Hi Bobbie and Precious Trevor......Just stopping by to give you a


hesista, this is just my opinion about replies. Yes, I love replies, but I feel that my stories and postings will help somebody even if they don't reply. If you keep up with the number of views by the thread topic, you know lots of people are reading. Also there is always a good number of guests listed at the bottom of the index page. I don't reply to everybody (I'm not that good with words), but I have learned a lot by reading their stories.

God Bless you all...

LoveMyMickey

Dear LoveMyMickey,

I did not know that about looking at the bottom of the page to see who are guests, etc. You know, that makes a lot of sense. I think Trevor's has a couple thousand "looks" and you are right about them helping others. I just don't want to be judged as a real weakling for still feeling the searing pain and sorrow as I did on that awful day last July. I have been through many sorrows and countless medical procedures (in ICU for 6 weeks in coma and in hospital for a year; paralyzed for over a yeart, etc), it's just that Trevor took hold of my heart and my soul in a way that none of my other dogs did, except at the very end of their lives. Trevor had it every single day, especially once we got the correct, horrid diagnosis.

I am at a very precarious time in my life and this, too, I have never experienced. I have nothing to look back to in helping me take care of myself instead of killing myself for others who don't really appreciate or actually expect this of me every day. As you can tell, yesterday was a very, very bad day right from the start and just got worse as the day went along unil I finally fell asleep after midnight, on the floor in the living room. Kelley snores like a sailor! Can you imagine me putting a CPAP device on him?? haha

Thank YOU, hesista, moon_beam, Gretta's mom and all your incredible Heavenly (and earthly) companions for rushing to my side when I really needed you. I still cannot write to Trevor yet today, but maybe very soon. He knows every thought that I have, so rest assured, he's being told over and over how much I love him.

Gratefully,
Bobbie

Hi, Bobbie, thank you so very much for sharing with us how you're doing today. Please let me try to reassure you that there are no judgments made here. As I read your post today it strikes me that perhaps one of the many reasons why you feel such a close connection to your beloved Trevor is because he suffered with serious medical challenges as you have, and you did everything in your power to help him and let him know he is forever loved. I understand this connection both with my furkids and with my mom, so I do understand what you are going through, Bobbie, in your grief journey.

I'm very glad LoveMyMickey explained to you about the guests and keeping track of the viewers. I hope this will help you to know that even though you may not receive responses every single day there are people reading your posts and are lifting you up in thought and prayer. I hope this will be a source of comfort and encouragement to you.

I hope today is being kind to you, Bobbie. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I always look forward to knowing how you're doing and sharing your treasured memories of your beloved Trevor.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Dear Bobbie,

Just stopping by tonight to send you my love and prayers. I hope you and furbabies have a peaceful and cozy night. Indeed, Kelley would look odd with a CPAP device on him.

((((HUGS)))))

LoveMyMickey

Dear Bobbie, I have been absent from the site for a while, but please know you and your Trevor will never be old news, you guys wrote a wonderful story together - and continue to write it with your beautiful love notes, to me they are evidence of the bonds you and Trevor have, not even physical parting can break them. Please take care Bobbie, thinking of you across the oceans, Leejaye

Well, Trevor, your mother never was one for sticking to many decisions when what she needed most was some comfort and relief. I have to stop crying wolf, though.

We must thank our dear friends who came directly to mommy's aide so quickly. And, LoveMyMickey, you can post on our site any and every time you want to. Same goes for all of you. This is not an exclusive site because I know that you all love Trevor and that makes my heart begin to heal a bit.

I cannot say it often enough, but Trevor was (and still is) the bravest little dog that ever lived. And if you would have known him for even just one day, you would know exactly what I mean.

Trevor, Hermy, Gretta, Mickey and everyone else in Heaven's wonderful Home, thank you for helping me as well. I almost feel like a big baby now. But I surely didn't the past couple days. You all made the difference.

I have to go check my blood sugar now. It feels a bit low. Carry on, Trevor. And don't forget those who gave their lives and suffered so much in the name of "experimentation". I cannot wait to personally apologize to each and every one of them and thank them for their selfless acts.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Oh thank you, thank you, thank you, Bobbie!

Some very good people love you and Trevor - even through their own tears and heartache. We'll ALWAYS love you two - well, no, just one - one heart, one soul, one being. Your letters are a gift to us and we don't thank you often enough.

Thanks doggies for the shout-out! Sometimes that old devil of depression climbs on someone's back and just needds to be scared away by love.

Your sis
Gretta and Rufus's mom

Dear Bobbie,

I hope you had a pleasant day today. We had a sunny coolish Spring day. I went to the grocery store, passed by the Pupperoni and got leaky eyes.......Thank you Bobbie, I will be stopping by often even if it's just to say hello to you and Trevor.

Sweet Little Trevor, I want you to keep watching out for your mommy, send her lots of love and sunshine. You are a heavenly treasure....
All you sweet angels be good and have a cozy night.




LoveMyMickey

Dear LoveMyMickey,

Thank you for the touching and beautiful note today! Now, I almost feel foolish for feeling so badly there. You can stop by any time you'd like and we (Trevor and me) will do the same, if that's OK.

I went to my endocrinologist (diabetes doctor) today and he told me that I had to take the next 3 weeks and concentrate on two things: 1) getting rid of all the "should" do things that really are not necessary and 2) me (what I enjoy doing, getting rest, playing with my new boys, etc.) I have been hearing this from just everyone letely, but the way he put it today was almost stunning. He is a doctor that truly cares about all aspects of his patients an he made me feel encouraged today. He was diagnosed with Type I diabetes when he was in college so he knows the trials and tribulations that all his patients experience. I am so lucky I found him. He is now the Director of Endocrinology at The Johns Hopkins Hospital!

This afternoon I slept and so did the boys. Monday I am going to start obedience training Kelley. He really needs it. Dreamer will do anything we want him to do. He's what we call "Amazo-Dog".

Mickey, you have a wonderful, kind thoughtful and understanding mom. She is a real doll and such an asset to this world! And so were/are you!

Love you!
Bobbie

Hello my sweet, adorable little one!

I just love the fact that thoughts of you will pop into my head at any time and any place - just so random and so pleasant. I'm back to calling Dreamer your name on occasion and he seems kind of proud of that! He should be. We are tearing the place apart looking for that baggie of your hair. I've even asked St. Anthony to help - to no avail. If you know where it is, could you just send down a little HINT??

I wish I had known you when you were a puppy, growing up. You and I would have had such a good life together. THAT is what I want to start thinking about, rather than wondering how awful your life must have been. Someone had to love you at some point, for you to turn out so good and sweet. Then Grandmom and I got to love you the most!

Please watch out for Peanut tonight, along with Hermy and the Gang. I think I've dicovered a new "group" HERMY AND THE GANG!!!!!! Please remind the non-remembered and those poor creatures who gave their lives, after much suffering, in the name of experimentation.

I love you so much, Trevor. I don't think I"ll ever get over it.

XOmommyXO

Hi Bobbie

Just a little note to say good morning to you and the "boys." And to tell you that I love Trevor. He made a huge difference in my heart even though I only saw him once. Once is enough with a special "white buffalo" dog like Mt Trevor-Forever. I'm still searching for the JoAnn Fabrics bag. Wonder which one of us will find thier item first?

Have the best (and rest-iest) day possible.

XOXO

Gretta and Rufus's mom

Hi, Bobbie, stopping by to say hello and to let you know you are in my thoughts and prayers. I'm glad you are going to try to think of your beloved Trevor in healthier days: "I wish I had known you when you were a puppy, growing up. You and I would have had such a good life together. THAT is what I want to start thinking about, rather than wondering how awful your life must have been" - - He is now healed completely in our Heavenly Creator's loving arms - - no more pain and suffering, my friend. He wants you to think of him like this.

I hope today is treating you, your precious Dreamer and Kelley, and your family kindly, Bobbie. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I always look forward to sharing your news and your treasured memories of your beloved Trevor.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

A Poem from Trevor to his Mommy:

Please Mommy, don't despair
Because you can't find a
A little piece of my hair.
I am always by your side

Guiding you along the way
Every stormy or sun shining day.
I'm sending you all my love
From Perfect Heaven above.

You see, Mommy,
I am with you everywhere.
So don't despair, because you can't
Find a little piece of my hair.

So Mommy, here is a red rose
For Mother's Day, along with a gentle kiss.
There's not much else to say
Except you are the best Mommy ever.

I love you so very much.
From your little son, Forever - Trevor.

Hi Trevor-Forever

I guess an aunt can be a sorta mom too, right? And here's a reverse Mother's Day wish for you, beautiful fluffball. Your mom is THE best mom in the universe (of course, you know that already, but sometime we humans are kinda slow). You share the soul of one of the most wonderful human beings there ever was. And I am SO privileged that God let me be her sister.

I know you're sending down extra loving rays of sunshine to warm you mom's heart on you guys' special day.

I can't wait to see you again and spend whole days with Gretta on one side, Rufus in front and you on the other side just petting all day and night!

I DO love you - and your mom and dad, too.

XOXO

Gretta's mom

Trevor,

Your love is all I need and want on Mother's Day.



I've never gotten a card from any of the grandchildren, but somehow you doggies always come through!

Thank you, sweetheart! Have a super duper day and I'll write more tonight.


I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Hi Trevor!

Well, today was Mother's Day and the first time I did not get any card(s) from my boys. That was kind of strange and a bit difficult to accept at first. But cards aren't the only thing that says "I love you". You tell me every single day and many times during each of those days. I am so lucky that I got to be your mom. And I mean that from my heart.

I hope all the mommy doggies in Heaven got special loves and thoughts from their people down here AND from their own boys and girls.

Still waiting for my first Mother's Day card as a grandma - been 12 years so far. I think I should probably stop waiting, don't you think?


Have a good night, my love and greet every one in Heaven. I'll talk to you more tomorrow.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Dear Mommy, Trevor here....My Angel Brothers and Gretta, Hermy, Mickey, and ALL the gang could not decide what kind of flower to send you for Mother's Day. So I came up with the bright idea to send you a garden of flowers from Heaven's Perfect Beautiful Garden. Mommy, I hope you weren't too sad yesterday and thought of something I would do to make you smile.....We all love you up here and we are sending you lots of love and sonshine.

Belated HAPPY MOTHER"S DAY! Mommy, I love you so very much.

XOXO FOREVER TREVOR XOXO

Oh Trevor!

Thank you so very much for the gorgeous flowers!!!! Imagine, my own Trevor Garden!!! Of course, a special thank you goes out to all your buddies and relatives who helped plan the gift/surprise.

I must tell you that your garden makes my heart feel so good - it's real therapy for me. I"m going to visit it every day.

And thank you for being my boy, my good, good boy, my sweet boy. I will always think of you and smile, even through the leaky eyes.

Have a good night, honey bun!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Hi, Bobbie, stopping by to say hello to you and your precious Trevor. One of the mementos from my mom that I cherish, among many, is the "Mother's Day" card she made for me signed by her and our companions at the time - - our Samson and Holly. While this is the only paper Mother's Day card I have received in my entire life, and I treasure it with all my heart, I also treasure all the "Mother's Day" moments I am blessed to cherish that each of my companions -- both now with the angels, and my precious Noah who continues to share his earthly journey with me - - have, and still, give to me.

I hope today is treating you kindly, Bobbie. Thank you so much for sharing your and your beloved Trevor's beautiful love with us. Please know you, your precious Dreamer and Kelley, and all of your family are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I always look forward to sharing your news and your treasured memories of your beloved Trevor.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Hey my little sweet boy!

The sun is shining, the breeze is cool and the temperature is great - just the kind of day you would LOVE to be outside in. These are the kind of days that you and I would take our walks and then our meanders. Oh! How you loved them! And we'd go anywhere, which usually wasn't too far away, you wanted to go. I always warned you about the curbs that you couldn't see and I still smile every time I remember how afraid of that big ol' pinecone that was in the middle of the sidewalk we were walking on. I had to go and remove it and throw it away before you'd even consider walking further and that was in your good days! What a joy! What a pleasure! What a wonderful gift to me........YOU!

Actually, parts of your life story, your picture and your LIFE LESSONS are going to be used in a thesis manuscript over inEngland some day soon! I can hardly wait. Then next week, I will be putting your collage together. I'm going to use every single picture that we took of you. awake, sleeping, eating our of cooking pots, etc. Oh, that was your ultimate favorite: licking the cooking pot when I had made the mac 'n cheese hot dish! You'd get youw whole face in that pot and never come up for air until it was almost sparkling clean! Daddy and I would laugh and laugh, but it kept you busy while we ate the real thing! We cannot do that now because we have TWO boys at the moment and they really don't like to share food, toys are OK, food is off limits.

Did you meet Garon yet? His mommy is so sad that I worry about her. One day I am going to have to write down the names of your new friends because I just cannot remember them all. And please, do not EVER overlook those precious, incredible animals who endure suffering until death in the name of experimentation (which 99% of it is outdated anyway). I offered the use of your name for a little puppy at The Gentle Barn who is suffering from Parvo and may not make it. At first they thought he might have a severe neurologic problem and right away I knew that you would want his name to be the same as yours! Let's hope he makes it and that whomever gives him a forever home likes the name Trevor. I don't see how anyone couldn't!

Honey, I miss you like never before and love you with everything I have. I hope you have a fantastic day playing and napping and eating and all those fun things you get to do again! Say Hi! to Hermy, Mickey, Gretta, Garon, Tucker, Gino, Gina and the non-remembered!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Dearest Trevor,

On this, yet another Friday, please know how much I LOVE you and miss you. You are the light of my life.

Hermy, I haven't forgotten you either!

XOXOmommyXOXO

Dearest Trevor,

Your mother is the biggest chicken in the world. Not really "chicken", maybe "wimp" is more accurate. I have just finished reading some of the saddest stories of humans losing their beloved companions in some of the worst ways that I could imagine. My heart goes out to each and every one of them and I would love to hug them tightly and tell them they and their companions are safe and surrounded by understanding, love and support. There's Gino's mom and Finn's dad and another gentleman who had to put his cat of 24+ years to sleep recently. I so want to send them the gentle, helpful words I feel deep in my heart and soul. Those words from amazing fellow LS'ers that helped me in the long run. (I don't think much helps in the short run.)
But Trevor, whenever I start to write, I get so sad and my thoughts immediately transfer over to you. How much I still miss you and love you to pieces. How sad I am that you are not here with me (although I would NEVER want you back physically if you had to have the pain you suffered at the end). Then all the words rush from my brain and heart and all my feelings for you come rushing back as if your death were earlier today. And it will be 10 months in just a couple days since you've been in Glory Heaven.
I feel that I am letting so many people down and am grateful that other, stronger people are taking over and helping so very much.
I don't understand why this isn't getting a whole lot easier for me, especially at night. Well, I know the night part, but this is a grief like I've never experienced before. You actually needed me and I could be there for you. I fought tooth and nail to keep you comfortable and happy and, in the end, you were nice and roly poly, too! I am so torn between wanting to hold onto these feelings because you feel closer to me then, but at the same time I don't want to get "stuck" and not allow you or me to go forward as we need to. Notice I will never say "should". I hate that word.

Trevor, you mean the world to me and what I remember most about you is your gentleness and eventual complete trust in me. You came to learn that mommy would never, ever let anyone hurt you or scare you if at all possible. And we did pretty good. I just feel, I didn't do good enough. I don't ever feel I will. THANK YOU, TREVOR for loving me so much and coming into my life to change it forever. I owe you.

Please have a good night with your new friends, your brothers and cousin, Hermy, Abbeygale, Tucker, Gino, Gina, Finn, and those hundreds of wonderful friends whose names I cannot remember this minute. Also, include those non-remembered members and all those who suffered and died in the name of experimentation. When I have some extra money some day, I'm going to buy a plot in the Humane Society cemetery for them.

Trevor, I love you, I love you, I adore you and I miss you.

XOmommyXO

HI Bobbie

Don't ever feel that you're a wimp or a chicken or somehow not as good as other people here. Your constant, undying love for Trevor - in the form of daily letters to him, inspire SO many of our LS family. Just look at the number of views. It looks like some people read these letters every day and are helped by them. if they weren't, they wouldn't keep coming back. Some people (like me) look forward to your daily letter - like some people look forward to their daily crossword or daily devotional.

You heart is tender NOT chicken. You are showing all the rest of us, day by day by day, that the love we share with our spirit-animals really DOESN'T face or disappear. It's as real as the day it began. Thank you for keeping all this love alive with your dailiy flame. Thank you Trevor, for showing us and letting us share in the TRUE love of a mother.

Many of us are trying to be just HALF that good! Have a wonderful day.

Gretta's mom

Dear, Dear Trevor,

I am so sorry that I did not write yesterday. We got all tied up with Kelley and the day flew by, but not before making me totally exhausted. I knew you would understand and sent a message by heart-mail!

Would you please watch our for a wonderful doggie named Muppie?? She's part Bully and got put to sleep without her mom's knowledge, consent or ability to be by her side. I"m sure you know all about it already, but just in case. Thanks, my love.

Tomorrow will make 10 months since we physically parted and my heart shredded forever, my soul crushed almost beyond repair. What has happened to the time? It crawls by and then, the next thing you know, hundred of days have zoomed by. I'm dizzy and in disbelief from the speed. However, nothing will ever be able to make me love you less than I do now, miss you less than I do now or be grateful to you less than I am now. You are simply the BEST and I thank God every day for you.

Have a peace-filled day and evening with every one of your buddies. Don't forget the non-remembered or those who suffered and died in the name of experimentation.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Dear Trevor,

Well, today is a rather large bump in the grief journey road for us. It has been 10 long months since we had to go our separate ways: you to Heaven and me back to an empty house, leaving your body at the Humane Society cemetery. I will never forget that day as long as I live. It was one of the worst days of my life. I have to say that because each death day of one of my boys has been equally as horrible. But your passing hit me the hardest of any and I miss you more, too. I can remember each minute of that day: July 22, 2011. It is etched into my mind and burned into my heart, neither of which will ever be the same again.

Trevor, everything was wrapped up in you: curious C-O-C-K-E-R SPANIEL, loving friend, trusting soul, and suffering doggie. In just over two years you came into my life, changed it forever and went on to Glory Land known as Heaven. Leaving me speechless at first and lonely ever since. You have been the brightest star in my little constellation of C. spaniels. I will love you forever and then one more day, just to make sure. I will thank you for everything that you taught me, even if I am still having trouble living your Life Lessons.

Tonight, on your angel-versary will you look out for Nana? Her mommy so wants to make sure she is not alone since her passing and I assured her that you and your buddies would be right by her side, too. Don't forget Muppie either. Her mom is just beside herself with grief and guilt. I'll take care of mom and you can be there with Muppie. I know the group is growing so large, but you are all angel spirits who can handle it all.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR! NOW AND FOREVER!
XOmommyXO

Trevor

your Mommie tries to sound brave but you know and I know that she is still crying inside. Please send your little rays down to her to wipe away the soul-tears and reassure her again that she is not alone - you are right there beside her (watching you new cousins ACT UP!).

I love you, too, Mr Trevor Forever
Your Aunt Jeanne

Trevor I send my love up to you. Your mummy loves you very much and I hope you are having fun with friends.

Bobbie I hope you are being treated kindly today.

xxForeverxx

My Dear, Dear Trevor,

Tonight mommy misses you like the dickens and I know why, too. We have been trying to spray Gentamyacin spray on Kelley's chest twice a day for his rather large, but healing hot spot and he HATES it. The spray must sting like mad because tonight it took both daddy and I to loop him both around his neck and muzzle because otherwise he bites at us now. Yes, we got the spray on, but then I remembered the look you had in your eyes when we tried to "train" you to let us wipe your ears after meals, ending up using leather gloves (not the glamour kind either). I immediately said "NO MORE! I will NOT spray, wipe or do ANYTHING else to Kelley that hurts and/or scares him like this. I don't care. If I have to take him someplace twice a day (and of course pay for it) then I will, but Kelley will no longer associate me, daddy, the leash and/or collar or the muzzle (which he had readily accepted u to this point for cleaning his ears) with fear or pain.. Kelley will NOT be scared in this house for ANY reason and neither will Dreamer." Auntie Jeanne was the one who told me that the message came from you, Trevor, and she is absolutely right. Who do I think I am? You had to suffer with a horrible vet and groomer through my ignorance, until the end. And I promised you that I would never do anything like that to another creature, so what do I do? The same darn thing!

Thank you, Trevor, for setting me straight before permanent damage was done. Kelley still likes me and wants more Cheerios. (Dreamer, too.)

xxForeverxx thank you for your beautiful message. I really do have some good friends on this site. (What was I thinking before? leaving?? nah)

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Hi, Bobbie, stopping by to say hello and share in the beautiful glow of your and your beloved Trevor's eternal love. Thank you so much for sharing your and your beloved Trevor's 10 month angel-versary with us.

If I may share something about your precious Kelley: Unfortunately there are times when we as human caregivers - - be we the companion's immediate family or medical provider - - need to do things that our companions simply do not like. These situations can be brushing and grooming to trimming nails, to administering medications and medical procedures. The only time I had to muzzle my Samson was when I groomed him. To this day I have no idea what it was I did that inflicted so much distress on him for I did everything I could to be gentle with him but he would simply fight me all the way and after being seriously bitten by him I could do nothing else but muzzle him. He LOVED his baths, but he was like a bucking bronco when I started to brush him but I calmly talked to him and told him that he can buck and fuss all he wants but I was not going to stop. After a few minutes of his protesting he finally settled down and when all was done, I removed the muzzle and he pranced around truly enjoying the comfort of his body once again - - and showered me with kisses.

I am so sorry your precious Kelley is having to deal with hot spots on his body. They can be quite uncomfortable, as my Samson had them as well from time to time. Somtimes we do need to engage in "tough love" with our furkids, though, even when our hearts are breaking to have to do it when we KNOW it is for their benefit. I know with all my heart that you are doing THE BEST that is possible for your precious Kelley. Please let us know how things go.

I hope today is treating you and Stan, and your precious Dreamer and Kelley kindly, my friend, and that each of you will have a very peaceful evening. Thank you so much for sharing your and your beloved Trevor's beautiful love with us. Please know you, Stan, your precious Dreamer and Kelley, and all of your family are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I always look forward to sharing your news and your treasured memories of your beloved Trevor.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Dear moon_beam,

The trauma was just too much for Kelley and me. Though he has completely healed on his chest, he is still scared of my hands coming anywhere near his face and he is still biting at the muzzle. I'm leaving the muzzle on the living room floor, occasionally playing with it and putting small piece of bologna on it for him to eat. But he still hates the muzzle. And the ad part is that he needs to have his ears cleaned which I could do in a minute, but he need his muzzle. What's a mother to do? Especially when it is 90 degrees out?

Hello my sweet Trevor!

Today I finally started your personal collage. I have room for 20 pictures.....to represent your life with us. So far I have placed 9 pictures and I think you would be pleased with them. I've even included Mr. Ralph's "Trevor for President! a fellow you can trust"" sign in there. I'm not sure where I'm going to hang the picture when I'm finished, either the living room or kitchen since they are the rooms I spend most of my time in.

You know, honey, tonight I could smile at some of your pictures. My absolute favorite two are when we went to visit Auntie Cindy and she had this big back yard with lots of evergreen trees and such wonderfully different smells! I have two pictures of you almost romping in the grass.....no leash, no fear, no confinement, pure freedom! And that is how I hope you are today......another Friday comes along.

I love you, my one and only. I love you Forever.

XOmommyXO

Hooray for youm Trevor-Forever!!!!!!!
Your love and healing rays have opened a tiny crack in your mommie's heart. She could smile at your pictures. Oh you wonderful dog. Your love and power have make this world a WHOLE lot more loving place.
Rufie says hi and he can't wait to meet you and the rest of his cousins and LS friends.
Say hi to Gretta.
Her and Rufue's mom

Hello my sweet, wonderful boy!

It is very late and mommy has to get up early in the morning. (I know I think it's silly, too.) But I just wanted to let you know that your collage is complete and looks terrific! Thank you for all your help. I think I captured all the aspects of life as a LaSov.

And don't forget: YOU ARE THE BEST!!!!!!!!!

Love,
XOmommyXO

Dear Sweet Little Trevor,

I love you too! I bet your collage your mommy made is beautiful. I wish it were possible for us to see it. I know your heart and love spoke to her through your pictures and made her smile and feel your Sweet Living Spirit. Your mommy is going to be okay.

Loads of Love to Trevor - Forever...

LoveMyMickey

Oh Trevor!

Thank you for bringing LoveMyMickey into my life, along with the other amazing LS friends. But Mickey's mommy sure knows what to do and say, doesn't she?

Tomorrow is Memorial Day, a day we humans pause to remember those who have gone before us in the name of freedom and justice. I feel that it is a special day to remember YOU and your brothers because, without you guys, I would have never had the freedom to love as I have had with each of you. Trevor, you especially taught me to give that unconditional love that made "man" name you after the Almighty. (dog = god) I will always be grateful to you and don't even mind that it made me much more vulnerable. But in a good way. I am learning that I can tell my fellow humans, many of whom are suffering various stages of awful cancers, that I LOVE them without even saying a word. You taught me how to transcend words and put forth my true feelings for them, instead. (yes, many times words do get in the way)

So, I salute you, my love and cannot wait to stop by the cemetery to visit you, your brothers and put up the flags for the summer.

Please say hello to all your friends, including Mickey, Hermy, Gretta, Anatole, Tucker, Benjamin, the non-remembered and those who suffered and died silently in the name of experimentation.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

Trevor- Forever - that's how long I'll love you.
Trevor- Someday we'll be together.

Your Aunt Jeannie

Dear, Dear Trevor,

Today is Memorial Day and we did everything we could to remember you. We went to the cemetery to visit everybody. Daddy scrubbed off your headstone with a brush and water and it looks so much nicer now. Do you like the little pot of flowers we left for you? I really do. Poor Rudy, some stupid colony, no more like a complete state of the big black ants moved into his headstone area and are trying to make ant hills all over the place. They almost buried Barney! So, we'll see how smart and industrious those ants are. I swept all the sand away, swept all the ant holes I could see and then stomped down the ground as hard as I could. We had to scrub Rudy's headstone, too. If those ants stick around, I'm going to ask what else I can do (non-toxic) to get them to move somewhere else.

We also put up the flags today. They'll stay up until after Veterans Day in November. The spots look really good and complete now. It was really hot & humid out, with NO breeze so daddy had to do a lot of the work today. People can certainly see that we love you and your brothers. OH! Ad I put a beautiful bird statue on Spot & Squirt's headstone - finally!

When we got home, we hung your collage right in the living room where everyone can see it and I can see it all the time from my chair. We then put your "T" on another wall. Making your collage has helped in my healing along this grief journey. Auntie Cindy says it's because I can see many pictures of happier and healthier times and remember how good that felt. You know, Auntie Cindy is an amazing woman and I'm so glad you loved her, too. She REALLY loved you and still does. So, all in all, I have 23 pictures of you in the living room. Very appropriate I think.

Trevor, you are the greatest and bravest little dog I know and I love you more than ever. It is so good to see reminders of the "better" days. Thank you for loving me and I will ALWAYS love you!

XOmommyXO

Another set of horrays for you Mr Trevor Forever. Your love for your mom oopened her heart and made her able to put together that wonderful collage (I saw it by magic of electricity) of the happy and loving times you guys had together on earth - just a reminder of the eternity to come.

Have a good day - but then every day is a good day in the Perfect World.

Gretta and Rufie's mom

Excuse me, my love,


Mommy is extremely tired tonight. It's from the high heat & humidity that even creeps into houses and the fact that I had to do a lot of errands today. BTW, Linda LOVES your collage and so does Mrs. Pam from two doors down. Remember, she's Mr. Jeff's wife.

I wish there were some way I could transfer the picture of the collage (because you can see every picture on there, but I do not know how. So, if anyone is out there, who has the patience of a saint to work with a computer dinosauer (who only knows hotmail and attaching documents or pictures to a hotmail message) HELP!!!!!!!

Trevor, I love you beyond human words and am catching up on the love feelings in my heart. The collage has done me well in that now I can look at all these pictures of when you enjoyed life, when WE enjoyed life together.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Dear TREVOR,

You are such a sweet boy. I know you were sending down your love to help your mommy make your collage. It made her feel better to smile and remember the happy times with you.

Bobbie, I'm not too good at explaining things, so maybe LS Support could help you with the picture.

HUGS,

LoveMyMickey

Hello my little one!

Yes, I do smile when I look at the pictures in your collage, and even at the ones that didn't make "the cut". I hope no one thinks we were bad parents when we put that empty yogurt cup upside down on your head and it stayed there! You were so patient with us. I got as many pictures of you eating out of daddy's soup mug, a DQ Blizzard cup (medium), the little veggie bowl, but I cannot find the one of you eating out of the big Revere-ware pot that you loved! I hope I didn't cover it over with another picture! That pot was such an inspiration that I used it with Dreamer when he was first here all by himself. I can't do it now because two dogs' head won't fit.

Trevor you are such a remarkable little dog. You touch people's lives and they have never even met or seen you. I still remember how Mr. Ralph and Mr. Jeff would lean over so carefully and pet you on top of your head or your butt. Your two favorite places. They would be smiling and talking softly to you about what a good boy you were. They really loved you.

And so do I. And so does daddy. And Aunti Jeanne. And Auntie Cindy. And Hermy's mommy and LoveMyMickey and xxForeverxx and so many, many others. That just goes to show how much love you have always had yourself for others. Have a HAPPY afternoon and a peace-filled night.

I love you with everything I have, my sweet boy!

XOmommyXO

Good Morning my sweet Trevor!

I think I've decided to write to you during the day, instead of last thing at night, only because it gets so late for me and then I cannot fall asleep. I know that sounds like the flimsiest excuse you've ever heard (and it probably is), but we'll go with it for now. OK?

Today is sunny and not-too-bad out there. Reminds me of the kind of day we would take a walk/meander in. Although I know the bright sunshine hurt your sensitive eyes, we never did find a pair of sunglasses and you would not have kept them on any way! I have some errands to run this afternoon and the boys now must spend all their time when we are away from the house in their crates! Yesterday, someone got on the dining room table again anad spread a dozen large cotton balls I'd had up there all over the floor. Then when I came home, Kelley frantically tried to get them all in his mouth as quickly as possible and, if I hadn't been so mad, I would have laughed myself silly. And what was ever funnier was watching him try to spit them out when offered a bit of food in exchange. See, the first couple cotton balls sucked up all his saliva and he had the driest mouth around. So, intead of waiting for something awful to happen, they are going in their crates in the bedroom, with the T.V. on I might add, when they have to be alone in the house.

Now, YOU never did such things. You simply peed and/or pooped indoors during the last few months of your life and that is perfectly understandable. All of our boys have been like that because they were old. But, I continue to promise you that I will NOT let either Dreamer or Kelley suffer the way I prolonged my other guys' illnesses. I would rather my heart break, knowing that they are not in pain or suffering any more, than continue to push large doses of pain and sedation medication just to keep them around for my selfish needs/ego. You will help me with all of this won't you????? It's not going to be for a few years at the earliest, unless something awful happens, but help get me ready for that time. It will be YOU all the way!

Trevor, I keep loving you more and more every day. It's just amazing how the love continues to grow, even living with two new C. spaniels. You were/are so completely special and a gift straight from God that you will never leave my heart or my soul. Have a FUN afternoon and give my love to absolutely everyone!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Hi Trevor-Forever

I saw the movie that your mom and dad took of you in their yard. If you were that adorable on earth, I CANNOT wait to see how miraculous you are in heaven! Say hi to Gretta.

Her mom

Hello my Trevor-boy!

I just looked at the little video that Auntie Jeanne was referring to. That was taken shortly after you came to live with us and you weren't as sick or symptomatic yet. Actually seeing you walking, exploring and trotting - free as a bird - makes me so happy, but also brings on the leaky eyes. You were and are such a wonderful little boy. How could I ever not love you? That will never happen.

Oh my Trevor, I WILL love you forever and then some. You can count on mommy and your many LS friends and relatives.

Thank you, Trevor..........................................................................
........................for everything.

XOmommyXO





PS: does anyone know if a short video can be transferred to this site?

Good Morning, Trevor!

I'll bet you are surprised to get that greeting! I'm usually never up early enough to say Good Morning to you! But the sun is shining and it's cool so far today so what better way to start my day than by telling you I love you? And I do.

We let another Friday go by and slipped into a month closer to your Angel-versary. I think that may be a good sign, but that's about as far as it gets. I just love looking at your collage and remembering all the little things we used to do. It is so healing in that I have more to remember than just that awful July 22 of last year. And, yet, somehow I have to think of that day in a positive way, too, because that was the day you were totally released from the prison of your body and the pain you suffered 24/7 and went to the most Wonderful Place there is. I know you are happy there and that is all that I could ask for.

You know, I just remembered how you used to jump into the back seat of the car and did not want ANY help from me or you'd bite me. That is, until you realized that I was never going to hurt you and then you startd letting me help you jump up on the back seat from that little foot well. In the end, I could pick you up entirely and you didn't mind at all. I am sooooooo glad that you came to realize how much mommy truly loved you and would never, ever intentionally hurt you in any way, shape or form. You were my buddy and still are!

I have to go do some human work now, even though the boys just get to lie down and sleep. What a life they lead! Did I tell you that I am putting their kibble in 2 liter (empty) soda bottles and letting them play with their supper? It's hysterical, but would have scared you with the noise. I hope you enjoy watching them!

Trevor, I will always love you and keep you right inside my heart and soul. You continue to have a home on this earth, with me. Always!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

Hi Trevor

Got another job for you. Round up all your Perfect World buddies and ask them to search the universe over for the person who did a dastardly deed to your grandpa, your (other), me and your mom - and then doo what you guys think is appropriate.

Thanks Trevor - Forever

Hi Honey!

I have to type fast because there is a severe thunderstorm just hitting our area and I have to shut everything down.

Trevor, I love you more today than ever before!

XO Mommy XO

Hi Trevor darling!

Well, the storm passed with no problems and I got to bed early last night. Thanks for your help.

Today we really have to worry about Muppie's mommy. She seems very depressed, like that should not be "normal" and she wants to remove all her topics from our site. So can you go look for Muppie today and see if he can send some extra help to his mommy? Thanks, again. I knew you would. Can you believe that it has been almost 10 1/2 months since we physically parted? Oh my, time sure does fly, but my love for you only increases day by day. I am constantly looking at your collage and remembering the "good" days. Why do you think I placed it directly across from my recliner in the living room??

I really wish people (especially from your supposed "rescue group") could realize what a good, loving, kind, caring, thoughtful boy you really are. But only a few of us, including your wonderful Auntie Cindy, took the time to look beyond the surface to see what was really going on. Auntie Cindy still loves and misses you, too. I doubt that there is another doggie out there that could "measure up" to you using the identical criteria. And I was the lucky mommy who got to live with you! Even though it broke my heart every day, towards the end, I'm glad I got to help you as much as I could. I still have lots of doubts that I did everything I could for you. I know I could have done some things differently, but that's water under the bridge as they say.

Thank you for being my life, Trevor! You just simply are the BEST!!!!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

Hi Trevor! Guess who I love?





Your Friend,
LoveMyMickey

Oh, Trevor!

I thought I'd written to you yesterday, but I must have forgotten to post it. Oh baby, I am so sorry. Mom's brain is almost completely water by now and with the hot weather coming that water will begin to boil and then who knows what will happen?

Oops! I have to go for now. I'm going to visit a very good friend who has cancer. His name is Gonzalo and he is a very good man. Gather all the creatures together and talk to God and the angels about him for me, OK?

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Good Morning my Love!

Yesterday turned out to be a wild day so I didn't get back to you as promised. You know it was daddy's birthday and he loved your card I finally gave him! The afternoon was really crazy. I went to visit my friend Gonzalo and lost track of time. I didn't leave until almost 5 pm and got hom to find that one of your new brothers, or maybe even both of them, had been on the dining room table! So back to the crates they go! Thank goodness YOU were never like that! Then I realized I'd forgotten daddy's good slacks at the Cleaners and raced to get them before he got home (which I did). We went to Dairy Queen for our traditional birthday supper and it was there that I remembered I'd forgotten to pick up daddy's birthday cake! So we race off to Santoni's and picked it up. It was the heaviest cake I've ever held! Because it was much bigger than two of us coule eat, we shared pieces with our neighbor-friends. You know them all: Mr. Ralph and Maggie; Mr. Jeff and Pam; Ms. Hyugen and Mr. Mark; Mr. Steve and Ms. Sue. And I told every one of them that daddy was 65! Seems unreal doesn't it? Mommy doesn't have to worry for many years yet.

I hope you have just a marvelous day today. Go and play with all your new and regular buddies. Greet the newest members, including Tano, and lest we forget the non-remembered and those that gave their lives to experimentation. You have quite a job to do there, Mr. Trevor. But I know you and Gretta and Mickey and Hermy are up to the task.

I love you so much, my sweetness and miss you like the dickens. I'll get out to see you this weekend. Hopefully, the ants got the message and have left!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO