I'm not really certain if I'm in the correct forum but given all the background and facts, it appears most certain that Alex was murdered. Was he sold? That's believable. Was he given away? Perhaps. Was he murdered? Well, I got to my Buddy dog and Styx kitty just in the nick of time before they were euthanized as strays. It is very believable that Alex was murdered. What is not believable are the stories that I was fed as to what happened to Alex because, scientifically speaking, it defies the laws of Physics ergo is impossible to have occurred on this plane of existence. Ummm ... Please forgive my tears. I will tell all about what happened but first, I want so much to speak with my Alex.

Alex - May 1, 1993 to October 16, 2007 Having had a life expectancy of around 40 years.

Dearest Alex, "Once I had the rarest rose that ever deigned to bloom. Cruel winter chilled the bud and stole my flower too soon." You're that rarest rose, my most cherished Alex. My heart beats for you and bleeds for you so still falls the rain.

I promised you that I'd always be there to protect you and keep you from the cold. I failed. Please forgive me! But, now "the floor of Heaven is laid with stars as bright as gold; They shine for you and burn for all to see!" I know you can't come back and set my spirit free but your spirit is free and that's what matters most. I Love You!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vhG8zC4npsE

Alex, I truly thought I'd see you again. But "the plans they made put an end to you." I should have known. There were so many 'red flags' and I didn't see them. If only I had known then what I know now. I would have never let them take you into their "care" and none of this would have ever happened. I'm so sorry!

"Won't you look down upon me, Jesus? Will you help me make a stand and just get me through another day? Yes, my body's aching and my time is at hand so I don't know how I'll make it any other way. You know I've seen fire and rain and sunny days that I thought would never end." Even though I'm alone, I've never in my life felt lonely until I lost you, Sweet Alex. I miss you so much!

You're the very best friend I've ever had both human and animal. I can still remember our simple conversations, your funny, mischievous little pranks, your laughter and your tears. I remember the last words you said to me over and over again as you kissed me loudly, "I Love You! I Love You! I Love You!" Alex, I Love You, Too!

I just always thought I'd see you at least one more time again ...

http://youtube.com/watch?v=-T35WXFOmwI

Dearest Alex,

"Sorry I never told you all I wanted to say. And now it's too late to hold you 'cause you've flown away. So far away ...

Never had I imagined living without your smile. Feeling and knowing you hear me. It keeps me alive. Alive!

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven like so many friends we've lost along the way.
And I know eventually we'll be together. One Sweet Day!

Picture a little scene from Heaven.

Darling I never showed you. Assumed you'd always be there. I took your presence for granted.
But I always cared! And I miss the love we shared!

Although the sun will never shine the same again. I'll always look to a brighter day.
Lord I know when I lay me down to sleep. You will always listen as I pray!

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven like so many friends we've lost along the way.
And I know eventually we'll be together. One Sweet Day!

Picture a little scene from Heaven.

Sorry I never told you ... All I wanted to say ... "

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wxauhK-sn2s

And Alex, "Who can say for certain maybe you're still here. I feel you all around me. Your memory's so clear.
Deep in the stillness, I can hear you speak. You're still an inspiration. Can it be ...

That you are my Forever Love. And you are watching over me from up above.

Fly me up to where you are beyond the distant star.
I wish upon tonight to see you smile! If only for a while to know you're there.
A breath away's not far to where you are.

Are you gently sleeping here inside my dream? And isn't faith believing all power can't be seen.
As my heart holds you just one beat away, I cherish all you gave me everyday!

'Cause you are my Forever Love watching me from up above.
And I believe that Angels breathe and that Love will live on and never leave!

Fly me up to where you are, beyond the distant star!
I wish upon tonight to see you smile if only for a while to know you're there.
A breath away's not far to where you are.

I know you're there! A breath away's not far to where you are."

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fIAQCiMIEEQ

Most Precious Alex, Thank You for the very best 15 years, 5 months and 11 days of my life. Mere words cannot even begin to express how sorry I am that your life was cut so short. You were so very dear, sweet, loving, playful, intelligent, compassionate, trusting with such a kind and gentle mind and soul. You did not deserve what happened to you.

All three of them are now being held accountable for what they did, Alex. I promised you'd have earthly justice as long as there was one breath left in my body. That's what friends are for. Best friends! As for Heavenly Justice? Well, that's not my call but I'm sure that God will take care of it.

I'll meet you at the Rainbow Bridge, Alex! Until then, play, sing, dance, talk up a storm and have lots of fun. Party on and Be Happy! Okay? I Love You My Best Friend, Constant Companion and Feather Child!

All My Love Eternally,
Your Mama Angel xoxoxox

In case someone is reading this and wondering what happened to Alex, he was ... Am I allowed to say "murdered" on this board? Alex was most likely murdered. He may have been sold, given away or taken for a ride and tossed outside the car window. Odds are that he was murdered.

I live in a very small townhouse community consisting of 3 buildings with six two story houses in each building. Even though we share a common wall, these are houses and I do own my home.

All three buildings of six houses each were tented for fumigation on 10/12/2007 so the occupants and/or residents needed to be gone until October 14, 2007, when we were allowed safely back in our homes.

The HOA (home owner association) president of over one year found a hotel where I could stay. That was the first 'red flag' that I missed. I'll explain if you care to hear but him finding me that room was a big 'caution' and I didn't see it.

The "new" management company owner who I did not know and had never met phoned me to tell me she had found a lady who would take care of my doggie, kitty and parrot for the 3 days that I'd needed to be gone. That the charge would be $100 and it must be cash and not a check. The management lady refused to give me the caregiver's last name and address so I tried to get it from the caregiver when she came to pick up my pets and the management lady drove me herself to my hotel room on Oct. 11, 2007.

It was pretty chaotic and both the caregiver lady and the management lady kept changing the subject whenever I tried to get a last name and address but I did get the caregiver's phone number. It turned out to be a cell number. Here we have 2 more 'red flags.' One is that they both refused to give me the caregiver's last name and address and another 'red flag' is that the phone number turned out to be a cell phone number. I suppose yet another 'red flag' would be that the $100 had to be in cash, not a check and the management lady told me I needed to give it to her while she checked me into the motel room using her own driver's license and signature.

Why did she insist I give the cash to her and not the caregiver lady and why right then and not after I got my pets back? I sent everything with each pet that they would possibly need or desire except for the water. I'm serious. Everything.

Why didn't I scream right then, "Stop! Wait, a minute. You say you know the caregiver and vouch for her but I don't know either of you and take me to my fur and feather kids right now!" But, I didn't do that. Alex, I'm so sorry! I did call the caregiver lady twice a day from my hotel to see how my doggie, kitty and parrot were doing. I was mostly worried about Alex parrot so the hotel owner was kind and let me use his cell phone twice a day during my stay since the rooms didn't have phones, there was no phone within walking distance and I've never even owned a cell phone.

When it was time to come back home on October 14, 2007, I was to meet the caregiver lady as she promised to deliver my pets back to me. It was around 6:45 PM and still light outside when I got back home only to find that the management lady and caregiver lady were inside my home and the place looked like it had been bulldozed. No, not a mess. It was cleaned up and clean out. Oh My Gosh.

I didn't want to make any waves since my pets weren't there and caregiver lady continued to haul stuff out of my home while the management lady told me that caregiver had cleaned my house for me and I "should" give her more money. By the way, the caregiver lady does house cleaning for a living.

When I asked where my fur and feather kids were, the caregiver lady said she needed help transporting them, that she'd take care of them and bring them to me the next day.

On October 15th, the caregiver lady gave me the same story that she needed help transporting my pets and promised to bring them to me the next day. I did express great concern. This was a very sweet, nice lady with a really cheerful lilting voice and disposition but of course I was concerned.

When I called her the next day (Oct. 16, 2007), I finally reached her in the early afternoon and she gave me the same story. Okay! At that point, I was way more than concerned since no one would even tell me where she lives so I can make arrangements to get my pets and bring them home.

A little over an hour after my call to the caregiver lady on Oct. 16, 2007, I got a mystery call out of nowhere. A female asked me if my name was .... Yes, that's me. Then she asked me, "Do you have a dog named Buddy and a cat named Styx?" I began shouting. "OMG! Are they all right?! What happened to them?! Where are they?! Who are you?!" The lady was very dear and said they were both fine and were right there. Her name was Dana and she was calling from the county pound located many miles away and not the one close by.

Note: I'm not saying any of the three culprit's names even though they have been charged and it's a matter of public record set for trial. I just don't know if giving those names is allowed here. Back to where I was ...

Dana further explained that the caregiver lady was positively identified as the person who brought in my pets, said they were strays, filled out papers okaying them to be euthanized (killed), they had copies of photo ID and so forth. Fortunately for me and my fur kids, the caregiver lady was too ignorant and didn't think to remove my dog's and cat's current tags which led them both right back to me. Dana is a real Angel. Bless her!

I did not know that Alex parrot was not at the pound until I got there myself the next day to bring them all home. One of the responding police officers had assured me the evening before that Alex was also there. I fell apart and became hysterical in public at the pound since Alex had never even been there. So unlike me but I sure did scream like a banshee. I even went into physical shock within a short time after that (within a week or so?) and had to be treated.

The three culprits tried to feed me different stories as to where Alex was. They couldn't even get their stories straight. That was it. Enough! I had to make more than one police report since some of what they did was felonious and other things misdemeanors and civil matters.

Note! I left out a TON of things trying to be as brief as possible and I sure hope what I've said so far will help others out there to never, never make the horrible mistakes I did.

I have one piece of tangible proof that he did NOT fly away as the story told by the caregiver lady when compared to the story told by the management company owner lady leaves a two day "backwards" wrinkle in the time/space continuum. How can Alex be fine, well and living elsewhere TWO DAYS AFTER he flew away and was lost? Like I said, it defies the law of Physics.

Also, birds will escape through open doors and windows of houses and vehicles. Most birds will. NOT Alex. No way, no how. And I do have witnesses. Alex was terrified of the outside and to go anywhere near the front door or the back sliding glass door even when they were closed.

If you happened to have Alex on your shoulder and even walked near the front door or the back sliding glass door, he would squawk in terror! "Home! Home!" That's what he called his cage. He would fly "home" faster than imaginable, book it inside his cage and then into his nest box. There he would stay until comforted, soothed and his fears allayed. It had been that way from the very beginning.

No. There is absolutely no way possible that Alex would "intentionally escape" through an open door or window of a house or vehicle taking into consideration his tremendous fear of being anywhere near a door or window even if closed. I know. Others have witnessed the same. So ...

That's all for now. Thank you for listening.

Always,
Angel xoxoxox

This has got to be the saddest thread I have ever read since coming here. I can only say that people who call themselves human beings who do these kinds of horrible and cruel acts have to one day account for all they have done wrong to a much Higher authority than any they will find here on earth. There is no plausible explanantion for anybody to give that could even begin to help me understand why these things could ever happen.

You said this happened last October. Is trial nearing? Are Styx and Buddy doing well? Maybe the lady decided to steal Alex for herself or sold him. I would think a parrot so smart as Alex is in somebody's possession.

Please tell us more about Alex when you can. There is always a hope that he is alive and well elsewhere. It has to be very frightening and painful for you not to know his whereabouts. But God knows where Alex is. Ask Him to keep his watchful eyes over Alex and keep him safe from all harm. Sometimes miracles do happen.

Keep coming and sharing with all of us. It is by sharing and caring about each other through our exchanges with each other that we find peace and acceptance again.

May you be blessed with the comfort of His touch as you struggle to find a way to rest your mind and heavy heart.

Hugs of comfort from my heart to yours,
Beth

{{{{{Beth}}}}} Many Bright Blessings to You! I'll try to answer all your questions as best I can.

Buddy dog got over his stay in the pound fairly quickly (about a couple days) and he's fine. Thank you. Poor Styx kitty (named after the band and not the evil river) took a lot longer to get over his abduction. He's okay now though. Thank goodness. Poor Styx kitty mourned for Alex for weeks to about ... I'd say just short of 3 months or so ... When Alex didn't return. They were great friends. Buddy appeared unaffected and I am grateful for that.

As far as "those three" ... I still cannot bring myself to call them "people." They are not human. Humans are not capable of such unconscionable acts against poor, defenseless, trusting, loving ... and so forth ... Animals. Please pardon my skipping as I talk. It's so hard to talk. Thank you.

As far as the lady stealing Alex for herself, she did in fact ask me several times to give her my Alex because she and her husband loved him so much. At first I was nice and I was still nice when I told her she was out of her mind. THAT is my COMPANION animal as well as my heart, my soul, MY LIFE! No, I am not exaggerating.

Objective experts who did not know me nor Alex agreed that he had the intelligence, reasoning ability (cognizance), emotions, personality, behavior, speech and so on as that of a "Normal Four to Five Year Old Human Child." If you had held simple conversations with him, you would know, too. He really blew people away. So, you see, Alex had many human attributes and only used ONE phrase as a "play phrase." The rest of what he spoke, he knew what it meant and that's what he wished to communicate. Amazing and precious! OMG!!! I miss him so much!!! Sorry.

I had hoped and prayed and hoped and prayed some more that Alex was/is still alive due to "her" wanting him so badly ... Then it all went BAD once I found out about her taking my pets to the pound which I PAID HER CASH to take care of for the three days I'd be gone. The three "monsters" (as I refer to them) had a pow wow and "made plans."

I finally did get an attorney in March of this year as I don't have the funds but ... He is expert in HOA law as well as criminal law and oh so dear! A little less than 30 days ago, all three were served with "Remedy for Civil Theft" charges and they have absolutely no idea what other charges are still pending to be served upon them. I did find out that they are trying to get the Home Owner's insurance to pay for "their mistakes" with me ... as they put it. They wish to settle out of court? Sure! Just give me Alex and I'll "walk away" from all the rest of their felonies, misdemeanors and civil matters. Just give me back my Alex.

I have photographs, tape recordings, written records and more as tangible proof that the HOA (home association) president is oh so guilty of several crimes against me pertaining to the US Disabilities Act, US Privacy Act, he has misused HOA funds for his own benefit, he's broken several more HOA laws, the list goes on like the Every Ready Bunny.

I HATE to do this! I am a "walk away" person. Whenever anyone says or does anything gosh awful hideous to me, I prefer to choose the path of least resistance, put all their crimes behind me, stay in the present and be Happy! But NOT NOT NOT when it comes to children and animals. I looked into the sky and swore to Alex that he would have earthly Justice even if it took me the rest of my life and as long as I have a breath left in my body.

Beth, Alex was my world ... I kid you not. My world! Please excuse CAPS as I don't know how to do bold in here.

I'd like to share just a bit of his vocalizations with you if you don't mind? And later, if you care to hear, I'll tell you exactly how he knew the meaning of what was being said to him and what he was saying ... Within his vocabulary, of course.

Okay, since I'm crying so hard, let me copy and paste what I put in some ads when I was searching for him. It made me feel less helpless and like I was accomplishing something. Well, here's some of Alex as I posted a plea on CraigList ...

"Quaker Parrot. Alex. Male. Green with blue flight feathers. About the size of a large ##atiel, but has much stockier build. Feathers scruffy at shoulders. Talks clearly, large vocabulary, kisses, 15 and a half years old. Very friendly. Loves to have head and face petted and scratched. And so much more. He is my Best Friend, my Feather Child, Constant Companion and My Life!!! Please See Photos At The Bottom ...

REWARD!!! Unfortunately, I am disabled and cash poor. Alex is my Companion Animal as well as my best friend, constant companion, my feather child and my life! But, I do have a 14 K gold ring with diamonds and emeralds. Anyone who finds Alex can have it! It was a gift to me many years ago and has no sentimental value. I was there when it was purchased and many years ago it sold for over $400. I'm certain it's worth much more now. Also, I'll look around to see what else I have that is of monitory value but not sentimental and ... Whoever finds him can have it all! You have my word on that.

Kissing noise or sound then "I Love you!" and repeats it several times. "What are ya doin?" "What about that?" Even though most all his speech is very clear, he pronounced his name like this: "Owek." And "Oooowwwweeekkkkk" "Common. Common Owek." "Hello." "Hi!" "Bye Bye." "Good bye." "Stop it." "Shut up." (the shut up is a very, very funny story and no, I never told him to shut up and he did not learn it from me. lol) "Don't do it." "Cocoa!" And "Common Cocoa!" "Wake up!" Before and after "Wake Up!" He would click his beak on the top of his nest box trying to imitate clapping sound. Then there's ... "Mama." "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry!" ... "What!" "Okay!" or "Ok." "Want some." "Go Home" and different variations of "I'm going home" which was his cage and nest box.

His favorite play phrase appeared to be: "Be a duck. Be a duck. Quack, Quack, Quack, Quack, Quack." He did not quack like a duck but did say the word "Quack" at those times. Then there's "Ut oh!" He usually would make his crying sounds after the Ut Oh but not always.

Kissing sounds, Crying sounds, Laughing, Coughing, small burp/beltch sound if he heard you burp/beltch. ***Important: "Uhn Huhnnn!" (meaning yes) "Un Unnnnn!" (meaning no) He Loved to go back and forth with me making the yes sound and him making that no sound repeatedly And the short and dear "Uhn Hun!" (meaning yes)

In lower, sexy type voice, "Hello baby." And same with, "He's my baby, baby, baby" "I'm a baby, baby, baby." Or just, "Baby, baby, baby" ... Those all followed the sexy "Hello, Baby."
Unfortunately, and this made me so angry, many years ago my brother thought it would be fun to hear my feather child Alex curse. It only took a few times of repeating at that One occasion and ... Alex picked it up. Yes, I told my brother off big time after Alex started saying, "Son of a Bi**h!" and "F**k You!" I would NOT even mention what I just did but Alex does use those words when he means it so it is a very important way to identify him. So sorry about that.

He does say, "Kenny" sometimes clearly and sometimes it sounds like a drawn out call sounding sort of like this: "Kidddnnnneeeeee! Kidddnnnneeeeee!" There's MUCH MUCH more but I do believe I've touched on the most important. Again many thanks to you! Oh, Alex would occasionally say, "Thank You!"

He has "habits" and "routines" that would also identify him if you wish to know and his favorite song is Lullaby of Broadway. He tries to sing but it sounds like a death moan. Oh dear but true. Poor thing. At least he tried and it was beautiful to me.

Distinguishing Characteristics: Feathers are "scruffy" at the top of both wing 'shoulders?' where his wings meet his body when at his side and not extended.

He did break a leg completely in two when he was about 3 months old or much less. The x-ray looks like a tooth pick broken into two pieces. He healed so well that most people would not notice him standing differently or his "gait" when walking being different. That would need to be pointed out to a lay person. But, any x-rays taken would reveal that past injury and is like a finger print.

Medical Issues: He was perfectly healthy and never sick one day in his life. Some people don't even notice the scruffy feathers at the top of his shoulders that I mentioned but they can very clearly be seen by anyone.

Thank you! Please contact me on: 1-***-***-***x at Graigslist Website"




***Hi, it's Angel talking again here. I'd like very much to share "Alex Memories and Experiences" here so that he will live on in all who read about him and tell others and they tell others ... Oh, you will be amazed and astounded at Alex's brilliance and awesome capabilities.

Thank you so much for letting me talk. It means the world to me. I ... I need Alex and he needs me if he is still alive! Thank you!

Always,
Angel xoxoxox

Angel,

What an outrage! I don't know how some people sleep at night or look at themselves in the mirror. It's comforting to know that human justice is going to take a hand in this, but just as Beth said, there is a higher power. I hope to be there to see it when that judge, brings down the gavil.

I can only imagine how sick at heart you must be. I think, not only would I have lost it in the pound, I would still be losing it. You seem to handling things better than I would be. I can only join my prayers for Alex to yours. Wherever he is may the Angels lend him their wings.

My heart goes out to you,
MY thoughts and prayers are with you,
Dayna

{{{{{{{Dayna}}}}}}} I put up a very good front because I cannot bear to be "pitied." I did go into physical shock early on (very different from "emotional" shock) for which I was treated. After that, I had two nervous breakdowns and I am a very laid back, rational, logical, nice lady. That ain't me. I suppose they were "nervous breakdowns" as I've never had one in my life.

The first break down lasted approximately four weeks or a couple days less. I had "delusions" ... "Acute psychotic episodes." This is so embarrassing to admit. Oh My Gosh! No, I am not psychotic in any way, shape nor form. I served wonderfully as a nurse and Animal Rehabilitator for over 27 years before I became disabled. Not to brag but I was very good at what I did.

So, when I had those "acute psychotic episodes" it was terrifying. Well, mostly it was very, very frustrating due to the nature of the daily episodes. During both breakdowns which lasted approximately 3 to 4 weeks, all I did was take care of Buddy dog, Styx kitty, lie on the sofa, go to the bathroom and ... I had a tiny bit to eat and drink on occasion. I spoke to NO ONE! I would not answer the phone, the door, no one.

My brother tried to talk to me on the phone once during one of my breakdowns and the only thing that I could say to him was ... "Tony" ... pause ... "Go Away!" I kept repeating that because I couldn't speak any other words. Tony knew then that I was dying as some do die of grief. BUT! From the very first day this nightmare began, I have never, ever for even one moment been suicidal. Gospel truth. I HAD to stay alive and make certain that Alex got justice. Legally, of course.

There's more but I'll stop for now. I would like to share the song, video and photo that I chose to pay Tribute in Loving Memory to Alex. It's from the movie Casper (as in Casper the Friendly Ghost). In that video, Casper is SO MUCH like Alex that it's uncanny. Also, the song is perfect.

God Bless You All Most Abundantly!

Always,
Angel xoxoxox

I'd say in addition to grief, and fear for your baby, and I would venture to add, total loss of trust in humanity, you have suffered post-traumatic stress disorder. People dimismiss that...only if they've never experienced it. And they don't know how easily it can happen to them. But, I have , and I do.


The more I read your post the more suspicious I am that your Alex was kidnapped and sold. I'm sure I don't have to tell you what a high price a bird like that would bring. And it seems to me they went to a great deal of trouble just to kill him. If Alex is out there, I pray he's in tender hands.

More later,
Love Dayna

Oh! {{{{{{{Dayna}}}}}} I too have PTSD which began when I was six years old. I can completely empathize with you, Dear One! You are in my thoughts and prayers and I do NOT just say that. You are, Dayna.

I hear what you're saying about Alex being sold. All three "monsters" (1 man and 2 women) are very, very greedy and money hungry. Too bad for them that I'm poor and money "don't mean nothin' to me." In other words, I cannot be bought even if it were trillions and trillions of dollars. I swear to you, I speak the truth and all who know me do know this has always been.

So, they are greedy. Alex as a "pet" would be easily worth $5,000.00 due to his capabilities. If used for research as pertains to interrelated species communication, it would depend upon how much the "organization" was willing to pay or how much the US government was willing to provide as a grant. Having done research on that, it would be anywhere between $12,500 and $50,000 but most likely, if the givers were generous, it would be around $25,000. BUT! And please pardon me but I'm gonna kind of shout this out again ... BUT! Not one of those three would consider that, in my opinion. I pray I'm wrong but I do base my opinion on all that I know about them. I don't know "tons" about them but I do know a whole lot.

Therefore, it would surprise me if they sold him but I'm not psychic and, once again, they sure are money hungry. Oh Please, let him have been sold and ... Sorry. Oh heck. Doncha just get so annoyed when people say "sorry" all the time. Gee, I wonder where Alex got that phrase. Yep, from me.

I hope no one minds and I'd like to take the rest of this post to pay Tribute in Loving Memory to Alex. Like I previously stated, this video, song and image ... All are so perfect ...

Please, watch Casper in this video. See his expressions, body language, surprise, joy, sadness, playing hide and go seek, touching hands, waving hello, his curiosity, so much more, right down to kissing me to sleep every night. That *IS* Alex. Well, I'm speechless ...

[quote name='myhrtisbrkn' post='39398' date='Jun 18 2008, 10:30 AM']The more I read your post the more suspicious I am that your Alex was kidnapped and sold. I'm sure I don't have to tell you what a high price a bird like that would bring. And it seems to me they went to a great deal of trouble just to kill him. If Alex is out there, I pray he's in tender hands.quote]

The only thing that makes any sense is that Alex is alive somewhere. These culprits would not have been able to give you Buddy and Styx back without producing Alex. They were cowards who could not face you and had a selfish and greedy motive.

Don't lose hope that Alex is alive even though you don't know where he is. Eventually the authorities will get to the truth of what happened and his location.

I send you hugs of comfort my friend,
Beth

{{{{{{{Beth}}}}} Many tears and most of them in much relief and gratitude to hear what you've told me. Bless You! Please do remember that the caregiver lady, instead of returning Buddy dog and Styx kitty to me, took them to the county pound far, far away (not the one close by), is positively identified as having been the person who took my fur kids there, stated they were "strays" (I do have the paper work), signed the okay to have them both euthanized, killed and did try to put a rush on it ...

Let's call her "Ida." When Ida brought in Buddy and Styx making such claims, my Angel there Dana noted immediately that both were wearing current tags. Well, no. Buddy was wearing his tag on his collar when Ida brought him in and "Ida" handed Styx's tag to Dana. You see, since Styx is an indoor kitty, I do not put a collar on him but always (as with all my other kitties) put their current tags in a special drawer in the kitchen should it ever be necessary to produce it. Sorry to be redundant but once again, Buddy was wearing his collar and current tags and "Ida" produced Styx kitty's current tag separately ...

This raised a major red flag to wonderful Dana at the pound so she "played along" to get 'Ida' to fill out all the papers, produce photo ID and so forth especially since she was actually "Requesting" that both be euthanized (killed) at the first opportunity.

Remember I did pay Ida $100 cash to care for Buddy, Styx and Alex for those three days that I was away. What I am about to say is truly NOT intended to sound like I am speaking in anger. Please know this is true. Here goes. Ida is a very, very ignorant person. I don't know if she's "stupid." That's very different from being ignorant. The other two: Let's call the home association community president "Nico" and the owner of the management company "Julia" since it's so much easier to say a name instead of typing a long drawn out title.

So, Ida has every appearance of being tremendously dear, loving, compassionate with lilting voice always but she is indeed a very ignorant person ... And certainly not well off. On the other hand, Nico and Julia are very educated, smart, wealthy and all three of them are quite money hungry. Both Ida and Julia are "followers" if it will benefit them. Nico, on the other hand, is extremely wealthy, fools many/most people with his bogus charm, he is an, "I want what I want when I want it which is now and I always get what I want because I know how and it matters not who is hurt as long as I prevail."

Okay, so you have some very basic personality traits regarding each of the three parties. What you do not know is ... I'm not sure if I'm allowed to say it in this message board community as I MUST protect the owners of this haven. Let me think of how to word this. Got it. In the movie based on the cartoon Dudley Do-Right (I don't know if you've seen it), the villain Snidely Whiplash comes to town, sees an opportunity to take people's homes from them by making them feel the want or need to leave. Snidely Whiplash buys up the entire town (oh, he makes his wife a real estate agent, too), owns a monopoly even though it really isn't in the best neck of the woods so to speak. He ... you get the picture? It is a very good an-alogy. (*Edited here to make that word printable.)

Snidely Whiplash is the "ring leader." Ida is just the "man with the van." Kind of like: "Don't shoot me, I'm just the messenger." Julia may or may not be "on the take." I do not know and I only state fact as fact and speculation as speculation. Oh, I'm sure you've heard that before but believe me: I am a "bad liar" which means ... I am so very, very bad at lying unless it's for a surprise party or to compliment someone when I really don't care for their outfit type thing.

What I hope I have put across is that Snidely Whiplash does not like me and has not since soon after he arrived here. If you wish reasons, I will give them. Snidely has been harassing me for over a year breaking many laws governing the US Disabilities Act for which he could be incarcerated. I knew this each time and, as always, I "walked away." Others however have not been so fortunate. But THIS TIME IT IS MY FAMILY! Snidely, the "ring leader," made a fatal mistake. Alex. Even since I did get Buddy dog and Styx kitty back, I STILL would have "walked away" since there is a God and "She" is Good! Angels breathe! But my Alex. His mistake. Big mistake. So, this is the 'WHY" that I did NOT "walk away" as I always have in the past. In order to see that Alex receives earthly justice as I looked into the sky and swore to him, I will now level ALL CHARGES.

Again, please pardon the CAPITAL LETTERS. I promise I am not shouting. Hopefully, I'll figure out how to do BOLD print in here. The CAPS are for emphasis only.

Now, you know the kind of "monsters" (I still cannot call them people) with whom we are dealing. Since Snidely Whiplash is "obscenely wealthy" and knows little or nothing about parrots, Alex specifically, and since I am painfully aware of Snidely's personality, it is very easy to see him snapping my Alex's neck without blinking an eye. Truth. Julia is not as wealthy but knowing her personality, it is very easy to see her also killing Alex IF and I repeat IF "given the word." As for Ida, I do not know but do not believe that she would kill Alex.

This is turning into a bit of a novel so I'll stop here for now. Besides, I cannot see my PC monitor at this point. Gee, I wonder why.

Beth, I send you my utmost gratitude and many Blessings! Believe it or not, even having shared all that I have written above, YOU HAVE GIVEN ME HOPE!!! THANK YOU!!! THANK YOU!!! THANK YOU!!!

Always,
Angel xoxoxox

PS. I have been preparing a very, very significant post which I pray will bring comfort to all here. It (the post) is finished now and I'll post it next. PLEASE SEE MY PS. QUESTION AT THE BOTTOM OF MY NEXT POST. I LOVE YOU ALL!

REGARDING: VIRTUAL "LIGHT A CANDLE" AND IT IS FREE TO ALL ON EARTH ...



Hello to all you very kind people and those in so much grief and pain. Please know that I have indeed been sending healing thoughts, Angels and lighting candles. Well, it can be pretty dangerous sometimes lighting so many candles in real life in your home considering that you may be out of that room, have small children or fur or feather kids that could possibly be harmed. Please let me share with you a Website where you can "Light A Candle" online at anytime you wish and for any reason you wish. It's free and you may light as many candles as you desire as well as leave your thoughts, wishes and of course prayers. Here's the link ...

http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/enter.cfm?l=eng

It is a loving and lovely experience. The link above takes you to the main page of the site. There you can choose whatever language is best for you and then continue. PLEASE share this link with all you know and for any reason they may have. If you do fill in your initials and state (optional) when it comes to that part of the journey, there is a "Search" feature at the link I've given above so you may return to your candle (or "group candle") any time you wish to meditate, pray, cry, it's completely up to you.

Again, this is all FREE to light as many candles as you wish and as often as you wish.

NOTE: Each candle you light lasts for 48 hours as it "burns" virtually so you may want to keep tabs.

Do forgive my CAPS again since I don't know how to do BOLD in the message board community. I am about to write in CAPITAL LETTERS for emphasis and promise you that I am NOT shouting ...

PLEASE SPREAD THE WORD ABOUT "LIGHT A CANDLE" ONLINE, THAT IT IS FREE, THAT YOU AND EVERYONE MAY LIGHT AS MANY CANDLES AS OFTEN AS YOU WISH, YOU MAY SEARCH AND FIND YOUR CANDLE TO SIT OR STAND TO MEDITATE, PRAY OR AS YOU DESIRE. FOR YOUR FUR OR FEATHER KID, FOR A LOVED ONE, FOR YOURSELF. IT IS A VERY LOVING AND LOVELY EXPERIENCE. HERE AGAIN IS THE URL LINK TO THE "LIGHT A CANDLE" Website ...

http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/enter.cfm?l=eng

May you all be Blessed Most Abundantly and many Angels Wing to you all for comfort at your great time of sorrow. May one day, and TAKE YOUR TIME TO GRIEVE ... Again, may one day your pain be replaced with only the fondest of memories which, at this time, only serve as hurtful reminders.

I have been reading here and wish so much to talk with several of you. I pray that I can find my voice and do so soon. Until then, you are all indeed in my thoughts and prayers no matter "the deity of your choice" in which you find comfort. May Angels comfort and soothe you in your time of sorrow. May they watch over you and your beloved fur or feather child always to guide and help you through what must be just about the most gosh awful, difficult time in your life. May Loving Angels bring you Peace!



Many Blessings To Each and Every One of You!
Always,
Angel xoxoxox

IMPORTANT PS. Could someone please tell me if it would be considered "spam" or "bad form" to make a separate post and include all the above information for those who could really, really use it right now? Thank you!

Pet Support Resources and Articles would be a great place to post this wonderful site you have brought to my attention. Anything that lends support and healing to another is always welcome.

I do remember that you said Styx and Buddy were on the brink of euthanasia when you found them. That is why I said I believe Alex IS still alive. No way could this woman only bring two back to you without exposing herself. So she had to cover her tracks and take a cowardly and cruel way out.

My prayers still stand in that Alex is alive and well somewhere. It may take alot of time, but you will get the answers you seek so desperately my friend.

Much love to you,
Beth

Oh, Beth! That makes PERFECT SENSE! Oh, THANK YOU!!! Tears! THANK YOU!!! BLESS YOU!!! I carry HOPE in my HEART!!! I cannot stop THANKING YOU!!! Ummm ... Please forgive me becoming so emotional but I feel certain you all understand and ... THANK YOU, BETH!!!

Beth? I have a dumb question. Could you please tell me where this "Pet Support Resources and Articles" place is located? Is it on this Website? If so, I can find it and will post the "Light A Candle" Information right now!!!

And, Beth? Did I say THANK YOU?!!!

Perhaps not later but I pray later as well, but RIGHT NOW, I LOOK TO A BRIGHTER DAY!!!



Always,
Angel xoxoxox

It is the third section of this website. You can see it on the main page where all topic sections are listed. In answer to your thankyous to me...........You're welcome! I'm so glad to hear you a little more upbeat and optimistic.

May your angels stay near and carry you in safety and love. Have faith they are watching over Alex as well.

Hugs my angel friend!
Beth

{{{{{{{Beth}}}}}}} 'Sorry' to say 'Sorry' again but ... Sorry about being so late in responding to you. Poor Styx kitty needed to be held, petted and kissed so what's a Mom to do? #Smile!#

Tons of Hugs and Love!!! I'm on my way RIGHT NOW to make the "Light A Candle" post where you've directed me! Again, Thank You, Dear Friend Beth!!!!

Here I Go!!!



Many Bright Blessings!
Always,
Angel xoxoxox

Dearest Friends, I wish very much to share something with you that has brought me many happy tears. I pray, wish and hope it will bring you some small comfort in this terrible time of your sorrow, grief and loneliness.

Even if you don't have sound but are capable of viewing videos, it's still very much worth watching and will warm your heart. This video is of animals from all over the world. Most were rescued from abuse, abandonment and shelters while others are simply very friendly wild life.

It's a loving and lovely video with the song "Bless the Beasts and the Children" by The Carpenters which begins a little more than 1 and 1/2 minutes into the video.

Please click on The Rainbow Bridge image below with your volume turned up and Bless the Beasts and the Children!



Many Blessings to Each and Every One of You With Tons of Hugs and Much Love!

Always,
Angel xoxoxox

Thanks again Angel. First thing this morning I watched and listened again to "Bless the Beasts and the Children." As a result, it set the perfect mood for bringing in a wonderful and meaningful day.

Hugs,
Beth

{{{{{{{Beth}}}}}}} I am so glad and Bless You!

I just put a little something in your mailbox for you and "I Mean It From The Bottom of My Heart!"

Special Delivery for Beth ...



Many Bright Blessings!

Always,
Angel xoxoxox

"Keeping You Posted." Here is a copy and paste of the email I sent to my lawyer just this morning. If you would like to see the actual notice that was served, please let me know and I'll copy and paste it here, too. I know you wish to be kept up to date as to what is happening so that is why I'm keeping you dear, compassionate, loving people informed. Thank you so much for caring!!! Here is the copy and paste of the email BUT! I am LEAVING OUT my lawyer's and my email addresses for obvious reasons. Big Hugs! On with this morning's email to John (that is his real name) ...

"DEAR JOHN, THE NOTICE OF REMEDY FOR CIVIL THEFT WAS SERVED TO THE THREE PARTIES ON MAY 23, 2008. IT IS CLOSE TO THE THIRTY DAYS IN WHICH THEY HAVE TO RESPOND.

JOHN, I AM GOING TO TAKE OUT A LOAN AND ... PLEASE PARDON MY FOUL LANGUAGE BUT I WISH TO NAIL THOSE A-HOLES GOOD AND PROPER FOR EVERY CRIME THEY HAVE COMMITTED. I KNOW THAT I DON'T HAVE TO TELL YOU BUT ... THIS IS ALL ON BEHALF OF SEEKING EARTHLY JUSTICE FOR ALEX.

I UNDERSTAND THAT THE CIVIL THEFT TRIAL WILL BE FIRST. AM I CORRECT? IF SO, I AM POSITIVE THAT WE SHALL PREVAIL. AFTER THAT HAS CONCLUDED, I WANT TO NAIL THOSE MONSTERS FOR ANY AND EVERY INFRACTION AND CRIME THEY HAVE COMMITTED BE IT HOA, US DISABILITIES ACT, US PRIVACY ACT, AND SO ON.

SINCE I HAVE NEVER TAKEN OUT A LOAN BEFORE, I DO NOT KNOW HOW LONG IT TAKES TO GET THE MONEY. TONY IS GOING TO HELP ME THROUGH THE PROCESS AND SAYS IT IS SIMPLE, FAST AND SO FORTH. SINCE HE HAS TAKEN OUT THESE TYPES OF LOANS BEFORE, I'M SURE HE KNOWS WHAT HE'S TALKING ABOUT.

JOHN, I KNOW YOU ARE VERY BUSY IN YOUR PRACTICE SO PLEASE BE HONEST WITH ME. I TRUST YOU. WILL YOU HAVE THE TIME TO DEVOTE ALL THAT'S NECESSARY WHEN LEVELING ALL CHARGES, FILING ALL SUITS AND LITIGATING? I DO NOT WANT ANYONE BUT YOU. YOU TRULY CARE AND ARE THE BEST!

PLEASE RESPOND WHEN YOU ARE ABLE.

BLESSINGS AND MANY KIND THANKS!

Always,
Dottie x x x

Angel talking again. The reason that the email is in ALL CAPITAL LETTERS is because John prefers it that way. So, no. I wasn't shouting.

Many Bright Blessings and Thank You Again Sooo Much for Caring and for Your Support to Me!!!

Always,
Angel xoxoxox

AngelCareOne, am so sorry for being a bit late to find out about what happened to Alex, it's really a shame, I don't understand how can do that to him and to you? My heart goes to you and him that my be messing you so badly, I wish I could say or do something for the two of you so both can reunite and be together again. Alex is so beautiful [and they know it] Sonner or later they will pay for what they did to you both, God Bless you and Alex whenever you are, you will be missed always, Buster and Jorge .

{{{{{{{ChibiStar}}}}}}} That's pretty much about the *biggest* reason that I didn't post John's (my lawyer's) last name nor email address. I feel just the same as you in that I would have been so very sorely tempted to hop the next jet, get myself over here and confront those three monsters. Ohhh, please know that this is very, very new to me in so far as expressing "anger." So, I do write poetry and draw because ... "Oh, Sush Up, Angel. ChibiStar understands and ya don't gotta defend yourself." Sorry about that Chibi but I felt the "need" to smack myself upside the head.

I have "in save" all correspondence between myself and John ... This email's tone is so very, very different from the others. Bless you and Beth and Dayna and ALL for giving me the courage and helping me find that "mean as heck" voice. Know what I mean? I think you do. Chibi? You mentioned "feeding those people some asphalt." Ummm ... May I watch? Kidding of course but THANK YOU, SWEETIE!!! THANK YOU AND BLESS YOU!!!

Okay, before addressing Buster and Jorge, I'm gonna do that thing that ANNOYS people so much. You guessed it. I'm gonna say "sorry" and here goes. As everyone can well imagine, I have not been sleeping (not even a nap) for up to 3 going on 4 days at a time, will then nap a short while, and then will start all over again. I ain't gonna tell ya about my emotional state during those waking hours because, as I've said before, I honest to gosh cannot bear to be pitied. I simply cannot. Here it comes ... I'm so sorry this response to you dear, wonderful people (Chibi and Buster and Jorge) is not what I REALLY FEEL IN MY HEART, MIND AND SOUL in expressing my DEEPEST GRATITUDE TO YOU!

You see, I only just woke up a couple minutes ago from one of those short naps, turned on my PC, came directly here and don't believe I'm quite awake yet. So, do expect a possible "edit" to this post once I have "inserted my IV of coffee." Of course, you know I really do not do "IV of coffee." I drink it just like others. OKAY, I AM RAMBLING AGAIN. Oops. Please, let me continue ...

{{{{{{{Buster and Jorge}}}}}}} Hey, you said "I'm sorry," too. Please don't be "sorry" for getting here when you did. I knew you'd come, Dear Ones. Yep, I did. THANK YOU SO MUCH for your Kindness and THANK YOU SO MUCH for your Wonderful compliments to my feather child Alex. Yes, tears are streaming down my cheek (the right one) as I type this to you both and Chibi.

You see ... Hey, I'm gonna go cry a bit more MOSTLY IN GRATITUDE TO ALL HERE FOR YOUR TREMENDOUS SUPPORT AT THIS HORRIBLY DEVASTATING LOSS AND THAT YOU ALL ... THAT YOU ... CARE! YOU UNDERSTAND!

Gonna stop now. Cannot see the screen. I will be back and probably edit this post since, as I'm sure you've seen by all that I've written thus far, this is the most EMOTIONAL post I've made. I will be SO EMBARRASSED about it after I rub all the sleep from my eyes and ... Gonna take a look around, have some more coffee and shall return.



I am so Gratefiul!

GOD BLESS YOU, CHIBI AND BUSTER AND JORGE!!! Ummm ... Either that or please "insert the deity" of your choice and again BLESS YOU!!!

Tons of HUGS and Much LOVE!

Always,
Angel xoxoxox

I read your story and it is just simply outrageous what happened. I am very glad you were able to get your kitty and dog back. I saw their pictures..no wonder you adore them...and knowing these very special ones..I am sure they both adore you back and are SO VERY GLAD to see you!

I am sorry about Alex...he sounds so sweet and special. I believe that miracles can happen ...sometimes it takes time but it seems with prayer...miracles somehow can become real.

I wish you a very special prayer that you and Alex are reunited....Take care and keep searching...it is too soon to stop.

I think too, as atrocious as it is, that the whole reason they went through this elaborate scheme was to sell Alex. A cat and dog are common pets, I think this is why they rushed to drop them off but a bird worth thousands is not common. Also, as agonizing as it is, a person who would spend good money on a pet generally speaking will treat it well. Again, I can imagine how unbearable this must be, but to break the law to get to a persons pets would almost certainly have to have a reason behind it.

I hope these people burn for this. You have already handled it far better than I would have, as my reacation would have been as swift as it would have been brutal. I pray you get the answers and don't give up hope yet, hopefully the stupid one will crack and squeal on the others. Miracles can happen, one member here and one of my best friends were each reunited with their cats years after they were separated by "chance." Hang in there...

Sarah (Oliver's mama)

{{{{{{{Love Them and Sarah}}}}} THANK YOU BOTH SO MUCH!!! I thank God I found you wonderful, caring, compassionate, loving people. Others are plain sick and tired of my tears even though it's just like it happened yesterday in my mind and I keep reliving the nightmare over and over and over .... But, "He's just a bird, for Pete's sake. Only a bird. Get a grip for crying out loud! There are millions of them out there so just go get another. Stop this nonsense and ..." You get the picture.

(By the way, Alex was actually $150.00 when I got him in 1993. The reason he is worth thousands now is due to his amazing capabilities which he learned over the years from my love filled training, from observing other people, animals, objects, television, music, the computer and a whole bunch he put together himself. What an amazing, precious and delightful Treasure!)

All of you understand the pain, anguish, guilt, grief and that it's there everywhere you are, in all your thoughts, in all you do ... You know because you are either there RIGHT NOW or have been there! I've done much research and found Websites that validate how you're feeling. Many doctors agree that losing a most beloved, cherished fur or feather kid is just as ... if not MORE ... devastating than losing a human you love so much. Even if that human is your Mom, Dad, brother, sister, wife or husband. I also felt such relief when reading case histories about people's reactions and behavior because I truly felt I was going insane.

Hey, does the above sound familiar? I'll bet it does to each of you who mourn and are so devastated.

Well, I'm being too emotional again. Gotta stop that because, as I've said before a few times, I simply CANNOT bear to be pitied and ... THAT IS WHAT IS SO GREAT ABOUT THIS SAFE HAVEN! You give support, advice, are genuinely interested, concerned, care and so much more ... But, you do NOT show pity. THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH FOR THAT AND BLESS YOU!!!

Okay, I'm going to change the atmosphere in here and share something with you that I put together in GRATITUDE TO YOU ALL! My hope, prayer and great desire is to put a SMILE on your faces! I did post this in the "Pet Loss Support Resources and Articles" forum so I sure hope this won't be considered spam. Here is what I posted there and worded almost exactly as follows ...

And now, a treat. I put this together myself. None of the parrots in the videos are Alex but the photo at the bottom is Alex. I chose that one because he looks like he's sticking out his tongue as if to say, "Neener! Neener!" Nope, he was kissing me. Hehe. Please Enjoy! I'll set this up just a bit. Here goes ...

Well, I decided that it would be oh so precious, cute, adorable, funny as heck and entertaining to set some Quaker parrot videos to this particular song showing the feather kids as babies and watching them grow. I sure do hope you like it and it makes you smile! Tons of Hugs and Much Love!!!






(Click Below) See How Big We're Getting!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4c992FylDSc...feature=related





(Click Below) Hand Feeding Time! Flappin' Wings Cuz Happy Happy Joy Joy!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CoZV_JC3MZ4





(Click Below) Growing Up And Plumage Filling In. I Feel Pretty Oh So Pretty! Ooo, Feeding Time, Too so Flappin' my Wings and Yummy!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8zlHbkYm5b0...feature=related





(Click Below) "I Wanna Drink. All Right? Okay!" Now, That's Telling Her. Hehe!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0niAeb0po5w





(Click Below) I'm Singing "Oh What a Beautiful Morning!"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kNQxnmRFa44...feature=related





(Click Below) "Je Parle Français! Svp Entretien Avec Moi?"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fOtTrlkvyQY...feature=related





(Click Below) I'm Singing "If You're Happy and You Know it and You Really Wanna Show it Clap Your Hands!"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fvf-XpHX05k&NR=1





(Click Below) It's Me Farting Just Like Dad. Ain't I a Stinker? Hehehe!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bqIgZJCNaXE...feature=related





(Click Below) I'm Singing "Supercallafagilistecexbeallidoshious! Even Though the Sound of it is Something Quite Atrocious!"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A8h_rO5CYQY...feature=related





(Click Below) "I LOVE YOU!"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HecoP8WMY9E




Always,
Angel xoxoxox

Having a gosh awful difficult time right now. Feeling so devastated and horrified. Much crying. Much guilt. Missing Alex so badly that I literally forget to breathe. Cannot bring myself to express anger about those three who took Alex so wrote more poems and chose images. Here is the first one and I hope and pray it makes sense to anyone who reads.

Dear Angel.

You never cease to amaze with your utmost enthusiasm and innermost feelings. These gifts you share with all of us uplift my soul and bring inspiration.

I know how much you miss Alex and it saddens me when I truly see how much you are hurting. Please know I keep you in my prayers.

There are still some of your videos I haven't watched, but I promise to watch them all. You have made an enormous change in my life by sharing your joys and stories of Alex. I actually started feeling just a little bit guilty because I haven't been spending the kind of time I should be with my own feathered love, Goofus. So I am sending a big "THANK YOU" for reminding me just how important the time is that I share with him.

Your Alex soars out there somewhere amongst all God's angels. I send you sweet dreams of him and all thank you for who and what you are.

Much love with warm hugs my friend,
Beth

Hey Alex, here's a song that always made you so Happy! In fact, it's this exact video. Remember how you'd be on my right shoulder listening and watching the PC monitor when I'd play it for you? Oh, how you'd laugh and make your "Happy Sounds" that I recall so clearly and can still imitate even now.
I wish I had those joyful expressions on a recording so you and everyone could hear it. Enjoy!

Dearest Alex, here is another lullaby you loved so much when I sang you to sleep. Listen and I shall watch you yawn and nod off to the land of mystical magical marvelous dreams as you always did in such contentment. I hope you like your picture and the images I chose to go with the lyrics, my most precious feather child. I Love You!!! Shhh ... Here's your Sleep Song, Alex.







Lay down your head and I'll sing you a lullaby. Back to the years of Loo-Li,Lai-Ley. And I'll sing you to sleep and I'll sing you tomorrow. Bless you with love for the road that you go.

May you sail fair to the far fields of fortune with diamonds and pearls at your head and your feet and may you need never to banish misfortune. May you find kindness in all that you meet.

May there always be Angels to watch over you. To guard you each step of the way. To guard you and keep you safe from all harm. Loo-Li,Loo-Li,Lai-Ley.

May you bring love and may you bring happiness. Be loved in return to the end your days. Now fall off to sleep. I'm not meaning to keep you. I'll just sit for a while and sing Loo-Li,Lai-Ley.

May there always be Angels to watch over you. To guard you each step of the way. To guard you and keep you safe from all harm. Loo-Li,Loo-Li,Lai-Ley. Loo-Li,Loo-Li,Lai-Ley.

Dear Angel.

Your gift of writing from your heart to Alex overwhelmes me. I have yet to finish all you have written and am going to copy all of them when I go to work on Monday.(If that's ok with you) You truly lift my spirits. There isn't one selfish thing in your nature. Every single one of your posts absolutely intrigues me.

As I read your posts you send to others in compassion and love, it tells me you really ARE one of God's most precious children.

Many warm hugs to you Angel from my heart to yours,
Beth

Angel.

I'm about to sign off for the night with a new lullaby to sing to my very aged kitty (the dogs don't care much for my singing )...and a smile on my face. Thanks to you.

Heaven bless you,
Dayna

Oh My Goodness! {{{{{{{Beth and Dayna}}}}} I feel so honored and ... Ummm ... Dang, I even stutter when I'm typing. LOL! Beth, of course feel free to use anything I write, any images I post, any songs ... Take them and put them wherever your heart desires. As I said, you honor me. And Dayna, you honor me too but it's my aged kitty that doesn't like my singing while my doggie does. Oh, memories of my Kenny telling me ever so often in concern for my last kitty, "Honey, please don't do that. You're hurting his poor ears." Hahaha! True and I kid you not. #Giggle!#

Okay, I'm speechless now and I always express myself so much better using images, songs, poems and the like so here goes.

Beth and Dayna, This is for You Both with Tight Hugs and Much Love!



Next, please click on the photograph below because I asked Stevie to call you and give you both a message from me. Are you near your telephones and ready to click on that photograph? All righty then. Hit it, Stevie!



And I Mean it From the Bottom of My Heart!

Your Pal Always,
Angel xoxoxoxox

PS. That photograph is a little over a quarter of a century old so I don't look nothin' like that no mo' at all.

Oh My Gosh! I found posts that I made about Alex both before and after he was abducted. If you're interested, please see below. I really want to write about my feather child here in this safe haven so that I may have those many posts in one place for me to read so please don't feel obligated to look. Honest. Still, here is what I've located so far.

Oh! I know where more is if it's still there. It's when I was expressing much concern about Alex mourning my late husband Kenny, missing Cocoa kitty and Trader (one of my rescued Greyhounds) dog when they passed away. Poor Alex was beside himself and still called out to them all many years later. Sometimes crying and sometimes as though he was playing with them. I'll see if I can't find that as well. Thanks so much for letting me write this "novel" to share and for my own benefit and ... Well, let me set it up a bit.

Here is the direct link to Ditto message board owned by my dear friend Julia (No! Not the "Julia" who is the owner of the management corporation of whom I've spoken and is one of the 3 culprits. This Julia lives in the UK and is so dear, sweet, loving, caring, compassionate and a darned good friend. Okay, the main URL Link to Ditto message board is ...

http://ditto.yuku.com/bditto

The direct URL Link to the "Furry and Feathered Friends" forum is ...

http://ditto.yuku.com/forums/19/t/Furry-Fe...ed-Friends.html

And the direct URL link to my posts and thread paying Tribute in Loving Memory to Alex is ...

http://ditto.yuku.com/topic/2776/t/In-Lovi...loved-Alex.html

Go to page two, Post #16

FIRST COPY AND PASTED POST:

Re: In Loving Memory of my Most Beloved Alex
(Posted: 26 Nov, 2007 2:31 PM UK time which is approximately a 5 hour difference)

Firstly, I wish to express enormous gratitude for everyone caring so much, being so dear and supportive. When I say that mere words cannot express the extent of all facets of the relationship between Alex and myself, that is the understatement of the millennium ... Perhaps the understatement of the ages.

I've asked myself several times and given much, much thought to the following question: "Angel, if you could choose between bringing back from the dead your Mom, your Dad, your missing Brother (whom I have been told by several police officers, detectives, private investigators and so on is 99.99% most assuredly dead), your Sister or your Late Husband Kenny, OR Alex, who would you choose?"

The answer is most emphatically Alex and for many, many reasons so please don't think ill of me for choosing a companion parrot over a family member or the best husband that ever, ever walked this earth. Again, I do have very valid reasons as to why I would choose to bring back Alex,

I mention this to let you know just how much a part of me that he was. But! When a person grieves for the loss of a loved one and does not eventually accept the tragedy, get on with their lives and have those fond, wonderful, beautiful, magical, humorous and more ... Memories to carry them through then that person is really grieving for themselves and not the one who died. It's a "selfish" thing so to speak.

Why do I say that? It's because the dead loved one is gone, at peace either in Heaven or no continuation of sprit ("lights out, batteries dead") or has gone back to the stars of which we scientifically really do physically possess properties that comprise stars, or ... Just or. So, if we continue to be sad, grieve terribly, cry a lot ... Then we are doing so out of selfishness (so to speak) because we miss them and want them back. See? We are really grieving for ourselves because our dead loved ones "don't know no better" or are in a far better place.

Rudo's post to me is most significant. "Fond Memories!" They are gone but all the experiences of good, bad or ugly still remain in our thoughts and we can reminisce all we wish ... And that's a wonderful thing indeed!

I'm putting together different posts of "Alex" memories that will have you laughing in stitches, some that will make you say "Awww, how Dear." Some will have you say "That little Stinker, Bad Alex" and all will positively astound you! It helps me so much to share all about Alex and I am eternally grateful to you all for allowing me to do so!!!

I have many Websites that I'll share. Ask Jacqui Stafford because all the information completely blew her mind. Wow!!! You will find that all the Websites (including those you find on your own) do agree that Quakers have the intelligence, ability to understand (comprehend and respond appropriately) plus uncanny ways communicating (letting their feelings, desires and so on be known), behavior, emotions and intelligence of a "normal" four year old human child! Isn't that amazing! Well, you'll see it's ALL true when I share with you all that I wish about Alex.

Okay, this post taking on the length of a novel as I wax rhapsodic. LOL. I again wish to express my tremendous gratitude to all of you with a special Thank You to Rudo. Thank you so very, very much for your response! So special to me! Thank you!

Lastly, Julia? In that PM, you said you had *already* deleted the post you made in this thread "giving me hope" after I responded to you that Alex is 150% gone and/or a 99.99% dead. You did agree with me emphatically. Sweetie, you forgot to delete that post. Would you please do that now? Hugs!

Many Bright Blessings of Love, Light and Laughter to All!!!

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Same thread as above and direct link is ...

http://ditto.yuku.com/topic/2776/t/In-Lovi...lex.html?page=3

Posted by me on 6 Dec, 2007 11:01 PM UK time - Again, there is about a 5 hour difference from where I am in the US.

In Loving Memory of my Most Beloved Alex Post #23

Well, let me tell ya, Julia. And, yep. He sure knew exactly what those words meant. I had my first retired Greyhound dog that I'd adopted when I met my late husband Kenny and we both got Alex and Tanzie together as babies. Maiden had bad nightmares but I was able to pet her, wake her, soothe her and pet her when she screamed in her sleep.

After Maiden died, Kenny and I adopted another Greyhound named Trader. Poor Trader had nightmares, too. I still remember the first and ONLY time I tried to pet him and gently shake him as I soothed him with my voice. He was still in a "sleep state" so growled and tried to bite me. Very unlike him so that's how I knew that Trader was not awake yet. After that, whenever Trader would have a nightmare I'd keep a fair distance and yell out as nicely as possible, "Traaaderrrr! Traaaderrrr! Wake Up! Wake up!" Here is where I would clap my hands as loudly as I could and keep talking. "You're having a bad dream! It's just a bad dream, Baby! Traaaderrrr! Traaaderrrr! Wake up! Wake up!" And, I'd clap my hands some more. Yes, I was shouting so Trader could hear me over his nightmare and wake up and that's why I clapped my hands as hard as I could. Poor doggie.

The first thing that Alex learned was to click (actually "pound") his beak on his nest box to imitate me when I clapped at those times. Then, Alex learned on his own from hearing me to yell out, "Wake up! Wake up!" Of course, he would click his beak on his nest box in-between every two calls of, "Wake up!" Soon, Alex learned to recognize when Trader was sleeping and having a nightmare due to the poor dear whimpering, crying or screaming in his sleep. That's when Alex, all on his own, would start shouting as loud as he could and very, very clearly, "Traaddderrrr! Traaddderrr! Wake up! Wake up!" Alex would use his beak and pound as loud as he could on his nest box to wake up Trader. Bless his heart.

Once Alex was certain that Trader was awake and looking at him, he'd say something like, "Hello, Traaderrrr! Hello. What about that? What about that? Okay? Okay?" In other words, Alex would try to say something "conversational" to Trader dog to make sure all was well. Alex was very, very Loving that way. He really was.

I'll bet you'd love to know how Alex knew what was meant by, "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." Sometimes, he'd say it louder than other times. He learned the words from me when I'd accidentally turn and smack him and feel gosh awful because I didn't see him. I'd snatch him up in my hands and tell him, "Alex, Alex, I'm sorry! I'm so sorry! I'm sorry! I'm so sorry!" From there, Alex learned by observing me, Kenny, other people, the television (oh yeah, they do pick up words and phrases from television) and put it together to comprehend that "I'm sorry" is an expression of regret, remorse or sympathy. And, that's how he always used that phrase, too. Amazing feather kid. It's pretty much the same way a 3 or 4 year old child learns the meanings of words and phrases.

Alex knew right away the meaning of, "Don't do it" ... And, he always used that phrase and other phrases correctly. He figured out on his own what "Want some" means. It didn't have to be just food either. If he "desired" something then he "Want some" or wanted some. He always said "Hello" or "Hi" as a greeting (until later and I'll get to that) and "Good Bye" but usually "Bye Bye" when Kenny or I or the both of us left the house. Once home again and walking through the door, Alex would begin with his, "Hello! Hello!"

As for the, "Hi!" Well, on occasion he would say "Hi" pretty loud to get my attention especially if I was on the phone. Ask Irene. LOL! It's like a small child pulling on your skirt and trying to get your attention. LOL! Next, I'll tell you what I always said and did once he was older and pulling a temper tantrum just for attention. You'll love that. Hehe!

So sorry not to have written back earlier but my PC bit the dust and I have indeed lost EVERYTHING and I do mean EVERYTHING in my files. Oy. Well, today is another day.

Later and Hugs!

NEXT POST: I made this post long before those 3 ... Did what they did. I was telling everyone about My Alex Feather Child. Here's the direct URL link to Ditto message board ...

http://ditto.yuku.com/topic/2826/t/My-Parrot-Alex.html

12 Jun, 2006 4:49 AM UK Time

Alex just turned 14 years old May 1st of this year and is REALLY smart! Quakers have the intelligence and emotional equivalent to a 4 to 5 year old human!!! Wow!!! I can actually carry a pretty intelligent conversation with Alex because he DOES KNOW the meaning of what is being said to him and he KNOWS what he is saying in response! Remarkable!!!

He loves to talk a LOT and does tricks.

Hmmm? What are some of Alex's favorite phrases? He says SO MUCH that I KNOW I'm leaving out a TON! LOL! But here are some ...

What are ya doin'?
What about that?
Common Alex
Common, Common
Alllllllleeeee******xx, Alllllllleeeee******xx
Mama
I'm Sorry, I'm so sorry!
Don't do it!
Stop it!
Please? Pretty Please?
Thank you!
Traaaddderrrrr .... Traaaddderrrrr
Cocoa. Cocoa.
Hi!!!
I Love You!
Gimme Kiss! (Then makes a kissing sound.)
Wake up! Wake up!
Hello
Bye bye
Good bye
Good Boy
Want some?
And, of course, a lot of conversations.

Ut Oh! Ut Oh! (Then he usually starts "crying" on his own. So cute.)
Tell him: "Gimme Kiss. Gimmie Kiss." (He makes kissing sound) Then say in slightly higher pitched voice, "Thank ... You!" (Still not in "baby talk.")

HIS FAVORITE!!!!
"Be a duck. Be a duck. Quack! Quack! Quack! Quack! Quack! Quack!"

All of the above, he loves to say over and over for about 5 to 10 times but the "Be a duck" thing, he will do a lot longer. LOL!

(Say in low sexy voice ...) "Hellloo Baaabbyyy" - he will repeat. Also does it on his own.

Make a kissing sound and say, "I love you" and he will do it in return. He also does that on his own. In fact, he does ALL of these on his own except the burping imitation. He'll start crying, laughing and coughing on his own, for example.

He will call out to "Kenny," Sometimes Sounds like "Kidddnnnnneeeyyyyyy! Kidddnnnnneeeyyyyyy!" Other times it will be very clear and urgent. "Kenny! Kenny! Kenny! Kenny! Kenny!"

He loves to play back and forth with you saying defiantly, "Uhnn Unnnnnnnn!!!" And He will say, "Uhhh Huhhhhnnnnn!!!" Over and over and over, back and forth. So funny! A riot!

He says "Shut up" on his own if he hears anyone curse in person on TV or the radio. Didn't get it from me. I don't know how it happened but he does it every single time. LOL!

Crying, Laughing, Coughing, Purrs like a cat, Rings like a phone and loves doing that! Many times it fools me! LOLOL! If you clear your throat, he will imitate you. If you burp, he will imitate that, too. He LOVES to Burp!!!!!! ROFL!!!!

Gosh, he says SO MUCH more. OH! He sings, "Lullaby of Broadway" but only these words:

"Common along and listen to
The lullaby of Broadway

The la di da and bali hoo
The lullaby of Broadway

Goooood Niiiiight Baaaabyyyy
Goooood Niiiiight
Milkman's on his way.

Sleeeeeppp Tiiiggghtttt Baaabyyyyy
Sleeeeeppp Tiiiggghtttt
Let's call it a day."

He's begun to finish with, "Welcome to the Lullaby of Oldddd Broaddd Wayyyy!" Still, he can't carry a tune. My POOR ears! LOLOL!!!

His best trick is to play dead. He will lie flat on his back in my hand while I move my hand back and forth and up and down and all around. He won't move no matter how much I call to him to wake up and move ... Until I say, "Code Red!" And do a raspberry on his belly. Then he'll suddenly come back to life. Wooo! LOLOL!

He also stands on his head ... And he does some somersaults so to speak. Alex will do some other acrobatics as well.

Ummm? There's SO MUCH MORE! I just can't recall everything right now. You know the "yes" sound you make when you go, "Un hun?" Well, when you ask him yes or no questions, he will either answer "Un huh" (Yes) or "Un Unn" (No). And he means it ... Most of the time. True!!!!!!

He also lets you know exactly what he wishes when he wishes it. He doesn't always get it but he'll sure let you know.

I'll try to remember more and tell you. I hope you enjoyed.

PS. He does say "S of a B" and a couple other things that he didn't get from me. Honest! <<Blush!!!>>

Hmmm ... Let me see if I can find a better photo. BRB ...

PS. About a month ago, I started teaching him the song, "Daisy, Daisy" ("Bicycle Built for Two") and he's picking it up really great! Also, he stays more in tune with the melody, thank goodness. LOLOL!!!

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Re: My Parrot, Alex!
12 Jun, 2006 5:16 AM UK TIme - Approximately 5 hours difference from where I am in the US.

IMPORTANT NOTE: The following Alex "Look Alikes" were because my PC had gone corrupt and I lost EVERYTHING in my files. Since then, I got pretty much most of the important stuff back. Yay!

All of these Quaker Parrots (also known as Monk Parrots) look like their eyes are so small. Alex has larger eyes that look like this ...



Here are a few other Quaker Parrot photos that look just like my Alex feather kid ...





Oh, I LOVE this one! ...



And this one has its feathers all fluffed up and looks like its ready for a nap. Awwww ...



Okay, that's all for now. I hope you all enjoyed!

Me Angel talking again. There are about 3 more pages of Quaker parrot discussion and photographs at the same URL Link I gave up at the top.

Thank you all so much for letting me share! Much Gratitude, Many Blessings and Hugs!!!

Always,
Angel xoxoxoox

PS. Please pardon all typos and I'll repair any URL Links if I got them mixed up. Thanks again so much to everyone!

I found the other post from April of 2006. Even though I'm talking with Debbie, Tracey and Sherry, I'm only going to copy MY posts ... Just for now. I may edit later. I've known Debbie and Tracey for about 10 years and they are great friends. Sherry is a treasure and I've known her for close to 5 years. Here is the link to the message board ...

http://thecatbirdseat.yuku.com/directory

And the direct link to the thread where I'm expressing much concern about Alex parrot and Buddy dog ...

http://thecatbirdseat.yuku.com/topic/3556

Since the above forum is private and password protected, you may not be about to enter. Below, I'll copy and paste my posts and the dates I made them THANKS FOR ALLOWING ME TO PUT ALL THIS INFORMATION HERE. BLESSINGS!!!

Thread Title: "Another Whine, Please Forgive - Alex and Buddy"

04/18/06 13:56:03

Early this morning out of nowhere, Alex began with, "Ouch! Ouch! Ouch! Ouch!" Then his crying sounds. He repeated this several times. I checked him over and ... couldn't find anything wrong. Perhaps he was trying to get attention? Express unhappiness? However, I feel he may have been in some sort of pain somewhere and expressing it. BUT! Later, he was talking and singing with happy tones. Still, I'm concerned. Should I be? PS. He's on my shoulder now giving me kisses and talking to me. No, he really is. Not a hallucination.

Buddy ... Excuse me ... I'm crying but will try my best to type. *Pause* Ever since I've not been able to walk him, he's been so understanding. He'll sleep on the sofa or floor or by the sliding glass door looking outside.

He always goes to the sliding glass back door to tell me when he needs to go out to do his business then let's me know when he wants back in. He jumps and wags his tail and I pet and "rough him up" playfully then give him a cookie. (Doggie biscuit.)

The last couple of days, he's made it clear in his body language that he is begging to be walked. *Pause* Last night he asked to go outside and I let him. I waited a very long time and checked up on Buddy. I slid open the door and asked him if he wanted to come inside. No, he didn't. He expressed again how badly he wanted to go for a run on the common grounds. *Pause* I told him how sorry I am and closed the sliding glass door.

Buddy then spent the night outside on the outdoor "rug" right up against the sliding glass door on the outside. I did check on him to make sure he was there and the gate had not been opened for his escape. I let him sleep outside until he asked to come in again this morning. Again, he begged to go for a walk and run.

Poor Buddy! He's been so patient but he yearns so very badly to run and play again out on the common grounds. I NEED to get him out there! He's gotten even fatter. I am having thoughts that Buddy knows his health is at stake and NEEDS to go running for exercise or his heart will fail.

*Tears* Sorry, so very sorry everyone. Please, what am I to do? I don't know what to do. Buddy is in very desperate need of running and losing weight or I am cutting years away from his life span and his physical heart is suffering. What am I to do?

Thank you for listening to me. Love to all!

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(04/18/06 15:11:43

Update: Just this moment, Alex in his nest box cried out, "Ow! Ow! Ow! Ow! Ow! Ow!" And started crying again. It lasted about a minute. Then he began to make happy chirps and sounds. Then came the "Ut Oh! Ut Oh! Ut Oh!" Then he started calling out, "Cocoa! Cocoa! Cocoa!" (My kitty before Styx.) Then came "S of a B! S of a B! S of a B!" Then more calling of Cocoa and then more chirping. Then crying again.

Is he trying to tell me something? Usually what he says holds meaning except for those times when he's just playfully messing around and I can tell those times after ... it will be 14 years this May 1st.

Now he is very silent. No sounds at all. I'm going to lift the lid to the nest box and check on him. BRB ... Never mind, he heard me coming, came out of the nest box and is perching on the gate of his cage. He has an odd expression of face and body and NO! Not a delusion. I can definitely tell. I mean about the odd expression. WTH?

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04/18/06 22:19:24

I've been reading, researching and studying websites for hours today to try and figure out what Alex was expressing and I feel I've possibly figured it out.

Here again is what happened: "Just this moment, Alex in his nest box cried out, "Ow! Ow! Ow! Ow! Ow! Ow!" And started crying again. It lasted about a minute. Then he began to make happy chirps and sounds. Then came the "Ut Oh! Ut Oh! Ut Oh!" Then he started calling out, "Cocoa! Cocoa! Cocoa!" (My kitty before Styx.) Then came "S of a B! S of a B! S of a B!" Then more calling of Cocoa and then more chirping. Then crying again."

*From all I read including many, many case histories I've reached a theory.

Something triggered Alex's memory regarding Cocoa. Back when Cocoa kitty got sicker and sicker many years ago, Alex was very upset. Alex tried to comfort Cocoa, he cried, he used his words that he does to express pain (Ouch! Ow!) and "Oh No!" (Ut Oh!) expressions. That was back then.

Alex still calls out Cocoa's name often but not everyday since the day Cocoa died. Alex misses Cocoa. You should have seen them together. Very loving, caring, playing together ... more. Alex remembers this. Of course he does. He remembers Maiden dog and Trader Dog. He calls about every day, "Trader! Trader! Wake up! Wake Up!" over and over while clicking his beak loudly on his wooden nest box to help "wake up Trader dog."

My theory is that Alex was thinking about Cocoa, missing him, remembering how sick and in pain he was. There comes the multiple calls of, "Ow" over and over. The crying either because he's sad that Cocoa was in pain or because he misses Cocoa. The, "Ut Oh! Ut Oh!" may be Alex's memory reliving that point in time and that is his Oh No expression.

OR, the, "Ut Oh! Ut Oh!" over and over could have been Alex expressing that the memory is painful to relive because he did then cry afterwards. Then came the multiple, "S of a B!" Alex only says that when he's angry. However, in this case, I tend to believe it was an expression of him being upset and frustrated.

He then became completely silent but came out of his nest box and perched onto the gate of his cage with the odd facial expression and body language. My theory was that he was expressing stress due to his reliving what happened.

I can hear you now. Anthropomorphism. Not so. I can link you to research and actual case studies which prove the parrot's incredible cognition and ability to understand what they are saying, form new phrases to fit the occasions, more. Oh sure, lots of times they're just talking to amuse themselves but they really are capable of carrying on a very simple conversation. That, I do know from Alex. I kid you not.

Okay, back to your regularly scheduled program.

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04/19/06 10:05:31

Sherry, I've tried over and over again to play fetch with Buddy dog but he's so stupid! I'll toss his favorite rubber hamburger toy and tell him, "Get it, Buddy! Get it! Bring it here! Bring it here!" Buddy is thrilled, runs enthusiastically after the toy but then sits and plays with it every single time instead of bringing it back for me to throw it again so he can fetch back and forth. Silly dog. Arg! I'll keep trying but this has been going on for years. LOL!

Oh, I'll play tug of war with his ropie, too. I try to give him as much activity as I'm able but he's still getting fatter and fatter which concerns me so much. He really, really needs to go out running, jumping in the lake and romping ... And all that stuff.

As for Alex - Yes, he may very well be having memories of Cocoa and missing him. OR Alex is picking up vibes about my own health. BUT! When I'm sick, Alex always comes over to me and says, " Momma, Momma! I'm sorry! I'm so sorry! I'm sorry! I'm so sorry!" After that comes the "(Kissing Sound) I love you! (Kissing sound) I love you! (Kissing Sound) I love you!" Over and over. Then he snuggles up to me and becomes very cuddly and makes purring sounds just like a cat (I kid you not!) as though trying to make me feel better.

Alex has done that for over 12 years whenever I'm not feeling well. So, I'm sort of leaning towards him remembering and missing Cocoa kitty.

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04/20/06 20:48:08)

Poor, Poor Alex. It's after 11:40 PM where I am. Alex is in his cage. Calling out again "Ow!" over and over and over. Then calling for "Cocoa" repetitively and crying a whole bunch and coughing (he's not coughing, it's his coughing sound and very convincing indeed).

I am going to call an Aviary Veterinarian tomorrow, explain what's been going on and my "special cir%%stances" to see if I can beg some free advice as to how to help poor Alex. This is the second time today that he did his Ow and crying and Cocoa kitty calling.

There must be something that the Aviary Veterinarian can advise me to do to help poor Alex.

Thanks for listening, everyone.

PS. Ut Oh ... He's doing it again right now. My poor darling feather child.

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04/21/06 08:11:36)

No, not to get attention. He may even have been asleep and dreaming. Whenever he does the, "OW, Cocoa, Crying" thing. I don't ever call to him to comfort him. Never. I pay attention and ... just listen. So, if he's doing it to get my attention, he's never accomplished it.

Whenever Alex wants my attention, he calls out, "Mamma, Mamma. What are ya doin'? What are ya doin'?" And, "What about that? What about that?" Also, "Awwex, Awwex. Common, Common. Common Awwex." He doesn't pronounce Alex very well. However his other words are very, very clear. Oh, and there's the, "Be a duck. Be a duck. Quack! Quack! Quack! Quack! Quack!" I think that's his favorite. LOL.

No, Sherry and Debbie. I stay put. I don't run over to him. I say and do nothing. I've told you what he does whenever I'm sick, stressed or sad and it's completely different behavior and language. This poor bird is stressed and having memories I believe. I need to find out how to help him.

Remember, he lost his mate (actually 'friend') of 9 years ... Amber ... Several months ago due to sudden death due to her having become egg bound. Funny thing, he's never expressed missing her though. Well, she wouldn't allow him to "do it" with her. She nagged him a lot, picked fights with him when he tied to be affectionate with her, kicked him out of the nest box at night so she could have it for herself and he had to sleep in the cage and on and on and on. He may have been relieved that she was gone even though he did stick to me like GLUE for the first three weeks or so after she died. Then, he was fine. Poor Amber. She screamed at about 7:30 AM that morning, I ran to the nest box, lifted it, she was on her back, moved only slightly then was gone. Yes, I cried but I was "okay."

She had been displaying "nesting behavior" for three days prior yet had not laid eggs in years. I should have known something was wrong. I could have helped her by applying medication to where the egg comes out (using a Q-Tip as I'd done in the past with lovebirds having trouble laying eggs) as well as certain oils by mouth. I just wish I would have known she was egg bound.

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(04/21/06 08:53:09)

Latest Update: I couldn't find the Aviary Veterinarian that treated Alex when he broke his leg in two as a baby BUT! I did find a Veterinarian Bird Specialist: A Dr. Doering. She is female. I sort of like that.

I spoke with the receptionist and explained my "special cir%%stances" only to the degree that "I'm disabled, have no transportation and can't get out of the house." I explained that Alex was in great physical health but appears to be having some sort of stress and that I'm not quite sure how to address it.

I didn't go into detail with the receptionist but told her I could explain fully to whomever could be of service and if Dr. Doering would consider a phone ... WAIT! The phone just rang. It was the receptionist again and she wished me to go into detail regarding Alex's behavior which I did as briefly as possible. She took notes and said that Dr. Doering would get back with me. That it may not be today as Dr. Doering is on her way out the door but that she will get back to me.

If this Alex thing persists and Dr. Doering hasn't called me by Monday, I'll call the office again and very, very nicely ask if the doctor has come up with any thoughts. You know ... Just to remind them.

Thanks again and love to you all!

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(04/21/06 18:19:50)

{{{{{Debbie}}}}}} When I was doing those hours of googling and research to try and figure out what Alex was trying to convey to me, I ran into a website of a Quaker who looks just like Alex and is THIRTY- FIVE YEARS OLD! Oh my gosh! Now, I'm concerned that I'll die before Alex and then ... You see, it's a well know phenomenon that birds are known to become depressed, grieve terribly, get very ill and even die from grief when separated from one with whom they've bonded. I truly believe Alex and others like him are capable of real love. You know, like elephants, primates, dolphins and so many other creatures.

Yep, I can give Alex some bread. He LOVES to take a strip of bread, dunk it in his water then bring it back to his food dish and eat it. YUM! You should have seen him many, many years ago when he first discovered that he liked the bread better dunked in water. He would put the piece of bread in his water dish, let go of it, then it would get soaked and sink to the bottom and he couldn't get it. Poor thing! Well, he learned fast and holds onto the bread with his beak or claw after the first couple of "sinking episodes" (usually beak) when he dunks it into the water.

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04/21/06 18:44:07)

Oh My Goodness! I just did a brief google to determine the life span of a Quaker Parrot. THIRTY-FIVE TO FORTY YEARS AND POSSIBLY LONGER!!! Here's and interesting snippet:

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Quaker Parakeets (usually referred to as parrots) are very intelligent little animals. Owners often report logical reasoning in them. For example, they will call their owners' names to get their attention. Then they declare whatever it is they would like to express using unrelated words and phrases that they have been taught, which are shockingly appropriate to the particular situation!

Quaker Parakeets are also great at mimicking noises, and can imitate human speech, other birds and animals, and squeaky doors or household noises. They will even compose song, setting their favorite phrases to simple tunes they know!
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I only googled that one website. Here's the link with a photo of Alex times two at the top. They look exactly like him before his plumage got all scruffy ...

Quaker Parrots

I suppose it could be worse. The life span of an African Grey Parrot is 50 to 65 years and a Macaw can easily live to be 80 years and beyond. Not the mini-macaw who lives to about 40 years or so.

Some birds sure do live a long time!

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04/22/06 12:33:13

Debbie, it IS incredible! You would be so very, very surprised hearing Alex making small talk and chatting with me. He even answers my questions. I kid you not!

Sherry, many macaws can be very nasty and unfriendly. They're not known to be "nice" to their owners or others. And, like some humans, they get grumpier, more demanding and nasty as they get older. And boy do they reach a very old age!

Your Severe and Military Macaws are incorrigible! Most Blue and Gold macaws are nice and sweet birds but they are the most expensive. VERY expensive!

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(04/22/06 22:41:11)

{{{{{Tracey}}}}} When I became ill to the point that I could no longer walk Buddy, G***xx would walk him every day. I can't remember how long that went on. 1 year or 2? Like I keep saying, I have no concept at all of time.

Then G***xx developed the huge cantaloupe sized Spindle Cell Sarcoma cancerous tumor on her leg in the front above the knee. Well, I've told you all about her multiple surgeries, shattering her knee cap and needing that surgically repaired (she STILL has to wear that removable cast ALL the time except when sleeping), her long term inpatient chemotherapy then all of her radiation treatments.

In short, from the day the tumor developed and she was in pain, I simply refused to let her walk Buddy because Buddy could injure G***xx. Of course, after everything else, there's no way on earth G***xx can walk Buddy.

The only other person in this complex that I know is the "drug begging" R****** that I told you all about. The one begging me to give her my medications. I think you remember that. Other than G***xx and R******, the others I knew have moved and there are other people living in those units. Also remember I don't like people to see me because of my hideous appearance so I hide inside when people are around except for G***xx who loves me anyway.

So, no, I don't know anyone at all that can walk Buddy. I've been keeping him as active as possible inside the house but it's nowhere, and I mean NOWHERE near enough. He NEEDS to go running and swimming. Tracey, he is SO FAT. He's going to die from congestive heart failure. I've read up on this and that's what happens when dogs don't get enough exercise and become so obese.

Please forgive. Can't talk more about it right now. Will try to talk more again. I love you!

The End At This Time.

Me Angel talking again now. Thank you all again so very, very much for allowing me to find my voice and do%%ent all this information here. Me thinks it will soon come in handy for printing out and ... You get the idea. Thanks Bunches!

Tight Hugs and Much Love!

Always,
Angel xoxoxox

Hello, Precious Alex. Here's one of your favorite poems because you loved the pink glitter in the pretty picture at the top and laughed so hard at the one on on the bottom. I can hear you laughing still.

Enjoy, most cherished Feather Child. I Love You!!!

I brought you a real treat my Sweet Baby Alex. You're gonna love this! Buddy dog sure does. Awww! Lookie at how all the fur kid doggie expressions match perfectly with every line James Taylor sings in this song. So Very Adorable! Yep, they really are always there for us, My Precious Feather Child.

And Alex: You've Got a Friend! I Love You!!!

Sweet Loving Alex, you never knew that this is such a sad song. How you loved the pretty melody and were starting to sing along with the video. What a dear soul you were. And the paintings delighted you so much. Wow! So many beautiful colors and most of them very lovely scenes. So, I'm going to put this here just for you, Sweetie. Enjoy the lovely music, the pictures and Be Happy! I Love You So Much!!!

Here's a video that we both love, Alex. It's one of my very favorite songs and movies. Plus the lyrics are so meaningful. You didn't appear to care too much for this song but you sure were thrilled watching the cartoon, people and lions. I hope you like the photograph I chose of the Quaker Parrot. True that he doesn't have your big beautiful eyes. However, take a look at the way the branch with red berries has the appearance of forming a "circle" as in The Circle of Life. Kewl Beanz, eh Alex?

Well, you enjoy watching the animations, drawings, people and live lions and I'll think of you because with you gone, this song takes on even more meaning, doesn't it? Enjoy the film, Precious Alex.

I Love You!!!

My Most Beloved Cherished Feather Child, Best Friend, Constant Companion, My Heart, My Soul and
My Life. You Were Always the Wind Beneath my Wings, My Hero and My Angel! I shall not say Good-bye but will say "Until We Meet Again That One Sweet Day!" Sweet baby boy, enjoy the awesome images and hear the birds chirping when they appear during this song. Lovely!

This is for you My Most Precious Alex. Here's to our New Beginnings! I LOVE YOU!!!

Please Click on the Flying Eagle

Morning has broken like the First Morning.
Blackbird has Spoken like the First Bird.
Praise for the Singing. Praise for the Morning.
Praise for the Springing fresh from the Word.

Sweet the Rain's New Fall Sunlit from Heaven.
Like the First Dew Fall on the First Grass.
Praise for the Sweetness of the Wet Garden.
Sprung in Completeness where His feet pass.

Mine is the Sunlight. Mine is the Morning.
Born of the One Light Eden saw Play.
Praise with Elation. Praise Every Morning.
God's Recreation of the New Day.

Until We Meet Again My Most Treasured Feather Child Alex! Many Tight Hugs and Kisses!

Yes, Most Precious Alex. I'm still here and will Never, Ever leave your side! I know how greatly you Love me and I Love You So Much in return!!!

This is how much I Love You, My Most Beloved Feather Child!

Hi everyone. I'm going to copy and paste several emails from myself, my brother and lawyer just to keep you wonderful caring Angels posted. I sure hope I was successful in omitting all the real names, email addresses, phone numbers and so on. Otherwise, I can see Beth, Dayna, Jorge, Love Them, Deanna ChibiStar, Sarah and so many of you "taking the next flight and feeding someone ashalt" as one of you said to me. Bless you. This is LONG and I tried my best to keep all emails according to date.

In a message dated 6/23/2008 Angel@Somewhere.com

Tony, I just hung up the phone with you. This is the email from John that arrived a few minutes ago along with the attachment. After reading it, then you will know why I am crap out of luck and all hope of seeking earthy Justice for my Alex is ... Is Gone ... Gone ... Gone ...

So, I remembered a poem that M'Lord Ivor wrote for me a couple months ago considering all my grief, feelings of guilt and everything else I'm experiencing regarding Alex and him doing his best to comfort me. He didn't even say anything but I knew that's why he wrote this poem. I swear he must be psychic because he does it so often! And here it is ...

"Sorry"
by: poeticpiers

I must apologize to you.

A promise made should then be kept
But are not always I accept.

Sometimes you try to no avail.
You do your best but still you fail.
Poor cir%%stances can prevail.

The best laid plans can go awry
No matter how hard you may try.
When bad luck which you can't defy
Decides your efforts to deny.

You must face the reality
Accepting with humility.
Your plans will never come to be.

You tried your best but failed the test
So set your troubled mind at rest.

There are some things you cannot do.

21-Apr-08

Hugs,
Dottie xoxoxox

Tony, please see attached ...

DEAR MS. Z******:

PLEASE READ MY ATTACHED OPINION LETTER.

THANK YOU.

SINCERELY,

JOHN H***X, ESQUIRE

On Thu, Jun 19, 2008 at 7:40 AM. Angel@Somewhere.com

DEAR JOHN, THE NOTICE OF REMEDY FOR CIVIL THEFT WAS SERVED TO THE THREE PARTIES ON MAY 23, 2008. IT IS CLOSE TO THE THIRTY DAYS IN WHICH THEY HAVE TO RESPOND.

JOHN, I AM GOING TO TAKE OUT A LOAN AND ... PLEASE PARDON MY FOUL LANGUAGE BUT I WISH TO NAIL THOSE A-HOLES GOOD AND PROPER FOR EVERY CRIME THEY HAVE COMMITTED. I KNOW THAT I DON'T HAVE TO TELL YOU BUT ... THIS IS ALL ON BEHALF OF SEEKING EARTHLY JUSTICE FOR ALEX.

I UNDERSTAND THAT THE CIVIL THEFT TRIAL WILL BE FIRST. AM I CORRECT? IF SO, I AM POSITIVE THAT WE SHALL PREVAIL. AFTER THAT HAS CONCLUDED, I WANT TO NAIL THOSE MONSTERS FOR ANY AND EVERY INFRACTION AND CRIME THEY HAVE COMMITTED BE IT HOA, US DISABILITIES ACT AND SO ON.

SINCE I HAVE NEVER TAKEN OUT A LOAN BEFORE, I DO NOT KNOW HOW LONG IT TAKES TO GET THE MONEY. TONY IS GOING TO HELP ME THROUGH THE PROCESS AND SAYS IT IS SIMPLE, FAST AND SO FORTH. SINCE HE HAS TAKEN OUT THESE TYPES OF LOANS BEFORE, I'M SURE HE KNOWS WHAT HE'S TALKING ABOUT.

JOHN, I KNOW YOU ARE VERY BUSY IN YOUR PRACTICE SO PLEASE BE HONEST WITH ME. I TRUST YOU. WILL YOU HAVE THE TIME TO DEVOTE ALL THAT'S NECESSARY WHEN LEVELING ALL CHARGES, FILING ALL SUITS AND LITIGATING? I DO NOT WANT ANYONE BUT YOU. YOU TRULY CARE AND ARE THE BEST!

PLEASE RESPOND WHEN YOU ARE ABLE.

BLESSINGS AND MANY KIND THANKS!

Always,
Dottie ***

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Law Offices of
John Robert H***X, Esquire
Reply to: Attorney and Counselor at Law
P.O. Box ***XX PH/FX (***) - *** - ***X
Tampa, Florida ***XX-***X
June 21, 2008

Ms. D***X Z******
VIA E-Mail: Angel@Somewhere.com

RE: Your Claim Against Julia G***XX, et al.

Dear Ms. Z******:

I have received a copy of correspondence from Century Insurance Group to Julia G***XX wherein they denied any coverage for the taking by Julia G***XX, et al. of your property.

Apparently when making the insurance claim on behalf of B******X P***X Homeowners Association, Julia G***XX would not even admit that they negligently took your property. If they had admitted negligence, the insurance company would have at least considered the claim.

When you and your brother retained me to represent you the main goal was to compel the Ms. G***XX and the B******X P***X Homeowner’s Association to treat you fairly. It is my hope that they have stopped treating you unfairly as a result of our efforts.

The question you ask now is whether you should take out a loan and sue J***X G***XX, et al. their actions in taking your property. Now that the notice period for the Civil Theft theory of your claim is nearly completed all of the theories of your claim may be considered for a potential. Each theory could be stated in your Complaint against them and the jury would then make a ruling on each in the alternative. In addition to the civil theft claim, the legal theories under which you could sue include negligence, intentional inflection of emotional distress, negligent infliction of emotional distress and conversion.

If you sued B******X P***XX Homeowners Association in addition to the individuals involved and you prevailed, the homeowners association fees would go up for all homeowners in the association even if the insurance company ultimately covered the claim. If you prevailed the insurance rates would go up. If the insurance company did not provide coverage and you prevailed the members of the homeowners association would have to chip in to pay your judgment. If you did not prevail in your claim against the association a judgment may be entered against you and your property to cover the association's attorney fees and litigation costs. Its attorney and costs through trial may be as much as $40,000 or more.

If you sued only the individuals they may bring in B******X P***X Homeowners Association as a party Defendant saying they were working for the association and the taking and ‘misplacing’ of your property was negligence. This would drive up costs for the homeowners as discussed above.

In order to fight the lawsuit to its conclusion with a jury trial approximately $20,000 to $40,000 or more in attorney fees, litigation costs and expert witness fees would be required. You may find an attorney who would be willing to take a case like this on a contingency fee but I am not set up to take cases on contingency. As we have discussed, a contingency fee basis is one where the attorney agrees to accept a percentage of the recovery contingent on a successful outcome of the case.

The stress of borrowing money to pay an attorney on an hourly fee basis and of involvement in litigation is substantial. That stress is magnified for people with bi-polar mood disorder. Borrowing money for purposes of litigation is usually not advisable and never advisable in a case of this sort. Litigation is too risky because the jury can reach any outcome in the case. The only way you could get a loan is by mortgaging your home. Owning your home without a mortgage is necessary in your case since you are unable to work. Given your situation I would never advise borrowing money for any reason. You can not afford to pay interest on a loan.

There are defenses that may be raised in your case. First, the Defendants can admit negligence and deny that the taking of your property was intentional. The Defendants can argue that you did not follow the pre-tenting instructions causing it to be necessary for them to come into your home and pack up your belongings, including your animals were misplaced by mistake. Then they could challenge the value of your belongings – including Alex and say you are only entitled to a fraction of the amount you claim. The jury will be instructed to find that Alex can only be valued as property and not the value Alex holds to you emotionally.

Therefore, my advise is that you do not consider pursuing this litigation at this time unless you find an attorney who is willing to take the case on a contingency fee basis. You have FOUR YEARS from the date of the taking which you say was October 14, 2007. I advise that you concentrate on assuring that you are treated fairly by your homeowners association. Ms. J***X G***XX and the other individuals should treat you fairly knowing that your claims against them are hanging over their heads. Your claims in this matter will hang over their head for four years from the date they wrongfully took your property.

Thank you for your time and attention regarding this matter. If you have any have any questions please do not hesitate to call me or Email me at: JohnsAddyHere@gmail.com

Sincerely,

John R. ***XX, Esquire
JRH/

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In a message dated 6/23/2008 11:32:23 A.M. Eastern Daylight Time Tony@Somewhere.com

Tony, the reason is that I feel I do need inpatient hospitalization, IN MY OPINION. I'm delusional and having acute psychotic episodes again due to all that has happened regarding my loss of Alex. Also need counseling and possibly mediations In My Opinion.

Dottie:

Call the Hillsborough County Commission, ask for any AT LARGE County Commissioner's office, then ask to speak to one of their aides. Tell them exactly your situation and they will put you in touch with people who can get you through what you need. If you need extra assistance from me, let me know. When we put you in touch with social workers who arrange for meds and hospitalization, it's important to keep up with that and renew it when necessary. If not, you have to start the process over again.

If you talk to an aide of Commissioner Brian Blair's, they know me there and will respond favorably.

Tony

In a message dated 6/23/2008 Angel@Somewhere.com

{{{{{Tony}}}}} Again, I know how much you hate this mushy stuff but I just gotta tell ya ... I Love You So Much!!!! You're the best brother anyone ever had. Ever, ever, ever!!!

Now, onto the stuff which may or may not tick you off.

1. I did read all you wrote, do have all the contact numbers already and am fully capable of making arrangements for all you've suggested and advised me so I do not need help doing all you said. Promise and Honest and for True. So please don't worry.

2. I am doing "very well" right now considering all the cir%%stances. I speak the truth. Bless you for caring and taking all this time talking to me when you yourself are so very, very sick! Thank you, Tony and Hugs!

3. THIS IS THE PART THAT MAY TICK YOU OFF.

After talking with you yesterday and making "if needed" pet, other arrangements for inpatient hospitalization and so on ... I DID WHAT I HAVE WANTED TO DO FROM THE VERY BEGINNING. THE RESULTS ARE VERY, VERY FAVORABLE AND GOOD, in my opinion. Still you may get ticked off at me. And guess what? I don't give a crap. *Smiling.* Here is what I did ...

I called Julia G***xx and spoke with her personally saying it's me, please don't hang up and I continued. My voice and tone were very calm and kind but "firm" (so to speak) as well. At first that is, then my voice became the normal nice, kind me. Okay, I'm rambling and that REALLY TICKS YOU OFF! Sorry ...

I am aware that Julia and the others DO NOT KNOW whether or not I intend to sue them, make them pay, put them behind bars, yada, yada, yada. I used that knowledge when taking the calculated risk (so to speak) that I did.

With kindness, I told Julia G***xx that I will be very willing to settle for a certain sum of money and walk away from all other pending charges as long as ...

1. The HOA continues to treat me fairly.

2. They return Alex back to me because I know he did not fly away.

I won't go into DETAIL but, after speaking with Julia, I now feel persuaded that Alex did in fact fly away. Is it true? It don't matter cuz I ain't getting him back. They were negligent and at fault for what happened if what she said is true. She said that she and her grand kids did try so hard to find him when he took off. Is it true? Well, what the heck were her grand kids doing with Alex when he was supposed to be at Ida's house, under her care?!?!?! And ...

What the heck did her grand kids do that would have caused Alex to bite one of them as Julia said happened?!?!?! Alex bit someone?!?!?! Riiiggghhhttt ... And my arse is a banjo!!!!!! Oh, the picture is so much more clear now! Okay, enough of that. Yep, I kept my cool and continued speaking kindly with her. Hey, I now have more "ammunition" should I choose. Know what I'm saying?

3. Julia's tone was kind. She agreed to my terms and wishes me to go through my attorney to sign stuff and make all the above official. She didn't say it but I know it's to cover her arse. Anyway, I was the one who made the offer of doing all above going through my lawyer. Of course I did. She agreed, said YES and there is more ...

4. Backtracking a little bit to number 2. in this email. After I did feel persuaded that Alex escaped, I bargained with Julia to make good by buying me another Quaker. I told her the only reason Alex was worth thousands is due to his amazing capabilities, that when I first got him in 1993 that he was a baby and cost $150.00 (which is true), that Quakers may cost a little more now due to their increasing popularity and yada, yada, yada ...

Julia said YES! She asked that I call around to different places (pet shops, breeders, etc.) to see how much they cost now and where they are available and she WILL buy me another Quaker feather child PLUS she will return to me Alex's cage, nest box, toys, all his belongings, yada, yada, yada ...

5. HERE IS WHERE WE ARE. Or rather HERE IS WHERE I AM AT THIS TIME. Julia informed me she will be out of town for the 4th of July weekend but we will be in contact when she returns either personally or through my lawyer. That she WILL pay a settlement, buy me a parrot, return Alex's cage and all his other things. JULIA WAS HAPPY AS (*Expliciative Deleted by me*) about all the above.

Okay, you may now curse me out for having done what I did.

Having kept the above AS BRIEF AS I COULD AND LEAVING OUT MANY DETAILS ... Sorry for the LONG AS HECK email. And now ...

I'm done talking and it is YOUR turn. What are your thoughts about what I did, please?

Big Hugs and Much Love,
Dottie xoxoxoxox

PS. Please pardon all typos and I hope I explained everything sufficiently. If you need to know more, please ask. More Hugs!

******************XX

In a message dated 6/23/2008 8:11:49 P.M. Eastern Daylight Time: Tony@Somewhere.com
I'm done talking and it is YOUR turn. What are your thoughts about what I did, please?

Sounds like a movie-of-the-week to me!!!

Tony

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In a message dated 6/23/2008 11:29:23 P.M. Eastern Daylight Time Angel@Somewhere.com

Ummm, Tony? Stuff goes right over my head sometimes so: Does this mean that all I told you is a GOOD thing and it "Sounds like a plan to me!" Or are you being facetious? I can't tell. Doh on me. Please let me know. Okay? Thank you and HUGS!!!
Dottie xoxoxox

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Tony's Response ...

It all sounds fine to me. Let's see if the B##ch follows through on her promise to you. I don't trust her as far as I can spit. If I were you I would run all this by the attorney and let him know what you did.

Tony

******************XX

In a message dated 6/24/2008 1:29:40 A.M. Eastern Daylight Time Angel@Somewhere.com

Tony, I certainly agree with what you say about not trusting her. After speaking with her and hearing how Alex "bit" then took off? Hey, I would probably trust Nazi Dr. Josef Mengele more than her. And THAT is REALLY saying something coming from me!!! Yes, I will let John know about what I did, her reactions, yada yada yada to see what he says.

******************XX

Tue, Jun 24, 2008 Tony@Somewhere.com

It is very likely that she thought it was extremely odd that someone represented by counsel would make such an overture on her own. She would know this was highly unusual. The attorney will most likely be taken aback by this as well. But let's just see what she does. For Gawd's sake don't set yourself up for a major depression a second time.

Tony

******************XX

Tue, Jun 24, 2008 at 8:25 AM Angel@Somewhere.com

{{{{{Tony}}}}} Everything you said above is very true and I am completely aware. Promise!

I am still doing very well at this time. I'm not having any psychotic episodes at the present and I do not foresee any "major depression" forthcoming. Only time will tell and should anything happen, I'll handle it appropriately. Please don't worry. Well, I can't sleep and ... But you know how that goes.

I have attached the email I sent to John in case you wish to review it.

I'll shush up now because you'll tell me or ask me if you want to know anything else.

I Love You!

Big Hugs,
Dottie xoxoxox

Tony, please see attached ...

On Tue, Jun 24, 2008 at 8:25 AM, < Angel@Somewhere.com > wrote:

DEAR JOHN, I RECEIVED YOUR EMAIL AND ATTACHMENT. AFTER HAVING READ IT I DID UNDERSTAND FULLY AND LOST ALL HOPE OF KEEPING MY PROMISE TO ALEX THAT HE GETS EARTHLY JUSTICE.

PLEASE DO NOT FEEL BADLY AS YOU ARE MOST CERTAINLY NOT NOT NOT AT FAULT AND HAVE BEEN THERE EVERY STEP OF THE WAY FOR ME. I AM SO GRATEFUL TO YOU!!! SO THEN ...

I BECAME, FOR THE *VERY FIRST TIME* SUICIDAL. I KNEW I NEEDED TO BE HOSPITALIZED SO CALLED TONY AND EXPLAINED MY STATE OF MIND, DELUSIONS, ACUTE PSYCHOTIC EPISODES AND SO ON. ME BEING BIPOLAR AND HAVING POST TRAUMATIC STRESS SYNDROME MOST LIKELY PLAYED A BIG PART.

I BEGAN MAKING ARRANGEMENTS FOR SOMEONE OR SOME ORGANIZATION TO TAKE CARE OF BUDDY DOG AND STYX KITTY SO I COULD BE INSTITUTIONALIZED.

THEN! I TOLD MYSELF "HANG ON. GET A GRIP. DO WHAT YOU'VE WANTED TO DO FOR QUITE SOME TIME NOW. WHAT HAVE YOU GOT TO LOSE?" AND I DID IT. I WROTE ABOUT IT TO TONY AND THAT IS THE EMAIL I HAVE ATTACHED.

PLEASE READ IT CAREFULLY REGARDING JULIA GALPIN'S OFFER AND ADVISE ME, JOHN.

I AM ETERNALLY GRATEFUL TO YOU AND PRAISE WHATEVER POWERS THAT BE THAT YOU ARE THE ONE WHO TOOK MY CASE. YOU ARE A GENUINELY DEAR, HONEST, GOOD MAN AND ALSO HAVE "TOLD ME LIKE IT IS" FROM THE GET GO.

PLEASE ADVISE ME. BLESSINGS!

MANY KIND THANKS!

BIG HUGS,
Dottie ***

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Forwarded Message:
Subj: Re: DOTTIE Z****** - JOHN: A FORWARD EMAIL AND NEED ADVICE SOON PLEASE!!!
Date: 6/24/2008 7:46:44 AM Pacific Daylight Time
From: Xmailto:***XX@gmail.com
To: Angel@Somewhere.com
Sent from the Internet (Details)

DEAR MS. Z******:

PLEASE GET THE HELP YOU NEED FOR YOUR BI-POLAR FROM YOUR MEDICAL PROVIDER WHILE JULIA G***XX IS OUT OF TOWN. AFTER THAT WE DISCUSS THIS CASE FURTHER. I WILL HELP YOU WORK IT OUT WITH JULIA G***XX WHEN YOU ARE READY.

PLEASE CONTACT DR. WALKER OR GO TO THE HOSPITAL IMMEDIATELY. DO NOT JUST ASSUME THAT YOU ARE STABLE BECAUSE YOU MAY NOT BE. IT IS IMPORTANT THAT YOUR MEDICAL PROVIDERS SAY YOU ARE STABLE.

YOUR CONVERSATION WITH JULIA G***XX SHOULD GIVE YOU HOPE. IN THE MEANTIME PLEASE THINK ABOUT WHAT YOU WANT FROM THE HOMEOWNERS ASSOCIATION, IN CONCRETE TERMS OF MAKING SURE THEY 'TREAT YOU FAIRLY.'

PLEASE DO NOT FAIL TO GET HELP FOR YOUR BI-POLAR FIRST. AS I STATED IN MY OPINION LETTER YOU HAVE UNTIL OCTOBER 2011 TO CONSIDER YOUR LEGAL OPTIONS AND SETTLE UP WITH JULIA G***XX. IF YOU NEED TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL MAKE SURE YOU GO TO ONE WHERE YOUR DOCTOR, DR. WALKER CAN SEE YOU. IT IS IMPORTANT THAT YOU OBTAIN MEDICAL HELP FIRST.

LASTLY, IF YOU READ MY OPINION LETTER YOU WILL SEE THAT YOU SHOULD HAVE HOPE ABOUT THE FUTURE BECAUSE YOUR FUTURE IS SECURE. PLEASE HAVE FAITH THAT ALL WILL BE WELL AND PLEASE GET THE HELP YOU NEED TO BE STABLE. ALSO, I AM HERE FOR YOU WHEN YOU ARE READY.

PLEASE CALL ME AT *** - *** - ***X IF YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS OR YOU WANT TO DISCUSS THIS MATTER.

SINCERELY,

JOHN ***XX

******************XX

In a message dated 6/23/2008 11:32:23 A.M. Eastern Daylight Time Tony@Somewhere.com

Dottie:

Mr. ***xx's letter was very thorough and rational. Fact is, insurance companies deny claims of a rare nature like this more often than not. If you spent the money to sue, $20,000 to $40,000, the insurance company would not pay to defend it. If you did get a judgment, the defendants would have to sue the insurance company since I seriously doubt they would have the funds. As Mr. ***xx said, the HOA members would end up footing the bill with VERY much higher monthly fees.

I understand your reaction but I hope you will put this in perspective. This was a very unfortunate incident that happened and you extended good faith in these people to handle your animals.I do think a jury would not look favorably at the fact they immediately took most of them to the pound for euthanasia when you gave them with their promise of good care.These people are extremely evil. As soon as we can get you out of there we will.

Meantime, get help for your depression.I go through disappointments like this every day and deal with them but I know you may not cope nearly as well given your situation.

Are you seeing a doctor? Do you have ALL the medications you need? Let's handle that now since that will be, hopefully, easiest to accomplish.

I am working feverishly on the funds to get your air conditioner installed. Yours is a difficult loan to place and the broker who will do it is out this week ... of all weeks.

We owe a debt of deep gratitude to Mr. ***xx for his kindness in taking this matter this far and, as he said, you have four years to take action if you decide to. Meanwhile, do everything in your power to get the help you need to get back on your feet emotionally.

Tony

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In a message dated 6/24/2008 1:29:40 A.M. Eastern Daylight Time Angel Writes:

Tony, I certainly agree with what you say about not trusting her. Oy! Yes, I will let John know about what I did, her reactions, yada yada yada to see what he says.

Dottie: It is very likely that she thought it was extremely odd that someone represented by counsel would make such an overture on her own. She would know this was highly unusual. The attorney will most likely be taken aback by this as well. But let's just see what she does. For Gawd's sake don't set yourself up for a major depression a second time.

Tony

My Response to Tony ...

{{{{{Tony}}}}} Everything you said above is very true and I am completely aware. Promise!

I am still doing very well at this time and do not foresee any "major depression" forthcoming. Only time will tell and should anything happen, I'll handle it appropriately. Please don't worry. Well, I can't sleep and ... But you know how that goes.

I have attached the email I sent to John in case you wish to review it.

I'll shut up now cuz you'll tell me or ask me if you want to know anything else.

I Love You!

Big Hugs,
Dottie xoxoxox

Angel talking again. The attachment to Tony is already copied here. It's this one: Subj: Re: DOTTIE Z****** - JOHN: A FORWARD EMAIL AND NEED ADVICE SOON PLEASE!!! Date: 6/24/2008 7:46:44 AM Pacific Daylight Time

Thank you so much for letting me talk. Big Hugs and Much Love to All!


I Wish You Peace!

Always,

Angel xoxoxox

Oh My Gawd! Oh My Gawd! I am SO ANGRY!!! I was thinking about what Julia told me on the telephone a couple days ago and the pieces of the puzzle became even more clear. That is IF what she said is true. I immediatly wrote an email to my brother using so much profanity that I sounded like a drunken sailor on leave making whoopie! Oh My Gawd!!!

I'll tone down the language and tell you what I wrote to Tony. You will NOT believe such UGLY words coming from someone like myself. Here goes ...

Sent June 26 at 1:30 AM EST

Tony, I just had a thought and am thinking out loud. You may read this or just delete.

When I was on the phone with Julia G##### and she told me that Alex parrot bit one of her grand kids then "took off" and those were her words: "Took off." Before, she always used the words "flew away." This is the first time she said Alex "took off" so ...

1. Where the freak were they?! Alex has nipped me before and never flown away. I'd have to shake my hand or arm pretty dad gum vigorously and then he would fly to the top of his cage. Every time! INSIDE THE HOUSE! So ...

2. Did they take Alex outdoors?!?!?! THAT is the ONLY way that Alex would have 'Took Of'"!!! "D" IT!!!!!
I am so "M" Freaking pi$$ed as "S" because also ...

3. How old is that grand child? You do NOT let a small child handle a parrot. FREAKING IDIOTS!!! You don't even let an adult handle a parrot who does NOT know how to do so properly. HOW OLD IS THE KID?!

WHERE WERE THEY?!

WHAT THE FREAK DID THE KID DO TO CAUSE ALEX TO FEEL THE NEED TO BITE?!

WHERE THE "H" WAS AN ADULT TO SUPERVISE?!

I CANNOT FREAKING BELIEVE THAT LYING SACK OF "S" (Insert another word for 'street walker' here) OF BABYLON G##### "B" WOULD ALLOW ...

HOW STUPID CAN PEOPLE BE?!?!?! (Rhetorical question.)

I CANNOT EVEN BEGIN TO EXPRESS HOW FURIOUS I AM!!!

FREAKING FURIOUS!!!

I'd better sign off before I stroke out. See ya later.

D ... As in

DA##ED FREAKING MAD AS "H"!!!!! "D" IT!!!!!!!!!!

My Most Cherished Best Friend Alex DEAD and My Life RUINED!!! RUINED!!! SHATTERED!!! Because of ... Gotta go scream and curse ...

*That is the end of my email. I did not sign off.

I sure hope no one thinks me gosh awful horrible for CURSING and being SO ANGRY.

Thank you for letting me talk.

Always,
Angel xoxoxox

PS. Did I say how Freaking Furious I am right now?

Thank you so much each and every one of you for letting me vent in the wee hours this morning
I got a response email from my brother and wish to share it. Also, I want to tell you what I wrote back to him and ... It is the truth. Honest! In my response ...

I am going to give a MySpace page where you can go FOR FREE which will bring you all such comfort! Here goes ...

In a message dated 6/26/2008 6:01:36 AM Pacific Daylight Time, Tony@Somewhere.com writes:

Dottie:

I understand your anger but you need to get over this. The more you obsess with it the longer the incident lasts in your mind. You are punishing NOBODY BUT YOURSELF!!! Please try to move on. Life is way too difficult without holding onto every one of our disappointments ... and there are many.

Get as much money as you can from J G***** if you can ... and then FORGET ABOUT IT! Discuss this situation with Dr. Walker. If you want some guidelines on how to do this: Google "forgiveness" or "letting go."

Tony

Here is my Response to Tony ...

{{{{{Tony}}}}} I couldn't agree more with all you said above. About obsessing (ESPECIALLY my obsessing about Alex cuz I do it tons at times Oy!), about my anger and yada yada yada ... That it only hurts *me* and can and does make me both emotionally ill AND also physically sick as well. Boy howdy, it sure does. Please know how painfully aware I am of this.

I want to THANK YOU for letting me "talk" to you in that email and vent how FURIOUS I felt right after I had that "AH HA" experience. I did curse and shout some more here at home to myself then became quiet and started to get "real bad depressed" again.

Ut Oh! I told myself ain't no way I'm gonna have another nervous breakdown. Nope! So, I first tried TV but there were no programs that helped. Then I went to YouTube ... Nope. Ahhh! Got it! I went to MySpace member Amy Barbara's page. She sings and is an Angel. Her songs are "hers" and I can't hear them anywhere else ...

I went to her page and knew what song I wanted to hear. It's called "One Day" ... I didn't even cry but one or two small 'Boo Hoos' after I sent you that venting email which helped me so much and I THANK YOU!!! THANK YOU!!! THANK YOU!!!

Her songs are not on YouTube so I cannot give you a link to "One Day" but here is the URL Link to her MySpace Page ...

http://www.myspace.com/amybarbera


Or ...

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fusea...iendid=71412417

That second link may be much easier. Go to the upper right where you have a choice of hearing four songs. "One Day" is at the bottom. Click on it and listen.

Ohhh, Tony! Not only did I calm down but I felt so ... I believe! I smiled SO BIG and listened to that song over and over again. Such comfort and reassurance! And her page is so very, very beautiful, too. That lady is an Angel for honest and for true! Ooooo!

Oh, I am still "very upset" and for several reasons all pertaining to how Alex met his demise and yada, yada, yada ... Then I listened to that song again and again and again and ... Wow!!! Hey, I AM getting better going though those "grief" phases then ... I know I'll be able to let go. I know now that I can. I speak the truth. Promise!

Thanks again so much for letting me vent at the VERY MOMENT it entered my mind about ... Well, you read it ... So I just had to write and, unfortunately, I chose you to write to about me being so angry. You poor thing, Tony. Sorry about that.

THANK YOU FOR BEING MY FRIEND, TONY!!! I am doing very well right now. THANK YOU!!!

Big Tight Hugs and Much Love,
Dottie xoxoxox

PS. I already done did them googles about anger, letting go and more ... Long ago and still do. Most of them don't help but thanks so much for your advice! The Pet Loss googles and Websites help me so much more when assuring me I'm not going insane, my feelings are "Normal" and ... I will be fine again. Oh, it may take a while but I am getting there. I sure am.
More Hugs!!!





Big Hugs and Much Love!

Always,
Angel xoxoxox

Dearest Most Cherished Alex, I hope and pray that you cannot see or feel me right now. You always became so worried and comforted me when I was sad or ill. The more facts that come to light, the more questions I have and imagine the most terrifying, hideous ways that you met your Maker.

What were Julia's grand children doing anywhere near you? You were at Ida's house. Right? Then again, all I had was a cell phone number so Ida could have been anywhere when I phoned each day to check up on you. On October the 13th of 2007, I did hear you speaking loud and clear when I made one of my phone calls to Ida.

Julia used to use the words, "He flew away" when lying about what happened to you. A few days ago she said for the first time, "He took off." So I'm told that you "bit one of her grand children then 'took off'." You've nipped me before and I had to shake my arms and shoulders really vigorously before you'd leave my hand, arm or shoulder. Then you would fly back to the top of your cage. EVERY TIME. INSIDE THE HOUSE. So ...

If what Julia said is true, then THAT CHILD TOOK YOU OUTSIDE!!! That is the ONLY way that you would have felt such terror to cause you to bite. You NEVER went near a door or window even when it was closed. If you were on my shoulder and I even walked to the front door or back sliding glass door, you SCREAMED in terror, flew SO FAST back to your cage and booked it inside of your next box. You Were SCARED! This held true for 15 years for gosh sake!

If what Julia said is true then THEY TOOK YOU OUTSIDE AFTER I TOLD THEM OF YOUR HORRIBLE FEAR of being ANYWHERE NEAR the outside. That is IF Julia is saying the truth. But, she lies. Julia and Nico lie. They lie a LOT and I've called them on their "discrepancies" several times. If the child did throw you outside, I do know you're dead because of our having "over bonded" if for no other reason at all. Alex, I can't sleep or eat or ... I keep ruminating on the various horrible fates which took your life. TEARS!!!

Alex, I have to stop doing this because I know you can see me and feel me where you are. This must be upsetting you something fierce gosh awful bad ... Ohhh! I don't have the words. Did the child throw you on the pavement and concuss you? Did the child hit, squeeze or choke you? Did a dog or cat or bird of prey or other animal kill you? How long did it take for you to die from any such attack that very well could have taken place? Did you cry out for me in terror? "Mama! Mama! Help me!" OMG!!!

OR

Are you ... Must stop. More later. I LOVE YOU, ALEX!!!