Dear Bobbie and Trevor
This is your aunt Jeanne. Bobbie, what exquisitively beautiful love letter to Trevor. There will never be a greater love than yours and Trevor's. You know I won't be able to read them for a while or post and tell you two how much I love you. But, like Trevor and Gretta, even though we can't see or hear or hug each other for a while, I'm still here and so are you. Flash - this IS the relationship we have with our loved babies who have preceded us into the perfect World.
I love you, Bobbie.
Sister jeanne
Full Version: I Love You, Trevor
Hello my little love!
Today snow landed on your grave and headstone - a white and wet snow to cover the leaves and downed branches. It looked like a soft, soft blanket. You always loved a soft blanket or comforter to lie one and be covered up with. And now Nature is giving you one, too.
I love you, my dear Trevor. More today and even more tomorrow! You truly were God spelled backwards, in everything you did. Your actions were pure and totally out of love for me and your daddy. Thank you
Have another good night's sleep. Be comfortable and content. That is my biggest wish for you. Be comfortable and content.
I'm going to get you picture and blanket now - to cuddle with and fall asleep. Hope I dream of you!!
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Today snow landed on your grave and headstone - a white and wet snow to cover the leaves and downed branches. It looked like a soft, soft blanket. You always loved a soft blanket or comforter to lie one and be covered up with. And now Nature is giving you one, too.
I love you, my dear Trevor. More today and even more tomorrow! You truly were God spelled backwards, in everything you did. Your actions were pure and totally out of love for me and your daddy. Thank you
Have another good night's sleep. Be comfortable and content. That is my biggest wish for you. Be comfortable and content.
I'm going to get you picture and blanket now - to cuddle with and fall asleep. Hope I dream of you!!
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOXOMommyXOXO
I love you, too, Trevor. Goodbye for a while = but I'll be back and so will you!
Aunt jeanne
Aunt jeanne
Hello my sweet boy!
The candle still burns in your memory every day, honey. And I think about you all the time. Daddy told Dreamer that we might as well change his name because we call him "Trevor" all the time. We could change his name, but there is only ONE Trevor - ever - and that is you. Oh, how I miss you and the routines, habits, etc. that we had. It was you and me, buddy. We were a good team and only death could break us up. That is only temporary, too.
Sometimes I picture what it must be like for you in Heaven. You must be smiling all the time and I can just imagine your running and playing, barking and making merry. Your eyes are shining and your appetite is still good. No more awful prednisone, being groggy from pain medicine or being in pain. None of that ever again. And I can be at peace with that. But missing you and the love we so actively shared? That will be forever, until we are together again.
Have a wonderful night, my Trevor. Sleep well and dream happy.
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
The candle still burns in your memory every day, honey. And I think about you all the time. Daddy told Dreamer that we might as well change his name because we call him "Trevor" all the time. We could change his name, but there is only ONE Trevor - ever - and that is you. Oh, how I miss you and the routines, habits, etc. that we had. It was you and me, buddy. We were a good team and only death could break us up. That is only temporary, too.
Sometimes I picture what it must be like for you in Heaven. You must be smiling all the time and I can just imagine your running and playing, barking and making merry. Your eyes are shining and your appetite is still good. No more awful prednisone, being groggy from pain medicine or being in pain. None of that ever again. And I can be at peace with that. But missing you and the love we so actively shared? That will be forever, until we are together again.
Have a wonderful night, my Trevor. Sleep well and dream happy.
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Good Night my beautiful Trevor!
My love for you just never fades, but incredibly gets a bit stronger every day. It's not the fierce love that we needed when you were here with me and even for the first few months (months? has it been that long to be months??) after you went to Heaven. Slowly, almost imperceptively, my love for you has moved to a better plane. My love for you is a constant, steady warmth that is starting to nurture my heart and soul. I continue to miss you fiercely, but even that occasionally moves to a comfort zone that is somewhat more mellow and comforting.
Oh my Trevor, life was so unfair to you and yet, you accepted it so graciously and with a silent dignity that will never be matched. I must continue to learn from you - every day and in every way.
And Gretta, your momma is doing well on her journey. She is thinking of you all the time and hoping that you are enjoying watching her on her adventures. Perhaps you and Trevor can snuggle together at least until she returns. You can do it longer if you want. I love and miss you, too, Miss Gretta the Dude!
Have a peaceful and restful night, Trevor. Your picture will be next to my heart and YOU will continue to be in my heart, forever.
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOXOMommyXOXO
My love for you just never fades, but incredibly gets a bit stronger every day. It's not the fierce love that we needed when you were here with me and even for the first few months (months? has it been that long to be months??) after you went to Heaven. Slowly, almost imperceptively, my love for you has moved to a better plane. My love for you is a constant, steady warmth that is starting to nurture my heart and soul. I continue to miss you fiercely, but even that occasionally moves to a comfort zone that is somewhat more mellow and comforting.
Oh my Trevor, life was so unfair to you and yet, you accepted it so graciously and with a silent dignity that will never be matched. I must continue to learn from you - every day and in every way.
And Gretta, your momma is doing well on her journey. She is thinking of you all the time and hoping that you are enjoying watching her on her adventures. Perhaps you and Trevor can snuggle together at least until she returns. You can do it longer if you want. I love and miss you, too, Miss Gretta the Dude!
Have a peaceful and restful night, Trevor. Your picture will be next to my heart and YOU will continue to be in my heart, forever.
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Dear, dear Trevor,
How was your day in Heaven today? Doesn't that sound like a silly question when you are in HEAVEN? But I think about you all the time, remembering your earthly journey with us and simply wishing it could have been entirely different (better). But now you are in a place that allows only peace, love and joy. If anyone dserves that, it is YOU!
I love you and I miss you Mr. Trevor. YOU are my #1. Have a restful night tonight, honey.
I LOVE YOU TREVOR!
XOXOMommyXOXO
How was your day in Heaven today? Doesn't that sound like a silly question when you are in HEAVEN? But I think about you all the time, remembering your earthly journey with us and simply wishing it could have been entirely different (better). But now you are in a place that allows only peace, love and joy. If anyone dserves that, it is YOU!
I love you and I miss you Mr. Trevor. YOU are my #1. Have a restful night tonight, honey.
I LOVE YOU TREVOR!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Good Night, my sweetheart and the love of my life. Mr. Trevor, you are my everything and always will be. I love you so much that my heart could just curst sometimes!
You are the best!!!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Dear, dear Trevor,
How can so much love continue to flow forth from my heart to you? It's quite easy, my love, because you are the sweetest and bravest little dog I've ever had. You come into my mind at all times of the day and night and settle in like an old friend. And we didn't hav each other for that long. I can't get enough of your pictures. You have the most expressive eyes I have ever seen. They pour out love and devotion and trust like none other.
Trevor, on this earth, you were the most patient lttle boy, ever. With the amount of pain that you were in 24/7 and we didn't even know what was going on, I am truly amazed you did not bite or attack us more then the couple times you did. I am still just so sorry that you had to suffer so much, esp. in the beginning when we weren't told the truth, etc. But that's kind of like beating a ***** *****, isn't it?
I will never regret, but celebrate the fact that you came into our lives and made them so much richer. You are an amazing fella. Mr. Ralph misses you terribly. I can see it in his eyes every time he sees Dreamer. He kind of looks out for you.
I hope you had a delightful day with all your friends and relatives. How many new friends did you make today? Have a restful slumber, tonght, my dear. I will be dreaming of you - for sure!
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOXOMommyXOXO
How can so much love continue to flow forth from my heart to you? It's quite easy, my love, because you are the sweetest and bravest little dog I've ever had. You come into my mind at all times of the day and night and settle in like an old friend. And we didn't hav each other for that long. I can't get enough of your pictures. You have the most expressive eyes I have ever seen. They pour out love and devotion and trust like none other.
Trevor, on this earth, you were the most patient lttle boy, ever. With the amount of pain that you were in 24/7 and we didn't even know what was going on, I am truly amazed you did not bite or attack us more then the couple times you did. I am still just so sorry that you had to suffer so much, esp. in the beginning when we weren't told the truth, etc. But that's kind of like beating a ***** *****, isn't it?
I will never regret, but celebrate the fact that you came into our lives and made them so much richer. You are an amazing fella. Mr. Ralph misses you terribly. I can see it in his eyes every time he sees Dreamer. He kind of looks out for you.
I hope you had a delightful day with all your friends and relatives. How many new friends did you make today? Have a restful slumber, tonght, my dear. I will be dreaming of you - for sure!
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Hi, Bobbie, just stopping by to say "hello" and to check in to see how you're doing. Every time I read your beautiful love letters to your beloved Trevor my heart is filled with such warmth - - I can feel the love you and your beloved Trevor share. Your letters paint a beautiful picture of your love - - thank you so much for sharing your joy with us.
Joy, yes, - - still tenderized with the sorrow of physical separation - - which is bridged by your treasured memories and the eternal love bond you and Trevor share. Thank you so much, Bobbie, for sharing your and Trevor's love story with us.
Bobbie, I hope today is being kind to you, and that your precious Dreamer is doing well. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, my friend, and always look forward to sharing your news and your beautiful letters to your beloved Trevor.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Joy, yes, - - still tenderized with the sorrow of physical separation - - which is bridged by your treasured memories and the eternal love bond you and Trevor share. Thank you so much, Bobbie, for sharing your and Trevor's love story with us.
Bobbie, I hope today is being kind to you, and that your precious Dreamer is doing well. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, my friend, and always look forward to sharing your news and your beautiful letters to your beloved Trevor.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Hello my darling Trevor,
Well, it's been 15 weeks since we parted, physically at least. I just cannot believe that the time is going by. I just wish it would stop and that you and I could be together again. But that will have to be in Heaven, because I do not ever want you to suffer again. Oh! to be able to hug you and stroke your soft, soft hair would be a dream come true.
I spoke with a very knowledgeable priest this week and asked him if all God's creatures went to heaven or if he believed that only those with "souls" did. His reply was that we would not know for sure until we, ourselves, died and went to Heaven. So, I went on to tell him that I believed that every one of you guys is in Heaven waiting for us because God would not create living beings to just die and be done with. He never once said anything about Church teachings, etc. because, actually, no one will know until they get to heaven. Boy, won't some people be surprised then!
Thank you, Trevor, for loving me as you have. It literally saved my life, even when I was saving yours, you didn't know you were doing the same thing for me. WE are a team, you and I. To be together forever! Have a good night's rest, honey. I love you so, so much you beautiful boy.
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Well, it's been 15 weeks since we parted, physically at least. I just cannot believe that the time is going by. I just wish it would stop and that you and I could be together again. But that will have to be in Heaven, because I do not ever want you to suffer again. Oh! to be able to hug you and stroke your soft, soft hair would be a dream come true.
I spoke with a very knowledgeable priest this week and asked him if all God's creatures went to heaven or if he believed that only those with "souls" did. His reply was that we would not know for sure until we, ourselves, died and went to Heaven. So, I went on to tell him that I believed that every one of you guys is in Heaven waiting for us because God would not create living beings to just die and be done with. He never once said anything about Church teachings, etc. because, actually, no one will know until they get to heaven. Boy, won't some people be surprised then!
Thank you, Trevor, for loving me as you have. It literally saved my life, even when I was saving yours, you didn't know you were doing the same thing for me. WE are a team, you and I. To be together forever! Have a good night's rest, honey. I love you so, so much you beautiful boy.
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Hello my dear little boy,
Today the sun was shining down on your headstone and the beanie babies buddies that stand guard on your grave. It was really pretty with all the reddish leaves again covering just about everything else. But I had to move all the leaves because some college frat guys are coming to volunteer and rake part of the cemetery and I didn't want your buddies to get lost. It was nice sitting with you and your borthers this afternoon. I just wish there were some way to move Crocker and Spot & Squirt closer so we could all be together. But we are close enough to see each other and that's OK.
Trevor, you were and are so very special. Thank God for coming into my life and giving me your complete love and self. I believe there is a purpose for everything. I believe the purpose in our meeting was to have you teach me the 8 important Life Lessons. I just wish you didn't have to suffer the way you did. Oh my, that was terrible twards the end. I do hope you are getting ample rewards in Heaven for all you did on this earth.
Perhaps I can bring daddy out tomorrow to visit you. That would be so nice. Meanwhile, have a wonderfully peaceful and glorious night!
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Today the sun was shining down on your headstone and the beanie babies buddies that stand guard on your grave. It was really pretty with all the reddish leaves again covering just about everything else. But I had to move all the leaves because some college frat guys are coming to volunteer and rake part of the cemetery and I didn't want your buddies to get lost. It was nice sitting with you and your borthers this afternoon. I just wish there were some way to move Crocker and Spot & Squirt closer so we could all be together. But we are close enough to see each other and that's OK.
Trevor, you were and are so very special. Thank God for coming into my life and giving me your complete love and self. I believe there is a purpose for everything. I believe the purpose in our meeting was to have you teach me the 8 important Life Lessons. I just wish you didn't have to suffer the way you did. Oh my, that was terrible twards the end. I do hope you are getting ample rewards in Heaven for all you did on this earth.
Perhaps I can bring daddy out tomorrow to visit you. That would be so nice. Meanwhile, have a wonderfully peaceful and glorious night!
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Oh, my wonderful, loving Trevor,
How I miss you still today. I think that missing you will never stop, perhaps change a bit, but never, never stop. I see your pictures all through the house and remember when you walked these rooms and hallways. Running must have hurt, but you would always walk so carefully. I love you, my loving little boy. WE are such a team that nothing will ever truly pull us apart. Although I feel you have been torn from me physically, I know that is only temporary.
Have a god night's sleep and enjoy Monday in Heaven. I wonder what Mondays are like there? Actually, with you in Heaven, Mondays must be the best!
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
How I miss you still today. I think that missing you will never stop, perhaps change a bit, but never, never stop. I see your pictures all through the house and remember when you walked these rooms and hallways. Running must have hurt, but you would always walk so carefully. I love you, my loving little boy. WE are such a team that nothing will ever truly pull us apart. Although I feel you have been torn from me physically, I know that is only temporary.
Have a god night's sleep and enjoy Monday in Heaven. I wonder what Mondays are like there? Actually, with you in Heaven, Mondays must be the best!
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Hello again, my wonder boy, Trevor!
The trainer at dog class and I talked for quite awhile after class and I had a chance to tell her a bit about you and how courageous and simply marvelous you were down here and are even better in Heaven! She wants me to stop by some time and tell her more about you and see your handsome picture. Actually, it's not as handsome as it is cute, darling and all the rest.
I hope today was as good for you as it was for me. I actually had a good day. Part of that was because your current brother, Dreamer, decided that it was time to get up and get going at 3:30 am this morning! I took him on lots of walks today so he will be good and tired.
I love you so, so much Mr. Trevor. You are my one very special love and I thank you for every minute we had together. Please have a good night. I'll be dreaming of you!
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOXOMommyXOXO
The trainer at dog class and I talked for quite awhile after class and I had a chance to tell her a bit about you and how courageous and simply marvelous you were down here and are even better in Heaven! She wants me to stop by some time and tell her more about you and see your handsome picture. Actually, it's not as handsome as it is cute, darling and all the rest.
I hope today was as good for you as it was for me. I actually had a good day. Part of that was because your current brother, Dreamer, decided that it was time to get up and get going at 3:30 am this morning! I took him on lots of walks today so he will be good and tired.
I love you so, so much Mr. Trevor. You are my one very special love and I thank you for every minute we had together. Please have a good night. I'll be dreaming of you!
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Hi, Bobbie, stopping by to say "hello" and to share a quiet moment with you as you share your beloved Trevor and your eternal love with us. I love your poetic descriptions of your beloved Trevor's resting place - - with his beanie buddies.
Thank you so much for sharing your and your beloved Trevor's eternal love with us, Bobbie. Your love letters fill my heart with joy in sharing the love you and your beloved Trevor share.
I hope today is being kind to you and your precious Dreamer. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, along with your sister Gretta's mom, and I look forward to knowing how you're doing whenever possible.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Thank you so much for sharing your and your beloved Trevor's eternal love with us, Bobbie. Your love letters fill my heart with joy in sharing the love you and your beloved Trevor share.
I hope today is being kind to you and your precious Dreamer. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, along with your sister Gretta's mom, and I look forward to knowing how you're doing whenever possible.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Hello, my dear friend, Moon Beam!
Thank you for your sweet, gentle and supportive notes. I so appreciate your understanding of the love Trevor and I shared on this earth and that I am trying to keep fresh while we're apart. Perhaps I should write these in private as some may be getting quite tired of my nightly little serenades to Trevor. But I'm not going to. I want the entire universe to know how incredibly special and courageous little Trevor was. He fought a battle that he could never win. He did not give up until the very, very end, when he knew it was time to go someplace "better" for him and me. I know he didn't want to go and leave me so sad and lonely, so he sent me Dreamer in just a few short weeks. (Actually it took much longer to get Dreamer than planned due to two hurricanes.) I do love Dreamer and am glad that he shows me, daily, how good Trevor is and has is now, but I miss my little lover boy with every cell in this old body of mine. My eyes still leak so often and I just wish I could hold him one more time, give him a kiss and tell him, in person, how much I love and thank him. See, my eyes are leaking quite a bit right now and the pain in my heart is intense. Even with Dreamer lying next to me on the floor, I miss Trevor so sarn much I don't know what all to do
My dearest, wonderful Mr. Trevor,
Ms. Moon Beam and I are thinking especially deeply about you tonight. Mommy misses you more and more and her love surpasses the stars. I was sick all day and yet I still lit your candle because it is important that you see the little symbols of my love and thoughts. Have a restful night, my love, so that you can have a MAGNIFICENT day tomorrow!
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Thank you for your sweet, gentle and supportive notes. I so appreciate your understanding of the love Trevor and I shared on this earth and that I am trying to keep fresh while we're apart. Perhaps I should write these in private as some may be getting quite tired of my nightly little serenades to Trevor. But I'm not going to. I want the entire universe to know how incredibly special and courageous little Trevor was. He fought a battle that he could never win. He did not give up until the very, very end, when he knew it was time to go someplace "better" for him and me. I know he didn't want to go and leave me so sad and lonely, so he sent me Dreamer in just a few short weeks. (Actually it took much longer to get Dreamer than planned due to two hurricanes.) I do love Dreamer and am glad that he shows me, daily, how good Trevor is and has is now, but I miss my little lover boy with every cell in this old body of mine. My eyes still leak so often and I just wish I could hold him one more time, give him a kiss and tell him, in person, how much I love and thank him. See, my eyes are leaking quite a bit right now and the pain in my heart is intense. Even with Dreamer lying next to me on the floor, I miss Trevor so sarn much I don't know what all to do
My dearest, wonderful Mr. Trevor,
Ms. Moon Beam and I are thinking especially deeply about you tonight. Mommy misses you more and more and her love surpasses the stars. I was sick all day and yet I still lit your candle because it is important that you see the little symbols of my love and thoughts. Have a restful night, my love, so that you can have a MAGNIFICENT day tomorrow!
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Hi, Bobbie, please know I will never grow tired of reading your love letters to your beloved Trevor. I hope you know is also writing you love letters as reflected in your posts, and is signing them with his heart-filled eternal love. Thank you so much for sharing your and your beloved Trevor's love story with us.
I am so sorry you were not feeling well yesterday, and hope that today is being kind to you and your precious Dreamer. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, my friend, and always look forward to sharing your news and your treasured memories of your beloved Trevor.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
I am so sorry you were not feeling well yesterday, and hope that today is being kind to you and your precious Dreamer. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, my friend, and always look forward to sharing your news and your treasured memories of your beloved Trevor.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Dear Bobbie,
I never get tired of reading your beautiful love letters to your precious Trevor. Every time I look through a catalog, etc. and see a pic of a C**Spaniel, I always think of Trevor. I get tears in my eyes every time. His little lifetime with you and what you all went through has really touched my heart.........I am so glad you have Dreamer. He sounds like a sweetheart.....Hugs..
LoveMyMickey
I never get tired of reading your beautiful love letters to your precious Trevor. Every time I look through a catalog, etc. and see a pic of a C**Spaniel, I always think of Trevor. I get tears in my eyes every time. His little lifetime with you and what you all went through has really touched my heart.........I am so glad you have Dreamer. He sounds like a sweetheart.....Hugs..
LoveMyMickey
Thank you so very, very much Moon Beam and Love My Mickey, for your kind and thoughtful words. They mean so much to me and Trevor. I didn't know that you thought of Trevor whenever you saw pics of a C-o-c-k-e-r Spaniel (from now on: C. Spaniels). That is so tender and kind.
Yes, Trevor and I formed a special bond, the kind all of us on this site have with their beloved companions. I have loved each of my Spaniel boys in unique and treasured ways, but there is something about Trevor and me that will always be "more special". He needed to have someone love him enough to go to great lengths to find out what was hurting him........and then relieve that pain. I am so grateful to have been chosen (by Rudy) to be that person (along with my hubby). And to think, at one point, that the (very political) rescue group didn't want to let me have Trevor!!!!! But I firmly believe that God above intervened when He needed to and I got my wonderful, little boy. Do you know what is kind of funny? I am so proud of the small scars on my left arm, that will forever remind me of when Trevor needed to bite ME to feel safe! And I don't even remember that hurting! And I will NEVER forget the couple times that Trevor was so happy to see us, he even tried to wag his tail a bit. I think that made me the happiest. Because his magnificent brain was squished to less than 3/4 inch wide from his swollen ventricles pushing the brain against the skull bone, he did not remember how to play, chew on bones or toys, could not remember how to wag his tail. Of course, he hadn't really had a reason to wag it much before then. I love(d) that dog with every ounce I had - he was a "defective" dog and so I loved him even more to compensate for what I really didn't see. We didn't go for many walks or rides in the car. No one could come over to play. But that was the small stuff that one should never sweat. And we didn't. We were always afraid of the "bad" nights, when the pain in his neck and back gripped Trevor's entire body in a stranglehold, almost a death grip. But we stayed together and Trevor always took all the medicine I would give him, in canned dog food treat balls, knowing that sooner or later the pain would get bette and he'd fall into a deep sleep. Then I would lie down on the floor beside him, hold his soft, soft paw in my hand and try to sleep. But all I could do was gaze at his peaceful face and wish to God that this didn't have to happen again. It did. The last week or so of his life, he developed occasional Cheyne-Stokes breathing, which is terrifying to watch and signals that severe brain damage is occuring. That was the signal I always dreaded. The one where I would have to show Trevor just how much I really loved him. By sending him to his new home in Heaven. God, that is the hardest thing I have ever done. Even more than losing my mom. I just wish that I could hold him one more time, tell him in person how deeply I love him and see those wonderfully expressive eyes, just one more time. But that's the love that mommies have to give to their children if they REALLY love them. And I did and I do. Trevor, you were God sent to me, a miracle of love. Thank you, my little one.
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOXO Mommy XOXO
PS: my eyes are leaking again....................................
Yes, Trevor and I formed a special bond, the kind all of us on this site have with their beloved companions. I have loved each of my Spaniel boys in unique and treasured ways, but there is something about Trevor and me that will always be "more special". He needed to have someone love him enough to go to great lengths to find out what was hurting him........and then relieve that pain. I am so grateful to have been chosen (by Rudy) to be that person (along with my hubby). And to think, at one point, that the (very political) rescue group didn't want to let me have Trevor!!!!! But I firmly believe that God above intervened when He needed to and I got my wonderful, little boy. Do you know what is kind of funny? I am so proud of the small scars on my left arm, that will forever remind me of when Trevor needed to bite ME to feel safe! And I don't even remember that hurting! And I will NEVER forget the couple times that Trevor was so happy to see us, he even tried to wag his tail a bit. I think that made me the happiest. Because his magnificent brain was squished to less than 3/4 inch wide from his swollen ventricles pushing the brain against the skull bone, he did not remember how to play, chew on bones or toys, could not remember how to wag his tail. Of course, he hadn't really had a reason to wag it much before then. I love(d) that dog with every ounce I had - he was a "defective" dog and so I loved him even more to compensate for what I really didn't see. We didn't go for many walks or rides in the car. No one could come over to play. But that was the small stuff that one should never sweat. And we didn't. We were always afraid of the "bad" nights, when the pain in his neck and back gripped Trevor's entire body in a stranglehold, almost a death grip. But we stayed together and Trevor always took all the medicine I would give him, in canned dog food treat balls, knowing that sooner or later the pain would get bette and he'd fall into a deep sleep. Then I would lie down on the floor beside him, hold his soft, soft paw in my hand and try to sleep. But all I could do was gaze at his peaceful face and wish to God that this didn't have to happen again. It did. The last week or so of his life, he developed occasional Cheyne-Stokes breathing, which is terrifying to watch and signals that severe brain damage is occuring. That was the signal I always dreaded. The one where I would have to show Trevor just how much I really loved him. By sending him to his new home in Heaven. God, that is the hardest thing I have ever done. Even more than losing my mom. I just wish that I could hold him one more time, tell him in person how deeply I love him and see those wonderfully expressive eyes, just one more time. But that's the love that mommies have to give to their children if they REALLY love them. And I did and I do. Trevor, you were God sent to me, a miracle of love. Thank you, my little one.
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOXO Mommy XOXO
PS: my eyes are leaking again....................................
I am very, very sad right now. Trevor, please help me.....................................
Love,
XO Mommy XO
Dear Bobbie, Just wanting to echo moon_beam and LoveMyMickey - thank you for sharing your love for Trevor with all of us, your notes are beautiful. I think we probably all think of Trevor whenever we see a C.Spaniel!! I bet that brave little boy hasn't stopped wagging his tail since the day he walked over the Bridge, his love for you just keeps it going! Sending huge hugs, Leejaye
Dear Leejaye,
Thank you so very much for your kind message and reminding me that Trevor's tail IS probably going non-stop. That brought a smile to my face. My therapist and I talked about Trevor today and she was defining grief words and deciding if the descriptions still fit or not. She feels that I have come quite a distance from those first horrid days. I have to agree in some ways, but in many others, I haven't made a step forward, nor do I want to.
I think I am old enough now and have experienced the love and needs of enough Spaniels to have earned the right to stay where I want to and move one when I want to. I am hurting no one by having Trevor's pictures all over the house, lighting a Yartzeit (sp) candle every day for him, going to visit all my boys at the cemetery, decorating their graves all the time. I am sad. I am incredibly sad, even wih crazy Dreamer so close at hand. But that's OK, because I don't mind being sad for Trevor and what he went through just when I lived with him. Trevor's life was more than extrememly painful and confusing and that is pretty sad stuff. His death left me bereft and that's pretty sad, too. I know Mr. Trevor is ecstatic in Heaven and I am so glad for him, finally. But I am the sad one left here on earth to work through a grief journey that I didn't ask for.
Mr. Trevor, you mother loves you more tonight that EVER before. And it won't be nearly as much as tomorrow's. You will live on forever because whenever anyone smiles, that is truly YOUR smile from Heaven. How nice and comforting is that? Pretty good for me. Have a snug-as-a-bug-in-a-rug night, my honey love. I think of you alll the time. "Bye for now.
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Thank you so very much for your kind message and reminding me that Trevor's tail IS probably going non-stop. That brought a smile to my face. My therapist and I talked about Trevor today and she was defining grief words and deciding if the descriptions still fit or not. She feels that I have come quite a distance from those first horrid days. I have to agree in some ways, but in many others, I haven't made a step forward, nor do I want to.
I think I am old enough now and have experienced the love and needs of enough Spaniels to have earned the right to stay where I want to and move one when I want to. I am hurting no one by having Trevor's pictures all over the house, lighting a Yartzeit (sp) candle every day for him, going to visit all my boys at the cemetery, decorating their graves all the time. I am sad. I am incredibly sad, even wih crazy Dreamer so close at hand. But that's OK, because I don't mind being sad for Trevor and what he went through just when I lived with him. Trevor's life was more than extrememly painful and confusing and that is pretty sad stuff. His death left me bereft and that's pretty sad, too. I know Mr. Trevor is ecstatic in Heaven and I am so glad for him, finally. But I am the sad one left here on earth to work through a grief journey that I didn't ask for.
Mr. Trevor, you mother loves you more tonight that EVER before. And it won't be nearly as much as tomorrow's. You will live on forever because whenever anyone smiles, that is truly YOUR smile from Heaven. How nice and comforting is that? Pretty good for me. Have a snug-as-a-bug-in-a-rug night, my honey love. I think of you alll the time. "Bye for now.
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Dearest, darling, wonderful Trevor,
Today marks another bump in our grief journey. Today has been 16 weeks - four months - since you went to Heaven and I lost my best friend on this earth. Oh my goodness, how can time continue to march on increasing the distance between today and when we last were together in the living room? or the bedroom waiting for the pain medicine to work? ot smelling that blade of grass on all sides?
Dear Trevor, I love you with every cell in my being, with every beat of my heart, with every sigh taken, well.............with everything that I am and that I have. There will never be another you and that's just the way I want it. I want you and you alone!
I must go to sleep now. I will dream of you. I will love you even in my sleep.
Have a peaceful night, my love!
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Today marks another bump in our grief journey. Today has been 16 weeks - four months - since you went to Heaven and I lost my best friend on this earth. Oh my goodness, how can time continue to march on increasing the distance between today and when we last were together in the living room? or the bedroom waiting for the pain medicine to work? ot smelling that blade of grass on all sides?
Dear Trevor, I love you with every cell in my being, with every beat of my heart, with every sigh taken, well.............with everything that I am and that I have. There will never be another you and that's just the way I want it. I want you and you alone!
I must go to sleep now. I will dream of you. I will love you even in my sleep.
Have a peaceful night, my love!
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Hi, Bobbie, just stopping by to say hello and to once again share in your and your beloved Trevor's magnificent love story. I, too, struggle with the "how can time continue on - - how can life go on when" - - -.
I don't know why "life goes on", Bobbie, when it takes every ounce of strength and courage that we simply do not have to do it - - when our hearts are literally drained of any feeling except complete emptiness, numbness, lifelessness.
Our Heavenly Father Creator promised us "Blessed are they who mourn, for they shall be comforted." Hopefully, my friend, your heart is feeling comforted by the words I share with you. Hopefully in time your heart will begin to breathe again with a newness which INCLUDES the heavenly breath of your beloved Trevor and all your boys. But until your heart can embrace this, may you know I am here for you, along with all the other wonderful friends on this forum, offering my strength and courage to sustain you.
I hope today is being kind to you and your precious Dreamer. Please say "hi" to your beloved Trevor from his "auntie moon_beam" when you visit him again. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Bobbie, and always look forward to sharing with you how you're doing.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
I don't know why "life goes on", Bobbie, when it takes every ounce of strength and courage that we simply do not have to do it - - when our hearts are literally drained of any feeling except complete emptiness, numbness, lifelessness.
Our Heavenly Father Creator promised us "Blessed are they who mourn, for they shall be comforted." Hopefully, my friend, your heart is feeling comforted by the words I share with you. Hopefully in time your heart will begin to breathe again with a newness which INCLUDES the heavenly breath of your beloved Trevor and all your boys. But until your heart can embrace this, may you know I am here for you, along with all the other wonderful friends on this forum, offering my strength and courage to sustain you.
I hope today is being kind to you and your precious Dreamer. Please say "hi" to your beloved Trevor from his "auntie moon_beam" when you visit him again. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Bobbie, and always look forward to sharing with you how you're doing.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Hello Trevor!
I just got the nicest note from Auntie Moon_Beam. She is a beautiful lady who shares our kind of love story with her own precious companions and I do believe she loves you, too! How could anyone NOT love you? Ms. Sue came over tonight and said your picture looks just like a stuffed animal and that I should "send it in" (?) for an award. I don't know what she means by that, but I am ever so glad that I took that picture. You look perfectly healthy and very happy or content and that's what I want to remember the most.
I'm wearing your locket now on the same chain as my Tiffany cross that daddy gave me. They look really nice together AND when I walk or move they touch each other to make a beautiful little sound that only I can hear. You and God combine to keep me company day and night. Thank you my thoughtful little boy.
Again, I need to go to sleep now. Have a peaceful, restful sleep tonight. I'm looking forward to putting your picture next to my heart for the night. Auntie Jeanne is HOME!!!!! And Auntie Moon-Beam says Hi!
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOXOMommyXOXO
I just got the nicest note from Auntie Moon_Beam. She is a beautiful lady who shares our kind of love story with her own precious companions and I do believe she loves you, too! How could anyone NOT love you? Ms. Sue came over tonight and said your picture looks just like a stuffed animal and that I should "send it in" (?) for an award. I don't know what she means by that, but I am ever so glad that I took that picture. You look perfectly healthy and very happy or content and that's what I want to remember the most.
I'm wearing your locket now on the same chain as my Tiffany cross that daddy gave me. They look really nice together AND when I walk or move they touch each other to make a beautiful little sound that only I can hear. You and God combine to keep me company day and night. Thank you my thoughtful little boy.
Again, I need to go to sleep now. Have a peaceful, restful sleep tonight. I'm looking forward to putting your picture next to my heart for the night. Auntie Jeanne is HOME!!!!! And Auntie Moon-Beam says Hi!
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Hi, Bobbie, Sunday morning greetings to you, your precious Dreamer, and your beloved Trevor and boys from my precious Noah and me. Once again I am awed and inspired by your and your beloved Trevor's eternal love journey, and am honored to share it with the both of you.
You shared that you wear the locket on the same chain with your Cross. Several years ago I was able to purchase a beautiful pendant gold Crucifix. Last year I saw a dime store pendant heart (all I can afford) and I, too, wear this heart with the Crucifix next to my heart - - the heart pendant symbolizing all of my beloved furkids - - for exactly the same reason as you.
I hope today will be kind to you and your precious Dreamer as you share your activities with your beloved Trevor and boys. I am so thrilled to know that your sister Gretta's Mom (Jeanne) is home safe and sound, and I hope her reunion with her precious Rufus will be a joyous one for the both of them (if it has not already happened).
Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, my friend, and that I always look forward to knowing how you and your precoius Dreamer are doing, and to sharing your and your beloved Trevor's eternal love story. Sending "auntie moon_beam" hugs to each of you.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
You shared that you wear the locket on the same chain with your Cross. Several years ago I was able to purchase a beautiful pendant gold Crucifix. Last year I saw a dime store pendant heart (all I can afford) and I, too, wear this heart with the Crucifix next to my heart - - the heart pendant symbolizing all of my beloved furkids - - for exactly the same reason as you.
I hope today will be kind to you and your precious Dreamer as you share your activities with your beloved Trevor and boys. I am so thrilled to know that your sister Gretta's Mom (Jeanne) is home safe and sound, and I hope her reunion with her precious Rufus will be a joyous one for the both of them (if it has not already happened).
Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, my friend, and that I always look forward to knowing how you and your precoius Dreamer are doing, and to sharing your and your beloved Trevor's eternal love story. Sending "auntie moon_beam" hugs to each of you.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Dear, dear Trevor,
Well, you have another Auntie, just like Auntie Jeanne, that loves you very much and loves our real life love story which will only end when the universe ends. That Aunti Moon_Beam says the nicest words and lets me know that what I do and say is very important to her and many others. I'm glad, but even if no one else in the world read our notes, that would be OK, because I will always share my love with you. Of course, Crocker, Birney, Kelly, Jasper, and Rudy were just as loved and cared for, but we all had time to grow with each other and experience so many good times before life for each of them took a turn for the worse and lead to their passing. You and I didn't have that luxury. We weren't too sure about each other in the beginning, althought I loved you from the first minute I saw you. You needed time to figure out what we were all about and how far the loving would go or end. And isn't it great that it never ended? I am just so happy that your locket (with your hair inside) tinkles with the cross on my silver chain. Every time I hear it, I think of YOU and ME and how our love just keeps growing. You know, if this is the only sign I get from you, it's an awfully good one! You and I are separated by just a little flesh and silver!
Thank you, Trevor, for being such a A#1 pal. WE understood each other when no one else would or could. That, too, will never change. I hope you had a really fun day today and are now just lying back and enjoying the evening.
Daddy and I are trying to go to bed earlier at night so we can get some good hours of sleep. It's kind of working for him, but you know me.......
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
PS: Don't forget: YOU ARE THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
Well, you have another Auntie, just like Auntie Jeanne, that loves you very much and loves our real life love story which will only end when the universe ends. That Aunti Moon_Beam says the nicest words and lets me know that what I do and say is very important to her and many others. I'm glad, but even if no one else in the world read our notes, that would be OK, because I will always share my love with you. Of course, Crocker, Birney, Kelly, Jasper, and Rudy were just as loved and cared for, but we all had time to grow with each other and experience so many good times before life for each of them took a turn for the worse and lead to their passing. You and I didn't have that luxury. We weren't too sure about each other in the beginning, althought I loved you from the first minute I saw you. You needed time to figure out what we were all about and how far the loving would go or end. And isn't it great that it never ended? I am just so happy that your locket (with your hair inside) tinkles with the cross on my silver chain. Every time I hear it, I think of YOU and ME and how our love just keeps growing. You know, if this is the only sign I get from you, it's an awfully good one! You and I are separated by just a little flesh and silver!
Thank you, Trevor, for being such a A#1 pal. WE understood each other when no one else would or could. That, too, will never change. I hope you had a really fun day today and are now just lying back and enjoying the evening.
Daddy and I are trying to go to bed earlier at night so we can get some good hours of sleep. It's kind of working for him, but you know me.......
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
PS: Don't forget: YOU ARE THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
Hello Honey Bun!
Oh, how I have thought about you all day long. I would do so anyway, but the gentle tinkling of your locket and my cross reminded me of you almost constantly. And what a wonderful memeory that is!
Mom is very tired tonight. WE didn't go to dog class. It's amazing how Dreamer has to learn to be a dog! He's starting to put a little weight on, you know how that goes, so mom's going to have to cut down on the Honey Nut Cheerios.
You know Trevor, certain situations really shw you who your friends really are. You experienced that many times, I'm sure. I found out today that someone who I thought was a good friend, is only a friend if thngs are done her way and her way only. That's kind of sad. So, I'm going to use your Life's Lessons and still be kind, etc. but keep a little disance. Your Life Lessons are invaluable.
Gotta go to bed now. I love you sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much! XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Oh, how I have thought about you all day long. I would do so anyway, but the gentle tinkling of your locket and my cross reminded me of you almost constantly. And what a wonderful memeory that is!
Mom is very tired tonight. WE didn't go to dog class. It's amazing how Dreamer has to learn to be a dog! He's starting to put a little weight on, you know how that goes, so mom's going to have to cut down on the Honey Nut Cheerios.
You know Trevor, certain situations really shw you who your friends really are. You experienced that many times, I'm sure. I found out today that someone who I thought was a good friend, is only a friend if thngs are done her way and her way only. That's kind of sad. So, I'm going to use your Life's Lessons and still be kind, etc. but keep a little disance. Your Life Lessons are invaluable.
Gotta go to bed now. I love you sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much! XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Hi, Bobbie, stopping by to say hello and to get caught up on your, your precious Dreamer's and your beloved Trevor's news. I'm chuckling about the Cheerios - - it's amazing how such a small bit of food can broaden the hips.
I'm so sorry that something unpleasant happened yesterday with someone you had come to believe was a true friend. Please know you are among TRUE FRIENDS here who respect both you and your beloved Trevor.
I hope today is being a good day for you, my friend. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I always look forward to knowing how you and your precious Dreamer are doing, and to sharing your and your beloved Trevor's beautiful love story.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
I'm so sorry that something unpleasant happened yesterday with someone you had come to believe was a true friend. Please know you are among TRUE FRIENDS here who respect both you and your beloved Trevor.
I hope today is being a good day for you, my friend. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I always look forward to knowing how you and your precious Dreamer are doing, and to sharing your and your beloved Trevor's beautiful love story.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Hi Moon_Beam!
Thank you for your kind note and support. Today, Dreamer was out of sorts for the first time since he's been here. He's got a ongering G.I. upset and now he's allergic to something because he's scratching (esp. under his chin) and biting himself only to scratch what is itching until Mom can take over. So, now he's going to be on Prednisone for the next two weeks and at the same time try to come off ID canned diet onto Blue Buffalo Blue diet. HE only acts like he doesn't feel good while he's in the house, otherwise he's fine outside. So, of course, I got him another stuffed animal to play with today.
Moon_Beam, you are about the nicest person I've known on this site and I truly do appreciate your checking up on me and Dreamer and thinking about Trevor so often. I think I am getting just a touch better again. I think the locket and cross I wear have something to do with it. Anyway, thank you for all your caring and concern and help. Hope you have a restful night and a GREAT tomorrow!
Dear Trevor,
See how nice all your Aunties are??? You are one good dog. Mom took Dreamer up to the Blackman's today. You never got a chance to meet them, but they are a ver nice old couple who love dogs. So mom was busy today, but NEVER too busy to think of you and send my love straight up to you! I hope you have a nice long sleep tonight and have a fun, fun,fun day tomrrow.
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Thank you for your kind note and support. Today, Dreamer was out of sorts for the first time since he's been here. He's got a ongering G.I. upset and now he's allergic to something because he's scratching (esp. under his chin) and biting himself only to scratch what is itching until Mom can take over. So, now he's going to be on Prednisone for the next two weeks and at the same time try to come off ID canned diet onto Blue Buffalo Blue diet. HE only acts like he doesn't feel good while he's in the house, otherwise he's fine outside. So, of course, I got him another stuffed animal to play with today.
Moon_Beam, you are about the nicest person I've known on this site and I truly do appreciate your checking up on me and Dreamer and thinking about Trevor so often. I think I am getting just a touch better again. I think the locket and cross I wear have something to do with it. Anyway, thank you for all your caring and concern and help. Hope you have a restful night and a GREAT tomorrow!
Dear Trevor,
See how nice all your Aunties are??? You are one good dog. Mom took Dreamer up to the Blackman's today. You never got a chance to meet them, but they are a ver nice old couple who love dogs. So mom was busy today, but NEVER too busy to think of you and send my love straight up to you! I hope you have a nice long sleep tonight and have a fun, fun,fun day tomrrow.
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Hi, Bobbie, thank you so very much for sharing with us how you and your precious Dreamer are doing, and for sharing your and your beloved Trevor's love journey with us.
I'm so sorry that Dreamer is having tummy upset problems and an allergy reaction. I hope the change in food will help with both upsets. I know you're not crazy about the Prednisone, but it's only temporary and I hope will help heal his skin so that he isn't itching so much. Please do let us know how Dreamer does. I'm know he is deeply appreciative of all your mommy love, - - including the new toy.
I hope today is being kind to you and your precious Dreamer. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Bobbie, and always look forward to knowing you and Dreamer are doing, and to sharing your and your beloved Trevor's love story. Auntie moon_beam hugs to everyone.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
I'm so sorry that Dreamer is having tummy upset problems and an allergy reaction. I hope the change in food will help with both upsets. I know you're not crazy about the Prednisone, but it's only temporary and I hope will help heal his skin so that he isn't itching so much. Please do let us know how Dreamer does. I'm know he is deeply appreciative of all your mommy love, - - including the new toy.
I hope today is being kind to you and your precious Dreamer. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Bobbie, and always look forward to knowing you and Dreamer are doing, and to sharing your and your beloved Trevor's love story. Auntie moon_beam hugs to everyone.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Hi Trevor!
What an incredible boy you are. I can hardly stand it, the love I have for you. Everytime I see, in my memories, your little tail wagging ever so tentatively, I just smile and smile. That was one of the greatest gifts you ever gave me, along with all the others. You are my best buddy in the whole universe. BTW - Gradmom and Grandpop say hello. And, of course so do Auntie Jeanne and Auntie Moon_Beam. Oh! To have you so loved does my heart good and I hope it makes up for the lack of love you experienced here on earth.
Dreamer is not feeling so well these days and is kind of quiet for him. Would you give a little peek in and check on him?
Trevor, I will love you until the day I die and then will love you even more when we are reunited. What a grand day that will be! Have good night, my sweetness.
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
What an incredible boy you are. I can hardly stand it, the love I have for you. Everytime I see, in my memories, your little tail wagging ever so tentatively, I just smile and smile. That was one of the greatest gifts you ever gave me, along with all the others. You are my best buddy in the whole universe. BTW - Gradmom and Grandpop say hello. And, of course so do Auntie Jeanne and Auntie Moon_Beam. Oh! To have you so loved does my heart good and I hope it makes up for the lack of love you experienced here on earth.
Dreamer is not feeling so well these days and is kind of quiet for him. Would you give a little peek in and check on him?
Trevor, I will love you until the day I die and then will love you even more when we are reunited. What a grand day that will be! Have good night, my sweetness.
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Hi, Bobbie, stopping by to say hello to you, your precious Dreamer and your beloved Trevor. Thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. I'm so sorry that Dreamer is not feeling good. I know you're beloved Trevor and boys are looking over him and telling him that he has THE BEST MOM looking after him.
I hope today is treating you and your precious Dreamer okay. Thank you so much for sharing with us your and your beloved Trevor's eternal love journey. Please know you and your Dreamer are in my thoughts and prayers, and always look forward to sharing your news and your and your beloved Trevor's love letters. Sending auntie moon_beam hugs to everyone.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
I hope today is treating you and your precious Dreamer okay. Thank you so much for sharing with us your and your beloved Trevor's eternal love journey. Please know you and your Dreamer are in my thoughts and prayers, and always look forward to sharing your news and your and your beloved Trevor's love letters. Sending auntie moon_beam hugs to everyone.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
My dearest, darling Trevor,
Today marks yet another anniversary. It's been 17 weeks since we had to part physical company so that you could get the peaceful and pain-free life that you deserved. The only place that was going to happen was Heaven. Oh, such an easy and yet incredibly painful decision to make. Everything in my mind, and your actions, told me that sending you to that Wonderful World called Heaven was the most loving and important thing I could do for you. And yet my heart and soul cried out for another alternative that would also leave you with no pain and all gain. It wasn't to be, was it? I hope I didn't make you suffer more than I should have, my love. But I wanted to have some time to really tell you and show you how much I loved you and how much you truly meant to me. I hope I did OK.
Trevor, I wish there were more words in my vocabulary to describe what a wonderful companion and friend you were to me and how much joy you brought to my life every day. Not to mention the love you gave me all along our journey. We lived, learned and loved together and that is something I treasure every minute of every day. I feel so much better having you right next to my heart, day & night, in your locket and having your picture next to my heart at night. You are simply th best and bravest little dog that ever lived on this earth and are now up in Heaven waiting for me. I'll be there. I assure you, no, I promise you that.
So my little munchkin, have a restfull night and a HAPPY tomorrow.
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Today marks yet another anniversary. It's been 17 weeks since we had to part physical company so that you could get the peaceful and pain-free life that you deserved. The only place that was going to happen was Heaven. Oh, such an easy and yet incredibly painful decision to make. Everything in my mind, and your actions, told me that sending you to that Wonderful World called Heaven was the most loving and important thing I could do for you. And yet my heart and soul cried out for another alternative that would also leave you with no pain and all gain. It wasn't to be, was it? I hope I didn't make you suffer more than I should have, my love. But I wanted to have some time to really tell you and show you how much I loved you and how much you truly meant to me. I hope I did OK.
Trevor, I wish there were more words in my vocabulary to describe what a wonderful companion and friend you were to me and how much joy you brought to my life every day. Not to mention the love you gave me all along our journey. We lived, learned and loved together and that is something I treasure every minute of every day. I feel so much better having you right next to my heart, day & night, in your locket and having your picture next to my heart at night. You are simply th best and bravest little dog that ever lived on this earth and are now up in Heaven waiting for me. I'll be there. I assure you, no, I promise you that.
So my little munchkin, have a restfull night and a HAPPY tomorrow.
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Hi Trevor!
I hope you had a wonderfully happy day in Heaven today. Daddy and I were busy all day shopping. And everywhere we went, your locket and my cross jingled softly, reminding me that you and I were still, and will always be, together. That is such a comforting thought and sound.
You know, Trevor, I read a short article on pet death and dying. At the end, the author suggested that we also remember those pets that no one ever mourns, etc. What a thoughtful idea. So, each night, I would like you to find one pet in Heaven that has not been mourned and tell him/her that your loving Mommy is mourning their loss as well and cannt wait until she can meet them in Heaven, too. Would you mind doing that for me? I didn't think so. You are such a terrific, loving boy.
I'm going to go to bed now. All the walking, etc. made me pretty tired. I'm so happy you don't get that way any more! Enjoy your new friend tonight.
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
I hope you had a wonderfully happy day in Heaven today. Daddy and I were busy all day shopping. And everywhere we went, your locket and my cross jingled softly, reminding me that you and I were still, and will always be, together. That is such a comforting thought and sound.
You know, Trevor, I read a short article on pet death and dying. At the end, the author suggested that we also remember those pets that no one ever mourns, etc. What a thoughtful idea. So, each night, I would like you to find one pet in Heaven that has not been mourned and tell him/her that your loving Mommy is mourning their loss as well and cannt wait until she can meet them in Heaven, too. Would you mind doing that for me? I didn't think so. You are such a terrific, loving boy.
I'm going to go to bed now. All the walking, etc. made me pretty tired. I'm so happy you don't get that way any more! Enjoy your new friend tonight.
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Dear Trevor,
Oh, how I miss you extra much today, my love. Dreamer is still having gut problems and is kind of miserable. The thoughts so remind me of you and all that you suffered every single day for that last year. Up until then, your pain was "manageable", but even then, how much pain did you really have that you were not showing us? I know I should not dwell on your pain and suffering so much, but that is part of what made you such a hero and the bravest little dog in the whole world. No matter how much you hurt or did not you always were filled with love for me and daddy. Although I am so glad (?) that you and I were together so much more, so that we could love each other that much more.
Trevor, YOU are my guardian angel and what a help that is! I still long to touch you, hug you and love you again, but I know that isn't physically possible any more. Just wait until we meet again - that will be the happiest day of my life! Thank you, sweetheart, for living in my life and teaching me the valuable lessons that I STILL need help with.
Have a good night's sleep and a Happy, Happy Monday!
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Oh, how I miss you extra much today, my love. Dreamer is still having gut problems and is kind of miserable. The thoughts so remind me of you and all that you suffered every single day for that last year. Up until then, your pain was "manageable", but even then, how much pain did you really have that you were not showing us? I know I should not dwell on your pain and suffering so much, but that is part of what made you such a hero and the bravest little dog in the whole world. No matter how much you hurt or did not you always were filled with love for me and daddy. Although I am so glad (?) that you and I were together so much more, so that we could love each other that much more.
Trevor, YOU are my guardian angel and what a help that is! I still long to touch you, hug you and love you again, but I know that isn't physically possible any more. Just wait until we meet again - that will be the happiest day of my life! Thank you, sweetheart, for living in my life and teaching me the valuable lessons that I STILL need help with.
Have a good night's sleep and a Happy, Happy Monday!
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Hello my sweet angel in Heaven!
Oh! How I miss you again today. I've had to back away from a friendship that was turning toxic and I sure could have used your accepting example. Not that Dreamer isn't a good example, but he's young and you have experinced so much more. You would listen and listen no matter how long I talked about something. And I know how I talk. Now what I'd like to say to you is the following:
Trevor, you ARE the bravest little dog ever! I love you more than all the words in all the languages in the world. And that is just the beginning. We had
a bond that was second to none. I wish we could still have time together on earth, but not with any pain. So until that glorious day comes, I will love
you with all my heart and soul. You are the BEST!!!!!
Have a peaceful night and look out for another animal soul that is not being remembered or mourned. Please cuddle up to him or her and tell him/her that your mommy is thinking of them, also.
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Oh! How I miss you again today. I've had to back away from a friendship that was turning toxic and I sure could have used your accepting example. Not that Dreamer isn't a good example, but he's young and you have experinced so much more. You would listen and listen no matter how long I talked about something. And I know how I talk. Now what I'd like to say to you is the following:
Trevor, you ARE the bravest little dog ever! I love you more than all the words in all the languages in the world. And that is just the beginning. We had
a bond that was second to none. I wish we could still have time together on earth, but not with any pain. So until that glorious day comes, I will love
you with all my heart and soul. You are the BEST!!!!!
Have a peaceful night and look out for another animal soul that is not being remembered or mourned. Please cuddle up to him or her and tell him/her that your mommy is thinking of them, also.
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Good Night, Trevor,
You and the memories I have of you permeate every cell in my body. I think about you all the time and even smile when the happy times come to mind. And we did have some happy times, didn't we?
I love you so very, very much, Trevor and I miss you more each day. How can that be? I don't know, but it's true. God blessed me when He sent you to me and I will never forget you or to thank Him.
Have a beautiful night, Trevor. Mommy is going to bed now. Find another little animal that has been forgotten and remind him/her that they are in my thoughts, too!
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
You and the memories I have of you permeate every cell in my body. I think about you all the time and even smile when the happy times come to mind. And we did have some happy times, didn't we?
I love you so very, very much, Trevor and I miss you more each day. How can that be? I don't know, but it's true. God blessed me when He sent you to me and I will never forget you or to thank Him.
Have a beautiful night, Trevor. Mommy is going to bed now. Find another little animal that has been forgotten and remind him/her that they are in my thoughts, too!
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Hi, Bobbie, stopping by to say hello to you and your precious Dreamer and your beloved Trevor and boys. Your letters to your beloved Trevor always bring tears to my eyes and fill my heart with warmth and joy - - for the love you and your beloved Trevor share is truly beyond all words in any language.
I can see your beloved Trevor and his brothers offering comfort to the precious sweet Living Spirits who join them in heaven's perfect garden who have not known the loving comfort of a human guardian during their earthly journey. I, too, think of them and know that they will finally find eternal love and peace when they enter the fellowship of our beloved companions in the company of the angels.
I hope life is treating you and your precious Dreamer kindly, my friend. Thank you for sharing your and your beloved Trevor's treasured love story with us. Please know you and your precious Dreamer are in my thoughts and prayers, Bobbie, and that I always look forward to sharing your news and your heart-filled love journal to your beloved Trevor.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
I can see your beloved Trevor and his brothers offering comfort to the precious sweet Living Spirits who join them in heaven's perfect garden who have not known the loving comfort of a human guardian during their earthly journey. I, too, think of them and know that they will finally find eternal love and peace when they enter the fellowship of our beloved companions in the company of the angels.
I hope life is treating you and your precious Dreamer kindly, my friend. Thank you for sharing your and your beloved Trevor's treasured love story with us. Please know you and your precious Dreamer are in my thoughts and prayers, Bobbie, and that I always look forward to sharing your news and your heart-filled love journal to your beloved Trevor.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
What a precious thought - comforting the animals in the Perfect World who have no one on earth to comfort them (of course, in the Perfecct World they wouldn't need comforting - remembering is the much better word). Gretta, please do the same .... every day, please find one little being who has nobody on earth here to remember him or her. Then snuggle up to him or her, play with her or him all day and snuggle up beside him or her all night. Tomorrow, thee two of you go look for someone else, repeat the day, and with you and Trevor both doing this, pretty soon EVERYBODY will be remembered by somebody. Your Aunt Bobbie and Auntie Moonbeam and mom will be their earthly rememberers. OK?
I love you, my doggie. Did you see I took your picture with me to India? The one with you covered up by that blue and white blanket with just your head sticking out. I met a special dog there. His name is "Aloo" which means "potato" in the language the people speak in India. Someday soon, I'll write and tell you how important it is to have a name and how many animal here on earth don't, especially in poor countries where there isn't even enough for PEOPLE to eat. But "Aloo" has a name and so he's safe.
Have a good night, Gretski. I hope Aunt Bobbie doesn't mind me hijacking her site to write to you. (I know she doesn't.)
Someday I'll get to pet your velvet ears again, Babyface. Please watch over us until then. Night-night, doggie.
XOXO
Mom
I love you, my doggie. Did you see I took your picture with me to India? The one with you covered up by that blue and white blanket with just your head sticking out. I met a special dog there. His name is "Aloo" which means "potato" in the language the people speak in India. Someday soon, I'll write and tell you how important it is to have a name and how many animal here on earth don't, especially in poor countries where there isn't even enough for PEOPLE to eat. But "Aloo" has a name and so he's safe.
Have a good night, Gretski. I hope Aunt Bobbie doesn't mind me hijacking her site to write to you. (I know she doesn't.)
Someday I'll get to pet your velvet ears again, Babyface. Please watch over us until then. Night-night, doggie.
XOXO
Mom
Oh my Trevor,
Your Aunts are at it again.....helping your mommy by saying such nice, wonderful and true things about you and me. I am so blessed having them in my life (and your life, too). Aunt Jeanne's idea was even better: keep adding to the unremembered animals and soon everyone will be remembered, never to be forgotten again.
Would you mind looking for a (fat) cat named Samson up there? He was the companion of a friend of mine named Courtney. She had to put him to sleep today because they discovered cancer (he was an older cat) and she feels so badly. She was the lady tat came to your funeral service with the little girl. Oh! and you can look for Ditto her Dalmation and Simba her other cat. Thanks so much, my honey bun.
I wish everyone could have known you while you were still with me. Words just simply fail me when I try to describe not only you, but our relationship and how deep and good it (was) is. Tomorrow is Thanksgiving Day and I am so very thankful that you blessed 790 days of my life. My dearest Trevor, thank YOU for loving me despite your pain and what I had to do some times in the beginning before I knew how much you suffered every day. You are the best creature that has come into my life. And thank you for staying on after you left this earth.
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Your Aunts are at it again.....helping your mommy by saying such nice, wonderful and true things about you and me. I am so blessed having them in my life (and your life, too). Aunt Jeanne's idea was even better: keep adding to the unremembered animals and soon everyone will be remembered, never to be forgotten again.
Would you mind looking for a (fat) cat named Samson up there? He was the companion of a friend of mine named Courtney. She had to put him to sleep today because they discovered cancer (he was an older cat) and she feels so badly. She was the lady tat came to your funeral service with the little girl. Oh! and you can look for Ditto her Dalmation and Simba her other cat. Thanks so much, my honey bun.
I wish everyone could have known you while you were still with me. Words just simply fail me when I try to describe not only you, but our relationship and how deep and good it (was) is. Tomorrow is Thanksgiving Day and I am so very thankful that you blessed 790 days of my life. My dearest Trevor, thank YOU for loving me despite your pain and what I had to do some times in the beginning before I knew how much you suffered every day. You are the best creature that has come into my life. And thank you for staying on after you left this earth.
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Happy Thanksgiving Trevor!
I have so many things to be grateful/thankful for when it comes to you, little one. I am so grateful that Rudy and God steered me in your direction and that CSAC "embellished" your history as much as they did. I am grateful that you allowed me to love you and care for you every day of the life we spent together. I am grateful that you remembered how to wag your tail a few times when you were so happy to see us. Thank you for biting me at the Emergency Vet's when that stupid tech grabbed you from behind after I TOLD him NOT to touch you. I'm glad that my arm was there for you and not some stranger's. Thank you for sleeping beside me every morning after breakfast. That has become my daily ritual forever. Thank you for trusting me enough to share your pain-filled moments with me, so that I could load you up with medicine to make you feel better. Still I was quite slow in getting you up to the dosages you needed. Thank you, Trevor, for showing daddy and me when "it was time" by Cheyne-Stokes breathing for so long one night. Mommy would have held onto you for a lot longer if you didn't give her a sign. Thank you for being such a gentleman-dog when the vet came to our house for the final time. Thank you for giving me the gifts of your perfect memories, your more perfect love, in fact, everything you had and were you gave to me. I will never forget that or you.
See? I do have so many things to be thankful for on this special holiday. Enjoy meeting your new friend tonight, cuddle close and tell him/her I'm thinking about him/her!
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
I have so many things to be grateful/thankful for when it comes to you, little one. I am so grateful that Rudy and God steered me in your direction and that CSAC "embellished" your history as much as they did. I am grateful that you allowed me to love you and care for you every day of the life we spent together. I am grateful that you remembered how to wag your tail a few times when you were so happy to see us. Thank you for biting me at the Emergency Vet's when that stupid tech grabbed you from behind after I TOLD him NOT to touch you. I'm glad that my arm was there for you and not some stranger's. Thank you for sleeping beside me every morning after breakfast. That has become my daily ritual forever. Thank you for trusting me enough to share your pain-filled moments with me, so that I could load you up with medicine to make you feel better. Still I was quite slow in getting you up to the dosages you needed. Thank you, Trevor, for showing daddy and me when "it was time" by Cheyne-Stokes breathing for so long one night. Mommy would have held onto you for a lot longer if you didn't give her a sign. Thank you for being such a gentleman-dog when the vet came to our house for the final time. Thank you for giving me the gifts of your perfect memories, your more perfect love, in fact, everything you had and were you gave to me. I will never forget that or you.
See? I do have so many things to be thankful for on this special holiday. Enjoy meeting your new friend tonight, cuddle close and tell him/her I'm thinking about him/her!
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Hello my Trevor,
Well, today marks yet another bump in the journey until we are together again. You died 18 weeks ago today. It seems like absolutely forever and yet I can feel the pain as if it were today. I am so sorry that I could no longer make you feel OK on this earth and had to pass you onto God. I know that sounds very selfish, but I would love to wallow in your love and physical (healthy) presence just one more time (down here). Just like Antie Jeanne loves Rufus, so I love Dreamer, but it's just not the same and never will be. You gave me back more love than I ever gave you, especially at a time when it was so necessary. Trevor, I will love you simply forever, through all eternity. You can count on that.
Tomorrow daddy and I plan on going to the cemetery and taking down the Turkey day decoratons and putting up some really neat Christmas stuff. Unfortunately, this year your stocking will lie on the ground you are in. That makes me sad, sad, sad. But everyone will know that I love my Trevor through everythng. And I also love my Rudy, Biney, Jasper, Kelly, Crocker, Spot & Squirt.
Have fun with your cousin, Ms. Gretta, finding the unremembered for tonight and please, please tell them we DO remember them and WILL remember them always!
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Well, today marks yet another bump in the journey until we are together again. You died 18 weeks ago today. It seems like absolutely forever and yet I can feel the pain as if it were today. I am so sorry that I could no longer make you feel OK on this earth and had to pass you onto God. I know that sounds very selfish, but I would love to wallow in your love and physical (healthy) presence just one more time (down here). Just like Antie Jeanne loves Rufus, so I love Dreamer, but it's just not the same and never will be. You gave me back more love than I ever gave you, especially at a time when it was so necessary. Trevor, I will love you simply forever, through all eternity. You can count on that.
Tomorrow daddy and I plan on going to the cemetery and taking down the Turkey day decoratons and putting up some really neat Christmas stuff. Unfortunately, this year your stocking will lie on the ground you are in. That makes me sad, sad, sad. But everyone will know that I love my Trevor through everythng. And I also love my Rudy, Biney, Jasper, Kelly, Crocker, Spot & Squirt.
Have fun with your cousin, Ms. Gretta, finding the unremembered for tonight and please, please tell them we DO remember them and WILL remember them always!
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Hi Trevor!
I have a job for you: Hermy the Bunny recently arrived in Heave. Would you mind finding her and showing her around your place? You can also tell her that I am thinking of her, too. I know you will have the perfect words and thoughts for her.
I'll send more tonight! Thanks, honey!
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
I have a job for you: Hermy the Bunny recently arrived in Heave. Would you mind finding her and showing her around your place? You can also tell her that I am thinking of her, too. I know you will have the perfect words and thoughts for her.
I'll send more tonight! Thanks, honey!
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Hi Bobbie,
Thank you so much for your kindness. I have been reading your letters to your beloved Trevor. They are beautiful and so full of love! They make my eyes "leaky" too. I would like to say a big "Thank You!" to your darling Trevor for helping my little Hermy in Heaven. She's such a warm and outgoing bunny. I'm sure she's already playing with Trevor and giving him bunny hugs!
You and Trevor are in my thoughts and prayers tonight.
Hermy's Mommy
Thank you so much for your kindness. I have been reading your letters to your beloved Trevor. They are beautiful and so full of love! They make my eyes "leaky" too. I would like to say a big "Thank You!" to your darling Trevor for helping my little Hermy in Heaven. She's such a warm and outgoing bunny. I'm sure she's already playing with Trevor and giving him bunny hugs!
You and Trevor are in my thoughts and prayers tonight.
Hermy's Mommy
Dear Trevor,
Isn't Hermy's mommy nice? Just as nice as Hermy is, right? I hope you are taking good care of her. Tonight maybe the 3 of you (Cousin Gretta, you and Hermy) and find some bunnies that are not remembered and snuggle up to them. Tell them that your mom, your Aunt Jeanne and Hermy's mommy are thinking about them tonight and for always. You group must be getting kind of big by now and that's just what I wanted. Hermy and I know, but Hermy's mommy doesn't know, how incredibly soft your fur is, too. Yours is the longest, but I'll bet Hermy likes to rub up against you. I sure did and your fur was as soft as baby down.
Did you see the Christmas decoration on your headstone? Did you like all the other decorations for your brothers? I have to work on the stockings, but they will be out there soon. It was such a beautiful day to put them up for you. I forgot the camera, but will take some pictures when the stockings are ready. I am trying to think of some non-dorkey way to hang them this year, instead of laying them on the ground where they get covered withsnow for weeks at a time and then get all muddy. I think I need allyou boy's (and girls') help.
Trevor, I still love you with a passion that only another animal-parent can know! I think I am going to have an eternal flame for you at our house, instead of just a few more days. Daddy fills out as many candles as I do, but he's scared to leave it lit when we are gone. I'm not, because I know you won't let anything happen to Dreamer or the house. Trevor you are the best littleboy doggie in the whole world! I hope you have a pleasant evening with all your family and friends, especially Hermy. I know you already have a girlfriend, but girl bunnies are nice, too.
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Isn't Hermy's mommy nice? Just as nice as Hermy is, right? I hope you are taking good care of her. Tonight maybe the 3 of you (Cousin Gretta, you and Hermy) and find some bunnies that are not remembered and snuggle up to them. Tell them that your mom, your Aunt Jeanne and Hermy's mommy are thinking about them tonight and for always. You group must be getting kind of big by now and that's just what I wanted. Hermy and I know, but Hermy's mommy doesn't know, how incredibly soft your fur is, too. Yours is the longest, but I'll bet Hermy likes to rub up against you. I sure did and your fur was as soft as baby down.
Did you see the Christmas decoration on your headstone? Did you like all the other decorations for your brothers? I have to work on the stockings, but they will be out there soon. It was such a beautiful day to put them up for you. I forgot the camera, but will take some pictures when the stockings are ready. I am trying to think of some non-dorkey way to hang them this year, instead of laying them on the ground where they get covered withsnow for weeks at a time and then get all muddy. I think I need allyou boy's (and girls') help.
Trevor, I still love you with a passion that only another animal-parent can know! I think I am going to have an eternal flame for you at our house, instead of just a few more days. Daddy fills out as many candles as I do, but he's scared to leave it lit when we are gone. I'm not, because I know you won't let anything happen to Dreamer or the house. Trevor you are the best littleboy doggie in the whole world! I hope you have a pleasant evening with all your family and friends, especially Hermy. I know you already have a girlfriend, but girl bunnies are nice, too.
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Hello my sweetheart!
Today was a beautiful Sunday and, of course, I thought of you right away. You were so beautiful and your Spirit is even more beautiful. I know one is not supposed to call a male "beautiful", but that's exactly what you are - a beautiful, loving, precious, brave little man. I just cannot love you enough, Trevor. I try and every time I think I've done the best I can, there is more love to give you.
Tonight, please take Hermy along with you and Gretta to find some more non-remembered bunnies, doggies, kitties, ferrets, birdies, snakies or whomever needs the most hugs and snuggling and be sure to tell them about your mommies and how much they are remembering them, also. When we get together again, in heaven, we are going to take a lot of time meeting everyone aren't we? I will be sooooooooo glad.
Rest well, my love. I will think of you all during the night and day!
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Today was a beautiful Sunday and, of course, I thought of you right away. You were so beautiful and your Spirit is even more beautiful. I know one is not supposed to call a male "beautiful", but that's exactly what you are - a beautiful, loving, precious, brave little man. I just cannot love you enough, Trevor. I try and every time I think I've done the best I can, there is more love to give you.
Tonight, please take Hermy along with you and Gretta to find some more non-remembered bunnies, doggies, kitties, ferrets, birdies, snakies or whomever needs the most hugs and snuggling and be sure to tell them about your mommies and how much they are remembering them, also. When we get together again, in heaven, we are going to take a lot of time meeting everyone aren't we? I will be sooooooooo glad.
Rest well, my love. I will think of you all during the night and day!
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Hi Bobbie,
I was thinking of you and Trevor today. I hope you had a good day with many happy thoughts of Trevor. I love that you call Trevor "beautiful" because he is, both inside and out! I think of Hermy throughout the day and night too. Sometimes with tears, sometimes with smiles, always with love!
Wishing you and Trevor and Hermy a peaceful night.
Hermy's Mommy
I was thinking of you and Trevor today. I hope you had a good day with many happy thoughts of Trevor. I love that you call Trevor "beautiful" because he is, both inside and out! I think of Hermy throughout the day and night too. Sometimes with tears, sometimes with smiles, always with love!
Wishing you and Trevor and Hermy a peaceful night.
Hermy's Mommy
Hi Trevor,
Isn't Hermy's mommy just the nicest person? Today was her first day back to work and I know how that goes. She is a very brave person and I know that you and Hermy are sending all sorts of praise and good thoughts her way.
Today was the last of the nice days we're going to have here. I stopped by the cemetery and everythng still looks good. Did you see Dreamer with me? Every time I look at him I think of YOU and thank you from the bottom of my heart for sending him to me. He is showing me, every day, all the good things that you can do again and how good you are feeling once more. I wish that could have happened to you while you were still here on earth, but at least you are sooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy now. THAT is all that's important.
I'm very tired so am going to go off to bed now. Have fun with Gretta and Hermy finding non-remembered companions tonight and snuggling with them. You are so good at snuggling.
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Isn't Hermy's mommy just the nicest person? Today was her first day back to work and I know how that goes. She is a very brave person and I know that you and Hermy are sending all sorts of praise and good thoughts her way.
Today was the last of the nice days we're going to have here. I stopped by the cemetery and everythng still looks good. Did you see Dreamer with me? Every time I look at him I think of YOU and thank you from the bottom of my heart for sending him to me. He is showing me, every day, all the good things that you can do again and how good you are feeling once more. I wish that could have happened to you while you were still here on earth, but at least you are sooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy now. THAT is all that's important.
I'm very tired so am going to go off to bed now. Have fun with Gretta and Hermy finding non-remembered companions tonight and snuggling with them. You are so good at snuggling.
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Dearest Trevor,
I see from the posts that there are a lot of newbies with you in Heaven. Their mommys and daddys and brothers and sisters are all so very sad right now. I know exactly how they feel and what they are going through.
When you passed on to Heaven and we had to physically part, I thought I might as well just die, too. The pain was incredible, shredding my heart and crushing my soul every second of every minute of every hour of every day. I didn't want to leave you at the cemetery, even though all your brothers were surrounding you on both sides and you were in the same gravesite with Jasper, another of our rescue doggies. I felt the pull to be as close to your body, and thus you, as I could possibly be. I visited you day and night, day after day after day. I didn't cry - I sobbed and sobbed until I was completely weak and worn out. Then I would rest and sob some more. I still have the bit of fur/hair that we took from your shaved arm and saved in a baggie. I know that is the closest I will be to your physical body while I am still alive. I've touched it so often that it looks pretty mangled and yet it is still so amazingly soft, just as YOU were. Remember when you would finally fall asleep at night and I would lie beside you and hold onto your paw? It was so very, very soft and I hope I was able to soothe some of your pain while you slept. You never seemed to mind if I held your paw and I never minded sleeping on the potty pads covering the floor.
We would cuddle on the living room floor, under that soft blue blanket that now envelopes your physical body forever. Sometimes you'd move to sleep in front of the powder room door. The pain medications helped you sleep all morning and most of the early afternoon. But I was never far from you while you slept.
I cannot believe that we have been physically apart for over 18 weeks already. It feels like you've been gone for so very long and yet it seems as if you just left a minute ago. I will tell you, and I know you already know this, that somehow, some way, time is helping me in ways I never thought anything could. Time has been a gentle healer for me. I've not done anything active, except cry and talk about you incessantly to everyone who will listen, but today the pain is not nearly as crushing as it was right after you passed. Somehow, I can tolerate the pain and it almost seems a bit comforting. I think, not only time, but a couple things I've heard or done have helped me, too. Auntie Jeanne wrote and sang a beautiful song for your funeral/burial and hearing it brings me right back to you. Dear, dear Cindy showed me how you sent Dreamer to me to reassure me that every single thing that Dreamer was doing (running, playing, barking, chasing a ball, etc) YOU were already doing all the time now. You weren't in pain any more, you were completely healed and happy. You were just waiting for me and helping me in ways I didn't realize. Now when I look at Dreamer, YOU pop right into my heart. I have your picture and/or love notes to you all over my house. Some are written on potty pads and hung on the walls. I sleep with your picture, wrapped in a piece of your blanket, right next to my heart, every single night. And I'm taking your picture with me when I go to Minnesota. I wear a locket with your hair inside, next to my heart. I was inspired by a fellow L-S'er who quotes a beautiful love poem "Old Dog in a Locket". When the locket jingles against the cross I also wear, I think of you immediately.
Even though I haven't seen you in my dreams or felt your Spirit/presence yet (if I ever do), I have slowly come to realize that YOU ARE WITH ME EVERY SECOND. You are in my heart, in my soul, in my mind, in my actions. You never left. Your form changed to a Spirit, but you never really left me. I put your physical body into the ground and someday mine will go in the ground, too. But then you and I will be together again, for all eternity. We will be happy and healthy together forever.
And so, Mr. Trevor, please welcome these new friends, take them into your circle with Gretta and Hermy and all the non-remembered friends you have made. Sunggle with them and help them with anything they need, which won't be much. And let their humans know that they are allright. They are with YOU!
I love you so very, very much, Trevor. Thank you for pouring all your love into my heart, even through your pain and suffering. Thank you for being my best friend and buddy. Thank you for teaching me your Life Rules. Most of all....................thank you for being you! I miss you all the time, honey bun, and think about you even more than that. Have a peace-filled night, my love.
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
I see from the posts that there are a lot of newbies with you in Heaven. Their mommys and daddys and brothers and sisters are all so very sad right now. I know exactly how they feel and what they are going through.
When you passed on to Heaven and we had to physically part, I thought I might as well just die, too. The pain was incredible, shredding my heart and crushing my soul every second of every minute of every hour of every day. I didn't want to leave you at the cemetery, even though all your brothers were surrounding you on both sides and you were in the same gravesite with Jasper, another of our rescue doggies. I felt the pull to be as close to your body, and thus you, as I could possibly be. I visited you day and night, day after day after day. I didn't cry - I sobbed and sobbed until I was completely weak and worn out. Then I would rest and sob some more. I still have the bit of fur/hair that we took from your shaved arm and saved in a baggie. I know that is the closest I will be to your physical body while I am still alive. I've touched it so often that it looks pretty mangled and yet it is still so amazingly soft, just as YOU were. Remember when you would finally fall asleep at night and I would lie beside you and hold onto your paw? It was so very, very soft and I hope I was able to soothe some of your pain while you slept. You never seemed to mind if I held your paw and I never minded sleeping on the potty pads covering the floor.
We would cuddle on the living room floor, under that soft blue blanket that now envelopes your physical body forever. Sometimes you'd move to sleep in front of the powder room door. The pain medications helped you sleep all morning and most of the early afternoon. But I was never far from you while you slept.
I cannot believe that we have been physically apart for over 18 weeks already. It feels like you've been gone for so very long and yet it seems as if you just left a minute ago. I will tell you, and I know you already know this, that somehow, some way, time is helping me in ways I never thought anything could. Time has been a gentle healer for me. I've not done anything active, except cry and talk about you incessantly to everyone who will listen, but today the pain is not nearly as crushing as it was right after you passed. Somehow, I can tolerate the pain and it almost seems a bit comforting. I think, not only time, but a couple things I've heard or done have helped me, too. Auntie Jeanne wrote and sang a beautiful song for your funeral/burial and hearing it brings me right back to you. Dear, dear Cindy showed me how you sent Dreamer to me to reassure me that every single thing that Dreamer was doing (running, playing, barking, chasing a ball, etc) YOU were already doing all the time now. You weren't in pain any more, you were completely healed and happy. You were just waiting for me and helping me in ways I didn't realize. Now when I look at Dreamer, YOU pop right into my heart. I have your picture and/or love notes to you all over my house. Some are written on potty pads and hung on the walls. I sleep with your picture, wrapped in a piece of your blanket, right next to my heart, every single night. And I'm taking your picture with me when I go to Minnesota. I wear a locket with your hair inside, next to my heart. I was inspired by a fellow L-S'er who quotes a beautiful love poem "Old Dog in a Locket". When the locket jingles against the cross I also wear, I think of you immediately.
Even though I haven't seen you in my dreams or felt your Spirit/presence yet (if I ever do), I have slowly come to realize that YOU ARE WITH ME EVERY SECOND. You are in my heart, in my soul, in my mind, in my actions. You never left. Your form changed to a Spirit, but you never really left me. I put your physical body into the ground and someday mine will go in the ground, too. But then you and I will be together again, for all eternity. We will be happy and healthy together forever.
And so, Mr. Trevor, please welcome these new friends, take them into your circle with Gretta and Hermy and all the non-remembered friends you have made. Sunggle with them and help them with anything they need, which won't be much. And let their humans know that they are allright. They are with YOU!
I love you so very, very much, Trevor. Thank you for pouring all your love into my heart, even through your pain and suffering. Thank you for being my best friend and buddy. Thank you for teaching me your Life Rules. Most of all....................thank you for being you! I miss you all the time, honey bun, and think about you even more than that. Have a peace-filled night, my love.
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Hi Trevor!
Oh, so many new friends for you to show around Heaven! And so many sad, desolate moms and dads and borther and sisters, etc. I'm trying to help those I can and I know you and Gretta have everyone under your wings.
Thanks you, my wonderful little boy, for being everthing you were to me and daddy and Grandmom and Grandpop. This note, tonight, is going to be really short on words, but still infinite in love for you.
Have a starry, starry night, my love. You will be next to my heart in just a few moments!
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
Oh, so many new friends for you to show around Heaven! And so many sad, desolate moms and dads and borther and sisters, etc. I'm trying to help those I can and I know you and Gretta have everyone under your wings.
Thanks you, my wonderful little boy, for being everthing you were to me and daddy and Grandmom and Grandpop. This note, tonight, is going to be really short on words, but still infinite in love for you.
Have a starry, starry night, my love. You will be next to my heart in just a few moments!
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO
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