HI Trevor

You ARE forever! Thank you for coming to earth to change the hearts of your mom and dad and "grandpa" and "grandma" who saved you and gave you what you deserved in this life. Now you have got what you REALLY deserve - a life in the Perfect World. Bless you little guy!

Your aunt
Gretta's mom

Hi my sweet little boy!

It was so good to get back to the cemetery today and put all clean guard beanie baby doggies around your grave. Some of them are new-comers and looked really good. Did you notice the Chihuahua with the pink boa around her neck? Pretty soon those little flower pots will need to be changed out. But when I was there the breeze was blowing and the flags were flying and the whirly things were spinning like crazy! It's been pretty dry out there so your grass is about where it was when daddy trimmed it.

Trevor, it feels so comforting when I pull into the cemetery, like I'm finally where I want to be and that is with you and all your brothers. Talking to each of you comes so naturally, as does some laughing and some crying, but I'm finding more and more peace there. Looking at your stone and the little ones around you, the Celtic cross and rosary give me a sense of "It's OK." I'm with my Trevor and that's all that matters. Rudy has become your buddy in this loss. That is because I was very depressed for about 5 years and did not pay much attention to him in all that time, yet he never lost his joi do vivre or his love for supper! He always stayed by me and I lie on the couch and slept and slept. I would let him out back every couple hours so we did have some time together and he always slept on the bed. But I feel that I really neglected him and then he got sick and sicker and sicker and wouldn't eat, except at other people's houses, and even then he rarely ate the same food more than once. He got so thin (18 pounds) and I was too stupid and selfish to see what was happening to intervene and say, "Stop this nonsense. Let's give Rudy the peace and freedom he so deserves." Nope, I waited until we came home from Mass on Saturday night and he was splayed out on the kitchen floor and couldn't get up. We don't know how long he was there. From that moment, until the morning we sent him to Heaven, I stayed with him 24/7. It was Crhistmas time and we had a good radio station that played the best and most comforting music. He and I lay on the living room floor, under such a soft blanket and I just stroked him and talked to him and told him I loved him trying to make up for all those times I didn't. He was such a good boy, too. We layed there for two days. Rudy would occasionally get up for some water and a couple times went outside, but it was so cold he didn't stay out long. He died on December 23, 2008. It was the saddest Christmas of my life. Now the two of you are side-by-side at the cemetery, with the same kind of headstones and NO MORE ANTS!!!!!!! Oh! Would you mind telling Rudy that I took his Barney home to wash him? That way he won't think Barney got snatched.

Well, Trevor, this wasn't much about you tonight, but at the same time, you have allowed me to bring out my feelings about Rudy. I tuck BOTH of your pictures into your blanket when going to sleep and I cuddle with both pictures. Thanks for letting me do that.

Trevor, I love you FOREVER!
XOmommyXO

Bobbie

This touched my heart very deeply. You're a wonderful person.

Gretta's mom

Bobbie,

It touched my heart too. Thank you for sharing your feelings and love for your babies with us.

(((((HUGS)))))

LoveMyMickey

Good Morning my sweet boy! Good Morning Rudy, too! And Jasper, Birney, Kelly, Crocker, Spot and Squirt!

Wow - somehow mom is quite sad this morning, missing you, Trevor, and all your brothers. Each of them enriched my life in their unique ways and I will always be the better for them. Every one of them also had some sort of major medical problem - usually cadiomyopathy that we'd treat for years with expensive meds which seemed to work. You didn't have heart problems, you had head problems!

Oh, Trevor, you are the one C-o-c-k-e-r that truly opened my eyes to what commitment and total love meant. Oh yes, I loved every boy as much as you (I think) and I really hope that they all felt as comfortable and loved as you. I think as I get older, changes take place in my heart, soul and mind - I sort of slow down with things and do a lot of remembering. Not that I'm THAT old, but having had doggies for over 30 years isn't chump change. (don't you love human saying? some are so rediculous). I absolutely need to make a general daily schedule that reminds me to DO more things with these guys. I use the excuse that it is too hot out,and it is, but I do have a townhouse with air conditioning. My trainer suggested putting little post-it notes all over the house to remind me of the little (5 minute) things I could do. I'll have to do that! And let you know tonight.

Trevor, if there were one million doggies (preferably C. Spaniels) with your conditions and they needed to live with me, all would be instantly welcomed and loved beyond measure. I don't think I could really be a hoarder, but I would live with as many as I possibly could and caring for them and loving them would be my full time job. I'd just have to figure out some way to afford a housekeeper once in awhile to do the dusting and vacuuming. Why, I don't even do that now!

Trevor, my heart is so full of love for you and your brothers, especially right now and these eyes are so close to leaking. I hope you don't mind sharing the spotlight for another few minutes. Would you tell them all that I still DO LOVE each and every one of them, beginning with Nikki and going through to you in the Perfect World and Dreamer and Kelley down here with me? Every one has been my "bud" and my baby. I remember so many things about each of them and must get started on the other collages. That is going to be more of a challenge because their pictures are all stuck in albums and I have a LOT of thick albums to go through. But it will make me happy and then I can send HAPPY VIBES to each of you!

Trevor, keep up the good work. You are simply amazing, all the time. Say hello to all of our friends (one day I'm gonna write their names down so I can type them all out!), continue your valuable work greeting the newbies, reminding the non-remembered that they ARE remembered and soothe those who were killed in the name of experimentation. They have a special place in Heaven.

Gotta go now, honey bun. I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Good Night, my love.
Sleep tight until the morning light!

I LOVE YOU, BENJAMIN!
XObobbieXO

Good Morning, Trevor forever!

Boy, mommy was really tired and screwy last night wasn't she? Here I was writing to you and used Benjami's name! I have to write down everyone's name for sure now.

I hope you are having a good day today. You know I love you with all my heart and soul.....more today than ever!

This is going to be short so that I can come back later and do you justice, OK?

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Hi Baby dog!

I just was forbidden from sending a reply to someone in need of help. I don't know why. But will you keep your eye out for a newbie named "Tucker"? His mom is trying to decide when is the best time for him to come to Heaven.

Thank you, honey. I promise I will write a lot more tomorrow.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Hi Trevor

Time to send some happy, calming rays to your mom. And whisper in Gretta's ear that HER mom could use some, too. And may be Mickey's mom, too. Geez, it must be so wonderful in that perfect world.

Thank you for everything, Mr Trevor Forever.

Aunt Jeannie

Hi Mr. Trevor-Forever,

Thank you for the "happy rays" you sent today. Now be sure and send some to your mommy and aunt. You are a good boy and I love you!

LoveMyMickey

Dear Trevor,

You are one lucky boy up in Heaven! You have all sorts of people that never knew you here on earth, who just love you so much, especially Auntie Jeanne, Auntie moon_beam, Auntie LoveMyMickey and Auntie Lisa (Hermy's mommy). But then you were that way here, too. Those few, lucky neighbors that met you (especially Mr. Ralph and Mr. Jeff) LOVED you and made sure that every time we were going for a walk or a meander, they would come up to you and gently pet you and talk so kindly to you. You won over some mighty tough hearts, kiddo and I am so proud of you for that, too.

Today I learned of yet another wonderful dog that is in Heaven. His name is Ferrel (sp?). I don't know much about him, but I met his mommy at a human cemetery and I could just tell how much she loved and missed him. So would you mind taking a look around and seeing if you can find him? I know you two will really like each other.

Trevor, I have so much to say to you, but it's getting really late again. Mommy is having trouble getting to sleep at night and being on the computer doesn't help. But, even if I'm not on the computer, I am still lovnig you and missing you more than ever. Have a peace-filled night and know that.........

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Hi Trevor Forever

Just your Aunt Jeanne stopping by to tell you I love you and to thank you for coming to earth - despite all the agony you had to go through - just to teach us who know you some ever-so-valuable life lessons. Have fun up there with your pack today - and send guidance and comfort where they are needed here on earth.

We love you,

Aunt jeannie

Dearest Trevor,

Mommy is very sad and tired today. I won't bore you with details. But may I ask for some peace-filled rays and thoughts from you today? They would help immensely and I would be ever so grateful to my sweet boy.

Thank you so much, Trevor. I love you so much, so much that sometimes it feels like growing pains!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Dear Mommy,

I am sending you an Angel of Peace. I hope she brings you peace and calmness and renews your energy. I Love you Mommy!

From your Forever-Trevor....

My Dearest Trevor,

THANK YOU and Ms. LoveMyMickey for sending the Peace Angel yesterday. She was such a huge help to me and I am so grateful to both of you. Again, I am going to print a picture of the Angel and put her next to the computer as a reminder that, even in my darkest moments, people care and so do our wonderful Heavenly companions.

Today is a better day, although I go to the doctor and he's going to really yell about my weight gain. Time to get back with my Life Coach (Auntie Jeanne) and stick with the program. Right? Thank you for asking God to send sunshine and cooler temperatures this morning. Sunshine is sooooo good for us humans, except when it turns a hundred degrees outside and close to that inside. Mommy has to work on getting some room darkening shades or something for the kitchen windows that face the West and let in so much light and heat, even with the current blinds closed. Maybe I'll just hang aluminum foil - I used to have panels covered with that and they made this place darker than night. But then I got new windows and they didn't fit any more. Such goes life.

Today is also another Friday. The bump in our journey road is still there, especially as your first Angel-versary comes ever closer. We also remember Hermy today, who came up to become your best friend on a Friday. We think about her mommy and her brothers and send them our love and caring. Do you know that it will only be about 6 Fridays and you will have been physcally gone for one year? I'm so glad the actual date will fall on a Sunday this year so both daddy and I can come visit and stay with you. I should tell Grandmom and Grandpop about that, too. Good idea.

Trevor, I don't know exactly how you wiggled your way right into my heart and stayed there.....to be there forever. But you did and I am so glad for both of us. Again, I feel so much remorse in making you suffer as long as I did. I'm sure you have forgiven me, but I need to learn how to forgive myself and keep my promise to you. I will work on that. I see your collage every day and that helps me remember those good days and weeks in the beginning. Oh! How you must have thought our house was Nirvana in the beginning! No other mean dogs to torment you and steal your food and nip at you, confusing you even more. I hope I did a good enough job of reassuring you that you were now safe for the rest of your life. I was going to make sure of that no matter what I had to do. Auntie Cindy and I still talk about you all the time and I sent your short little video to her and Auntie Jeanne. I now look at it a lot and just have to smile and feel so good about that day. You were FREE!!!!!!! to roam and explore and beg for cake and ice cream and lie down on the cool patio floor and drink water and pee and poop in the yard with no restrictions. Wasn't that fun? All those new smells???? Wow.

Now it's time to thank you for being the most wonderful creature to come into my life. I must tell you that all of your brothers are right behind you, not in second place, but in 1 1/2 place! Keep doing your important jobs in Heaven: welcoming the newbies, playing with all of your friends, reminding the non-remembered that they truly ARE remembered and soothing the souls of those who gave thier lives and suffered in the name of "experimentation". I'm sure that one makes some people upset, but I really care much more for the animals who must suffer and die alone and in silence.

So, Trevor, have a wonderful day and know that your Mommy and Auntie Jeanne and LoveMyMickey and Hermy's Mommy and moon_beam (and there are more!) LOVE YOU so very, very much!!!!!!!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Hi There Sweet Little Trevor,

Just stopping by to remind you that "I LOVE YOU" and I always will. I want to say that you have a wonderful, loving, and caring mommy and aunt. You were so blessed to have a mommy to love you and take good care of you like she did.

Have a good night, my love, and I will stop by again soon.....


Auntie LoveMyMickey

Dearest Trevor,

The weekend flies by so fast and I took the day off from my computer yesterday so I'm stopping by to say Good Night! It was so good to be at the cemetery today and see that all the flowers and flags and whirly-things are doing well. I'm even trying to get rid of those nasty ants the natural way - pouring vinegar all over the ground, in their holes and letting the stuff soak into the groud. That take a LOT of vinegar! Reminds me of Easter, though.

Trevor, please have a good night with all of your friends, new friends, old friends and don't forget your mommy, OK?

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Trevor

You might have to send down a gentle reminder that "Forever" is part of your name. You can NEVER forget or be forgotten. Even by me who only saw you once.

XOXO
Aunt jeanne

Oh my dearest, sweet little boy,

I can't even begin to tell you how much LOVE I have for you. It just grows by the hour and my heart keeps growing to keep it all together. And you have so many others that love you, too! The amazing part about that is that only Auntie Jeanne and Auntie Cindy have ever seen you. I still haven't got a picture of you up here so that the others can see your beauty. Someone will help me one day. I'm sure.

Oh Trevor, we're coming closer to your 11th month anniversary and then just one month after that. I still cannot fathom how so much time has slipped by. At first time seemed to drag on, s-e-c-o-n-d b-y s-e-c-o-n-d..................then, somehow, things picked up a bit, then I lost track of the number of weeks you had been gone and now, here we are. But I can assure you of (more than) ONE thing: my love for you will never "slip by". I love you solidly, with all my being, all the time, in all sorts of ways. My heart still aches to see you and/or be with you now that you are healthy and happy. But I know that I must bide my time so that when we DO actually meet again, it will be the Love Fest of the centuries.

I found a little book that I am reading. It is written by a Franciscan Friar (so we KNOW he loves animals) and it is called "I will meet you in Heaven!". There is one version for Dogs and one for Cats. I'm sure a lot of the inside is the same for both, but I have found it to be one of the most comforting little books around. The chapters are short and scripture is quoted so this just isn't some religious person trying to make a buck off of our sorrow. I don't know if Amazon carries it. I'm going to look. But I am writing YOUR name in it so that everyone knows who we are talking about. Well, we'll talk about you first and then all the other animal saints in Heaven, OK?

Trevor, have a wonderful day with all your friends and relatives. Welcome the newbies (watch for Tucker); remind the non-remembered that they ARE all remembered and comfort those who suffered and died during experiments.

Trevor, I LOVE YOU FOREVER!
XOmommyXO

Trevor,

CORRECTION: the name of the book is actually, "I Will SEE You in Heaven" and you can get it on Amazon - cheap!


XOXO Mommy XOXO

Sending my love to Trevor today. Hope he is bouncing about causing havoc!!

xxForeverxx

Hey, Trevor!!!!!!!

A lot of people must be interested in you! This topic has more than 11,000 visits!!!!! Just wait until they see your picture! Then the sky's the limit!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Good Morning, my love!

I hope you had a peace-filled night with every one of your family and friends. Have you met Tucker, yet? Keep your eyes open...... I still have not written the names of your friends like Hermy, LoveMyMickey, xxForeverxx, Gretta (of course!), Gino and Gina. Oh, you have so many and that makes me feel really good. Because you will never be alone or scared again......ever!

The 11- month Anniversary is coming ever closer and I have to be busy that day. But you will continue to be #1 in my heart and we'll share special thoughts all day. Where have the days gone? Your daddy always says about raising children that "a day takes forever, but 20 years go by in a flash". I know that is true in this case, too. (with all your brothers so far)

We humans had a noted author/poet who once wrote, "How do I love thee? Let me count the ways..". Well, I would never finish counting all the ways that I love you and I know you love me, too. Some day I'll get the poem and write it for you, so you'll know what I mean.

Trevor, again, thank you for having given my life meaning and purpose. You fufilled a Heavenly duty in a perfect way. I think that is one of the reasons I miss your presence so deeply. Please continue to help me, when you can, to convey such love to Dreamer and Kelley (although it will never be the same).

Have a delightful day today and say hello to every one of your friends, the newbies, the non-remembered and those tortured and killed in experiments.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Hi Trevor,

Just a little note to tell you about a special doggie named Chuy. He was taken to Animal Control and put to sleep before the one person that really loved him evn found out about him being gone! Tell Chuy that mommy has written to cici and will keep and eye on her.

THANKS, honey bun!

I LOVE YOU, TYREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Hi again, Trevor,

I need you to keep an eye out for a corgi-daschund little girl named Gracie who is just about ready to come to Heaven. Will you greet her and introduce her to all your friends?

Thanks, honey!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Good Morning, Trevor, my love!

Today there is actually a good reason for you to be in Heaven. It's HOT, HOT, HOT & HUMID today. You would not like it at all. The sun is bright and the heat is on. Yuck! Actually, Dreamer doesn't like it either. I KNEW you sent him to me because you two are so much alike!

There are a lot of doggies and kitties coming over the Rainbow Bridge and I hope you are keeping up with them! Of course, all your friends help, too, so no one is ever left alone. That's what is so nice about Heaven! I loved the book "I Will See You in Heaven"! There is a dog version and a cat version. I am going to re-read that little book many times. That's how helpful and gentle it is! Just like YOU!

Oh, Trevor! You are still my little sweet boy. And I miss you so much every single day. Some people may think, still, that I am "stuck" in my grief journey. Not true! This is where I am and this is where I want to be. I LOVE Dreamer and Kelley (we snuggle some times now) with my everything. But they are realtively healthy and independent. You needed so much love and assistance that you touched a very special place in my heart that no one else has ever reached and probably won't. See? Well, I knew YOU knew the difference, but I'm writing this for those humans (most of us) that need an explanation.

Let me always remember your Life Lessons which actually describe you perfectly. And I'm getting help with posting your picture!

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Hi Trevor-forever

Yesterday I read in a book that when aman's very best dog went home, somthing deep inside his heart and soul shifted. Those are the perfect words to capture what happens to people like your mom (and me). People who haven't had a very best dog (or other fur baby) look at it from the outside and say we're 'stuck in our grief' - but what really happened is what the good man said - something deep inside us shifted. And even though we FEEL sad, we're happy for the experience and the permanent change that happened in our hearts.

Thank you Trevor. Thank you Gretta. Thank you every very-special animal. Thank you EVERY animal.

Have a good day up there, Trevie-boy!

Your aunt Jeanne (Gretta's mom)

Good Morning, Trevor!

I hope you had a good night, especially with all the activity yesterday! I'll bet you are the BEST greeter in Heaven......for all the newbies, dogs, cats, bunnies, ferrets, iguanas, lizards, mice, whatever. Daddy wouldn't do well with the mice because he doesn't like them. I think he's scared of them! (don't tell him that, OK?)

Trevor, tomorrow will be your 11th month anniversary already. I am still stunned that you are gone, much less that so many days have passed since that terrible July day. Even though I know it was probably one of you best days because you got to sleep in peace and then join the angels and other animals who were waiting for you. Unfortunately, what we are left with on this earth, is your perfect body and the decision what to do with it that best honors the life we had together. It was a no-brainer for us. I can still see every detail of those exact minutes, but not everything leading up to them. Afterwards, I didn't care about anything, but how we were going to put your body in a very safe and comforting place. Little did I know jut how comforting it would be for me (and I hope you are pleased with our selection). I will stop by in the morning to make sure everything is beautiful, OK?

Trevor, I just don't have enough words to a) thank you for being in my life, saving it and giving me purpose again; tell you how much and how deep my love it for you! But my heart and soul are yours completely....forever.

Have a beautiful day today. Have fun playing, romping, rolling in the grass and playing with all those toys and marrow bones!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

TREVOR



TREVOR

Hi Trevor!

I was so happy to finally see your pictures. (I don't know how that top one became small, but that's okay.).......You are such a handsome, sweet, cuddly little boy.

Try to send your mommy some happy rays tomorrow. She will be sad because of your angel-versary with the angels. But she will also be happy that you were in her life.

I LOVE YOU TREVOR - FOREVER!


LoveMyMickey

Trevor,

You and Mickey and Benjamin have changed the world - something in this world has shifted - for the better.

Aunt Jeanne

Hello Sweetheart!

Today I just hugged and hugged your extra blanket after I'd cut two squares for Auntie Jeanne to make me "your" pillow. That is as close as I can get to actually hugging you. It was a poor substitute, but because it was YOUR blanket it was OK. I am so sad today and miss you so much. It was a warm, but fine day today. Daddy and I got our "running around" chores all done and came home. But I just got so sad and thoughts of missing you popped into my heart.

Trevor, how am I going to continue to live on without you here? I have to find ways, but right now, I just don't feel like it. I don't say much to anyone except Auntie Jeanne and daddy because most others don't understand. You are the best doggie in the universe, bar none and I continue to thank the Lord above (and Rudy) for sending you to me. My mind and soul wants to write tonight for a long time tonight, but my heart cannot handle the pain and my eyes are already leaking all over the place. So I will say good night to my BEST friend and hope that you have a wonderful night, too. And don't ever forget....

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Dear Bobbie

You'll make it with Trevor's blessings and those of Gretta, Rufus, Rudy, Birney, Kelly, Crocker, Spot, Squirt .... and all the animals you have helped ... and all the animal soul-mates you have consoled. We're all sending you our strength and most comfortable comfort for as long as you need it.

XOXO
Gretta and Rufus's mom

Dearest Trevor,

I know you are feeling SO good in Heaven and you are doing so much good for so many others there, too. I am so proud of you that I could just bust!!!!

As the days close in to our one year anniversary, they are becoming a bit more difficult (harder) each day. I remember all the good days in the beginning and then the gradual slope you slipped down day after day. I think that all started with the horrible snow storm we had (some 90 inches in a week) and you got so scared and disoriented outside. You never seems to regain your confidence after that. Well, not all your confidence.

Trevor, I love you with everything I have: in my heart, in my soul, in my mind, in my tears, in my words and in my memories. I just wish I could have been the perfect mommy for you. Many times I did not try as hard as I could have and many times I left you at home sleeping when all I really wanted to do was stay home right next to you and sleep. Instead I went out for too many hours. Oh, the chances I blew, never to be able to recover them - ever - until we are together, forever. I am sad, my sweet boy, but not so much for you now, but for me and for what I threw away when you were alive. Maybe that is why I cannot find your baggie of hair.

I have been blessed with so many wonderful and good boys over the years. I don't know why me, but then again, why not? But, for many reasons, you take the cake. I've told you why so many times already. You and I share that knowlege between us all the time. I wish there were more adequate words to describe my love and my missing you. I just don't know what they are. But you do know all that is in my heart and soul. That is just as important.

Oh, Trevor, I love and miss you beyond all words. Have a great day today and hopefully mommy will write to you again later today.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR - FOREVER!
XOMommyXO

Hey, Trevor!!!!!!

Some good news from the L.S. adminitrator!!!!!! You and all the other Cocker Spaniels will now be able to write out your entire breed name with no problems!!! How nice! We have the administrator to thanks for this one, so everyone that LOVEs Trevor, please write and thank him immediately. I am tickled!

Watch this: TREVOR IS A BUFF COCKER SPANIEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Now just how cool is that?????? And you know, Trevor, the Cocker Spaniel, how mommy needed a lift today! Thank you Mr. Administrator!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

Mr. Trevor,

You are the cutest COCKER SPANIEL I have ever seen and "I LOVE YOU!"


One of your Aunties,

LoveMyMickey

Hi Trevor, you cocker spaniel, you!

Gretta's mom

Hello my dearest, sweet little boy!

Now I can call you my Cocker Spaniel without any fear of censorship! And having had 8 of them, those little dashes in between every letter were getting to be a drag! But even if things had not changed you would still be my Trevor-boy one day longer than forever.

I just wish I could put into words that were adequate to describe all my love for you. Every day was a new day filled with challenges and suprises, some good some not-so-good. there were times when we both lost our tempers, but you never bit at those times. You knew that mommy and daddy would help you through those times and we would all come out the better for it. I am just still so angry that you had to suffer for so long without any one caring enough to find out what the real problem(s) was. I guess if you don't look, you won't have to deal with a problem, one way or the other. there just simply isn't a problem. But there WAS and you were the one who had to endure all the pain and agony. THAT is my anger and I don't know how to resolve it. I know I did the best I could and gave you a good home for at least 2 years. But that doesn't absolve any of the people that came before me from their responsibility of finding out what was really agonizing you. Your foster mother didn't. Your grandmom did, but couldn't keep you long enough to get the answers. Who was there before that? I'm sure this is one of the "traps" that foster and forever parents must deal with all the time. I'd like to know how to handle it without simply being told to "let go". It's not that easy when you have a dog like Trevor who endured so much pain, for so long, all by himself.
Is there anyone who might be able to help me with this?

I will stop by tomorrow to say Hello to you and all the boys. I'm just so glad that you can how be my full-fledged Cocker Spaniel!!!!!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

Hi Trevor - forever!

Today is yet another day that I get to love you and miss you with all my heart and soul. My eyes still leak so many times when I think about you. I must start trying to remember the first few months when things were going OK, except that we were doing every single thing that we could WRONG! Trying to teach you submission training by holding you down by your neck and collar!!!! Now that's real smart for a dog that has Chiari malformation and syringomyelia. No wonder you didn't like Aunti Cindy's house. For those times and the times I misunderstood you at home, I am sorry forever.

Trevor, if there were some way of stacking my love for you, one day on top of the next, I'm sure we would have circled the moon and back by now at the very least. Even though I don't go out to the cemetery quite as often, you are always on my mind and in my heart. There is not one room in his house that doesn't have something that reminds me of you and that makes things more comfortable for me.

You were and still are the best thing to ever happen in my life. (don't tell daddy that, OK?) You came at the right time, you taught me so much and you even showed me the kinds of "real" friends we had.

Have a peace-filled evening in Heaven and don't forget all the "jobs" you have now. I'm so proud of you!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Hi Trevor-Forever

It's you Aunt J sending you some love and some thanks for all the lessons your life taught ME, too. I met you only once, but, as the good book ("Unsaid") says, something deep inside me shifted - forever.

Have a Perfect Day in the Perfect World.

Aunt J

Dearest Trevor,

Mommy has't been very good at writing these past few days, but you are never out of my thoughts and heart.

Please welcome Tucker to the Prefect World (Heaven) tomorrow. His mommy says he's suffered enough and it's time for him to come to Heaven and feel good again. I told her I would let you (AND ALL YOUR FRIENDS) know.

Thanks so much, my love!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

Hello my wonderful, darling little man!

Auntie Cindy got to see your collage today and we both cried. She misses you as much as I do. And she was one of the only people that saw who you really were and what you truly needed and she fought HARD for you. And that's how you ended up with me!

Things have been HOT and budy around home. Today it was 104 degrees downtown and that is not with the heat index. Luckily all you boys are under shade trees, so the sun doesn't beat down as heavily. And, as of today, every one of your Beanie dogs are clean! We know that will never happen again, huh? I wrote to Grandmom and Grandpop and they are going to come out and visit on your one-year anniversary, too. Then, when we are finished with our visiting, we'll go get a bite to eat - just like last year. Grandmom was even nice enough to offer me a bit of your hair to replace what I lost. She is such a good person.

Trevor, there are more than a millions ways to thank you for living with me and loving and trusting me as much as you did and still do. But I don't think there are that many different words in the English language to express them all. So I repeat myself so often and hope you don't mind. If I could, I would say "I love you, Trevor!" constantly, from the time I get up until I finally close my eyes. About that time someone would report me, so I will continue to say those very special words in my mind and heart. You know they are permanently etched on my heart - never to wear off.

You know, as the song says, "You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy when skies are gray. You'll never know, dear, how much I LOVE YOU - please don't take my sunshine away." (and you never have!)

Good night my sweet boy.
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

Bobbie

Another WONDERFUL love letter to Mr Trevor Forever! He loves you, you love him - so do I! We're off to see the wizard.

XOXO

Gretta and Rufus's mom

Hi Sweet Trevor!

I'm just stopping by to give you lots of and to say you have one of the BEST mommies ever!

"I LOVE YOU TREVOR - FOREVER"


LoveMyMickey

Hello my sweetheart and my best friend,

Mommy is very, very exhausted today and quite sad (perhaps overwhelmed it a better word). But I want you to know that, no matter how mommy is feeling, all she has for you is LOVE, LOVE, LOVE and more LOVE.

Trevor, you are absolutely the BEST ever, in my life.

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!
XOMommyXO

Dearest Trevor,

Mommy loves you more today than ever before and cannot wait until tomorrow when I will love you even more!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

Hi Trevor-Forever

Could your auntie ask you a favor? Please round up the gang and welcome into the perfect World a beutiful white fluffy dog (on earth here we call them Samoyeds) named Zusha. She's up there with you guys and already knows it, but could you tell her Gretta's mom has met her mom and we're trying to help each other carry our heavy hearts. Even though we KNOW we'll be together again one day.

Thanks a lot, Sweetheart. Your mommie is our hero - her love for you is unequalled on this earth. Sometimes her heart cries so many, many tears for you. She needs some Trevor-rays to help us help her, OK?

Auntie and Rufus love you, Trevor-boy!

Good Morning my precious little boy,

You know one day does not pass that my love for you doesn't grow by leaps and bounds. When I look at your pictures or read someone's message to you, my heart and soul swell with pride. Other than being a fighting dog, you had one of the most awful lives I can imagine on this earth. Discarded during middle life, having to fight your way to survive for who knows how long?, in more and more pain that you did not understand, finally rescued by someone who loved you dearly, but unfortunately couldn't keep you, gave you to a rescue group that just made your life more miserable until FINALLY you met Auntie Cindy who fought to bring you to us! And what a confusion that was in the beginning, too! Luckily, mommy and daddy are so confident in the Matthew J. Ryan Veterinary Hospital at the University of Pennsylvania in Philadelphia that we got you up there as quickly as we could. I tell you, they are the BEST in this region and I'm glad we only have to drive 3 hours to get there. And, on top of that, you found the most compassionate neurosurgeon ever!

Honey, I don't know why I still concentrate so much on the past and the pain you suffered almost every day. I guess because, for us humans, there isn't much tangible to concentrate on for the future. Oh, yes, we talk about being together again forever and that is simply wonderful. But I don't have any "part" of you that I can hold on to and say, 'This is Trevor!" I still haven't found your hair and we buried everything else YOU loved with you. So, mom's just being a big cry-baby today. I guess I'll call my leaky eyes, Trevor's, because they really don't leak for anyone else. (Well, several friends on LS, that's true.)

Somehow, I have to come up with the right combination of words so that others will come as close as possible to knowing what a PURE Spirit you are. You go beyond a Spirit dog/animal (for me). You were the definition of "pure" and I think that is rare, too. Yes, I was busy with you almost 24/7 and even left the house while you would be sleeping for awhile, to get a little break or do some chores, but I would trade ALL of that in a heartbeat just for a glimpse of how healthy and happy you are right now. All my human eyes got to see was a totally limp Trevor-body at the end - didn't move, didn't flinch, nothing.

I just seem too needy and that is not fair to you or anyone else on this site. All they read is how sad I am and that has to get terribly old after awhile. So I need to concentrate on YOU, YOU, YOU! I guess I'll dig out my old Thesaurus and look up all sorts of new words that come as close as possble in describing how awesome you were on Earth and are in Heaven. OK?

Meanwhile, hope you and Hermy and Mickey and Gretta are showing Tucker and Zusha all around and letting them in on some of the "secrets" of Heaven!

I LOVE YOU, DARLING TREVOR!!!!!
XOMommyXO

Oh no, Bobbie. We definitely DO NOT get tired of hearing how sad you are and how you are struggling to find the right words to express what Trevor is to you. We love you. We love Trevor. We love ALL the darling animals in heaven waiting for us - even though our human future doesn't seem so hot - well, right NOW it does but you know what i mean.

XOXO Gretta and Rufus's mom

Hi Bobbie,

I agree with Gretta's Mom, we do NOT get tired of hearing how sad you are. I understand how hard it is to find the right words to express our love for our little soul-mates. You write what and when you feel like it and we'll all try to comfort one another.

Bobbie, I want to thank you and Gretta's Mom for mentioning the book, "I'll See You in Heaven". I read it and really enjoyed it, even though I got leaky eyes.



Hello My Sweet Little Friend Trevor!!!

You understand how much your mommy loves you and treasures the small amount of time you had together, don't you? A big "YES"???....Hmmmm..I thought so......Trevor, gather ALL your friends together, Gretta, Mickey, Hermy, DannyBoy, and all the newbies and send down some extra love rays to your mommy, okay? She is the BEST!!!!

I LOVE YOU TREVOR FOREVER!

LoveMyMickey