Love you babies. Missing you.

Love Mum.

Hi Angels.

Hi Georgie. Can't believe it's been two weeks now that you left us. The pain is still so unbearable. I miss you so much Georgie. It's weird not having you around especially now that the weather has turned ugly. You'd be in every night now and probably most of the evening. I love you so much. I ordered you a tag yesterday. One for you and the doodles. It's part of their Christmas present. I know you're not here with us anymore, but I wanted to get you one just to keep in the house. It is a blue heart with Love you Forever engraved on it.

Carly is officially done classses for this year. She has an exam tomorrow and then one on the 17th and that's it. She's itching to go Christmas shopping. She has quite a few presents to buy this year. Mostly for people who have been kind enough to drive her to and from Winnipeg and then a couple who have driven her to school and back. She's excited to be home. She was so upset with losing you especially since she hadn't seen you since that Sunday before.

Well, better get back to work.

Love you all and miss you all.

Love Mum.

Hi Angels.

How are you all doing? Busy chasing goats and sheet George? I hope you are happy there, I really do. It is so hard without you here. It'll be three weeks tomorrow but it feels so much longer. Haven't seen you recently. Please come see me and tell the others to. I love you all so very much it hurts.

I have a meeting tonight and tomorrow. So Carly will be home with the pups tonight. Watch over them and keep them safe will you? Dad will be home at midnight too.

I love you babies. And I miss you. Christmas is not going to the same without you Georgie.

I love you.

Love forever and ever Mum.

Hi, lynette, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. The tag you ordered for your beloved George sounds so very lovely, and I know you will enjoy having it close to you.

I know the holidays are not going to be quite so festive this year because of the sorrow in your heart. I hope you will be able to find the time you need to release your sorrow for your beloved George - - even if you must do it privately. And please know we are here for you, lynette.

I hope today is treating you kindly, lynette, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved George's, and all of your beloved companions', sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, lynette, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Morning my precious Angels.

Feeling a bit blue today. I wish so much that you could all come home for Christmas. George it is so quiet without you now. I miss you so much. Your tag came in the other day. I'm gonna hang up in the living room right next to your picture.

I love you babies. And I miss you so very much.

Love you forever and ever.

Love Mum.

Morning Angels.

Hope you are all doing well and having fun where you are.

Missing you all like crazy.

Everyone here is well. The doodles are okay. Carly is not exciting about going back to University tomorrow though. After having a month off it's not gonna be easy.

It was hard without you George. We miss you so much. All of you, but the pain of losing you George is still so very fresh. I can't believe it's been six weeks already. Time is flying by. Wish you could all come home.

Love you babies. Love you forever and ever.

Love Mum.

Hi, lynette, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. The holidays are extremely difficult when our hearts are grieving for our beloved companions who are with the angels. And it doesn't seem possible how time continues to march forward giving little acknowledgement to the emptiness in our hearts. But each of us are here to share the minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years that mark the milestones and angel-versaries of our beloved companions who are with the angels. We are here for you, lynette.

I hope today is treating you kindly, lynette, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved George's, and all of your beloved companions', sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, lynette, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Love you guys.

Miss you so very much.

Love Mum.

Hi my darlings.

It's been a while since I've been here. I think of each one of you every single day. I can't believe it's gonna be six months George. It still hurts. I don't see you anymore though. I hope that means you are really happy where you are and that you're just too busy to visit us. I'm sure you're chasing goats and sheep all day long! I wish we had taken you to herding classes. You would've loved that so much.

Spring is here - finally. It was a really long hard winter. Time now to find some rocks and finish up your grave site. Sorry about the ugly trees on your grave, but the stones were hard to find when we buried you. I miss you so much Georgie. It seems like a very long time ago that you left us. I hope you've met up with Hunny and Lily and all of the others. I know you'd love them as much as I do.

I can't believe that it's been five years now since you had to leave us Hunny. And it'll be six for you next month Lily. Time certainly does fly by. I miss all of you so much.

Carly is done University - done in April actually. She says she's not going back in the fall. I would like her to at least go to college, but I don't think she will. I don't want her hanging around here though - there is nothing here for her. And she'll never meet anyone here. I don't want her to end up a hermit like Unc!

Not much to write about really. The cats are having kittens now. Not that we need anymore. As cute as they are - we have too many as it is.

Everyone is doing well. Missing you all of course. Dad bought himself a quad a month ago. So he's happy with his new toy. Carly is actually finally starting to take an interest in getting her drivers licence. About time!!!

Snow is almost all gone. It is a late spring this year. We had so much snow this winter and it was so cold. George you would have been in the house all winter. And I know how much you would've hated that! Not that it was a good thing that you were gone, cos it definitely was not. I would give anything to have you back here with us. I took Izzy for her rabies shot yesterday. She loves going for rides in the van. Didn't think much of the vets though. She was well behaved of course. Had to carry her into the vets!

It's a long weekend this weekend. Victoria Day. So happy to have Monday off. The weather is supposed to be decent this weekend. A chance of rain Monday though. Maybe we'll have a bonfire this weekend. The first one this year.

Anyway that's about it. I love you all. And I miss you all so very much. Please come visit me. I would love to see you all.

Love forever and ever - Mum.

Hi Babes.

Just writing today cos Grey has joined you guys. Some idiot hit her - probably that psychotic cow next door. Probably diliberately hit her. I'm so sorry Grey. You were (are) such a little sweetie. And you had babies didn't you? Where'd you hide them? I sure hope it wasn't me. I didn't see you this morning and I didn't see you on the road. I certainly didn't feel like I ran over anything. If I did - I'm so very sorry, but I'm positive it wasn't me. Pretty damn sure it was her. She is such an evil person. Grey you'll be ok where you are now. You'll make lots of friends there - and you have plenty of relatives there. Remember Champ? She's there I'm sure. We're gonna miss you little girl. We'll have to bury you tonight when I get home.

Love you all forever and ever.

Love Mum.

I understand, because I will always have a hole in my heart for my Anna. It's okay to feel blue and cry. Don't worry what others think. it's your heart and your love and your loss..... and it can be very, very deep. this is a wonderful place to express your feelings.

Hi my precious angels.

Grey - we found your kittens - or rather they found us. I guess they got hungry and started crying. Poor little things. We are doing our best to bottle feed them. I think they're doing ok. Five of them right? Gonzalez keeps checking in on them. I think when they're a bit bigger he will take care of them.

God I miss all of you so much today. Wish so much that I could hold you. Love you all so much.

Love for ever and ever. Mum.

Morning my precious Angels.

Missing you all so very much this morning. Grey - Jewel didn't make it as I'm sure you already know. Poor little thing - she tried. I don't know what happened. She was eating fine up until a few days ago, then she stopped drinking milk. Last night we took her in, tried to warm her up - she was so cold. I forced a bit of milk into her. She meowed and seemed to like cuddling. But at bed time, she couldn't stand or sit, just laid there. I knew she wouldn't make it through the night. I think she must have died not long after I put her to bed. I let her sleep with Brain. She's been taking care of them. I don't know what happened to her kittens though. The other four are doing great, starting to eat wet food now. They don't even want the bottle anymore. Just so sad that Jewel couldn't make it. She was just so cute. Dad and Carly are going to lay her to rest next to you Grey. Grey I don't know if it was something I did that she didn't survive - I hope not. I wanted her to. I kissed and told her I loved her as I put her to bed last night. I hope she knew she was loved. Jewel - I love you and I hope you'll be happy there with your mum.

Life is so cruel. Coming to work, just past Gulays, there was a little bambi dead on the side of the road. Don't feel much like working today.

Anyway on a happier note. Carly got her driver's licence. She's not too excited about it though. She will be once she realizes how much independence she'll have.


I miss you all so much. I wish I could hold you all. I love you.

Forever and ever my babies.

Love Mum.

Hi, lynette, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. I am so sorry in your loss of your beloved Jewel. Knowing your heart for all of the precious souls who are blessed to be in your loving care I'm very certain whatever happened with Jewel is not a negative reflection on your care for her. Still, "knowing" this doesn't stop the ache in our hearts when our beloved companions must physically leave us.

It seems like today is one filled with sadness for you, and I'm so very sorry. I wish there were some words I could share with you that could help take at least some of the sorrow from your heart. Still I hope and pray that somehow this day will be kind to you, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with each of your beloved companions' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, lynette, and that I always look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Thank you Moon Beam.

I always look forward to your posts.

Hi my precious angels.

6 years today Lily. Can't believe that I made it through that time. Seems like only yesterday you left us. I miss you so very much. I love you with everything that I am. Just wanted to post I love you on this anniversary of your death. God I miss you so much. It still hurts so badly. I love all of you and miss you all so much.

Love forever and ever.

Mum.

Hi, lynette, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing, and your and your beloved Lily's 6-year angel-versary. I can so understand how you're feeling when you share with us: "Can't believe that I made it through that time. Seems like only yesterday you left us. I miss you so very much. I love you with everything that I am." No matter how much time passes after our beloved companions join the angels, our hearts are always joined to theirs - - for eternal love is not restricted to the physical laws of time and space.

I hope today is being kind to you, lynette, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Lily's, and each of your beloved companions', sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, lynette, and that I always look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

July 16, 2014 - Bozo.

So sorry Bozo. You are in the best company now. You remember George? I hope you two will be friends now.

Hey guys, take care of Bozo will ya? I know you never knew him - just you George (and I know you didn't care for him here) but please make him feel welcome there. He's a good pup just a bit aggressive. Maybe now he's there with you he won't be so aggressive. It just breaks my heart that this had to happen Bozo. I know your dad loved you very much.

Love all you guys and missing you so much.

Love forever and ever, Mum.

Hi, lynette, please permit me to offer you my sincerest sympathies in the physical loss of your beloved Bozo. I know your heart is aching with this yet another physical loss to adjust to. I hope you will be able to find peace in your heart that your beloved Bozo is now among his fellow family members and all the other residents of the garden enjoying perfect peace and harmony - - for in heaven there is only complete happiness.

I hope today is being kind to you, lynette, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with each of your beloved companions' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, lynette, and that I always look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Hi my precious angels.

Not much to write about, just thought I'd stop by and say I love you all. And that I miss you all so very much. Hi George, still herding those goats and sheep? I miss you so much. Miss your punches and your hugs. Seems like such a long time ago you left us. I hope your happy there. I know you're in good company.

Everyone is doing ok. Summer finally showed up. It's been hot and muggy. A little cooler this morning though. It rained early this morning and on the way to work. Supposed to be nice again today. No sun yet though. Barney doesn't much like this heat and humidity. He's finding it a bit tough. He was throwing up the other day - we figure because he'd been outside for pretty much two solid days and it was too much for him. Doesn't seem to be much shade in the back yard anymore. We were siding the house so we were all out all day. I think we are gonna have to plant some more trees. There are a couple that died over winter. But then the sun is so high in the sky that it's hard to find good shade. And you know Barney, he won't jump in the pool!

We had two dogs at our place last week. Thankfully we found their owners the next morning and they went home. One was a St. Bernard and the other a golden retreiver. The St. Bernard was BIG! I've never been up close to one before. He was very definitely a gentle giant. The golden reminded me of you Jessie. Then last night Kevin's dog showed up in our yard. I guess she must have followed Kevin. Anyway, they stopped in and picked her up. She was a cutie too. We should start a rescue shelter eh pups? I would love to do that, but wouldn't even have a clue how to go about that. Plus we don't have the room. If we had a big shed I could see that working.

Anyway, better go. I'm at work - not that I'm busy.

I love you all so much babes. Talk to you tonight.

Love for ever and ever. Love Mum.

Good morning my Precious Angels.

I had to come here this morning - just have to say thank you Hunny, Lily and Bruno for visiting me in my dreams yesterday morning. At least I hope that is what is was and not just a dream. At first I thought it was a dream, but this is the first time (that I remember) that I have dreamt of you. I saw you once Lily, but you were far away. This time I got to hug you Lily. I can't remember if I hugged you or not Hunny. I hope so. I was so happy to see you, but as happy as I was, it was sad also. I hope you come back again soon. Thank you Bruno for bringing them. You all looked really good.

I hope you come back again soon and that ALL of you come. You know I miss you all so very much.

I love you all.

Will talk again later. Love forever and ever Mum.

Hi Angels.

I'm sorry Lily. Was thinking how I never held you after you left. I am so, so sorry. I miss you so much my little girl. Thank you for visiting me last week. I hope one day you can forgive me.

I love you all my precious angels. Please come visit me again.

love you all. Love forever and ever - Mum.

Hi, lynette, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing, and your beautiful love letters to your beloved companions. I'm so glad you are having visits with your beloved companions. Even though the visits are brief, they let you know that your beloved companions are always close to you even though they cannot be physically with you.

As always, I hope today, and every day, is being kind to you, lynette, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with each of your beloved companions' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, lynette, and that I always look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Good morning Angels.

Missing you so much this morning. Wish I could hug and kiss you all.

Everyone is well. Doodles are well. We still need to find homes for your babies Grey. They are such cuties. Prince and Earl are so snuggly.

Anyway, better go. Will talk to you all tonight. Just wanted to say I missed you all.

Love for ever and ever. Mum.

Hi, lynette, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing, and your wonderful love letter to your beloved angels. Even though your beloved companions are no longer physically with you, your voice is still a sweet sound to them lifting upward to their heavenly home - - for they continue to listen intently to every word you say as they did during their earthly journey.

I hope today is treating you kindly, lynette, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved angels' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and always look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Hi George.

Missing you so much today. I love you boy. I wish you could be here with us. I dreamt about you the other night, just for a very brief second. You were running with other border collies. It looked like you were having fun. I sure hope you are happy and having tons of fun wherever you are. I hope you have heards of goats to round up every day. We all miss you so much Georgie. I can't believe how time has flown.

Miss all of you. I hope you're all happy and well wherever you are and that you are all together. I wish so much that I could hold and hug each and every one of you again. I love you all with everything I am.

I'll talk to you tonight. Love forever and ever Mum.

Morning my angels.

I've been thinking a lot about you lately George. I don't know if it's cos it'll be a year next month that you left us. Just thinking about that day breaks my heart in two all over again. I miss you so much. I miss your giant hugs, your goofy smile and of course your punches. I can't believe how time has flown. Almost a whole year Georgie without your love and hugs.

The doodles are doing well. I don't think they are looking forward to winter though, to being stuck in the house all day. We've been lucky with the weather (sort of). No snow yet, it's actually been pretty good. We've had so much rain this year, but the last couple weeks have been mostly nice. I know they miss you. They still sing. Yesterday we took Izzy for a ride in the van. She went and sat in the back where you always did. I don't know if she could still smell you there or not. Usually she bounces all around the van, but not yesterday. She just sat in the back for a while. Poor Izzy, she's been having problems jumping up on the bed for the past couple weeks. Not sure if she just needs her nails cut or if old age is starting to catch up with her. I have to cut their nails. Will have to do that tonight. But you know how that is right George? Have to chase them around the house to catch them! And then the struggling begins. And they know they feel better after and they know they'll get a treat, yet they put up such a fuss!! I am going to buy Izzy some steps so that she can get on the bed by herself, instead of being picked up each time (although I really think she likes that). Hopefully, she'll actually use them.

Well, this is gonna be a long day I think. It's only quarter to ten. Not much happening at work. Carly and I are still talking about going on a cruise. Haven't quite decided where or when though. Sure could use a break from this dump though.

Anyway, better say goodbye and pretend that I'm doing something here. I love you all.

I miss you. Love, hugs and kisses to each and every one of you. Talk to you tonight.

Love you angels.

Love forever and ever. Mum.

Morning my darlings.

Well this is a sad day. One of Canada's soldiers was killed last week in Ottawa. I don't know why his death is affecting me as much as it is. He was only 24 years old, young and good-looking with a 5-year-old son. And two dogs! Perhaps that is why it is upsetting me so much. I know he leaves behind a young son, but they posted photos of his two dogs waiting for him to come home and that just totally broke my heart. Today is Nathan Cirillo's funeral. I'm watching it online. His death was such a waste. He was shot in the back so he never had a chance. Some people are just sick! Of course the coward that killed him was killed that day too so he will never pay for his sins. I see his face in my mind every time I close my eyes and all I can think of his - I hope his dogs will be well taken care of. Rest in peace Nathan. You are a hero - not just because you were a soldier, but because you were a dog lover and no doubt a great father. How do you say goodbye?

This is an emotional time anyway. Friday will be 21 years since you left us Jane. And then Saturday is Hunny and Lily's birthday. Time has flown much too quickly. I certainly wish I could turn back time and hug you all again. I miss you so very much. And then of course, it'll be a year November 21st that you left us George. I never knew I could hurt so much.

Snowing here today. That doesn't help my mood. At least it's only supposed to be like this today. Sun is supposed to shine again tomorrow. It is so dark and gloomy today though - very depressing. Wish I could be at home today. Not much happening at work either so it's gonna be a long day.

I think all I want to do is go cry.

I love you all so much. I miss you more than anything. I'll talk to you all later.

Love for ever and ever - Mum.

George - why did you have to go???

I love and miss you so much.

Love Mum.

Hi my precious George.

I can't believe today it's been a year since you left us so suddenly. I miss you so, so much my baby boy. We all miss you. We all love you. Not a day goes by that I don't think of you. I miss your goofy smile, your punches and your kisses. I miss you my little borgle. And I wish so much that I could have you here again with me so that I can hug and kiss you.

I will be thinking of you all day Georgie boy.

I love you so much. Love you forever and ever George. Talk to you tonight sweetie.

Love Mum.

Hi my angels.

Carly just phoned to tell me that Earl is walking funny. She said he has a big lump on one of his back legs. I hope he's gonna be ok. I don't know what he could've done. He was in the house last night - I'm sure he was ok. I never notice anything. And when I put them outside I'm pretty sure he didn't land on anything. I feel so bad though - what if it was my fault. It's so cold out right now. If he can't feel his leg - he could freeze. Why does stuff have to happen. These poor kittens have been through enough in their short life.

I hope you guys are all well. I miss you all so much.

Love you. Talk to you later.

Mum.

Oh I hope it's nothing serious with Earl. He's such a sweetie. Carly's gonna bring him in after Dad leaves for work and give him some TLC.

You know babes - sometimes life just sucks.

I love you all.

Love you guys.

Love forever and ever - Mum

Morning my precious Angels.

Hope you're all well and happy and having the time of your lives. You know we all miss you here very much and that we love you beyond anything in this world. I just wanted to tell you all Happy Christmas. And that we will miss having you here with us so very much. And that we will be thinking of you.

Everyone is well. I have a bit of a cold - nice eh - in time for Christmas. Carly started a job December 1st. I think she's enjoying it. She has a lot of training to do and a couple of exams to pass before she can actually do anything. I am hoping so hard that she passes her exam next month. Of course she's going into it thinking she won't because most people don't pass the first time (so she's been told). I've told her to study hard and pass it on the first try. I think if she passes on the first try she will be so proud of herself. But she seems to have an interest in insurance so hopefully it'll go well for her. I certainly hope so. Just need her now to pass her road test and she can drive herself to work. She has to go to Eriksdale one day a week, a bit of pain, but hey, anything for our kid right? She deserves the chance. She can go for her test in March so not too bad. Only problem is having to rely on nan or gramp to drive her every two weeks. She's only working three days a week till she gets her certificate. Two days in Fisher Branch and one in Eriksdale.

Dad's busy working. He had to work through the weekend so that he can have Christmas Day and Boxing Day off. Oh well, the overtime is good money.

The pups are good. They are so looking forward to Christmas. They've been snooping under the tree!! I guess they can smell the treats there.

Well only two more sleeps then Santa will come. I'm excited for some time off. Can't wait. I;m working today and tomorrow and I have Christmas Eve off. So time is dragging today. It's not busy here either.

Anyway, better go and pretend I'm busy!!! At least I get to leave at four today, to go pick up Carly.

I love you all and I miss you so much.

Will talk to you all tonight.

Talk to you later my precious angels. I love you.

Love forever and ever - Mum.

My dearest Angels.

Just want to let you know how much I am missing you today - especially you George. I know it's only been just over a year, but it is still so very fresh. I miss you all so very much and I wish you could come home to me. I would love to wrap my arms around you and kiss you all.

The days are so short now, dark to and from work. And cold! Man has it been cold! I'm getting too old for this. It's crazy why we would live in such a brutal climate.

Christmas was ok. You should have seen how crazy the doodles were on Christmas morning! Especially Barney. They couldn't wait to open their presents any longer. They had been checking under the tree for weeks!

Carly writes her insurance exam on Monday. I am hoping so hard that she passes it on the first try. She's been told that not many pass it the first time. I sure hope she does though. I think she'll be so proud of herself. Once she's done that she has a five day course in Winnipeg for the autopac stuff. And then I think she gets a raise once she has all that. So I am hoping she can pass the first time.

Anyway gonna go. Time to go home. I'll talk to you all later.

I love you. And miss you.

Love for ever and ever Mum.

Hello my precious Angels.

Just writing to say I miss you.

I think of you all each and every day. And will do for the rest of my life.

Not much to write about. Carly passed her exam, although not on the first try. The second time. So next month she goes to Winnipeg to do the MPI stuff. She's working full-time now. Just wishing she would do her road test so that she can drive herself to and from work. I don't know why she is procrastinating on that. I'm getting kinda tired of driving to Eriksdale three days a week now. But I will do it as long as I need to.

Weather is still cold. Although there are warm days in between the cold. Sure wish it would start warming up. At least we haven't had crazy amounts of snow like they have out east and in the States.

Thank goodness it's Friday. Not that it has been a particularly long week, just slow at work right now so not too much to do.

Jessie - it's Danielle's birthday on Monday. I'm sure you remember. Not sure if they are doing anything for family - haven't heard anything yet. I know she's having her friends over tomorrow.

Hopefully Smokie is home tonight. Haven't seen him in a few days. I'm getting worried.

Anyway, better go. Talk to you all tonight. Oh yeah, everyone is well.

I love you forever and ever.

Love Mum.

Hi my darlings.

Hope you are all well. We're all good.

Smokey came home - or more likely came out of hiding. I don't think he ever goes too far.

Well, Grey - one of your babies went to a new home on Tuesday. Earl moved in with a guy I work with. I felt (still feel) so bad cos he looked at me as if to say "why are you giving me away - don't you want me anymore?". I know he's better off where he is now. He's gonna be a house cat and totally spoiled. He's got a new mum and dad and a human brother and sister. They're all young. I know he'll be happy there. But I miss him. He was such a big snuggler. And you should have seen the other cats wondering around looking for him - even Smokey. I write this with tears in my eyes. I miss him so much. He is such a sweetie. I'm sure he misses us all too. He slept with Rob the first night and then with Rob and his wife last night (in between them) - so he's made himself at home.

I have to change the subject - cos now I'm crying. Carly is in Winnipeg next week doing her MPI training. We're taking her down Sunday (Baba's birthday). Not sure if we will be meeting up with Uncle Don and the family too, but we will be with Aunty Donna, cos Carly is staying there. We'll probably pick up a cake to remember Baba on her birthday.

The doodles are all good. Barney won't let me cut his nails and they are so long. One is curling and I'm sure it's bothering him. Gonna have to try again this weekend - might have to get Dad to hold him. I don't know why he is being such a baby - he's usually the easiest one to do.

The weather seems to have finally warmed up. It's been melting like crazy. We didn't have too much snow this winter. So, if it stays on the plus side for another couple weeks it'll be all gone - sooner maybe. The dogs are happy cos they can stay out longer now and it's light till about 7:30 at night now. Hoping to start going for walks too.

Oh well - time to go. Just wanted to let you know about Earl Grey. Hoping to find homes for the other three as well.

Love and miss you all forever and ever.

Love Mum.

Morning babes.

I was just googling where we used to live in Dry Sandford and realized that who ever lives there now has done some changes in the yard. I hope they didn't disturb your graves Mitzy and Billy. That is so heartbreaking to think that your resting places have been disturbed. I know I'm nowhere near there now to watch over them, but god I hope they didn't move you. I miss you so much. I will always love you. I know you're not there - just your bodies, but still it's painful. I know it's been over 34 years - still hurts and I still miss you so much.

Just had to come here and say this.

Love you both with everything I am.

Love Lyn.

Hey angels.

Grey - just got an update on Earl. He's doing well, fitting in with his new family. Sounds like he's being spoiled too. He gets canned food morning and night. He has the run of the house, sleeps with his dad. He's got two young kids to play with and he has a yard all to himself. Rob says he's happy now and getting used to it all. I'm so glad. I was feeling bad for letting him go especially after the look he gave me when I handed him over to Rob. But I know it's the best for him. He'll have a long life with them. Now, if only I could find homes for the others!

Love you all.

Mum.

Morning my precious Angels.

So, I know you've heard. Little Willy is there with you guys. I don't know if he is with you or with his own family there. Poor little guy died last Thursday (April 16th). Despite our differences with his parents it was still so very heartbreaking too learn that he passed away. He was only 6 1/2 - the same age as Barney and Casey. I know he was diagnosed with Addison's disease when he was young and I don't know if that played a factor here. But it still is very upsetting. If you see him, take care of him. He is just a little guy.

How are you all anyway. George, your birthday is this Friday. You'd be seven. God, I miss you. All of you. If I'd been home that day, would I have been able to save you? Why were you on the road Georgie? I miss you so much. I miss all of you. Willy's death just opened up old wounds too.

Anyway, I have to change the subject, I'm crying here.

Carly and I were looking at vehicles on Saturday. She wants a Dodge Journey so we went to Gimli to take a look. Test drove two - I did anyway. She really likes them. I do too actually. Very nice ride. So now she's bound and determined to buy one. We'll see. She still has to get her road test passed.

So, it snowed last night. Lovely eh? It is supposed to be spring. We had beautiful weather last week. Windy everyday though. Very windy. Still windy but now it's cold and snowy again. The weather is always just so crazy. I didn't take the dogs for a walk last night cos it was so cold and extremely windy. Went for a nap instead!!! I don't know if we'll go tonight either. It's gonna have to warm up a lot by then.

I'm feeling really stressed again. This vehicle stuff with Carly makes me stressed. Anything with money stresses me out. I wish life was easy. I wish I could afford anything whenever I wanted and never have to worry about money. Of course, I wish you were all here with me too.

Better go. I'm at work - supposed to be working!

I love you all and I miss you so much.

Love you all forever and ever.

Mum.

Morning my precious Angels.

So, I know you've heard. Little Willy is there with you guys. I don't know if he is with you or with his own family there. Poor little guy died last Thursday (April 16th). Despite our differences with his parents it was still so very heartbreaking too learn that he passed away. He was only 6 1/2 - the same age as Barney and Casey. I know he was diagnosed with Addison's disease when he was young and I don't know if that played a factor here. But it still is very upsetting. If you see him, take care of him. He is just a little guy.

How are you all anyway. George, your birthday is this Friday. You'd be seven. God, I miss you. All of you. If I'd been home that day, would I have been able to save you? Why were you on the road Georgie? I miss you so much. I miss all of you. Willy's death just opened up old wounds too.

Anyway, I have to change the subject, I'm crying here.

Carly and I were looking at vehicles on Saturday. She wants a Dodge Journey so we went to Gimli to take a look. Test drove two - I did anyway. She really likes them. I do too actually. Very nice ride. So now she's bound and determined to buy one. We'll see. She still has to get her road test passed.

So, it snowed last night. Lovely eh? It is supposed to be spring. We had beautiful weather last week. Windy everyday though. Very windy. Still windy but now it's cold and snowy again. The weather is always just so crazy. I didn't take the dogs for a walk last night cos it was so cold and extremely windy. Went for a nap instead!!! I don't know if we'll go tonight either. It's gonna have to warm up a lot by then.

I'm feeling really stressed again. This vehicle stuff with Carly makes me stressed. Anything with money stresses me out. I wish life was easy. I wish I could afford anything whenever I wanted and never have to worry about money. Of course, I wish you were all here with me too.

Better go. I'm at work - supposed to be working!

I love you all and I miss you so much.

Love you all forever and ever.

Mum.

Hey guys.

God I miss you all so very much.

Duchess went into labour last night Grey. Poor thing - I don't think she knew what was going on. She was having them on the deck so I moved her into the dog house with an old towel. She had one hanging out of her last night. She'd had three when I checked on her this morning. All of them were dead. Not sure why because I know the one last night was alive. Not sure if she killed them or if they just died. Probably the best though as much as I hate to say that. They looked like Prince - too much inbreeding!! Plus we won't have to find a home for them. Terrible thing to say I know. She still looked huge so I'm sure she has more to come. Guess I'll see when I get home. Duchess is just a baby herself - just a year old. Hopefully she comes through this ok. I'm surprised Brain didn't come and help her. Brain and Rupert are hiding in the greenhouse. Not sure why.

Everyone is well. It was so hot over the weekend. A lot different than last weekend that's for sure. It was 30 degrees this weekend, last was just below zero. Crazy weather!!

Well Carly has another driving lesson tonight after work. She has her road test tomorrow. I so hope she passes this time. She'll be so upset if she doesn't. So will I. You know I'd do anything for her, but picking her up everyday after work is kind of a pain. So, I will be so glad when she can drive herself to and from work. I think she's nervous about driving alone. Not that I blame her, but she's gotta do it sometime right? So, can you all wish her good luck for tomorrow?

We put the pool up yesterday. Would've been nice to have been able to do it last weekend. Cos we sure would've used it this weekend.

Anyway, better go (at work).

I love you all and I miss you.

Love forever and ever, Mum.

Hi Angels.

How are ya all?

I'm in a crappy mood. Carly failed her driving test - again! The guy told her she was a dangerous driver even though her score was a pass. Doesn't make sense. She took a couple driving lessons and did exactly what the instructor told her to do. She went out with him last night and she did good and this idiot told her she failed. And that she was dangerous. That makes me so mad. You're damned if you do and damed if you don't. I think they make the rules up as they go. Now we have to wait another month before she can do it again. I am so friggin disgusted!

Sorry babes, just needed to vent.

Well, Duchess ended up having five kittens. Four of them were dead. I know the first one was born alive, but yesterday morning when I checked on her, she'd had three and all were dead. When I got home last night I ended up pulling out one (a breach) and then she had another a while later, again breach. This one was alive but she wasn't interested in it at all. We put it on another cat that has kittens. So, not sure if she accepted it or not. I couldn't just leave it there to die. I figured it might have a chance if the other cat accepts it. But Duchess wasn't at all interested. I wonder if it has something to do with the fact that she was bottle fed when she was a baby. Doesn't have that maternal instinct - I dunno. I washed her off - she was a mess. But she was up and walking around last night.

What a long day! I've been anxious all day - about her test. And then she tells me she failed. Will she ever pass?

Finally 5 o'clock. Gonna go now.

Love you all. Thanks for listening babes.

Love for ever and ever. Mum.

Hi Babes.

I'm feeling really blue this morning. Missing you all so very much. Wish I could hold you tightly and kiss your soft heads.

So, found out why Carly failed her test. She didn't stop in the right places at the stop signs. So much for driving lessons. He obviously doesn't know what he's talking about. And then she had to listen to gramp bitch and complain all the way to work this morning. He has such a great knack of making someone feel so useless and worthless. I know, he did it to me all the time I was growing up. I hope she passes next time, that way she won't have to listen to his condensending crap.

Looks like the other cat took Duchess' kitten. I went to check on them last night but she had moved them. Found them though. And the little guy was still alive and she'd cleaned him up.

Not too much to talk about today. Really dead here at work. It is gonna be a looooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnng day!! A very long day. There is hardly anyone here as well. So very quiet. I'm so bored already. There is so much I could be doing at home. It's cooler today so it would be a good day to work in the yard.

I wish I could be there with you. Sometimes life just sucks. Sometimes I just wish I could get off this merry-go-round they call life, cos it sure isn't much fun.

Anyway, I'm gonna go now. I will talk to you all later.

Love you forever and ever my precious angels. I miss you so much.

Love Mum.

Hi, lynette, thank you for sharing with us how you're doing. I'm so sorry Carly failed her driving test. I remember going through a similar scenario when I applied for my first driver's license here in Virginia many eons of years ago. There was a publicized push to keep drivers under 21 years of age off the road, so every written test I took I always somehow managed to "fail." Then when I did "pass" the written test I was informed that I needed to get my eyes examined - - another delay in giving me my license. Like Carly, I needed my license so that I could drive myself to work when my classes were done at school - - part of the work program through my Senior year. The eye exam proved I had accurate vision - - no more excuses for the State to deny me my license. I will keep Carly in my thoughts and prayers that she will pass the exam this next time.

I'm so sorry that Duchess had a difficult delivery with her kittens. There can be several reasons why the kittens did not survive, particularly with her being a young mom and breach deliveries. So glad the other mom has taken Duchess' surviving kitten as her own, and hope the little one will survive.

I can understand how you feel when you share with us "Sometimes I just wish I could get off this merry-go-round they call life, cos it sure isn't much fun." This earthly journey can be a challenge even under the best of circumstances sometimes. Sometimes it can be a challenge to see the blessings and positives in our lives when our hearts are longing to be elsewhere. Please know we are here for you to share with you what is in your heart - - whatever you feel comfortable sharing with us.

I hope today is treating you kindly, lynette, and that you wil have peaceful evenings blessed with your beloved companions' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayes, lynette, and that I look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Hi Angels.

Just dropping by to say hello. Thinking of you all, tears running down my cheeks. Thinking of you Bud and Lady. I hope some day you'll forgive me. I love you and I miss you so much.

Love forever and ever, Mum. Wish so much that I could hug you right now.

Hi Angels.

Hi Lily. I can't believe today it's been seven years since you left us. I miss you so very much - as much as the day we lost you. I hope you're happy wherever you are - I hope you're all happy. I love you so much and I can't wait to see you again. I wish I could hold you Lily. Love you forever and ever. Mum.

Hi my Angels.

I love and miss you all with everything I am, but I hate coming here to write sometimes. Gramp found a dead cat in his garage this morning. Carly says it sounds like Prince. I hope not. He was one of the kittens we bottle fed last year. But I know Smokey has been trying his hardest to chase him off. But why he was at Gramp's is beyond me. He knew to stay away from there. Unless Lucy dragged him there. I hope it's not him. It hasn't been confirmed, but I didn't see him this morning. I've been trying to remember the last time I did see him. I don't know if it was yesterday or not. I can't remember. I am so terrible! I saw Duchess - she was sleeping on the van. I hope it wasn't Prince. I know he's been fighting with Smokey an awful lot, but I don't want to lose him. If it's him, you'll take good care of him right? He can be a real git sometimes, but he's very loving. You know there is just too many of you there now!!

I had to take Casey back to the vets today. Took here there Tuesday because she was dragging her bum all the time. She needed some glands drained - badly. I thought she was ok, till last night she started dragging again. When I looked she had a rash on her underside and was swollen and inflamed. So, I brought her to work with me in hopes that I could get her into the vet. Fortunately they were able to look at her just after nine. So, she's on some kind of allergy medication with some kind of mild steroid in it, plus they gave her a pain killer. They mentioned back in the spring when I took her in for her eye that she may be allergic to something. So, it's starting to look like maybe she is. Hopefully, only seasonal allergies. She is such a good girl. She was so well-behaved here today and at the vets. She's quite the social butterfly. She has to meet everyone. Took her home at lunch time though - it's too long of a day for her. And too stressful. The vet thinks we need to change her diet. She needs to eat hypoallergenic food and only treats that we know what's in them. No more store bought treats for her. She didn't like the dog food either! That's gonna take a while to change I think - if ever! Probably might have to try other brands also. Even Barney didn't care for it and he eats almost anything.

Anyway, better get back to work - not that I have anything to do. It's unbelievably quiet here these days.

I love you all and I miss you. Prince, if that's you - I'm so sorry. I love you and I will miss you bud.

Love Mum.

Hey Angels.

Just thinking of you guys.

I guess that was Prince. Hope you're happy there with your Mum and sister Prince. I don't understand why you were at Gramps.

So, we've switched dog food for all of them. Casey is still dragging her bum now and then - don't know why. Maybe she's just itchy. So, they've been eating this fish and sweet potato food for about two weeks now. I've definitely noticed that their coats are a lot softer and they don't seem to be shedding as much. They all seem to have more energy. This food is quite a bit more expensive than what they've been eating all these years, but they don't eat as much. We've cut back on the treats too. They still get, but we've been trying to stay away from beef and chicken. Funny how chicken is so high on the list of allergens! Casey still doesn't like that hypoallergenic food I got from the vet. But she eats the other stuff ok.

Everyone is good. Just wanted to let you know I was thinking of you.

I love you angels. And I miss you.

Love forever and ever, Mum.