Anna...that was so well put...I agree 100%...Dottie has made so many people smile...she is a godsend to this forum.

Dottie...unfortunately out of all those eggs, only the one hatched, it was lil pecker, the one with the bad hair..lol. These babies I got when they were 3 days old and they all grew up...they are the adult chickens on that same post as lil pecker.

Sending hugs to you and Alex.
Brutus' Mom

Dottie

I want you to know that god gave you a gift in helping others. I guess that is why he gave your precious Alex to love and take care of. I want you to know on my way home tonight a thought came to me out of know where about your Alex. I remember you saying every time they would call you that ask for you to give them your precious boy. That is because he really did fly off and they didn't want to tell you. If you would have said yes then they did not need to explain and when you said absolutly not they paniced and didnt want to face you so they took your babies to the pound so that they would not see you. I do believe your Alex is out there alive and well. I truley believe someone seen him and caught him and took him in. I truley pray for him now that I know his story. Thank you for your wonderful work you did for my baby.

Thinking of you and my wonderful support team here
Anna

Hi Dottie you will be proud of me I was able to take the rainbow picture you posted for me and put it on my first post where I talk about that day that I took it and what a wonderful feeling that was during that low point in my life. Because believe me I was a mess back then also. But this time there is just something much deeper in my heart and dont know why because my smokey was my everything. I guess my Max has also taught me that you can love again. I never thougt I could ever love another dog like smokey. Boy was I wrong the power of thier love. Well just wanted to tell you I am learning how to use some of these features on here. Once I learn how to shrink my own pictures then I will be doing something.

Anna

Hi, Anna and Sonya. I'm trying my best to catch up and, as you may have already read, my PC is being very uncooperative. So, I hope ya'll won't mind me responding to both of you on this one post. I'll bold and underline who is talking so it will be clearer. Sort of like a virtual conversation. Thank you for understanding and here goes ...

Anna: Dottie
Thank you for lifting my heart. I told Jan you are the human heart whisperer. Please know your work is so well appreciated and admired by many. You have a gift and you sure know how and when to use it.

Bless You
Anna

Me: Awww shuck, Anna. It's just this danged 3rd eye. Really though, thank you so much. Even my late dad from Hades (God rest his miserable soul) used to brag about my big heart when I was a tiny kid. Once, he actually got a used piano for me after I kept begging for either a horse or a piano. Oh, I got a picture of a horse. LOL. Two men in their 20's or young 30's came to deliver the piano as I squealed with joy, sat on the piano bench and just hovered my fingers over the keys ...

Then my Dad told me, "Dottie, there's another little girl who wants this piano really bad. When she found out that the piano was already sold, that little girl cried and cried." Me: "Really?" Dad: "Yes, she's crying her eyes out. That little girl wanted this piano so much and now it's gone." I got really quiet, put my hands down at my side and thought for a few seconds. Man, I felt so sad, but more for me than for that other little girl because I then got up, moved away from the piano I'd wanted more than life and told my Dad, "It's okay, Daddy. She can have it. Please give this piano to that little girl ...

Little did I know that my Dad had winked at those two men before he told me that fib. When I responded the way I did then my Dad turned to those two guys and his face was beaming as he told them, "See? I told you. She's like that all the time." That's when I realized I'd been "Punk'd" ... Why do parents do that to their kids? Mean Daddy. LOL. Thank you again, Ann. Hugs!!!

Sonya: Anna ... that was so well put ... I agree 100% ... Dottie has made so many people smile ... she is a godsend to this forum.

Dottie ... unfortunately out of all those eggs, only the one hatched, it was lil pecker, the one with the bad hair... lol. These babies I got when they were 3 days old and they all grew up ... they are the adult chickens on that same post as lil pecker.

Sending hugs to you and Alex.
Brutus' Mom

Me: Awww, Sonya. Thank you, too. Yes, I'm blushing cuz I don't take compliments very well. Still, I must admit it feels great to be appreciated. Bless you! So only the Alfalfa with the cowlick chick hatched. (Giggle!) That's too bad. Had the other two eggs been candled to see if they were fertile? I always did that when breeding parrots and other birds. Perhaps those other two had not been ... You know what I mean. Those golden laced are so very, very beautiful! Ummm ... May I have one? Kidding, of course. Hehehe. But, I'd sure love to visit them, pet and hold them if they'd let me and watch them frolic. Awesome birdies indeed!!!

Anna: Dottie

I want you to know that god gave you a gift in helping others. I guess that is why he gave your precious Alex to love and take care of. I want you to know on my way home tonight a thought came to me out of nowhere about your Alex. I remember you saying every time they would call you that ask for you to give them your precious boy. That is because he really did fly off and they didn't want to tell you. If you would have said yes then they did not need to explain and when you said absolutely not they panicked and didn't want to face you so they took your babies to the pound so that they would not see you. I do believe your Alex is out there alive and well. I truly believe someone seen him and caught him and took him in. I truly pray for him now that I know his story. Thank you for your wonderful work you did for my baby.

Thinking of you and my wonderful support team here
Anna

Me: Anna, Ida started asking me if she could keep my Alex from the beginning. That would be on the phone from the hotel starting the evening of October 11, 2007. Actually, if I recall correctly, the first time Ida asked was the morning of October 12, 2007. Then again the evening of October 12, 2007. Then again on the morning of October 13, 2007. When I called early evening on October 13, 2007, I spoke with Alex on the phone. There is absolutely no mistaking that it was Alex. I asked Ida where he was as he spoke to me and she told me at his cage inside here home. Alex's last words to me on the phone were, "I Love You! I Love You! I Love You!" And, he made his loud kissing sound between each time he said he loved me. Again, and again, and again ...

No, Hon. Alex didn't fly away. Or, if he did, it had nothing to do with her wanting him. Still, I am about 99.99% positive that Alex did not fly away. She either kept him or he was sold or he was murdered. From what I found out later, it appears he was most likely murdered. I have to keep telling myself how everything is the way it is supposed to be. The proof of that is because everything is the way it is. If it were supposed to be another way, then it would be that other way. But, it's not that other way. It is the way it is which brings us back full circle to the fact that everything is the way it is intended to be.

Thank you so much for caring, Anna. And you too, Sonya. More Hugs!!!

Anna: Hi Dottie you will be proud of me I was able to take the rainbow picture you posted for me and put it on my first post where I talk about that day that I took it and what a wonderful feeling that was during that low point in my life. Because believe me I was a mess back then also. But this time there is just something much deeper in my heart and don't know why because my Smokey was my everything. I guess my Max has also taught me that you can love again. I never thought I could ever love another dog like Smokey. Boy was I wrong the power of their love. Well just wanted to tell you I am learning how to use some of these features on here. Once I learn how to shrink my own pictures then I will be doing something.

Anna

Me: Anna, good on you about the rainbow picture that you yourself took on that day and have now posted. Wonderful! And it makes my heart soar to hear about you finding out you could love another dog again. Okay, now I have tears. They're happy tears though, so that's okay.

Many Comforting Hugs to you both and your Angel Fur Kids!!!



Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Hi Dottie, hope you are having a good day today. I did candle all the eggs and they all were fertilized and had chicks in them...after a few days of lil pecker hatching I opened the eggs (they were way way past due)...all the chicks inside were almost fully grown...maybe halfway, but had died and had been gone for a while as they were beginning to smell...I don't know what went wrong...my temp/humidity was all good...I gave up after that...I felt really terrible that all those chicks had died...I cried like a baby that those sweet little chicks hadn't made it, It was obviously something wrong I had done. I have no clue why lil pecker was the only one to hatch...I just figured she was very very special...and I was very very lucky to have at least one make it.

I'm uploading a couple pics for you and Alex...I'll be back...on dialup today.

here they are:

Black swan...found this online...never saw one though. I've seen immature swans that were greyish before they molted, but never a black one:


And this very peaceful swan picture


Hugs to you and your feather angel

Hi Sonya,

Awww, that's too bad about the other two eggs. Gee, if I told you what I use for an incubator, you'd laugh your butt off. But, I don't think it's anything you did wrong or else none of them would have hatched. That makes sense. Still, you're right about the one that survived being special. What a sweet feather kid. I just love lil pecker to bits and pieces. Wow! What awesome black swans. Alex and I thank you so much! I'm going to have to do something with the bottom one as a good night image for Alex. So awesome! Hey, guess what? I found Tasha and Noushka again but it's an actual photograph. Ya wanna know how I usually tell them apart? Their ears. Tasha's ears are closer together and Noushka's ears are farther apart. So, I just had to do something with that photo and I did put it on your thread. Hope you don't mind if I put it here, too. So beautiful!!!

Yep, those are Tasha and Noushka visiting you again!

Thank you again so much for the back swan photos. Awesome!

Here's one I made just for you, Hon.

Hope you like it.

Big Hugs to you and your Angel Fur Kids Noushka and Tasha!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Hi Dottie Just me again after smokey left me how could I not love another look at my max he had a face that every mommy would love. He was there for me every step of the way through my greif and tears. He never let me down and I will never let him down he is my PAST my PRESENT and my FUTURE until I see him again. So I now have to learn to live for that wonderful day to be with my children that god blessed me with. I love the words that Jorge wrote another day has passed but one day closer to them. I never thought of it that way but oh so true.

Hugs
Anna

Thanks for the lovely image of my Angel girls again. They look so lovely and yes you are right about their ears.
Love Jan xx

HI Dottie I just read your holidy wishes and watched the video. The humor you bring to us. Cant wait til we all meet at that rainbow bridge are we going to have fun being reunited with our babies and meeting all the wonderful people we met becuse of them. What a place its going to be. Sure would be nice to have some type of pet loss reunion to meet everyone who has so much in common the loss of our beloved pets.

Keep doing what you do
Anna

{{{{{Anna}}}}} That's wonderful! Also, I have the perfect song and video to share with you on your thread now that you shared all you just did. My PC is still acting up pretty fierce so it may take a day or two or three, but I won't forget. You betcha.

Many Comforting Hugs to you and your Angel Fur Kid Max!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

{{{{{Jan}}}}} You're very welcome. They are so beautiful!

Many Comforting Hugs to you and your Angel Fur Kids Noushka and Tasha!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

You betcha, Anna. You keep doing what you're doing, too. OK? OK!

More Hugs!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Hi Sweet Baby Boy Alex,

I'm going to do something I rarely do: Share my feelings. It's difficult to think straight and put my feelings into words instead of using images, songs and the like as that's so much easier for me. But, I'll do my best and hope this all makes sense. Up until yesterday, I've managed to remain "comfortably numb." Then, beginning yesterday, none of my Photobucket accounts will allow me to edit. I had to use TinyPic hosting site to edit the mule photo for Madi in the Cyber Shoulder room area and to enhance a photo to post to Jan. That photo to Jan took me over an hour and one would never know by looking at it. Dang.

TinyPic hosting site has almost all the same features as Photobucket, but there are no animated graphics, fewer choice of images to add along with photos, no glitter text, no sparkles, and so on. I had found Christmas ornaments and cards for several members here with the likenesses of their fur kids and now I can't enhance them the way I wish. I do believe that was the last straw. I feel just sick about this. Truly I do ...

Those were to be my gifts to them in hopes of cheering their holidays. Yes, I cried.

So, now my comfortable numbness and is wearing off. I feel upset and that has turned into anger. Anger because the HOA president Nico Pavan and HOA management company Julia Galpin are harassing me yet again as of December 7, 2009. Since I'm feeling far too upset at this point in time to deal with what they did, I've chosen to wait until after the January 3rd. What I'd so love to do is spoil their holidays by letting them know now what action is being taken in response to their most recent harassment to me. That's what I'd love to do, but instead will just hope karma to them will occur for their most recent, unconscionable, egregious act to me, my fur kids and rescued parrot. I do believe in karma. Enough about that because it's so difficult for me to feel much less express anger. Anger is scary stuff. Still, I'm a very patient person so have that going for me. I can wait. I don't want to wait, but realize that it would be better if I did.

Next, I feel so scared. Ut Oh. Now the tears are starting. No tears when thinking about or writing about those monsters and what they've done to me and my fur and feather kids recently. But, the tears come when I express my fear. There are at least 5 crises going on in my life which I don't wish to share here. It's very scary to me. Not exactly terrifying even though at least one thing ought to scare the holy bageebies out of me. But, no ...

Hopefully, all but that one thing will be rectified within the next couple months.

Alex, mostly I am scared because you've begun to fade. Please don't away fade from me, precious Alex ... Oh crap. Now here come the big time tears. Gee, just what I needed along with this headache and nausea. Oy. Well, at least I am feeling and am expressing those feelings so that's a good thing. Alex, perhaps you've begun to fade just for now so that I can remain functional in order to handle all the other stuff. Perhaps you'll come back to my memory once I'm back in the groove after handling those monsters and the crises are over ... Except that one crisis for which nothing can be done. That one doesn't bother me though. Oh, it ought to concern and perhaps worry me to death. But, it doesn't.

Most precious Alex, please don't fade away. I need you!



I Love You and Miss You So Much!!!

Eternally, Your Loving Mama Dottie xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

Hi Dotti your sweet Alex would never leave you. He is within your heart forever. Please hang in there and yes I beleive in Karma also. Dont let those monsters get to you there is nothing more they could possibly do to hurt you they took away the one thing that was the world to you. But they can never take away or distroy his sweet memory. Alex your sweet angle is right there on your shoulder. Thinking about you.

MAX AND I SEND YOU AND ALEX OUR LOVE

Dear Dottie
I'm so sorry and sad that you are in so much pain right now. You are the sweetest person and I know everyone on here will be thinking of you and wishing you healing thoughts.
Your picture of my Angel and the roses is beautiful, don't ever think that you let any of us down, we all love the images you create for us. You have done so much to help so many people on here, I just wish I could do more to help you.
Have a good Christmas Day with your darling fur babies, Alex will be with you. I know it's going to be hard for all of us, but we must remember that our darlings would not want us to be sad.
Love and hugs.
Jan and my Angels Tasha and Noushka xx

Hi Dottie just me again before I forget I just want to send you a special thank you for your kindness of thinking of others berfore your own pain and suffering. I know I speak not only for myself but for everyone here that you have touched. You have the wings of angel yourself the way you fly and visit all of us. Your Alex has one special Angel himself. I want to wish you a very special Christmas tommorow because you are special to all of us. You have brought joy and smiles to all of us here. So please know I will be thinking of you amd your Alex. I will spread some karma dust for you.

God Bless
Anna & My Angel Max

I sent you a message on my post. But I will say it again. That picture I will treasure all the days of my life.

Anna

Thank you so much Anna, Jan and your Angel Fur Kids Max, Noushka and Tasha. I feel a whole lot better. Bless you!

Well, I tried opening yet another Photobucket account and the editing feature won't load there either.

So, I went to TinyPic and began. Hope you like yours from Max, Anna.

Jan, you're next. Then Sonya and Madi and everyone this PC will allow me to do.

Thanks again so much for your kindness, Anna and Jan. Youze guyze are the best!

Big Hugs!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Dottie I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anna

I'm so glad you do, Anna. That makes me smile.

Next, I'll post the poem I wrote for Alex the first Christmas 2 months after he was gone in 2007.

I know he hears me!

Big Hugs!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Happy Christmas Dear Dottie and your fur and feather babies. I love my picture, it made my Christmas Day .
So glad you're feeling better. I'll be thinking of you.
Love and hugs

Jan and my Angels xx

I'm sure Alex will hear your song "Lullaby of Broadway" from where he is Dottie and he'll love it. Thinking of you today and sending my love xx

madi xx

Merry Christmas Dottie and Alex...thinking of you today.

Hugs,
Brutus' Mom

Thanks so much Jan, Madi, Sonya and Anna! I'm so glad you all like the images I made. Hugs!!!

As you can see, Photobucket is back up again. This PC needs some rest, but I'll be back.

Ut oh. It looks like Santa may have had a bit of a problem with air traffic control while making deliveries ...



Lots of Hugs and Love to you all and your Angel Fur Kids!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Hi Dottie Hope you had a nice day yesterday I thought of you and your Alex. I told my dad what a lovely gift you sent me of my Max. It was by far my favorite.

Thinking Of You
Anna

Dottie--

I confess that I didn't read all these posts in great detail...but your poetry is gorgeous, and Alex can maybe take credit for bringing that out in you...

It's a bird, no, it's a plane, no...it's SUPERALEX, able to leap tall buildings in a single bound...!

Your horror must have been unimaginable...I am so sorry. Now I really "get" the Alex story in all its yucky details.

Huge Hugs to you, and let's talk again soon!

Margi and Lwolf

Hi Dottie I hope you are ok I haven't seen you post in a couple days. I am sure the holidays where tough for you as it was for us. Hope to see you on here soon. I miss all the wonderful well wishes that you give to us.

Hope to here from you soon
Anna

Hi Dottie, I hope all is well with you, we miss you here. If you have gone on holidays you should have taken us all with you, we can't manage without you angel. Hugs

madi xx

Dottie,

We are sending you prayers that you are ok, you are so missed by all of us. Are angels are getting concerned now. Please come back to us we all need and miss you very much. Just send us a sign that you are ok.

Anna xoxo

Hi Dottie
I do hope you are ok. I've been reading over your postings again and looking at all the wonderful images, songs, poems and messages that you posted over the Christmas period for us all.
Like Anna said, please just let us have 'sign' that you are ok as we are all missing you so much. You have helped us all so much and you are very dear to us.

Thinking of you and your fur and feather babies.
Love and hugs

Jan and my Angel girls, Tasha and Noushka.

Dottie...where are you?...I just read over your post on the previous page and we are all very worried about you. I am praying hard that everything is ok. Please post as soon as you can....and Alex will never leave you...ever! But I do know that feeling you expressed, the memories fading...I'm afraid of that too.

Hugs my dear cyber friend,
Sonya

Dear Dottie...we are all thinking of you and sending prayers.

Much love to you and Alex,
Sonya

Good Night and God bless dear Alex, send big hugs to your mommy, Dottie. We are all thinking of her.

Love Jan and my Angels Tasha and Noushka x

Dear Dottie

You said 'I'll be back'

Please come back soon

***

Yes, Dottie, we ALL miss you very much!

Sending lots of furry kisses--

Ladywolf and Margi

Our Dearest Angel Dottie we all miss you so much, I hope to see an angel appear soon. You are in our thoughts and prayers.

Sending you Hugs
Anna and My little Angel Boy

True friends love you when you're down, they love you when you're happy, they love you when you make mistakes, they see into your soul and see you for the person you really are and love you unconditionally.
This is the way you love us Dottie and we love you, please share your life with us again. I miss your funny youtube clips, your riotous sense of humour, "so warped like mine" plus some of our new fur babies desperately need their wings. I don't come across many people who are on the same wavelength as me, but you're sure one of them Dotti babe. xx


madi x

Missin' you Dottie....I found this pic of you and Alex!



Hugs,
Sonya

That sure is a great Picture of Dottie and her Alex, Sonya.

Dottie I bet you'll love it.

Please come back and make us all laugh again soon. Only you know how to do that.We all miss you so very much.

Sending love and hugs
Jan and my Angels xx

lol Jan...Alex did get alot more colorful than your average quaker in this image...but I couldn't resist...as soon as I saw the image I thought of Dottie and her dear Alex....because that angel I'm bettin looks exactly like Dottie...minus the hhmm "big wings" she had in the getting to know each other thread.

Miss you Dottie. Praying for you.

What a beautiful picture Sonya, I don't know what Dottie looks like on the outside, but she sure is beautiful on the inside. I don't care if she is "PINK WITH PURPLE DOTS" I want her back!!

madi xx

You sure have a way of making people smile!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just stoping by to let you know you are in my thoughts and prayers. Can't wait for your return

Anna and Angel Max

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Dear Dottie

You sent this picture to me just when I was feeling so desperate, remember, when you were looking for 'Birds in Gods Hands' .
I just wanted to send it to you right now, please, please let us know you are ok. No need to say anything , just send us a sign.
Love and hugs
Jan and my Angels Tasha and Noushka x

Jan what a beautiful picture you sent our dear Dottie I know she will love it.

Anna

We all love you and want you back Dottie, please come back to us xx

madi xx

Beautiful picture Jan...and I do remember the rose pic and how much it meant to you...Dottie sure has a way of making us all feel so much better just when it's needed the most doesn't she?

Dottie...hope you come back soon...there are so many new people coming to the forum...they need your help.

Hugs,
Sonya

Dottie and Alex:

Dottie--

We miss you, I miss you, please come back!!

It's true that there are a lot of new people showing up here who really could use your sweet wisdom and caring--you helped me to feel at home here right away, and we need you! Just let us know that you are okay!!!

XXOO

Margi and Ladywolf