Obama is our only hope on a multitude of fronts.............Bubba...........Bush wll live in comfort for the rest of his days--------Too bad the shoes missed!!!!!!!!!!!!!! A FITTING ENDING INDEED!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bubba

Hiya Toots(in my best Curley voice From the 3 stooges)----------And now to take a left turn...........

Back before you took a break from LS, I had run some names by you to see what you could see/feel concerning these people.I was schocked as to the accuarcy of your responce.They were ALL SPOT On.If I may impose one more time,may I leave 4 more names for you just to see what you may or may not pick up.IF that is IF you would care not to use you physic abilities on these and want to tell me to take a hike I will fully understand as I can only surmise these sessions must be taxing and tiring.3 of the 4 are merely aquaintences and 1 is an old friend of 40 years+ They are:

Frank S.
Joe M.
John W.
Wayne B.

Again I don't want to be a pest.I'm just a curious fellow I guess and truthfully I want to watch my back.


P.S.I really hope you have come through your troubles of late,Namely that those "MONSTERS' who upset your life forever are behind bars.If I lived nesr you I would find thos bastards put a premanent hurt on them as I am more than capable of doing.Ill refrain from describing them.Suffices to say My Dad was form a tough part of Chicago and he left me with'tools' and methods to put people away...........I,m here for ya's pal........Bubba................

Oh, Bubba. Firstly, thank you so much for caring this greatly regarding my loss and your tremendous support to me! You cannot possible imagine how my heart ... Well, no words. One thing though ... If I provide the shovel, would you and Mr. President Obama please dig the hole after you've both knocked the snot outta those three and fed them a sizable portion of asphalt? You do know that I'm half Italian so I want to let you know that my Godfather told me to tell you, "Fornirò il cavo per la pallottola dietro la testa. Capisca? Buon!" I don't know what that means but he was smiling, winked at me and I made sure to kiss his ring. Again, thank a million, Bubba and big hugs!!!

Next: Yep, sometimes using my psychic abilities drain me terribly and even make me feel ill while other times things come to me so easily, quickly and without rearranging so much as a hair on my head. It's uncanny. Bubba, you're one of my very best buds and please know that I wouldn't hesitate to tell you to take a hike and am positive you'd still love me bunches cuz it doesn't take a third eye to see how very dear, compassionate, caring, empathetic, protective and on an on that you are. I'd probably be nice though and tell you something like, "Hey, chuck you, farley. Go out in your jack yard and back off, Dude!" 'Course I'd be really sweet about it ... You know, like the Church Lady doing her "superiority dance." LOL!

Seriously though, I do really love these kind of challenges and always welcome them. It's just that sometimes, nothing comes to me for a while then ... *FLASH!" So, I'll tell you the tiny bit I'm feeling so far. Regarding Joe M ... He is an A-Hole (please pardon my foul mouth), also a friend of convenience if you know what I mean. He's self-absorbed, disingenuous, fibs to get out of either helping or listening to those "friends" who need him. No, he isn't a criminal in the sense of breaking any laws except maybe parking or speeding tickets.

There's a bunch more I had but ... Errr ... Dang it! Oh, I remember a bit more. Joe is a very good actor so to speak. He has every appearance of caring about you, being interested in many facets of your life ... Oh, don't expect to see that borrowed money you gave him. He's real good at sob stories even though he appears to shrug them off but still knows you well enough that he can guilt induce you making you care and feel sorry or bad for him so you'll tell him not to worry about it ... There's more ... Okay, that's enough for now and I'll continue about Joe M later as well as trying to tune into the others you've mentioned.

I sure do hope I didn't disturb you too much by revealing what I have so far about Joe. Bubba, you're just too dad gummed dear, Joe knows it and milks it for all your worth. I'm so sorry!

Hate to end on this note but my fingers are getting tired and my eyes are a bit blurred. Hon, don't you change! I am serious. Boy, what I could tell you about yourself. You're such a God send to sooooo many and that's a fact, Jack!

Big Hugs!!!

Your Pal,
Dottie xoxoxox

Hey there---------Like I said you are spot on in a number of ways.You mentioned money borrowed.This is uncanney.I did some work for him but didn't get paid for a long time.In fact his first check bounced.Come to find out he likes to gamble.So there goes my mortgage money!!!!!!!!!! eventually he paid me in full but in little bits.Somehow I am not surprised at your responce.The fair-weather friend observation rings a few bells also.Hmmmmmmmm.............

I'll be curiously waiting to see what you say about the other guys,In due time though as I don't want you to get sick or other wise.Mainly I pray for you to be well.Yea my Dad was from Chicago during the bootlegger era and was a tough S.O.B. and taught a few lessons to his sissy musician son.As a result I fear no man.The blue meanies 'in' my head are another matter.Oh well one outta two ain't bad.Have a great day and I'll catch ya on the rebound...............Bubba....................

Just remembered-again correct!!!!! I DID tell him not to worry about it(the money) just get it when he could.Even when I was a little kid I would get pushed around by the other kids and still go back to play with them taking more punishment.My mom would say to not be a 'patsy' and I had to look up the word.Shortly after my Dad started 'coaching' me and I learned to stand up to the local schmux.Funny,I find as I grow older that I have taken on more of my Mom's personality in that,I seem to be the first in line to help others financially or other wise only then to not even receive a thank you or whatever.My wife has the same personality and gets similar results.I am thinking as a New Year resolution to just take care of me and my wife and screw everyone else.But i'll probably continue the same M.O. and be the same guy till I croak.Too late and too uncomforable to change I guess.Well I guess I got that off my chest!!!!!!!!! C U later gator................Bubba..............

Dearest Alex, sometimes I feel so sad and frustrated because I just can't find the words to tell you how much I love you, all that you mean to me, and want so badly to thank you for all you are to me. I think I know just how Cat Stevens feels while singing here so I'm going to play it for you since I feel pretty much the same way at those times when expressing myself using words is simply futile. Actually, this song expresses a whole lot more that I want to you to know, too. I miss you so much!!!

The images are very beautiful though and I know you'll love them. I promise to be back soon either here or in the Tribute area when I've found those words because I want so badly for you to know what you mean to me.

Alex, I found my words! I mean every bit said here with no exception, Sweetie. Truly, I am everything I am because you loved me! Thank you so much, my sweet baby boy!!! Here's what I want to tell you, most precious Alex and everything is absolutely true.

Hi, Dottie

You are so good to spread so many smiles around here with your pictures and songs. I know I read how many appreciate what you are doing. Just wanted to touch base with you in your thread about Alex....to let you and him know you are thought about and appreciated.

Since I believe Alex checks in here to read all his posts....it seems like a perfect place to give him a big HUG and you too

Just wishing we could really perform miracles because the best Holiday gifts would be if our special ones were here with us still, healthy, happy, and making us laugh once again.

At least we know they are all Angels...cause really I think only Angels have that special unconditional love within them...and that's why they are Angels.

Hoping each year is better than the one before.

Judy

Hey Dottie-------
Just a little after midnite here in the West and heard a bunch of noise outside.Went outside to see what all the commotion was and realized that it was the new year.Completely forgot about it as this was the first year in a long time I have not worked on new year's eve.Imagine forgetting.Just another freakin year.Feelin kinda lost.Looked to the sky but no shooting star this time.Almost 4 months since Willy has gone.God almighty this hurts.What I would not give.........Just one more time..........as the road winds...........

Dottie I hope you are doin ok.
Bubba.............

Lily and I are getting real close.She is very soulful.Mama loves her dearly.

I sure hear you there, Bubba. These freaking holidays ain't merry at all especially when they're the first ones without your precious fur kid Willy. All those great times, fun and parties with your bully in past holidays now only serve as hurtful reminders. Yep, I sure missed Alex this second holiday season even worse than the first year cuz I was too much in shock, denial and stuff that first year. I kept going back and forth from my screaming like a wounded primate and crying as though I was being tortured then would go into my "This is NOT happening! This is NOT happening! This is NOT happening!" I'd say it over and over and over. That helped keep me at least sane enough to not have to check into St. Joseph's Hospital Mental Health Care Unit. I am grateful for that!

And ya know what, Bubba? I feel robbed. I think you'll know what I mean when I tell you why I feel robbed. Maybe you feel robbed, too. Well, it's like this. Every time I think of all the neat, cute, funny, wonderful times with Alex, I go into hysterics so I find the need to take those memories and put them in a box, on a shelf way up high in the back of a corner in my mind for safe keeping until the time comes, if it does come, when I can open that box again and enjoy "The Way We Were" ... Know what I mean? Hey, it really is a very good coping mechanism along with the "This is NOT happening" thing that I do. I may be way out in left field, but I'll bet you do pretty much the same as me when trying to get through the day, the next hour, and even the next minute at times.

But Bubba. I must confess that I'm a little disappointed in your lack of observation when you went outside to see what that noise was all about and found it to be New Year partying stuff. Well, maybe that noise distracted you and you missed it. That shooting star. It was there, Bubba! Willy flew in (he earned his Angel's wings) to wish you Happy New Year, wearing his New Year hat and brought along a chilled bottle of nonalcoholic bubbly to celebrate with you. Here, I took a picture. See?


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I told you! Ya gotta keep on top of these kinda things, Dude. *Smiling at you!*

Take care, Bubba. Let's keep sharing our thoughts, feelings and experiences. You know
I care and I know you care too!

Big Comforting Hugs!!!

Your Pal,
Dottie xoxoxox

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Dearest Judy, I don't know if you can even possibly imagine how much all you say means to me. As you know by now, I express myself so much better using images, songs, poems and the like. Well, after I read your message to me and remembering all your other pearls of wisdom, kindness, concern, compassion and more that you've shown me time and time again, this song came to me immediately. Honest and for true. I heard you singing this song to me in my mind's eye. See all the Guardian Angels comforting everyone in this video, Judy? They are you!

So, I searched for an image that I wanted to accompany this song you're "telling" me and low and behold! It's perfect and it is you! There you are with your Angel's wings enfolding everyone here to comfort, guide and heal us. I enhanced the image then added the text because it goes along with the title of this song that you're singing to me. Oh, and I put the butterfly in the image because they signify renewed life to me and how we all continue but perhaps in a different form.

Thank You sooooo much for showing me that "Yes, I can!"









Judy, God Bless you Most Abundantly for your support, encouragement, kindness, compassion and all you say, do and are ... Not only for me but for everyone here at LS!!! You are always there for every one of us and know exactly what to say. Thank you for helping me to believe in myself, giving me strength, hope, faith, knowing that Alex hears me, loves me, is here with me ... And so much more ... And so much more ...

Tons of Hugs and Oceans of Love!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Howdee Dottie---I guess I did miss that star.The bully picture reminds me of Willy when he was a baby.All small but a stocky little guy nonetheless.The saving of goodtimes memories is a good one.I sort of do that.Like you said though, it is hard to imagine a time will come when I can look inside the memory box and just enjoy the good times and such.I think I am just too stubborn to get to that point.Depression in one form or another has been with me for many decades.And I think I have just learned to live with it.Willy's passing is a large piece in the jigsaw puzzle to be sure.For my money I feel that some sadnesses and depression simply cannot be cured and must be endured and 'adjusted' to as a lifestyle.God knows I have dropped a few pennies on shrinks and self-help books and the like.Some of us are probably just made that way while others seem to skip through life and actually enjoy it.Well great!!!!!!! Lucky them!!!!!!! I would not trade the time I had with Willy for any amount of money or professional success.As is true with the rest of my past babies and the present one;my little Lily.It's just that Willy (and Rags from my early childhood) Hold that 'special' place that you and I are painfully aware of.Dottie,I guess we just keep on keepin on and deal with this human invented timeline we call the new year until we board the ol bus and pray our dreams of the 'Bridge' come true.What else can we do???? I will be in touch as the time passes.You take care pal,ok??
Your friend Bubba................

Hi there, Bubba. I read your post and have lots I want to share with all you said but will just address one point at this time telling you how I feel about when you say, "I would not trade the time I had with Willy for any amount of money or professional success. As is true with the rest of my past babies ..." Well, you and I differ there and I'm truly ashamed to admit this. Honestly, I feel really ungrateful and ashamed about what I'm going to tell you ...

You know that saying: "It's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all." To me, that's a load of bull crap and sweet lemon rationalization. If I'd never had Alex (or any of my other fur kids, family, friends and so on) and had them die on me, then I wouldn't even know they ever existed and feel such ... Dang! So painful I can actually feel it physically all over every inch of my body. So, if I never knew them, then I wouldn't have to suffer their loss. Bubba? Am I the demon spawn from Hades for feeling that way?

Okay, as Forest Gump always tells ya, "And that's all I want to say about that."

*Heaving a deep sigh and smacking myself upside the head!*

Big Hugs!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

By the way, thank you so much for the angel pic of the bully.Really looks like 'Boy'.Your hard work here at LS is ALWAYS appreciated.Thanx Dottie.
Bub>>>>>>>>>>.

Awww, Bubba. You know how much I love to give you visuals and hope they ease your pain if even for a moment. Hopefully give you a smile, too. Hey, you're my bud ya know! Now, when the heck are you gonna ask your dear wife if she can try to post a photo of Willy here so I can make pretty images and stories with his picture? Maybe more than one pic of Willy ... *Tapping my foot.*

Big Hugs to You, Your Wife, Willy, Lily and all the Gang!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Nope your are Not the aforementioned 'Spawn'.You are just feeling like ~~ and want this awful sadness to pass and wish you never had that temporary happiness with little Alex bird.Oh I know!!!! I am trying to think of a way to help with this physically ill feeling and general awfulness your speak to.and I don't have a balm to prescribe!!!! If I did I would have a helluva mail order business here at LS.I think we are just of that eccentric group of beings that REALLY falls in love with our pets.But you are correct in that had we never known them we would not be hurting now.I wish I had a better answer though.
I think we are going to the movies today.A distraction.Although we might see'Marley and me' I hope I don't regret that choice,
Bubba..........

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*Looking sheepishly down at the ground and making little circles in the sand with the toes on my right foot.* Yeah, you're right, Bubba. *Another Sigh*

Still, "Ignorance can be bliss" when yer not even aware they existed so don't ever know the difference. I hope that made sense.

Bubba! You're thinking about going to the movies on New Years Day? Are you outta yer freakin' mind? Doncha know a million other people have the same idea and you'll have to wait in line to get a ticket for about 3 hours? ... That is if some arse doesn't keep cutting ahead in front of you. They're all probably still high from partying and being loud, rowdy and rambunctious, too. "Are you always this stoopid or are you just putting forth a special effort right now?" OMG! I did NOT say that! I am sooooo bad. Hahaha!

Tons of Silly Hugs!!!

Your Pal,
Dottie xoxoxox

Well...........Your right I AM usually this stoopid!!!!! Too late to change now.Fortunately We got in right away.Saw 'Marley and me' .What was I thinking? Bawled like a baby.Of course he dies at the end.Maybe I am seeing how much pain I can take.We tried(for a second time) to put a picture of Willy on the screen and even tried to put one in the avatar position but no luck.Apparently we need a tutorial.Just another day in Paradise........
Bubba..........

Bubba, please forgive me. Very difficult to talk so I'll speak in phases. Hope you understand. 1. I feel you. About that movie. I've only seen commercials about it but know what it's about. It's my hope and prayer that your cry fest was cathartic and helped but ... I doubt it. Maybe I'm projecting my own feelings so am believing you think, feel and behave the same way about this sort of thing and I'll elaborate ...

The movie is called "Paulie" ... I don't know if you've ever seen it. Hilarious, sad, touching ... All in that movie. Marie gets Paulie as a gift when she's about 8 years old. Movie is a "comedy" in genre so Paulie talks like a human and ... You'll see by these clips. Marie's dad is a %$*#*%& and hates the bird so gets rid of him. But before that, Paulie taught Marie to stop stuttering and a lot more things, too. Paulie always would sing the song to Marie that you'll hear in the last clip ... Paulie sang that song every night to tuck in Marie ...

So the little girl's dad gets rid of the bird. Paulie goes through lots of stuff, meets many people and goes many places over the years trying to find his beloved Marie. He finally ends up in a gosh awful dark basement of a research facility and the janitor (played by Tony Shalhoub from the Monk TV show) takes to him ... Reads up about what breed of parrot he is to nurse him back to health and helps him find his way home. By that time, Marie is all grown up (like in her mid 20's or there abouts) And ... I'm so sorry! Can't say anymore except that Alex and I watched this movie many, many times on the VCR cuz I taped it from the TV ... We both loved it so much ... I still have that tape ... I will never, ever watch it again ... And such a happy, cute, funny movie ... Unbearable to watch it now, know what I mean? Here are some clips ...

Paulie Trailer

Janitor Finds Paulie in that dark dungeon and helps him

Paulie's Reunion with Marie after about a 15 year search - End of movie

Bubba, we're so much alike. I have intentionally never watched Bambi or Dumbo and I'll bet you know why. Yep ... Another day in paradise. *And Another Deep Sigh*

Be talkin' atcha soon again, my friend. Big Hugs!!!

Your Pal,
Dottie xoxoxox

Howdy again, Bubba! On a happier note ...

Paulie's Mexican Fiesta Dance with Cheech Marin

Hope you enjoyed!

More Hugs!!!

Your Pal,
Dottie xoxoxox

Hi Dottie-----I'm so worn out from the past week or whatevever like you,all I have left is :Sigh.............Big breath release.......We'll just carry on for another year.I really liked the videos.I never really 'understood' birds or cats till I joined LS.But I think I get it:All kinds of little (or big) beings can become our kids.All sorts of forms...........The ride continues,HANG ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Bubba...........

I hear you there, Bubba. So ya wanna understand more about birds and cats? Since you enjoyed the videos, I prepared this just for you. Hope you enjoy, my friend!

The new Janitor finds Paulie in "Purgatory - Dungeon" ... Hears him from the hallway while cleaning. Paulie is singing Marie's Lullaby and talking to Marie. The janitor checks it out and really feels bad for the poor thing. He Looks up to find out what breed of Parrot Paulie is to help bring Paulie back to health with food the Janitor finds out that type parrot loves and will make him well again.

Paulie Loves Mangos!

Next: Paulie Loves Mangos! Continued. Really Funny, Touching, Happy and Sad Scene. Mean as Hades Research Scientist. Arg. I love when Paulie insults the Janitor. LOL! Shows how it all started with Marie getting Paulie baby bird when she was a small child. Marie's Mom is so dear and Paulie learns that lullaby from her to sing Marie to sleep.

Click Here

Dad gets ticked off cuz he doesn't feel Marie needs any help to stop her stuttering but Paulie is a much better speech therapist than the professional. Dad don't think so. Meanie! Dad brings Marie a cat so he can get rid of Pauie cuz he hates that bird. The pet cat tortures Paulie. Oy! Some really funny stuff when Paulie speaks, teases and insults the cat but payback is heck. So Marie's dad demands Paulie must go! By the way, Paulie is afraid to fly, Marie tries to teach him, puts herself in peril and OMG! Dad gets rid of Paulie. And ... Just look ...

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Here's more continued neat stuff if you want to see. Great Movie!

Paulie Has "Potty Mouth" in the Pawn Shop so
Sweet Old Lady Will Teach Him Please, Thank you and Help Him Find His Way Home

Sweet Old Lady Goes Blind. Paulie Becomes Her Eyes.
Awesome Scenery - Wow! But Sweet Old Lady - You'll See.

Lonely Janitor Shares His Story with Paulie and More ...

Paulie Makes a Fool out of Mean Research Scientist because he had Lied.
Had told Paulie he would help him find Marie.
Mean Research Scientist has Paulie's flight feathers clipped and
Down to the "Dungeon" Basement goes the birdie ...
But! Lonely Janitor to the Rescue! The Great Escape!

Happy Ending: Paulie Finally Reunites With Marie and Can Now Fly!
Also Janitor and Marie with Love in the air. Awww!

"There's a song that the tree sings when the wind blows.
You're a Flower ... You're a River ...
You're a Rainbow ...
I Loved you the first time I saw you!
And I always will Love you, Marie!!!"

Seeya later, Bubba. Hugs!!!

Your Pal,
Dottie xoxoxox

Hi Dottie

I finally got outside my little Rosie/Family thread to check yours... what you said about keeping those memories in a box, I sure get it!

My computer screen saver always went to "my pictures" and ya know Dottie, 90% of those pictures are now of someone either dead or gone. So I switched it to an affirmation that "there is joy on it's way... believe..."

And I have a bulletin board with Ziggy, Zita and other of my now dead pet friends. Well I just untacked everyone of them and put them away. I just can't look into the face of another one that's gone anymore. Some pet-killer is walking around out there and I'd planned on putting up a notice at Christmas reminding them that Ziggy was missed, but you know I just couldn't bring myself to put her little face on a poster again. I have to believe that what goes around comes around because I just can't do anything about it. The most I hope is that Zita and Ziggy will return to me in some form of reincarnation. I don't really know how possible that is, but that's what I hope for.

Anyway just saying that I understand..

Jan.

I LOVE this angel picture!

Jan.

Parrots are so intelligent.I used to see giant ones in some of the tourist spots when I worked in South America.Too Bad I couldn't teach Willy to talk.I think he woulda sounded like Yogi Bear.
Thanks for sharing those Vids.I have not seen them all yet.But I shall................
Bubba..............

Well if you are then so am I.

I had that thought about Zita and then Ziggy - OMG, if I didn't adopt her she might have found a happy home and still be ALIVE. Seeing Zeus by himself has been one of the most painful things - would I purposely choose that pain if I was knowing this when I went to the SPCA looking for a cat... well I don't think so.

Lately when I look at Zeus he does little things that remind me of Zita. Even my mom (who thought I was taking a long time grieving Zita) noticed how alone Zeus seemed when she came over at Xmas. Well my mom's not a cat person, but a medium I know asked me if someone had mentioned about a kitten coming my way, and when I told my mom, she didn't even do her usual "that wouldn't be a good idea" thing. I'm not at all looking for one, I just want Zita and Ziggy back even if that is totally irrational. (Also funny how moms are always moms no matter how old you get - but I'm grateful for my parents now that x-h has gone loopy on me... but that's another story!)

Anyway Dottie - who would ever choose all this pain? Well they say we choose these experiences to learn, and I'm still trying to figure that one out. Trying even more though, regardless of "why", just to live in the moment and channel the grief somewhere. x-h has pulled some real doozies lately and I find food is just gross to me. My body is in shock and the thought seeing x-h in person makes me physically sick!!! He emailed that he wanted to "visit" and pick up more stuff from the garage (he brings his daughter to shield himself from me) and I went into hysteric sobbing. I asked a counsellor friend what I should do about this and she suggested somebody drop it off to him instead. That felt so much better of an idea. Of course x-h went all paranoid and said he didn't trust my motives... then our vet called him about something to do with my complaint to the vet association about Ziggy... he told her that I had a restraining order on him...!!?? If I didn't want to puke so bad from the shock of it all, I'd probably be laughing my *ss off. Pardon the profanity but those words seem to make me feel better right now when talking about x-h.

The smell of cooking - euch!! Soup is okay, sometimes. Yoghurt with blueberry smoothies.. but dry normal type food - ick, ick, ick.

Whine, whine, whine...

Jan.

Dottie:

Thank you so much for the Angel picture and the Hero song by Mariah Carey. I saw it a little earlier but wanted to wait until I had the time to click on it and listen to it. It made my eyes fill with tears...it really is a beautiful song.

And your words to me are very special. Thank you again for such a wonderful "present".

You are a true Angel, spreading around cheer, smiles, beautiful pictures, beautiful songs,
and yes, words of wisdom.

Hugs and love to you in this New Year. May each Year be better than the one before.



Judy

Hi Jan and everyone. Sorry to be so late in getting back. My PC went corrupt after I installed a "FixMe" program and I've been back and forth with 3 different people at Dell Support, 3 people at Verizon regarding my DSL modem and 5 people at AOL because it wouldn't allow be back online. Thank gosh I still have all my Dell CD's cuz I used them to reinstall my Windows XP ... Three times. And the Dell people were really dear, patient, took many hours over the last three days and even used that feature where they can get into my computer, see all I'm seeing, take over control and perform all the repairs themselves. Fascinating thing to watch, I must admit and God bless them!

It's good to be back and I'm a bit sleep deprived after only getting a couple naps between support sessions over the last three days and this poor PC has been running nonstop all that time during repairs, it's overworked and running really hot so please bear with me since it may take a while as respond to each of youze guyze. Thanks!

Jan, so you feel that way about putting those memories in a box, way up high on a shelf in the back corner of your mind, too. You sure do get it! That was great for you to change your computer screen saver to "an affirmation that "there is joy on it's way... believe..." It sure would tear me up seeing what you had there before that.

So, you took all the posters down from the bulletin board? Hey, I can understand your reasons. And you decided not to put up a Christmas poster of Ziggy as a reminder of how much he's missed. Hey, that's not only good for you but if you had put up a Christmas poster for Ziggy, that murderer would probably have gotten a great kick out of it and perhaps may have even felt encouraged to commit more carnage. I kid you not. Good for you, Jan!

I too don't want any freakin' reminders that Alex ever even existed ... But he did. And I feel so guilty and ... More. I do him a great injustice by not wanting to remember all he was to me, did for me, meant to me ... Like you, my kid was my world! I just don't want to even deal with ... You can finish that sentence, Jan. You appear to feel the same way.

As far as Ziggy and Zita returning to you in some form of reincarnation, don't rule it out. Keep an open mind. Have faith, Jan. All things are possible, many mysteries are real and ... Okay, this is for you, Ziggy, Zita and all your fur babies that you'll be seeing soon one way or another.

The photograph I chose and enhanced for you is "The Cat's Eye Nebula" taken by the Hubble telescope. Here's a description of this video: "The very best images from the Hubble Space Telescope have been blended with music from the motion picture "Contact" to bring you this mind blowing interstellar experience."

Look up in the sky, Jan!





All things are possible, Hon. And miracles happen every day ... So, hang in there!

God bless and I love ya to bits!!!

Your Pal,
Dottie xoxoxox

Hi again, Jan. Since you love that image so much, here's the original with text at the top. I erased the text which makes the area white. So, then I "grabbed color" and filled it in with the same there already. In my opinion, the image was a bit too dark so I brightened it up. You'll see ...

Click here to view original image.

And, this one's for you, Jan ...

Click here: "Angel Jan with her Fur Babies."

I hope you like it, Hon. Big Comforting Hugs!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

PS. This PC needs to rest a while but I'll be back soon to respond to everyone else. More Hugs!!!

Hi again everyone. I thought you might be interested in seeing the correspondence between me and the support at ErrorFix program that I installed which made my PC go corrupt. You will absolutely love the email I just sent to them after their response to me.

There is only one fib in the email I sent today. It was not my grandmother who told me that pearl of wisdom. I never knew any of my grandmothers. But, it is what one of my online friend's grandmother used to tell him along with sharing other such pearls of wisdom with her grandson Carl so I don't think he'll mind it that I borrowed his grandma's advice she often shared with him.

Hey, Carl's a good buddy, retired police officer and retired Marine officer, too. Wonderful fellow and super pal. His wife Tammy is terrific as well. Okay, here's a copy of the first email I sent them ...

Sent to: support@errorfix.com
Subject: ISSUING MAJOR COMPLAINT PLEASE READ THANKS!
Date: 1/3/2009 12:31:12 PM Pacific Standard Time

Dear Sir and/or Ma'am,

I wish to issue a complaint and please forgive me but I'm terribly upset and pretty gosh darned angry. Being a laid back, sweet old lady, this comes difficult to me telling you the following ...

I paid what is a fortune to me as I'm disabled and on a limited income from SSI to purchase your program after reading all it offers regarding fixing the PC errors I was experiencing. Actually, one error specifically. After my account was activated, I performed all the goodies your ErrorFix promised to offer only to have it remove many free maintenance and other programs I'd installed years ago, made my cherished screensaver vanish, more damage was done to my PC and your ErrorFix program then made my PC go corrupt causing the loss of thousands of files I saved over the years, lost all "My Favorite Places" which I had bookmarked and ... I could go on and on like the Every Ready bunny.

This infuriated me, to say the least. I DID follow all your program's instructions perfectly and It did NOT even "fix/repair" the one and only problem for which I purchased the ErrorFix program from you.

It's certainly not my intention to throw a pity party for myself since I simply cannot bear to be pitied and don't even take condolences that great unless it's something along the lines of people saying: "Dang! What a bummer!" Or: "Man that really stinks, Dottie!"

That having been said, as I told you, I am disabled, receive very little money from SSI, am a shut in and only leave home to go to my physicians, the pharmacy and sometimes the corner store all with the aid of volunteers to help me. Also, I'm very grateful to get one free, small meal a day delivered to my home from "Meals on Wheels" and God bless them!

Sir, computers are my Window to the Outside World!!! I never visit anyone and do not allow visitors because I fear they will be horrified from my disfiguring disabilities which include ... Well, as Forest Gump would say, "And that's all I want to say about that."

Therefore, I respectfully request a refund in full from my purchase to you for your ErrorFix program and to have it uninstalled (which I can do myself if that's the best way to go about it). Right now, I'm using my last PC I saved from around 7 years ago so I can at least write to you because I lost that feature as well as many others too due to your ErrorFix program.

Please respond to me as soon as possible regarding this gosh awful dilemma because, like I said, computers are my only Window to the Outside World!

Thank you for your expeditious attention and careful consideration to this urgent matter.

Most Sincerely,
Dottie

(Phone: 813-***-***X - In case you wish to call me.)

************************************************

End of email. Hey, I was being pretty darned nice. This is what I got back from them. Please excuse the brackets. I intentionally did not strip them so you can see what their response really looks like, spacing and all. Their response and my reply begins now.

(SENT TO support@errorfix.com 6:07 PM on Tues. Jan 6th, 2009)

Sir: Read my response at the bottom of this email so I may save all our correspondence and share it with the parties you'll see listed below. And yes, I am terribly angry about this now.

Again, go to the bottom of this email to read my response. >>>

In a message dated 1/3/2009 10:18:41 PM Pacific Standard Time, support@errorfix.com writes:
I am sorry you're having trouble activating ErrorFix. Let's see if we can
fix the problem.

There are two ways to register. The first is the Quick Registration Process:

1. Click on the following link and select 'Run'
http://ErrorFix.com/regen.php?email=MaidenNTheShaden@aol.com
2. Then select 'Yes' to register
3. Then Restart your computer.

The second is to register in the program itself:

1. Open the unregistered copy of ErrorFix. If you need to download the
latest version, you can do so at this link:
http://www.errorfix.com/install.php

2. Once the program is open, look for the 'Register Now' button on the
main console or a 'Register Now' Tab at the top of the console. If you
can't find either a button or Tab that says 'Register Now,' click on the
'Scan Again' button. This will conduct a scan that - once ended - will
ask you to register.

3. Please copy and paste the text below into the corresponding fields of
the Registry screen:

Your Email Address: MaidenNTheShaden@aol.com
Your Serial Number: 1A-E81-B1011-1B1A1-2

If you decide to type in your information, please make sure to use
upper-case letters when appropriate and to include dashes.

4. Click 'OK' to complete the registration.

If you would like to see a tutorial on registering and using your product,
please use this link:
http://rpc.2squared.com/manualdb.php?programName=ErrorFix


---------------------------------
To get the best results from Error Fix, please follow our User's Guide to
removing Adware, Spyware and viruses. It will walk you through all the
Spyware removal techniques and products available in our Member's Area.
Using a combination of several coordinating applications, you should be
able to rid your computer of almost all types of Spyware.

You can find the guide at this link below. You will need to scroll to the
bottom of the page.
http://www.ErrorFix.com/members/start.php?...eShaden@aol.com

To login, use the email you entered when purchasing. Make sure you go
through all of the software including the free virus software. It may take
a little while, but it is worth it to get your computer running as
smoothly as possible.
----------------------------------

Registration information for AntiSpyware:

-Order # = MaidenNTheShaden@aol.com

Serial # = 12FC-1375-9B14-AE16

AntiSpyware Download link =
http://www.antispyware.com/install.php

Please let us know if you have any more trouble and we will do our best to
resolve any problems.


--
For any further questions please reply to this email address and include
all previous messages in the email.

Regards,

The ErrorFix Support Team
-----------------------------
How am I doing? Email my supervisor David Page at: feedback.vmg@gmail.com
with any feedback. Please use this address only for feedback as it is not
monitored 24/7 and all support requests sent to the address will be moved.

************************************************

That's then end of their email to me. Now comes the fun part. My response is pretty danged nasty and I wish you could see the actual email because I keep using larger print and underlining in several places.

"Want to take a ride?" Here's what I just wrote back >>>

Sir: Read my response at the bottom of this email so I may save all our correspondence and share it with the parties you'll see listed below. And yes, I am terribly angry about this now.

Again, go to the bottom of this email to read my response.

In a message dated 1/3/2009 10:18:41 PM Pacific Standard Time, support@errorfix.com writes:
I am sorry you're having trouble activating ErrorFix. Let's see if we can
fix the problem.

There are two ways to register. The first is the Quick Registration Process:

1. Click on the following link and select 'Run'
http://ErrorFix.com/regen.php?email=MaidenNTheShaden@aol.com
2. Then select 'Yes' to register
3. Then Restart your computer.

The second is to register in the program itself:

1. Open the unregistered copy of ErrorFix. If you need to download the
latest version, you can do so at this link:
http://www.errorfix.com/install.php

2. Once the program is open, look for the 'Register Now' button on the
main console or a 'Register Now' Tab at the top of the console. If you
can't find either a button or Tab that says 'Register Now,' click on the
'Scan Again' button. This will conduct a scan that - once ended - will
ask you to register.

3. Please copy and paste the text below into the corresponding fields of
the Registry screen:

Your Email Address: MaidenNTheShaden@aol.com
Your Serial Number: 1A-E81-B1011-1B1A1-2

If you decide to type in your information, please make sure to use
upper-case letters when appropriate and to include dashes.

4. Click 'OK' to complete the registration.

If you would like to see a tutorial on registering and using your product,
please use this link:
http://rpc.2squared.com/manualdb.php?programName=ErrorFix


---------------------------------
To get the best results from Error Fix, please follow our User's Guide to
removing Adware, Spyware and viruses. It will walk you through all the
Spyware removal techniques and products available in our Member's Area.
Using a combination of several coordinating applications, you should be
able to rid your computer of almost all types of Spyware.

You can find the guide at this link below. You will need to scroll to the
bottom of the page.
http://www.ErrorFix.com/members/start.php?...eShaden@aol.com

To login, use the email you entered when purchasing. Make sure you go
through all of the software including the free virus software. It may take
a little while, but it is worth it to get your computer running as
smoothly as possible.
----------------------------------

Registration information for AntiSpyware:

-Order # = MaidenNTheShaden@aol.com

Serial # = 12FC-1375-9B14-AE16

AntiSpyware Download link =
http://www.antispyware.com/install.php

Please let us know if you have any more trouble and we will do our best to
resolve any problems.


--
For any further questions please reply to this email address and include
all previous messages in the email.

Regards,

The ErrorFix Support Team
-----------------------------
How am I doing? Email my supervisor David Page at: feedback.vmg@gmail.com
with any feedback. Please use this address only for feedback as it is not
monitored 24/7 and all support requests sent to the address will be moved.


> In a message dated 1/3/2009 2:20:20 AM Pacific Standard Time,
> support@ErrorFix.com writes:
>
> Thank you for your Purchase.
> You have Successfully registered your email address.
> You may log into your account here to download the software:
>
> http://www.ErrorFix.com/members/login.php
>
> You will need the email address you used when purchasing.
>
> --------------------------------------------------------------------
> **New** Quickly register your copy of ErrorFix
> --------------------------------------------------------------------
> Instructions:
>
> 1. Go to the link below
>
> http://www.ErrorFix.com/regen.php?email=Ma...eShaden@aol.com
>
> Please select "Run", then select "Yes" and restart your computer.
>
> --------------------------------------------------------------------
> Manual Method
> --------------------------------------------------------------------
> Simply open ErrorFix and plug the following information:
>
> Your Order No.: MaidenNTheShaden@aol.com
> Your Serial Number: 1A-E81-B1011-1B1A1-2
>
> Trouble entering in the information? Please go here for a visual guide:
> http://www.ErrorFix.com/support.htm
> ---------------------------------------------------------------------
>
> Please store carefully!!!
>
> Your bank statement will show a charge by "CLICKBANK".
> Should you ever need assistance you may contact us at
> _support@ErrorFix.com_
> (mailto:support@ErrorFix.com)

> Dear Sir and/or Ma'am,
>
> I wish to issue a complaint and please forgive me but I'm terribly upset
> and
> pretty gosh darned angry. Being a laid back, sweet old lady, this comes
> difficult to me telling you the following ...
>
> I paid what is a fortune to me as I'm disabled and on a limited income
> from
> SSI to purchase your program after reading all it offers regarding fixing
> the
> errors I'm experiencing. Actually, one error specifically. After my
> account was
> activated, I performed all the goodies your ErrorFix promised to offer
> only
> to have it remove many free maintenance and other programs I'd installed
> years
> ago, made my cherished screensaver vanish, more damage was done to my PC
> and
> your ErrorFix program then made my PC go corrupt causing the loss of
> thousands
> of files I saved over the years, lost all "My Favorite Places" which I had
> bookmarked and ... I could go on and on like the Every Ready bunny.
>
> This infuriated me, to say the least. I DID follow all your program's
> instructions perfectly and It did NOT even "fix/repair" the one and only
> problem for
> which I purchased the ErrorFix program from you.
>
> It's certainly not my intention to throw a pity party for myself since I
> simply cannot bear to be pitied and don't even take condolences that great
> unless
> it's something along the lines of people saying: "Dang! What a bummer!"
> Or:
> "Man that really stinks, Dottie!"
>
> That having been said, as I told you, I am disabled, receive very little
> money from SSI, am a shut in and only leave home to go to my physicians,
> the
> pharmacy and sometimes the corner store all with the aid of volunteers to
> help me.
> Also, I'm very grateful to get one free, small meal a day from "Meals on
> Wheels" and God bless them!
>
> Sir, computers are my Window to the Outside World!!! I never visit anyone
> and
> do not allow visitors because I fear they will be horrified from my
> disfiguring disabilities which include ... Well, as Forest Gump would say,
> "And that's
> all I want to say about that."
>
> Therefore, I respectfully request a refund in full from my purchase to you
> for your ErrorFix program and to have it uninstalled (which I can do
> myself if
> that's the best way to go about it). Right now, I'm using my last PC I
> saved
> from around 7 years ago so I can at least write to you because I lost that
> feature as well as many others too due to your ErrorFix program.
>
> Please respond to me as soon as possible regarding this gosh awful dilemma
> because, like I said, computers are my only Window to the Outside World!
>
> Thank you for your expeditious attention and careful consideration to this
> urgent matter.
>
> Most Sincerely,
> Dottie
>
> (Phone: 813-***-***xx - In case you wish to call me.)
> **************New year...new news. Be the first to know what is making
> headlines. (http://www.aol.com/?ncid=emlcntaolcom00000026)

************************************************

Sir, I read your response of regret and that "you're sorry I'm having trouble activating ErrorFix. Let's see if we can fix the problem." >>>

Is this some kind of Spybot automated response from you? What part of "Your ErrorFix program made my computer go corrupt and I had to reinstall the original Dell CD Windows XP disk (three times) to get my PC working again ... And my Dell Resources Disk ... And my Dell Media Experience had to be reinstalled ... FIVE Disks totaled ..."

Now pay close attention and read what this means. >>>>

THIS MEANS THAT I LOST EVERYTHING including the ErrorFix program I purchased from you ALONG WITH THOUSANDS OF IMPORTANT FILES, PROGRAMS, BOOKMARKED PLACES ... I Lost Everything and this computer went back to every appearance of having come right from the factory with nothing on it at all! COMPLETELY BLANK!

What part of any of the above do you not understand? Did I stutter? I don't think so. Therefore >>>

Perhaps Cole from Dell support can explain it to you. His phone number at Dell support is: 1-800-999-3355. Cole's voice mail extension is: 7236219 and the case number Cole gave me is: 6303899044 >>>

Then there was Leia at Dell Support. Same phone number of: 1-800-999-3355 but her voice mail extension is: 7248346. Case number still 6303899044 >>>

Then there was Mark at Dell Support. Same phone number and case number as above: 6303899044 >>>

I spent Three Days with these people who took hours and hours trying to make right what YOUR ErrorFix PROGRAM DID TO MY PC CAUSING IT TO GO CORRUPT. AND I HAD TO PAY $60.00 FOR THAT HELP WHICH YOUR ErrorFix PROGRAM CAUSED SO YOU OUGHT ALSO BE HELD ACCOUNTABLE AND RESPONSIBLE FOR PAYING THAT SIXTY DOLLARS I HAD TO PAY THEM TO FIX YOUR MESS!

IF YOU DO NOT REFUND ME THE MONEY I PAID TO PURCHASE YOUR ErrorFix PROGRAM WHICH RUINED MY PC BY CAUSING IT TO GO CORRUPT AND FOR WHICH I SPENT $60.00 AND THREE DAYS WITH THOSE THREE PEOPLE AT DELL SUPPORT WHILE DOING MOST OF THE MANY HOURS OF WORK MYSELF >>>>

IF I DO NOT RECEIVE A REFUND IN FULL FROM YOU I SHALL REPORT YOU TO THE BETTER BUSINESS BUREAU AND ALL FURTHER CORRESPONDENCE WILL BE HANDLED THROUGH MY ATTORNEY JOHN HAMIL >>>

I KID YOU NOT!

You should also be responsible for the $60.00 which I had to pay Dell for their support because of what YOUR ErrorFix PROGRAM DID TO MY COMPUTER. I ... AM ... SERIOUS!

Do you think because I am now disabled that I am stupid or what?

I served in the medical field for over 26 years as well as in Animal Rescue and Rehabilitation. I am a college graduate and pretty gosh darned computer savvy.

I may be a kind, sweet, dear little old disabled lady but please heed my warning and do NOT test my patience any further. As my loving, sainted Grandmother used to tell me when sharing her pearls of wisdom: "Never mess with old people. They have nothing to lose." Very smart woman, God rest her soul. But, I digress >>>

As I explained earlier in my first email, MY COMPUTER IS MY ONLY WINDOW TO THE OUTSIDE WORLD! Your ErrorFix program ROBBED ME OF THREE DAYS OF MY LIFE DUE TO THE CARNAGE IT CAUSED NOT ONLY MY COMPUTER BUT MY PERSONAL HEALTH AND LIMITED FINANCES! I ... Am ... Serious!

Now, read again all I just wrote above then >>>

You can contact those people at Dell Support with all the necessary information I gave you then >>>>

SIR: I DEMAND THAT YOU ISSUE MY REFUND IMMEDIATELY FOR YOUR ErrorFix PROGRAM WHICH I NO LONGER EVEN HAVE FOR ALL THE REASONS I TOLD YOU AS WELL AS BEING COURTEOUS ENOUGH TO ALSO ACCEPT ACCOUNTABILITY BY PAYING ME THE SIXTY DOLLARS WHICH I HAD TO PAY DELL SUPPORT FOR THEIR SERVICE AND HELP TO ME BECAUSE OF THE HORRIBLE DAMAGE YOUR ErrorFix PROGRAM DID TO MY COMPUTER. IF YOU DO NOT DO THE ABOVE THEN YOU SHALL BE HEARING FROM MY ATTORNEY.

PERIOD. END OF DISCUSSION.

Signed:
Ms. Doris C. Zappone
CC: John Hamil, Esquire (My Attorney)

************************************************

That's the end of my email response to them. Oy. I did NOT know I had it in me to be so nasty but I'm so gosh darned tired of people and organizations taking advantage of me in real life as well as them ignoring and/or "pushing me around and putting any and all of my issues on the back burner."

I'm talking about Alex parrot ... And none of those organizations doing something about what those three monsters did to Buddy dog, Styx kitty and of course Alex parrot ... Also no one helping me personally as those many organizations which promised ... All sorts of stuff but not one of them has come through and I've tried time and again for about the last 3 to 5 years. Not one tiny single thing promised to me has happened. Word.

I mean, for Pete's sake ... What the freak does it take to get the appropriate organization to at least provide one of those chairs you use in the tub so you can sit to shower as well as a rail to be put on the wall there at the bathtub? They say, "Sure thing!" They've been saying that for years and still say, "Sure thing!" I wish they'd just tell the truth like, "Sorry, toots but yer outta luck. Buh Bye." I can take the truth. *Shaking my head.*

Man, writing that to support@errorfix.com felt pretty good.

PS. I love Carl's sainted Grandma. Ya think the ErrorFix people will get the message this time? Oy. I was gosh awful nasty as heck. But, I do mean every word I wrote to them ... Dad gum those morons. Grrr!

Thanks for letting me vent. Hugs!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Hi Dottie

No I didn't take any posters down from public bulletin boards. It was my own personal bulletin board that was on my wall. It was filled with pictures of Ziggy and Zita, Merlin and others. It is those ones, the ones I looked at every day that I couldn't face anymore, along with my screen saver that showed all "my pictures". I wanted to have a poster permanently up about Ziggy and about her murder, but I just don't have the energy to do it now. I don't know who did this and whether posters do or don't make a difference. It's just that I can't face putting her little face in front of me and thinking about what happened anymore. I have to believe in the law of "cause and effect" in all these situations of my life right now for ALL involved. If I think anymore about Ziggy's murder I think I will do harm to myself, at least right now at this moment.



Thanks for that link - those are amazing pictures. And yes, I know there is more to life than on the surface... far, far more... And I also know that all in our physical world is fluid and temporary even though we get fooled to thinking some things are more permanent than others.

Albert Einstein (who I know you like) said:

Reality is merely an illusion, albeit a very persistent one.

Thanks for thinkin' of me Dottie.

Jan.

Aww thanks Dottie - the thoughts I was having yesterday during a 13 hour power outage were not so angelic though! While I shovelled the foot of snow off my block long driveway, trekked back and forth with firewood to keep the place heated, stayed awake most of the night putting logs in.... well when I broke the ice off my steps with the shovel lets say my imaginary words to x-h were not very "angelic".

But it's nice if someone thinks I have those qualities...

Jan.

Whoa!!!!! yea, you bad--I don't Eeeeeeeeven wanna mess with you.I can' t wait to hear the next response from those schmux.............

GO GET 'EM KIDDO.............
In your corner.......
Bubba...............

Hi Jan! I'm gonna answer Bubba first then shut down my PC to let it rest a bit then come back and talk actcha, Hon. Thanks and Hugs!!!

Well, Bubba. That was fast! Lookie what I just got in email from them ...

Subject: Re: ErrorFix Login/Password - ISSUING MAJOR COMPLAINT AND NOW VERY ANGRY!
Date: 1/6/2009 5:03:19 PM Pacific Standard Time

Hi,
please use the link below to file your refund request.
Please select for Subject of Request:
'I would like to return a product.'

http://www.clickbank.com/csinquiry.html

Your Order number is

C9FE9N8N _ _ 01/03/2009 2:19 AM PST

Thank you for your email and for trying us out.

--
For any further questions please reply to this email address and include
all previous messages in the email.

Regards,
Gavin
The ErrorFix Support Team
-----------------------------
How am I doing? Email my supervisor David Page at: feedback.vmg@gmail.com
with any feedback. Please use this address only for feedback as it is not
monitored 24/7 and all support requests sent to the address will be moved.

************************************************

I already filled out that form and it was successfully sent. In the field that asks if I have any further questions I typed in the following ...

Do you require any further information? When will you be refunding my debit card? Hopefully it will be immediately considering all the carnage your ErrorFix program caused making my PC go corrupt. Perhaps you ought consider renaming your program. I could suggest a few product titles. Please answer my questions ASAP.

Doris C. Zappone

************************************************

After I finished filling out the form, I got this ...

Success

Thank you for contacting ClickBank, the internet's premier retailer of digital goods. We are dedicated to exceptional customer service and one of our representatives will contact you within two business days. Our customer service hours are Monday through Friday from 7:00 a.m. to 6:00 p.m. Mountain time. We look forward to assisting you!

ClickBank Customer Service Team

Ha! I know I already said it but ... Like Carl's grandma used to say, "Never mess around with old people because they ain't got nothing to lose."

Thanks lots, Bubba! Hugs!!!

Okay, gotta boot down for a little while to let this PC rest and I'll be back.

Hugs to you too, Jan!!!

One Mean Mama,
Dottie xoxoxox

PS. Bubba, the song "Don't Mess Around With Jim" just came to mind ...
"You don't tug on Superman's cape.
You don't spit into the wind.
You don't pull the mask off that Old Lone Ranger ...
And you don't mess around with Jim!" Or Bubba or Jan or Dottie ...

Be back as soon as I can. Need to rest the PC a little.
Here I go >>>

Hey Dottie-----Well they knew after reading your 'to the point' communique that they were on the losing end of this deal.The attorney reference probably sealed the deal.Good for you.Don't mess with Mama!!!!!
C U lata..........
Bubba...........

What a bunch of IDIOTS!!...It reminded me of a situation I had with the RMV..I went to get my NEW car inspected. They said I had to remove the license plate FRAME or it would not pass. Baffoodled, I email the RMV. Gave them a piece of my mind. They responded with a novel about it being illegal to block the #'s. HELLO,,,I'm talking about the decorative frame around the plate, dopes..Who trains these people in customer service???I hope you get the answers your looking for, but you know what; don't count on it..Let us know how you made out..Ann

Hi again. Little by little, my PC is recovering and I can respond to everyone.

Well, Bubba. I have several videos of other dogs saying things like "I love you" and "I want my mama." Remember Sharkey the Pitbull with those chicks? I've got a tape of him saying "I love you." And, some say, "Hello!"

But if you REALLY wanna get your mind blown away, this is the very best by far talking cat I have ever, ever seen and heard. Yes, it is the cat speaking those sentences and the video is captioned even though I can clearly understand him. Get a load of this!

This Cat is Really Talking!

And here's the "I want my Mama" doggie.

"I Want My Mama!"

Here's Pitbull Sharkey who loves chicks saying, "I Love You!"

Pitbull Sharkey says, "I Love You!" Several Times.

Bubba, you just gotta be patient. You can teach your bullies to say hello and I love you. You bet! But, If ya really want some intelligent conversation, you'll have to meet Einstein the African Gray parrot. Amazing and hilarious!

"Superstar!"

Last but certainly not least, you can also teach your dog to add and multiply. I kid you not. No hand signals are used either. How does this doggie do that? First, a trick showing just how much self control this doggie has then she will answer math questions.

Magpie - One Smart Dog!

Weren't those all something? Hope you enjoyed.



To Bubba and Ann as well, yep. Let's see if I have to pull a few more teeth before my debit card is refunded my those idiots. Keep your fingers crossed. Ann, that was unreal! What a bunch of maroons at your RMV. Oy. I'll keep you all posted. Take care!

Big Hugs!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

I have not forgotten you Jan and Judy. Jan, I have some reinforcements I'm sending to help you shovel all that snow and stuff. I've already made the image. I hope this PC will run just a while longer before I need to shut down and let it cool off a bit again. See ya'll soon and Hugs

Oh, now I understand what posters you mean, Jan. You also said: "If I think anymore about Ziggy's murder I think I will do harm to myself, at least right now at this moment." Hon, don't do it. Please don't harm yourself. If you do, you'll regret it. Mark my words. I've been there. It's embarrassing as hell when you harm yourself, get taken to the ER, they treat whatever you've done to yourself then they're legally bound to protect themselves by admitting you in their mental health unit until they themselves decide you are no longer a threat to yourself or anyone else. If you can't afford to stay in that hospital's mental health unit, then they must Baker Act you and transfer you to a free government facility. Jan, those are worse than being in a prison and there are some really loony tunes patients there. It ain't the place for you. Trust me. I know.

Even more embarrassing is when you try your dad burn best to off yourself, you're not successful, all the above still has to happen and to top it off, everyone knows about it if you're not able to keep it hush, hush. Oy. Embarrassing doesn't even describe how ... It's humiliating as all get out. And, the crap your family and friends put you through once you've completed treatment and come home. Oh, Jan. It's gosh awful. Some are ticked off at you, some treat you like a mental case, some walk on rice paper being so careful with you, some smother you with kindness while insisting they stay with you when you just want and need to be alone ... I could go on and on like the Ever Ready Bunny ...

However, if you harm yourself and are successful in dying, your friends and family will either blame themselves and feel guilty for not seeing the signs and getting you the help you needed to prevent what you did. Other friends and family will be ticked off as hell at you for taking the coward's way out and abandoning them, making them miss you so badly ... I could elaborate more if you wish.

The biggest problem with harming yourself so badly that you are successful in dying is this: Who will take care of your live fur babies? Will they be taken to a pound? If given to a family, would the new owners love and care for your fur babies and much as you do? I don't think so! Do you? Nope, you don't think so either, do you?

Please try to hang in there, Jan. Please! The pain, sorrow, grief and devastation is unbearable. It would feel so great to just fall asleep and not wake up. All your problems gone. But, what about Zeus who you're so concerned about? Even your Mom has noticed Zeus's grief. Zeus and your other fur kids need you. It's hell on earth right now and may be for a long time to come. This gawd awful pain may never go away. I dunno. I hope to gawd it does but I dunno.

Baby steps, Jan. Take baby steps and live from one moment to the next. Be kind to yourself because you're fighting a helluva battle ... More than one battle ... Do at least one nice thing for yourself each day. Money is tight but there's a lot of free stuff you can do even if it's watching a comedy show on TV or taking a virtual vacation using Youtube.com ... Go to a museum using YouTube or to a foreign country you would love to see. Start a "Free Hug" campaign. Please click here, watch all the way to the very end and listen to the lyrics of the song ...

Free Hugs Campaign

Jan, not all the lyrics are sung to the end of the song and it's so inspiring.
So, I'll print it out for you ...

"All The Same"

I don't mind where you come from
As long as you come to me.
But I don't like illusions I cant see
Them clearly ...
I don't care, no I wouldn't dare
To fix the twist in you.
You've shown me eventually what you'll do!

I don't mind!
I don't care!
As long as you're here!

Go ahead and tell me you'll leave again.
You'll just come back running.
Holding your scarred heart in hand.

It's all the same ...

And I'll take you for who you are!
If you take me for everything!
And do it all over again.

It's all the same.

Hours slide and days go by
'Till you decide to come.
However long you stay is all that I am.

I don't mind!
I don't care!
As long as you're here!

Go ahead and tell me you'll leave again.
You'll just come back running.
Holding your scarred heart in hand.
It's all the same.

And I'll take you for who you are!
If you take me for everything!
And do it all over again.

It's always the same.

But in-between it always seems too long.
Suddenly ...
But I have the skill, yeah!
I have the will to breath you in while I can!
However long you stay is all that I am!

I don't mind! I don't care!
As long as you're here.
Go ahead and tell me you'll leave again.
You'll just come back running.
Holding your scarred heart in hand.

It's all the same.

And I'll take you for who you are!
If you take me for everything!
And do it all over again.

It's always the same.

Wrong or Right!
Black or White!
If I close my eyes its all the same.

In my life,
The compromise,
I'll close my eyes.

It's all the same.

(Song ends here.)

Wonderful message and set to the perfect music, in my opinion.

Hey, go to youtube.com after you've watched the above and type in the keywords: Free Hugs ... It's happening all over the world! I realize you can't get out and do anything like that right now since I read about how cold it is where you are, having to shovel all that snow, the ice problems and more. So, I'm sending help to you immediately. I found and enhanced this image just for you, Hon. They'll shovel snow and help you with your ice problems. It's magic! Here they come ...


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Hang in there, Jan. Baby steps. Be kinder to yourself than necessary. I'm in your corner, Dear One!

Tons of Comforting Hugs!!!

Your Pal,
Dottie xoxoxox

PS. Take in a free movie on me! Go here and if you don't know how it works, I'll explain it to you ...

Free Movies On The Net

See all the letters in the middle? Just to the left of all those letters of the alphabet it says Movie Titles. Click on the first letter of the first word in the movie title you're looking for. Once you get there, then go to your left and type in the name of the movie you're trying to find. OR! You can just type in the movie title from that home page.

For each movie, you have the option of watching it in 4 or more parts or the entire movie. I like the four or more parts option best. Oh, the movie will not begin by itself. After you pull up the movie and it's on your screen, look to the left at the bottom and click that button to begin the movie and also to make it pause.

There's thousands of movies there and some are brand new releases. Best of all, it's free. Take care and More Hugs!!!

Hey Dottie--Wow!!!!! Where do I begin? Well Einstein obviously is the most clear in diction(we are talkin animals here right? This is a trip) As if he really is making the connection between the sounds he is making and the actual meaning of the words,Maybe he is.Then Mr. Kitty.He is the second runner up.I almost think that there is a voice off camera.But after viewing it several times the sounds and the mouth movement are so in sync.Eerie..........
The funniest thing just happened when the pit bull started.Lily came running out from under the desk with a WTF????????? look on her face.Then she got pissed.Looked at the screen and if SHE could have chimed I think she would have said "Hey man this is my house and there is only room for one of us here dude.You ready to RUMBLE??????????" God that was funny...
Then the little white dog saying "I want momma" Again,Really eerie.And last the counting dog.How can this be.
I think when we get to the Bridge we are gonna get what we have been praying for and when we get it we will be tellin the kids to go play 'cause they are yappin too much.Wow The thought of actually having a conversation with Willy and the other kids is thrilling and at the same time kinda freaky.
I can't wait..........Thank you so much for the posts.This has really made the day worthwhile.......CU a little later....
Bubba...........

They really are something, eh Bubba? Wow! And I love what Lily did!!!

Hey, let's try a couple more on her.

This next one is Choder the Bulldog and this doggie has a lot to say. Well, in bulldog language. Let me set it up a bit. Choder the English Bulldog is sitting in a chair at the office "show" talking. He's the office mascot. From the tone of his voice, it sounds to me like he's trying to get some attention or issuing a complaint. At any rate, it sure sounds like he's whining. What do you think? The best part is when he stops talking and turns his head away like he's ticked off so decided he's just gonna ignore everyone. I sure know that look. Ha! Here's the link and do let me know if Lily reacts to it ...

Choder Talking

I did find a bulldog saying, "Love you!" This goes pretty fast and the doggie says it at the beginning of the tape so you may want to listen to it a few times. It's great! I wonder how Lily will react to this one. OMG! I am sooo bad!!! Here's the link ...

Chanel the talking mini English Bulldog says "Love You!"

Let your bullies settle down before you click on the last one. Hehehe!

Who knows what parrots say to each other when the pet shop owner takes a break?
Let's find out. Click below ...

"Wazzup!"

Great commercial! Hahaha!!!!!

Don't forget to let me know if Lily reacted to the other bull doggie videos. Okay?

C U Later and Hugs!!!

Your Pal,
Dottie xoxoxox

The videos of the bullies are weird because Lily makes the SAME SOUND!!!! REALLY!!!!!
Choder and the the little white face in the bag make that high pitch sound right?

OMG Lily makes the same sound, note for note when she hears the garage door open and one of us(me or my wife ) are coming or going.Just last night I went out to snatch a Big Mac and when I got home my wife was outta bed ready to crucify me because Lily was crying and making those same sounds(and we are talkin HIGH volume folks)the whole time I was gone and she woke up my wife.OOps no whoopie for Bubba for awhile(at least not last night.Besides I had burger duties)

The parrots were hilarious WHASSSSUPPP???????? HA HA HA HA HA HAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!! GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thanx a bunch, Bubba................

Lily was snoozin in the other room but when I get back from work she'll have a front row seat,
Thanx again, Bubba...............gotta go bang on drums...........

OMG!!!!!!! I am laughing too hard to type after reading what you said!!!!! HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!

Gonna turn off the PC to let it cool down a bit and come back. HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!

C U Later ... Hugs!!! And more HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Your Pal,
Dottie xoxoxox

Hello Dear Friends. This is the first time I've signed onto my computer since I was last here. Please forgive my absence. There's been a lot going on regarding coping with my own loss. Also there have been new revelations as to what did happen to my Rainbow Bridge baby. So, I'm finding it pretty gosh darned difficult to comfort others at this time. I'm truly terribly sorry that I've not been here for all of you who are suffering such unbearable pain, grief, sorrow, devastation and more.

Please know you all remain in my daily thoughts, prayers and I send Big Hugs and Lots of Love. As always, I wing Many Angels to comfort and guide you through what must be just about the most difficult time in your lives. God Bless and keep you!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Hi, Dottie

Glad to see you are okay. Hope things turn out well for you and we will see you when we see you.

Hugs,
Judy

thank u judy. big hugs!

alex, i'm pretty darned sure i now know where u were 1st taken!!! i hope and pray with all my heart and soul that u are still there,
alive and happy. plz hang on sweet baby boy if u r still alive ...

mama's comming after surgery or sooner if God permits 2 force them 2 give u back!!!!!!!

plz God help me and my baby boy alex. plz. k? thnx! amen.

alex, i love and miss u sooooo much!!!

Always Your Loving Mama, Dottie xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

PLEASE hear her prayers God..........A miracle would be appreciated right soon...............Bubba.............

THANK U SO MUCH BUBBA!!!!!

Hi Dottie, Best of luck with your surgery. I know all will go well. Hey, did I miss something? Are you going to look for Alex? Well, St. Francis here our prayers!...Keep us informed..Ann

thanks so very much, ann. biggggg hugs!!! it may be too late for surgery. long story. if surgery is not done then i will lose all use of left arm, wrist, hand. arg. sure do hope there's time and dr. will still be able to do surgery. i do have a nurse's aid coming to my home today at 1:00 pm and she will be of great assistance ...

wait ... i have "comedy of errors" typed up and in save to show you this ain't entirely my fault. oy. will go fetch what i wrote to debbie, sherry & tracey in private area of a message board and copy/paste below. here goes ...

The "Comedy of Errors"

1. i did call paramedics right away. immediately after my fall. very young female paramedic said was probably just a bad sprain and she would wait a day to see what happens if she were me. she said it would probably feel better the next day. she was very nice. both she and the very young male paramedic were very nice, dear, caring ...

it is my fault for being so calm when telling them in normal voice, "This pain is very, very bad and much like the time Srini kitty bit my wrist and broke the tendon sheath when I was around 23 years old. The doctor at that time said a broken tendon sheath is worse than a broken bone."

i was displaying same symptoms on 3/6/09 of only being able to hold my arm upright as in a wave hello position, not able to move fingers due to big time pain. yes, i remained very calm when saying how, "I cannot believe how badly this hurts." ... BUT! all symptoms of one or more broken bones were present.

also, paramedics are not supposed to give possible diagnosis or advice like that. they can say, "Ma'am, I can take you to the hospital or you can call back later if it gets worse and we'll come back then to take you to the hospital." that is all. unless you're unconscious. of course, then they take you right to the hospital, usually start an iv on the way there and yada, yada, yada.

SO ... i waited several hours after the paramedics had gone then looked at left arm and wrist, compared it to right arm and wrist. said to myself heck no. this ain't right. far too much pain and swelling. i called a cab to take me to ER and off I went ...

2. this is where second error occurred. at ER everyone of them were also very dear and caring. but, when it came time to apply the cast-like splint, the young male nurse who was applying the temporary cast-like splint told me that the doctor would need at least three days for the swelling to go down before applying permanent cast. there were two other female nurses in the room who heard him telling me that and they said nothing. one female in the room was a nurse of 18 years.

3. i did make appointment with dr, for three days later like ER nurse said to do but Dr. Lundseth's receptionist said I would need to pick up copies of x-rays from hospital cuz they don't do that. i told her how long it had been (3 days) and asked would it either cause harm or be too late to set and cast arm in a couple more days cuz hospital requires 24 hours notice to make copies of x-rays for patient pick up. she said no, that it would be fine and no problem. no harm done. i did get her name. ("Flonche" sp?)

when i was seen at office, Dr. Lundseth's very first words to me even before hello were, "Where have you been? It's been five days. If you had come in the next day, I'd have been able to shoot some novocaine in there, set it and cast it." then he went on to say how the bones had begun to fuse wrong so will need surgery and permanent screws put in, yada, yada, yada ... or else will lose use of left arm, wrist and hand.

number 3 has me upset because of Dr. Lundseth and that mean nurse of his thinking me either an idiot, noncompliant or negligent for waiting so long. so i called them back very next day, left a message where i was directed and stephanie from Dr. Lundseth's office phoned me back ...

i told her about what the ER nurse said instructing me to wait 3 days and also gave her the name of lady who made my appointment there and how she said it would be fine to wait even after i'd said it had already been three days and had told me no harm done.

stephanie then said they only make appointments and don't know about that sort of thing. i responded that the lady sounded very confident to me and if they don't know about those things, she'd better be told not to assure people like that who have no reason to believe she isn't knowledgeable when she says, yada, yada, yada.

stephanie got nervous and wanted me to speak with ... i cannot remember who. could have been nasty nurse, Dr. Lundseth or Santa Claus and asked me to hold. i stayed on hold a short while then just hung up cuz what could they do? nothing for me. plus i was beginning to become a bit upset and sure didn't want to talk about anything with them if i was feeling angry. stephanie did not call me back. neither has anyone from that office.

and there you have it.

ps. darned nurse put my splint back on wrong at dr. visit and gee, i wonder if she could have scowled worse or slapped it back on any faster. i am freaking serious. she looked like one of those speed painting videos in fast forward and that's just what i was thinking when she was reapplying splint. i kid you not! she is the only unkind person to render care to my arm so far. i could not tell cast-like splint was on too close to elbow needing to be further back until later or i'd have sure made her do it right. word.

Next: since then ... the nurse Janet at the surgeon's office has informed me that it may very well be too late for surgery.

***me again talking now, ann ...

ABOUT ALEX:

Preface: I do feel greatly concerned because Nico Pavan did return Alex's cage, nest box, toys, and parrot carrier to me in August
of 2008. All had very obviously been outside for some time, dirt, leaves, more and have much damage from the weather.
Still, Alex could be in a different cage. Cross your fingers, please! But ...

I have very good reason to believe that ...

1. Ida Cesareo is either keeping him at another location, possibly one of her kids or her adult grandson. after all, she did keep begging me to let her keep him because she and her husband love him so much. and remember, she did take buddy dog and styx cat to the pound on 10/16/07 far away and not the one close by, said they were strays and tried to put a rush on them being euthanized. this tells me she couldn't face me and for good reason. hiding something? i hope so. since then, she possibly sold him after i kept calling her on her cell phone, cursing her out, promising to make her life a living hell and see her in prison if she does not return Alex to me ...

2. Around the last part of May 2008, Ida was visiting family. Possibly but probably in her home country. So it's possible that Alex is either somewhere in America or in another country now. if he's still alive in America or another country, I will get him back!!!

3. Or her adult grandson did indeed kill Alex. Even if #1 and #2 are correct, Alex could still be dead from grief. Refer to post number 247 on Bubba's "shooting star" thread to see explanation of parrots dying from grief and how Alex proved himself to be one of those type who would. And here is direct link ...

http://lightning-strike.com/forum/index.ph...4877&st=240

He was an amazingly sweet, intelligent, astounding creature so who wouldn't love to have him? I pray to God he's still alive and #1 or #2 are correct. Investigation is ongoing.

additionally, the three of them did rob my house blind. i caught Ida and Julia in the act plus Nico walked inside my home within less than five minutes after i got back from the hotel after house fumigation tent was lifted on Oct. 14, 2007. boy howdy, they helped themselves to a lot: somewhere between $12,000.00 and $15,000.00 worth of stuff. so, why not steal such a valuable animal, too? think about it.

More hugs!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox