NO SCANNER BUT SHE WILL PROBABLY FIGURE SOMETHING OUT---------I WILL CHECK-------BUBBA

HEY! YOU DON'T HAVE TO YELL AT ME. I CAN HEAR YOU. MMMKAY?

Hey Dottie---------not yelling-----had the caps lock on-------Bubba

Hugs!!!

Your Pal Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

OK, I mean, ok-----Bubba..............

BUBBA!!! U R SEW FUNNIE!!!

My parents were comedians and they raised me as a joke..........applause.....................thanks, I'll be here all week.

.... Comedian Bubba will be appearing at this fine establishment every Wednesday and Friday from 6:30 PM to 2:45 AM for your entertainment pleasure. Please be sure to tip your waiters and waitresses on the way out. And don't forget the hat check person.

Also, please drive carefully and responsibly, not only for your own safely but also for the safety of everyone else. Do come back again for Bubba's newest performance this Friday. You won't want to miss it! Thank you. You're a terrific audience. Good night to one and all and have a pleasant time until we meet again and again.

*Nightclub owner then exits stage right as all give thunderous and enthusiastic cheers, loud whistles and applause and he/she leaves the establishment.*



Oops, the dang revolving door is acting up again. Ah well. *Shrug* And more applause . . . . .

I need a better fitting tux..............maybe more ruffles on the shirt and a larger crushed velvet bow tie.....also bigger bells on my bell bottom pants to completely cover my patent leather platform shoes.............

Having a meltdown and flashback all at the same time.............'The weather is here, wish you were fine...........

Heads up-------It's formal at the BRIDGE-------Willy always prefered being in the buff-------Things DO change!!!!!!!


The new costume--------I better start my diet...............

Gotcha ... Stand by ... Here I go > > > > >

This is a very nice black velvet Tux and my Fav!!! ...



But perhaps you prefer red vevet?



Or still black velvet with more ruffles?



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Oops! My bad.

Uh................I'll go with 'my bad'.........naw, I better stay with the velvet.........old married guys know better.........dang it !!!!!!!!!!!!!

I dunno, Bubba. Mayhaps you'd look 'reely purdy' wearin' that tuxedo on 'thuh' bottom. *Giggling Madly!*

Bubba! Bubba! Sorry, didn't mean ta shout. I wanna show ya sumthin' I did. Do you mind please goin' to the lastest post I made in the Alex Tribute thread area? Just to look. Ya don't have to click on the song er nothin' but I made it Sooooo Purdy! And the image to click on is one of the images in the video. Ooooo! An' I made thuh text match in koller 2 ... Sew Very Purdy!

It's Sew Purdy!!!

Oh, and of course ya don't gotta say anything there. I just want you to see how Purdy!

Thanks, Bubba and Hugs!!!

Your Pal,
Dottie xoxoxox

PS. It's called Magic World - Caribbean Blue.

I'm headin' thata way now.......Bubba

Thanks tons, Bubba!!! Now, head that way back once more cuz ... Ooooo! I answered a question you posed.
The answer is: Yes, of course they go to Heaven ... Where the heck you been? LOL! *Smiling at You!*

Big Hugs, Love, Peace, Hope and Faith to You, Your Wonderful Wife, Willy, Lily and all the Gang!!!

Your Pal Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

All right, Bubba. Please fess up. I just spoke with you on Westie's thread and you ain't doin' no good at all. Please share. Please.

And, if you would, please read my response to you at Westie's thread where I did that edit and put in those images.

We're here to share and care and hopefully help. If we're not able to that right at this moment, at least we can vent. I've been venting today at Alex's thread in this forum.

So talk at me, Bubba. Ya know I luv ya more that my luggage and you're my Pal! Please talk at me. How are you?

Big Hugs!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Hey Dottie-Well,Like Westie,I have been sort of getting a 'round two' of the reality of Willy's death.Not that it has gone away during this past 39 days or whatever it is.Just the past few days I am looking more and more at his pictures and him not being here(seems like alot of people on this forum are getting physical reactions in the past few days) I am going from the shock and sadness to a 24/7 depression and low end intermittant panic attacks(I have had panic disorder all my life and it kept me from work last year as I could not focus or speak coherently for months.But got therapy and know how to control it now without meds) and am crying more intensly and screaming for him.Even though I have been comforted by the new book and all my previous statements I have made about the BRIDGE and my plans on reunititing with him and all my other kids in heaven,I guess my humanity and weakness takes over and I am just getting tired of F-----g waiting.I know it's all part of the program...........It's good we eccentrics(as some perceive us to be) have this forum to 'spill'.

I knew this was the one year mark of Alex and was planning on posting soon to you but I wanted to wait a day or two as I think this is probably a rough time for you and the fact I have gotten crazy busy with work but will have time to post more tomorrow (Sun) when I am off.Thank you for your concern about me on Westies spot.You really work hard at taking care of the LS clan and we all are greatful.
Since I have been corresponding with you I have become more aware of birds of all types.Especially ones that look like Alex...................Talk to ya soon .................Bubba

Okay, Bubba. Grab yourself some tea or a slurpee and a bag of chips or what have you cuz this is gonna be LONG. I put it in the format of you and I talking back and forth because this board only allows 2 quotes per post. Ready? Here goes ...

You: Hey Dottie - Well, Like Westie, I have been sort of getting a 'round two' of the reality of Willy's death. Not that it has gone away during this past 39 days or whatever it is. Just the past few days I am looking more and more at his pictures and him not being here (seems like a lot of people on this forum are getting physical reactions in the past few days).

Me: Bubba, that is perfectly natural and to be expected. By the way, it may even get worse or may get better. I ain't sure. All I can do is tell you how I handled it from the get go regarding Alex and there's really no comparison to be made so that won't help you one bit. I am so very sorry! Hugs!!!

You: I am going from the shock and sadness to a 24/7 depression and low end intermittent panic attacks (I have had panic disorder all my life and it kept me from work last year as I could not focus or speak coherently for months. But got therapy and know how to control it now without meds.)

Me: Truly, I understand. I also have panic disorder but after many years was finally helped and have not had any major Panic Attack since I was about 32 years old. Thank God. But, having Panic Disorder whether it is controlled or not will sure either rear it's ugly head or be of some factor in this horrible, gawd awful, stressful as hell time of grieving. I realize I don't need to tell you that because you are there right now. It is scary as Hades! I am serious!

You: And am crying more intensely and screaming for him.

Me: I hear you there, Dear One. I sure do and Dayum, I feel so badly for you! More Hugs!!!

You: Even though I have been comforted by the new book and all my previous statements I have made about the BRIDGE and my plans on reuniting with him and all my other kids in heaven, I guess my humanity and weakness takes over and I am just getting tired of F-----g waiting. I know it's all part of the program ... It's good we eccentrics (as some perceive us to be) have this forum to 'spill'.

I knew this was the one year mark of Alex and was planning on posting soon to you but I wanted to wait a day or two as I think this is probably a rough time for you and the fact I have gotten crazy busy with work but will have time to post more tomorrow (Sun) when I am off. Thank you for your concern about me on Westie's spot. You really work hard at taking care of the LS clan and we all are grateful.

Since I have been corresponding with you I have become more aware of birds of all types. Especially ones that look like Alex ... Talk to ya soon ... Bubba

Me: Okay, I'm only going to say here what I wish to share in public since everyone can read. Bubba, if you want me to spill it like it is, please tell me and I'll shoot off a PM to you and your dear wife can remind you to click the upper right hand of this board to take you to that area.

Here goes: I've read at least 5 times now where you say you are tired of waiting and I got the feeling the first time I read when you said it that we may share a crap load in common about that. Oh, dang skippy when referring to our fur kids. Ahhh Yessss! But it goes deeper.

You and I share quite a bit in common regarding how we were raised, what we've seen with our own two eyes, what we've personally experienced. No, not the same sights, sounds, experiences but the same gravity of fright, terror, actually "seeing evil" as in what some monsters do to other people of all ages, fur and feather kids, to us ourselves and so on. This has been going on since we were very small children and it just won't freaking stop. I mean dang!

So when I say I am tired, that is exactly what I mean. Talking about me personally, I have had some and perhaps many terrific times, fun, partied, vacationed, lots of laughs, caring, sharing, loving, more, more, more and I'm talking about humans and animals. However, at least to me, those horrors now far outweigh all the happy times. I am not only tired of the unimaginable horrors but I am also tired of the happy times as well cuz the happy stuff may give me a smile or laugh or what have you but it's just not worth having those great times anymore because I've reached the final straw. I am serious!

The way I see it is I worked probably 3 or more times harder, longer and better than any other person I know in the human and animal medical field. I loved every moment. Loved it! Loved it! Loved it! Did it for close to 30 years. And now I AM TIRED! I deserve peace. I worked danged hard and have earned it. No, I am not suicidal in the least. It's just that I Am Tired and. I've thoroughly enjoyed very much all the great times and have been devastated and/or traumatized by the "bad" stuff. I have led a full life. Let me repeat that cuz it is important. I have led a very full life. I'm done so please let me go for crying out loud! Like I said, I've worked very hard for my reward and do deserve peace so let me go cuz I am so fargin tired of freaking waiting.

Does anything I've said above so far strike a bell with you, Bubba? Okay, here are four very meaningful lines of lyrics to the song "Circle of Life" by Elton John. Well, meaningful to me:

"Some of us fall by the wayside. And some of us soar to the stars. And some of us sail through our troubles. And some have to live with the scars."

Well, each of us have done all of the above at different times throughout our lives. Me? I am fargin' tired of living with the scars, thank you very much. Here's another four lines: "Some say eat or be eaten. Some say live and let live. But all are agreed as they join the stampede You should never take more than you give."

Well, ain't that the truth, too. At this time in my own personal life, I am of the very educated opinion due to my circumstances, that I am 'taking more than I give'. And ... I don't like it one dang bit.

However: "There's far too much to take in here. More to find than can ever be found. But the sun rolling high through the Sapphire Sky Keeps Great and Small on the Endless Round of the Circle of Life!"

Bubba, I do have practically total recall. Pretty uncanny really and it is of great amusement and amazement to others but my point is that I have not gone back looking at anything you've posted. I remember it all. Somewhere you posted saying something to the effect that it's reunions that keep you going now. I can sure relate to that! Please try to remember this and it is about Hope ...





These are dark, dark days and nights for you, Bubba. I undertand that it doesn't help much knowing that Willy is still here with you and just a breath away. You might not even believe that's true but it is. How do I know that? You have got to have gone even more daft than you already are (no offense, Bubba) if you think for even one moment that Willy would leave your side after all you two have been through together. And yes, I remember all you wrote about him being there when your dad was dying, how your dad related to Willy, your beer drinking and chips throwing days that you and Willy shared and how much he loved it.

Have you lost your mind? Of course Willy is there with you. Dang, you're way more fun for him than what he can find in Heaven. Errr ... I hope you didn't take that as blasphemy. I'm just sayin' it as I sees it. Anway, you've got to know he visits you frequently. You have got to know that cuz Dang!

Hang in there, Bubba. Remember, you were only a kid just seconds ago and in a few more seconds, you will be drinking (tea that is) and throwing chips to Willy while spinning your favorite tunes. Word to your Mama!

Big Hugs, Love, Hope and Peace to You, Your Dear Wife, Willy, Lily and all the Gang!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Hi Dottie--------Yep--------When you asked,"Does that ring a bell?"...............DING DING DING DING>>>>>>>>>>>>>oh yea!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don't expect to fully recover from this.I realize I will tolerate life but never truley enjoy it again.Gotta be truthful here.Not suicidal either.Doing what I need to do to get through life.Tired of the trials of daily living.Would rather be happy but not possible now.But I can act and am for the most part am doing well as far as my wife is concerned.When I do lose it she is right there for me.She is very stoic about her grief.Very silent and moves on.A major shift has taken place and I have aged.I feel if I allow myself happiness that I will forget Willy and I cannot allow that to happen.I fully expect the sick to my stomach,panic/anxiety,dark side feelings to be with me for good with occasional forays into comedy for pressure relief.I know all about therapy and there is nothing new they can tell me.I saw my first shrink at 8 years old.I have been cracking up for a long time.

We learn to live with it I think.................Thank you for your thoughts in the above post.............(in a strong Ed McMahon voice to Johnny) "You are correct!!!!"!!!!!!!!!!!!!.............Bubba..............

Yep, I figured from the beginning that's pretty much what was happening and how you feel, Bubba. Just like losing Alex is most certainly the last straw for me given the reasons I have, the same appears to be so regarding you and Willy. I did die when Alex died. And now? I exist. Does that also sound familiar? Oh, how dear of your wonderful wife! Please give her hugs and kisses from me. Okay? Thanks!

Well, nothing remains the same, Bubba. But if you're willing to play the game then it's coming around again. I do not feel like playing the game anymore and something tells me that I'm not alone. Still, don't mind when you fall apart cuz there's more room in a broken heart. How very true that is! *Smiling at You!* Oh, I left my mask for you to use. I wear it often. It really does help. Yep.

Click on the mask with the rose. Okay? *Still Smiling at You!*

Big Hugs!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Dottie- Yep-------We just keep pokin' along till the end.I just finished a long conversation with a friend and the sibject of Willy did not come up and I didn't realize it till the conversation finished.Distractions do happen I guess.I guess these distractions phone calls,work,paying bills etc. will keep us from totally falling off the edge.These events will get us to the end when we get our wish.Yep yep yep (why do I feel like I have the starring role in'High Noon') yep yep............................Bubba////////////////////////

Why do you feel like you have the starring role in 'High Noon'? I dunno.
Lemme go check it out . . .


Ooohhh I get it now. Uh huh.

More Big Hugs!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Hi, Bubba. Thanks so much for coming over to my Alex thread to see how I'm doing. I did respond to you there. So, how are you doing? Be honest, please. Okay? I know you will. I'll go first. My entire physical body is wracked with gosh awful pain. Doctors say it's because of this stress and anxiety. That's so hard for me to believe but it's true that I can ambulate better at sometimes than other times. It's just gosh awful. Period. Can't cry too hard or else ... Well, you probably read that on my thread already. So ...

Okay, your turn. How are you doing at this point in time? Please share. If I can't help then we can at least vent and cry together. Right? Right. That's what we're here for, to care and share. You're my Pal, Dude so please spill it when you're able.

Hugs, Love, Peace and Hope to You, Your Wonderful Wife, Willy, Lily and all the Gang!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Hey Dottie--------I'll write here then head on over in the virtual bus to your street.Today was the first day I haven't cried but the day is not quite over.I have two stories for you one I will put on your thread.I called a good friend from high school today to tell him about the 'Cold noses" book as he had lost one of his dogs in May and I thought this book might comfort him.So happens that just three weeks ago he lost his older dog.2 in one year.he lives alone and is dealing with it alone.We had a long chat about things.I have known this guy for about 40 years(since junior high actually then on to high school). I think my body is recharging after all the crying recently.Probably more to come.I wish I had something real beneficial to say to you about your physical pain.I pray that it subsides soon.I would probably choose the route of some legal or other medication but I think I remember you telling me you have allergies to certain stress relievers.I tend to choose the easy route but I know that is not an option for you but I wish it were. I will read on your thread about crying too hard as I have not yet read it.I'll go there now---------Bubba.................

Oh Wow Bubba. I hear you about it being the first day you haven't cried but the day is not quite over yet. Hang in there, good buddy. You have two stories for me? I can't wait to read them. Thanks!

Your poor friend. And he's going though this alone, too? How gosh awful for him. I sure am glad you called him to shared and care. As far as my body's physical pain, dang it. I sure wish I wasn't allergic to that herbal stuff cuz I sure would ... Well, I ain't gonna admit to it here. Know what I mean? Well, from all I've heard and seen, it's supposed to make one feel all mellowed out, take away pain as in those suffering from diseases where nothing legal will take away that pain and I say go for it. I sure do. As for me? It may take away the pain but that mellow part don't happen. Oh My Gosh. It's just the opposite like a major, major panic attack and I kid you not. It has that "paradoxical" effect on me the same as antihistamines. Any antihistamines and I sure could use them for allergies.

Hey, that's enough about me. I do want to hear more about yourself and your high school buddy that you've known for about 40 years. Bless both your hearts! You are a very dear soul. I hope you know that, Bubba. You sure are. I pray things continue to get better for you but we both know there will be those times and ... Well, you know.

Hugs, Love, Peace to You, Dear Wife, Willy, Lily, All your Fur Kids and Your Friend!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Hey there---well,he is one of four people from school daze I have stayed in in touch lo these many years.We were all in band classes together and played in many of the bands we formed outside the school band room.In fact he(his name is Brad) is the first guy I played in a working band with.Our first 'pro' job was at his next door neighbors house where we played for their son's wedding.We were 13 years old and that is when I decided to play music for a living the rest of my life.Our pay was 5 dollars each and we were allowed to eat all the food we cared to eat.I thought hmmmm.......They are paying me to play my drums and I get to eat all the food I want???? Hey this is cool!!!!!!! and well,been doin it ever since........Imagine that..........

Bubba.............

Wow! That is way cool, Bubba! I loved hearing about that so very, very much. Thanks a million!

More Hugs, Love and Peace to You and Yours!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Your welcome $700,000,000,000 .Oh wait I got you confused with Lehman Bros.(yuck yuck).Pleasant dreams.Talk to ya tomorrow.
Your Pal,
Bubba..........

LOL! Hahaha! Nitey Nite and Sweet Dreams ...

Your Pal,
Dottie xoxoxox

Hey Bubba, how ya doing? We haven't talked for a while and I really want to know the truth, please. How are you holding up? I'm still crying a bunch but it's cleansing and not that screaming, howling type. What about you? Please share. Won't you? I care, Bubba. You're my Pal and I sure thought about you and the others here bunches while I was in "hibernation" for a couple weeks or so while coping with that blasted one year anniversary. Dontcha just hate it when that happens? Arg. So? How ya doing?

Hugs, Love and Peace to You, Your Dear Wife, Willy, Lily and all the Gang!!!

Your Pal Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Hey Dot---------I figured thats where you were.I have had a couple of those anniversary's this year.On april fools day was the 4 year for my little ol lady from Pasadena, Gimme and on Aug-17 was the 1 year(a famous jazz drummer named Max Roach died the same day last year) for my little girl who's name is Twinky.All British Bulldogs like Willy boy.So anyway the pain comes and goes in fact, I have decided not to let go of the pain completely and reserve, for myself, times(I can sort of control when) for crying as it helps me keep Willy and all the others somehow alive, weird as that may sound.And as I have said before this particular death has really affected me in a way like no other and there is no turning back.By that I mean I have started a new chapter in the book(this life) and it is the chapter right before the epilogue (you know, that one) Even though I assume this final chapter will take awhile..............well....you know........I'm preparing.I have to say I have moments of incredible calm on occasion in complete juxtaposition to some formerly-disabling-fear-raging but now completely self controlled panic type bouts that I can notice and feel but I just sort of watch and feel it but it does not take me over.Willy's passing in some odd ways has given me growth and grace the likes of which I have never experienced before because of the pain I think.The pain has disconfirmed some of the assumed pleasure I have been accustomed to and has in a number of ways 'Awakend' me.So now I cannot go back to sleep(spiritually speaking)..........I can doze........but.......I am preparing for the Bridge and all the rest, save for my precious wife, is just filler.I'm so glad that you are ok................Bubba..........

Wow, Bubba. That's a whole lot to take in. I completely comprehend all you said and do relate to a great extent. In fact, I can relate to most if not all of what you've said. Hey, Dude? Where the 'H E Double Hockey Sticks' is that bus to the BRIDGE? Well, hang on and hang in there. It will come. I'm with ya, Pal.

Big Hugs to you, your lovely Wife, Willy, Lily and all the gang!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

PS. I took a nap and just woke. That's why I wasn't here until just now. Nice nap though but sorry I missed you. See ya soon, I hope. Take care and keep on keepin' on. Okay? Okay.

You know I'm just realizing that I have a fear of forgetting Ziggy's personality. Our brain cells seem to eventually fuzz out some of these memories, mine at an accelerated pace these days... It's like the hard drive is a little less accessible, so the mannerisms and the sweet endearing personality traits get lost in a sort of fog. Not so much with my 17 year old dog who passed in 2006 and still comes in my dreams, but I only knew Ziggy 8 months. And actually I can't even totally visualize Zita's movements in my mind now since it's been a year, and I have nothing of her on videotape. I wonder if a part of getting through this is the fear of forgetting them forever... and then not ever finding them again?

I have wondered what if I ended up with memory loss and just didn't even remember them anymore... I do believe that the connection of love will keep us together, just in this human form my brain is limited to understanding how this all works.

Jan.

Hey Dottie---------Sorry for the late response,had to go out of town for a couple of days.Yea maybe people like me and you and Jan care too much about our fur and feather babies and it makes us turn into mental and physical wrecks.But too late now that is apparently how we 'are'.I for one have no desire to change that.I'll be posting bus schedules shortly.Box lunches provided by the host.Or is it 'Host'..........U know..........
Talk to ya soon.........Bubba.............

Hey Jan---------I think some of the things we fuzz out on may be some survival provisions we posess to keep us from burning out and dying.If we continue to grieve, at least with the intensity we did initially we would probably have heart attacks or just crack-up and become vegetables.When I look at pictures of Willy now he is feeling farther away and I might have to 'work' at remembering certain things about him.But I don't see it any differently than the loss of human loved ones.For example I find it sort of difficult to remember the sound of my parents voices although I have a 'memory' of their voice.Sort of vague.Maybe this is (and for the most part I hate this term) the 'moving on' step which seems a popular chant these days.We (all of us.Humans and animals) probably have to finish each one of our life terms to fulfill some program wired internally in each individual.And if we have a memory of this life in our conciousness in the next life(assuming we even have 'conciousness) Then logic has to come into play and we would remember everything especially our pets.A Christian friend of mine(who was a Jew until he was 17.He is 54 now) said he thinks God has a few 'surprises' in store for us (kind of like those things we didn't expect to get as kids then out of the blue our parents or some other adult figure made our wish come true) and we will be in bliss for eternity after our death.I'll go with that.Even as I type this,because I am deliberatly thinking about it,Willy is becoming clear in my mind.I guess we have to 'work' at not forgetting the kids.That's what I am gonna do anyway.......By the way,have you read 'Cold noses at the pearly gates?'........Don't miss it.Gives real hope and comfort.But we never will quit crying completely..........I hope not.

Tomorrow morning we are one day closer to being with the babies for good.Don't give up.....work deliberatly..........Bubba..............

Well that's true and you have given me some other things to think about too. I haven't read the book you spoke of, so maybe I should look for it.

One thing that is interesting is that I have had two dreams about other pets who've passed and in both I could actually smell their fur and see them vividly. One was of my husband's cat Tiffany and I really could not even visualize her exact markings right now. Yet in the dream I could see her as I saw her in life. I do believe those are visits - I've had more than one from my soul mate doggie Merlin.

Will read your post again tomorrow because my brain is fuzzed from lack of sleep now!

Jan.

Hi Jan---Well, I finally got a very 'clear' visit from Willy in a dream about a week ago.In the dream Willy is coming out of my music studio into the hallway where he layed down and died.As he exited the studio he took about four leaps like he did when he was young( I am starting to well up as I write this...........ok full on cry coming)..............anyway,as he took each leap, he changed colors chromatically from silver to gray to brownish and finally, to his original color of a darker-honey-brindle.And he was about the size of when we got him at 5 months which was significantly smaller(he grew to a hefty 70+ pounds eventually).As I write this it occurs to me that the color change (he was very grey in old age)and size difference is a sign that he is truely young and healthy again.Maybe this forum really does help keep Zita,ZiggyWilly and all our other babies alive by us talking about them and jarring our memories when we start to space out.We simply CANNOT give up hope for that anticipated reunion.For if we do,we will be lost and the balance of our life here on earth will be sheer Hell.We MUST be strong at the very least!!!!!!!!!!.......God bless our babies.

All my good thoughts and prayers.........Bubba

Wow, that is really special. I do think that is a very clear message from Willy. I had something like that after my cat Missy died of liver cancer. It was a very simple dream, but she was eating food. For me that was very significant because she had not eaten for a month before she died. I'm sure they do want to let us know they are okay. I still find myself telling Ziggy how sorry I am every night and every time my mind goes "there". I don't think it's even self-blame, but just how sad I feel that she went through such torture and that I lost her in the end. But I at least got to tell her those things while she was still alive. I told her that I was so sorry this had happened to her and that I needed her and loved her sooo much. She just purred and purred. That was the night before she died. I am really so, so sorry any of it happened, it was all so senseless. The pain of this particular loss is especially hard for me.

I think you are right though that the love connections are there forever. I don't know really how it all works except that I do believe that the spirit world is an easier place than this one and I really do not fear it. I only hope that from here to that point I can find some meaning and joy in this human existence.

take care - BTW, I call one of my dogs Bubba too, and also "Bo-bo" and "Boo-boo" - I have no idea why, but it's the silly things we do, huh.

Jan.

Hi Jan -------Yea,those little extra names we come up with.Willy had a few and 'Bubba' was the one for the past few years.I have no fear of death.The only pre-grief I experience is the temporary seperation I will have from my wife.I have no brothers or sisters and the few remaining family members I have live far away and we have not really been close for years.She has one brother in another country and I imagine she will go there to finish her life if I go first.We are very open in our talks about our deaths and the plan is for whomever goes first the other will wait(if that is 'allowed' in the program) for the other.And since we have no human kids the first to go will wait at the gate or bridge or whatever it is with all of our dogkids and when the other arrives we will spend eternity together as we did as a family on earth.Whether or not we are crazy is irrelevant as a HUGE faith in all of this is all that is required.There would not be happiness or bliss any other way.If I make it to that place I will let the creator know my opinion of his/her method of leaving earth(physical death) was a flaw in the program but I am glad to be in heaven after the tough fight.God is very old and has heard it all so my comment will probably not come as a surprise.Hang in there Jan we are getting closer.God bless ALL your babies.
Bubba.............

Bubba! Bubba! Oops, didn't mean to shout but I just now found something and wondered who would really love and appreciate it as much as I do and you and your lovely wife were the first ones to pop into my mind. I'm not going to put an image here for you to click because that would give it away.
Yes, it's a video so please turn up your volume. Let me begin by saying ...

"I want you to want me!
I need you to need me!
I'd love you to love me!"

And all that jazz. Hey, it's all cool. Your lovely wife will understand why I typed in those song lyrics when she sees this awesome video with you. Amazing and astounding!

Okay, one clue: Imprinting.

That's all ya get so please turn up your volume, click below and do watch all the way to the end cuz it just gets better and better. Enjoy!!!



Well, Bubba ... Was that a "Moment of Ahhh" or what?! Ahhhhh!!!

I hope you're doing well, my Friend. You know you're always in my thoughts and prayers.

Big Comforting Hugs to You, Your Dear Wife, Willy, Lily and the Gang!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Hey Dottie----------That REALLY cheered me up!!!!!!!!!! Like the garden of eden and all the animals are living in harmony!!!!! When the little birds were on the back of the dog..........Well, you know what I was thinkin!!!!! A and W at the Bridge.I left a post on your Alex thread.That video is just what I needed.God bless you pal.A and W (sounds like root beer) probably got a kick out of it too.........talk to ya soon.......Bubba..........

That's exactly what I thought too, Bubba. I knew we'd have that same thought. A and W piggy back ride at The Bridge! Fun, Fun, Fun! Weee! I am so pleased that this cheered you up since I did read your post to me at my thread. How cool that I put this here even before finding out, Dear One. {{{{Comforting Hugs!!!}}}}}

Ya know what? I can't make up my mind which part I love the best: The chicks on Sharkey Pitbull doggie's back or ... I laughed so hard when that one chick enjoyed using Sharky as a slide. Did you see that?! LOL!!! And now ...

Yoo Hoo, Bubba. Wakey, Wakey ... Eggs and Bacey ...

http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseacti...ideoID=16796327

Okay, time to take your morning walk. Hmmm? Hey, what the heck? One of them baby chicks turned into a teeny tiny baby bunny there on Sharky doggie's back. Ooooo, Magic! I do love magic!

http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseacti...ideoid=38727783

Well, I know it ain't the Fourth of July but what the hey. *Giggle!* Enjoy, Bubba!!!

http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseacti...ideoid=37631459

God Bless America and God Bless Sharky thel Pit Bull doggie and his Chickie, Bunny and other Pals!!!

Brought to You with Tons of Hugs and Love from The Rainbow Bridge!!!

Your Pal Always,
Dotttie xoxoxox

Errr, Bubba. I really didn't want you to find out this way but it's about Willy. He's been hiding something from you. Click below to see that "In The Closet" type secret Willy never let you know about. Scroll down and click on the typed in description. Okay?

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"What Willy Wears When Napping Alone Snoring Really Loud!!!"


And now you know.

More Hugs to You and Yours!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Ha Ha!!!!!!!!!! The funny thing is, he would 'adopt' that showin- his- stuff position frequently.He loved to expose himself.I guess he is a modern male and is comfortable with his feminine side.The 'Alan Aldaization' of contemporary masculinity.I'll go and look at the other videos.Catchya on the rebound.
Thanx a bunch,Bubba.............

Hey again Dottie----Those videos are great!!!!!!!--If a pit bull and little chickies can live in peace then I think the possibilties are infinite.Maybe a green parrot riding on the back of a brindle bulldog is not so far fetched, dontcha know? (I hope I got Alex's color right)----Hope all is well-------Bubba.........

Yep, Bubba. You certainly got Alex's green feathers right. But! Ooooo, his most awesome brilliant flight feathers and also the same brilliant blue feathers in his tail along with the green ones. Lookie ...





Just a minute. That don't look like no hand he's standing on. Hmmm, mayhaps he's riding piggy back on Willy at The Bridge! Now ain't that something?! Ahhhhh!!!

Your Pal Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Howdeedoo Dottie--------Wow he is beautiful---all his colors--I'll bet he flys fast!!!!!!!! zooooooooommmmmmm!!!!!!!! If Willy is running after him maybe it will help my little roly-poly boy stay in shape.At least till I see him again then I can spoil him with goodies again.Come to think of it, he will finally get to taste chocolate!!!!!!----Er... I think he just heard me.I better pack a bunch of snickers for the'ride'.Talk to ya in a bit Dottie........
Bubba the candy meister.............