 15 and 1/2 years old and I got him as a baby so I know him, what he would do, what he would not do. No exceptions. I need the truth and some form of closure so that I may begin to live once again. Alex was my life. No, I'm not exaggerating and do have many witnesses to that fact. All I ask is the truth. I can handle the truth. By the way, Alex was never sick one day in his life and did have a life expectancy of 35 to 40 years.

2. If Alex is really gone or dead, then he must be replaced.

He was a remarkable, talented, tremendously intelligent parrot as well as being my companion animal. He had an enormous vocabulary and other vocalizations. With the exception of one phrase, he knew the meaning of everything he said and what was said to him within his vocabulary and would even hold simple conversations.

According to objective experts (and please feel free to google this fact), he had the cognizance, intelligence, behavior, personality, emotions, reasoning ability, communication skills and a whole lot more all the same as that of "a normal four to five year old human child." He was the very best friend I have ever had in my life and you cannot begin to imagine the trauma I have experienced and am still experiencing since he was not returned to me.

I am and always have been a "walk away" type person whenever anything bad is said about or done to me no matter how awful it may be. But, not, not, not when it comes to children, animals and family. Alex was my family. Most people just don't get that. So very sad for them not to be able to experience what I and many others do.

3. Reimbursement to me for required immunizations for Buddy and Styx to get back their tags. This would also include either taxi fare to and from the Vet's office or if Audrey is able to transport me. Then I will have to pay her for her gas and time. She is my house cleaner but did offer to help me with Buddy and Styx to the Vet for payment to her since I'm not able to carry Buddy by myself and it is extremely difficult to find a taxi person who is willing to transport a dog.

4. That the HOA continues to treat me fairly.

5. A fair and reasonable cash settlement to reimburse me thus far and cover future medical treatments that I require resulting from my loss of Alex. This would include physician co-pays since I do have Medicare but no co-insurance. Also, taxi fare to and from each doctor visit and any necessary medication which may be prescribed since I have no prescription plan and do pay for all medications out of my pocket.

Bear in mind that once I know the truth, there would most likely be no need for any further medical treatment regarding my loss of Alex since I would at long last have closure. However, I am still not able to cope with his loss at this time since I do not know the truth and since that is so, I do require professional help. I should not be the one having to pay for it either. Wouldn't you agree taking into consideration the many different stories I've been told about where Alex is and what happened to him? It simply defies the law of physics to say the least.

If the above sounds fair and is agreeable to you, please contact Johh Hamel, Esquire either by email or phone. His number is: 813-832-9975. Please contact him and not me. This truly is a nightmare from which I cannot awake. I am not exaggerating and I kid you not.

Sincerely,
Dottie

JOHN, IT IS DOTTIE TALKING AGAIN. PLEASE ADVISE ME. PLEASE. THANK YOU!

MANY KIND THANKS AND BLESSINGS,
Dottie

It's me talking again. I wonder what my lawyer John will have to say about this. I'm sitting here trembling! I simply cannot believe that man had the nerve to show up at my door, act like everything was fine, nothing was wrong. I don't think he is even supposed to be contacting me at all! I was told by my lawyer not to contact him and I haven't. This is unreal. Oh My Gosh!

Thank you for listening.

Big Hugs,
Dottie xoxoxoxox

Thank you, Jon. It's so difficult for me personally to feel or express anger. You'll see that as my posts progress here. Finally, I am feeling anger and rage at what was done to my Buddy dog, Styx kitty and especially Alex parrot. They stole my house blind but I honestly don't care about that because it's "just stuff." Oh, there were 3 things of no cash value to anyone but priceless to me because of such great sentimental value. I did have some tears about those three items from my late Dad that were stolen. Still, that's just stuff, too. I can handle that. Thousands of dollars worth of stuff that Ida and Julia carted out of my home after the termite fumigation tent was removed. Was Nico involved in the theft? I do not know since I did not witness it even though he did show up at my house within 5 minutes after I got home and walked right in as though he owned the place. I did witness Ida and Julia robbing my home when I got back from the hotel around 6:45 PM on October 14, 2007. Caught them red handed. I am shaking my head. What nerve they have. Kinda stupid, too. I mean, really.

I do have at least one witness and some tangible proof that Nico, the HOA president, was most likely involved and possibly the "ring leader" regarding what was done to my fur and feather kids. Still, further investigation is needed to state that as fact and not just speculation. I feel confident that I will be able to prove his culpability regarding my fur and feather kids given the evidence I have thus far. We shall see. Oh yes, we shall.

As far as my house being robbed, it is my opinion that all we own and possess is really "borrowed" so to speak. Why is that? Things break or get old and need to be replaced. We get tired of certain possessions or a newer version comes out so those are replaced, too. Some of us get robbed and have to replace our necessities that were stolen even if we don't replace any of the luxury items that were taken during that robbery. Ultimately, we die and all that we possessed here on this earthly plane goes to someone else to enjoy while they "borrow" those possessions for the reasons I've already given.

I've been robbed blind three times before this fourth time and felt the same each time except once when I discovered my kitty missing as I walked inside my ransacked apartment those many years ago. Oh, I became hysterical screaming and crying inconsolably. The landlord from this huge apartment complex was so kind as to book it over to my place as fast as possible to hold and try his best to comfort me as I screamed and cried thinking that those robbers had done something gosh awful horrible to my Srini kitty.

What I didn't know is that a neighbor in the building heard me, found out what happened and went searching the grounds for Srini kitty. She found him! Apparently Srini kitty had escaped through the open back sliding glass door during the robbery. I thanked the lady time and time again as I scooped Srini kitty into my arms, hugged him, kissed him, cradled him and I stopped crying. After I calmed down since Srini kitty was back home, I simply looked around, thought to myself, "What a mess. I'd better start cleaning up." I was perfectly fine.

So, you see, it's my fur and feather kids that count. Oh, I was never blessed with children or, of course, they would come first. I've finally reached the point where I feel so infuriated at what was done to Buddy, Styx and especially to my very best friend Alex that I'm ready and willing to go Jackie Chan on some butts. Please pardon my language. Oh, how I wish it were legal to really go Jackie Chan on them. Truly I do. But, I must go through legal channels. That's the law. Still, man oh man! What I'd love to do but can't. I'd love so much to do to all three of them exactly what they did to my Buddy dog, Styx kitty and Alex parrot. See how they'd like them apples. Thank goodness John is such a good, decent, honest, caring man and he came to be my lawyer.

I did get a response from my email and will copy and paste it here. Again, it is in CAPS because that's how he typed it. The copy and paste is as follows.

"DEAR DOTTIE:

MY ADVISE WOULD BE TO SEND THEM NOTHING IN WRITING. ONLY CONFER WITH MS. GALPIN OVER THE PHONE TO NEGOTIATE THE AMOUNT SHE IS TO PAY YOU. WHEN YOU ARE TALKING WITH MS. GALPIN, REMEMBER THAT YOUR BIGGEST GOAL IS TO HAVE THE RESPECT OF THE HOMEOWNER ASSOCIATION SO THAT YOU ARE NOT PUSHED AROUND IN THE FUTURE.

SINCERELY,
JOHN HAMEL"

Wow, am I glad I wrote him first. I do intend to have words with Julia to let her know my expectations and one of my expectations is for her to never, never feel free to send that man to my home again. I do not care that he's the president of our home owner's association.

What I will not tell her is all about the other charges that have not yet been leveled on her personally, Nico personally, Ida personally and all the concrete evidence I have in the form of their own recorded voices at meetings where they admit to what can be proven as fraud, theft, animal abuse, misappropriation of HOA funds to benefit Nico personally, crimes against me and Alex as stated by the US Disabilities Act, the list goes on and on like the Eveready Bunny. I also have their own legal documents which proves them culpable of all the above as well as many photographs.

By the way, the recordings can be admitted since they were not taken surreptitiously but were made with the express permission of Nico and Julia. Julia owns the management company that is supposed to "protect" us. However, she breaks HOA laws left and right at the request of Nico. Is she getting any monitory payback from him for doing this? That part, I do not know.

Yes, it's Jackie Chan and Bruce Lee time the legal way. I hope to see all of them behind bars for what they've done and I do this on behalf of what they did to Buddy, Styx and mostly what they did to Alex because I did not get him back and gawd only knows what they did to him since they did try to have my doggie and kitty euthanized. I rescued them just in time. Hey, I paid Ida good money to care for my babies those three days while I was away due to my house being tented and I was staying in a hotel room that did not allow pets. Oh yeah, they are going down.

Jon, bless you for your response and thank you so much for letting me vent the rage I feel. Yes, I know now that it's okay to feel rage about what they did to my fur and feather kids. I feel sure that God (or insert the deity of your choice) understands.

Many Kind Thanks, Blessings and Hugs.
Always, Dottie xoxoxox

I am relieved that you took it as supportive. As you may have read on other threads, I once had an animal friend abused. She had to have titanium splints in her broken leg, then the kid broke it again. She did live to be 23.
Hopefully the kid, who as usual went on to abusing humans, may not have.
I have never forgiven myself for not "remedying" the situation. I would have saved Society a lot of suffering and expense.

Always remember the "EBay Rule" in the future. When someone wants cash, or its equivalent such as Western Union....RUN AWAY.
Or ask them quietly, "Who knows you are here?" It scares the ---- out of them.

These things are beyond our human capacity to forgive.
There is a Marine expression that addresses situations like these:
"Only God can judge. It is our job to arrange the meeting."

What utter despicable foul contemptible trash these people were. People or humans mean nothing to them.
I would never comunicate with the filth except through the lawyer. I would never meet with them without some kind of representation physically present.
(Unless there were no witnesses and it was far out in the country... Bring a shovel.)


And THIS is after I have had all day to quiet down.

I apologize to more peaceful people about the tone of this post, which may not belong on a healing site. But having an animal abused changes one. There is something so outrageously offensive to me about someone who has contempt both for animals and humanity, that 3000 years of civilization just evaporates, and indignation, revulsion, and a demand for some kind of justice and accountability cries out. Who could not read this story and be unmoved?
These animals were obviously loved by someone. It would have been obvious to an idiot, but these people could not be bothered to care.

OMG! That poor animal friend, Jon. I do not blame you in the least for feeling such rage! I agree completely that being witness to animal abuse changes one. I was in Animal Rescue and Rehabilitation for over 26 years and ... I can't even begin to tell you but I'm sure you're already aware. Terrible. Horrible. Most Heinous. Unspeakable.

Yep, I sure know now to question someone when they require cash, especially when that person may not be in this country legally. No, I don't know for a fact if Ida is an illegal immigrant or not but it's possible taking into consideration her thick accent and appearance. Hey, that could be why no one would give me her last name. address and the phone number I finally dragged out of her turned out to be a cell phone number. I feel like such an idiot and oh so guilty. I do. Why didn't I question that? Yes, I am still torturing myself because there were those red flags and I could have prevented any of this from happening. Alex, I'm so sorry! Thank God I got Buddy and Styx back in time.

Jon, I appreciate your advice very much and promise that's exactly what I'll do! (Oh, and I have a shovel handy, too. Wink and Nudge.)

I don't know how to do quotes in here but you state: "Having an animal abused changes one. There is something so outrageously offensive to me about someone who has contempt both for animals and humanity, that 3000 years of civilization just evaporates, and indignation, revulsion, and a demand for some kind of justice and accountability cries out."

Amen to that! It reminds me of one of my favorite quotes by St. Francis of Assisi: "If you have men who will exclude any of God's creatures from the shelter of compassion and pity, you will have men who will deal likewise with their fellow men." So true and your account about your animal friend and that kid is just one example.

No apologies necessary, Jon. Isn't the expression of anger and outrage many times part of the healing process when one has been so devastated by such a loss and their other fur kids were abused? Hey, we're human. They are not. Humans are not capable of such unconscionable acts against poor, defenseless, loving, trusting souls who have kind and gentle minds. Humans cannot do those things so I call those abusers Monsters. That's just what they are.

Please, try to calm your troubled mind for a while, Jon. You are so dear!
God Bless You and Semper Fi!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

I shall. We are taking Iggy camping later today. He loves the motorhome. Just a couple of days off.
He gets to be the Only Cat, and is smug.
I am like a cat. Hissing one minute, purring the next.

That's wonderful, Jon. I hope you all have a great time with Iggy. Awww! I love the name Iggy. So precious and adorable. No doubt like Iggy himself.

Sending Tons of Hugs to You and Yours!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Dearest Alex, I wish so much that Monster Nico had not returned your cage and nest box 5 days ago.

It was difficult enough looking at the empty stand which your cage fits into. Now I keep thinking you'll come out of your nest box at any moment and start talking with me.

My most cherished beloved Alex, truly I Miss and Love You Sooooo Much!!!

Always,
Your Loving Mama Dottie xoxoxoxoxoxox

Hi there, Alex. "HELLO! HELLO! HELLO! HI! HI! HI! WHAT ARE YA DOIN? WHAT ARE YA DOIN? WHAT ARE YA DOIN? WHAT ABOUT THAT? WHAT ABOUT THAT? WHAT ABOUT THAT? GIMME KISS! GIMMIE KISS! GIMMIE KISS! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! WANT SOME? UN HUN! UN HUN! UN HUN! I LOVE YOU! MUAHHH! I LOVE YOU! MUAHHH! I LOVE YOU! MUAHHH!"

Sweet Alex, I wanted to say "HELLO!" And to tell you that I am finally thinking about maybe perhaps getting another feather kid. Ohhh Nooo, ain't no way any other feather kid in the entire universe could ever, ever, ever replace you, My Most Cherished, Beloved, Bestest Friend in the Whole Wide World! But there are some injured feather kids out there that need some tender loving care. Please come visit me in my dreams if you're able and tell me what you think about that, my most precious Alex. Okay? "OKAY! OKAY! OKAY!"

I LOVE YOU! MUAHHH!!!

Always, Your Loving Mama, Dottie xoxoxoxoxoxox

My Dearest Most Cherished and Beloved Feather Child Alex, next month on October 16, 2007 will mark year number one that you did not return home to me. Yesterday, I emailed 3 organizations going into great detail regarding what happened to you and begged that they Please, Please, Please launch an investigation since I've hit a brick wall and all I've begged so far who do have the authority to do something don't even bother to care. I explained to them that they are my last hope and please help us!!!

Today, I began once again listing you as lost on all the Lost Pet Internet sources I can find. Here's a link to your Craigslist ad that I posted ...

http://tampa.craigslist.org/hil/pet/828943656.html

I got the first reply very fast and I do believe this person is mentally challenged. Please, no offense to all of us out there who are mentally challenged but hey, just take a look at the ONE line response I first got:

First Email Reply: "What are you asking for the bird"

Not an intro, no question mark, no sign off, and evidently no brain. I wanted to say that but I was kind and responded the following ...

"I'm sorry but I do not understand your question. He is my lost bird. I am disabled and he is my actual companion animal. So . . .

Are you asking how much the $$$$$ REWARD is?

Please respond and I will let you know. Thank you and Blessings!

Dottie

PS. Better yet, please feel free to call me at 813-932-0255"

Nope, I didn't hear back. At least not yet. We shall see just how much of an idiot that person is for pity's sake especially after reading not only the subject title to my ad but the ad itself. Doh.

The second email reply was so dear! It is as follows ...

Second Email Reply: "I am so sorry to hear about Alex. I know how you must feel because I have a double yellow head amazon and she flew away too but we were lucky enough to get her back after 2 days. She flew way again and was only gone a couple of hours. By your phone number it sounds like your around Waters Ave. somewhere. So what I'm about to say to you may or may not be of some consolation to you but there are hundreds maybe even thousands of Quaker parrots in your area and they all look alike unless someone got close enough to see his scruffy feathers.

Hopefully he will do like my bird did and start talking to someone and they notice him and he flies down to them because he is hungry. My bird was VERY hungry when I got her back.

Yours may have found a girlfriend and they will teach him what and where to eat. But I would try putting his cage outside so in case he's around, he will recognize his cage and come home to it. I know Zephyrhills is kinda far and I don't know how long your bird has been missing but I was at my moms house out there last weekend and there is a Quaker that is eating out of her bird feeder and it seems to have been tame at one time. I got about 4 feet from it while it was eating and it didn't seem to be afraid. I lifted my hand which had some bread from my sandwich and it flew away but has been hanging around her house. I wish you the best of luck in finding Alex. I'm sure he misses you too!!

Luanne"

Wow! How very dear of her. I wrote back and here is my response ...

"Dearest Luanne, I am so pleased that you got back your beloved yellow head amazon both times she flew away.

Please, can you tell me more about the Quaker at your Mom's bird feeder? It sounds like something my Alex might do. He's been missing since October 16th, 2007 and I've put listings in every pet finder source online since it first happened. I began with Craigslist first.

The sad thing is that he may very well have been kept by the caregiver, sold, taken for a ride and thrown out a car window or the most probable thing that happened is that he was murdered since the caregiver tried to have my Buddy dog and Styx kitty killed and I got to them just in the nick of time to rescue them.

Still, there is that glimmer of hope that he was tossed out the door and took off. I do know and have seen the many thousands of Quakers in their "family condos" that they build. Lots and lots at The University of Tampa and other smaller (but still large) condo type nests that they do build all over this area.

Thank you so much for you thoughtfulness, kindness and caring so much that you wrote to me.

If you want to see Alex's story, please go to Lighting Strike Pet Loss Pet Loss forum to read about it. It is gut wrenching so do NOT go unless you feel you can bear the pain, Dear One. Okay?

Here is the Link to the Main Board. You do not need to be a member to read, just to post and see the attached photos. Most, if not all, of my photos are not attached. Here's that Link ...

http://www.lightning-strike.com/forum/index.php

Under "Death and Dying" forum, here is the direct link to the many pages I have about Alex. It gets more and more interesting in the last couple pages as more evidence comes to light. And here is that Link ...

http://lightning-strike.com/forum/index.php?showtopic=4655

In the "Pet Memorial, Tributes and Eulogies" forum, here is the link to what I have so far ...

http://lightning-strike.com/forum/index.php?showtopic=4665

Remember in each of the above, there are "pages" you can turn by clicking at the bottom.

Thank you again so very, very much Sweet Luanne and God Bless!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox"

The third email reply was also very, very helpful indeed! Here it is ...

Third Email Reply: "KEEP CHECKING POUND THEY ONLY KEEP DOGS 1-3 DAYS NO MATTER HOW CUTE THEY ARE THEY WILL BE PUT DOWN...
POST ON:
WWW.PETS911.COM
WWW.FIDOFINDER.COM
WWW.PETHARBOR.COM
WWW.DOGDETECTIVE.COM
www.kijiji.com
check to see if chipped
checK SPCA
AND MAKE SURE IN ALL NEWSPAPERS
and if u found a dog newspapers will put an ad in for free ...
St. Pete and suncoast news 727-815-1000"

I had to respond to that! So I wrote back ...

Thank you!!! Thank you!!! Thank you so very much!!!

God Bless You!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Well, that's all so far, Sweet Alex. I do hear more emails coming in so will check them out. Hey, Miracles do happen, right?

I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SOOOOO MUCH ALEX!!!

Always,
Your Loving Mama Dottie xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

Dearest Alex, three more emails just arrived. Here they are ...

1. Reply: What area is he lost in? I will keep my eyes open for you,
Teresa

My Response: Dearest Teresa, he was lost probably in the Tampa Bay Area (close to either Waters and Armenia or near Busch Blvd.) but could easily have traveled many miles by now. I doubt that though.

Thank you Sooooo Much and God Bless You!!!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

2. Reply: Where was he last seen?

I'll keep an eye out for him, I would hate to lose my feathered baby.

My Response: He was lost probably in the Tampa Bay Area (close to either Waters and Armenia or near Busch Blvd.) but could easily have traveled many miles by now. I doubt that though.

Thank you Sooooo Much and God Bless You!!!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Then Teresa wrote back ....

3. Reply: I am in North Tampa just north of Fletcher I will keep my eyes open.
Teresa

My Response: Thank you a MILLION ZILLION, Teresa and God Bless!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Oh, Alex Sweetie, can you say Deja Vu to me beginning this all over again from the very first day you didn't come home? I have other Pet Loss Websites to write ads to also. Why didn't I get but only ONE response last year when this meant so much?! Oh, but this sure is heart warming!!!

I Love and Miss You Sooooo Much, Baby!!!

Always,
Your Loving Mama, Dottie xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

From My Mostest Preciousest Baby Feather Child Alex to Me With All His Eternal Love!!!

Dearest Most Precious Alex, please don't give up just yet. Okay? Don't give up yet reuniting with me whether it be in this earthly plane or Heaven Above. It is a Wonderful World to oh so many and if Happy Little Blue Birds Fly Beyond the Rainbow then Why oh Why can't I ... And You, too!!! I know you're probably already there but I promise to click my ruby slippers three times and join you just as fast as I can, my Most Beloved Feather Child. I remember how much you love this song sung by Eva Cassidy but I wanted to surprise you with what I know you'll also enjoy a whole bunch because it's so upbeat with lots of rhythm for you to get down and do your happy dancing!

Your Mama Loves You Sooooo Much My Sweet Baby Boy!!!

With Many, Many Thanks and Utmost Gratitude to:

Christine Henry, M.S., NCC
Purdue University

I only just found her post in the "Pet Loss Support Resources and Articles" forum in the wee hours of the morning today.

Please Click Here!

Christine, God Bless You Most Abundantly, Dear One!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

I do believe I may very well now go to scream bloody Hades, cry like a tortured wounded canine or primate and possibly throw myself on the floor, roll around and pull at my hair. Sounds like a plan to me and I highly recommend it to others who are so devastated and in so much grief, anguish and pain ... Except for the pulling your hair out part. Please, don't do that. Here I go >>>>>>>

PS. GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU DEAR, WONDERFUL, CARING, LOVING, COMPASSIONATE SOULS!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Okay, I'm back. All better now. Thanks everyone!!!

Hi there Precious Alex. I came by today to tell you, "Don't you worry about a thing because every little thing is going to be all right!" See for yourself my Sweet Baby Boy. What a darling video with little Connie Talbot and her friends having such a great time on vacation in Jamaica during her family's Easter holiday. Look at all those butterflies! I Love You Sooooo Much Sweet Baby Boy!!!

My dearest Dottie, I have just read your post (sorry it took so long but not up to it until now) You poor soul my heart goes out to you this is simply horrific what they have done to you and your babies I hope they get whats coming!
If it is any consulation I had a horse kidnapped once then 5 years later on a drive 300 kms from home we found him in a field with no explanation to how he got there ! I dont want to get your hopes up but dont give up looking you just never know
Please take care many hugs to you . Warren ******************xx

And I Really, Really Mean It Including the Song!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Dear Sweet Alex, in four days it will have been a 11 months since those 3 monsters did that to you. Please know that your Mommy is going to be just fine so don't worry in the least, Okay, darling baby.
In fact, I brought you something that I know will make you laugh so hard and reassure you that I'm gonna be A-Okay. Hey Alex! Our good friend Jackie made this very video just for you to enjoy.
So Boogie Down and Have a Blast with The Monster Mash!

Dearest Most Cherished Alex, I am the Warrior Angel and I promise you that I am Searching the Entire Planet for you and for The Truth! Angels move the Heavens and the Earth and the Sea! Hang in there Sweet Baby. Mommy is Gonna Make it Happen. Amen!

I Miss You and Love You Sooooo Very, Very Much!!!

AngelCareOne, thanks for your words again, that is so nice of you. I just finished reading your last posts to your sweet and beautiful Alex and my heart goes out to you and understand your pain and like I said it before I feel it like my own, I am sure Alex knew the special kind of Mom he has [allow me to say it in the present time] believe he knows and some how he encourages you to write to him this way a very unique way like only you know how and when, you know exactly what to say, that tells me he is all over you fliying and dropping so much love for you everywhere you are, thanks again good friend, Jorge Click to view attachment

Dearest Jorge, God Bless You Most Abundantly!!! And you are right. Alex is here with me at this very moment. I came to sing him to sleep as I always did every night when I tucked him into his nest box. Here is one video that Alex loves tons and tons! I'm going to tell him something now. Okay, Jorge? Here goes . . .

Hi, Sweet Baby Alex. I came to sing you to sleep and share the video you loved so much. Remember my Precious Feather Child it is true that "When you Wish upon a Star Makes no difference who you are Anything your Heart desires will come to You!" All ya gotta do is Believe and you know your Mama always told you the truth. So you just Believe!

I Love You Sooooo Much!!!

Well, Sweet Baby Alex, today is 11 months on the nose when were to be returned to me. Please don't be sad my Most Precious Feather Child. Remember it is true that time can be transcended and you are here . . .

Somewhere In Time! I will travel through time today and be with you as we are and have always been. Alex, some things were just meant to be and you and I are one of those things. I'm on my way right this moment to see you Somewhere In Time my Most Beloved Baby Boy Alex. Here I come . . .

Oh Man, Alex and Doh on me! This is September 14th and it was October 14th when ya didn't come home. Mommy got mixed up. Do ya forgive me, Sweetie? Awww, thanks Alex! You're so nice to your "doh on me" Mommy. Can I have a hug please? Well, that felt great! Pssstttt, I'll go fix that other message I wrote to you and make the correction.

Love ya to bits and pieces, My Wonderful Feather Boy!

Always Your Loving Mama, Dottie xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

Dearest Most Cherished Alex, "I Hear your Voice on the Wind! And I Hear you call out my name! I am the Voice of the past that will Always Be! I am the Voice of your hunger and pain. Answer my call, and I'll set you Free! I am the Force that in Springtime will Grow! I am the Voice of the Future! I Will Remain!"

Thanks for posting that - you find such healing songs - so filled with reassurance and peace...

thanks from Alex and from me.

Jan.

{{{{{Jan}}}}} You are so very welcome! But Ut Oh. Alex just spoke with Ziggy and Ziggy told Alex for me to get this over to your thread quick fast and in a hurry cuz Ziggy wants You to have this, too! Get ready cuz here it comes ...

Big Hugs and Lotsa Love to You, Ziggy, Zita and Zeus from Me and Alex, too!!!

Your Pal Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

hey Dottie-----Not to be pushy,but just droppin by to make sure your cool.Didn't hear from you today(don't mean to sound possesive either) Just hope your ok and all is as well as can be expected considering the reason we are on this forum in the first place--------virtual atcha later----------Bub...........(remember him on "My Three Sons? I think I'll start wearing my pants up to the middle of my chest like he did)--------

Dearest Dottie,
I so think your rage is justifiable---people who abuse animals are dispicable, low-lifes who really have no right to inhabit this planet. Your story breaks my heart and fills me with rage. I pray that you get your just revenge. People who don't love and cherish animals are SOUL-LESS!
With care,
Mikki

Dearest Bubba and Mikki, thank you both so much. This is the very first time in days that I've turned on my PC and I came directly to this safe haven.

Yes, Bubba. I remember. You are a hoot and thanks so much for caring about me and your support to me and my fur and feather kids in this time of your sorrow and need. I guess I gotta learn to listen better to that song, "Lean on Me." You know the words, right? Bless you, your dear wife and fur kid Willy! I'm so sorry I haven't been here for you, Dear One. I hope you know that you and all here have been in my thoughts and prayers. Of course you know that. Thanks again, Bubba!

Thank you, Mikki and Bless you, too. I truly appreciate you validating my feelings of rage about what was done to my fur and feather kids. Thank God I got to Buddy dog and Styx kitty in time due to the one monster being so ignorant as to not remove their current tags when she took them to the pound as strays and tried to rush them being euthanized. This raised a major flag in Dana's mind at the pound so many miles away so she played along getting Ida to fill out all the paperwork, get her photo ID and so forth. Then Dana got on her computer, used the information on my doggie's and kitty's tags to lead her to me which is when she did call me on the phone on October 16, 2007 ... The very same day that Ida brought my Buddy dog and Styx kitty to that pound. Bless Dana, Bless you and Bless all of you!

To Omarmommy: I owe you an apology. Marcie, I'm pretty sure there's a PM from you that I've not answered yet. Please forgive me. I will get to you. No, I'm not ignoring you, Dear One. My gosh, you are so very, very dear as is everyone here.

To Ann: I haven't looked at any of those dream Websites but I feel pretty sure I know what that "barricade" in my dream represents. Possibly others have figured it out or will figure it out by the end of this message. God Bless you, Ann!

To: Jan, Jorge, LoveThem, Ann, Bubba, Mikki, Marcie, Warren, Chris, Deanna, Sissycat, Jon, Liz, Dele, Corina, Suzanne, Laura, Christine, Michelle, Moon Beam, Belle's Mom, Meens, Mark, JKay, Beth, Jools, Brittany, Mickimom, Nemo's Mommy, Candy's Dad, Victoria, Janet, Lynsey, Gizmo, AppleCat, Daisysmom and all the rest of you and to our new arrivals ... I am so sorry I have not been here for you all. Indeed, you and your precious fur kids have all been in my thoughts and prayers.

And, to my most cherished beloved baby boy Alex: Mama is so very sorry. Buddy dog and Styx kitty both got sick throwing up a few days ago. They're fine now but both appear quite depressed and I don't blame them. Mamma has felt physically sick as well as depressed, sorrow, grief, guilt, and more about what was done to my fur and feather babies. I've tried to go into denial and put my mind in a safe place but that doesn't last very long.

Denial of those feelings does a great injustice to your memory, Alex. It also holds me back from what I need to do to get to the bottom of all the lies, find out the truth and put three monsters behind bars. Gosh knows I have enough evidence. Oh, that evidence may have nothing to do with what happened to my fur and feather kids but it sure is enough to put at least two people behind bars and get a fourth person fired from a very high ranking position which that person has betrayed at the request of Nico time and again. Hey, any port in a storm and ammunition is ammunition to make them all pay for what they did to my fur and feather kids.

Mama has not been strong. I was told by my internist physician that the gosh awful physical pain I have most of the time is due to stress and anxiety and I wouldn't believe him. Instead, I insisted my aches and pains are because of me being so overweight due to the thyroid nodules that no doctor will treat with suppression therapy because of this stupid mitral valve prolapse of my heart which is about as significant as a benign freckle on the skin. True about my mitral valve prolapse and my tiny frame wasn't made to support all this weight. Well, the aches and pains do come and go depending upon the level of stress I am experiencing so my internist must be right. Hey, many times I can walk just fine without using the cane while other times ... Let's just say, I don't get around very well.

Still, I need to allow myself to feel and express what I'm feeling or what use is it of me being here and what use is it to my sweet boy Alex? I must learn to lean and I shall. I'm still jumping through all kinds of hoops to get help here at my home dealing with the terrible anger and rage that I feel as well as the sorrow, grief and devastation stemming from what was done to my fur and feather kids but I ain't gonna give up and am gonna get that help and plow ahead. Heck, if I have to get to that office again, then that's what I have to do.

Dang. There used to be a very old comedy show called Life 'O Riley where I watched reruns and I recall whenever the main character played by William Bendix would say, "What a revoltin' situation this is." Then came the laugh track. However, I know this is nothing to laugh about no matter how hard I try to put a spin on it to make it seem more cute, or make myself appear stronger or this whole situation look any less hideous than it really is. And that's what it is: A gosh awful terrible horrible situation. What happened is betrayal ... Several cases of unconscionable acts of betrayal to my fur and feather babies and to myself by those three monsters with a hand from the fourth who will not go mentioned at this time . . .

I'm getting tired now so again, God Bless All and more later. Thank you for your kindness, support, more ... Thank you for understanding me not being there at this time. I must better learn to do what everyone else here is doing. You guessed it. Here's the song . . .







Thank you so much to Everyone and God Bless!!!

Alex, I Miss and Love You Sooo Much!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Dottie--I KNEW something was wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!!You are takin care of all of us here while you are suffering mentally AND physically!!!!!!!!!! JUST TAKE A BREAK NOW THAT WE ALL KNOW THAT YOU HAVE SOooooooooo MUCH TO DEAL WITH.We all want you to be well.Just say "I'm OK " and sign off.We will all know that your chillin till you get better.That stress thing has got my guts in a physical twirl everyday since Willy passed.My B.P. is high and I can't have a drink to chill as I don't drink anymore(course I don't drink any less either!!!!!!! BAAARRRRRRRRRump Bump!!!!) Hopefully God's little tranquilizer will be legalized in our lifetime----ear----
Prayers about to be sent upstairs for you buddy-----------Bubba................

Awww Bubba, I really can be a strong and "cranky old git" as one of my friends called herself. Hey, last time I was here typing a message, it was about 3:30 AM and Buddy dog started barking outside. Mind you, Buddy dog will bark at ducks, possums and the odd paper bag floating by but I could tell this bark was different. I went outside in my back yard, yelled out, "Who's there?! Someone's there and you'd better speak up!" Bubba, it was so dark. No lights. This frail male voice said it was him so I asked him who he was and he said his name was Wayne and that he was a friend. I said I don't have any friends named Wayne especially at 3:30 AM stalking around in the back with no lights and all the crime that's been going on here. He said no. He was visiting one of my friends. I asked him what is my friend's name? He stammered. I yelled out again, what is my friend's name that you're visiting or leaving at this hour? He just stammered, apologized ... Heck, he was scared. I told him I was sorry but too much crime has been going on in the back of our townhouse complex so for him to be careful ...

Dang, Bubba. That guy could have been one of the bad dudes with a gun. Oy. How stupid of me to do what I did but I felt ticked off like someone was messing with my Buddy dog. I did say God bless to the fellow before he left and he said God bless to me. The next day is when Buddy dog started throwing up. (Actually later the same day.) Styx kitty throws up every now and then so that didn't surprise me but Buddy dog throwing up? Oh No. I thought he may have been poisoned and yada, yada, yada ... Buddy is fine and so is Styx ...

Bubba, you poor dear!!!!!!! I sure wish the other was legal, too. However, I am deathly allergic to it myself but am a huge advocate of it being used for medical purposes and such. Gee, let's move to Amsterdam where all that stuff is legal! (BAAARRRRRRRRRump Bump!!!!!) Bubba, you gotta take care of yourself, Hon. What would your dear wife and other fur kids do without you? Are you taking anything for your blood pressure? For that stress? Oh My Goodness, Bubba ...

Thank you so much for your prayers and you know that I'm sending up prayers right this moment for you and yours!!!!!!!

Tons of Hugs and Lotsa Love and Peace to You, Your Dear Wife, Fur Kid Willy and all the Rest!!!

Your Pal Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Yah Mon-------How do you say BAAARRRRRRRRRRump BUMP in Dutch? I am taking Lisinopril.And it has worked well for years.It's just that Willy's passing has hit me especially hard and just a couple of times it spiked after a particularly hard crying session.But 99% of the time the average is 120/70.So i am ok and the REALLY INTENSE crying sessions are subsiding.Just a few unannounced 'regular' jags as the days continue to pass.Hopefully my wife would take a long overdue vacation if I 'KACKED'. You take care of yourself too.....ok? Get yourself one of those 'Life of Riley' hammocks and have a good snooze!!!!!!!
Take care.......Bubba...........

By the way it might be a good idea to get a light installed in your backyard.Post haste!!!!!!!!!
Bub.................

One more thought-------Get BUDDY DOG an oversized George W. Bush mask for halloween and beyond.That along with your new backyard light would scare the crap out of anyone.Or better yet a Sarah Palin mask with an optional velcro-affixed semi-automatic rifle.Just in case your in the mood for Moose stew.
BUB..............

Bubba, I know what you mean. There are times that the big time screaming and crying has helped me sooooo much but a couple times (or more?) that I could hear my heart beating very loudly in my right ear which is not my good ear. I knew it was my blood pressure. Once, it got so bad that I did dial 911 to have them send the paramedics. When the paramedics got to my home, I started crying to please not let me die until after I got justice for them killing Alex. I could tell my BP was down by the time they got here cuz my heart beat in my right ear was less intense. Still, I ain't gonna tell ya what it was cuz Oy. I was so sure I was going to stroke out and die before I had time to get justice done for my fur and feather kids ... The guyze were kind and assured me that my seizure medication would help and I'd be okay without going to the hospital. I went back inside the house, took my medication, lay down with Buddy dog and Styx kitty and ... Well ...

So I do know what you're saying, Bubba. PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOU!!!!!!!!!! Keep up with your Lisinopril, don't miss a dose, do allow yourself to cry and cry and cry cuz ya gotta let it out!!!!!!! And ... Hey, you can get one of them Life 'O Riley hammocks and chill out, too ... In Dutch ... In Amsterdam where the stuff is legal. Oh "BAAARRRRRRRRRRump BUMP" is an international language, Bubba. Yep, it is. *Smiling at You.*



I do have a light right outside my back door up against the wall. The bulb had burned out. I have two bulbs in the car port where I'd be parked if I did have a car anymore. Something has happened to that light fixture. I'll look into it. Probably the last time someone smacked at it when they stole or brought back a stolen car and parked it in one of my two spaces. Hey, when I had a car, it was broken into twice and stolen once pretty soon after I got it those many years ago. Great car and she served me well for almost 20 years before she went to car Heaven. Bless that car. I miss her. Oh, they found my car 3 days after it was stolen in a grocery store parking lot with a bashed in fender which probably happened with the thief or thieves tried to back it out of my parking space. It is tricky and ya gotta know what you're doing to negotiate that turn.

I also have motion detector lights on the wall up high on the other side of the outdoor back wall that my late hubby Kenny had put there. Bless him!!! I think they still may work but need the bulbs changed. I do have a handy man and will call him about that. Thanks, Bubba!

NOW YOU TAKE CARE OF YOU!!! And do all I said to TAKE CARE OF YOU!!! Okay? Okay? Okay!

Tons of Hugs, Love and Peace to You, Your Dear Wife, Fur Kid Willy and all the Rest!!!

Your Pal Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Yes Ma'am I will.Calling that handy man(Is it Emmett from the old Andy Griffith show? Hardy Har Har!!!!!) will make Kenny and me happy campers.
God bless you pal-----Bubba
P.S. Google.....Ram Dass for tapes and books.Particulary the audio recording of his lecture called 'Seasons of our lives' It got me through college when I was drowning in mental illness and severe panic disorder.He is a former Harvard professor who gave up everything to study in India back in the 60's when he and his colleague,Timothy Leary, were thrown out of Harvard because of their experiments.In fact I just listened to it today.Incredibly comforting and brings things into focus.Alot of the ideas I posit on this site are direct quotes from him.People like Wayne Dyer,Eckhart Tolle and Deep Pockets........OOPS........I mean Deepak Chopra are mere regurgitaters of his work.Ram Dass is quite old now and is incapacitated because of a stroke and is basically broke.All the money he made through the years he gave away to humanist foundations.To him though he is working out his Karma.I have read all his books(and countless others) and have listened to the 'Seasons of our life' recording at least 500 times.No kidding........

Oh Dottie

Sorry to hear about Buddy and Styx and the weird guy in your backyard. And I hope you are feeling better.

I really, really want peace of mind for you - I so empathize with your pain. I have some thoughts on this intense and heavy experience we call "life" and I will try to post them soon.

I think the one thing we can do for each other, which you are very good at already, is to reach out. It means so much and is the one thing we can do...

I hope all of you are feeling better and I wish you peace, peace, peace. I wish I could bring Alex back to you.

take care

Jan.

Hardy Har Har!!!!! Nope but close. His name is Scott Marshall and his brother Jeff Marshall does the bigger stuff. Still got that Andy of Mayberry feel about 'em though. *Smiling at you!*



Oh Wow! Will do and thanks so very much, Bubba!!!

More Big Hugs, Love and Peace to You and Yours!!!

Your Pal Always,
Dottie xoxoxox