I would like to thank to all of you that take their time to read my notes but now espacially to "goliath" "LoveThem" "myhrtisbrkn" and also "jillster" for you kind words and understanding my pain and desperation.
As you know we Buster and I are alone here in St Louis from New York but before that we were in Miami Florida where he was born 11 years ago. I lost my other half in the North Twin Tower in 9/11 and Buster was at the time about 4 years old and since that age we have been together every since. I have been trying to picture my self all alone {what will I do then?] and for more that I think I have no aswer to that.
Another thing that really bodersme is when the time comes to say goodbye [will I be able to stay with him while is leaving me?] I don't think I will be able to do so, even if afterwards I feel my self as a coward and that I deserted him but I think I will prefer not to have my last vision of him dying I just want to see him and remember him alive always. Sorry had to stop for a few minutes becouse It really breaks me into pieces to see him trying to get rid of something that he thinks is on top of his nose with his two front pads not realizing it's the tumors inside bodering him, then I hugged and told him that I wish I could take those tumors off of him with my own hands and that if I could I would but I can't and told him that I am so so very sorry and he looked at me like it was understanding what I was saying to him, am crying now, bye for now and don't forget about me please, I need you.

Hi Havana we are here and will continue to be here for you. If you can continue writing your thoughts and worries and keep it in one topic area, it will be easier for us to follow. Pick either this new area you have now posted to continue coming back to or the first one you started. If you use both many of the readers who don't come here every day will miss the important thoughts you need for us to hear so desperately. I hope that makes sense to you Havana because I know during a time like this it can be difficult to think straight.

You can rely on us to be with you all the way with your precious Buster. That's what we are here for. We console each other and give support whenever and wherever it is needed. The desperation in your words is coming through loud and clear. I can hear your cries for help as though you were right here at my window.

My heart truly goes out to you at this time of need and deep sadness for what you are facing now and what is yet to be. Try and focus on what is happening today Havana so that you can make good decisions on what you are thinking of doing.
Call upon us for any advice or questions you may have. We may not have all the answers for you but I can promise you we will give it our best shot.

How sad for you to have lost your other half during the 911 tragedy. So many lives were lost on that fateful day and will never be forgotten by anyone who lived to tell about it.

Keep coming back and updating us on what is going on. My prayers are with you. It sounds as though some difficult decisions will have to be made soon by you. So, I can only pray that our Lord's hand will touch you and provide you with some peace and comfort so you can do the right thing with a clear mind.

Bless you my friend as you struugle to find your way through this grievous time of your life. Hugs of comfort to you Havana.............I am with you all the way I promise.

I do agree with Goliath about trying to keep your replies in one topic so we can find you easier. Here or the other one you started.

Thanks for the thanks....I hope I was some help in my other reply.

Your question about being with Buster at the end. Yes, you are allowed to be there. But as you have said...about the tramua of it, well, I have never been able to be in the room....I wait in another room because I start crying hysterically and never wanted my babies to become anxious because I am so upset. Of course, they see that. I know the people with them are very soothing and pet them and hug them.

One time we did have a vet come to our home.....what she did was first give a tranquilizer to allow a light sleep so we could force ourselves to make the final decision and before our baby woke up we had to tell her whether to give the final shot or not. Of course, we had to say yes because the poor baby had cancer in his lungs and could hardly breathe. BUt my husband held him for the tranquilizer shot and that time and then we left the vet alone with him in a closed bedroom and when it was over, she wrapped him up and took him with her. The important part of this story was the fact there were 2 shots and the first just let our sweetheart go into a light sleep so he was not aware of us and our crying. I never asked a vet to do this before or since as I do take them to the vet hospital where they are seen by a caring staff who are with them and they come out to tell me when it is done. I don't leave until they say that. So yes, you can be there with Buster, but if you feel you can't emotionally, you can also do what I do and wait in another room or you can ask about 2 shots and after Buster is peacefully sleeping after the 1st one..you can hug him and cry and he won't know you are upset. There are different ways to approach this awful decision time.

The hardest is ..yes...leaving without him and going home. One time I happened to have a puppy waiting that needed food and attention and that was a distraction I really needed. I cried and hugged his little body and of course they always lick our faces like it is a lollipop. I have also had no one waiting and it is hard but I keep remembering why it was done and that my baby was not suffering and was at peace and his soul was not part of my heart.

You will do a lot of crying and that is normal. You can come here and write about your feelings...that can help and we are here to talk back to you and will watch for you posting. For the future, remember all that Buster gave you all those years and know he would never want you to be unhappy and you might think about looking at puppies, either in the paper or at a shelter like the SPCA, or even an abandoned older than a puppy. I know I made more than one trip before getting my new 2 year old cat, Lucky. He was sleeping at the SPCA and as I walked up, he opened his eyes, and we made a connection. He is not my baby that I lost,
although I do look at the same types of dogs and/or cats and tend to get ones that look like ones I have lost. Certain types are just special for me. I needed to fill the emptiness in my home with that unconditional love I had for so many years. If Buster can't be with you because it is his time to become an angel and watch over you.....then that unconditional love he has given you for so many years would tell you he wants you to be happy. You will love him and miss him forever....but there is room for another bond when you feel it is right. Someone needs you as much as you need to have that love again. It really helps, I think. It did for me and I see in this forum, it has helped others...the New Beginnings section shows that.

Take Care....and post anytime....this is the worst time of all and we here have been there as many times as we have had one of these special ones in our lives. We understand exactly your pain. We still have pain from our losses but we realize in time that we cannot physically be like that every day....it is just too exhausting and we can't change what has happened to us.

One thing I treasure is I have some fur from my last 3 and I have put that fur in a small ziplock bag along with a favorite toy and that for me is the only way I know of to feel the physical presence again...cause that fur is so soft and alive and so was my special one when I got that fur.....I took mine from his brush cause he loved to be brushed.

My prayers are with you and Buster.....It seems so sad that we have to let them go BECAUSE we love them....when all we really want to do is keep them forever.

I guess I always spoke to my vet because I wanted to hear him say.....its not time yet...and when I don't hear that...I know it is my decision alone but again I remember why I will finally decide...it will be because the vet has let me know there is no hope for the wonderful change I would want to see. That way I don't feel I am making the decision by myself.

You have a lot to think about and give Buster as many hugs as you can each day...................

Hi havana, I have not been able to get online recently too much but I saw your post and it hit home.
I am so sorry that you are going through so much pain right now with little buster. It hurts so much to watch our babies in pain and to watch them suffer. On top of that, it is so hard to have to make any type of decisions while experiencing that pain. Please know that we are here for you in the forum. The people her understand what you are going through and it helps to express your feelings. You have been throug so much since losing your significant other. You have my deepest sympathy and my heart goes out to you. Please give buster many hugs and take care.


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Havana,

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Thank you all for your help and simpathy.

always happy to lend a hand, as are the friendly folks here. condolences on your loss, i hope you find the support here that you need.

Thank you also fordufy really appreciate.

Hi Havana...............I have been wondering about and praying for you and Buster. Looks like you might have the hang of this now. It can take awhile to get familiarized with how the forum works.

How is Buster coming along? Have you consulted another opinion about Buster's condition? Please keep us updated on how both of you are doing. We all care about you so much and are available to you anytime you call upon us.

Much love to you and Buster.

Hi, Havana

I wonder what you were told about removing those tumors from Buster's nose. Is that possible?
I agree also with those who say it never hurts to get a second opinion. Is there anything that can be done to help him? What does your vet say about surgery? Can you see another vet and get a second opinion also? Maybe a surgery could make him more comfortable and give him some more time...I don't know but it never hurts to ask and keep asking as long as he is with you.

Take Care and give him some extra hugs today.

If you do have to make that heartbreaking decision just try to think through all the sadness and shock, with busters last breaths of air, do you wish for him to be alone or would you want to hold him so tightly, knowing that no matter how much it hurts (beyond anything i can imagine) to see him go, that he deserves your touch, smell and tears in his last moments of life. To have your baby finally come to rest in your arms and not all by himself.

Please be brave and stay with him until the end, he would never leave your side and in return the greatest gift to him would be for mummy to hold him as he falls asleep for the last time.

I had to do it last week and i held my little girl so tight, so that she knew that her daddy was with her till the end. With tears raining down on her face from mine, i kept telling her how much i loved her and that i would see her soon. She completed me as a person and i loved her so much that i would never leave her side.

Hi guys, how are you doing today? hope you are all well. Don't know how to really thank you for your words. Buster is doing well still, it's not bledding no more still eating and drinking well, even sometimes barks at people and other dogs walking on the side-walk with their Mom's and Dad's [he can see all the action thru our storm door. This afternoon will get for sure about the second opinion and about the removing of his tumors from inside the nose [I really want this] becouse don't really want to let him go just yet. I wish you could see him, it's so full of life that even when I take him the the Vet's office he does resist me from going in [is this a sign that is telling me am not ready yet? well, it seems like it and like that. Will talk to you all later around in the evening, God Bless all the Mom's, Dad's and all our Kid's Pet's here and out there. sindii&clyde you are so brave that am proud of you already, your words got into my heart very deep and you are 100% right and "will do it" when the time comes even if breaks my heart into pieces, thanks again.

Hi again, i really hope these tumors can be removed, because like you said he is full of life, just like my little girl was. If he wants to live, just let him, in your heart you'll know when it is time.

Another thing, don't always take the vets word that it is time, they said they'd understand if i wanted to let her go when i found out because she was full of tumors bet she held on strong for over 2 months, eating and playing and managing long walks and it wasn't until the last week that she went off her food and struggled walking and getting up. She just wanted to rest but not sleep and i knew when i looked at her it was time to say good bye.

I'm glad to hear you are checking out about removing the tumors (or maybe something can shrink them like in humans?). As long as Buster is with you it is good to check out as much as possible how to help him improve his daily life. I pray you hear of a way to help him be with you as long as possible.

As far as the future is concerned, there is always the day we dread that we will be letting them go...it will be decided for us when there is no hope and no quality of life and we can't change that. Just remember each person is different and once a tranquilizer is given, our babies are sleeping first and do not know we are there..when everything starts shutting down. I happen to become so hysterical having to bring them in and making the decision....they pick up when we are upset and they become upset and I don't want that thought with me forever...that they struggled because they sensed my horrible struggle inside. I will never do anything that I have the slightest thought might make things worse for them.

That is why when I actually bring them in....I tell myself it is not decided until after I am there (and I can change my mind) and so I do not cry or get upset until they leave the room there. But then I let go absolutely hysterically crying and that keeps on and on.

I have envied if anyone can stay calm enough to be there until it is over....the emotion that created so much love for them is what fails me at that time and we do all know our babies sense any change in our emotions.

That is a completely personal decision that is not "right" or "wrong" to do either way. It is what one feels they need to do for themselves. Whatever one feels will make the grieving easier and not harder...as it is overwhelming by itself.

I do pray and wish you success in finding answers to help Buster get rid of those tumors. I have read in animal magazines about successful surgeries in the face area...that's why it is always worth it to check as much as possible....it is never a waste of time to ask questions and even getting more than one opinion is just fine......There are always new treatments being found and until you ask...you may not find out about them. Buster deserves every bit of help that is possible and I hope you hear something good to hear.

Take care and know we understand what you are going through...we have been there as many times as we have allowed these precious ones to become a part of our lives.

Hugs to you and Buster!

Hi sindii&clyde, hi LoveThem, how are you today? hope you are doing well. It was imposible for me to get an earlier appoiment than June 17th at 8:30am to take Buster along with the x-rays taking from our Veterinarian to see "the only one" Specialist Surgeon we have here in town and to make things a bit worst he is on vacation till next week, so you know how I feel about all of this. I thought this would be a little easier like for example taking him with the Specialist Surgeon will look at the x-rays chech him all out and he would tell me what the chances are... but, this will not be possible untill the date I told you before. I just can't wait until that day arrives to take him in inmediately,well, that is all for now, will keep in touch and in the mean time will try to make my son's life warmer and confortable, thanks again and please don't forget to pray for my Boy Buster, Jorge.

Jorge

I'm glad to hear from you. I've been thinking about you and Buster. I'm sorry you can't see the specialist any sooner; that must be so hard on you. I hope my remarks didn't make you feel even worse. You're lucky to have a specialist in town...I had to take Mack 500 miles away to see a specialist. That trip was hard on him, but he was so brave and sweet it broke my heart. The upside was he so treated like a king there and he made a lot of new friends.

From your last post, it sounds like the meds are keeping Buster fairly comfortable. I'm praying that continues to be the case. Keep us posted!


big hugs from Amos, Birga, Bk. Charles and Me
Dayna

Hi Havana..........I am glad to hear from you too. You and Buster have been in my prayers every night.

That has to be so frustrating for you in waiting to see that specialist for Buster. Is it possible there is another specialist within a workable distance for you to take him to sooner than next week? If not, just keep doing what you're doing by keeping him as comfortable as possible.

I'm with you all the way here Havana and am pleased you have hung in there with us as well. Take care, I will be watching for all updates.

Hugs to you my friend,
Beth

I am very glad to hear you have an appt for Buster to see a specialist and check out what is going on. I too wish it was closer than June 17th....but it will come and hopefully you will get some good answers.

Give Buster a hug and kiss for being such a sweet boy..from me.

Hugs to you, Jorge...I will watch the calendar with you for June 17th.

When I thought no one cared about our pain I was all wrong and I think I need to apologize, I was all wrong when I believed that the world was cold and cruel but like I said my thoughts were all wrong, now I know there is is warmth in the world still and you are all Angels here and some good will come to you soon [you deserve it] that I know, I was going into a deep depression when I found you guys, and boy! am I glad I did. Thank you all for your love, support and prayers for the two of us, I can feel it and we really appreciate and at the same time make us feel that we are not alone anymore like we thought we were once and that we can count with you at all times, our love to all those who had past, their Dads and Moms, love always, and full of hope, Buster and Jorge .

There is indeed love and warmth in this world and it takes a special kind of person to recognize when it reveals itself. Both here in this forum as well as outside this forum I have been touched and blessed by many that have come into my life.

I'm so glad to have been privileged to meet you Jorge. You have touched my heart in a very special way.

Much love to you and Buster
Beth

Yes, Jorge, keep writing here in your thread....even if it to pass the time until the 17th. Making contact with others really helps to let a person know they are not alone...that there are others who do care..

Even if you post each day as a daily journal of how you and Buster are doing....that passes the time too.

If there wasn't SOME warmth in the world...no one would be here but sometimes it takes time to find what you need to find.

You will find a lot of it here because most people here really do care about these babies and having felt the same losses, it is
easy to reach out to someone who is having pain dealing with an illness and a tremendous love for their baby.

You just hug and love Buster each day..cause each day is a gift we cherish...and before you know it...the 17th will come and taking him to see that specialist is a wonderful thing to do. I hope he has some good ideas to help Buster, especially clear out his nose.
I have heard of surgery removing tumors and I have heard of treatment to shrink them.....you just don't know until you ask and by making that appointment and taking his x-rays and him to the specialist.....I am praying and hoping he will have good answers for you.

Take Care, my friend, and write here each day if you wish....writing is a form of therapy and when we are anxious..anything that distracts us a little is helpful.

Hugs to you and Buster.

Hi everyone, Buster is still doing well, he eats, drinks and barks and since taking those pills the bledding has stopped completely but he dosen't want to go out to our patio as much as I want him too [it has been raining like crazy here with lightning and thunderstorms] that could be it becouse he dosen't like being out side while is storming. We are still waiting for our the appointment, God Bless to all you, Buster and Jorge.

Jorge,

I'm so happy to hear Buster is doing well. I'm sending him thoughts and prayers that the specialist will be able to help.

Hang in there,
Dayna

Jorge

I am so glad to hear the pills have stopped the bleeding from Buster's nose..that has to make him feel more comfortable. That is a good sign. Next is the specialist.

I wouldn't worry about him not wanting to go out in the storm. I never had an animal that actually liked thunder and lightening.

Hugs to you two...keep up the good things and enjoy each other everyday.

Birga and Amos don't like thunderstorms either. Sadie would throw herself at them...barking and leaping, and spinning 360 degrees in mid-air as only a sheltie can. She would do that ( if we didn't make her stop ) until her tremendous fluffy coat was utterly sopping, and she looked like a drowned little rat.
I wish I had her on film doing that...never dreamed she would leave us at 7 yrs old. Sadie, we miss you sugar-bunny!

I am happy to hear that Buster is feeling a little more upbeat and it sounds like you are too Jorge. Thunderstorms can be upsetting for animals in the same way they are for many people. During thunderstorms when Goliath was still with us, not only would he not go outside..........but he could never find a place where he could find any peace inside the house either. Nobody ever got any rest in our house if it was storming.

God bless you and Buster Jorge. I'm glad you are both with us. Keep hangin' in there.

Hi Jorge ~ I just started reading your entries. I am SO that Buster is doing better.
We are all here for you.

Jill

PLEASE, REMEMBER ME
TIME, SOMETIMES THE TIME JUST SLIPS AWAY AND YOUR LEFT WITH YESTERDAY, LEFT WITH THE MEMORIES. I, I'll ALWAYS THINK OF YOU AND SMILE, AND BE HAPPY FOR THE TIME I HAD YOU WITH ME.
THOUGH WE GO OUR SEPERATE WAYS, I WON'T FORGET SO DON'T FORGET THE MEMORIES WE MADE.
PLEASE REMEMBER, PLEASE REMEMBER I WAS THERE FOR YOU AND YOU WERE THERE FOR ME
PLEASE REMEMBER, OUR TIME TOGETHER, THE TIME WAS YOURS AND MINE AND WE WERE WILD AND FREE, PLEASE REMEMBER, PLEASE REMEMBER ME.
GOODBYE, THERE'S JUST NO SADDER WORD TO SAY AND IT'S SAD TO WALK AWAY WITH JUST THE MEMORIES. WHO'S TO KNOW WHAT MIGHT HAVE BEEN, WE'll LEAVE BEHIND A LIFE AND TIME
WE'll NEVER KNOW AGAIN.
PLEASE REMEMBER, PLEASE REMEMBER I WAS THERE FOR YOU AND YOU WERE THERE FOR ME
AND REMEMBER, PLEASE REMEMBER ME.
PLEASE REMEMBER, PLEASE REMEMBER I WAS THERE FOR YOU AND YOU WERE THERE FOR ME
PLEASE REMEMBER OUR TIME TOGETHER, THE TIME WAS YOURS AND MINE AND WE WERE WILD AND FREE
AND REMEMBER, PLEASE REMEMBER ME.
AND HOW WE LAUGH AND HOW WE SMILE AND HOW THIS WORLD WAS YOURS AND MINE
AND HOW NO DREAM WAS OUT OF REACH, I STOOD BY YOU AND YOU STOOD BY ME
WE TOOK EACH DAY AND MADE IT SHINE, WE WROTE OUR NAMES ACROSS THE SKY
WE RIDE SO FAST WE RIDE SO FREE, AND I HAD YOU AND YOU HAD ME
PLEASE REMEMBER, PLEASE REMEMBER ME .

Jorge

Your words here to Buster are so beautiful they make me cry at the feeling behind them. I hope you have them printed on a paper..you may want to just sit or lay with Buster next to you and read them to him...he will understand the tone in your voice.

There are 2 things I am glad I have from my Little Guy...one is pictures I have of him during the years he was with me...it means so much to look at them and I do put one in each room so he is kind of there waiting for me like he used to be.

The other thing is I kept some of his fur from his hairbrush and put it with a favorite toy he liked..a small rainbow ball.. in an air-tight Ziplock bag. I have been surprised to see that no matter how much time passes...the fur in that bag feels just as soft between my fingers as my boy did when I petted and brushed him. Sometimes I need to feel him physically and his fur is as good as I can do but it is his fur and I find it means a lot.

These are things I never heard of or thought of before but I get so much comfort from them that I have to mention them because if it sounds like a good idea....we can always snap a picture and save a piece of fur when they are still with us. The pictures I had since over the first 10 years..I did think to take them. The fur I thought about after losing my first one of my 3 related babies. I had his hairbrush and thought of keeping some fur when I looked at it and so I continued to do that for the 2nd who left in 2006 and my Little Guy who left last September.

So many people think of wonderful ways to remember their best friends and I am glad many here have shared them with others so I am sharing what comforts me with you.

I hope the specialist does find a way for you and Buster to have a lot more time together.
The idea the bleeding has been stopped and is not causing him that discomfort anymore is just wonderful...that already improves his quality of life a lot.

Think about reading your beautiful words to Buster...he will hear the love in your voice and you will see the love in his eyes....and that is a beautiful thing to think about.

HI, Jorge...Thank you for stopping by my thread and giving me such wonderful wishes.

I am glad to see you are spending your time reading and comforting others here. You are truly an unselfish person...looking to help others when you are worried about Buster.

I did look up on the Internet about nose tumors and of course everything depends upon what caused them but from what I read...there is something called radiation therapy that can help.
I also read that sometimes if treatment is too expensive...it can be cheaper at a vet school. That's something I didn't think of but it makes sense..if there is one close by.. We have medical schools that treat humans less expensive cause it is a school but you still get good treatment.

Anything you wonder about you might want to make a list of questions for the specialist about what he thinks is causing everything...what are the treatment options and which ones result in a longer quality of life. Did your vet that you have now tell you what caused the tumors? I did read some encouraging things that do not involve surgery...I say encouraging meaning there are treatments that seem to show adding a good amount of time for Buster and I pray and hope the specialist will feel there is a treatment to help Buster be comfortable and be with you for quite a while longer.

Hugs to you and Buster

Good afternoon to you you all! How are you doing? Well, Buster and I are doing a bit better thanks God. This morning we went for a short drive and then a good long walk into the woods we have near here to our home, it was like the old good times when we just to do it a lot every weekend, he walked slow [it seems that he knew what he was doing] not to get to tired, after a while he went into the water it's a small Creek in the middle of lots of trees that he really likes but before he did he looked at me like saying it's a ok if I go in? and I answered yes go ahead go in have a good time so he did and walked into the water laid down on it for a while and then came out [I took big bowl of water with ice cubes in it] he drank a lot and then we went back to the car dry him out and drove back home to dinner [he ate the whole thing] lol. It was a good day today thank God again and hope that we will have more of this soon. Our best wishes to all of you hoping you are doing fine, God Bless to you all and all your babys also, see you soon, bye for now, Buster and Jorge

Jorge and Buster,

I'm so happy you are feeling better, and were able to get out of the house and have some fun.

love to you both,
Dayna

Thanks a lot myhrtisbrkn for you good wishes for us, we love them, God Bless Buster and Jorge

Hi Jorge..........It is so wonderful to hear you and Buster had such a good time together. These kinds of days are what makes the happy memories of tomorrow. I can picture Buster going in the creek and cooling off. Did you take any pictures by chance?

Thanks for asking Jorge........All of us are doing fine here. After returning from a trip this last weekend we came through a tornado in my hometown. We're all safe and the electricity is back up and running this morning, so I can now catch up on what has been going on here. I have thought of you and Buster often.

You and Buster remain in my prayers. My hopes are the specialist will be able to provide some kind of treatment for Buster. The stories you tell filled with so much love leaves me with many smiles. This love relationship you and Buster share is one of the most beautiful I have ever read. Your positive and hopeful attitude amazes me. In spite of what you have endured you still manage to extend yourself to others with a genuine and loving concern.

May you and Buster be blessed with many more beautiful and memorable days together.

Much love to you and Buster, Jorge.

Hi to Jorge and Buster:

I posted in the Tributes Section under the topic "A DOG" a beautiful story I was sent by someone who cares deeply about dogs. I wanted to share it with all dog lovers, in particular, and so I posted it in Tributes.

You may want to go over to that section in this forum and read it. I think you will definitely find in it a lot of meaning...I know I did.

I have my calendar marked for the 17th and I am praying for you to get some help for Buster...what a beautiful boy he is and a best friend and a great buddy and many more good words and thoughts.

Hugs to you both.

goliath, when I finished reading your notes I found my self with tears in my eyes again but this time were tears of a positive attitude now since I have found this Forum of Support because no one have said words of wisdom, love and care like you just did for me and Buster this way since my girlfriend died in he attack in 2001 and we both Buster and I really deeply appreciate, thanks one more time from the bottom of our hearts, Buster and Jorge .

You're welcome from the bottom of my heart. People like you are few and far apart. Those who truly know the meaning of giving of themselves are very special in God's eyes. You are one of God's finest.

Much love and hugs to you and Buster.
Beth

Hello to you all and God Bless, well, as today Buster is doing ok so far, eating and drinking good, still taking his medications, you know just hanging in there and waiting for the next appoinmet on the 17th, we can't wait, please pray for him, our love for all of you from Buster and Jorge .

Jorge,

I'm praying for you guys every day, and counting the days 'til the 17th, I'm so glad buster is feeling well. I know your sweet, tender devotion to him are a very important part of his treatment.


Love to you both,
Dayna

"REMEMBER WHEN IT RAINED".
WASH AWAY THE THOUGHTS INSIDE
THAT KEEP MY MIND AWAY FROM YOU
NO MORE LOVE AND NO MORE PRIDE
AND THOUGHTS ARE ALL I HAVE TO DO
OHHHHH REMEMBER WHEN IT RAINED
I FELT THE GROUND AND LOOKED UP HIGH
AND CALLED YOUR NAME
OHHHHH REMEMBER WHEN IT RAINED
IN THE DARKNESS I REMAIN
TEARS OF HOPE RUN DOWN MY SKIN
TEARS FOR YOU THAT WILL NOT DRY
THEY MAGNIFY THE ONE WITHIN
AND LET THE OUTSIDE SLOWLY DIE
OHHHHH REMEMBER WHEN IT RAINED
I FELT THE GROUND AND LOOKED UP HIGH
AND CALLED YOUR NAME
OHHHHH REMEMBER WHEN IT RAINED
IN THE WATER I REMAIN
RUNNING DOWN RUNNING DOWN
RUNNING DOWN.

That was beautiful Jorge,

here's my prayer for You and your beautiful Buster,

King of heaven Almighty, who made the lion and the lamb,
Be near Buster and Jorge.
Cover them with your hand.
Give strength to Buster's doctors,And knowledge and skill to heal.
They've been through so much already.
Keep them together awhile.



Hang in there,
Dayna

I am so sorry you are going thru this Havana, cherish everyday with your Buster, and prayers for a positive outcome!

Our thoughts and prayers remain with you and Buster. In less than a week now your Buster will be seeing the specialist and I am counting the days along with you.

I am so glad you have found a comfortable place in LS. The love and understanding here is what has carried me through the worst of times and brought me peace. It feels so good to know we all have each other to lean on.

I was driving by a church not long ago and there was a message on their board. It read: DOG SPELLED BACKWARDS IS ALSO MAN'S BEST FRIEND.

Much love to you and Buster. Keep hangin' in there Jorge.

Jorge:

We are all still waiting and praying with you and Buster. And so many have the 17th marked on their calendars to send special extra prayers on that day asking that the vet sees a way to help Buster have a good quality of life for much more time.

While we are waiting you and Buster are being sent many hugs...really big hugs!

Oh Jorge, You express yourself so beautifully in your writings to Buster. I agree with Judy that you should print them out and read them to him. I am so happy that things are going ok for you both. Buster is in my prayers in hopes that you both will be together for a while. Less than a week left-we are all counting with you. Take care and please know that you are both in my thoughts and prayers.

Hello you all, hope you are ok, just got here from work and let my baby out to our patio for a while came back into the house and we both had dinner, oh boy he's got an appetite! at least am not worry about that 'cause he really loves to eat. I would like to thank you all for your words and Prayers for us, that made us feel welcome and loved [I told him about all of you]. As the time is approching to the day of the appoiment my heart is going faster and faster each time, last night I woke up shaking and thought my heart was going to stop and for a moment also thought this is all and was just a nightmare this is not happening to us but when the reality set in then I understood and went to checked on him and there he was asslep like a baby, like always. Now understand all you went thru before us and am telling you it is not pretty. And yes, I read everyting to him and even I talk to him while driving too [he loves cars]. He knows everything about my feelings and answers me with his eyes, that am sure of it. Thanks to all of you one more time from the bottom of our hearts always, Buster and Jorge .

Bless you and Buster. Four more days now. I am so happy to hear Buster's appetite is good and he is sleeping well. Those furry babies we have say so much with their eyes and love it when we look deep into them and talk. I think it helps them feel more love and security and does the same for us.

There is a wide circle of love and prayer going on for you and Buster. My prayers are with both of you and will continue to be.

Love and hugs,
Beth

Good mornig to you all, how are you today? Woke up super early today for no reason [on my day off, lol]
I feel a bit down today, I don't know maybe am afraid of loosing my best friend soon, don't want to sound pessimist but am a bit sad today to look at my son Buster and see he had contracted this horrible disease and the sadder thing is that he dosen't deserve it 'cause he is a good friend a best friend and companion for many years, take care all you and God Bless, Jorge and Buster .
"PLEASE REMEMERME ME".
WHEN ALL OUR TEARS HAVE REACHED THE SEA, PART OF YOU WILL LIVE IN ME, WAY DOWN DEEP INSIDE MY HEART.
THE DAYS KEEP COMING WITHOUT FAIL, NEW WIND IS GONNA FIND YOUR SAIL, THAT'S WHERE YOUR JORNEY STARTS.
YOU'LL FIND OUR LOVE STRONG AS IT EVER WAS, DEEP AS A RIVER RUNS, WARM AS THE MORNING SUN, PLEASE REMEMBER ME.
JUST LIKE THE WAVES DOWN BY THE SHORE, WE'RE GONNA KEEP ON COMIN' BACK FOR MORE, 'CAUSE WE DON'T EVER WANT TO START, OUT IN THIS BRAVE NEW WORLD YOU SEEK.
OH, THE VALLEYS AND THE PEAKS AND I CAN SEE YOU ON THE TOP, REMEMBER ME WHEN YOU ARE OUT WALKIN', WHEN SNOW FALLS HIGH OUT SIDE MY DOOR, LATE AT NIGHT WHEN YOU'RE NOT SLEEPIN'
AND MOONLIGHT FALLS ACROSS MY FLOOR, WHEN I CAN'T HURT ANYMORE, YOU'LL WILL FIND OUR LOVE STRONG AS IT EVER WAS, DEEP AS A RIVER RUNS, WARM AS THE MORNING SUN, PLEASE REMEMBER ME.
PLEASE REMEMBER ME, .

Whether in the morning or afternoon may the warmth of sunshine fill your heart and mind in all that you love. Buster will never forget you and neither will I. Your tender touch in all you have to say is so full of meaning that only comes straight from the heart.

Have a wonderful and meaningful day. Bask in the sunshine of happiness you and Buster have together.

Hugs for Jorge and Buster!

I am still counting the days until Tuesday and praying the vet has a positive answer.

About cancer and the nose, as I said earlier..I did do some research on the Internet and although everything does depend on the vet's examination of Buster and his medical history....I did read it is possible to have good results from radiation therapy. That because it is the nose the vet might not suggest surgery...again all depends on him examining Buster.

So hug him and give him a big kiss everyday (and I am sure you already do that) and keep positive thoughts.

Hugs to both of you, today and everyday