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lynette
Hey Angels.

I'm in panic mode now. Just realized that Dad installed the a/c in the living room and wondering if he hid the cable. God I hope so, cos I really don't want Linus chewing on it. Please watch over him and make sure he stays safe (hopefully, it's not too late). I won't be home for a couple hours yet.

It's Izzy's birthday today. She's 12. Can you believe she's been with us 8 years already? How time has flown by. She's doing good.

Please keep Linus safe. Thanks babes. I love you so much. And as always I miss you.

Love forever Mum.
lynette
Hi my Angels.

Hope you're all well. I'm feeling a little blue today. Starting to notice Izzy slowing down. It saddens me so much to think that we don't have much more time left with her. She's 12 now and hopefully she'll have another couple years, god I hope so. She slipped on the stairs a couple weeks ago and hurt herself. She bounced back in a few days, but I've noticed her slowing down the past month or so. I love that little girl so much. She is so precious. I don't want to think about this, but can't seem to stop thinking about it. I know she's bound to slow down, they all do, but maybe cos I had a couple weeks off that I'm noticing this now. It was really hot when dad and I were on holidays, so I think that's why she was tired all the time. But then I have to remind myself that that is what she does anyway, when we're not home. She's doing good. Good spirits, her mind is still good. She loves to go for walks with us all the time. And she can still run. I think she has some arthritis though. Just saddens me to think - and I don't want to think. Just can't seem to get it out of my mind. I'm not ready to say goodbye to this little sweetheart. We've had to carry her up the stairs a few times, but I think she's developed a bit of a fear with them since she slipped. I love her. Please watch over and keep her with us for a few more years. I love her so much.


Everyone else is well. Linus got fixed. Still horny, but hopefully that will fade. Barney's birthday this Friday. I can't believe he and Casey are going to be eight already. Where has the time gone? Carly's 21 next month. Scary how fast time goes.

Anyway I should get back to work. Will talk to you all later. I love you so very much. Please watch over Izzy.

Love you forever and ever.

Love Mum.
lynette
I'm absolutely terrified of losing her.
lynette
Why can't I shake this feeling? I can't bear the thought of losing her. Other than slowing down she seems fine, but why I am even thinking about this?
lynette
Hi my angels.

Izzy is fine. I don't know why I was panicking last time. You know how I am though. She still stumbles on the stairs once in a while, but she's okay.

Dumper is not though, or he won't be. I feel so bad for him. He bit Carly Sunday before last. She went up to the hospital, got antibiotics and a tetanus shot. But Gramp is gonna send him your way. This is the third time, I know of, that he has bitten someone. I think it's four actually. Carly's okay and she doesn't blame Dumper. Brit and Spot were growling at each other when he was there and she thinks he got confused. Either way, poor Dumper will be joining you in the next couple days. It breaks my heart. Although I don't trust him, and never have, it's not his fault he's that way. Gramp never socialized him properly when he was a pup. He put him out with the goats and that's where he had to stay. I think they could work on him, but you know how gramp is. Dumper is no longer of any use. He's about eight and they think he doesn't see too well. Poor thing. I don't trust him around our dogs, but he doesn't deserve to die. I say retire him. Maybe he could find a nice retirement home where someone would love him.

So, just a head's up, poor Dumper will be there soon. Carly said gramp was giving him 14 days. He couldn't do anything before now, because he had to wait ten days (rabies). I hope he'll be happy there with you. And hopefully, he won't be such a threat to anyone. He deserves to be happy and loved. He hasn't had much of that in his life.

Anyway, love you all. Carly's birthday today, 21 already, can you believe it?

Talk to you all later.

Love forever and ever. Mum.
lynette
Dearest Angels.

As you know Dumper is unfortunately there with you now. At least I hope he's with you guys. He needs a lot of love. He's been neglected in that area most of his life. Poor guy. I know he's done some bad things, but hopefully, now he'll be really happy and won't hurt anyone. Please give him lots of love.

Dumper - I'm really, really sorry. No one ever wanted this to happen. You'll be happy there. You won't have to worry about your goats and you can play and have lots of fun now. I know you were never allowed to before because you had to work all the time. And you'll get lots and lots of love there Dumper. You deserve it. I know we didn't see eye to eye, Dumper, but I still loved, love you. We will meet again someday. Till then Dumper, you have a great time. I'm so, so sorry. Dumper September 17, 2016.

Love you all.

Love Mum.
lynette
Hi my precious angels.

Hi George. I can't believe tomorrow is three years since you left us. I miss you like it was yesterday. And I still have so many regrets. I should never had clipped your nails the night before. I should've made you go in the house that morning or at least made you go inside the fence. I miss you so much George. I miss all of you guys.

How are you doing Dumper? I hope you're happy. Lucy still misses you a lot. She is such a sweetie. She is so lost without you.

I'm tired today, had a rough day. I started a new job five weeks ago. Yes, after 18 years I quit!! Hard to believe eh? It's been ok, but this morning was so very stressful and I wished I hadn't taken this job now. There is so much to learn and no one to show me anything.

But that's not why I'm here now. I wanted to say I love you and miss you George. I wish you were here. I wish I could hug and kiss you George. I miss you so very much. I miss all of you. Linus is so much like you sometimes George.

Everyone is ok. Well, sort of. Carly has been sick for over a week with the flu. Dad had it too. Izzy was sick about a month ago too. I think she overate, she was throwing up everywhere. I've never seen any of you be so sick before. Then for the past week and a half her arthritis has been seriously bothering. At least I think she has arthritis. I know she's always had issues with her front paw, but something is going on with her back left leg. I was going to take her to the vet last week, but he was in the office, so I asked him and he said to give her Aspirin. She's better, not crying in pain, but still not a hundred percent. She has another two days of Aspirin, after that we'll see what's next. She may have to go on something stronger. Poor little baby. She turned 12 this summer.

Anyway, gonna go now. Love you forever and ever babies. Talk to you tonight.

Love Mum.
lynette
My dear Angels.

I miss you so very much today. I miss you every day but today I miss you more than usual. Linda, a new friend from work, had to say goodbye to her little baby today. Snoop was crossing the Rainbow Bridge sometime this afternoon. I never met little Snoop, but my god this hurts. Maybe it just brings up old memories and feelings or perhaps I'm just hurting because I know what Linda's going through. And such a crappy day at work today, that doesn't help. God I miss you all. She just retired and now she won't get to spend those precious moments with Snoop. He was about 15, a good long life, but still very hard.

I wish you were all here with me today. How great it would be if you could all be here for Christmas with us. That would be the best gift ever. I love you guys.

Talk to you tonight. Love you forever and ever, Mum.
lynette
Merry Christmas Angels.

Love you all.

Love Mum.
lynette
Hi my precious Angels.

Hope you're all well. I miss you.

Dozer - I'm so very sorry. I don't understand how Dad can just do what he did. You're in a better place. You deserve better than him. You are in very good company there.

Gonna miss you big guy. You are such a sweet heart. Love you Dozer. Will talk to you later. I didn't know you were gone till last night. I'm so sorry.

Hey guys, take care of Dozer. I know he's bigger than each of you, but he's still a young boy. I'm so mad and upset that Dad/Gramp did that.

I love you all and I miss you so very much. Every one is well. Even Izzy is doing a lot better.

Take care angels. Will talk to you all tonight.

Love forever and ever, Mum.
lynette
Hi my precious angels.

Hope you are all well. I had a dream about Bud and Lady last night. You guys didn't look like you did when you were here, but it was so nice to see you anyway. I dreamt you were lost for a couple of months, but then I found you at a shelter and I tried very hard to convince them that you were mine. They finally let me take you home. God, I miss you. I miss all of you.

I just wanted to write this down before I forgot, not that I ever want to, but usually I don't remember my dreams.

I love you all. So very much. I'll talk to you all tonight ok babes.

Love forever and ever, Mum.
lynette
Good morning my precious Angels.

It's been a while since I've written on here, but doesn't matter because I talk to you every night. I miss you all so much and I will love you all for all eternity.

Just wanted to stop by and write something here since it's been a while.

The pups are doing well. Izzy's getting old - poor thing. She's been on medication now for a year for her liver function. She's got a few fatty lumps and bumps. She's getting around pretty good. This time last year, I really didn't think she'd be with us much longer - she was so sick. But she's doing ok. Hopefully, we have a few more years with her here on earth. Barney and Casey are good too. Casey's sitting up on the back of the chair. She started doing that a few months ago, never ever did that before. I think it's the golden paste that they get three times a day. That stuff is what has given Izzy a new lease on life. Linus turned two at the beginning of December. He's such a sweetheart. The others won't play with him much though. Poor thing. You guys would love him. He is so much like you George. Sometimes, I think he's you reincarnated. If that's the case, then I believe you would be soooooooo very happy. Because he's smaller, he gets to do the things that you weren't always able to do, like sitting on us. He takes his food to go, just like you did. He runs like you, he chases the goats and cows away from the fence - just like you did. You'd love him George.

Carly's been sick. Just getting over a really bad cold - again. We had quite the scare end of October. I found her passed out in her room, had to call an ambulance. They think she may have had a seizure. So, she's had a CT and MRI scan - all came back normal. Just waiting to see a neurologist now. Hopefully she'll get some answers, but hoping it's nothing serious. Aunty Andrea has seizures too. She's off to a funeral today. Her buddies niece passed away before Christmas, 38 - cancer. That cancer sure sucks!!

Dad's good - he's been sick too. It's so cold here right now. We hit -35 overnight. And only a high of -28 today. Not sure if I will be taking the pups out for a walk later or not. Guess I'll see how cold it feels later.

Anyway my darling Angels, I will talk to you tonight. I love you and I miss you.

Love forever and ever, Mum.
lynette
Hi my precious Angels.

It has been quite a long while since I've written here. Things are not good - as you know. Barney is very sick and we really don't know how much longer we have with him. His kidneys are full of tumours and his belly is filled with fluid. He's on medication and hoping so much that will help with the fluid in the belly. There is nothing we can do for the tumours now so it is just a matter of time before he meets you guys there. It is so sad. He was at the vet yesterday and he has that same look you had when you went a month before you left us Hunny. He knows of course, so do the others. He is so so tired. He can't get comfortable I guess and he's trying to sleep sitting up. I don't know how I'm going to handle losing him. He still has a good appetite but will only eat his stew and whatever treats we give him. He won't eat dry food unless I soak it in water and even then - not always. He's lost so much weight. I was going to bring him to work this morning, but changed my mind cos he's so tired, he needs to rest. He hasn't slept well since last Thursday night. My heart hurts, I'm numb from all of this. I can't understand how he got so sick so fast. A month ago he went in for a dental, to have a bad tooth removed and the vet told me he had 2 cysts on his kidneys. But she said tests showed he had protein in his urine, but not enough to put him on medication. And now just a month later he's so sick. How did this all happen so fast. She also told me he had laryngeal paralysis. I was looking for a vet to perform that surgery. I had no idea his kidneys were this bad. And now.....I'm planning his funeral. Well, trying not to think about it, but it keeps crossing my mind. Do we bury him next to Lily and George or do I have him cremated and keep him next to you Hunny? The plan had been to bury your ashes next to Lily, but I just can't bring myself to do that - even now.

I love you guys so much. I love Barney. I don't want him to leave. Praying that the medication kicks in soon so that he can at least rest and be comfortable for a while. The medication is supposed to help remove the fluid in is belly. I so hope it works soon. Otherwise I will be begging the vet to drain it manually. I know it won't buy us time or cure him, but I hope he can at least have a few more months with us and be somewhat comfortable.

I'll come back later and write again.

Love you all - please watch over Barney.

Love forever and ever - Mum.
lynette
Hey guys.

Barney left yesterday afternoon - did he make it there ok? I miss him so much.

Barney - how ya doing Bean? Miss you so much already. But I know you're feeling better again. I'm so sorry this happened. I wanted so much to make it all go away and for you to be healthy again. I know you tried your hardest but it just wasn't to be. Don't worry about us - we'll be ok in time. We know you're back to yourself again. It was so hard to watch you these past few days. My heart is aching for you and is shattered into a million pieces. We will be together again Bean. When my time comes we will be together and we'll spend the rest of eternity together. For now play with your brothers and sisters and give them all a giant hug from us. Love you Barney. Forever and Ever. Love Mum. Will talk tonight and the rest of my life. I hope you got all the sleep you needed. I know you were so, so very tired Barney.
moon_beam
Hi, Lynette, please permit me to offer you my sincerest sympathies in the physical loss of your beloved Barney. I know so very well from first hand experience how much your heart is aching and the void that is in your life without your beloved Barney's sweet physical presence with you. The comfort is knowing that he is now restored to his former youthfulness in the company of the angels and his family members, and is patiently waiting for your appropriate time to join him in eternal joy. When that day arrives your reunion will be as if you had never been separated. Until then you are honored to be his heir to his eternal love - - for nothing in heaven or on earth can ever sever the love bond you and your beloved Barney share.

I hope today, and every day, is treating you kindly, Lynette, and that you will have peaceful evenings blessed with the sweet Living Spirits of each of your beloved companions. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I always look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
lynette
Thank you for your very kind words Moonbeam.

It was his birthday yesterday, would've been 10. Very difficult day for all of us.
lynette
Hi my darlings,

It's been a long time since I was here. I can't believe how time has flown by since you left us Barney. I miss you every single day.

Bad news - for us - good for you I guess. As you know Lucy went to be with you yesterday. Poor Lucy - such a sweet soul. I found her last night in the cat garage. Good job I checked to see if the cats needed food. She was in there - not sure why. But poor Lucy. Gramp says she was 15, so she had a good long life. Sure going to miss her.

I love you all and miss you all so much. Lucy - you are with angels now and you have so many loving siblings and relatives there. I love you Lucy and will miss you. Till we meet again sweet girl.

Love Mum.
lynette
Hi my darlings.

God I miss you all so much. Awful news. Izzy is not doing well. I think she'll be joining you very very soon. She didn't want anything for breakfast this morning. She ate last night though - not a lot. I left her sleeping in her spot by the window this morning. Dad got home an hour ago and said she was still sleeping there. I miss her already. She has kidney failure and her body is no longer making red blood cells. She's 15 as you know so old age has finally caught up to her. I can't believe just 5 or 6 weeks ago she was fine. She tried jumping on the sofa, but fell and since then she's been going downhill. I honestly thought she hurt her leg. Poor thing. This hurts every time one of you leaves me. I'm going home at lunch time to see her. Dad is already there so we may have to make that decision to let her go today. I do not want her to suffer. Her breath smells really bad - supposedly the toxins from her kidneys not removing them anymore. I'll see how she is when I go home. Maybe she'll eat something. When it's time for her to join you guys, please, please come down and get her and take her home with you. I can't bear the thought of not having her around anymore. She's been with us for 11 years now.

I love you all so much and I miss you like crazy. I'll talk to you all tonight.

Love forever and ever, Mum.
moon_beam
Hi, Lynette, thank you so much for sharing with us how your precious Izzy and you are doing. I'm so very sorry she's now transitioning from her earthly journey with you and your husband. I do so understand how painful this reality is for you, Lynette. Please let us know how your precious Izzy and you are doing.

As you may be aware, the L S Administrator is "sunsetting" the Forums effective January 1, 2020, so we won't have the opportunity to post here in the Forums when that happens. I want you to know that even though we won't be able to keep in touch in the Forums please know you will frequently be in my thoughts and prayers. It has been an honor and a privilege to be a part of this wonderful Forum and to hopefully be a source of comfort, support, and encouragement to you, Lynette.

Once again, I am keeping your precious Izzy and you in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
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