I hope the adoption goes well at the end of the week for you. Any one of these beautiful creatures would be lucky to have you as a mom.

Lots of Hugs,
Annette

Hi Juturna,

Just catching up with your journey, also. I am a firm believer that was is meant to be, will be. Our instincts are our angels way of trying to guide us in the right direction. So please listen carefully to them, and have trust in them. This way, I am certain, that whatever decision you make in the end, will be the right one.

If you are in any way unsure, then please try not to rush things. If little Haley is the girl for you, then she will still be there, when you are ready.

Take care of yourself and good luck,
Cheryl x

Hi, Juturna, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. I am glad you enjoyed your trip to NYC on Saturday. It is truly horrific what Japan is having to deal with. I cannot even fathom having to cope with TWO major natural disasters AT THE SAME TIME, with always the threat that subsequent "aftershocks" can add severe insult to existing devastation. My heart and prayers go out to them.

Juturna, how sweet that your significant other has so many pictures of your beloved Victoria on his computer, always ready for you to look at as you're up to doing so. Just take it slow and easy, my friend. At some point in time, when you least expect it, you will be able to look at these beautiful pictures and smile at each one, I promise you.

Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers as you continue your consideration of adopting Haley. I hope today is being kind to you, my friend, and that your evening will be blessed with your Victoria's sweet Living Spirit to comfort, cheer, and guide you. I look forward to knowing how things are going for you.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Dear Annette,

Thank you so very much for your warm affirming response. I really appreciate your saying that any would be fortunate to have me as a Mom. It feels like a huge decision, and I only wish that I could adopt more than one special needs companion right now.

With gratitude, peace and hugs,
Juturna

Dear Cheryl,

Thank you so very much for your affirming support. I appreciate your reminder to trust my instincts and I will be guided. I've decided that I need to give this decision the necessary time to come into place. And know that I have been led to these canine adoption possibilities for a reason.

Wishing you a serene night.
With peace and gratitude,
Juturna

Hi Moon_beam,

My heart goes out to the people and animals of Japan, as well. It is so horrific.

Thank you very much for your ever reassuring words that one day I will be able to view the abundance of beloved Victoria photos on my significant other's computer. We have pics of her in both our homes, but it became overwhelmingly sad yesterday seeing her on the computer.

Your thoughts and prayers are much appreciated related to my possible adoption of little Haley. (I would be changing her name; One of my clients has a precious Haley that I adore.) Right now I'm in canine deprivation, but I can not let that rush my decision. This is the longest that I have been without a canine companion in my adult life.

Hope you and precious Noah are having a peaceful night snuggling together.
With gratitude and peace,
Juturna

Hi, Juturna, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. How exciting that little Haley would be getting a new name!! I'm sure you have been thinking of names for her. I know as much as this is an exciting time for you, I also know there is still the sorrow in your heart missing your precious Victoria. The fact that you are now able to consider embracing a new lifetime companion is an endearing tribute to the love bond you and Victoria share, along with each of your beloved companions through the years. This is a big decision, so take your time, my friend.

I hope today is being kind to you, and that your evening will be blessed with the presence of your precious Victoria to comfort and cheer you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Hi, Juturna, just stopping by to say hello before shutting down this techno gizmo for the day. I hope today is being kind to you, and that your appointment with your accountant went well. I hope you will have a very peaceful evening blessed with your precious Victoria's sweet Living Presence to cheer and comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, my friend, and look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Dear Moon_beam,

Thank you very much for comforting words.

The accountant visit went well today.

Yesterday one of my clients brought in her little dog. It felt wonderful to have a sweet soft little love bug in my lap. I miss holding my beautiful Victoria. Today I was able to pet my neighbor's delightful little terrier mix.

Wishing you and your precious Noah a serene night together.
With gratitude and peace,
Juturna

Hi, Juturna, stopping by to get caught up on your news and say "hello." I'm glad the meeting with your accountant went well - - that's always good.

I'm glad you are finding comfort in the company of other fur friends, and I'm glad you are not feeling guilty about it - - as though you are being disloyal to your precious Victoria. In fact, this is what your precious Victoria wants for you - - to be comforted, and I firmly believe she is there whispering in the ears of these fur friends how to bring a smile to your heart. So, enjoy, my friend. By the way, have you had a chance to visit with Carousel this week and the goats?

I hope today is treating you kindly, my friend, and hope your evening is blessed with the presence of your precious Victoria's sweet Living Spirit to comfort and cheer you. And please know you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Hi Moon_beam,

Thank you again for your kind compassionate words. It feels as though I am in canine deprivation; I just want to touch every dog that I see. I think I'm ready to adopt one.

I have not been able to visit Carousel and the goats since Mon. due to a hectic schedule this week and rainy weather. My plan is to visit and pet them tomorrow morning which I'm looking forward to. Carousel is the sweetest donkey, and I know she will be happy to see me.

Hope you and your precious Noah have a serene snuggle filled night. Please give him a hug for me.

With peace and gratitude,
Juturna

Hi, Juturna, thank you for sharing how things are going for you. "Furchild withdrawal" is a sure indication that your precious Victoria is encouraging you to definitely keep your options open. The how, when, and who depends on when you truly feel ready, and you believe with all your heart that your new potential companion is "the one".

Oh, I can so well relate to the "hectic" schedule. Remember - - it is the "quality" of time that you share with Carousel and the goats that matters the most. While quantity of time is always nice, it isn't always possible. This is why we must make the "most of the time" available, and I know you, Carousel, and the goats are going to do that today - - weather permitting.

I hope you have a very peaceful and pleasant day, my friend, - - and hopefully a relaxing one - - and that your evening will be blessed with your precious Victoria's sweet Living Spirit to comfort and cheer you.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Hi Moon_beam,

Thank you so much for your thoughtful message.

Visiting Carousel and the goats was joyful today. Carousel was busy eating her breakfast when I arrived. She stopped eating, turned around, and walked over to me. Lots of head petting, and the little goats followed.

I'm trying to trust that the adoption decision will gain clarity.

Wishing you and precious little Noah a peaceful night's sleep with pleasant dreams, and a serene weekend together.
With gratitude and peace,
Juturna

Hi, Juturna, so glad to share with you how you're doing. Sounds like you had a wonderful visit with Carousel and the goats yesterday. How so very special that they preferred to be with you than to focus on their breakfasts. Now that's a real testimony to how much they look forward to seeing you.

I hope today will be a good one for you, a peaceful and pleasant one. And may your evening tonight be blessed with your precious Victoria's sweet Living Spirit to comfort and cheer you, and to bring an ease to your heart and mind about adoption decisions. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, my friend, and look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Got to get to bed but wanted to write you a quick note first. I have tried to catch up with you by reading some of your recent posts. Sounds like things are not solid for you yet. Please keep us posted on your decision.
I have found Kasper brings us so much joy and fun but we both still miss Zoe every day. It is a lot of work to bring a new fur child into the home but at least in your case you won't have to start from scratch with a puppy.
Got to go but please know I am thinking about you and praying with you in your journey to make the right decision.

Dear Moon_beam and Joanne,

Thank you both so very much for keeping me in your thoughts and prayers.

My beautiful Victoria would have turned 14 years old last week. I miss her greatly. Her spirit was always so strong and vibrant. It is oftentimes with me. I thought that I could hear her in her crate a couple nights ago. Her photos are all over my home.

I have moved on in my adoption search, and have a rescue application pending for another ##er spaniel. She has amber and white hair and is 2 years old. A home inspection is scheduled for tomorrow. I will keep you posted.

With peace and gratitude,
Juturna

Juturna,

I haven't been on this site much these last few months, though lately I've felt a need to check in, and saw your reply. Read your postings about having had to say good-bye to Victoria and saw the pics you posted. You stated that she would have recently turned 14. The birthdays and all the "first times" (holidays, day you got her, your own birthday) just hurt. I am sorry for your loss. I've been reading about your plans to adopt another. That's great. When you were talking about Haley (the deaf dog) it made me think back about 4 years ago when my dog, Kota, was starting to lose her hearing. I told her that I would be her ears and hear for her. And like you the last two years of her life I was more of in a caretaker role but I let her know that all of her suffering was never a burden on me.

I think that whatever decision you make, about an adoption, or even waiting, will be from the heart, and that somewhere along the way, the one you adopt is also in the process of choosing you. Let us know.

Dennis

Hi, Juturna, what WONDERFUL NEWS!! Today you are having a "home inspection" for your potential adoption. I am so o o excited for you!!! But as you look forward to a new lifetime companion, please know you are never ever leaving your precious Victoria "behind". Your beloved Victoria is sharing your earthly journey just as she always has and always will, and is SO APPROVING of your attempts to embrace another furchild into your heart and home.

It is hard when we have an "angel-versary" - - including the physical birthdays of our beloved companions. They are reminders of better times when they were physically with us. Our lives change for the better when they share our earthly journey, and they change again when they precede us to the angels. The good news is that we are blessed with their cherished memories in our hearts - - which are ours and ours alone to have, to hold, and to cherish - -for we are the ones who were "chosen" to be their earthly guardians and caregivers - - and to be blessed with their eternal love.

Juturna, thank you so much for sharing this new chapter in your adoption search with us. I will look forward to knowing how things go for you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, my friend.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Hi Juturna,
Anxiously awaiting news from you about your potential adoption. I hope the home visit went well and you will soon have a little furchild again. Please let us know.

HI Juturna,

Please accept my deepest condolences on the loss of your beloved Victoria. What beautiful pics you have of her! Looking at the pictures, it's clear that she was a dog who knew her mind and had joy in her life. There is a confident air of contentment about her. I am glad to hear that you're moving forward with the adoption process. Your story outlining how you've arrived at this point is very helpful. I lost my beautiful, loving Peggy 7 weeks ago. I have found myself drawn to websites with Golden's who are puppies and rescues but am not anywhere near ready to 'pull the trigger' to adopt.

Much of what you described, including the day you picked up Victoria's remains, hit home for me. After reading your story, I'm hoping my mother and I will be able to move beyond the pain of loss and possibly look toward adopting another dog later this year. I went to a shelter last week to drop off some of Peggy's things and some food. My 8 year old niece came with me and we took a dog for a walk, which she wanted me to adopt immediately. My heart was pulled toward the dog since he was a stray who is seriously underweight and he’s over the age of 10 so his chances of being adopted are a bit lower than for a puppy or young dog. However, I just can’t do it. I so much miss having a dog in my life but just can’t bring anyone in when we’re still so desperately sad about not having Peggy here. Reading your story gives me hope that I will eventually hit a point where I can open my heart to another animal who needs a loving home. And it helped me to realize that I need to take the necessary time to heal so I don’t move too soon. Personally, I have never been this deeply impacted by the loss of a beloved pet. I have had many in my life and loved them all but Peggy was special, even among the special pets. It sounds like you had a similar bond with Victoria so if you were finally able to get past the crippling pain, there is hope for the rest of us, if we’re patient enough to work our way through it. Thank you so much for sharing your story. It helped me and I’m sure it will help others as we (almost) blindly find our way through this terrible darkness of loss and back to a point of healing.

You will be in my prayers and I hope your home inspection went well and you are soon able to welcome the dog that’s meant for you.

Take care,

Peggy (the human)

Hi Dennis,

Thank you so much for your thoughtful note. Yes, anniversaries are difficult. And I believe the bond with our canine companions is even stronger when we have been in a caretaking role.

Your support with my adoption process is very much appreciated. I had wanted a deaf rescue canine as I've also had another dog besides by beautiful Victoria that had gone deaf, and have a special place in my heart for animals with that impairment. Unfortunately, all I can do is pray for little Haley now. I am looking into another distance adoption of an adorable affectionate little waif who has some minor health issues presently. I will keep you posted.

Again thank you.
With peace and gratitude,
Juturna

Dear Moon_beam,

As you know the home visit went pretty well, and I received a lovely email from the woman today. I have to laugh when you say that my beautiful Victoria would be so approving of my adoption search. She had no tolerance for my looking at another canine and would become hysterical. When we were at the vets office (at least once a month) they would have to put her in a seperate waiting room as she could not handle the other dogs.

The little ##er spaniel waif that I am considering now has some minor health issues which are being treated. And her foster mom is giving me daily accounts of her progress with house training, etc. which I really like. So, I will let you know.

I found a couple more bows today that had been in Victoria's hair and were somehow buried before. I will keep these ribbons with tiny pieces of her fur attached and add them to my scrapebook. They are precious to me.

Hope you and your precious Noah have a peaceful night snuggling together.
With peace and gratitude,
Juturna

Dear Moon_beam,

As you know the home visit went pretty well, and I received a lovely email from the woman today. I have to laugh when you say that my beautiful Victoria would be so approving of my adoption search. She had no tolerance for my looking at another canine and would become hysterical. When we were at the vets office (at least once a month) they would have to put her in a seperate waiting room as she could not handle the other dogs.

The little ##er spaniel waif that I am considering now has some minor health issues which are being treated. And her foster mom is giving me daily accounts of her progress with house training, etc. which I really like. So, I will let you know.

I found a couple more bows today that had been in Victoria's hair and were somehow buried before. I will keep these ribbons with tiny pieces of her fur attached and add them to my scrapebook. They are precious to me.

Hope you and your precious Noah have a peaceful night snuggling together.
With peace and gratitude,
Juturna

Hi Joanne,

Thank you for the note. Yes, the home visit went well. It's a long distance adoption, so there are details to work out. She sounds like a little affectionate love from her foster mom.

I will keep you posted.

Wishing you Zack, and Casper a peaceful night.
With peace and gratitude,
Juturna

Dear Peggy the human,

Thank you so much for your heartfelt note and for reading my journey of grief. I so understand your bond with your precious Peggy as that was the bond I had with my beautiful Victoria. She taught me many lessons in life that I am forever grateful for.

I was glad to learn that you knew to wait with the 10 yr. old adoptee. That was wise. You will know when you are ready to open your heart to another canine. And I've discovered that it takes some time.

My adoption process is moving along at the pace that is right.

Wishing you a peaceful night.
With gratitude and serenity,
Juturna

Hi, Juturna, thank you so much for letting us know how the home visit went. I'm smiling at your account of Victoria's reaction to other furkids. But you must remember, my friend - - while she was here sharing her earthly journey with you YOU were - - and always will be - - her heart's desire. But she also knows you have a heart filled with love, and she does not want you to be companion-less. So, her love for you has broadened to assist the angels in your adoption search.

My Samson was also very dedicated to me during his earthly journey, and very protective. Anyone who came near me had to go through his approval first, which was okay with me. He saw me through the post-automobile collision intensive recovery and rehabilitation. He knew exactly what to do and when to do it and how to do it to help me, to encourage me - - to try to live again. But I'm telling you, Juturna - - when he crossed the Pearly Gates his first words to our Heavenly Father Creator were "You HAVE to do something - - You can't leave her there all alone." And I KNOW in my heart that both my Samson and our Father Creator collaborated on what to do and how to do it so that I would not be able to say "no" - - and this is how my precious handsome Oslo came into my life from my friends at Guiding Eyes for the Blind.

So, it's my personal experience with my Samson, and my Oslo, that I am very confident that your precious Victoria is actively involved in bringing another lifetime companion into your heart and home.

I'm so glad you were able to find more of your precious Victoria's bows to put with her fur in your scrapbook. Each piece of "remembrance" you add is wrapped in heartstrings of eternal love, and strengthens and deepens the love bond you and your precious Victoria share. My mom gave me a plaque that I still have to this day with the inscription "The best gifts in life are tied with heartstrings." How so very true.

My friend, I hope today is being kind to you, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your precious Victoria's sweet Living Spirit to comfort and cheer you - - and reassure you that she is truly deeply happy you are anticipating a new lifetime companion. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, my friend.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Hi Moon_beam,

Thank you so very much for sharing your experience with your precious Samson and handsome Oslo. Here I was picturing my beautiful Victoria in heaven becoming completely hysterical as I am seeking to adopt another ##er spaniel no less. The only canines she ever tolerated were little puppies.

My adoption process is moving at a slow pace right now. I did get a nice email back from little Phoenix's foster mom saying she understood my decision. She also agreed that Phoenix needed to go to a home where her person could be present all the time.

Wishing you a peaceful night, my friend, with precious Noah snuggling by your side.
With gratitude and peace,
Juturna

Hi, Juturna, I'm so glad to know that Phoenix's foster mom was kind to you about withdrawing from the adoption. I know this was a challenging decision for you to make, but it was the best one for both you and little Phoenix.

I hope you will have a very peaceful and pleasant weekend, my friend, blessed with your precious Victoria's sweet Living Spirit to comfort and cheer you. She knows you love her with all your heart, and she knows that whoever shares your life's journey now is not a "replacement" - - but rather is a new companion to you to share your special love with and someone who can offer you a special love. Her unconditional eternal love for you wants you to be happy, my friend.

Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, my friend, and will look forward to knowing how you're doing whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Hi Juturna,

Just wanted to pop over to say hi and see how you're doing. Also, I want to offer my deepest thanks for your thoughtful and helpful note to me on the 8 week anniversary of Peggy's passing. I apologize for being a bit late in extending my thanks, it’s been one of those periods where responsibilities that must be met have exceeded the number of hours in a day. I want you to know that I found your comforting words so helpful that weekend. Your support helped immensely and I read your words several times when I was having trouble dealing with the grief.

You have been very much on my mind the past week or so and I hope you are doing well. Have you had time to visit Carousel and the goats lately? I know you mentioned (somewhere on the site) that you’re been pretty busy but I’m hoping you’ve been able to find some time for yourself, doing things that bring your heart comfort and love.

Thank you again for your kind and comforting words. You remain in my prayers.

Peggy
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Dear Peggy's Human, Moon_beam, and others,

It has been awhile since I have written. This past weekend was 4 months since my beautiful Victoria passed on to her next life. I still miss her greatly and think of her often. Her spirit is no longer hanging out here as she does not feel she has to take care of me anymore. She has helped to guide me to a new little ##er spaniel, and her spirit is moving on.

I think my new little girl's name will be Annabelle, which means easy to love. She is an out-of-state 4 yr. old rescue ##er spaniel that I adopted about 2 wks. ago. She is soooo adorable and has brought the smile back to my face. I feel very blessed to have my new little velcro girl in my life now; She has attached very quickly to me. We visited my favorite donkey and the goats today.

Peggy's Human, thank you for letting me know that my words gave you some comfort last month. Moon_beam, your support with my adoption process has been enormously appreciated. I am very grateful for all the support and understanding that I have received from my forum friends over the past 4 months. Please know that you are close to my heart.

With peace and much gratitude,
Juturna

Hi, Juturna, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing, and your wonderful news about Annabelle. Even though you now have your sweet Annabelle physically by your side - - and in your heart - - your precious Victoria and Aurora are forever with you as well - - in their own special place deep in your heart and your memories - - always a heartbeat close to you. They are watching over you and Annabelle smiling with pride and approval of their new "sister".

Juturna, please know you have my sincerest congratulations on your new beginning with Annabelle. May you both have a long and happy and healthy lifetime journey with one another. Please know you both are close in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to knowing how you both are doing whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Dear Moon_beam,

Thank you so very much. And I appreciate your reminding me that my beautiful Victoria and precious Aurora are watching over Annabelle and me.

With peace and graitude,
Juturna

It has been awhile since I have posted anything. I think of everyone often, even though I have not written.

Today was 5 months since the death of my beautiful Victoria. I think of my precious sweetheart daily and pray that her soul is at peace daily. She will always be an angel of love in my life. Missing my Victoria's physical presence is part of my life now.

The joy has returned with the blessing of my little Annabelle, though the pain of missing my beautiful Victoria is always there.

With gratitude and peace,
Juturna

Hi, Juturna, the "angel-versaries" can be very challengeing as they remind us that our beloved companions are no longer physically with us. The good news is that we are blessed with the gift of their sweet Living Spirits forever with us in our hearts and our memories. And your precious Annabelle is a new connection to your sweet Victoria, and Aurora, as they assisted in bringing you and Annabelle together.

Juturna, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. I hope today is treating you and your precious Miss Annabelle kindly. Please know you both are close in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to knowing how you both are doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Hi Juturna,

Have been thinking of you as I also have not been here as often anymore. Glad to read that you have a new companion in Annabelle. I was hoping you would be able to adopt soon and so glad you did. I hope things are going well for you.

Dear Joanne and Moon_beam,

Thank you so very much for your encouraging words of support. Every holiday is still sad bringing back memories of my beautiful Victoria, as well as my beloved Aurora.

I am soooo grateful to have little Annabelle, my velcro ##er, by my side. She reminds me daily of the joy in my life. She is truly a gift from my Victoria and Aurora angels.

As always, your support on this forum is much appreciated.
Wishing everyone a serene July 4th holiday.
With gratitude and peace,
Juturna

Hi, Juturna, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. Yes, the holidays do bring to mind the beloved ones who are no longer physically with us - - truly mixed emotions of blessing to have enjoyed their physical presence and sadness that they are no longer physically sharing our earthly journey. I am so glad you have your precious Annabelle who was guided to you by your precious Angels Victoria and Aurora. They are continuing to keep watch over you, Juturna, and are celebrating this holiday with you in your heart.

Thank you so much for sharing your precious Victoria, Aurora, and Annabelle with us, Juturna. I hope you and your sweet Annabelle will have a very peaceful evening. Please know you both are in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to knowing how you both are doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Today was the 6th month anniversary since the passing of my beautiful Victoria. I still miss her every day, though the grief is not nearly as intense. This past wk. I had spoken to several people who I needed to thank for their condolences and support. It is still not easy, but I managed to get through sentences without a stream of tears, despite my heavy heart.
I am grateful every day for having shared my life with Victoria for close to 14 years, and for all the lessons she taught me.
With peace and gratitude,
Juturna

Hi, Juturna, thank you so much for sharing your and your beloved Victoria's angel-versary with us. When we first embark on our adjustment journey we wonder how we will ever truly live without the gift of their sweet physical presence with us. Each day flows into another, then another, - - and then we realize 6 weeks have passed, then 3 months, and when 6 months arrive - - which is half a year - - it is a reminder that we have indeed continued on with our earthly journey and hopefully are now able to think of our precious companions with a smile, although there may still be a mist in the eyes, a lump in the throat, and quiver of the chin.

It is continuing on with our earthly journey that our beloved companions want for us - - with a cheerful heart as we remember them in our hearts and memories - - and as we embrace the gift of their sweet Living Spirit forever with us continuing to share our journey as they always have and always will.

Juturna, I hope life is treating you kindly these days. Please know you and your precious new companion Annabelle are in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to knowing how you both are doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Dear Moon_beam,

Thank you so very much for your continued support.

This past Fri. I had the same dog trainer helping me with little Annabelle that had worked with my beautiful Victoria 14 years ago. She immediately noticed and commented on all the photos of Victoria in my living room. It also gave me a chance to thank her for helping Victoria become a great "therapy" dog. I was grateful for this opportunity.

With much gratitude and peace,
Juturna

Hi, Juturna, I'm so glad your beloved Victoria's trainer is now able to give you guidance on your precious Annabelle. The friendship you share together through your beloved Victoria, and now your precious Miss Annabelle, is important to continue to nurture, and I'm so very happy you both had an opportunity to meet again last Friday evening. I hope the trainer is able to give both Miss Annabelle and you encouragement in your new life journey together. Please know you and your precious Miss Annabelle are in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to knowing how things are going.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Hi Juturna,

Off of work today so I am able to get on the computer. Wanted to check in to see how you and Annabelle are doing. the 6 month anniversary of Zoe's death is coming up next week. Still so hard but you have been such a great support for me.

Glad you have Annabelle stuck to your side. I am sure she is so grateful that you adopted her. She is lucky to have you for her "forever" mom.

Just know that I think of you and Moon-beam, and the others here often but sometimes find it too hard to come to this forum because it brings the grief back to the surface. Hope people can understand that.

Take care and give Annabelle a kiss from me.

Today was the 9 month anniversary of the loss of my beautiful Victoria. I was aware of this all weekend and still miss her daily. Somehow the deep grief has passed, and now it is an ache in my heart. I believe my Victoria knows how much she was loved. And I am gratefull everday for the opportunity to have shared my life with her. I have pictures of her in every room.

My little velcro girl, Annabelle, is a huge blessing in my life now. I am also very grateful for my firends on this forum who have helped me enormously, and for those who have allowed me to support them. Thank you!

With peace and gratitude,
Juturna

Hi, Juturna, thank you so much for sharing your and your precious Victoria's angel-versary with us. My friend, she indeed knows she was loved the moment you welcomed her into your heart and life, and knows she will always be loved through all eternity.

Even though the deep grief eases, we know our lives are not the same without the precious physical presence of our beloved companions. And even though we embrace new companions into our heart and lives they will never replace the beloved companions who are now patiently waiting for us to join them in eternal joy at our appropriate time. Each companion has their own special place in our hearts and lives, as does your precious Annabelle with whom you are now sharing your earthy journeys together. I know your beloved Victoria is smiling as she watches the both of you from her heavenly throne knowing that your heart has found a new forever love.

Juturna, thank you so very much for sharing with us how you're doing. I hope today is treating you and your precious Annabelle kindly. Please know you both are in my thoughts and prayers, and always look forward to knowing how you're doing and to sharing your treasured memories of your beloved Victoria whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Hi Juturna,

Was wondering how you are doing with your new baby. Glad you posted. We also just passed the 9 month anniversary of Zoe's death. I hope you are enjoying Annabelle. Sounds like you are. We are bleesed to have been able to bring new furpeople into our lives.
Hope you stay warm and enjoy your Velcro doggie.

Joanne

Dear Joanne and Moon_beam,

Thank you so much for your continued support.

It is nearly 10 months since my beautiful Victoria passed on to her next life. I still think of her every day. I looked at her scrapebook this wk. and had a good cry. I miss her. Though the guilt has eased some, it is still there.

I'm trying to focus on the gift of my precious little Annabelle. She is the joy in my life. She is my true velcro companion and is always right by my side, if not on my lap. I feel very fortunate to have her in my life.

With gratitude and peace,
Juturna

Hi, Juturna, thank you so much for sharing your and your beloved Victoria's angel-versary with us. It matters not how much time passes in our earthly journey - - our beloved companions are always with us in our hearts and memories, and the love bond we share with them is eternal.

I am so glad you are finding some peace in your heart that is replacing the presence of guilt. Although this is a normal emotion in the grief adjustment journey, it is one of the hardest emotions to reconcile. I know your beloved Victoria was right by your side as you were looking through the scrapbook, and I hope you heard her soft voice in your heart saying, "oh mom, remember when this picture was taken? Remember when we did this / that?" and so on. She treasures her earthly journey she shared with you, and continues to share your earthly journey now as she always will.
My heart is filled with joy for you that you have your precious Annabelle to love, but we know this is a NEW love which will never "replace" the love you have for your beloved Victoria - - and is never meant to.

Thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing, Jurturna. Please know you and your precious Annabelle are in my thoughts and prayers, and always look forward to sharing how things are going for you both whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Hi, Juturna, thinking of you on the eve of your and your beloved Victoria's angel-versary. I know this year has been filled with many new experiences for you, and I know your beloved Victoria is keeping a loving vigil over you and continuing to share your earthly journey with you just as she always will. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, my friend.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

It has been a year since my beautiful Victoria passed on to her next life. I still think of her every day. Her spirit has moved on, and she no longer visits me in my dreams. Victoria had helped guide me to precious little Annabelle; Her final gift. I am eternally grateful for all the lessons and gifts she has given me. Missing my beloved Victoria has made 2011 a difficult year.
I just lit a memorial candle for my beautiful Victoria and will spend some time tonight looking through her scrapbook.
Many thanks to my friends on the forum for all your support over the past year.
With gratitude and peace,
Juturna