To my sweet, loving, bravest little dog in the world. To you, my Trevor,


Mommy still thinks about you every minute of every day and hopes that you are having the time of your life. I miss you my little hunky bunky and can't wait to be together again. Uh, oh, my eyes are leaking again. Time for you and me to go to bed.

Good night, my honey, my love, my everything!

XOMommyXO

PS: I LOVE YOU TREVOR!!!!!!!

Bobbie

These are the EXACT words every one of us has in our hearts for our "disappeared" loved ones. And my eyes are leaking again, too. I guess this part will never stop. Would we really want it to?

Gretta dn Rufus's mom

Hi Dreamer's mom

I want you to know that I, MR RUFUS, care about dear Trevor. Remember, I can see him! He's doing great - except he's getting on a couple of dogs' nerves always bragging about his mom. If you're anything like MY mom, you're the greatest.

ROOF ROOF RUFUS

Hi, Bobbie, just stopping by to say hello and to let you know you're in my thoughts and prayers. I hope today is being kind to you and your little Dreamer. May Trevor's and all of your beloved companions' love bring a comfort to your heart.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Dear Moon_Beam,

Thank you for your kind words and checking in with me. However, as much as I am loving Dreamer (and he really is a good dog), the pain of losing Trevor is still very acute and crushing. I do have Chronic Clinical Depression and I'm sure that doesn't help, but this pain and loneliness is unending. My eyes are really leaking now and I am so sad. I feel that others must be getting awfully sick of my not "moving on" at least a little bit, and I think I have, to the outside world, but when I'm alone and Trevor pops into my mind, things disintegrate into such sorrow. I'm talking with my counselor, so am trying all sorts of things to feel better and allow Trevor's love and compassion to reach my heart. Hope it happens soon.

Bobbie

Hi, Bobbie, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. Grieving can actually exacerbate clinical depression, which can prolong indefinitely the deep grief. The stress from grieving can actually change the chemical balance in our brains, sometimes leading to the need for temporary medicinal intervention. I'm glad you're being able to talk to your counselor, and trust that he / she is offering you support and encouragement.

Bobbie, with everything that you and your beloved Trevor went through, particularly during the last two months, it does not surprise me that you feel like you are "locked into" your grief. It is quite normal to experience a "collapse" both emotionally and physically as a caregiver, so please try to be gentle with yourself. Having to be "strong" to prevent others around you from being insensitive doesn't help. It is important that you give yourself the private time to let go - - to cry, to grieve. And I hope you will feel my arms reaching out to you, holding you, comforting you when you need to feel the touch of someone who knows what you are going through. And I hope you feel sweet Dreamer's comforting presence as well - - your beloved Trevor's and all of your companions' gift of love to you - - only you - - just for you.

I hope today is being kind to you and your little Dreamer, Bobbie. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and always look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Dear Moon_Beam,

I do.

Bobbie

Trevor and Bobbie

Gretta and Rufus and me, too, love you two.

G and R's mom

My sweet, sweet, little boy, Trevor:

An amazing thing is happening with me. I am loving you more and more every day even with you being in Heaven and me being on Earth! I love you so, so much, Mr. Trevor and thank you for all of your love. You aren't the BEST, you are PERFECT!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!

Have a good night, OK?

XOXOMommyXOXO

HI Bobbie

I am SO glad your heart is finding a way to live and love Trevor more and more - yet not suffer so much. Gretta loves Trevor. They're best friends and she has a built-in LaSov "pack." I can see more and more every day that you and Trevor are two halves of the same whole.

Here's some sunshine for you today.

Gretta and Rufus's mom

Dear Bobbie....I just want to say hi and I understand what you're saying about loving Trevor more every day.....I feel that way about Mickey, I love him more every day and miss him more. I get these leaky eyes all the time......May God Bless You, my friend...

LoveMyMickey

Thank you Gretta's Mom and Mickey's Mom,

I never really knew that I could have all this deep, continuing love for one of my companions. And I do miss him more every day. My eyes leak so much, many times I can't even see! except I always see Trevor.

Thank you both, for understanding and staying with me. I wish I were as good in return, but I assure you that, if you are not reading written words on this site, thousands are being said in my thoughts.

Why is it so hard to walk this path? When will my daily thoughts of Trevor lead to tears of happiness and gratefullness? Why, God, why?

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR! NOW AND FOREVER!


XOMommyXO

Dear Bobbie

My heart is always breaking for you and Trevor. Im beginning to think that, unlike what many people experience, for some of us the "leaky eyes" are going to continue until we rejoin our beloveds. I think some of it might have to do with our basic dispositions - mostly inherited. 1% of the patients keep 100% of the anti-depressant producers in business! And some of it had to do with the support - or not - that we get from those who are important to us. Heap all this on the deep and crushing grief that everybody who has ever been loved by their spirit animal, and it's quite a mountain. Like you, I cry every day - not necessarily for Gretta specifically, but always for something related to her, Labs, dogs, animals. You know I'm a solo, so I don't have the support of a person a home, but on the other hand, I don't have the additional huge burden of having an unsupportive person around always chip-chip-chipping away at my heart. Or worse - a grown-up child!

Bobbie, you know I would take every bit of your heartache on myself if only I could. Never, ever forget that, no matter how much it hurts, love is the strongest force in the universe and WILL triumph in the end ..... even though it seems like we're already in eternity (and not in the right place). Trevor, Gretta round up the troops and altogether on signal, say, as loud as you can, "We Love you mommy/auntie. We've got your back. Together we WILL be happy! (Or wwe'll just bite everybody who gets in the way.)

Another day closer, Bob.

Gretta and Rufus's mom

Dear Bobbie, The leaky eyes are a tribute to your shared love - your sadness is a monument to the world you and Trevor held between you, sometimes it's ok to cry and to be sad, I think it's like molten lava turning to stone - the heat of the emotion and feeling turning to solid stone that sets you and your love forever, this is transformation my friend, I think it's part of the gift our departed souls share with us, one that shapes and governs us forever. Please know I am thinking of you and Trevor and Dreamer and sending you huge hugs and snuggles today, Leejaye

Bobbie,

I read some of what you went through with Trevor, and so much of it reminded me of the things I went through with my Misha. It was so heartbreaking to watch her go downhill, as I know it was for you. I'm so sorry - Trevor was a special boy and I know how much you loved him. I'm so sorry for what you are going through.

hugs,
misha's mommy

To my darling, sweet Trevor,

Today marks 11 weeks since you crossed the Rainbow Bridge into Heaven and my heart broke forever. I miss you with my whole heart and soul. You are my everything, even during those moments when I may not be actively thinking of you. You and I grew to be one with each other and that will always be.

Thank you, my Trevor, for the love you gave to me, your loyalty and confidence in me, humble me. All I ever wanted to do was make you happy and keep you out of pain. Thank you for trying to wag your tail.........

Trevor, there are no human words to describe my love and affection for you. Our love is an everlasting bond, to be finally sealed when we meet forever in Heaven. Until then, my love, you will always be remembered as the bravest little dog that ever lived and I will love you forever.

I'll come and visit you tomorrow, OK?

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!

XOMommyXO

Hi, Bobbie, just stopping by to say hello and to check in to see how you're doing. Thank you so very much for sharing your heart-filled love letter to your beloved Trevor with us. I know how the time seems to go when we are in deep grief. Eleven weeks is just one week shy of 3 months, and when we stop to take stock of how "life has gone on" it is yet another brutal awareness that our beloved companions - - your beloved Trevor - - is no longer physically with you.

The good news is that your beloved Trevor IS forever with you continuing to sharing your earthly journey - -each day - - every moment of every hour of every day - - just as he always has and always will. As he looks tenderly upon you he is saying, "good for you, mom - - so glad you got that chore taken care of. Didn't Dreamer like that special treat you gave him? Thanks mom, for taking him in. He really needs you. I am SO PROUD of you, mom. I love you, too, always and forever." And on it goes as you listen to his sweet Living Spirit in your heart.

I hope today is being kind to you, my friend. Please know you are frequently in my thoughts and prayers, Bobbie, and look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Dear Bobbie

Trevor loves you. Trevor is near you every day. Trevor reads your evey thought, feels your every breath. Every word you speak of him is beautiful music to his ears. Every tear you cry for him is another precious diamond in his heavenly necklace.

You're a courageous woman, my sister. You've opened your heart to the doggie that Trevor sent you - one who needed YOU and only YOU to give him the life Trevor wanted for him. Trevor knew you have the most patient heart in the world. He knows that you love animals - especially dogs - more than you love life itself. He knows that, to you, doggies ARE life. And they are.

Trevor - I don't have to tell you this, but your mom is THE best person in the world. Breathe down softly on her face and let her know that you are safe and happy and pain free and having fun and wagging your tail and playing - everything she wanted for you in this world and everything you're waiting to share with her in the Perfect World.

Trevor, you truly ARE forever.

Gretta's mom

Thank you Moon Beam and Gretta's Mom,

Moon Beam, how do you know exactly what the words are that will comfort and sustain those of us in such sorrow? Once again, you knew EXACTLY what Trevor was saying to me....it's like you've known him all your life. His words, "I love you." mean everything to me and always make my eyes leak, but in a sad yet comforting way. YOU know our love because you have experienced that kind of bond yourself and I thank you for taking the time to share with me. And help me every time I need it.

Gretta's Mom, I wish you had gotten to know Trevor sooner than you did. But I am so glad that you got to experience his gentle, silent, loving ways before he died. Thank you for ALWAYS supporting me, sharing the same thoughts and being the most wonderful sister in the world.

I love you both and so does Trevor!

XOXO
Bobbie

Dear, dear, darling Trevor,

I cannot come up with all the ways that I miss you. You were and are such a brave little man, enduring what most people could not, and doing it in such a way as to show me love and loyalty.

Trevor, no one can truly understand just how special you were to me and how gald I was to be the one to try and gve you one more pain-free and peaceful day. Oh, they can try and say they do, but unless they lived with a boy who's brain was beeing crushed inside his skull, feeling creeping crawling sensations on your head and neck, and having your spinal column (the bone) and the spinal cord slowly destroyed by constantly turgid spinal fluid grinding away every second of every day, then they don't. I give them credit for trying. But I watched you suffer some nights that would have made the strongest person in the world, jump off a building to relieve the pain. And all I could do was give you as many pain pills, sleeping pills, etc. that I could to finally send you into a deep sleep for a few hours. And I was there with you, every second, waiting for the medication to kick in or going to get more for you. WE sat in the pale light of one lamp, rather, I sat and you couldn't be still for more than a few seconds. I would tell you how much I loved you and what a good boy you were for putting up with everything; that this was not fair and I would stay with you every day of our lives. When you finally, lay down and started to close your eyes, I'd lie as close to you as I could, watching you the entire time. Wishing to God that this curse would be lifted from you - even given to me instead.

It's you and me, now, Trevor. My love notes and even my sad notes will be written in private. WE take up too much space here. So our journal will continue until we see each other again.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOXOMommyXOXO

Sorry - I tried the best I could.

Dear Jeanne,

Please don't worry. It's not you, it's me.

XOXOXO
Bobbie

Good Morning, Trevor!

I love you more today than I did yesterday!!!! And don't you forget it! I'm coming by to visit today, too.

I miss you soooooooooo much. Thank you for sending Dreamer to constantly remind me of what you are now doing up in Heaven - running, jumping, barking, getting tummy rubs, scratching your own back, playing with toys, eating all the marrow bones you want and, well, just being Trevor.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!

XOXOMommyXOXO

My dearest, darling, wonderful Trevor,

Today is the 12th week anniversary since you passed over the Rainbow Bridge into Heaven. It is also my birthday. Oh! How I wish we could celebrate together as we have the past two years. But that is not to be. I miss you so, so much my little hunky bunky. And I love YOU more and more every day. I don't know how that is possible, but this mother loves her little boy in Heaven like no one else can! You are my dream boy and my teacher. I try to follow the "rules" I learned from you, but you were so perfect and I am so human that there are many time's I'm not very good.

I will always remember you, my sweetness and love. I showed your picture and told your story to Diana, my former groomer and now she loved you, too. (Although her favorite was always Rudy.)

I'll get back to you tonight, my love. Have a good day playing with all your new relatives and friends!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!!!

XOMommyXO

Dear Bobbie....Thank you for sharing your letters to Trevor with us. As we all know Angel-versaries are hard and especially with today being your birthday. Trevor will be looking down on you today and saying "Happy Birthday Mom, you are the best!" He just might gather all his friends and relatives together and have a birthday party for mom.

My birthday is this month too and Mickey will be gone 8 months by then. I have those leaky eyes today and I'm not sure if I'll ever feel any better.

Bobbie, I think of you and Trevor every day. You and Trevor are very special. I hope you have a peaceful day. Prayers are always said for you. God Bless..

Hugs,

LoveMyMickey

Hi, Bobbie, adding my thanks to LoveMyMickey's for sharing your and your beloved Trevor's angel-versary with us. As LoveMyMickey mentioned, your beloved Trevor IS sharing your birthday - - celebrating it with a HEALTHY body this time - - dancing and leaping for joy that you are his Forever Mom. I hope this image will bring a warmth to your heart, Bobbie - - close your eyes and let your mind envision the BOTH OF YOU dancing and leaping for joy!!!

I hope today is being kind to you, my friend, and I hope you will have a very peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Trevor's sweet Living Spirit, and all of your boys, to comfort you and cheer you. Your precious Dreamer is also there for you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Bobbie, and always look forward to sharing with you how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Gretta and Trevor (to all the thousands of doggies and kitties and bunnies and birdies and ferrets and fishies and all the other animals in the Perfect World):

"OK, all together now ......

Happy birthday to you ...... cut, cut, cut, It's not birfday, it's birTHday"

"OK, take two ....

"Happy birthday to you (whew!)
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you ............ cut, cut, cut. On the third line you say 'Happy birthday dear ______ mommie" and then the next line goes back to 'Happy birthday to you.'

"Got it? OK, now ..... take three"

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Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday dear Spot and Squirt and Crocker and Birney and Kelley and Rudy and Trevor ('heh, heh, that's me) and now Dreamer's mommy
Happy birthday to you!"

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"Wow that was great! I'll bet she can hear it with her earthly ears."

"And now .......... dive into that GIANT cake!"

Dear, sweet Trevor.

Yes, you are still the love of my life and always will be. I miss you more and more and I wonder if you will ever tire of hearing that. I love, love, love you more each day, too. I hope you had a wonderful day with all your friends and family, or was it a more peaceful kind of day?

The leaves are falling fast and furious on your grave, covvering your Beanie Babies, but I cleared everything off today. The dogs are always there for you.

I just wanted to check in with you, my love, and reassure you of my total commitment to you and your memory.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!

XOXOMommyXOXO

PS: thank you for that wonderful birthday message! XOXO

Hi, Bobbie, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing and your heart-filled letter ot your beloved Trevor. I have been wondering how his beanie babies have been doing. I'm so glad they are there to offer him comfort and cheer when you cannot physically be there - - for they are extension of your love which he eternally feels wrapped around his heart and soul and spirit wherever you are and whatever you're doing.

The leaves are falling, snow has already begun in the westerns mountains, - - the change of seasons always bring to mind memories of events that have happened during those seasons in our lives. As you remember your beloved Trevor and all of your boys, plesae know they, too, are remembering those same events and are smiling with joy that they shared them with you - - their Forever Mom.

I hope today is being kind to you and your precious Dreamer. Please know you both are in my thoughts and prayers, Bobbie, and that I always look forward to sharing with you how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

TREVOR, I miss you soooooooooooooooo much tonight. You were the bravest little dog that ever lived and I love you more than words can express. Sleep well, tonight, my love. I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!









XOXOMommyXOXO

Hi Bobbie

I miss him, too.

Trevor, you aunt Jeanne is having some cold feet about a long trip coming up. Could you send me a teeny tiny bit of your bravery, please? Thank you, you wondeful doggie.

AJ

Dear, dear Trevor,

You are the love of my life and the joy of my soul.......and you always will be. I missed you especially today while taking Dreamer for his last night walk. You just popped into my heart and, while I was glad you were there, I was so sad that we couldn't be physically together.

I hope you don't mind that I'm not getting out to see you every day right now. So many tings seem to need to get done at home, and with all the training and desensitizing, etc. that Dreamer needs every day, I run out of time so quickly. But you are NEVER out of my mind, heart or soul. I see you everywhere I go. I'll stop by tomorrow. Watch.........it will rain!

Jeanne says she needs some of your courage and bravery for her upcoming trip across the world. Can you believe it? And this time she's going by herself! So round up everyone you can think of (LoveMyMickey says "count me in") and figure out whowill take what shifts to watch her for a whole month! If anyone can do it....YOU can.

Good night, sweet darling. Mom loves you so very, very much!

XOXOMommyXOXO

Thanks SO SO SO much, Bobbie and trevor!

Hello My Love!

I made it out to see you and the boys in all that rain today! The falling leaves look like such a beautiful, soft blanket to you. I miss you, honey. Every morning when we used to take our naps, Dreamer jumps up on the couch and dozes there. I'm all by myself, remembering how we would share the blanket and sleep and sleep. I would get up after awhile and you got to keep sleeping which you rightly deserved.

You are such a good boy and I keep falling in love with you more every day. I hope that never stops until I burst or we are together again.

I love you! I love you! I LOVE you!

Have a good night's sleep and pleasant dreams, my hunky bunky!

XOXOMommyXOXO

Trevor - Aunt Jeanne loves and misses you, too.

Hi Trevor Forever,

Today marks 13 weeks (1/4 of a year) since we had to part ways. You went over the Rainbow Bridge to Heaven and I had to stay back here on earth. I cannot comprehend how many weeks have passed (and how quickly Firdays come around) because it seems that you died just yesterday. I walk over the place in the dining room where you went to your final physical sleep and picture you lying there, so still and so quiet, so lovely and so sweet. I say a little prayer and know that spot is forever sacred in our house (as are all the other spots where your previous brothers passed up to Heaven).

Oh, my little Trevor, I don't seem to cry as much as I used to. I don't know if that is a change in my meds or my temporarily running out of tears. But my heart aches for you every day and my soul is still crushed. You were a gift straight from God and Rudy. I knew that, but I wish I had expressed my love and gratitude for you more often when you were still with me. You were just like your previous brothers....if mom gave you "too much" attention at that particular moment, you simply got up and walked away! Every one of you did that - guess I didn't take those hints seriously enough. Dreamer hasn't started doing that yet because I think he's too young and still in the Honeymoon phase.

Trevor, when I am playing with Dreamer or taking him for his walk in the school yard or just petting him some times, I feel so very badly that you were not able to enjoy those things with me. You were able to go on walks for that first year and part of the second and I will treasure them forever - stopping to smell every single blade of grass and being scard by a couple of big old pine cones on the sidewalk. I don't take Creamer on the same route because that was "OUR" route. By the time you made it to our home, YOUR home, your brain damage was so bad that you'd forgotten how to "play" at all. How sad for you. But perhaps forgetting is better than knowing and not being able to do it.

I found two of my tee shirts that you used to nibble (very gently) on when you first came to live here and it was time to go to bed. I put a shirt up to the light and all the tiny holes look like shing stars and I remember that time so well. You were always gentle with our things (you used to like to nibble - never tear -the comforter, too. It's still there. Except when the pain got more terrible than the pain meds could control. Oh, how I wish I had that magic wand that instantly takes the pain away and lets you rest. But all I could do was give you more and more pills in little meatballs and wait for their combined action to send you to sleep. You didn't know it, but once the meds rendered you almost unconscious (re: deep sleep), I would lie down next to you on the floor, hold you little paw in my hand and just watch you by the hour, trying to burn your peaceful image into my brain and my memory. I was also sending love "beams" to you so that, when you woke up, you would not be scared or in any pain. I was your mom. I wanted to do this for you, even though I hated the reason behind everything. I NEVER hated you or anything I did for you. I would do it over again in a heartbeat if God asked me to.

Oh, my Trevor boy, I miss you with a pain that never ceases, memories that I hope to keep forever and I cannot wait for the day that we are reunited forever. YOU ARE MY HERO! I LOVE YOU SO VERY, VERY MUCH!

Have a peaceful night, my honey! (unless Friday is party night)

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOXO your leaky eyed Mommy XOXO

I apologize for my many typo's!!!!!!!

Hi, Bobbie, thank you so very much for sharing with us your heart-filled love letter to your beloved Trevor with us.

"Oh, my little Trevor, I don't seem to cry as much as I used to. I don't know if that is a change in my meds or my temporarily running out of tears. But my heart aches for you every day and my soul is still crushed. You were a gift straight from God and Rudy."

Bobbie, this is a natural transition in your deep grief journey, and it is a healthy transition. Does this mean your tears are gone forever? No. As your deep grief contniues to ease the deep ache in your heart will also ease, and this, too, is healthy. But there will still be times when you will think of your beloved Trevor and your heart will feel the brokenness of not having his sweet physical presence with you, and your tears may flow again. But each time, my friend, the depth of brokenness will not be quite so painful, and this is healthy, too - - because each time your grief is washed away so that it can be replaced with the warmth of your cherished memories and your beloved Trevor's sweet Living Spirit. And this is what your beloved Trevor wants for you - - and with you - - my friend. I promise you, Bobbie, your beloved Trevor, as with all your beloved boys, are forever a part of you - - they are always a heartbeat close to you.

I hope today is treating you and precious Dreamer kindly, my friend. I hope your sister Jeanne's travels are safe, uneventful, and pleasant. Please know you and your precious Dreamer are in my thoughts and prayers, Bobbie, and that I look forward to sharing with you how you both are doing, and your treasured memories of your beloved Trevor, and all your beloved furkids.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Good Morning my Honey Bun!

It's 5:30 in the morning. WE remember times togetther at this hour don't we? I just wanted to tell you that I love you more than ever before!

I am grateful that God and Rudy arranged (with some resistance from a Rescue group here on earth who shall remain unnamed at this time) for us to meet and fall in love with each other right away. Actually, I think you fell in love with the brand of hot dog and cheeses we were giving you, but it doesn't matter because you were loved from the FIRST moment I saw you and then you came to live with us the very next week! No one will ever match up to you and I'm not even going to try. But Dreamer does have some buff color in his feet so I know a part of you is with him (and us) all the time.

Thank you for being the most loving, thankful dog on earth. You gave my heart and soul the love and tenderness it truly needed and I hope I did the same for you.

Have a GREAT day in Heaven today! I hope you get to eat to your tummy's content, nap in the warmth of the sun, play with your brothers and friends and look down on your mama once in awhile.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!

XOXOMommyXOXO

Oh, Bobbie

If only someone or something could give your heart and soul the love and tenderness it so needs and deserves, like Trevor did and does. You SO deserve it. I'd move heaven and earth if only I could. You're treasured for who you are. Your heart is precious to me. Even though we're separated in space (and I'm not furry and cuddly - and sometimes I forget about love and fly off at the selfish handle), my heart is always with you.

XOXO

Your sister

Thanks, Jeanne!

Your reassuring and tender words make all the difference in the world. I do miss Trevor more again. There will NEVER be another little guy like him, EVER! God sends miracle workers to us only on occasion and I'm so thankful that I was one to receive Trevor.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!!!

XOXOMommyXOXO

You, too, Jeanne!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Rufus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Gretta!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Good Night, my sweet prince!

I missed you so much again today. Like every other day in my life. I hope you had a good day and know that I love you so very much!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!

XOXOMommyXOXO

I love you, too, Mr Trevor Forever!

Hello my little darling, wonder dog Trevor!

It was good to be with you and your brothers today. Those leaves are covering everything so fast! Did you like the new batch of doggies? I just HAD to leave Barney for Rudy. Oh, how he loved Barney and with the flowers gone, his grave looked so empty. Now it's full again. Sorry about your pumpkin - somebody was nibbling it from the bottom. It really did feel good to be near you again, but it is so hard to get back in the car and drive away. At least I know you are not alone out there. All your brothers are with you, forever, on earth and in Heaven.

Thank you for always being such a good boy and loving mommy so much. I just wish I could hug you once again, but with you feeling no pain, only joy. That day will come and I just have to hang in there until then. Dreamer reminds me of how good you are doing now and that makes me happy. He's had a bad stomach ache for a week and finally the medicine kicked in tonight and he was all over the place. I can just imagine YOU being all over the place! Save some of that for me, OK?

I have to go to bed now, my hunky bunky. I wish I were sleeping on the floor next to you, but I do have your picture and blanket next to my heart every night.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!

XOXOMommyXOXO

My dearest Trevor,

I promise you that, every night, you will get a love note from your FOREVER mommy. When I said I would be your forever mom, I meant it in every sense of the word(s). I will love you forever. I will miss you forever (on this earth). I will remember you forever and ever and ever.

Trevor, God and Rudy sent you to me for reasons that only make some sense to me now. Rudy knew that I was the person that would fight for you, always be on your side, do any and everything in my power to keep you happy and safe (and as pain free as possible), love you unconditionally every day of your life. I tried to do a good job. I think I did. I wish I could have done better (more). Tonight and today I miss you so much, honey bun. While I was petting Dreamer tonight, all I could think of was how incredibly soft you were. You were soft on the outside and on the inside, too.

Sometimes I wonder what your life was like before Linda and Mark found you. I hope it was good. I try not to think about how bad it might have been. I only want the good for you. Because you were always so very good.

I miss you, my friend. Tonight is a hard night. But as long as I know and believe that you are at peace and in total comfort forever, I can make it.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR! It's been 96 days and counting....................until we can be together again.

XOXOMommyXOXO

Oh what beautiful love notes to Trevor. Thank you for sharing them, Bobbie. I know how much your heart hurts.

XOXO

Gretta's mom

Dear Trevor,

I know this s earlier in the day than I usually write to you, but I came across copies of my LS postings right after you left this world and I read them. And they reminded me just eactly how much I miss and love you, honey. You are the greatest little boy that has come into my life and that's not putting anyone else down. You showed me such courage and love wrapped up in one little tortured body, every single day that we were together.

How I love you, Mr. Trevor! How I miss you! How the tears are flowing from my leaky eyes. Every tear is filled with such gratefullness for your being in my life and sadness for that time being so terribly short. Please know that I will always love you, Trevor Forever. I will never forget even one hair of you. Ever.

Have a GREAT evening with your brothers and your cousin and your friends, honey. I will be back later tonight to say Good NIght.


I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO

Hi, Bobbie, thank you so very much for sharing with us your love letters to your beloved Trevor. As I read them I am filled with the warmth of the eternal love you and your beloved Trevor share. For different reasons I do understand how traumatic Trevor's physical absence is for you - how deeply painful not having his sweet physical body for you to hold and touch and take care of. You are a very remarkable woman, Bobbie, and it is no surprise that you are blessed with having your beloved Trevor as a part of you - - for he, too, is a remarkable furchild. Nothing can ever change this, Bobbie, and we are honored by your generous sharing of your beloved Trevor with us.

I hope today is being kind to you and your precious Dreamer, and that you will have a peaceful evening filled with the blessing of your beloved Trevor's and all of your boys' sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Bobbie, and always look forward to knowing how you're doing and sharing your treasured memories of your beloved Trevor and all of your beloved boys.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Thank you, so much, for your kind and reassuring words, Moon_Beam! They are incredibly helpful at every point in this journey.

Dear, dear little Trevor boy,

Mommy is so proud that she got to be your forever mom. Uncle Craig stopped by this afternoon and I gave him a copy of your Eight Lessons. He really liked them and kept the copy.

Thank you for being the love-child-pet you are. I love you SO much! Have a good night's sleep and a FUN day tomorrow.


I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!

XOXOMommyXOXO

My Dearest Trevor,

Today marks another week that we have been apart. I miss you so much that, most times, I just don't know what to do. You hold a place in my heart that is overflowing with love for you and only you. You are MY hero, Trevor. I must remember how you lived because it was with such dignity, patience and so much silent suffering. You only cried out when the pain was too excrutiating and before the extra pain meds kicked in. But I was always there for you and you knew it. How I wish you did not have to suffer so much. But that was not my decision to make. We did have a lot of good times, too, especially going for our "meanders" in the early evening. No one will ever be as special as you are, my love.

It's been 14 weeks since your passing over the Rainbow Bridge into Heaven. It seems like I only count the weeks, but, my darling, I count the minutes, even the seconds some times because your physical absence is so hard to bear. I know in my mind that you are feeling like a whole new dog and that brings peace to my sorrow. YOU are one pup who deserves only the best that Heaven has for you! Enjoy every minute and sleep well again, tonight. Do you sleep with all your brothers? How many of you still snore?

Good Night my sweetness. You're in my heart and soul forever!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO