Good Morning my sweet boy!

I hope you had a good night and are having a wonderfully terrific day today. Mommy read the supportive messages from Auntie Jeanne and LoveMyMickey. Aren't they just amazing? Some people never quit on you. THEY are your true friends. Just like you and I never quit on each other!

I will write a nice note in awhile, honey. I have some phone calls to make and then I have to decide how to stand on my own two feet. (yes, Trevor, us humans only have TWO feet - go figure! )

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Bobbie, forgive me for shortening your post in my quoted reply. I am so sorry that your little Trevor suffered so much. He was a beautiful little boy! It's okay to be needy, it must be so hard for you to move beyond Trevor's suffering here on earth. I too wished I could have done more for my Danny boy. I felt so guilty for a long time in not being able to control his weight better which led to his congestive heart failure. But when I look at his picture on my desk he seems to say to me:"I'm okay now, Mom. It's alright." I'm sure Mr. Trevor would tell you the same thing. He is restored to his former youthfulness in the company of the angels as moon_beam would say.

Dear Danny's Mom,

Thank you for your kind and gentle response to my silent plea. I just wish that everyone could have known Trevor for even just a few minutes. That's all it took to fall in love with him and vice versa. And I'm sure Danny was the same way. Cat, dog, bunny - it makes no difference. But again, thank you for understanding and not judging at all. Have a Happy 4th!

Dearest, dearest Trevor,

Oh, honey how I miss your warm smell and the softness of your hair. Cousin Gretta was the kindest dog. You were the purest one. If only I had known how much I would miss you once you departed the earth, I would have hugged you more, given you more treats (!) and stayed with you more. But we don't know these things, even though we've been through them time and time again. "But this time is going to be different." we say. Is it really?

Your one year anniversary countdown has begun for me. 19 days. This time last year I was finally beginning to realize that "the end" was rearing the tip of it's ugly reality. I had not asked "the question" yet, but I had already been on Lightning-Strike for quite awhile, receiving support and reassurances from so many good people. You were requiring more and more pain medication and the quality of your days was just starting to slip away. You still got up when daddy came home and stayed up for the evening. Now all the memories of those last 19 days have come flooding back to me. The look in your eyes (so sad, so sad) when you soiled yourself on the scatter rug. All I could do was pick you up, which you NEVER let me do, and cradle you in my arms, swaying from side to sde and telling you that you were such a good boy and that everything was going to be fine. The two nights of your Cheyne-Stokes breathing that had me terrified and yet hoping that your breathing would just stop so that you could go to sleep forever. Nope - you were destined to feel and suffer the whole nine yards. But you did it all with the dignity of a King and the gentleness of a Lamb and the love of a Dog.

I love you so, so much, Mr. Trevor. I always will, day and night, 24/7, more dogs or no more dogs. YOU are the #1. Please accept this pet on your head and kiss on your nose like we always used to do, and have a peace-filled night, my love.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Oh Bobbie

This is the saddest post I have read. Please accept the love and comfort of a sister who only saw Mr Trevor-Forever once but whose life was forever changed by him - the purest dog who ever lived.

I love you Bob.

Gretta's mom

Oh Bobbie, your letter to Trevor brought tears to my eyes. I know it's so hard reliving those last days. I wish I could have met Trevor, but there's hope that someday I will.......May God Bless and comfort you.....

((((HUGS))))

LoveMyMickey

Hello my little love of my life!

I sure am glad that it is cooler in Heaven than here on earth. Today it was 100 degrees and by Saturday it's supposed to be 106! You know where your mommy is going to be - in the house except when the boys have to go outside. They don't even like the heat! And tonight there are fireworks all around us, including an occasional gunshot, so we are all in for the night. I hope you don't mind these little "news reports". They are one way that I can keep you alive in my memory by sharing them with you. I don't wonder what you would do because I already know and that would be redundant.

Trevor, today is day 18 and in a couple days I will have asked "the question" and gotten "the answer" and "made the plans". I don't know if it's harder the first time or having to relive things in your mind because the thoughts of what might have gone differently creep in front and center. And I have plenty of those. I just miss you so much. My heart is still shredding and my soul crushed under the continued knowlege that we won't see each other again until it's my "turn". It was almost my turn years before we met. Thank God that I survived and got better - for you to come and bless my life.

I love you, Trevor, in a way that I have never loved any human or creature in my life. It came totally naturally, too. I knew that Rudy had arranged for you to come and be with me. I just didn't know that you needed help. Rudy knew that, of course, because I had helped him, too. All I want to do is sit and think of you and feel the love and trust we have for each other. But society doesn't let many people do that, so I go on with "ADL"s (activities of daily living).

Have a wonderful night in Heaven with each and every one of your relatives and many, many friends - new and old. I'll check in agan tomorrow. You can count on that.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

Hey Trevor-Forever

Guess what? I just talked to your mom! Here I was just about ready to type your name and the phone rang and it was her. She's HOT cuz it's gonna be over 100 in your old town. Glad you're in that Perfect World? Please send down lotsa "cool" love rays to her today.

Rufus says hello (actually he's sleeping right in front of the fan) to you and Gretta and the rest of the pack.

Your Aunt J

Hi, Bobbie, stopping by to see how you're doing and to bask in the warmth of your and your beloved Trevor's eternal love story. I truly cannot read your love letters to him without a mist coming to my eyes and a lump forming in my throat, all the while feeling a glow in my heart sharing your and your beloved Trevor's eternal love. Thank you so much for sharing your beloved Trevor with us.

I am so glad that your Grandmom and Grandpop are coming to visit for your and your beloved Trevor's one year angel-versary, and that your Grandmom will bring some of your beloved Trevor's fur for you to have. This is such good news - - I am sooooo happy for you!!!

Dear Bobbie, I truly wish there could be a way for your heart to find some peace about Trevor's earthly journey. By the time you embraced him into your heart, he had already experienced so many tragic events, and his medical health was in serious decline. Your heartbreak over his mistreatment and abandonment and lack of proper medical care prior to his coming into your heart is palpable - - and very understandable. Yet, there is a beauty to the transformation that occurred in his life because of you: He finally had someone who loved him beyond all measure for all eternity. When love has this deepest heart and soul connection, one can endure the most horrible physical trauma - - for they know they are LOVED and WANTED and NEEDED. You, Bobbie, gave this precious gift to your beloved Trevor, and I know he so much wants you to think of him now being happy and healthy, young and full of energy -- because YOUR love for him has given him this eternal gift. He couldn't share it with you during his earthly journey because what makes him Trevor was confined to a painful, frail physical shell. But deep inside all the while YOU brought life to him - - his Spirit was dancing and jumping for joy - - he just wasn't physically able to show you. I hope and pray that somehow, some day, you will be able to see him in your heart and memories in this way, Bobbie, for this is how your beloved Trevor so much wants you think of him now.

I hope today is treating you, Stan, your precious Dreamer and Kelly, and all your family kindly, Bobbie. Thank you so very much for sharing your and your beloved Trevor's beautiful love story with us. Please know you and all your family are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I always look forward to sharing your news and your and your beloved Trevor's beautiful love letters.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Dearest, dearest, darling Trevor,

Today brings us another 24 hours closer to your one-year anniversary (17 days) and it seems like a stealthy darkness/sadness is trying to cover more and more of my (happy) memories of you. Probably no one else comes up to an anniversary like that, but I don't know how else to describe it. It certainly isn't a day that I am looking forward to with happy anticipation and joy. Although I do remind myself that it was the day you were finally and totally PAIN FREE for the first time in God knows how long. THAT we must celebrate.

It is so hot here that I cannot even go outside long enough to get to your grave to visit for a minute. I might try tomorrow. It's only supposed to be 104 degrees. At least the ground is keeping your remains and memories cool and Heaven has got to be a piece of cake. But your pictures are all over the place and I read your Life Lessons every day and we have A/C so you're cool here, too. Oh Trevor, what I would give to be able to hold you in my arms again and feel your softness against my cheek. I still cannot find your baggie of hair and even though your Grandmom offered to share some that she has, I feel badly taking some from her. She did so much for you and loved you so much and yet has so little to remind her of you. She is one of your special angels.

I don't know where to begin to thank you for all you gave me and taught me, and even made me go through in the middle of the night. Every single thing you did was out of innocence or pain and either way your actions were always 100% honest. You never held a grudge although you were terrified of the vets and groomer at the Manchest Vet Hospital. (I hope they get shut down soon.) THAT is one of my biggest regrets - taking you to be tortured every 10-12 weeks for a sedation grooming. I am incredibly sorry for that and have truly learned from my mistake. Matter of fact, I fired our current groomer because she didn't like Kelley! I can never look at a package of Puppy Potty Pads without so fondly remembering the hundreds and hundreds we put down and cleaned up for you. At the time we weren't the most pleased parents about doing it all the time and daddy compalined a LOT. But it certainly wasn't your fault that your brain could no longer help you control your bladder/bowels! And I will also never be able to hold a marrow bone for another doggie to chew on without thinking of you the entire time. That first bone was a challenge, but it wasn't long before you had me totally trained to scoop out the dry marrow from the day-old bone, every last bit of it. You'd lick it off my fingers and wait for me to find more. (!)

Honey, I DO miss you with all my heart, soul, mind and body. I wish I could even just see you romping so happy and so freely now. But even that has to stay in my mind's eye for now. I am just so thankful to the Almighty for granting Rudy's wish that you come to live with us. Please have a peace-filled night with all your buddies, relatives, friends, newbies and actually every creature in Heaven. I know you can do that because my mom told me that there is no "time" in Heaven! Lucky you!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

HI Trevor

This is for your mom: Bobbie, I sort of know what you mean about as the first anniversary marches forward in combat boots, it puts a shadow over any good memories that have come alive during the awful year before. I know I'm afraid I have forgotten - maybe forever - most of the good times Gretta and I had here on earth. What is with me every moment of every day is a big warm feeling in the heart - a "bundle" of every good thing Gretta and I did or had on earth - mixed with instant leaky eyes, which now don't seem to have many words except "I miss her SO much."

Trevor - This one's for you: One of your anniversary presents got mailed to here yesterday. It's something little. I hope you and your mom and dad like it.

XOXO

Aunt Jeannie and Rufus

Hi Trevor,

I hope you had a good and happy day - of course you did, you are in Heaven!

Tonight I need to focus on you through my thoughts and my feelings and less with words if that's OK? The ache in my heart is just so strong that it blocks out the words. But my love for you will never be blocked by anything or anyone. We're at 15 days now and would you believe that Dr. Sorrells was at our house today? He was last year at this time, too. Only today Dreamer and Kelley got all their vaccinations and physical exams. I told Dr. Sorrells what day it was and he was amazed at where the time had gone. I told him what your daddy always says, "One day lasts forever, but a lifetime is gone by in a second." and that is so true.

Honey, I miss you so incredibly much that today I can make no sense of it and don't even want to try. I'm just going with the feelings. I think that's the best way to honor you today. Thank you for being my 9 year old baby and my life's teacher at the same time.

Have a beautiful night, my love!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

Good Morning my little Hunky Bunky!

I really don't know how I came up with that silly nick-name, but at the time it fit so well. I am going to write you a nice long note later in the day, but for right now I wanted to say I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!! and it's already far too hot to go outside, so I'm staying indoors all day (except to let Dreamer and Kelley out).

Have a wonderful, fun day and be sure to get everyone to show Tucker around, OK?

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
Mommy
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

Hello Sweetheart!

Today was just about the only day that I was glad you were in Heaven and not here on earth. It was 103 degrees outside and I know how you hated the heat and the cold. So I am glad that you are in the best spot possible, although I still miss you like crazy. We're at 14 days now and by this time last year I knew the last date you would be spending with me on this earth. And it felt awful, even then. It was like waiting for an execution and all the while telling myself that we were doing the best things possible for you. I didn't believe a word of it either. But I did try to squeeze in as much love as possible. There was only one incident invoving former friends of ours that put a damper in our lives, but we got through that and on to more important things: like snuggling with you and keeping you out of pain.

I wish I could have you back again, but in good health this time, even if you were old. But then I'd have to lose you all over again and I know that I would not survive that. So, I love you way "up" in Heaven and hope that, one day, I will be worthy of the same destination so that we never have to part again. Won't that be wild? All my boys together and me right in the middle of the happiness? Yes, I guess that is the definitionof Heaven.

I will admit that I am getting a bit scared of the actual anniversary date coming and then passing so quickly. I know it won't last nearly long enough to satisfy me and will probably be 100+ degrees again. It was that way last year. Why not this year, too?

Auntie LoveMyMickey is going to write a poem for you and Auntie Jeanne is sending you something. Please have everyone in Heaven watching, OK? I want everyone, everywhere to know how much you are loved and were loved. I don't want anyone to misunderstand that. I don't think they will.

Have a peace-filled evening, my special little boy. I love you more than life itself, but I'm going to live this life to make you so proud of me!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

Hello my sweet boy!

Time seems to be flying by right now and not in a good way. I've been inside far too long with this heat and I'm having to deal with people issues that I am really not in the mood for. I know YOU would never be like that and I really do try. I read your Life Lessons a lot, but they just aren't sinking in lately. And since these issues are taking up time, lots of time, there is less time to think of you, especially in these days leading up to our first anniversary apart. Do you have the time to do some of the thinking for us? I know that your thoughts will be much happier and hopeful because you are living in the Perfect World already, so you know how wonderful it is. I am so glad that you are there and not still down here suffering like you were. Now you get to laugh and play and eat and eat and eat and not get fat! You can see and aren't scared of going down stairs any more. No nasty groomer is ever going to come near you again. And even Dr. Sorrells misses you! (well, we did kinda make him rich towards the end, didn't we?)

Trevor, I wish I had some of your magic that you had here on earth. You had a kind of happy magic that got you through some of the worst of times and allowed you to "forget" what the awful pain of the night felt like the next morning. I hope that I was a tiny part of that magic, too. Ready to help you during the next day and night as you needed. If you wouldn't mind, could you send me some of that magic right now so that I can get through the next several days? I need some of that (physically) "close" support and don't think I'll get much, so I'll have to ask you a favor and share some of yours with mommy.

Fourteen days. That's all the time we had left last year and I didn't realize just how incredibly short 20,160 minutes were!!!!! If I knew then.........but it's hurtful and futile to say that since what happened, happened and what didn't, didn't. I hope you felt the love and tenderness I felt towards you and were not scared at all. I tried for that (not being scared) most of all. I'm going to look for your hair one more time now. Wish me luck!

And thank you for the beautiful 2 years, 1 month and 29 days we had together! You are the BEST!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

Hi Trevor!

WOW! The countdown is steadily moving forward, just like it did last year. The only difference was that I could hold and touch you then, HOWEVER, you were in almost constant pain unless you were maxed out on medication. I still love and miss you more and more, my sweet boy.

Mommy had a very exhausting day, all day long so I am going to go to bed now and dream sweet dreams of YOU!

Have a GREAT night, my love. I'll write lots more tomorrow.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

Dearest Trevor,

I really wish that I could be with you, in Heaven, right now. Things on this earth are making mommy sadder and sadder and I am getting more tired as the days go by. Oh! I would NEVER do anything to harm myself because that would be stupid and then I might not ever get to see you again.

Your mommy is pooping out. I'm glad that rarely happened when you were here. But if you know anyone or any group of ones in Heaven that have a little extra energy or love rays that they wouldn't mind parting with, would you ask them to send them my way? It doesn't have to be much. I have very little right now, so anything will be a blessing.

Thank you, Trevor and Gretta and Mickey and Hermy for considering this request. You know I love you all!

XOBobbieXO

Trevor

Get busy, guy!! Your pack numbers in the thousands (or more). get those guys together and get on over to the love-ray station and SEND DOWN THOSE LOVE RAYS (the strength-giving kind). Don't forget to take Benji along. I'm sure he's running around under all you guys' legs.

HELP!

Thanks Trevor - Forever.

Aunt Jeanne (Gretta's mom)

Dear Bobbie,

Mickey gathered ALL our Angel Babies and they are sending you some beautiful love rays......Take them all in and feel better....Love ya'............LoveMyMickey....

Dear LoveMyMickey and Gretta's mom,

My eyes really started leaking when I saw that beautiful picture of the love rays coming down from Heaven! And thank you so much, Jeanne for gathering all the boys and girls together, along with Benjamin and LoveMyMickey's help to send those rays my way. I think you both know exactly how important they are to me and I thank God every day that you are both in my life.

Dearest Trevor,
Well, now we are on Day 12 and the real countdown is under way. Only 12 days left to show my brave little boy how much I love him, care for him and want him to be really pain-free. And yet, at the same time that little voice is getting a bit louder every day saying that I don't want this to ever happen because I don't know what I will do when you are gone. And you know what, honey? That's exactly how I feel right now. I know you left when you did because the good Lord knew that I would have to be in Minnesota for such a long time in a few months and that no one would be able to care for you. But life, since you've been in Heaven, hasn't been all that good here on earth. Oh yes, I have two wonderful dogs. One who is just about perfect and one that is a complete handful and that daddy is starting to yell at all the time. I'll have to try tethering him when daddy is home tonight, even tho tonight is colonoscopy=prep night. Good thing Kelley isn't afraid of small rooms and he loves getting his Cheerios. Matter of fact, Dreamer will probably be there, too! And I have Aunti Jeanne and LoveMyMickey who keep me grounded every single day. But the hours in a day are not pleasant like they used to be and you know how difficult it is to move and get anything done when you hurt.
So, enough complaining to the saint-dog of the hour! I love you so much, my little one. Remember that Kodak ad from many years ago where there was this little girl walking away from her daddy and the song that was sung was "Where Are You Going, My Little One?" That can be one of our songs, too. I'll look it up and see if I can get the lyrics.
Have a fantastic day Mr. T! I love you more than ever!

XOMommyXO

I'm so glad we love each other, Trevor.

send a couple love rays towards Kelley. He's having a bit of a rough go of it here. I love him and so does Dreamer.


XOMommyXO

Hi Trevor,

Mommy had a colonoscopy and endoscopy today. One very large polyp was found in my right colon and now I'm going to have to have laproscopic surgery to have it removed and biopised. I know Mommy should trust in the Lord, who helped you so much, but I am very scaredl I'll keep you posted, but nothing is going to interfere with our one-year anniversary celebration!

I LOVEYOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

HI Trevor

Please bop on over to God (well, run respectfully) and ask Him for some health blessings for your mom. We're praying as hard as we can down here, too. Because you're up there, you already know about the huge health miracle your mom has already come through. Even the stofgiest doctors called it a miracle. Please ask God for just a small one like that. He loves your mom. So do you. So do I.

XOXO
Aunt jeanne

Oh My Dear Bobbie,

I am so sorry to hear this. I will be saying big prayers for you to be healed. Trevor, Gretta, Mickey, and all God's little angels are sending healing rays to you.....Love ya'................LoveMyMickey...

Thank you SO much Jeanne and LoveMyMickey,

I know I am just the world's biggest baby and I thank you for your understanding and love.



DEAREST TREVOR:

You are the dearest creature in all of mommy's heart and soul. You endured some of the worst pain and agony I can even imagine. And here I am whining over a large polyp. But I can feel your love and understanding and reassurances right here, right with me and without them I would be lost forever. Oh, my Trevor, my darling, my baby, why do I have to go on day after day without you and even without your lock of hair that would allow me to at least touch part of who and what we were? I don't want to g on without you because whenever I needed even your silent help, it was there. Dreamer and Kelley are OK, but they are in the other room sleeping, not even aware that my heart is breaking and is so scared and that my eyes are leeaking like crazy. But you do, even from afar and that Is what I miss so terribly.

I'll write more later once I get the forms for the bloodwork and the CT scans. Oh, honey, you are the BEST that ever was and still is in Heaven. I hope you know that.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

Hi Trevor

Just a short note this morning to again ask you for some extra stength and love-rays for your mom. Thank you Mr Trevor-Foreve.

Gretta and Rufus's mom

Dear Sweet Trevor,

If you can, tell your mommy to check her email when she feels like it. I hope your poem helps her to feel better......

Healing prayers are being said.

Love and Blessings..


LoveMyMickey

Hello Sweetheart!

Thank you, LoveMyMickey, for such a beautiful and thought-filled poem. It will be an honor to read it to Trevor on his anniversary.
And Auntie Jeanne, I just can't wait to read what you have for Trevor!

As the days get closer and closer to Trevor's one-year anniversary, I find it more difficult to know that this is just the FIRST anniversary and that there will be so many more to go through. I can hardly make it to the first one. As you know, I've had many other boy doggies and loved and adored each and every one of them with all my heart. But with Trevor, there was something special, unique, never to be known again. And I find it so sad to only be able to remember it and not know that I can LIVE it again (only healthy this time) with him. After all, we all don't make it to Heaven, you know.

I miss Trevor's innocence and yet his voraciousness for life. He and I were a TEAM, all day and every day. Sometimes I still look down on the floor where he slept and wonder why I put my shoes and braces there now. Seems almost sacreligious now. Oh, I miss every little thing about Trevor. I even found his black muzzle yesterday, still stained with the pieces of bologna we used to put in it to get his nose at least part-way in. Well, at least I have his muzzle now. Still searching for his hair.

Trevor, I love you with every ounce of strength, emotion and passion that I have. And I always will. You are the BEST!

XOMommyXO

How can I best say this to you, my sweet boy?

I love you and miss you more than everything that has been in the universe, is now in the universe and will be in the universe until it is no more.


I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

Oh my sweet Trevor,

We are getting into the home stretch now, where reality is truly hitting home and hurting like nothing I've felt before. And that hurt is back now. Eight days and that's it. Reminds me of a dead man walking.

I know the right decisions were made. I know this was absolutely the best for you, but why does it have to continue to hurt as badly as it does? And why do so few people care? I guess we just live in a here-today-gone-tomorrow society now which allows most of them to not have to think about or deal with real and continuing pain. Or maybe it's me that is all wrong. Maybe I'm supposed to think, "Well, Trevor's been dead for a year now, so that's that. On to something else." But that is going to happen only when hell freezes over.

I love you and miss you, my sweet little boy. And I cannot wait until we are reuinited forever! What fun that will be, with your brothers, cousins, and such good friends like Mickey, Hermy, Tucker, etc.

Until tomorrow, my love.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Oh my precious, precious little boy!

I miss you so much that my heart just keeps on breaking. We are on Day 7 to your one-year anniversary today and the memories are just taking over, popping up out of wherever and literally stopping me in my tracks. I keep repeating myself, but I truly wish that everyone here could have met you in "person" beause it would be love at first sight. I know it was for everyone who did meet you (except for the deranged vet and groomer). And you loved everybody back, except those that tried to put a muzzle on you. And that was due to your hydrocephalus, etc. and NOT to your personality at all.

I have to stay awake for awhile tonight to take some special medicine, so I am going to lie down and read your book "I Will See You in Heaven" again. It is such a comfort and yet there are parts that are quite hard to read because the words bring YOU right to life for a second again. I still sleep with your picture and Rudy's wrapped in a piece of your next-to-favorite blanket. I can't sleep without it. But you should cee where you and Rudy end up by morning!

Have a peacefilled night, my love, and I will be here again very soon (like less than 24 hours). Say Hello! to all your buddies and relatives for me!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Good Morning, Trevor!

Mommy didn't sleep one wink last night. Guess it was all that Prednisone and worry about today's tests. But I know they are going to come out fine.

Ihope you had a really good night's sleep and are raring to go this morning. Gotta keep up with that Benjamin you know!

We're at Day 6 now and each day is a bit lonelier, sadder and harder for me, bit I know it will be a very special day for us, no matter what. Because YOU are in Heaven and completely healed - no pain, no scared, just fun and games all day long, like it's supposed to be.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Hi Sweet Trevor,

Gather all the angel furbabies together and keep sending those love and healing rays down to your mommy.

Bobbie, I hope your tests went well today. You are in my thoughts and prayers to be healed soon.......I love you and your precious angel Trevor.

(((HUGS))))

LoveMyMickey

Bobbie, so sorry that you are having a tough time. I don't think it's people not caring. They probably don't know what to say when they see you are hurting so much still. Each grief journey is different. For some people it can take up to two years to really feel better and be able to adjust to life without their precious companion. Sometimes people get "stuck" in the grief journey because of unresolved issues or other losses. When you get sad please remember that Trevor is at peace. He has no more pain. He is restored to his former youthfulness as moon_beam would say. Try to spend some extra time with Kelley and Dreamer and give them lots of cuddles.

Oh my sweet, sweet Trevor!

We got a beautiful, custom made card from Auntie Jeanne today and if she hadn't used molasses to make Rufus' paw print, we'd be able to read the inside of the card!

Honey, we lost a very dear friend, Mr. Gonzalo, who was my RCIA boyfriend, to cancer today. So we are sad on a human level. But in my sympathy message to his widow I used the consoling and very true words from this site, that while we are physically separated, we are always spiritually connected through our God. You might want to look for him in the Human - Man section. He has a wonderful beard and a loving smile. He doesn't talk very loud, but I guess that isn't important in Heaven!

Trevor, I hope most of the people who check out this topic realize that the incredibly special, yet short relationship you and I had, kept me going for those two years. YOU gave me the gift of living again and I hope I gave you the gift of really living for awhile and enjoying it, then giving you a most peaceful passage to the Perfect World. THAT is why I am still so sad, almost one year later. You were so pure and sincere every single minute of every day and night. That will never be seen by me again.
Oh! I DO LOVE Kelley and Dreamer ! They have the best life I can give them and they are so totally different. My late father-in-law (Sam) always told me that when he died, he only wanted to come back as MY dog! He knew who had it good!
So, to all you wonderful folks who keep a check on Trevor and me, I thank you with all my heart for caring and making sure that Trevor is never forgotten!

Peace and blessings to you all!
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Dear, dear Mr. Trevor,

Mommy hasn't been on this site for a couple days. I have been trying to help Mr. Gonzalo's widow (Mrs. Myra) with many tasks we humans do when a good person goes to Heaven.

Pure - that is the BEST word to describe you. Yes, that's it. You are a sweet, sweet boy for sure and precious in all sorts of ways, but from the minute we saw each other for the first time, I knew there was a word out "there" that described you perfectly. And I found it, just in time for your one year anniversary! Your heart is pure, your thoughts are pure, your motivations are always pure, your love is pure. One day I will be able to write it in the sky so that everyone will know: Trevor = Pure Pure = Trevor !!!!!

We only have a few more days to go and these were so, so sad and hard for me. You had no idea what was coming, but I hope you were hoping for something good. That was to be my ultimate gift to you. Auntie Jeanie even wrote a Happy Birthday in Heaven note to you that day! I still have it on my mirror. Four days now. And I wish I could add.......until we are together again, but that time will come. I know it will come when the Almighty say's it's time.

I LOVE YOU, MY TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

PS: was that you flying with Mickey past his mommy?

Hi Bobbie

All of my prayers (and Rufi's too if dogs can pray) are with you today. No, you're NOT stuck. I think we grieve in proportion as we love - we your love for Trevor was exceptional on this earth. God is blessing you in a special way today.

Gretta's mom

Hi Sweet Trevor,

Please send your mommy a butterfly to comfort her and to let her know everything is okay.......I read that butterflies are the most common symbol of communication from our guardian angels or a loved one that has passed away. Sometimes birds do the same thing.

Trevor, in the next post is your first anniversary in heaven poem I wrote for your mommy.

I LOVE YOU!!

LoveMyMickey

My dearest Trevor,

This is a very difficult letter to write to YOU. But I know you will understand as few other dogs or humans do, so that is why I am going to tell you what is happening to mommy.
Today I just found out that I will probably be very, very sick for quite awhile. I will need an operation and will have to stay in the hospital for a little while. I do not know when the operation is going to happen because I have not formally met with the surgeon (a doctor who does the operation). That should happen some time in the next two weeks. Then mommy will need some medicine that might make her feel really icky for awhile, but will be good for me in the end.

I am sorry to have to tell you this so close to your one-year anniversary, but we never kept anything from each other before so why start now? Right now mommy is very scared, sad and having all sorts of different feelings. But one feeling that NEVER changes is the LOVE I have for you. That lasts forever. And we will celebrate your anniversary just as we planned. I even told Andrew about it.

I love you, my Trevor, with everything I have. Now I must keep your Life Lessons in front of me at all times because they will help me tremendously.

BTW - I am writing this to YOU, Trevor, on this site because I don't know how to send a PM to YOU any other way. I'm not publishing this for anyone else. Your friends will understand because they know YOU!

Have a peace-filled night and know that your mommy is with you always!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

PS: Don't you just LoveMyMickey?????????

Hello Bobbie / Trevor

Gretta has gathered her and Trevor's pack, now numbering in the thousands, and has issued a call to all the other LS animals and animals who don't have someone to mourn for them and alnimals who were "sent home" in the interest of science .... it's a real crowd. If you listen REAL carefully, you can hear the barking.

All of us are praying for you (and I have a photo that proves that dogs CAN pray) to the Loving God who lives where you live. The prayers of the righteous avail much - a good man Saint Paul - he's up there with you - wrote that long long ago. It guarantees us that prayer works.

If we have faith the size of a mustard seed, we're promised that we can move mountains. And our favorite saying is "Where there's life, there's hope." Said at a time when Mom's sickness was FAR worse than the one she might have now.

Gretta and all your cousins, Mickey, Hermie the Bunny, Muppie the Pit and all the other loving animals where you are will stick even closer by you until all is right on earth.

BTW Trevor ... SEND YOUR MOM A SIGNAL, GUY!!

XOXOXOXOXOXOXO

Gretta's mom

Dear Mommy,

I am sending you a butterfly angel. All of us in this Perfect World Heaven are sending powerful prayers to the Good Lord for you to get well. I LOVE YOU, MOMMY!

Your Little Boy, FOREVER TREVOR. XOXOXO

Dearest Trevor, Gretta's Mom and LoveMyMickey,

I am, indeed, blessed beyond what I should be. The human and animal response to my medical news has been overwhelmingly positive and that helps a whole lot! Trevor, through all of what is to come, I will keep your Live Lessons rght in front of me so that I do not forget how a truly good animal/person lives. It is not easy by any stretch of the imagination when someone is feeling well - can imagine what it's like when they're not. I guess I'll find that out.

And Trevor, I would like you to take a message to the Big Guy (God) for me: tell Him "thank you for sending Cousin Diane to me." She is amazing and is so giving that you would have loved her. She's already made phone calls for mommy, typed up notes and given me "actions" to do next week. I get the weekend off because of your one-year anniversary, honey.

Thank you for the angel butterfly. It's so hot and humid around here that I'm not going outside as much and neither are the boys, so my chances of seeing a real butterfly are slim. Although I saw a huge, yellow with black tips butterfly the other day. One minute he was there and the next .....gone! Hermy, was that you? I know Mickey is white and Gretta is chocolate (I LOVE chocolate!), but Hermy kinds of blends colors. Ok, we'll say it was Hermy.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Good morning Trevor,

Could you let your mom know that signals from you do not always look exactly like you, please? Gretta's one and only signal to me was a nanosecond flash of a Irish Setter running between me (on Gretta's bed) and her food-and-water bowls. Like your signal - which was a yellow-and-black butterfly, who came and went in a instant. I'm sure it was ALL of you boys getting together in a single butterfly - yellow (for you buff guys), black (for Kelly and Jasper), and a flying being for Spot and Squirt. Like: EMERGENCY! EMERGENCY! GATHER UP GUYS. WE DON'T HAVE TIME TO SEND SIGNALS INDIVIDUALLY SO LET'S ALL GET TOGETHER IN ONE AND GET IT GOING NOW!!!

Thank you for doing that.

I love you, Trevor. You truly are forever. And you truly are you mommie's soul-mate. Take good care of the piece of her soul you're holding. It's precious to so many in heaven and on earth.

Gretta and Rufus's mom

Hi Sweet Little Trevor,

I believe you did send your mommy a love message through that yellow and black butterfly she saw the other day. I also believe your Aunt Jeanne is right about the colors representing all your friends sending their love and prayers.......Also in the Angel graphic she is holding a yellow and black butterfly......It's just gotta' mean something.

Sweet Trevor, please send your mommy and her family lots of love and prayers tomorrow.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!

Auntie LoveMyMickey XOXOXO

Dear Trevor,

I believe! I believe! Aunties Jeanne and LoveMyMickey are right! You came to me as the yellow and black beautiful butterfly the other day! Thank you so much, my love!

Tomorrow is THE day. The memories of this night one year ago are so painful and sad. Auntie Jeanne met you for the first and last time. You couldn't get comfortable on your blankets as we both lie on the floor, until your rear end was almost in my face. But I didn't care. We were together and that's all that mattered. I didn't get much sleep, although you were able to sleep for awhile. And I didn't want the night to ever end - ever. I wanted to be with you, next to you, forever. Really, forever.

And now I have the Locket. The Old Dog in a Locket, lying next to my heart. I will always love you, even though we had to part.

Please have a peace-filled night with all your relatives and friends; your brothers, Gretta, LoveMyMickey, Peggy, Peanut, Hermy, Gino, Gina, Tucker, Tucker, Muppie and the hundreds of others; those creatures of God that no one, but us (we?) remember each night; those who suffered and gave their lives alone in the name of experimentation; and all the others known only to you and the Lord Almighty. Surround yourself with them, and stick especially close to Mickey, for it will be his 17-month anniversary tomorrow and his mommy and daddy miss him so much.

I have so much for you tomorrow. It is YOUR day. in every way

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Happy one-year anniversary, my sweet boy!

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Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday fo you
Happy birthday Trevor-Forever
Happy birthday to you.

Look around you at all your heavenly friends. Can't even see to the end of the crowd, can you? There's a crowd like that down here on earth, too. All gathered together to give thanks for your coming into our lives and brining such beauty, care, gentleness and purity. And thank you so much for sending your mom a sign - only you know how much it means to her.

Our threesome (Gretta, Rufus and I) send all our love to you today.



Aunt Jeannie

Hi, Bobbie, it is always a blessing logging in to read your beautiful love letters to your beloved Trevor. I could not let this day go by without stopping by to add my sincerest wishes on this special day for you and your beloved Trevor: your first year angel-versary. I know it is a day that will be filled with many different emotions.

Please know your beloved Trevor's sweet Living Spirit is with you now as you endure the health challenges ahead for you. All the loving care you gave to him he is now doing his best to make sure that you receive the same.

I hope today is treating you kindly, Bobbie, and that you will be able to commemorate your and your beloved Trevor's first year angel-versary as you want to. Please know you, Stan, Dreamer, Kelley, and all your family are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I always look forward to knowing how you're doing and to sharing your treasured memories of your beloved Trevor.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Hi Bobbie, we have not spoken yet but i have read your love letters to sweet Trevor and i think they are beautiful. I wanted to say Happy Angel-versary to Mr. Trevor and to you as well. I hope today is a good day for you and your family. I am thinking of you.

Forgive me for once i think i;am Speechlees your words...

How can so much Love Continue to flow forth from my Heart to you....

Let me add.. Silent Suffering is like asking for Forgivness... is like asking to touch the stars..

How can so much Love...As Silent Dignity speak with are Heart for the ones we care for...

As they wait...Seems i'am well... your words are more then i can speak.. I do have something to share
What thought and special words for a friend what a great Honor you show for the one that leads you
Trevor seems i speak his name as many others your Heart is so... touches mine oh my friend what....

Forgive me and Thank you Gretta for showing me the the darkness that shines in the light i almost should not write....
Your words are pure i have nothing to add other then thank you for sharing Trevor....

So please more Pictures of Trevor in Life Please share Him i seem to be out of sight at the momment...

What i can see from the Distance Beautiful Human that speaks for a friend...
Some how Trevors bark has reached me so your calling for a friend in the night i can hear
What a story i need to learn i have known 1 spaniel as a lab they look to every movement
you give them always learning each and every day they need your Teachings yet they already know...
It's the connection they seek more then any i do not wish to go any...Spaniels follow only the pure of Hearts...

Stranger looking in to Heavens Gate..
Trevor seems your life was filled with love beyond Messure words are inprinted in so many Hearts after life you have your
Teachings that speak from a friend your words do not go unspoken as i speak your name Mr. Trevor My friend Guides me...
Forgive me...

I know so little yet i see in the window Trevor Provides ... I need more Memories in time as Trevor has already touched my heart
As i still try and stand i hear your words for a friend that moves me...

Let me share somthing that...

God Promised at the birth of time, a speacial friend to give,
his time on earth is short,he said,so love him while he
lives.

It may be six or seven years,or Twelve or then
Sixteen, but will you,till I call him back, take care of him for
me....

A wagging tail and cold wet nose,and silken velvet
ears, A heart as big as all of outdoors, to love you through out
the years..

His puppy ways will gladden you, and antics bring a
smile, as guardian or friend he will, be loyal all the while.

He'll bring his charms to grace your life, and though his stay
be brief , when he's gone the memories, are solace for your
greif.

I cannot promise he will stay, since all from earth
return, As lessons only a dog can Teach, I want you each
to learn.

Whatever love you give to him, returns in triple
meassure, follow his lead and gain a life.. brim full of simple
pleasure.

Enjoy each day as it comes, allow your heart to
guide, Be loyal and steadfast in love, as the dog there by
your side.

Now will you give him all your love,nor think the
labor vain,nor hate me when i come to call,to take him back
again...

I fancy each of us would say, Dear Lord, Thy
will be done, for all the joy this day will bring, the risk of
grief we;ll run.

We;ll shelter him with tenderness, we;ll love
him while we may, and for the happiness we;ve known,
forever grateful stay...

Shall the Angels call for him,
much sooner than we;ve planned, we;ll brave the bitter grief
that comes, and try to Understand....

Author Uknown...


Trevor Seems you have stolen my words for your Human your Hurt has blinded me,....