Gizy's Mom


Please allow me to offer my belated condolences on the loss of you precious Gizy. And to say that poem was beautiful. It made me cry in feeling your pain and remembering my sweet Sir Thomas who passed 12/08/2010. Please let us know how you are doing.

T

Thank you so much Tom's dad,
Today is a month and 6 days since my baby boy was taken away from me... it's very hard to go on without him... I only hope we will be reunited one day.

Gizy's Mom
You will be reunited with Gizy. I believe that with all my heart.
It's been such a short time since sweet Gizy made his way to the bridge. Your pain and sadness is still so very raw.
I know it's hard to imagine but the sadness will lessen and be replaced with with something akin to acceptance and comfort in warm memories of your baby Gizy.
I loved that poem...So beautiful....thank you so much for that.
I wish you strength as you get through these early days. Remember though, Gizy is still with you.
Mark (and Bicky)

Mark,

Thank you so much for a kind word, it really means a lot in this cruel world.
Honestly, we all know that not every one understands how painful and heartbreaking it can be to lose your furry baby. I am thankful that I found this web site... it definitely helps to know that some one cares just as mush as I do.

Good morning my sweet little boy,

Mommy is up early today, I think the time change messed up my internal clock.
How are you sweetie?
When do you think you will be coming to visit me in my dreams? Sorry, I don't mean to bug you, I just wanted to make sure you know that mommy is waiting for you.
I love you so much my little boy, you are the best furry son any one can wish for.

Kisses,

Mom

Good morning gorgeous,

Mommy woke up so early today, 5 am!
I guess the time change really affected me.
I actually like to wake up early, I get to do so much!
I hope you like the flower that I got you, it's white and beautiful just like you my sweetie.
Gizy, I miss you so much... The only thing that calms me down is the thought that when it's my time to go you will be there waiting for me.
I love you so much baby boy!

Kisses,

Mommy

Hi sweetie,

I miss you little boy.
Remember I told you about Fanya - the cat that lived with my parents? You never met him because they live so far away. He is on the rainbow too. Look for him, he was my really good friend. I was 12 years old when I brought him in. My parents didn't want to keep him and told me to find a new family for him. He was a tiny little fur ball, he was so small he could fit on my hand. He was beautiful, white, black and light brownish color. His eyes were so large and bright! It took about a week for my parents to accept him as our newest family member and he lived a happy long life of 18 years.
He was my childhood kitty, you were my adulthood doggie. I love you both so please find him and stick together like the family is suppose to.
I love you baby boy, tell Fanya I love him too.
I am attaching his picture I took when I went to visit my parents last year, shortly after that he was gone. I remember I could feel that I would never see him again, I took his picture and spent some time telling him how much I loved him, how great of a kitty he was... He was not very social, I guess he wasn't feeling too good and he just wanted to stay alone in his room... but he listened to me and let me kiss him. Thank you Fanya for being such a good family member. You were the King of my parents house.
Gizy, thank you sweetie for being the King of my house. I miss you so much every day! I will never stop loving you.

Kisses,

Mommy

Here sweetie,
I found this very touching poem, I think you would like it.


Dogs In Heaven?

An old man and his dog were walking down this dirt road with fences on both sides, they came to a gate in the fence and looked in, it was nice grassy, woody areas, just what a 'huntin' dog and man would like, but, it had a sign saying 'no trespassing' so they walked on. They came to a beautiful gate with a person in white robes standing there. "Welcome to Heaven" he said. The old man was happy and started in with his dog following him. The gatekeeper stopped him. "Dogs aren't allowed, I'm sorry but he can't come with you."

"What kind of Heaven won't allow dogs? If he can't come in, then I will stay out with him. He's been my faithful companion all his life, I can't desert him now."

"Suit yourself, but I have to warn you, the Devil's on this road and he'll try to sweet talk you into his area, he'll promise you anything, but the dog can't go there either. If you won't leave the dog, you'll spend Eternity on this road."

So the old man and dog went on. They came to a rundown fence with a gap in it, no gate, just a hole. Another old man was inside. "S'cuse me Sir, my dog and I are getting mighty tired, mind if we come in and sit in the shade for awhile?"

"Of course, there's some cold water under that tree over there. Make yourselves comfortable"

"You're sure my dog can come in? The man down the road said dogs weren't allowed anywhere."

"Would you come in if you had to leave the dog?"

"No sir, that's why I didn't go to Heaven, he said the dog couldn't come in.
We'll be spending Eternity on this road, and a glass of cold water and some shade would be mighty fine right about now. But, I won't come in if my buddy here can't come too, and that's final."

The man smiled a big smile and said "Welcome to Heaven."

"You mean this is Heaven? Dogs ARE allowed? How come that fellow down the road said they weren't?"

"That was the Devil and he gets all the people who are willing to give up a life long companion for a comfortable place to stay. They soon find out their mistake, but then it's too late. The dogs come here, the fickle people stay there. GOD wouldn't allow dogs to be banned from Heaven. After all, HE created them to be man's companions in life, why would he separate them in death?"

(Based on the "Twilight Zone" episode "The Hunt" written by Earl Hamner Jr.)



I know you are in Heaven sweetie. I love you so much.

Kisses,
Mommy

Gizy, hey baby,

I know you saw me crying today, I am sorry. I just feel so lonely. You know my family is so far away and now you are far away too. I want to hug you, hold you, kiss your wet nose and look you in the eye. Baby boy, I miss you so much. Forgive me for crying so hard. Today is just one of those days when I can't control myself, the pain of you not being around is too strong... my heart is breaking. But I will stop crying, I promise. I want you to see mommy smile. I know you are here with me, too bad I can't see you.
I love you so much sweetie.

Mommy

Hi gorgeous,

How are you?
As always, mommy is up early doing her thing.
I actually like waking up early, I get to do so many things by noon.
I saw auntie Sandy yesterday, she said hi.
I miss you little boy, I know you miss me too.

Kisses,

Mommy

Gizy, hi baby.

Mommy is driving down to Miami tomorrow to visit this one shelter I found. They have a little girl who looks just like you on the picture, I wanted to meet her. I am not sure how old she is, around your age I guess. She recently had 4 puppies, they are up for adoption too. I will bring them some food from you.
I miss you so much sweetie.
Love you my munchkin.

Kisses,
Mommy

Gizy's mom, I hope your visit at the shelter goes well. I'm sure the little girl dog is adorable. I know you miss your Gizy so much, and I know how much it hurts to lose a beloved companion. Bringing a precious new friend home might just be the balm that your heart needs. I know it's different for everyone, but I've always been an early adopter and I found that having a new friend to cherish and take care off helps balance out the grief I feel. It doesn't mean that I don't miss my friend who has passed on, but it helps. Our hearts are big enough to love again.

Thank you DannysMom,

I am just starting to think that may be we should adopt a little girl or a boy. Even though Gizy came from the puppy store, now I am completely against buying a pet, I just want to save a life and give my love to the one that's in need of a good family. The adoption fee will go to support the shelter animals, I am happy to contribute to that.
I am preparing for our trip tomorrow morning. I just went to the store and bought 12 cans of food, 2 doggie beds and some toys and balls.
Gizy, don't worry baby boy, mommy is not giving any of your stuff away, everything is still here just the way you remember it. All the things I donate to the shelter come straight from the store. I will not be able to give away any of your things, everything stays here. If mommy and daddy decide to get you a sister or a brother, they will be able to play with your toys and use your things.
Come with us tomorrow, we definitely need your help to decide what to do.
I love you sweetie, please remember no one will ever replace you, you will always be momma's baby boy Gizy, the little munchkin who has a very special place in mommy's heart. I love you so much baby.

Kisses,

Mommy

Gizy's Mom
Good luck on your trip to the shelter. Think of your new boy or girl as Gizy's brother or sister. Take that love that you have for Gizy and share it with a fur baby in need of a home. This does honor for Gizy's memory.
Gizy will not be jealous; he'll be proud.
Mark (and Bicky)

Thank you Mark.

Good morning my sweet little boy.

Mommy and daddy went to the shelter yesterday. We met some really nice doggies. One of the dogs was little girls Madeline, she is a papillon like you, she just had 4 cute puppies and she is not available for adoption just yet. She came from a home with 20 dogs, all of them look kind of similar, they have some papillon and some other mix in them. She was so scared of everything, I spent about 30 minutes playing with her puppies and she let me pet her may be three times at the most.
The other place that rescues papillons declined my application. For some reason they don't think I will be a good mommy to their doggies.
So this is my little update for you baby boy.

I love you so much Gizy.

Kisses,

Mommy

Thank you for your Upadate Gizy's Mom
I pray for you that you can find the right fur baby when it is the right time for you.
Mark (and Bicky)

Hi Mark,
Thank you so much for checking on me and for your support.

Every morning I ask God to help me find the right doggie for our family and a good sister or brother for Gizy.
I also ask Gizy to let me know which one he likes.
I found the adoption process to be very difficult and emotional... Deep inside I know I will not find another Gizy, but for some reason I compare all doggies I meet to him. I understand that I will not be replacing Gizy but simply getting him a sibling who has a totally different character, personality and look... but the feeling and desire for the dog to be exactly like Giz is so strong. I just keep looking for that black and white oversized-eared munchkin with black wet nose and beautiful long-hair coat.
Today I found another little girl papillon, she is in GA, north of Atlanta. That is about 7-hour drive for me. I wanted to take off today after work but couldn't find anyone to drive with me (normal people work on monday and tuesday). Hopefully either tomorrow night or Wednesday morning I will be able to go and look at the girl, her name is Missy. By the way, she looks just like Gizy, black and white with a gorgeous little face.

Gizy, sweetie, let me know if you like Missy. I love you so much. Kisses,

Mommy

Good morning my little beauty,

Daddy said that may be today after he is done with his work we could drive to Atlanta.
Watch over us as our little angel and help us make a decision.

I love you sweetie.

Kisses,
Mommy

Hi firstly you have my upmost sympathy and i can genuinly say i know exactly how you feel, everything you explained in your first post about your relationship with your dog is exactly the same for me, even the hilerious bit about him running off with your socks my baby girl Bayleigh did that too lol, she was my everything, i don't have kids either she was my first dog that was mine, not a family dog, just me and her in my flat and i had to put her down on monday 14th of jan 2013 it was awful the vet told me she had kennal cough and it was lung cancer and by the time i found out it was too late, i feel guilt,, hatred to the vet for not checking her properly, complete dispair and lonliness becuase she doesn't come to the door when i come home or snore next to me at night, i can't sleep or eat properly i don't want to go out im so depressed so i thought i would come on here and talk about how i feel, because nobody on here will judge me or tell me im sillly, sorry to have written a messsage all about me its just your post stood out just the connection you had with little Gizy, and the tragic unexpected circumstances, i hope you are ok and i am truly sorry for the sheer loss and pain you feel i know how it is and it's worse than hell for me right now. I hope you find the perfect brother or sister for gizy that will make you smile again, i hope things brighten up for you, me and every other poor owner on this site my heart goes out to all ***

Dear Bayleigh's Mummy,

I am sorry that Bayleigh had to go on the rainbow bridge. But think about it this way, she is healthy, happy and has lots of friends on the rainbow. Just imagine her running around, smiling and being so happy!

Darling, we all blame ourselves for not doing enough to protect our babies. Sometimes I daydream about the accident and my heart starts crying that I didn't just grab him and jump on top of the car (really?), or had a pepper spray (I don't even own one)... And I just keep going on and on with possible situation where I could have saved my Gizy. But nothing will bring him back, don't torture yourself.

I am very dissatisfied with the emergency vet as well. Sometimes I think that if it was another doctor Gizy could possibly still be here with me. But I try to get all these thoughts away from me, they only make it harder for me.

You know what I do to make it easier, I imagine Gizy to be a little angel who follows me around (just like when he was here). I have his little area in my living room: his leather couch, on top of it is the box with his ashes, picture and paw print. His favorite toys all around. I light up candles in the evening and keep fresh flowers for him. This gives me the sense of his presence. I talk to him, kiss his picture good night and say hello in the morning when I wake up.
Some people will say that this is a little much, but I don't care, it is making me feel better and I feel like I haven't lost the connection with my sweetie.

All the best wishes to you Bayleigh's Mummy.

Please come by and post something in Gizy's topic whenever you like.

Gizy's Mom

Hi baby boy,

How are you doing sweetie?

Mommy just wanted to give you some update on what's going on.

We went to Atlanta to visit Missy. She was such a cute little girl, but she was an older dog. I asked the lady why she thought she was only 1.5, she said she just guesstimated. Missy looked so calm and happy to be there with her human mommy and 22 other dogs. She grew to be so attached to the lady that it would break my heart to take her away again (she's been moved around a few time I guess).

Daddy said that he thinks we should buy you a brother or a sister. He contacted some breeders in the area and none of them have puppies just yet, but we learned about one young boy (2.5 years old) who was looking for a home. He was a show dog until last year when he outgrew his competitors. He is about 8-9 pounds right now.
Anyways, we contacted his mommy and she is willing to meet with us to see if we connect with the doggie. We are planning on going during the week after 7 when the lady gets home after work.

Gizy, mommy is finally going back to work, this Sunday is my first day. It's the same thing mommy did before just work for a different company.

Gizy, sweetie, no one will ever replace you in mommy's heart! You will always be the first son and the love of my life! I miss you so much baby boy.

Kisses,

Mommy

Hi Gizy's mom, just wanted to stop by to say hi and let you know I was thinking about you and Gizy. I hope things are looking up a little. Also, best wishes in finding a little friend, it might be just what you need to ease a little of the pain in your heart, I know I'm thankful to have Jack's parents for comfort, they know how to make me smile when it feels like I can't. There are so many dogs that could only hope they get the kind of love you share with Gizy. I look forward to hearing if/when you find that lucky dog!

PomMom

Hi PomMom,

Thank you so much for checking on Gizy and I. I came to realize that it is so much easier for me to deal with Gizy not being here when I still think he is around as a little angel who I can't touch or see, but he can hear and see me. I talk to him just like if he was here on Earth, I refill his water bowl, kiss his picture good night and good morning. I guess subconsciously I refuse to accept that he is gone... that would be too hard for me to handle.

I am glad that Jack's parents keep you company. That is so wonderful when you come home and the little munchkin is waiting for you. In my case, I have my little invisible munchkin, but I know he is here.

We are actively searching for the right puppy... We went to Miami and Atlanta. Hopefully this week we will make it to Tampa to see one more doggie and hopefully he will be the one to come home with us.

Thank you again and I hope you are doing good.

Best wishes,

Gizy's Mom

Good morning beautiful boy,

Today mommy is going to work for a couple of hours.

We made an appointment to see the other doggie I was telling you about on Monday evening. Come with us please so you can help make a decision.

Sweetie, I miss you so much my little boy. I can't believe I haven't touched you for a month and 17 days... It is such a long time considering that we were together all the time every day. I am sorry I am crying again, I just wish I could see you, kiss you, hold you.
Gizy, you need to know that mommy loves you with all her heart and that love will never go away. You are the best sweet little munchkin mommy can wish for, I am so happy that you are my furry son. I am so proud of you baby boy. You have such a beautiful heart, such a wonderful personality, such a sweet character. You are my everything Gizy, you left such a large imprint of your little paw on my heart.
I love you gorgeous.

Kisses,

Mommy

Dear Gizy's Mom
I wish you luck on Monday evening. I know that Gizy will be with you in spirit!
My heart breaks for you every time I think about the pain you are feeling.
Please keep us updated on your search for a brother or sister for Gizy. His last gift will be to give the love you held for him to another fur baby in need of a forever home.
Thinking of you, Mark (and Bicky)

Mark,

Thank you so much for your constant support. I am very thankful to this website for helping me meet such wonderful people like you guys.

Best wishes,

Gizy's mom

Good morning little boy,

Today is mommy's first day at work. Yesterday I went in for just a couple of hours to meet the team, they all seem to be very nice and helpful.
Sweetie, I really miss you. It is so hard without you. Last night I was home alone (daddy went to pick up his father and they came home late) and felt the emptiness and loneliness without you. You definitely filled in this home with energy, happiness, joy. I love you so much my handsome little man.
Mommy is here if you need anything.

Love you.
Kisses,

Mommy

Gizy, this poem is for you sweetie... It is so true, I ONLY WANTED YOU!!!
Mommy loves you so much baby boy, I miss you.


I ONLY WANTED YOU

They say memories are golden

well maybe that is true.

I never wanted memories,

I only wanted you.



A million times I needed you,

a million times I cried.

If love alone could have saved you

you never would have died.



In life I loved you dearly,

In death I love you still.

In my heart you hold a place

no one could ever fill.



If tears could build a stairway
and heartache make a lane,

I'd walk the path to heaven

and bring you back again.



Our family chain is broken,

and nothing seems the same.

But as God calls us one by one,

the chain will link again.

 ~Vicky Holder

Good morning little boy,

Today we are going to Tampa area to meet someone who can possible become your brother.
I emailed his mommy last night to confirm our appointment and she said he had his bath and can't wait to meet daddy and me.
I hope he is the brother for you sweetie, I hope you like him.

I love you gorgeous, I think about you all the time sweet boy.

Kisses,

Mommy

Baby,
One day we will be together again sweetie.
Love you Gizy.

Mommy

Gizy, today we sent some money to the animal shelter in Russia.
The lady who owns it is very nice and sweet, she's been saving homeless dogs and cats for a few years now, spending her own money on the vet bills.
Gizy, thank you for opening mommy's eyes and heart on the cruel reality of this world where so many puppies and kittens need our helping hand.

I love you baby with all my heart.

Mommy

Hi handsome,

We went to meet Rhett last night. Daddy and I decided that he will be a good fit for us and you too. He is very cute, you will like him.
He will get fixed this week and will be able to go home with us hopefully next week.
Sweetie, mommy loves you so much. I miss you baby boy.

Kisses,

Mommy

Hi my little baby boy,

How are you sweetie?
Mommy is missing you so much...
I love you gorgeous.

Kisses,

Mommy

Hi Gizy's Mom,

Congratulations on finding Rhett, cute name. I hope everything works out well for you all.

I love the drawing of the angel and Papillion. Did you draw it?......I think Papillion's "butterfly ears" are so cute.

Gizy's Mom, I hope you are feeling better day by day. Have a good evening....God Bless...

LoveMyMickey

Hi LoveMyMickey,

Thank you for checking on us. I found the drawing on the Internet and I loved it, it represents out life after life when we are together with Gizy again.

We are happy we found Rhett, he is adorable. He is getting his neuter surgery tomorrow morning and after the stitches are removed we can bring him home.

It is still very hard without my baby boy Gizy, I miss him so much. No one will ever replace my boy Gizy, he was and is a very special boy and he will always live in my heart.

My baby boy, today is a month and 21 days since you left and there haven't been a day that mommy did not cry for you. Gizy, I love you so much baby and always will.

Kisses,

Mommy

Hi Gizy's Mom
Congratulations! Of course you are not replacing Gizy. Gizy's last gift to you is to open your eyes to animals in need and to inspire you to give Rhett a new, loving home. I believe that one day you will be joined with Gizy. Until that time, Gizy will be with you in spirit.
I look forward to updates and (hopefully) pictures of Rhett. I will follow your progress on the board. I am guessing you will have conflicted feelings in the following weeks. Please air them out here...We are here to support you!
Ours, Mark (and Bicky)

Hi Mark,

Thank you.
I am very happy we found Rhett and I know Gizy is happy that we got him a brother.
I just really miss Gizy, his awesome personality, his giggles, the funny things he did... I miss him so much! He was just an amazing puppy, he was like a little person, understood me and could sense my feelings, my mood. It's hard to explain, we just had a very special bond between us and it hurts not to have my boy around.



Gizy, baby, I miss you my lovely pumpkin. You know how much I love you and how much I miss you every minute of my day and night. Yesterday I bought you a beautiful Hibiscus tree, it's out on your porch. I just need to take a picture to put on here.
Baby boy, I hope you are having a good time on the rainbow bridge and that you made a lot of friends ( I know you did, you are such a sweet baby with bubbly personality, everyone just loves you).
Please visit mommy in her dreams.

Kisses

Mommy

Bicky and I had a similar bond. I can completely understand your feelings. I am sure Rhett wil have a different personality than Gizy had, but no less endearing....

Good morning my little angel,

I hope it is sunny and warm in heaven and you are having a good time.
Mommy is getting ready to go to work, I just wanted to stop by really quickly to say good morning and wish you a beautiful day.
Mommy loves you very much.
Your brother Rhett had his surgery yesterday and is recovering now.

Kisses my gorgeous boy,

Mommy.

Hi Mark,

Rhett is a wonderful boy, I think his personality is different than Gizy's but I will not know exactly until he comes home to live with us.
He is recovering from his neuter surgery and god willing will be coming home next Sunday.

Mark, have a wonderful day and thank you for checking on us.

Hugs,

Gizy's mom

Gizusha, hi baby.

Mommy is home from work.
Just wanted to let you know that I miss you so much.
Love you my sweet little boy.
I wish I could spend some time with you, even if it's in my dream.
Kisses, my little boy,

Love you with all my heart,

Mommy

Good morning Gizy,

Mommy is getting ready to go to work.
I love you sweetie.
I will be thinking about you, you know it.

Kisses,

Mommy

Hi Gizy,

Mommy is home from work.
I miss you so much baby boy.
Did you meet with Fanya on the rainbow?
Say hi to him.
I love you both.

Kisses,

Mommy

Good morning little one,

It is so cold here... Remember last year about the same time mommy had to put your little Juicy Couture jacket on you? You looked so adorable even thought I think you didn't like to wear it.
Baby boy, I miss you so much.
Your little outfits are still hanging in my closet, I should say in our closet. I touch them and cry every time I am trying to pick out an outfit for myself.
Gizy, mommy loves you so much.
Your brother Rhett is doing better after the neuter surgery, he is already running around, jumping up and down.
He is coming home on Sunday.

I love you Gizy with all my heart! You are my special little baby boy and no one will ever take your place.

Have a beautiful sunny and warm day on the rainbow.

Kisses,

Mommy

Mark and Bicky,

Thank you for your kind words and for thinking about us.
I hope Bicky and Gizy met each other on the rainbow and became good friends.

How are you doing? What's new in your life?

Best wishes and hugs,

Gizy's Mom

I also hope that Gizy and Bicky can become good friends on the other side....They both are such good souls.
I know Bicky lacks confidence, so he needs all the pals he can get.
What's new with me? Well, I have been toying with the idea of finally getting a brother or sister for my Bicky.
There are two main reasons I haven't so far...One reason is because recently I travel often back and forth between North America and Japan, so keeping a dog might be difficult. The other reason is that I'm still mourning Bicky's loss considerably.

The reason I am thinking of taking in a rescue is because there are still many stray/abandoned dogs from the horrible earthquake and tsunami two years ago. Countless dogs need homes and I can't, in good conscience, ignore this situation.
I owe this to Bicky's memory...If it weren't for him, I never would have learned how wonderful fur babies truly are.....He was the best friend I ever had or will have.
So...That's what's new!
Good luck with Rhett and keep us posted...
Thinking of you and Gizy,
Mark (and Bicky)

Hi Mark,

Some people say that I am getting Gizy a brother or sister too soon, but I think Gizy wants mommy to bring another little furry soul home, the one that truly needs love and companionship, the one that will play with Gizy's toys. Gizy knows that no one will ever replace him, but mommy's heart is big enough and has plenty of love for Gizy and his brother. Gizy is my special little boy, I will never stop loving him, talking to him every day, kissing his face through the cold glass of the picture frame.
In memory of Gizy I decided to adopt a doggie instead of buying a little puppy. Rhett is almost 3 years old and he is a retired show dog who was looking for a home.

Good luck Mark, I think if you do decide to welcome home Bicky's brother or sister, Bicky will be very happy. Those stray dogs really need someone's love.

Hugs,

Gizy's mom

Gizy, hey gorgeous.

How is your day going? What are you doing? Did you make a lot of friends? Do they play hide and seek with you? What do you eat, what do you drink? I want to know how your life is on the rainbow... Baby, mommy misses you so much.

I am hoping you will visit me in my dreams, whenever you are ready sweetie. Mommy will be so happy to see you again, play with you, kiss you, hold you.

I love you so much Gizy.

Kisses and hugs,

Mommy