Dear Peggy, Moon Beam and all Lightning-strikers,
I haven't been on the site for several days as my sister-in-law became critically ill and is still hospitalized. it will be a very long, slow recovery for her, but at least she's alive!
I'm weaning Trevor off his Prednisone for the last time. He's down to 2mg in morning and 1mg at night. And now the terrible pain is coming back. I'm giving him Tramadol & Neurontin whenever he needs it and that seems to help. I'm afreaid we'll soon be up to 2 Tramadol & 2 Neurontin every 2 hours and I don't know if my vet will continue to phone in prescriptions for me. I hope he will. I think he will.
I felt so badly leaving Trevor on Saturday to go to the hospital for Beverly's surgery, but I knew I had to be with her and my Stan. She had her entire colon removed to stop this deadly infection that was killing her. I had one neighbor giving Trevor meds eveery 3 hours and this wonderful woman changed her whole Saturday routine to care for Trevor.
Tonight was difficult because when Trevor was showing me his pain I was talking to a friend on the phone. I immediately excused myself and she actually got quite "huffy" about it. Well, if that's the way she's going to be.....it's her loss.
Even my great-nephew (is that possible?) asks me about Trevor, first thing when he sees me.
These days are so hard. I want to spend absolutly every minute with Trevor. I don't want him to be alone at all. I want him to know I am always there for him. But then, tomorrow, I have to drive an hour away to deliver some groceries and drive an hour back. Already, I don't see my granddaugher any more, we can't go to a grand-nephew's HS graduation in New York and all I feel is a compelling pull to get back to Trevor. Is this normal or am I a bit bizzare?
Thank you, all, for being here for me and my worries. I'm going to sleep on the floor with Trevor again. It's a good place to be.
Good Night!
Bobbie
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Hi, Bobbie, thank you so much for letting us know how you and your precious Trevor are doing. And I hope your sister-in-law is well on the road to recovery.
Please know that your desire to constantly be with your precious Trevor is not abnormal or obsessive. Your precious Trevor needs you - - both physically and emotionally. He cannot administer his meds by himself - - he needs YOU to give him his meds, and to help him with his physical needs. And he needs your comforting presence to reassure him and comfort him. He knows his physical journey with you is coming to an end, and his heart's desire is to spend as much time as possible with you until his precious Living Spirit soars heavenward to the angels. Anyone who doesn't understand this is incapable of understanding - - and embracing - - the deepest truest purest form of love we can know on this side of eternity. So, Bobbie, for whatever it's worth, my advice to you is to follow your heart and do what you know you must do. I promise you, my friend - - this will be a comfort to you later on.
And once again, for whatever it's worth, I went through the same thing with my Eli, Oslo, and Abbygayle, - - and each of my other beloved companions who were on their journey home to the angels.
Bear in mind that Tramadol and Nerontin are controlled substances. I used to work for the Drug Enforcement Administration, and I know that there are just so many refills allowed per prescription - - but as long as your vet continues authorizing refills I don't there should be any problems with the pharmacy. Both your vet and the pharmacy has to make an accounting to the DEA about the controlled substances prescribed and dispensed, but again, as long as your vet continues to provide prescriptions and authorized refills there shouldn't be a problem.
Bobbie, I hope in some way I have been able to bring some comfort and encouragement to you. My heart goes out to you and your precious Trevor. Please know you and your precious Trevor are in my thoughts and prayers, and I look forward to knowing how things are going whenever possible.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Please know that your desire to constantly be with your precious Trevor is not abnormal or obsessive. Your precious Trevor needs you - - both physically and emotionally. He cannot administer his meds by himself - - he needs YOU to give him his meds, and to help him with his physical needs. And he needs your comforting presence to reassure him and comfort him. He knows his physical journey with you is coming to an end, and his heart's desire is to spend as much time as possible with you until his precious Living Spirit soars heavenward to the angels. Anyone who doesn't understand this is incapable of understanding - - and embracing - - the deepest truest purest form of love we can know on this side of eternity. So, Bobbie, for whatever it's worth, my advice to you is to follow your heart and do what you know you must do. I promise you, my friend - - this will be a comfort to you later on.
And once again, for whatever it's worth, I went through the same thing with my Eli, Oslo, and Abbygayle, - - and each of my other beloved companions who were on their journey home to the angels.
Bear in mind that Tramadol and Nerontin are controlled substances. I used to work for the Drug Enforcement Administration, and I know that there are just so many refills allowed per prescription - - but as long as your vet continues authorizing refills I don't there should be any problems with the pharmacy. Both your vet and the pharmacy has to make an accounting to the DEA about the controlled substances prescribed and dispensed, but again, as long as your vet continues to provide prescriptions and authorized refills there shouldn't be a problem.
Bobbie, I hope in some way I have been able to bring some comfort and encouragement to you. My heart goes out to you and your precious Trevor. Please know you and your precious Trevor are in my thoughts and prayers, and I look forward to knowing how things are going whenever possible.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Thank you sooooo much, MoonBeam!
Although your loving and comforting words brought tears to my eyes, they also give me the strength to walk a little further on this sacred journey with Mr. Trevor. Tomorrow (Friday) I am staying home all day with Trevor, going out only for the mail. Thank you for giving me the encouragement to do just that.
I will let you know how the day was.
From the bottom of my heart, THANK YOU!
Bobbie
Although your loving and comforting words brought tears to my eyes, they also give me the strength to walk a little further on this sacred journey with Mr. Trevor. Tomorrow (Friday) I am staying home all day with Trevor, going out only for the mail. Thank you for giving me the encouragement to do just that.
I will let you know how the day was.
From the bottom of my heart, THANK YOU!
Bobbie
Dearest Bobbie,
I am so sorry life is just pulling you in so many directions and please know your sister-in-law is in my (and Mom's) prayers. I didn't think you'd be back until Friday so I apologize for not making time to send you a message with some much needed support. You know I love you and Trevor (and Stan) and you guys are always in our prayers.
As for your huffy 'friend'. PHHHFFFTTTT to her. She's clueless and self-absorbed (oh yeah, I'll be judgemental about that!). Even if she's clueless about animals, if she's really your friend, she should CARE that you're in distress over Trevor's health. I doubt she had anything more important than Trevor's pain to flippin discuss at that point so tough tidbits to her if she has an issue with you for hanging up. Actually, my sweet friend, I can't imagine why anyone would have an issue with you. You're one of the most loving, compassionate, giving people I've ever known. Between us (and all the others on this site), you can 'do better than her'. LOL Seriously, I can see that you're her friend but I question if she's really your friend?? Okay, enough of my Irish getting up!
As always, you, Trevor, Stan (Gretta, Gretta's Mom, and your sister in law and her family) are all in my thoughts and prayers. I hope Trevor has a peacful night and you're able to get some much needed sleep.
Take care my wonderful friend!
Peggy
P.S. Your fantastic neighbors are also in my prayers - God love them all for stepping up to help out you and Trevor!!
I am so sorry life is just pulling you in so many directions and please know your sister-in-law is in my (and Mom's) prayers. I didn't think you'd be back until Friday so I apologize for not making time to send you a message with some much needed support. You know I love you and Trevor (and Stan) and you guys are always in our prayers.
As for your huffy 'friend'. PHHHFFFTTTT to her. She's clueless and self-absorbed (oh yeah, I'll be judgemental about that!). Even if she's clueless about animals, if she's really your friend, she should CARE that you're in distress over Trevor's health. I doubt she had anything more important than Trevor's pain to flippin discuss at that point so tough tidbits to her if she has an issue with you for hanging up. Actually, my sweet friend, I can't imagine why anyone would have an issue with you. You're one of the most loving, compassionate, giving people I've ever known. Between us (and all the others on this site), you can 'do better than her'. LOL Seriously, I can see that you're her friend but I question if she's really your friend?? Okay, enough of my Irish getting up!
As always, you, Trevor, Stan (Gretta, Gretta's Mom, and your sister in law and her family) are all in my thoughts and prayers. I hope Trevor has a peacful night and you're able to get some much needed sleep.
Take care my wonderful friend!
Peggy
P.S. Your fantastic neighbors are also in my prayers - God love them all for stepping up to help out you and Trevor!!
Hi, Bobbie, just stopping by to say "hello" to you and your precious Trevor. I hope today has been kind to you both. Please know you both are in my thoughts and prayers, and will look forward to knowing how you both are doing whenever possible.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
[font="Verdana"][/font]Well, Trevor had a really bad day. And I don't think they are going to get much better any more. Oh, how I hope I am wrong!
Trevor is on Day 3 of 2mg Prednisone in the morning and 1mg at night. I can tell that the higher dose was controlling more of his pain, but the side effects were just as awful. Either way Trevor loses. He slept all morning and most of the afternoon, but it wasn't his usual deep, peaceful sleep. He looked so stiff and uncomfortable in his sleep. When he finally stayed up late this afternoon, he was in so much pain that I ended up giving him 2 Tramadol & 2 Neurontin every TWO hours. He just could not get comfortable and was panting up a storm. I took him outside for some cool, fresh air around 7 pm and he seemed to like smelling the air and the grass and the trees, but he definitely needed my white size 11 New Balance shoes directing his moves from the only side he can see from (his right side). Any time the shoes weren't in plain view he was lost. But we got about 20 minutes outside before it was ime to come in. At 9 pm I gave him another dose of meds and by 10 pm he was shaking his head which means he's hurting. I'd forgotten what time I'd given his last meds and was shocked to see it was just an hour earlier. I gave him 1 Tramadol & 1 Neurontin. We came up to bed a few minutes later. It took 2 small cotainers of Honey Nut Cheerio's, tonight, to fill his tummy so he could relax and finally fall asleep. I'll give him one more Tramadol soon and then a dose of everything at 1am to try and get him back on schedule.
Trevor doesn't deserve to hurt........ever. And I'm afraid that soon his whole life will be one of tough pain. At least right now Trevor still enjoys time with me and Stan in the evenings, as long as his pain is controlled. I am his protector, his guardian and his best friend, in addition to being his mom. His 2 year anniversary of becoming a LaSov will be May 23th. That seems so far away right now.
I'm tired. I'm sad. I hurt. And I'm beginning to feel like I'm failing Trevor. I will to any and everything compassionately possible for this boy. He is the most precious of little guys and I don't think he ever had a good life.
I need some (more) support tonight and I am turning to the best group of people there are to do that. Sorry I'm so weak, but I'm using everything I have for my boy.
Bless all of you! Good Night.
Bobbie
Trevor is on Day 3 of 2mg Prednisone in the morning and 1mg at night. I can tell that the higher dose was controlling more of his pain, but the side effects were just as awful. Either way Trevor loses. He slept all morning and most of the afternoon, but it wasn't his usual deep, peaceful sleep. He looked so stiff and uncomfortable in his sleep. When he finally stayed up late this afternoon, he was in so much pain that I ended up giving him 2 Tramadol & 2 Neurontin every TWO hours. He just could not get comfortable and was panting up a storm. I took him outside for some cool, fresh air around 7 pm and he seemed to like smelling the air and the grass and the trees, but he definitely needed my white size 11 New Balance shoes directing his moves from the only side he can see from (his right side). Any time the shoes weren't in plain view he was lost. But we got about 20 minutes outside before it was ime to come in. At 9 pm I gave him another dose of meds and by 10 pm he was shaking his head which means he's hurting. I'd forgotten what time I'd given his last meds and was shocked to see it was just an hour earlier. I gave him 1 Tramadol & 1 Neurontin. We came up to bed a few minutes later. It took 2 small cotainers of Honey Nut Cheerio's, tonight, to fill his tummy so he could relax and finally fall asleep. I'll give him one more Tramadol soon and then a dose of everything at 1am to try and get him back on schedule.
Trevor doesn't deserve to hurt........ever. And I'm afraid that soon his whole life will be one of tough pain. At least right now Trevor still enjoys time with me and Stan in the evenings, as long as his pain is controlled. I am his protector, his guardian and his best friend, in addition to being his mom. His 2 year anniversary of becoming a LaSov will be May 23th. That seems so far away right now.
I'm tired. I'm sad. I hurt. And I'm beginning to feel like I'm failing Trevor. I will to any and everything compassionately possible for this boy. He is the most precious of little guys and I don't think he ever had a good life.
I need some (more) support tonight and I am turning to the best group of people there are to do that. Sorry I'm so weak, but I'm using everything I have for my boy.
Bless all of you! Good Night.
Bobbie
Dear Bobbie,
I am so sorry that Trevor isn't doing well. I know how hard you've been working to keep on top of his pain and how frightened and disappointed you must be right now. I'm hoping that when you give him his doses at 1 am, he gets back on scheudle and back on track. Please realize that you are absolutely NOT failing Trevor or anyone in your life. Those feelings are coming about because you're exhausted from running around, trying to help those you love who are in need - and there is an overwhelming numer of them in need right now. Nobody could keep up with the scheudle you've been keeping the past week or two without becoming exhausted. It's so hard to see clearly when we've been under protracted stress and when we haven't been getting enough rest. It's been a long time since you've been able to get a full night sleep so the additional stress of the family illness is just pushing that level of exhaustion to a deeper level and that's what is making you question how well you're doing meeting Trevor's needs. All of us who have been following your story know how much you love and how much you do for Trevor. Frankly, it's not possible for you to fail him. You consistently put Trevor's needs ahead of your own, how could you fail him by doing that? I think you may be judging youself by an impossible standard of perfection. If you think you're failing him, please ask yourself what anyone could possibly do that's greater than what you do every day? If it were possible to instantly heal him, you would. But nobody in this world has that power, please don't blame yourself for not having an ability that none of us has. I promise you, if you view it objectively, you'll realize that you're doing all that can be done and nobody would have the ability to do more. You're just sleep and rest deprived, you poor little thing. No wonder you feel sad and overwhelmed (and big hug to you)
Bobbie, if at all possible, please try to get a little rest, sleep and time for yourself this weekend. You are an amazing caregiver but sometimes the caregivers must draw a line in the sand and decide it's time to give care to themselves. I think you've reached the point where you need a little down time to decompress and definitely some time to get uninterupted sleep. You are an amazing person who is always giving to others, including Trevor. Once you've had a chance to recharge, I think you'll be better able to wrap some perspecitive around the situation without judging yourself so harshly. Truly, there is nothing that you don't do for Trevor and you do more than the majority of people would. And you do it all with love. Please treat yourself with that same love and compassion. You are a wonderful Mom to Trevor. You are an amazing family member who's always there for everyone in need - and like now, sometimes they all need at once. Please try to let go of the guilt and the judging of yourself, at least until you've gotten through this rough patch and have a chance to catch your breath. I'm betting that once you get a little down time and distance, you'll realize that you're already doing everything possible for Trevor and what you feel guilty about is you can't magically create a new treatment plan for him, to make all the ill health go away.
And for the record, Trevor may not have ever had a good day BEFORE becoming a member of your family, but no dog could be more loved than he is now. So he HAS gotten the best. With dogs, they're so much better than humans at letting go of the past hurts and just focusing on the ever present now. No matter what, from 2009 on, he's been one of the most loved and cared for dogs in the world. Doesn't matter what came before that, he has a loving family who does everything in ther power to help him and make sure he knows he's loved. Who in this world can ask for more than that? Many humans never experience that kind of blessing and I'm sure Trevor knows that you'll always be there for him, which is why he requires the comfort of your 'size 11 shoes'!
You all are always in my prayers and right now, I"m praying you all get a good night sleep and start fresh in the morning, with Trevor being back on track with his meds. Good night my sweet friend, who is always much too hard on herself!!
Big hug to you and Trevor!
Love
Peggy
I am so sorry that Trevor isn't doing well. I know how hard you've been working to keep on top of his pain and how frightened and disappointed you must be right now. I'm hoping that when you give him his doses at 1 am, he gets back on scheudle and back on track. Please realize that you are absolutely NOT failing Trevor or anyone in your life. Those feelings are coming about because you're exhausted from running around, trying to help those you love who are in need - and there is an overwhelming numer of them in need right now. Nobody could keep up with the scheudle you've been keeping the past week or two without becoming exhausted. It's so hard to see clearly when we've been under protracted stress and when we haven't been getting enough rest. It's been a long time since you've been able to get a full night sleep so the additional stress of the family illness is just pushing that level of exhaustion to a deeper level and that's what is making you question how well you're doing meeting Trevor's needs. All of us who have been following your story know how much you love and how much you do for Trevor. Frankly, it's not possible for you to fail him. You consistently put Trevor's needs ahead of your own, how could you fail him by doing that? I think you may be judging youself by an impossible standard of perfection. If you think you're failing him, please ask yourself what anyone could possibly do that's greater than what you do every day? If it were possible to instantly heal him, you would. But nobody in this world has that power, please don't blame yourself for not having an ability that none of us has. I promise you, if you view it objectively, you'll realize that you're doing all that can be done and nobody would have the ability to do more. You're just sleep and rest deprived, you poor little thing. No wonder you feel sad and overwhelmed (and big hug to you)
Bobbie, if at all possible, please try to get a little rest, sleep and time for yourself this weekend. You are an amazing caregiver but sometimes the caregivers must draw a line in the sand and decide it's time to give care to themselves. I think you've reached the point where you need a little down time to decompress and definitely some time to get uninterupted sleep. You are an amazing person who is always giving to others, including Trevor. Once you've had a chance to recharge, I think you'll be better able to wrap some perspecitive around the situation without judging yourself so harshly. Truly, there is nothing that you don't do for Trevor and you do more than the majority of people would. And you do it all with love. Please treat yourself with that same love and compassion. You are a wonderful Mom to Trevor. You are an amazing family member who's always there for everyone in need - and like now, sometimes they all need at once. Please try to let go of the guilt and the judging of yourself, at least until you've gotten through this rough patch and have a chance to catch your breath. I'm betting that once you get a little down time and distance, you'll realize that you're already doing everything possible for Trevor and what you feel guilty about is you can't magically create a new treatment plan for him, to make all the ill health go away.
And for the record, Trevor may not have ever had a good day BEFORE becoming a member of your family, but no dog could be more loved than he is now. So he HAS gotten the best. With dogs, they're so much better than humans at letting go of the past hurts and just focusing on the ever present now. No matter what, from 2009 on, he's been one of the most loved and cared for dogs in the world. Doesn't matter what came before that, he has a loving family who does everything in ther power to help him and make sure he knows he's loved. Who in this world can ask for more than that? Many humans never experience that kind of blessing and I'm sure Trevor knows that you'll always be there for him, which is why he requires the comfort of your 'size 11 shoes'!
You all are always in my prayers and right now, I"m praying you all get a good night sleep and start fresh in the morning, with Trevor being back on track with his meds. Good night my sweet friend, who is always much too hard on herself!!
Big hug to you and Trevor!
Love
Peggy
Dear Bobbie
I echo everything that Peggy has written, and I wanted you to know that I am thinking of you and Stan and your beloved Trevor and sending great big HUGs to you all.
Jan and my Angels and Pixie xx
I echo everything that Peggy has written, and I wanted you to know that I am thinking of you and Stan and your beloved Trevor and sending great big HUGs to you all.
Jan and my Angels and Pixie xx
Oh Bob,
How could I know you were hurting so much inside? It is so sad and crushing to have to stand by someone you love who's in pain and not be able to do anything about it. I echo everything Peggy said (isn't she great!). Who on earth can have loved a dog and done so much for him than you have loved Trevor? Peggy's right. Before he became a LaSov, he probably never had even an average day in his poor life. Yeah, gotta draw the line on some of these folks who, rightly or wrongly, demand something of you. Everybody only takes a little piece but put them all together and pretty soon there's only a tiny, ragged you. Tell you-know-who to take a vacation in Gehenna. And spend all your time petting Trevor (unless he gets annoyed and walks away :).
I know my Gretta was in pain and just didn't show it. She was in so much pain that she died of it and still she tried to put on a brave face. She must have been comforted by my petting and affection, even though I couldn't save her life. It was her time and she went on to heaven. Please take all my strength and make it yours. I've got some to give right now. And know, KNOW, that very best medicine Trevor has is your love and your pats on the head. Your heart must be in shreds and if all your Lightning Strike friends - including me - could each take a little on themselves, we surely will.
Like Peggy says, you are NOT failing your Trevor. You are doing and giving everything, EVERYTHING, humanly possible to keep Trevor comforted in both body and soul. And he KNOWS that. That's why we love dogs so much - they know us through and through and still love us! And they know that, even though they're hurting, a love ray is coming through and they're NOT alone. There's a warm, soft love ray coming through - your wonder-love for them. Trust me, Bob, I would do ANYTHING for you and for Trevor - you know that. All your Lightning Strike friends are propping up your heart and Trevor's heart. I know we can't work miracles, but we CAN give you back a small portion of the love you are giving beautiful Trevor. You work miracles, sis.
XOXO Gretta's mom
How could I know you were hurting so much inside? It is so sad and crushing to have to stand by someone you love who's in pain and not be able to do anything about it. I echo everything Peggy said (isn't she great!). Who on earth can have loved a dog and done so much for him than you have loved Trevor? Peggy's right. Before he became a LaSov, he probably never had even an average day in his poor life. Yeah, gotta draw the line on some of these folks who, rightly or wrongly, demand something of you. Everybody only takes a little piece but put them all together and pretty soon there's only a tiny, ragged you. Tell you-know-who to take a vacation in Gehenna. And spend all your time petting Trevor (unless he gets annoyed and walks away :).
I know my Gretta was in pain and just didn't show it. She was in so much pain that she died of it and still she tried to put on a brave face. She must have been comforted by my petting and affection, even though I couldn't save her life. It was her time and she went on to heaven. Please take all my strength and make it yours. I've got some to give right now. And know, KNOW, that very best medicine Trevor has is your love and your pats on the head. Your heart must be in shreds and if all your Lightning Strike friends - including me - could each take a little on themselves, we surely will.
Like Peggy says, you are NOT failing your Trevor. You are doing and giving everything, EVERYTHING, humanly possible to keep Trevor comforted in both body and soul. And he KNOWS that. That's why we love dogs so much - they know us through and through and still love us! And they know that, even though they're hurting, a love ray is coming through and they're NOT alone. There's a warm, soft love ray coming through - your wonder-love for them. Trust me, Bob, I would do ANYTHING for you and for Trevor - you know that. All your Lightning Strike friends are propping up your heart and Trevor's heart. I know we can't work miracles, but we CAN give you back a small portion of the love you are giving beautiful Trevor. You work miracles, sis.
XOXO Gretta's mom
Hi, Bobbie, thank you so much for sharing with us how your precious Trevor and you are doing. I can only echo Peggy's and Gretta's wise words to you, so please read them often and take comfort in them. To emphasize what they said, you are NOT failing Trevor - - so please try to take comfort in knowing that you are doing EVERYTHING possible to give your precious Trevor a comfortable journey home to the angels. And please know that, even if you are faced in having to make "the decision" on his behalf - - you are giving him the most precious gift of love - - at great sacrifice to you - - so that he can be healed and restored to his former youthfulness in the company of the angels. Unfortunately the physical body can continue to "exist" well beyond any semblence of "quality of life" - - and I do so understand how you're struggling of knowing if / when the need for making "the decision" for your precious Trevor is quickly approaching.
I truly wish I could be there with you, Bobbie, to help you and your precious Trevor - - to give you a "respite" so that you can have the rest your body and mind and spirit so desperately need. Although I cannot be with you physically please know I am with you in spirit, my friend. Hopefully sometime today you and Trevor can curl up together and take a long, peaceful nap together.
Bobbie, please know you and your precious Trevor are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I look forward to knowing how you and your precious Trevor are doing.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
I truly wish I could be there with you, Bobbie, to help you and your precious Trevor - - to give you a "respite" so that you can have the rest your body and mind and spirit so desperately need. Although I cannot be with you physically please know I am with you in spirit, my friend. Hopefully sometime today you and Trevor can curl up together and take a long, peaceful nap together.
Bobbie, please know you and your precious Trevor are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I look forward to knowing how you and your precious Trevor are doing.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Dear Bobbie,
I too, echo what these sweet ladies have said. I just want you to know that I have been thinking of you and Trevor. You, Trevor, and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Take care......God Bless you and your sweet little Trevor.
LoveMyMickey
I too, echo what these sweet ladies have said. I just want you to know that I have been thinking of you and Trevor. You, Trevor, and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Take care......God Bless you and your sweet little Trevor.
LoveMyMickey
Thank you so much, LoveMyMickey, for your thoughts, prayers and support.
I don't know if people are getting tired of my posting Trevor's progress or lack thereof, but it sure helps me. And I have received such loving responses from so many wonderful people, you included.
Well, my well intentioned plan to take Trevor off his Prednisone went right in the toilet this afternoon. This morning was Trevor's first day getting just 1mg of Pred in the morning. For the past couple days he has required a higher dose of Tramadol to be comfortable. And now I know why. Around 3:30 pm Trevor started shaking his head, pacing, pawing at his blanket and the carpet, being very restless and generally miserable. He was in the most pain I've seen in quite some time. I immediately gave him a dose of Tramadol, Neurontin (Gabapentin), antihistamine (Hydroxizine) and a sedative (Acepromazine) AND 2 mg Prednisone. It took quite awhile for the meds to take effect and, finally, Trevor fell asleep. for only 45 minutes! With the amount of medication he got he should still be sleeping. But at least when he woke up he wasn't in pain. He was kind of slow moving and his feet kept sliding out from under him (on the kitchen floor), but he was still hungry and that was a good sign. NOW, I have decided that the discomfort of Trevor's panting in the evening cannot be as painful as what I witnessed today. So we're back on 2mg Pred twice a day. I'm so sorry Trevor had to go through such pain today. I'm going to be more diligent in my decision making from now on.
My husband was asking me what are the maximum doses of Tramadol and Neurontin. He feels we sholdn't just keep increasing doses of medications indefinitely. I told him that the only way I would not give Trevor increased pain medication was 1) if the drug then produced paradoxic effects of causing pain itself 2) the drug was just not working any more. But I did promise to get in touch with Trevor's neurologist to double check.
Trevor is sleeping soundly on his comforter in our bedroom and that's all that matters for tonight. Tomorrow is another day and I hope I can stay home with Trevor all day.
Thanks, everyone, for listening again. You are the BEST!
Bobbie
I don't know if people are getting tired of my posting Trevor's progress or lack thereof, but it sure helps me. And I have received such loving responses from so many wonderful people, you included.
Well, my well intentioned plan to take Trevor off his Prednisone went right in the toilet this afternoon. This morning was Trevor's first day getting just 1mg of Pred in the morning. For the past couple days he has required a higher dose of Tramadol to be comfortable. And now I know why. Around 3:30 pm Trevor started shaking his head, pacing, pawing at his blanket and the carpet, being very restless and generally miserable. He was in the most pain I've seen in quite some time. I immediately gave him a dose of Tramadol, Neurontin (Gabapentin), antihistamine (Hydroxizine) and a sedative (Acepromazine) AND 2 mg Prednisone. It took quite awhile for the meds to take effect and, finally, Trevor fell asleep. for only 45 minutes! With the amount of medication he got he should still be sleeping. But at least when he woke up he wasn't in pain. He was kind of slow moving and his feet kept sliding out from under him (on the kitchen floor), but he was still hungry and that was a good sign. NOW, I have decided that the discomfort of Trevor's panting in the evening cannot be as painful as what I witnessed today. So we're back on 2mg Pred twice a day. I'm so sorry Trevor had to go through such pain today. I'm going to be more diligent in my decision making from now on.
My husband was asking me what are the maximum doses of Tramadol and Neurontin. He feels we sholdn't just keep increasing doses of medications indefinitely. I told him that the only way I would not give Trevor increased pain medication was 1) if the drug then produced paradoxic effects of causing pain itself 2) the drug was just not working any more. But I did promise to get in touch with Trevor's neurologist to double check.
Trevor is sleeping soundly on his comforter in our bedroom and that's all that matters for tonight. Tomorrow is another day and I hope I can stay home with Trevor all day.
Thanks, everyone, for listening again. You are the BEST!
Bobbie
Hi, Bobbie, thank you so much for sharing with us how your precious Trevor and you are doing. Please know that we will NEVER tire of sharing your news - - not ever. In fact, if you don't post a daily journal on how Trevor is doing I get really worried. So please keep sharing with us how your precious Trevor and you are doing.
Your husband is very astute about the medications - - so you are wise to check in with the neurologist about the dosages. There does come a point in time when medications reach their "maximum" effectiveness. I hope the neurologist will be able to give you good guidelines for Trevor's continued pain management.
I hope your precious Trevor and you had a peaceful night last night, and that you both are having a good day together. Please know you both are in my thoughts and prayers, my friend, and will look forward to knowing how things are going whenever possible.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Your husband is very astute about the medications - - so you are wise to check in with the neurologist about the dosages. There does come a point in time when medications reach their "maximum" effectiveness. I hope the neurologist will be able to give you good guidelines for Trevor's continued pain management.
I hope your precious Trevor and you had a peaceful night last night, and that you both are having a good day together. Please know you both are in my thoughts and prayers, my friend, and will look forward to knowing how things are going whenever possible.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Hello Everyone,
Well, Trevor continues to suffer at the hands of my stupidity this evening. I bumped his Prednisone right back up to 2mg two times a day, hoping that it can get into his system faster. But I guess it doesn't work THAT fast. I'll never make that mistake again.
Trevor started having increased pain around 7 pm and within 20 minutes he was almost beside himself. I loaded him up with Tramadol, Neurontin, Hydroxizine and Acepromazine, although not at the therapuetic doses we use for bedtime. It took a long time for Trevor to start to settle down and even then he had to know where I was at all times. This went on until around 9pm when he finally lay down on his comforter (in the living room) with me and went to sleep for a half-hour. Then it was bedtime and I gave him his meds all over again. It's now midnight and he just settled in to his sleep for the night a few minutes ago. That is why I am able to jot this quick note.
I hope the Prednisone kicks in soon and I'm even willing to go up to 3 mg BID until I can get ahold of his neurologist (who is on vacatioon until some time in June). But I think we are good for tonight.
Thank you, my friends, for your continuing interest in Trevor and your unyielding support of his mother!
XOXOxo
Bobbie
Well, Trevor continues to suffer at the hands of my stupidity this evening. I bumped his Prednisone right back up to 2mg two times a day, hoping that it can get into his system faster. But I guess it doesn't work THAT fast. I'll never make that mistake again.
Trevor started having increased pain around 7 pm and within 20 minutes he was almost beside himself. I loaded him up with Tramadol, Neurontin, Hydroxizine and Acepromazine, although not at the therapuetic doses we use for bedtime. It took a long time for Trevor to start to settle down and even then he had to know where I was at all times. This went on until around 9pm when he finally lay down on his comforter (in the living room) with me and went to sleep for a half-hour. Then it was bedtime and I gave him his meds all over again. It's now midnight and he just settled in to his sleep for the night a few minutes ago. That is why I am able to jot this quick note.
I hope the Prednisone kicks in soon and I'm even willing to go up to 3 mg BID until I can get ahold of his neurologist (who is on vacatioon until some time in June). But I think we are good for tonight.
Thank you, my friends, for your continuing interest in Trevor and your unyielding support of his mother!
XOXOxo
Bobbie
Hi, Bobbie, as always thank you so much for sharing with us how your precious Trevor and you are doing. Bobbie, you tried to see if your precious boy could tolerate a lower dose of meds, and that's okay - - it's what any vet would ask - - to try to keep his maintenance dosage as low as possible because of the cumulative side effects on the rest of the body. Now you know that your precious Trevor needs higher doses - - that's what you needed to know for his LONG TERM care. So please give yourself some credit here for doing the absolute best thing for your beloved Trevor, okay?
I hope your precious Trevor and you had a very peaceful and restful evening last night, and that you both are having a peaceful and comfortable day. Please know you both are in my thoughts and prayers, my friend, and look forward to knowing how your precious is Trevor is doing whenever possible.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
I hope your precious Trevor and you had a very peaceful and restful evening last night, and that you both are having a peaceful and comfortable day. Please know you both are in my thoughts and prayers, my friend, and look forward to knowing how your precious is Trevor is doing whenever possible.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Hi Bobbie,
Just wanted to check in to see how you and Trevor are doing. I echo 100% what our wonderful, wise Moon_Beam said to you. It's all trial and error. It's not like you just threw out Trevor's owners manual cause you didn't feel you needed it. All you can do is your best, through trial and error, to determine what works best and what doesn't work well at all. Name one person for me who would know the answer to that without testing?? Not even the Dr could have known that answer without testing it first. Please (!!) try to cut yourself a little slack when you fail to correctly guess 'the correct answers' when nobody would have those answers without some kind of testing! (said with love!!)
You have been very much on my mind and I hope you've had an opportunity to take a little time to rest, recharge and spend some quality time relaxing with Trevor. I'm also praying that Trevor has a restful and pain-free night. My wish for you is to have a night of blessed, uninterupted sleep that recharges the body and soul.
Take care my sweet friend and know that you all remain in my thoughts and prayers.
Big hug!
Peggy
Just wanted to check in to see how you and Trevor are doing. I echo 100% what our wonderful, wise Moon_Beam said to you. It's all trial and error. It's not like you just threw out Trevor's owners manual cause you didn't feel you needed it. All you can do is your best, through trial and error, to determine what works best and what doesn't work well at all. Name one person for me who would know the answer to that without testing?? Not even the Dr could have known that answer without testing it first. Please (!!) try to cut yourself a little slack when you fail to correctly guess 'the correct answers' when nobody would have those answers without some kind of testing! (said with love!!)
You have been very much on my mind and I hope you've had an opportunity to take a little time to rest, recharge and spend some quality time relaxing with Trevor. I'm also praying that Trevor has a restful and pain-free night. My wish for you is to have a night of blessed, uninterupted sleep that recharges the body and soul.
Take care my sweet friend and know that you all remain in my thoughts and prayers.
Big hug!
Peggy
Hi, Bobbie, just stopping by to say hello to you and your precious Trevor. I hope today is being kind to you both, and that you had a very peaceful night last night. I hope you and your precious Trevor will have a peaceful evening tonight as well.
Bobbie, please know you and your precious Trevor are in my thoughts and prayers, and will look forward to knowing how you both are doing whenever possible.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Bobbie, please know you and your precious Trevor are in my thoughts and prayers, and will look forward to knowing how you both are doing whenever possible.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Dear Bobbie,
I just want to say hello and to let you know you and Trevor are in my thoughts and prayers. I hope you both have a peaceful night.
God Bless you both!
LoveMyMickey
I just want to say hello and to let you know you and Trevor are in my thoughts and prayers. I hope you both have a peaceful night.
God Bless you both!
LoveMyMickey
Bobbie,
I just finished reading of your journey with Trevor. I am in no position to give any advice, but I want you to know that I am sorry for the roller coaster you are on. Your love for Trevor is so evident, and he is lucky to have you.
I read this great blog the other day from a woman who said she never did know it was time, even though everyone kept telling her that she would. She just made the best decision she could and learned to live with it. And I've read of pet owners who say there beloved companions were playful or engaging until the moment they passed, even though they were riddled with cancer or some other disease that must have been causing them great discomfort. It is so confusing and difficult.
Anyway, my thoughts are with you as you endure the ups and downs with Trevor.
Michelle
I just finished reading of your journey with Trevor. I am in no position to give any advice, but I want you to know that I am sorry for the roller coaster you are on. Your love for Trevor is so evident, and he is lucky to have you.
I read this great blog the other day from a woman who said she never did know it was time, even though everyone kept telling her that she would. She just made the best decision she could and learned to live with it. And I've read of pet owners who say there beloved companions were playful or engaging until the moment they passed, even though they were riddled with cancer or some other disease that must have been causing them great discomfort. It is so confusing and difficult.
Anyway, my thoughts are with you as you endure the ups and downs with Trevor.
Michelle
Thank you, Michelle, for your kind message just before your unimaginable loss.
Trevor has had some bad times during the past few days. He's up to 2 Tramadol & 2 Gabapentin every 3 hours or so. I coantinue to be quite liberal with my use of the Tramadol and other meds. I have to keep my word: if I can help it, Trevor will not be in pain.
Also wanted to let everyone know that in less than 48 hours TREVOR WILL HAVE LIVED WITH US, AND BEEN A LASOV, FOR TWO YEARS!!!!!!!!! I am so grateful to eveyone who has helped us get to this point, and that includes everyone here on lightning-strike. Since his Anniversary will be on a Monday, and daddy has to work, I am going to stay home all day with Trevor and do hatever his little heart desires. And, of course, I'll let you all know all about everything we did.
It's so nice to be happy about this!
Bobbie
Trevor has had some bad times during the past few days. He's up to 2 Tramadol & 2 Gabapentin every 3 hours or so. I coantinue to be quite liberal with my use of the Tramadol and other meds. I have to keep my word: if I can help it, Trevor will not be in pain.
Also wanted to let everyone know that in less than 48 hours TREVOR WILL HAVE LIVED WITH US, AND BEEN A LASOV, FOR TWO YEARS!!!!!!!!! I am so grateful to eveyone who has helped us get to this point, and that includes everyone here on lightning-strike. Since his Anniversary will be on a Monday, and daddy has to work, I am going to stay home all day with Trevor and do hatever his little heart desires. And, of course, I'll let you all know all about everything we did.
It's so nice to be happy about this!
Bobbie
Dear Bobbie,
Happy Anniversary to you all! I hope you get some rest on Sunday, that Trevor is doing well and you both get to have some fun together on Monday!
Take care and all of you are in my prayers.
Big hug to you!
Peggy
Happy Anniversary to you all! I hope you get some rest on Sunday, that Trevor is doing well and you both get to have some fun together on Monday!
Take care and all of you are in my prayers.
Big hug to you!
Peggy
Hi, Bobbie, thank you so much for letting us know how your precious Trevor and you are doing. What a wonderful anniversary you are going to celebrate on Monday. I am so glad you're going to be able to stay home with your precious boy to help make the day as festive as possible.
Bobbie, please know you and your precious Trevor are frequently in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to knowing how you both are doing.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Bobbie, please know you and your precious Trevor are frequently in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to knowing how you both are doing.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Hello Every One of My New Friends!
Well, today (Sunday) wasn't one of Trevor's better days. We had to leave him for more than 3 hours to go visit my sister-in-law who has been in the hospital for almost a month now. Pushing the envelope past 3 hours just doesn't work now. So Trevor got several doses of pain meds every 2 hours until all blood levels seemed to be high enough. Tonight I'm going to sleep on the floor with him.
His daddy bought him a box of assorted gourmet cookies and we started his 2 year celebration this evening. I just thank God for Trevor coming into our lives (actually my previous C-o-c-ker Spaniel, Rudy, sent him to us 5 months to the day after he (Rudy) passed away). I'm glad that the Breed Rescue group lied through their teeth about him so we would take him (off their hands). I'm glad that we found out what Trevor's REAL issues are and that we have dealt with him with as much love, compassion, understanding and support we can muster. And I can muster a LOT. Do I mind that our carpeting is completely ruined and stinks of doggy pee? NO Do I wish people could come into our house without seeing the 35 puppy pads all over the downstairs (we're not counting all those upstairs, either)? NO The people that come into my house know Trevor and love Trevor for Trevor. I'm even glad that, somehow, so many years ago I was disabled from a surgery that makes me stay home and not work. I didn't know it until 2 years ago, but part of the Master Life Plan was obviously to be with Trevor. I am his Rock, his mommy who loves every cell in his body. I build my life around Trevor and that's just the way it is. As long as Trevor is on this earth, his needs come first. What Trevor wants, Trevor gets. I would put that on his tombstone, but we have something even better for it. It came from a close neighbor who made signs one day and put them around our houses. It said: "Trevor for President. a fella you can trust!". And that's going to be his epitath: a fella you can trust.
Right now, my sorrow, frustrations, fears and fatigue are at bay. I am able to smile even when just thinking of my boy. Tomorrow is going to be a good day. No matter what happens it will be the happiest day for Trevor.
Thank you all for your good wishes. I really should make a cake. Happy Birthday/Anniversary Mr. Trevor!
Love you all!
Bobbie
Well, today (Sunday) wasn't one of Trevor's better days. We had to leave him for more than 3 hours to go visit my sister-in-law who has been in the hospital for almost a month now. Pushing the envelope past 3 hours just doesn't work now. So Trevor got several doses of pain meds every 2 hours until all blood levels seemed to be high enough. Tonight I'm going to sleep on the floor with him.
His daddy bought him a box of assorted gourmet cookies and we started his 2 year celebration this evening. I just thank God for Trevor coming into our lives (actually my previous C-o-c-ker Spaniel, Rudy, sent him to us 5 months to the day after he (Rudy) passed away). I'm glad that the Breed Rescue group lied through their teeth about him so we would take him (off their hands). I'm glad that we found out what Trevor's REAL issues are and that we have dealt with him with as much love, compassion, understanding and support we can muster. And I can muster a LOT. Do I mind that our carpeting is completely ruined and stinks of doggy pee? NO Do I wish people could come into our house without seeing the 35 puppy pads all over the downstairs (we're not counting all those upstairs, either)? NO The people that come into my house know Trevor and love Trevor for Trevor. I'm even glad that, somehow, so many years ago I was disabled from a surgery that makes me stay home and not work. I didn't know it until 2 years ago, but part of the Master Life Plan was obviously to be with Trevor. I am his Rock, his mommy who loves every cell in his body. I build my life around Trevor and that's just the way it is. As long as Trevor is on this earth, his needs come first. What Trevor wants, Trevor gets. I would put that on his tombstone, but we have something even better for it. It came from a close neighbor who made signs one day and put them around our houses. It said: "Trevor for President. a fella you can trust!". And that's going to be his epitath: a fella you can trust.
Right now, my sorrow, frustrations, fears and fatigue are at bay. I am able to smile even when just thinking of my boy. Tomorrow is going to be a good day. No matter what happens it will be the happiest day for Trevor.
Thank you all for your good wishes. I really should make a cake. Happy Birthday/Anniversary Mr. Trevor!
Love you all!
Bobbie
Hi Bobbie
I just wrote a post that went into the ether. It said LOVE LOVE LOVE and HAPPY BIRTHDAY and BLESSINGS TO YOU for giving so much love to God's creatures.
XOXOXO Gretta, Rufus, Jeanne
I just wrote a post that went into the ether. It said LOVE LOVE LOVE and HAPPY BIRTHDAY and BLESSINGS TO YOU for giving so much love to God's creatures.
XOXOXO Gretta, Rufus, Jeanne
Happy anniversary Trevor! You are one lucky fellow to have such wonderful humans in your life.
Kaylasmom (Shelby)
Kaylasmom (Shelby)
Bobbie,
It sounds like a big day for your whole family. I hope it is one of Trevor's better days today. It sounds as though you are treating him to a fine anniversary and nurturing him so much. I hope you also keep nurturing yourself too.
Michelle
It sounds like a big day for your whole family. I hope it is one of Trevor's better days today. It sounds as though you are treating him to a fine anniversary and nurturing him so much. I hope you also keep nurturing yourself too.
Michelle
Dear Sweet Trevor,
You found the most loving devoted mommy and family two years ago! "HAPPY ANNIVERSARY" and enjoy those cookies. I hope you have a pain free day.
Many hugs to you,
LoveMyMickey
You found the most loving devoted mommy and family two years ago! "HAPPY ANNIVERSARY" and enjoy those cookies. I hope you have a pain free day.
Many hugs to you,
LoveMyMickey
Hi, Bobbie, thank you so much for sharing with us how your precious Trevor and you are doing, and I hope your sister-in-law is progressing in her recovery.
I know your precious Trevor will have a GLORIOUS day with you - - each day is a CELEBRATION - - cherish them, Bobbie, as I know you already are.
Please know you and your precious Trevor are in my thoughts and prayers, my friend, and look forward to knowing how you both are doing.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
I know your precious Trevor will have a GLORIOUS day with you - - each day is a CELEBRATION - - cherish them, Bobbie, as I know you already are.
Please know you and your precious Trevor are in my thoughts and prayers, my friend, and look forward to knowing how you both are doing.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Dear Gretta'smom, kaylasmom, Peggy, Michelle, LoveMyMickey and MoonBeam and all the other wonderful folks on this site.
First, thank you sooooooooooo much for your happy wishes to Trevor and us. I was simply amazed all day by the fact that Trevor was even here in the first place! And that turned into immediate gratitude to all the powers-that-be for bringing Trevor into our lives. I took on a huge responsibility two years ago and my husband wasn't at all sure that it would "work". I was. From the first time I saw Trevor's picture on the rescue group website, I knew he was mine. No two ways about it. I had NO idea that Trevor would need as much love as he does, but I have more than he will ever need, and then some. I really wondered if we would make it to this day and now it is 5 minutes away from tomorrow!
Trevor was uncomfortable today and I did have to leave him to get my glasses repaired, but by the time supper rolled around, Trevor had a big tummy ache from all the gourmet cookies and the biggest grin on his face, with his tongue hanging almost down to his knees! Mommy got the most important thing accomplished today: Trevor's day! (My husband always asks, "Isn't that EVERYday?") I can't tell you what we did today, but a lot of it involved lying on the floor, in front of the fan, holding onto each other's hands. Perfect.
Now, Trevor is fast asleep. And I'm on my way there, too. Again, thank you for sharing in the time of our lives!
XOXOxo
Bobbie
PS: Trevor still has cookies for tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
First, thank you sooooooooooo much for your happy wishes to Trevor and us. I was simply amazed all day by the fact that Trevor was even here in the first place! And that turned into immediate gratitude to all the powers-that-be for bringing Trevor into our lives. I took on a huge responsibility two years ago and my husband wasn't at all sure that it would "work". I was. From the first time I saw Trevor's picture on the rescue group website, I knew he was mine. No two ways about it. I had NO idea that Trevor would need as much love as he does, but I have more than he will ever need, and then some. I really wondered if we would make it to this day and now it is 5 minutes away from tomorrow!
Trevor was uncomfortable today and I did have to leave him to get my glasses repaired, but by the time supper rolled around, Trevor had a big tummy ache from all the gourmet cookies and the biggest grin on his face, with his tongue hanging almost down to his knees! Mommy got the most important thing accomplished today: Trevor's day! (My husband always asks, "Isn't that EVERYday?") I can't tell you what we did today, but a lot of it involved lying on the floor, in front of the fan, holding onto each other's hands. Perfect.
Now, Trevor is fast asleep. And I'm on my way there, too. Again, thank you for sharing in the time of our lives!
XOXOxo
Bobbie
PS: Trevor still has cookies for tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Dearest Bobbie,
I'm so glad you both enjoyed a good day together! I got a visual of you lying there with Trevor, holding hands and paws, with the fan blowing on you. ADORABLE!! It's great that Trevor was able to enjoy so many special treats and I love Stan's comment about EVERY day being Trevor's day. LOL Stan is a hoot!
I hope your SIL is doing better and that you were able to get a little rest, while sharing some special time with Trevor.
Big hug to you! And you know you're always in our thoughts and prayers!
Peggy (and Mom-Mom)!!
I'm so glad you both enjoyed a good day together! I got a visual of you lying there with Trevor, holding hands and paws, with the fan blowing on you. ADORABLE!!
It's great that Trevor was able to enjoy so many special treats and I love Stan's comment about EVERY day being Trevor's day. LOL Stan is a hoot!I hope your SIL is doing better and that you were able to get a little rest, while sharing some special time with Trevor.
Big hug to you! And you know you're always in our thoughts and prayers!
Peggy (and Mom-Mom)!!
Hi, Bobbie, thank you so very much for sharing with us how your precious Trevor and you are doing. What a BEAUTIFUL image of you and your precious Trevor lying together holding hands (brings to mind The Beatles' first big hit, "I Wanna Hold Your Hand").
I hope today is being kind to you and your precious Trevor, and that you both will have a peaceful and blissful night. Please know you both are close in my thoughts and prayers, and will look forward to knowing how you're doing.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
I hope today is being kind to you and your precious Trevor, and that you both will have a peaceful and blissful night. Please know you both are close in my thoughts and prayers, and will look forward to knowing how you're doing.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Hi, Bobbie, just stopping by to say hello and to let you know you and your precious Trevor are close in my thoughts and prayers. I hope today is treating you both kindly, and will look forward to knowing how you both are doing whenever possible.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Thanks, Moon Beam, for your interest in Trevor!
I have one quick story to share and then I have to get to bed.
Last night, Trevor had a really bad night. I finally loaded him up with as much medication as I dared to. He didn't fall asleep until after 2 am, so neither did I! Soon it was 6:30 and time to get up. I was really tired and worried about Trevor. I got dressed and headed downstairs. I put out Trevor's morning pills on the counter like I do every morning. Then I proceeded to get Stan's lunch ready and take my pills. Stan left for work a little after 7 am and I went to get Trevor's pills and put them in his dog food meat ball.
The pills were gone! The counter was empty - nothing there! At first I was confused, then I checked my pill case and, sure enough, my pills for Thursday we in their case, nice and pretty. I knew what I had done. I took Trevor's pills!!!!!! Lucky for me, Trevor was supposed to get 2 Gabapentin (Neurontin), 2 Tramadol and 4 mg Prednisone. Everything was for humans and nothing was going to hurt me for one day, but I knew the Tramadol would make me sleepy. I hurried up and got Trevor his pills and then downstairs where I fell asleep around 8:30 am and slept until noon!
Time to get more sleep and be more careful!
I hope life is treating you well. Trevor is a little better tonight.
Love,
Bobbie
I have one quick story to share and then I have to get to bed.
Last night, Trevor had a really bad night. I finally loaded him up with as much medication as I dared to. He didn't fall asleep until after 2 am, so neither did I! Soon it was 6:30 and time to get up. I was really tired and worried about Trevor. I got dressed and headed downstairs. I put out Trevor's morning pills on the counter like I do every morning. Then I proceeded to get Stan's lunch ready and take my pills. Stan left for work a little after 7 am and I went to get Trevor's pills and put them in his dog food meat ball.
The pills were gone! The counter was empty - nothing there! At first I was confused, then I checked my pill case and, sure enough, my pills for Thursday we in their case, nice and pretty. I knew what I had done. I took Trevor's pills!!!!!! Lucky for me, Trevor was supposed to get 2 Gabapentin (Neurontin), 2 Tramadol and 4 mg Prednisone. Everything was for humans and nothing was going to hurt me for one day, but I knew the Tramadol would make me sleepy. I hurried up and got Trevor his pills and then downstairs where I fell asleep around 8:30 am and slept until noon!
Time to get more sleep and be more careful!
I hope life is treating you well. Trevor is a little better tonight.
Love,
Bobbie
Hi, Bobbie, thank you so much for sharing with us how your precious Trevor and you are doing. I must confess I am chuckling about you're taking Trevor's meds. I'm so o o o VERY GLAD you had no adverse effects, perhaps some very badly needed restorative slumber??? (Thank you, Trevor.)
I'm so sorry that Trevor had a bad night. I hope and pray that today will be kind to both your precious Trevor and to you, and that you both will have a very blessed holiday weekend.
Bobbie, thank you again so o o o o very much for letting us know how your precious Trevor and you are doing. Each day is a "victory" for you both. Please know you and your precious Trevor are in my thoughts and prayers, and I do look forward to sharing how things are going.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
I'm so sorry that Trevor had a bad night. I hope and pray that today will be kind to both your precious Trevor and to you, and that you both will have a very blessed holiday weekend.
Bobbie, thank you again so o o o o very much for letting us know how your precious Trevor and you are doing. Each day is a "victory" for you both. Please know you and your precious Trevor are in my thoughts and prayers, and I do look forward to sharing how things are going.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Hi, Bobbie, it's been awhile since we've had an update on your precious Trevor. I hope your precious Trevor and you are doing well - - as can be under the circumstances. Please know you both are in my thoughts and prayers every day that life is treating you both kindly. Will look forward to sharing your news whenever possible.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Hi, Bobbie, just stopping by to say "hello" to let you and your precious Trevor know you are in my thoughts and prayers. I hope life is treating you both kindly, Bobbie.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Hello everyone,
I haven't been on here for a long time. Many relatives have been very sick or are dying that all my time was taken with their needs. I thought Trevor was holding his own, which he was for the most part. There would be good days and not that many bad days.
But things are changing. The relatives are either getting better or are in holding patterns and now I see how much I wasn't paying attenton to Trevor. He would sleep all morning long and I'd try to get as many things done around the house or out shopping as possible. I wasn't spending time with him. When evening would come 'round, my husband wanted me to sepnd time and attention with him. Trevor lost out again.
Trevor is not doing well. To give you an idea: twice this evening Trevor has let me pick him up and carry him into the living room. Any other time in his life he would have bitten my arm(s) off. Trevor was in a lot of pain early this afternoon so I've given him quite a bit of Tramadol & Neurontin. At one point, he also got acepromazine and hydroyzine so he could sleep for a few hours. Stan came home and Trevor got up after just a couple hours. I left on a quest to find the small training rewards liver and beef treats we use to help him down the stairs in the morning and when I got back after a couple hours, Trevor was a changed dog. He had great difficulty keeping up on his feet even on the carpet. When he was on the floor and/or puppy pads, his feet just slid out from under him, front legs first, back legs out to each side. When I would try to lift him by his harness and with my other hand under his bottom, that would last just a few seconds, since I could not move forward at the same time. Stan (who isn't being much help right now) kept telling me that Trevor was "fine" while I was gone. I don't see how that could be. Finally, the first time I picked him up I took him from the kitchen into the living room and put him down on his blanket. That didn't last too long, when Trevor wanted to get up and go back into the hallway to pee. He immediately slid down onto the pads/floor with all his legs splayed out, peeing on the gads at the same time. I got a bath towel, picked up Trevor again and brought him to his comforter where I gently tried to dry off his bottom and tummy as best I could. Then he fell asleep on his blanket. Stan is also telling me that perhaps Trevor is too "doped up" to be able to walk right. I don't know. But I just don't have a good feeling. I cried all afternoon while Stan was gone and tried to stay right next to Trevor the entire time. I can't talk to my sister because she isn't home right now and is busy with other family members.
I just feel soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo badly. I'm beginning to think that I am being selfish keeping Trevor here with me, in pain or sleeping all the time. Whose quality of life are we talking about here: his or mine? Here comes the agony or knowing what the future truly holds whereas Trevor doesn't. How and when do I do the truly RIGHT thing for Trevor? I love him more than anything/anyone in this world. I love him with every fiber of my being. I hardly go out much because I don't want to leave him alone in the house, even though he can't wait for the box of Frosted Shredded Mini-wheats to come out because he's going to get some all by himself. My brain says "Be good to Trevor", my heart screams "Please don't leave me here by myself, Trevor" "I can't do it without you" "You are the one that loves me, enjoys my company, doesn't care how I look or smell, follows around everywhere and doesn't like me to leave your sight even during the night." I don't feel guilty, I feel terrified. I know the routine. I've done it 7 times already. I DON'T WANT TO DO IT AGAIN AND ESPECIALLY TO TREVOR!"
Instead of just the comforting words, would you mind telling me what I should do? I know that is the impossible question to answer. But, I need all of your help, comfort, lifting and holding me up right now.
I'm going to go downstairs to lie with Trevor again. My mind races with all the chores that need to be done around here. But I don't give a darn. I know Stan feels shut out, but then he's not doing or saying anything at this point, either. Thank you, each and every one of you, my friends, for reading this and allowing me to cry while I write it. I never cried when my mother died - not once. But I can't get through a few minutes now without the tears.
I love you all!
Bobbie with a heart that is breaking.
I haven't been on here for a long time. Many relatives have been very sick or are dying that all my time was taken with their needs. I thought Trevor was holding his own, which he was for the most part. There would be good days and not that many bad days.
But things are changing. The relatives are either getting better or are in holding patterns and now I see how much I wasn't paying attenton to Trevor. He would sleep all morning long and I'd try to get as many things done around the house or out shopping as possible. I wasn't spending time with him. When evening would come 'round, my husband wanted me to sepnd time and attention with him. Trevor lost out again.
Trevor is not doing well. To give you an idea: twice this evening Trevor has let me pick him up and carry him into the living room. Any other time in his life he would have bitten my arm(s) off. Trevor was in a lot of pain early this afternoon so I've given him quite a bit of Tramadol & Neurontin. At one point, he also got acepromazine and hydroyzine so he could sleep for a few hours. Stan came home and Trevor got up after just a couple hours. I left on a quest to find the small training rewards liver and beef treats we use to help him down the stairs in the morning and when I got back after a couple hours, Trevor was a changed dog. He had great difficulty keeping up on his feet even on the carpet. When he was on the floor and/or puppy pads, his feet just slid out from under him, front legs first, back legs out to each side. When I would try to lift him by his harness and with my other hand under his bottom, that would last just a few seconds, since I could not move forward at the same time. Stan (who isn't being much help right now) kept telling me that Trevor was "fine" while I was gone. I don't see how that could be. Finally, the first time I picked him up I took him from the kitchen into the living room and put him down on his blanket. That didn't last too long, when Trevor wanted to get up and go back into the hallway to pee. He immediately slid down onto the pads/floor with all his legs splayed out, peeing on the gads at the same time. I got a bath towel, picked up Trevor again and brought him to his comforter where I gently tried to dry off his bottom and tummy as best I could. Then he fell asleep on his blanket. Stan is also telling me that perhaps Trevor is too "doped up" to be able to walk right. I don't know. But I just don't have a good feeling. I cried all afternoon while Stan was gone and tried to stay right next to Trevor the entire time. I can't talk to my sister because she isn't home right now and is busy with other family members.
I just feel soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo badly. I'm beginning to think that I am being selfish keeping Trevor here with me, in pain or sleeping all the time. Whose quality of life are we talking about here: his or mine? Here comes the agony or knowing what the future truly holds whereas Trevor doesn't. How and when do I do the truly RIGHT thing for Trevor? I love him more than anything/anyone in this world. I love him with every fiber of my being. I hardly go out much because I don't want to leave him alone in the house, even though he can't wait for the box of Frosted Shredded Mini-wheats to come out because he's going to get some all by himself. My brain says "Be good to Trevor", my heart screams "Please don't leave me here by myself, Trevor" "I can't do it without you" "You are the one that loves me, enjoys my company, doesn't care how I look or smell, follows around everywhere and doesn't like me to leave your sight even during the night." I don't feel guilty, I feel terrified. I know the routine. I've done it 7 times already. I DON'T WANT TO DO IT AGAIN AND ESPECIALLY TO TREVOR!"
Instead of just the comforting words, would you mind telling me what I should do? I know that is the impossible question to answer. But, I need all of your help, comfort, lifting and holding me up right now.
I'm going to go downstairs to lie with Trevor again. My mind races with all the chores that need to be done around here. But I don't give a darn. I know Stan feels shut out, but then he's not doing or saying anything at this point, either. Thank you, each and every one of you, my friends, for reading this and allowing me to cry while I write it. I never cried when my mother died - not once. But I can't get through a few minutes now without the tears.
I love you all!
Bobbie with a heart that is breaking.
"Whose quality of life are we talking about here: his or mine? Instead of just the comforting words, would you mind telling me what I should do?"
Hi, Bobbie, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. I am so very sorry for everything that you have been and are struggling with. You are on an emotional overload right now. Been there - so I know exactly how you're feeling.
Bobbie, after reading your post closely, I am going to give you some difficult advice: You need to ask yourself honestly and truthfully: If you were in Trevor's place would you want to live like this? He no longer has his dignity in being able to take care of his personal needs himself. And this is a BIG quality of life issue for our beloved companions. When was the last time Trevor was evaluated by his doctor? His doctor would be able to give you a professional evaluation and counsel you about his medical and physical status.
Another question is: Do you want Trevor's current struggles to be the memories tugging at your heart that you endure through when he is no longer physically with you? And more importantly, what are the memories that Trevor wants you to hold onto and cherish?
Bobbie, I can't tell you what to do. But from what you have shared with us here, you MUST put Trevor's best interests FIRST. Yes, I know you've been trying to do that all along. But now you are asking yourself some very hard questions, which means that you are now recognizing that Trevor's time to be released from his failing physical body is near at hand. I know it's very painful, Bobbie. I truly wish there were an easier way through this, but only you can make the decisions on Trevor's behalf. We are here for you, Bobbie, at all times and in all circumstances.
Thank you again so much for sharing with us how you and Trevor are doing. Please know you both are in my thoughts and prayers, Bobbie, and look forward to knowing how things are going.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Hi, Bobbie, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. I am so very sorry for everything that you have been and are struggling with. You are on an emotional overload right now. Been there - so I know exactly how you're feeling.
Bobbie, after reading your post closely, I am going to give you some difficult advice: You need to ask yourself honestly and truthfully: If you were in Trevor's place would you want to live like this? He no longer has his dignity in being able to take care of his personal needs himself. And this is a BIG quality of life issue for our beloved companions. When was the last time Trevor was evaluated by his doctor? His doctor would be able to give you a professional evaluation and counsel you about his medical and physical status.
Another question is: Do you want Trevor's current struggles to be the memories tugging at your heart that you endure through when he is no longer physically with you? And more importantly, what are the memories that Trevor wants you to hold onto and cherish?
Bobbie, I can't tell you what to do. But from what you have shared with us here, you MUST put Trevor's best interests FIRST. Yes, I know you've been trying to do that all along. But now you are asking yourself some very hard questions, which means that you are now recognizing that Trevor's time to be released from his failing physical body is near at hand. I know it's very painful, Bobbie. I truly wish there were an easier way through this, but only you can make the decisions on Trevor's behalf. We are here for you, Bobbie, at all times and in all circumstances.
Thank you again so much for sharing with us how you and Trevor are doing. Please know you both are in my thoughts and prayers, Bobbie, and look forward to knowing how things are going.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Hi Bobbie,
Unfortunately none of us can tell you what to do or when to do it. But please know that our collective hearts are breaking for you and Trevor. I wish there were easy answers, like yes its time or no, wait. Wouldn't that be great! All I can offer is an ear to listen, a shoulder to cry on and a heart to grieve with. Having read through your posts I can tell that you love Trevor with everything you have. That is the kind of love that completely blows my mind, its so rare in this world but I see evidence of it every time I visit Lightning Strike.
I wish I could offer more to you in this time of crisis.
Shelby (Kaylasmom)
Unfortunately none of us can tell you what to do or when to do it. But please know that our collective hearts are breaking for you and Trevor. I wish there were easy answers, like yes its time or no, wait. Wouldn't that be great! All I can offer is an ear to listen, a shoulder to cry on and a heart to grieve with. Having read through your posts I can tell that you love Trevor with everything you have. That is the kind of love that completely blows my mind, its so rare in this world but I see evidence of it every time I visit Lightning Strike.
I wish I could offer more to you in this time of crisis.
Shelby (Kaylasmom)
Dear Bobbie...I have been wondering how Trevor is doing. I am so heartbroken for you and I am crying right now......No, we can't tell you what to do, but I feel like you will know when the time comes.
You and Trevor are in my thoughts and prayers.....God Bless..
Hugs,
LoveMyMickey
You and Trevor are in my thoughts and prayers.....God Bless..
Hugs,
LoveMyMickey
Hello my dear friends!
The news I have to tell you is simply amazing to me. Around 7:00 pm this evening (Sunday) Trevor made almost a complete turnaround! Although his back legs remain very weak and he still has some trouble turning around in a sort-of-tight circle, falling down in the process........my little guy is hungry, thirsty and peeing everywhere, his eyes are bright again, and he wasn't interested AT ALL in lying down and sleeping some more this evening! (he really liked the couple M&Ms I gave him, too)
God does, indeed, provide mini-miracles to those who need them.....and I really needed one. I thought I was all "prepared" for the inevitable. HA! Even my husband couldn't stand to be around me a whole lot longer and went to be early tonight.
Moon Beam, I have to thank you for your thought-provoking and soul-searching questions. I have to write down my answers in the morning, but the quality of life that is of utmost importance is Trevor's and his alone. My life will go on......his won't. And your second question was all the more relevant: how do I want to remember Trevor's last days? I want them to be pain-free, soothing, peaceful, quiet, filled with love, comforting and even, happy. I am the one that can make that happen. And I am going to. I promise.
Yes, this was a wake-up call. I am thankful I got it. And I am even more thankful to all of you, Moon Beam, Shelby and LoveMyMickey, for coming to me as fast as you could.
I love you all!
Bobbie & Trevor who is snoring in the bedroom
The news I have to tell you is simply amazing to me. Around 7:00 pm this evening (Sunday) Trevor made almost a complete turnaround! Although his back legs remain very weak and he still has some trouble turning around in a sort-of-tight circle, falling down in the process........my little guy is hungry, thirsty and peeing everywhere, his eyes are bright again, and he wasn't interested AT ALL in lying down and sleeping some more this evening! (he really liked the couple M&Ms I gave him, too)
God does, indeed, provide mini-miracles to those who need them.....and I really needed one. I thought I was all "prepared" for the inevitable. HA! Even my husband couldn't stand to be around me a whole lot longer and went to be early tonight.
Moon Beam, I have to thank you for your thought-provoking and soul-searching questions. I have to write down my answers in the morning, but the quality of life that is of utmost importance is Trevor's and his alone. My life will go on......his won't. And your second question was all the more relevant: how do I want to remember Trevor's last days? I want them to be pain-free, soothing, peaceful, quiet, filled with love, comforting and even, happy. I am the one that can make that happen. And I am going to. I promise.
Yes, this was a wake-up call. I am thankful I got it. And I am even more thankful to all of you, Moon Beam, Shelby and LoveMyMickey, for coming to me as fast as you could.
I love you all!
Bobbie & Trevor who is snoring in the bedroom
Even though the news on Trevor may be temporarily better, he is still such a sick dog and my heart is one huge ache.
I am waiting for his doctor to call this morning so we can have a very serious heart-to-heart talk, which I know Dr. Sorrells will do. He loves Trevor more than any vet I have known love a patient. I've talked with Trevor's original guardian angels, who have kept up with every move he has made and have financially supported him whenever they can. They will be with Trevor, and us, at his passing and funeral/burial. Trevor really is loved and it's no wonder - he's such a loving and good boy.
Altough I may sound "better" my heart and soul are as heavy as lead and tears are just a heartbeat a way. Every day, from this moment forward, is totally devoted to Trevor. If he is in a sound sleep, I may do something around the house, but everything waits for Trevor. I guess I have learned lessons from the rest of my boys and I think they would be happy and proud of me.
Thank you for listening to me. It may seem like I cry "wolf" too often. And I am sorry if that is so. But I have never had a companion like Trevor who has taken so much love and given it back a thousand fold.
"till later......
Bobbie
I am waiting for his doctor to call this morning so we can have a very serious heart-to-heart talk, which I know Dr. Sorrells will do. He loves Trevor more than any vet I have known love a patient. I've talked with Trevor's original guardian angels, who have kept up with every move he has made and have financially supported him whenever they can. They will be with Trevor, and us, at his passing and funeral/burial. Trevor really is loved and it's no wonder - he's such a loving and good boy.
Altough I may sound "better" my heart and soul are as heavy as lead and tears are just a heartbeat a way. Every day, from this moment forward, is totally devoted to Trevor. If he is in a sound sleep, I may do something around the house, but everything waits for Trevor. I guess I have learned lessons from the rest of my boys and I think they would be happy and proud of me.
Thank you for listening to me. It may seem like I cry "wolf" too often. And I am sorry if that is so. But I have never had a companion like Trevor who has taken so much love and given it back a thousand fold.
"till later......
Bobbie
I.........AM...........SO..........SAD
Hi, Bobbie, thank you so very much for letting us know how you and Trevor are doing. First let me say that never have you ever "cried wolf." What you and Trevor are experiencing is Anticipatory Grief, and it is a horror roller coaster ride all by itself - - the continuing questioning "Is this "the time"? Are the bad days bad enough to make "the decision"? " etc.. So, please don't ever apologize for sharing with us what is happening, and how you and Trevor are doing.
It is not uncommon for our beloved companions to experience a "rally" in the course of their preparation for their journey home to the angels. It is elating - - a true blessing. How long this "rally" lasts depends on the situation, and from your last post today I am very concerned about what your vet counseled about Trevor's status. I have my "suspicions", but whatever your and Trevor's circumstances are please know my heart is sharing your deep sadness, and I am here to share what is in your heart and on your mind.
Bobbie, please know you and your precious Trevor are in my thoughts and prayers. I am here for you, my friend, as each of us are, at all times and in all circumstances. I look forward to knowing how you both are doing.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
It is not uncommon for our beloved companions to experience a "rally" in the course of their preparation for their journey home to the angels. It is elating - - a true blessing. How long this "rally" lasts depends on the situation, and from your last post today I am very concerned about what your vet counseled about Trevor's status. I have my "suspicions", but whatever your and Trevor's circumstances are please know my heart is sharing your deep sadness, and I am here to share what is in your heart and on your mind.
Bobbie, please know you and your precious Trevor are in my thoughts and prayers. I am here for you, my friend, as each of us are, at all times and in all circumstances. I look forward to knowing how you both are doing.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Bobbie
It's me, Gretta's mom, saying how deeply sad I am for you and wishing for some wise counsel from Dr Sorels tomorrow.
Love, Jeanne
It's me, Gretta's mom, saying how deeply sad I am for you and wishing for some wise counsel from Dr Sorels tomorrow.
Love, Jeanne
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