Hey Sweeties.

Just missing you.

Took the van in an hour ago to get a tire fixed, cos it had a slow leak. The guy showed me a piece of wire that was in it. And I started thinking about you George. Started thinking how when we did the siding on the back of the house that we needed to find all the nails because you liked to sleep there and I didn't want you getting hurt. And then the tears welled up in my eyes, because you never come to see me. Or do you? And I just don't remember? I miss you so much George and I'm sorry about what happened and that I wasn't there for you when you left us. Please don't be mad at me. I love you and I miss you so, so much. I'd love to see you again - all of you. I wish I could hold you again. I never feel you around me either. Izzy never looks up at the ceiling anymore. Are you all gone now? If you are, I hope that means you're happy. I hope you're with family members who have passed, like my nan, or baba and papa and our two other kids that we never got to meet here on earth.

Anyway, change the subject. The doodles are doing well. They've all lost some weight. They're looking good. Barney's back to jumping on the bed again. He quit for a while because he was so rolly polly. Still eating the new food. Barney just turned seven last Wednesday. Casey's is in a couple weeks. How time flies. They all miss you George. I'm not sure how much they remember you Hunny. I'm sure Izzy does, but the other two - they were only six months when you left us. They still like to sing. Not the same without you though. They love their daily walks. I don't know what we're gonna do when it gets cold though - and when it's dark by 4. They won't like that.

Carly still loves her new Jeep. I keep calling it a van - just to bug her. She has a training course next month. Just a day one. She bought tickets to a Don Williams concert for my birthday, so we have that to go to the night before her birthday. Can you believe our girl is gonna be 20 next month Lily? How time has flown. We have a photo of you and her on the living room wall. You were both so young, maybe four or so. You both looked so happy together. Brought tears to my eyes. Oh how it would be nice to turn back time.

I miss you all so much. Please come visit me some time. Probably will make me sad, but I'd love to see you all - all of you. Been thinking about you too, Bud and Lady. It's been such a long time. I hope you are all so happy wherever you are.

Anyway, I'll talk to you later.

Love you. Forever and ever.

Mum.

thank you so much for checking on me. it helps tremendously. i'm doing better. it's a process and i have so many hauntings to process and i miss madelynne so much. there was so much good and love in her, that all perished with the sick part of her brain. i have to believe she is happy, loved and safe, free from all the earthly shackles.

i spent some time reading your precious notes to your peeps. i wish there was some magic sign by which you could be assured that love never dies- it just takes on a different form and you have to be ready to receive it. i have no doubt all your precious children are with you and pray they give you signs they are there.

Thanks Monique for your kind reply. Happy to hear you're feeling better.

Hey Angels.

Have you seen Smokie? I haven't seen him in almost two weeks. I hope he's ok. He doesn't usually disappear for this long. I hope he's not there with you. I know he can be a pain, but I don't want anything bad to happen to him. He's been fighting with Bugger and Twinkle Toes. He's getting old so maybe the other two chased him off. Hope not.

Talk to you later ok babes.

Love you. Mum.

Hi Angels.

Still haven't seen Smokie. I hope he's not there with you. I hope he's just hiding in the yard somewhere. He's been with us so long, I hate to lose him. I know he's been a git lately, but still love him.

I heard yesterday that there are a few more of you wherever you are. I'm so sorry kitties. But you are in a good place now. You'll be safe for all eternity. I'm so sorry that this had to happen though.

Hey babies. I'm feeling a little blue this afternoon. Not too sure why, but just thought I'd come here and say hi. I would like to be at home right now, snuggling with my beans. I miss you all so much. Even now, after all this time, I still long to hold you all.

I can't believe August is almost over. It'll soon be winter - ugh - hate winter so much.

This day is sooooooooooo long. I wish it was over already.

Oh well, find something to do for another hour and a half. Thank goodness it's Friday tomorrow! At least the weather's supposed to be nice this weekend. Not like last weekend where it rained all weekend and was really cold. Summer's over though, you can feel it in the air. It doesn't matter how warm the temperature gets, there is that crispness in the air now. The days are shorter. It's dark in the mornings. I hate this - summer should be so much longer in this country.

I'm tired today, maybe why that's why I'm feeling the way I am.

Anyway, talk to you all later.

Love you.

Forever and ever - Mum.

gosh, how unsettling about smokie. i wish he would just come home...

sorry you are feeling blue and tired today. i understand this cycling and having up and down days. winters are hard for me, too. i dread the shorter days even more than the cold. the darkness in the morning and early sundowns make me feel even more isolated than normal. i used to love the cold, as well as rainy, overcast days. after i lived in the south 5 years, that all changed. i still struggle with the humidity of the summers, but all in all have become a fair weather gal.

i hope you feel better soon and that smokie shows up soon!

Hi Angels.

Still no Smokie. Is he there with you? I hope not. I wish he would come home. I would feel better knowing where he is. I haven't seen Raccoon eyes the last couple days either. I don't know what is with Ruby. She and Raccoon eyes were all lovey-dovey a couple weeks ago, then Ruby started beating her up. Probably chased her away. I don't know why. Raccoon eyes has a baby still to look after. But Ruby is looking after all the kittens. Very weird.

Casey birthday next Tuesday. I can't believe Barney and Casey are seven already. And Izzy eleven. How time flies! We miss you all. George - oh how my heart aches for you. I wish you could home for Casey's birthday. I wish you could come home!

Anyway, talk to you all later. Gotta go.

Love forever and ever. Mum.

Missing you my darlings. Smokie still hasn't come home. If he's there with you - take care of him and let him know how much we love him.

Love Mum.

National Pet Memorial Day.

Missing you all so much.

((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))

Hi Angels.

Just writing to let you know how much I miss you all and how much I love you. I love you babies and I miss you all so very much.

Love forever and ever, Mum.

Missing you babies. Wish you could come home.

I love you.

hi lynette,

just visiting, thinking of you. hope you are doing ok.

xoxo

Thanks for checking in on me Monique.

Not doing so well this evening. I have six kittens that seem to have lost their mother. They're about 3 weeks or so I figure. When I checked on them Sunday they seemed ok. I took them out of the box they were in. The mother was here on the weekend I'm sure. Came back from a walk with the dogs tonight and heard them crying. When I checked on them, they were all really cold. And obviously hungry. I brought them in the house and managed to warm them up. Tried to feed them, but they really weren't interested. One is not doing as well as the others. I don't know what to do with them. I can't have them in the house. I can't feed them every couple hours during the night. Talk about feeling like a big fat failure. I put them in a laundry basket full of towels and an old coat and put them in the garage. There are other cats in there. I'm hoping they'll jump in and keep them warm. But I'm hoping Duchess will step up and feed them. I'm pretty sure she still has a bit of milk. Whether she will and whether she has enough milk I don't know. If not they're doomed. Life sucks. Big time. It's gonna be cold tonight too, minus 3 celsius. Duchess is not the best mother, but I sure hope she tries. I know I bottle fed some kittens last year, Duchess was one of them. But it was summer then. They could be outside. It's cold now. Why does life have to be so hard all the time?

I miss you guys and I love you. Please watch over them tonight and keep them safe and warm - and alive. Thanks babes.

Love you.

oh my goodness! did you put duchess with them and tried to get them to suckle? i pray they will be ok. they desperately need nourishment, even if you can only do it a few times a day... every two hours is really not necessary, but to not feed them at all ... can you leave some goat's milk for them, or kitten formula?

Hi.

They made it through the night. But I'm pretty sure one of them is not going to make it. The mother showed up last night, but wanted nothing to do with them. So, I think it's safe to say that she has abandoned them. She's a wild one. They were warm this morning, so Duchess must've been with them. I just hope she can feed them. She wasn't around last night when I went to bed. I phoned Carly to take them out of the box and leave them on the ground in front of the window, hoping the stronger ones will find their way to Duchess. Hopefully, they'll still be okay when I get home, and I'll try feeding them again. Nature can be so cruel. Mind you probably my fault their mother left them. I took them out of the box on Sunday and she probably decided that because I'd touched them, they were no good or something.

It's going to be a long day, I'll be worrying about them all day.

Stuck at work doing nothing when I could be at home taking care of these little guys. How cruel is life? Carly said three of them aren't looking so good, said they were cold again. I didn't touch them all this morning, just the one that I know is probably not going to make it. I'm hoping the stronger ones will find their way to Duchess and hoping she has a bit of milk to keep them going until I get home tonight. I feel so bad, so helpless.

Please angels, watch over them and keep them safe and alive till I can get home and feed them tonight.

I love you all.

Mum.

Stupid! Stupid! I should've brought them to work with me. They could've stayed in the van and I could've gone out and fed them every few hours. Now I've sentenced them to a slow death because I wasn't thinking. I just wanna cry.

what a horrible trial on every front! i don't believe touching them, though, causes the mother to abandon them. birds, for ex., ... you can put babies back in the nest or if the nest was destroyed or you cannot reach it, you can put the babies in a makeshift nest near where the parents and/or nest are, and the parents will come back to take care of their babies. i cannot imagine the mom would abandon them because you tried to help. but, if they are in a closed garage, where the mom can't get to them, then she may have given up.

i'm very sorry for all the heartache you are experiencing now.

(((((((((hugs))))))))))

can carly not feed them? can she put them on a water bottle?

Hi Monique.

They are not closed up in anyway, she can very easily access them. I put them back where she had them. Just last night though I wrapped them up in some towels. She knew they were there - she could hear them. This morning she was no where to be seen. Duchess was around though. And Ruby. I know Ruby has no milk, but maybe she'll keep them warm. My husband is setting up the heat lamp for them this morning. Should've done that last night but it was pitch black and there's no power out there. Hopefully, if they stay warm, they'll have a chance and still be alive tonight. God I hope so.

let's hope their little guardian angels are on the job. xo

also, just because the mom was not with them this morning, doesn't mean she has abandoned them. she will leave her babies for hours at a time to get food for herself. so, there is hope if you found them warm this morning...

btw, who is carly? your daughter? could she give them a little warm water with some honey in it? it could be they are on a sugar low. this will perk them up.

Hi, Lynette, stopping in to say hello and to add my support to Monique's in your efforts to help these precious kittens. I know your beloved companions are looking over them, too. Whatever happens you are doing the best you can for them, and maybe you can guide their mom into the garage so that they will be reunited and she can resume taking care of her babies. Please let us know how things go.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Carly is my daughter. She's at work all day too, so unfortunately, nobody there to help them till I get home at six. I've never tried honey - will that work?

These kittens were at death's door last night. They were left for more than a couple hours. Something happened. I know they take off for hours at a time to go hunting, but they're usually back to feed them. These cats were cold, very cold. Some of them couldn't even open their eyes. I hope she's around and I hope she goes and feeds them before it's too late. I would like to see some of them survive at least.

Thanks Moonbeam.

I appreciate your concern and help.

Two are gone already. My husband tried feeding them, but he said they're cold already. Hopefully, the heat lamp will warm them up.

i'm so sorry to hear! how heartbreaking.

yes, honey in warm water will help to repair sugar lows. they need to be warmed up before they can be fed.

Hi, lynette, adding my deepest sympathies in the physical loss of two of the kittens. In addition to Monique's assistance here are a couple of other suggestions that might be helpful: If you don't have any honey - - or not enough for everyone - - you can substitute with clear Karo syrup (not the dark). If you have any NutriCal on hand this will also help to boost their sugar levels as well as provide other supplemental nutrients. Kittens this young are extremely vulnerable and even with professional intervention they do not always survive. So please do NOT blame yourself if these precious souls are not strong enough to survive. Please know you and the kittens are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how things are going.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Well, almost time to go home and see if any of my little kitties survived. I sure hope so. Poor little things.

So only one has survived. And he was pretty bad, didn't think he'd make it. I brought him in and tried the honey and water remedy. And then a bit of milk. Took the dogs for a walk so wrapped him up and stuck him inside my shirt against my skin. He's warmed up a lot, but now I'm wondering if he'll end up with some brain damage after being hungry for so long. I hope not poor little thing. He's trying. He's started squirming and squealing a bit. I still have him down my shirt. I can't believe the mother is still here and wants absolutely nothing to do with them. Nature sure is cruel.

i am so very sorry for this massive and ongoing upset. i do firmly believe that mother nature has a selection process built in to her design. mothers of all species, except for what i have witnessed with humans, have very strong maternal instincts. for a mother cat to not tend lovingly and conscientiously to her little ones, you can rest assured there is a reason. it is well possible that they have something congenital or maybe distemper and she knows they will not survive. or, with the weather being already well below zero, this is a very unnatural time to have babies, and so by perhaps by some internal signal, she tried to spare her babies from very cruel lives trying to survive a very long and harsh winter.

i am glad you are caring for the lone survivor. he will need lots of warmth, love and care to survive. hearing and feeling your heartbeat simulates his mom's and i'm sure this is helping to stabilize him. if you have access to raw goat's milk, that would be really good for him. oh, and you may have to help him to use the bathroom- have you ever done this? rub his tummy with a warm wash cloth to stimulate him to go...

Hi Monique.

He seems to be doing well. Moving around and squealing. The bathroom thing - don't have to worry, my dog Casey is taking care of that! He just drank a syringe full of milk. I think he wants his mamma though. Or his siblings. I'm gonna keep him in the house till he's strong enough. I know then that the others will take care of him and perhaps we will have found him a home by then anyway. He sure is a lot better than when I got home. I think he may actually survive.

Goats milk would be better? My parents have goats, but not sure if they have any that are milking. Not sure if they've started kidding yet or not. I can ask them tomorrow. For now, he's getting whole milk. I fed this to Duchess and her siblings last year and they survived.

Anyway, gotta see if I can get this little guy to sleep. He's been awake since six this evening. Been trying to come up with a name for him too.

Thanks for your concern. I hope you are doing well.

Thank you for being there for me.

Lynette

that is great all around news! so glad he is doing well. that's what i've heard regarding raw goat's milk,...

take care!

Hi, lynette, thank you so much for sharing with us how your little survivor is doing. I know you are doing everything in your human and humane power to help this little fellow not only survive but have a long, healthy, and happy life. Please know you and this little precious soul are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how things are going.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Hi.

Charlie just died in my arms. Poor thing. I really thought he might pull through. But I think his lungs filled with fluid, same with his belly. I guess he was just too far gone when I got home last night. I held him and told him I love him and he slipped away. And I cried. Tomorrow I will bury him next to Jewel (who died last year, Duchess' sister). I suppose it's for the best, but I really wanted him to pull through.

Duchess' litter are going to next week. A cousin of my husband's has found them homes. That's a good thing.

Thanks angels for watching over them. Now they are there with you. Take good care of them. Tell them I love them.

I love you all. I miss you so much.

Love forever and ever, Mum.

Tonight I go to bed crying - again. Too much pain and sadness. I know they were only here for a short while, but still they shouldn't have had to suffer like that. I don't understand how the mother could do that now. Why not when they were born? I thought maybe something had happened to her, but she's still around. I'm not liking her very much right now. And maybe I shouldn't have tried to intervene. Poor Charlie wouldn't have suffered today if I'd left him yesterday. God, I hate this. I really thought he was a fighter. And I know he was, he just was too weak.

Tonight I'm gonna hug the pupper doodles a little tighter and tell them how much I love them - over and over again.

Good night my precious angels. Sweet dreams. I love you.

Mum.

i am so very sorry to read this news. i really and truly believe they may have had distemper or something else that caused the mom to leave them. please don't feel ill of her. she was following nature's guidance. you may want to trap her and have her vetted (including spay and tested for distemper) so that she is free of having unwanted kittens.

xoxoxo

Hi. lynette, adding my sincerest sympathies in the physical loss of your precious soul Charlie. When I was a very young girl many eons of years ago we had a female cat named Pudgy who had a large litter of kittens. At that time neither of my parents believed much in veterinary care and sadly one of her litters born in the summer died one by one within days of each other. None of them had exhibited any apparent sign of illness, but it was obvious that "something" had gone through the litter of kittens. I was truly saddened by this event - - my other siblings and parents "got over it". Pudgy really didn't have any "motherly" instincts - - but her mom Fluffy did, and there were often times when Fluffy would "scold" her daughter about her lack of attention to her kittens, and Fluffy would do her best to take care of her "grandchildren." Sometimes despite our best efforts, though, Nature understands the "consequences" of our intervention better and steps in to stop a cycle of heartbreak before it gets too advanced. However this doesn't stop our hearts from aching. So, like our forum friend Monique, I can really understand how upset you are about losing this litter of precious souls. You really did everything you could for them.

I hope today is treating you and all of your precious companions kindly, lynette, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with each of your beloved companions' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Thank you both for your thoughts and concerns. It is greatly appreciated.

I know all of this is just part of "farm life". Even though we don't actually farm, the cats are really here only to keep the mouse population down. Doesn't stop me from falling in love with them though. Unfortunately cats come and go here all the time. Sometimes, we're lucky enough to find homes for the new kittens.

I buried Charlie this morning. Next to Lily, George, Mamma, Grey and Jewel. I know he can now be happy and healthy where he is now. As much as I wanted him to survive, I know he's better off wherever he is now. There is no guarantee that we could've found him a home. And being a male, he more than likely would've been chased off when he was older.

Oh well, at least there is some good news - Duchess' four kittens will have a forever home. I'll miss them terribly, but this is the best thing for them. They'll have a long happy life for sure.

I feel okay today. I know this is what is supposed to be. I do not believe in God's will, but I know that nature is survival of the fittest. I also know that nature can be very cruel. And living out in the country this is a part of life.

Anyway, hope you both are doing well today.

Thanks. Lynette.

Hi Babes.

Smokie - I don't know where you are, but it's time you came home. It's getting really cold out there now. You need to come home. We miss you. How can you just disappear? You've been part of our family for many years.

Love you Smokes - come home.

Mum.

Happy birthday to you Hunny and Lily for Sunday. Wish you were here though.

Miss you all and love you.

Love forever Mum.

My dearest Angels.

Mitzy - I can't believe it's been 35 years since you left me. You were my very first love, and I miss you still so very much. You have many for company now. I love you.

Duchess - are you there too? We haven't seen you now for what two weeks? What happened? You never really ever went anywhere. We miss you. Your babies are doing well though.

So much happened around this time of year over the years. Jane you left us right around Halloween. Hunny, Lily it was your birthday November 1st. Mitzy, today you left me 35 years ago. Coming up George, it'll be two years since you left us. God, I miss you all so much. I wish you were here with us.

Casey has been sick since yesterday afternoon. Vomiting a few times. She seems better now, thank goodness. She must've picked up the same kinda thing we all had last week. None of us was feeling well last week. Carly finally started feeling better yesterday. Course, it doesn't help that we hadn't seen the sun for eleven days. It came out yesterday. Gorgeous day today, twelve above. Pretty good for November 8th. Would be nice if it stuck around. Calling for mixed precipitation again Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday. But then nice for the weekend. Sure hope so. This will make winter a bit shorter.

Anyway, gonna go. I love and miss you all so very much.

Love forever and ever. Mum.

Morning my precious Angels.

I miss you all so very much. I love you. Christmas will be here soon and I wish you could all be here with us. Seems like such a very long time ago I held you each. Miss you Duchess. Where are you? You too Smokie - I can't believe you left us. After all these years.

Thinking of you all. Love you forever and ever.

Mum.

Hi my darlings.

Just thinking about you. It's been a couple months since I was here. We have a new addition to our family as you know. Little Linus. The doodles have finally accepted him I think. It took a while, but they seem to have gotten used to him in their faces all the time. Barney is playing with him more and more. I knew Barney would love having a buddy to play with. Izzy doesn't really have much to do with him as far as I can tell, but she's "stuck" puppy sitting him when we're all away. It wasn't supposed to be that way. We had bought a playpen for him to stay in while we were away, but he figured out how to climb over that in two days! Such a little monster! So, Izzy keeps an eye on him every day. She's such a sweetheart. Maybe she babies him. We'll have to set up a camera to see what/if anything happens. Casey, I figured would have the hardest time accepting him and I was right. She will play with him for a few minutes, but she is not very patient with him at all. That's the reason I chose a male. I figured Casey would not accept a female at all.

Not much else happening. Waiting for winter to be over already, even though it was a pretty decent one. The snow has been melting this past week. Tomorrow is supposed to be below zero, but then back up above. Days are pretty long, not much happening at work yet. I have next week off. Time for a break from this place. Corporate fired Billy, so I've had to take over some of his work and of course not get paid for it! Typical of this company. Did get a raise though, bit of an insult really, but I spose it's better than nothing. Would've liked to have gotten something for the work I've already done.

Anyway, I'm gonna go. I'll talk to you all tonight.

I love you so very much and I think about you every single day. I miss you more each day.

Love you Angels.

Forever and ever.

Mum.

Lucky little Linus to be adopted into your home.

I loved hearing about the antics of him, Barney, Casey, and Izzy, and I'm sure your darling Angels do too.

Kathy
P.S. A video of them taken while you are away is a great idea!

My dearest Angels.

I can't believe it's been seven years since we had to say "so long" Hunny. There is not a day goes by that I don't think of you and miss you. All of you - I miss you all so very much. Time has certainly flown by. They say time heals the pain, but it doesn't. You just live with it. What else can you do?

Your birthday too this month George.

Not much to write about, just thought I would stop by and write how much I miss you on this seven year anniversary of one of the worst days of my life. God, I miss you all so much.

I love you Angels. Will talk to you all tonight.

Bye for now.

Love Mum.

Hugs to you, wonderful Mum Lynette!!!

Your babies all love you so much.

My dear precious Angels.

I love you so much. I miss you.

Forever and ever, Love Mum.

My dearest Lily.

8 years ago today you left us. My heart aches for you like it did that day. I miss you so very much. I wish I could hold you and kiss you again. I love you Lily. I will always love you. It's a sad day today. I hope you are happy - all of you. Never forget how much I love you Lilyfer.

Love forever and ever. God my heart aches so much for you.

Love Mum.