Happy New Year, Trevor!

As tears are streaming down my face, my hearts is shredding as never before, my soul is crushed to smithereens and my arms ache to hold you, a new year begins for Mommy. I hope and I know that your new year is so much better than it was last year when you were still down here and in so much pain and confusion. And for that, I will always be grateful. I love you more today, Trevor, than I ever have, more and more and more as I remember the lessons you taught me through your every day examples. Be kind, don't bite unless absolutely necessary, suffer as much as you can in silence and then ask for all the help in the world (I don't think that was one of the originals, but I'm adding it now.) and LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE.

I just wish everyone felt as much love and gratitude for you as I do. And, even I, cannot physically love you as I once did. It's not fair. I just read the posts from a few people that have survived at least one year without the physical presence of their loved one(s) and, right now, that doesn't help at all. You gave me unconditional love at a time when I needed it the most and when I was thinking that you needed it the most. You saved me. And now I need your love again and I can only imagine it and sort of remember it, but I cannot feel it as I really need it. I'm sorry to put such a burden on you and I know YOU know exactly what I mean - and it isn't a burden at all. But, if I could just feel your love again, even for one second that would help tremendously.

YOU I will love and adore forever and I mean every second, every minute, every hour, every day, every week, every month and every year until we can actually be together again - forever. I miss you my sweetheart, my baby, my Mr. T, my hunky bunky, my sweet little boy.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

PS: Don't worry so much for me, things are incredibly tough right now, but Mommy and Daddy will make it and make it even better. XOXOxo (M,D,T)

Good Night, my darling!

I think it's time to become you and me again. OK?


I love you beyond measure.

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
Mommy

Trevor, you were the bravest little dog that ever lived!


Mommy

Dear Bobbie,

I wish you health and happiness in this new year. I'm just catching up on your love notes to Trevor. I am so, so sorry that you have been feeling so sad and lonely over the holidays. I'm sorry you didn't get to visit the cemetery on Christmas Day, but I know that Trevor and your other boys were with you in spirit that day and that they are always with you. I'm certain that they feel your love and send you their love too!

I'm sorry your eyes have been leaky so often lately. I cried my eyes out last night, once I had the place to myself again. I think last night I made up for a week's worth of not crying.

Feeling guilty and having regrets are normal, as I've learned from others on this forum. But it breaks my heart to hear you beat yourself up about how you cared for your boys. You dedicated and devoted so much time, effort, energy, love, and more to every one of your boys. Each of them is lucky to have you as his mommy. Really.

Dear Trevor,
I've missed writing to you. I've thought of you often since Christmas Day. Please send your mommy a little message of reassurance and a big wet kiss! She misses you so much.

I'll write more later, Bobbie. My place looks like a tornado came through. Please hang in there and know that I'm thinking of you and wishing you well. I'm sure Trevor and Hermy had a glorious Christmas in Heaven. Hermy, Harry, Albus, and Ron send you warm bunny hugs this evening!

Love,
Hermy's Mommy Lisa

P.S. It's Monday again, so I'm lighting candles for Trevor and Hermy tonight.

Dearest Trevor,

Mommy loves you even more tonight! Aren't the candles that Hermy's mommy lit beautiful? I hope you and Hermy are having fun together!


I miss you my sweet little boy. I'll write you a note in hte morning, OK?

Sleep well, honey!!!!!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

Good Morning, Trevor!

I think I am going to start to write your love notes during the day, instead of the last thing at night. Now, don't ge me wrong...YOU are still the last, loving thoughts in my mind before I go to seep, it's just that I'm not getting to sleep until 1 or 2 am and then getting up at 6:30 with daddy. Kind of makes me tired and grumpy during the day. But then I see your picture and I immediately remember what life is all about and I become happier.

When I was at Autnie Jeanne's I noticed she had your Life Lessons posted on her closet door when they could be seeen evry day. They really are worth reading at least once a day. I know they remind me of just how GOOD you were and are and I hope I can get to be even half as good as you! I love you, my sweet little boy. You truly brought sweetness into my life. My other boys were tumbly, jumpy, playful boys, but you had the calmness and serenity of a dog who really knew what the important lessons of life were all about. Not that my other guys were dumb or any of that, but there is just something about you that was so accepting. THAT is the lesson I must practice every day now.

Today is cold and I'm thankful that you are wrapped in so many blankets to keep your body warm. Your Grandmom and Grandpop's wreath looks so beautiful! I'm going to keep it at your side until the very last moment. Might even keep it around to put valentine hearts on it! I've got to start volunteering at the cememtery again, even though it is winter so that you and I get something established - a nice routine together. That means Dreamer will have to go on flea & tick medicine which I don't really like, but is much better than the alternative.

I don't know if there is a support group meeting tonight. I'll have to check with Andrew. I think we made it for February. I am going to clean some more of the house today because I have the shower for Kelley on Sunday. But your picture is front and center, next to Rudy's and all the other guys.

Trevor, thank you for being the special dog you were (and are) in my life. I think I am just too dense to pick up your signals from Heaven, but I do know that we love each other in a special, unique way and for that I will always be grateful.

Have a SUPER day with Hermy, your brothers, Gretta, Gina, Tucker, Pearl, the little dog that was poisoned, the little dog who died in his crate, all your other friends whose names don't come to mind right now, all the newbies and the non-remembered. I picture them every day and can imagine the absolute joy you must all be experiencing while waiting patiently for us to join you forever!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

Good Morning, Trevor Forever!

I love, love, love you, honey bun! (you, too, bunny hon, Hermy). Today is really is winter out there and I feel so badly for the abandoned and abuse animals that must suffer such cold. I do what I can to support our local oragnization, but even that is having to come to a close for now.

There was a support group meeting last night and it really surprised me. Your mother was the one to have a mini-meltdown. These past days (actually about a month now) have not been very good (as you know) and I had a very good group leader who allowed me to talk about you and I and our relationship and my perceived failures, th unfairness of your life before becoming a LaSov and how incredibly I still miss you and ache to have you back with me. The leader gave us a poem that I am going to post on my kitchen cupboards, although you know I am almost out of room and Olivia's picture may have to come down (gasp!), but it is helpful.

You're up in Heaven now, can you ask around, or even the Big Guy, how does oe survive a continual very painful ache in one's heart that can bring on very leaky eyes and a sorrow that is indescribable? I know you haven't been gone 6 months yet, but I haven't experienced such grief in my life, that I can remember. I do have some magnificent support from a few people on this site, but for the most time, we're by ourselves. (Those wonderful people know exactly who they are and I will love them forever, too.) I think I will talk to Linda about it today. OK?

Meanwhile, please know that you are always in my heart. You didn't take a part when you left, you added a section all your own (is that cardiomyopathy, too?) that I would never do without. Thanks again for your softness, your love, your example and your life intertwined with mine.

Please have fun with your brothers, Gretta, Hermy, Gina, Tucker, Pearl, the little dog that was poisoned, the little dog who died in his crate, all the many wonderful companions whose names I do not remember this minute, the newbies (and their moms and dads) and especially the non-remembered who need us the most. I love you, so much, Mr. Trevor!

XOMommyXO

Good Morning my darling Trevor!

It's warmer outside today and may even get into the 40's. However, Mommy and Daddy has restless night last night so we are both tired and have a lot on our minds. But I am not here this morning to trouble you with anything. I am here to tell you what a perfectly special little boy you are and how much I adore you, even now when I cannot see you physically except in pictures. I received all your pictures from Shutterfly and have to get busy making your collage. The rest of the pictures will go into a special album.

Trevor, you know, you made me so happy, even though I was so angry at the circumstances you had to live through before you came to our house. Oh yes, sometimes I wasn't that happy cleaning the carpet after one of your many daily accidents that missed the potty pads spread all over the house, but daddy is the hero there. He gently told me that it was NOT your fault and that you would NOT be having accidents if you could help it. And he's absolutely right. So after awhile, even when you peed on your comforters (remember the night that we ran out of comforters for you to sleep on because they all were in vraious stages of being washed and dried?) I would calmly thank you for peeing where I could see it and it wasn't going through to the carpet. At other times I would quietly say, "Oh, my Trevor, I wish you wouldn't do that, but it's OK. It can be washed. You are such a good boy."
And you know, as the months were closing in on you and the accidents were more frequent (pee & Poop), the house really took on quite an odor that was a challenge to remove or cover and NO ONE came to our house to visit. But I didn't care. YOU and your needs were what mattered to me. That's all.

I've still got your potty pads with messages hanging on the wall and they are NOT coming down for the baby shower on Sunday. I wonder if there are many people like me that have had such an intense love relationship with their companion that it continues at the same intensity after death? I hope so. WEll, I know Hermy's mommy and Gretta's mommy have that. It's so special.

I have to go do some work now, honey. If I have time tonight, I'll jot aquick note. But always know that I will never forget you and your love!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

I am just beginning my own journey without my best friend Diego. He was put to rest on Saturday December 31st. He was diagnosed with an abdominal mass October 2010, and was given only a couple weeks to live.. But he stayed with us for 14 more months. I believe it was God giving me the answer to my prayers, my constant care, and my new home vet. Because I knew he would go one day, I constanly worried and prayed he would just go in his sleep, so I would not have to play god and decide the time. But, we left for five days at Christmas to go home and although we had someone to stay in our house with him, I worried. He was recently diagnosed as diabetic, but was still on low dose of insulin and didn't even feel his daily injection and my house sitter was fine giving him the shot as well as taking care of him and my two other kitties. He was getting slower at moving around the past month and the vet had just seen him a couple weeks before we left. But upon return, I could tell he was taking a turn for the worse and the next day I called the vet to come over because I discovered he had retained fluid in his stomach, plus gained a whole pound in five days. Still he didn't act as if he were in any pain. She came that evening and we drew a fair amount of clear fluid from his tummy, took a little blood and then gave him a 5 minute iv to replace some lost minerals, etc. He was doing well with the insulin levels so I was sure it was his intestinal mass. She called Friday to say it could be his heart, an infection, or unfortunately cancer. We would do an ultrasound at my home ( yes there are mobile ultrasound units) on Saturday. It was then we found the mass was indeed cancer and had spread to the limp nodes and surrounding tissue. After checking with her other Drs. And specialists we were told there was nothing we could do. Since he wouldn't eat much without me bringing a small dish and would hide under the bed the last day, I knew he was in pain and would only get worse. With the help of my daughter and her boyfriend and my nurturing home veterinarian we decided it was time. We said our long goodbyes, held him close and let him leave the world in my arms asleep on my chest. So peaceful, so dignified. I can only say if you have to make this terrible decision alone, please have a mobile vet come to your house, it was the final last loving and comforting act I could do to repay my very very best friend for all the unconditional love he gave me..
I cryed all day Saturday, Sunday, and up til today, Thursday. But reading everyone's wonderful supportive comments to others has helped. I too have lost other cats, but this loss is by far the worst. I am getting better everyday, but I miss him so very much. Everything has changed and I talk to him constantly wanting, really wanting to know he hears me. I just wanted to get my story out there and as you have all said, just writing it down has really helped.
As I type this, one of my other cats, Boo is sleeping on my lap.....he is helping me as well as Diego's sister Sandy. Thank you for reading my story, sorry it's long.
I learned alot from you Diego, I just wish I could've had you longer......
You are forever in my heart and never forgotten, never

Dearest Trevor,

There is another "newbie" in Heaven with you and his name is Diego. He's a 27 year old kitty who was recently put to sleep because of cancer. I'm sure you've looked him up already and have welcomed into the "group".

Mommy had a rough evening, but with wonderful help from several people, got through the worst of it. So, I'm going to bed now, to read a few minutes and then try anad sleep. I cannot wait unti the shower is over!

Have an unbelievable night with your brothers, Gretta, Hermy, Gina, Tucker, Pearl, Diego, the little dog that was poisoned, the little dog that died in his crate, all the newbies and the non-remembered. I'll stop by and see you tomorrow. It's Friday again - 24 weeks. Almost exactly 6 months. I cannot believe that - how could you and I be apart for that long? January 22nd will make 6 months to the date. Oh my, my weet little boy, mommy misses you so much!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

Good Morning, my precious little boy!

I hate to remind you, but today we have been physically apart for 24 weeks - almost 6 months. I cannot believe that time has flown by like it has. Time may be flying by, but my love for you is completely steady. I'm never in a rush when thinking of you and you and me together. I take as much time as possible to sit and remember the good times we had in the first year and then the progression to the rally bad times. I wish I had to courage to stop you boys' lives before the bed times get so bad. But, of course, I'm selfish and want to be with you on this earth as long as possible. And that's where the questions and the unknown suffering kick in. I don't think we humans have quite the grasp we need to on our animal companions' suffering. Oh, we ask the vet for their opinion and we get pills like Rimadyl or Tramadol, etc. But do we really know how you are feeling? For some reason, God chose not to give you voices that we can always understand. With humas we are always asked to rate our pain between 1-10 which gives us an idea of how we are feeling. But with your animals, we have to look in their eyes, and judge how active they are and if that's from old age or something else.

I saw a movie once, I think it was called The Mass. Anyway the young priest, who wa new to the parish, woke up one morning to find that the heater on his aquarium had malfunctioned during the night and boiled all the fish to death. He felt incredibly sad and norrible about their deaths and in his sermon that Sunday, apologized for not hearing their silent screaming while suffering and dying. I often remember that line because, for me it is so true, too.

Trevor, you had the grace and courage to enjoy life as much as your pain and conditions would let you. I have known of no other creature that has been able to do that like you did. I love you so much that words don't even come close to really describing my love. There must be many words in Heaven that are right on the mark. Think of them and then think of me. At the Tuesday support group, the leader told me to tell myself what she felt you would say to me and it was kind of like this: You ARE the best mother! You did EVERYTHING possible to love and keep me comfortable and happy. You did everythig right. I love you and will love you forever. I had to repeat the words and they did make me feel better.

Trevor, on this anniversary, please know that I will always love you and will never forget you ini any way. You are my love, too.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

Have a peace-filled night, my sweet little boy!


XOMommyXO

Hi, Bobbie, stopping by to say hello to you, your precious Dreamer, and your beloved Trevor and all your boys. Reading through your heart-filled love letters is a privilege for they so eloquently share the eternal love bond you share with your beloved Trevor. Thank you so much for honoring us in sharing your beautiful love.

I hope today is being kind to you, Bobbie. Please know you, your precious Dreamer, your husband, and your family are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I always look forward to sharing how things are going for you and your beautiful love letters to your beloved Trevor.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Oh Dear Trevor!

I cannot believe that I did not write to you for two whole days!!!!! I must have been out of my mind! Actually, this weekend, we were getting the house and everything ready for Kelley's baby shower and there were a million and one things to do. I am so, so very sorry that I didn't write at least something to you. O, my precious baby. I promise that something like that will NEVER happen again. We did keep your candle lit, though. I am so sorry, honey.

I just don't know what to say now. I never thought it would happen and I certainly know that you were always on my mind. Matter of fact we prominently displayed your 8 x 10 picture in the kitchen where everyone went to talk and get something to drink, etc. I think Dreamer took away part of the attention. He was really good at the party, which helped.

I was so tired today that I ached all over and all I could do was lie on the floor and sleep. I used our blue blanket and thought of how we used to snuggle so much under that same soft garment. We were quite the pair!

Oh, I love you, Trevor and always will. Please forgive me for my slip-up. And have a good night with every one of your friends and family.

Until tomorrow, when there will be a REAL letter........

XOMommyXO

Bobbie, you have such a tender heart. I wish you comfort and blessings in the remembrances of Crocker and Trevor. Love, Jennifer in Texas

Good Morning, Sweetheart!

I thought of you right away this morning and have your pictures prominently on display downstairs again. Oh, mommy misses you and would love to wrap her arms around your soft, little body and jour pour my love for you right into you. My strength, too. I do not know how I ever deserved to live with such a loving, wonderful little boy as you, but I will thank God every day for the rest of my life that I did. I keep saying that I wish people could truly understand what a brave and loving dog you were, but I guess that stays between us because I just don't have the words that even come close.

Mommy is feeling a bit better today and is going to try and get most of the house back looking like a real house, instead of fairy land. Although the shower was really fun, I'm glad it's over and we can get things back to "normal". (????) Have we ever had normal?? How is Hermy? I've talked to her mommy a couple times, but life seems to continue to get in our way. There needs to be a length of time, likfe FMLA, for grieving the loss of one's pet(s). I know that will never happen on this earth, but i can dream, can't I?

Moon_Beam once told me to look driectly into your eyes, in the best picture I have of you, and I would see all the love that your were receiving from me. I think she may be right. For the longest time I thought it was all the love you were sending to me, but I wonder if it's not a little of both? Our unspoken language was one thing I will always hold dear to my heart.

Dreamer is really a good boy, too. So young and playful and just wants to be loved and love back. I do love him very much, but still think of YOU when I'm paying attention to Dreamer. Will that ever change so that I can give Dreamer his full due without shorting you at all? I hope so. Would you mind letting me know?

I have to go do some work now, so will stop writing for now, but NEVER stop loving and thinking of you!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!! AND HERMY!!!!!!!
XOMommyXO

Hello my sweet little boy!

Mommy needs a bit of help remembering to read your Rules for Life. I miss you so much, honey. I want to be so close to you! Have a good night, my love!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

Dear Bobbie and Trevor,

Oh, how I miss writing to you, Mr. Trevor! I'm so sorry I haven't written in a while. I should have left you a note this weekend. How are you? I can't thank you enough for your friendship with Hermy.

You and your mommy are always in my thoughts and prayers. I wish I had your courage and strength, Trevor. Maybe then I would be able to get through one day without sobbing myself to sleep at night. You display such remarkable inner strength and give so much unconditional love. You both are truly angels!

I love you, Trevor! I'm sending you my hugs and kisses and all my love. Have a wonderful, peaceful night!

Love,
Hermy's Mommy Lisa

My dearest Trevor,

Auntie Lisa is such a wonderful person, isn't she? I have to send a message to her, that crying and hurting are not bad things at all. I know you cried an awful lot in those last couple of months, when the pain would get so bad you had to do something! Hermy and Lisa have only been apart 8 weeks. That is nothing. Please tell Auntie Lisa not to push herself or judge herself according to others' standards. She has her own and that's all that matters.

Oh, Trevor, I wish I could wrap my arms around your little body again and just pour my love for you into every one of your pores. You ARE love. You ARE courage. You ARE my everything. Mommy is having a very hard time with her sister who is so mentally ill and it is making the entire family so sad. That is a time when I think of you and all the courage and acceptance you displayed. I tried to give you every ounce of comfort and love that would sustain you through, until sleep would come. And I know you are doing the same for me right now.

You are simply amazing, Mr. Trevor and I will love you forever and a day - because we'll be together again!

Have a good night's sleep and say Hi! to Hermy and the gang.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

Oh my dearest, sweet little boy,

How I miss you and how I love you so very much. Today we went to visit you and your wreath was still beautiful. Your picture looked good and I'm going to save the treats until it is time to take the wreath down and then I'll spred them near the back of the cemetery so the other animals can have a treat. It was nice to just sit and tell Dreamer all about you and what a role model you are. I cannot believe that it will soon be 26 weeks that you've been gone. Oh, baby boy, I wish there was some way to see you again, even in a dream. Do you think that would hurt me too much? Is that why I haven't heard or seen from you yet? Or are you simply feeling so good and happy and are so busy fulfilling all your dreams that you don't have time yet? Whatever the reason, I still think of you all the time and have pictures of you everywhere so that I am constantly reminded of the wonderful you.

Please have a peaceful night with your brothers, Gretta, Hermy, Gina, Tucker, Pearl, the little dog that was poisoned, the little dog that died in his crate, Brindle Boy, the newbies and the non-remembered. Maybe you can all sit around a fire, telling snow(storm) stories. There are plenty of those to go around.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!

XOMommyXO

Hello my sweetness!

I hope you are having a glorious day in Heaven with Gretta and Hermy and your brothers, etc!

Mommy is having a very bad day today. It has nothing to do with you, although I know I would feel better if you were here with me.

So, Mommy is going to lie down on the livingroom floor (like we used to do) and rest until daddy comes home and then probably rest some more.

I love you so much, Mr. T!

XOMommyXO

I love you so very, very much, Trevor!

Hi, Bobbie, stopping by to say hello and to read through your beautiful love letters to your beloved Trevor. I'm so glad things went well for Kelley's shower, and that your precious Dreamer was on his very best behavior. Your beloved Trevor is so very proud of how you and his new brother are getting along, and that he's guiding the both of you in developing your own special love bond.

I hope today is treating you kindly, Bobbie, and your husband and Dreamer. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Bobbie, and that I always look forward to knowing how you're doing and to sharing your beautiful heart-filled love letters to your beloved Trevor.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Dearest Trevor,

I'm sorry that I almost didn't write to you today. And isn't Auntie Moon_Beam just a doll?? She helps me so much, knowing just what you are thinking and doing. She is such a comfort. And I hope Lisa is doing well, too. Tomorrow I will have to check in with everyone.

I love you, my sweet boy, with so much love that sometimes it hurts. But it's a good hurt, if you know what I mean.

I am very tired tonight, again, so these XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO's will have to make it through the night, OK?

Good Night, Sweetheart!

XOMommyXO

Hello my wonderful little man!

Mom's been a bad girl again and didn't write for a couple days! You know what is going on so, while I am truly sorry, I haven't forgotten you for one second. Did you see the Valetine messages I put on yours and your bothers' headstones? I was hoping for something nicer, but I have to leave in less than 48 hours and thatwas the best I could find for now.

Isn't it funny that Jasper's Christmas decoration froze to the ground and I have to leave it there??? I left your Grandmom and Grandpop's wreath and, if I have time tomorrow, I'll put a couple hearts on it because it is still beautiful. just like you!

Trevor, honey, I love you so much! I miss you, too. Come with me to my dad's in a couple days because I think I'm going to need a lot of help there!

I love you, sweetheart!!!!!!!

XOMommyXO

My dearest, sweet little boy,

Your mommy has been thinking about you all day. I even have an extra picture of you in a frame in my suitcase, taking it to Minnesota with me. It's from when you were feeling better, but still have a very pensive look in your eyes. Your eyes always told me so much about you and how you were feeling. I don't know how I captured their message as I did, but I thank you and God for allowing that to happen.

Mommy is very tired from getting ready for tomorrow, so this message is short, but so very loving. How could I now love you? Impossible because you made it that way.

Have a good night with everyone and I'll dream of you tonight@

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!

XOMommyXO

Good Morning my Sweetness!

Today the sun is shining and it's C-O-L-D!!! But not like it is cold where I am going today! Did you know that sometimes they cannot bury people that pass away in the winter because te ground is frozen so deeply that they have to wait until spring? That happened to my Grandma! Anyway, I'm glad you are safe and sound and Andrew said he'd watch out for you and your brothers. I hope those guys that come to blow the leaves away have enought sense to leave your little doggies alone.

I'm kind of nervous about this trip only because of my sister who is so crazy. I hope she doesn't pull any stunts so daddy and I can have a good month. Of course, I am taking your picture and one of Dreamer with me. I have to have you guys with me wherever I go. You are on my mind 24/7. I don't know how I lived without you before you came into my life and I'll never be the same. You tuahgt me so much about love and patience and caring and doing what you can, no matter how big or small that was. I have to print a copy of your life rules to take with me.

Trevor, I love you with all my heart and soul. Enjoy Heaven and meeting/greeting all the newbies that come your way. You know their people here on earth miss them so much! But you and I know they are safe, and cured and happy in Heaven and everyone will be reuinited again - forever!

Gotta run and get ready!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

Trevor, you are the BEST!!!!!!!


XOMommyXO

Good Evening my sweetness!

Although I try to write to you in the morning, as long as I am at dad's it will be an evening letter. There's so much to do that we run out of time. I know that really isn't a good excuse, but I'm not ever going to forget you anyway!

Trevor, you are simply the best and bravest little dog that ever lived on this earth and is now in Heaven. All my boys are brave, but you brought it to new heights. And so came my love and admiration for you. My little buff baby, I miss you so much, but I still tell myself that I would rather you be in Heaven, feeling perfect and being perfect than being down here on earth where I would selfishly love you, but where you would be in so much pain and suffering that I would be literally torturing you. And you know I would never do that to any animal.

I'm tired, too, so I'm going to go to bed, too. Honey bunch, I love you so much and always will. You never have to doubt that and you can count on that forever!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

Hi Trevor!

My dad and I talked about you a lot tonight. A special picture of you is on his piano and when I started crying, my dad came over and gave me a big hug. He knows how much I love and miss you and, of course it's another Friday bump in the road. I do miss you so much, honey, My heart and soul will never be the same again. God blessed me with you.

Mom is very tired tonight so, again, I'm going to say: sleep peacefully and have a great day tomorrow with all your friends and family. Please say HI! to Hermy for me, too.


I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

Hi, Bobbie, stopping by to say hello and to let you know that you, your husband, your precious Dreamer, your dad, and to your beloved Trevor and all your boys. I hope this finds you and all of your family doing well. I hope your dad is continuing to do well in his recovery, and that you are being able to enjoy your time with him.

Thank you for sharing your beautiful heart-filled love letters to your beloved Trevor with us. Please know you and all of your loved ones are in my thoughts and prayers, Bobbie, and that I always look forward to sharing how things are going for you.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Dear Trevor,

I'm so sorry I haven't written in a while. I hope you and Hermy and all your friends are happy and warm, playing together and sharing wonderful stories. Your mommy Bobbie has an incredibly big and loving heart and amazing inner strength! So do you, Mr. Trevor!

Yesterday was Friday and another huge bump for us. I bought two bunches of flowers, one for you and one for Hermy, and I lit two candles. The flowers are a mix of roses and gerbera daisies. A pink bunch for Hermy and a ivory bunch for you. They're together in the same vase, just like you and Hermy, together in Heaven!

I'm sure you're with your mommy in Minnesota, looking after her and keeping her warm. It's okay to send her a little sign that you are there with her and that you love her too.

By the way, Trevor, I think your mommy called you "buff" in one of her love letters to you. Does your mommy mean "buff" like the color or "buff" like a bodybuilder? Or both? Hmmm...if you are buff in color, then that explains alot! No wonder you and Hermy are such close friends. You probably remind her of her hus-bun Harry, who is also "buff." Isn't that funny?

Trevor, I wish you and your mommy a wonderful, restful night and a peaceful weekend! I love you!

Bunny Hugs,
Hermy's Mommy

Dearest, dearest Trevor,
the night is so cold, the wind so strong and the snow will soon be falllig here. I think of all the animals that are suffering in the weather and I can only ask God to help them.

Auntie Lisa really was good to you yesterday, getting flowers, lighting candles and loving you, too! And she's right about "buff" being your light tan coloring and definitely not your physique. ##ers are put into one of 3 classifications: buff, ASCOB or parti color. Until Dreamer I'd only had buff ##ers.

I look at you picture all the time and remember when those times were good. And I know that times are good for you again, up in Heaven with your family and friends: Hermy, Peggy, your bothers and cousins, the newbies and the non-remembered. Please have a peaceful night and get ready to cheer on the poor Ravens in the afternoon football game.

Going to sleep now and dreaming of you all night. Please think about showing up, even for a minute, in a dream, OK?

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

[/color]Good Morning my Treasure!

Well, today is supposed to be a snowy day, but it doesn't look like we're getting that much, but dad and I are staying inside today. I feel like I'm not doing a good enough job motivating him into eating and doing things. although it is much easier when we can get out of the house and do things.

So, why am I complaining to you? I really don't know, other than you ALWAYS listen to me talk my way into solutions, so I'm doing it again. Oh, honey, I miss you sooooooo much! I look at your picture here at least 1,000 times a day and wish I could just give you the hugs and kisses like I used to. I hope you liked them, or at least didn't mind them. I loved them and got so much strength from them. Right now I am thinking about those last months when you were really scared to come down the steps in the morning. I felt so badly for you because I knew it was the vets and the sadistic groomer that did it to you. So, no matter how long it took or how many times we tried, I knew we were either going to get down the stairs or you and I would spend the day upstairs! I could get your stuff from the kitchen and bring it up to you. And there was always plenty to do upstairs (like clean!). One day we didn't make it downstairs until almost 2:00 pm and that was a great victory!

Oh, sweetie pie, I love you with all my heart and mind and soul - even more today than ever before. Have a wonderful day in Heaven! Say Hi! to Hermy, Gretta, all your bothers, Gina, Tucker, Pearl, the little dog that was poisoned, the little dog that died in his crate, Miss Peggy, the newbies and the non-remembered, whom I especially think of daily. OH! AND DO NOT FORGET TO ROOT FOR THE RAVENS!!!!! Although it's a hopeless cause, we can still show them we care. Right? GO RAVENS!!!!! [color="#000000"]

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!
XOMommyXO

Hello Sweetie!

Well, as you can tell, a couple days ago I forgot to spell out C-o-c-k-e-r Spaniel or say C. spaniel. This is quite a website and I like the security.

Today we had 3 inches of snow and the Ravens lost. Don't know which is worse, but will be able to tell you tomorrow if Mike doesn't come over and clear the driveway.

I miss you so much, my little bundle of love and joy. I love you, too. More than anyone can understand, for reasons that are diificult to put into words, and will continue to love you for all eternity.

Have a peace-filled night cuddling with Hermy, Gretta, Tucker, Gina, Pearl, Peggy and all the wonderful creatures that now call Heaven "home". Don't forget the newbies or the non-remembered. You are so good aat welcoming and loving every one that comes by you. I love you, Trevor. I really do.

XOMommyXO

I love you, Trevor, more than all the love there is in this world.

XOMommyXO

My dearest, darling Trevor,

It's been a short while since I've written. You know everything that has been going on here in Minnesota, so I don't have to go into detail. Grandpa is in the hospital tonight and I so wish I would have had the energy to stay with him, at least until the CT scan was over. But we agreed that he was in good hands and he would call me at the slightest twinge....

Mr. Trevor, I miss you so much. I do remember how simply wonderful and loving you were here on earth. I am so sorry that I missed the actual day of our six month parting! How could I have done that? I still cannot believe you've been gone one-half year already. that doesn't seem fair at all.

One thing I can promise you is that I will never, ever forget you. You are the love in my life and no one comes close.

Mommy is very, very tired tonight so is going to go lie down in the recliner and try and get some sleep.

I LOVE YOU, MY TREVOR!!!!!!!

XOMommyXO

Hello my darling Trevor!

How I hope you know how much I miss and LOVE you, honey bun! I think back to when you and I were together at home and I feel such tenderness in my heart for you and from you, still to this day. You were/are the perfect dog in my life. Even when I would get exasperated with something you did (usually peeing somewhere) I loved you because you had so much trust in my that I would not scold you and would understand why you couldn't help doing what you were doing where you were doing it. Trevor, you taught me a LOT about patience and understanding. Sometimes I still have a hard time being the kind of person that exemplifies you. I try and try and fall so short. Every day I read your rules for life and get leaky eyes knowing you did each thing while in such awful pain and here I can't even do them with no pain! Yes, whoever it was, got it right when dogs are names dogs (God spelled backwards.)

I am so in love with you and your memories. Please have a good night's rest with you family and all your friends, esp. Hermy and Gretta and everyone else, new anad old alike.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

Hi, Bobbie, just stopping by to say hello and to get caught up on your news and your beautiful love letters to your beloved Trevor. I am so sorry that your grandfather is in the hospital. I hope the tests will show the doctors what the problem is and how they can help him feel better.

Please do not be too upset with yourself about not remembering your and your beloved Trevor's six month angel-versary on the exact date. First of all you have a lot on your mind. Secondly, and most important of all your beloved Trevor wants you to focus on your treasured memories of his earthly journey with you knowing that he continues to share your earthly journey now just as he always has and always will. Your beloved Trevor always knows what is in your heart and on your mind, and he is forever a heartbeat close to you.

I hope today is treating you kindly, my friend. I hope your husband and your precious Dreamer are doing well, too. Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful love letters to your beloved Trevor with us, Bobbie. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and always look forward to knowing how things are going for you.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Dear, dear Trevor,






You are the BEST!



love,
XOMommyxo

I LOVE you with all my heart and soul, honey bun. Miss you so much, too. Trevor, you are #1!





Love,
XOMommyXO

My Dearest Trevor,

Oh, how you are the light of my life! My love for you continues to grow and deepend every day. God truly blessed me when you came through our front door that first and final time! You even found the water bowl and drank from it right away!

Mommy has been having a very stressful time lately. Nothing to do with you at all! That's why my messages have not been the usual letters. I don't know when things are going to let up, but please know that I think of you and love you every second of every minute of every day..........

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

Oh my Honey Bun,

How I wish I could hold you, hug you, kiss you and keep you in my arms forever! THAT would be Heaven!

I hope you and Hermy are doing well together and not stirring up too much comotion. Gretta and Tucker and Gina and Pearl and everyone else are always in my heart, too.

I love you so much, Trevor. I'll never stop saying your name with love and admiration attached right to it.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

Dearest, Dearest Trevor,

I love you so much. I say that every day and mean it more every day.

I cannot wait to be with you in Heaven. It's going to be so wonderful. Who knows who else will be there with us by then?

I do miss Dreamer, too. You understand that.

Trevor, you are the bravest little dog that ever lived and the most loved dog in the universe!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

How did I ever live my life without you, Trevor? I'm struggling now, but at least I got to know and love you here on earth.

You are the best!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

Sending my love to you Bobbie and your angel Trevor.

xxForeverxx

Dearest Trevor,

See? We have another friend -xxForeverxx! Animal lovers are so amazing! Thank you so much for your kind note.

Trevor, I love you like no other. I miss you in ways I never knew possible.

Please have a good night with Hermy and Gretta, your brothers and cousins, friends and newbies.

I love you with all my heart!

XOMommyXO

Hi, Bobbie, stopping by to say hello to you, and hope this finds you doing well. Thank you always for sharing your heart-filled love letters to your beloved Trevor with us. Even your brief notes to him reflect the eternal endearing love bond you share.

I am so sorry that life is stressful for you, and hope that things will improve. Please know you, your husband, your precious Dreamer, and all of your family are in my thoughts and prayers, my friend, and that I always look forward to sharing your news and your beautiful love letters to your beloved Trevor.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Dearest Trevor,

Aunti Moon_Beam stopped by to say hello and her words are always so precious. I hope Hermy's Mommy is doing OK, too.

This will be short again tonight, my sweet one, Mommy has a bad stomach ache and needs to lie down. That way I can look right at your picture and feel better.

I love you, Trevor, with everything I have. I am so blessed that you came into my life and gave me all the love and thrills that you did.

Have a good night's sleep with Gretta and Hermy and Tucker, etc.

I love you my sweet, sweet boy.l

XOMommyXO

I love you with more than words and feelings. I miss you with more than tears and sobs. Trevor, you were the bravest little dog that ever lived on earth. I cannot wait for our reunion in Heaven.


I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO