Thank you, Donna and Annette. Thank you for your comforting friendship - - it means so much to me. I hope you both have a very peaceful and pleasant evening.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Full Version: Abbygayle's Journey
moon_beam,
What a touching, inspiring letter to your baby girl. She's so lucky to have you as her mommy. And thanks to you, moon_beam, I now do truly believe that we will be reuinted with our babies and finally become "whole" again.
Thank you for sharing that beautiful letter. Most of all, thank you for your support and for your friendship.
Take care,
Cheryl x
What a touching, inspiring letter to your baby girl. She's so lucky to have you as her mommy. And thanks to you, moon_beam, I now do truly believe that we will be reuinted with our babies and finally become "whole" again.
Thank you for sharing that beautiful letter. Most of all, thank you for your support and for your friendship.
Take care,
Cheryl x
Hi, Cheryl, Dottie, thank you so much for sharing Abbygayle's, Noah's, and my 6 month anniversary with us.
Cheryl, I'm so glad you are comforted in knowing that you and your precious Daisy will one day be reunited again. I do firmly believe this, and I'm glad I have been able to help you.
Dottie, thank you so much for the wonderful graphic. You are so o talented!
Cheryl, Dottie, I thank you both so much for your thoughtful, caring, and comforting friendship, as it means a lot to me. I hope life is treating you both kindly, and please know each of you are frequently in my thoughts and prayers every day.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Cheryl, I'm so glad you are comforted in knowing that you and your precious Daisy will one day be reunited again. I do firmly believe this, and I'm glad I have been able to help you.
Dottie, thank you so much for the wonderful graphic. You are so o talented!
Cheryl, Dottie, I thank you both so much for your thoughtful, caring, and comforting friendship, as it means a lot to me. I hope life is treating you both kindly, and please know each of you are frequently in my thoughts and prayers every day.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
My dearest Abbygayle, Friday was your 7 month anniversary of being with the angels. I got through work okay, but on the way home I started crying - - for the ache in my heart just seemed so overwhelming -- and this weekend has been a challenge off and on. I know Noah misses you, too, baby girl. We feel you within us - - we just wish we had your sweet physical body to hold and snuggle up with. The both of us miss your precious physical presence with us.
Noah and I are doing okay. It's autumn here now. Each day is getting shorter and the nights are getting longer. But I know the days in heaven's perfect garden are perfect for you, my precious beautiful baby girl. And I know you are in the wonderful company of your big doggy brother, Oslo, and your big kitty brother, Eli.
You are always close to me, my beautiful baby girl. How blessed I am to be your mom, my preciuos girl. I love you always - - and forever - - my beautiful baby girl - -
With all my heart - -
mom
Noah and I are doing okay. It's autumn here now. Each day is getting shorter and the nights are getting longer. But I know the days in heaven's perfect garden are perfect for you, my precious beautiful baby girl. And I know you are in the wonderful company of your big doggy brother, Oslo, and your big kitty brother, Eli.
You are always close to me, my beautiful baby girl. How blessed I am to be your mom, my preciuos girl. I love you always - - and forever - - my beautiful baby girl - -
With all my heart - -
mom
Hi Moon Beam,
What lovely conversations you have with your precious Angel Fur Kid Abbygayle. If she were anywhere as endearing as her appearance is beautiful, then I can certainly see why you miss her so much and wish to snuggle, pet, scratch, hug and kiss her. She has that Maine Coon kitty look about her and they are so sweet. Awww! I'm terribly sorry you're having such a difficult time with your grief journey as well as other things that are going on in your life. It's not fair. It's just not. But, like you said to me, we don't really "cope" or even have "closure." Not ever. The best we can do is to "adjust" to our new life which our loss has brought us. Oh, how well I understood when you said that on my Alex thread. {{{{{Hug}}}}}
As for me, I still wipe away all memories of Alex. Like he never even existed. It's the only way I find that I'm able to at least try to make those adjustments you've spoken to me about here at LS. Any memories at all, be they happy, sad, funny and so on ... Only serve as hurtful reminders. And, it's been three years now. All over a Quaker Parrot. Most people would believe us daft as we shed tears, feel so much grief and devastation over a bird, cat, dog, bunny, hamster, goldfish or even a duck billed platypus. Thank God for LS and all here who do understand and won't talk to us like my brother, uncle and even my best friend. Oy. Like the poem says, we must try to forgive them because they simply don't understand that our cherished fur and feather kids are ourselves, our children, the sun, sky, moon, awesome sunsets, promises and so much more ... And so much more ...
On October 15th in the late evening, for the first time in years, I felt Alex's presence right here in my home. It wasn't a sad thing at all for that presence, but was torture for me. I began to feel a panic and it got stronger and stronger. The panic was my knowledge that I shall never feel his warm Heart beat against my own again in this lifetime. Was he really here in Spirit? Heck, I dunno. Probably just my head playing mind trips on me when it comes to Alex. And, I know I am not alone. Many, if not most, do these things to ourselves when we lose our very best friend in the world.
Finally, I began to weep which surprised me because I'm so good at blocking out all things Alex at this point in time. Then, I turned my head to the right and saw the clock. It was exactly one minute past midnight. So began Alex's three year Angelversary. I knew I had to stop crying and getting all upset because of physical reasons. Also, I read in a post that you made to someone else how you also have PTSD and have for I believe you wrote it's been 25 years now. Mine began when I was six years old. Like you, it was right after my Mom died and the circumstances surrounding what happened. PTSD sure ain't pretty. Losses such as ours and others here can and do make it worse. Please know how I empathize with you, dear sweet Moon Beam. I need to believe I'll see him and others again on That One Sweet Day in one form or another. That keeps me going and "adjusting" as you put it so well.
Please know you're in my daily thoughts and prayers. Moon Beam. Many Blessings to you, your Angel Fur Kid Abbygayle, Angel Oslo Doggie, Angel Eli Kitty and your precious Noah kitty there at home with you.
Many Comforting Hugs and I Wish You Peace.
Always, Dottie xoxoxox
What lovely conversations you have with your precious Angel Fur Kid Abbygayle. If she were anywhere as endearing as her appearance is beautiful, then I can certainly see why you miss her so much and wish to snuggle, pet, scratch, hug and kiss her. She has that Maine Coon kitty look about her and they are so sweet. Awww! I'm terribly sorry you're having such a difficult time with your grief journey as well as other things that are going on in your life. It's not fair. It's just not. But, like you said to me, we don't really "cope" or even have "closure." Not ever. The best we can do is to "adjust" to our new life which our loss has brought us. Oh, how well I understood when you said that on my Alex thread. {{{{{Hug}}}}}
As for me, I still wipe away all memories of Alex. Like he never even existed. It's the only way I find that I'm able to at least try to make those adjustments you've spoken to me about here at LS. Any memories at all, be they happy, sad, funny and so on ... Only serve as hurtful reminders. And, it's been three years now. All over a Quaker Parrot. Most people would believe us daft as we shed tears, feel so much grief and devastation over a bird, cat, dog, bunny, hamster, goldfish or even a duck billed platypus. Thank God for LS and all here who do understand and won't talk to us like my brother, uncle and even my best friend. Oy. Like the poem says, we must try to forgive them because they simply don't understand that our cherished fur and feather kids are ourselves, our children, the sun, sky, moon, awesome sunsets, promises and so much more ... And so much more ...
On October 15th in the late evening, for the first time in years, I felt Alex's presence right here in my home. It wasn't a sad thing at all for that presence, but was torture for me. I began to feel a panic and it got stronger and stronger. The panic was my knowledge that I shall never feel his warm Heart beat against my own again in this lifetime. Was he really here in Spirit? Heck, I dunno. Probably just my head playing mind trips on me when it comes to Alex. And, I know I am not alone. Many, if not most, do these things to ourselves when we lose our very best friend in the world.
Finally, I began to weep which surprised me because I'm so good at blocking out all things Alex at this point in time. Then, I turned my head to the right and saw the clock. It was exactly one minute past midnight. So began Alex's three year Angelversary. I knew I had to stop crying and getting all upset because of physical reasons. Also, I read in a post that you made to someone else how you also have PTSD and have for I believe you wrote it's been 25 years now. Mine began when I was six years old. Like you, it was right after my Mom died and the circumstances surrounding what happened. PTSD sure ain't pretty. Losses such as ours and others here can and do make it worse. Please know how I empathize with you, dear sweet Moon Beam. I need to believe I'll see him and others again on That One Sweet Day in one form or another. That keeps me going and "adjusting" as you put it so well.
Please know you're in my daily thoughts and prayers. Moon Beam. Many Blessings to you, your Angel Fur Kid Abbygayle, Angel Oslo Doggie, Angel Eli Kitty and your precious Noah kitty there at home with you.
Many Comforting Hugs and I Wish You Peace.
Always, Dottie xoxoxox
Hi moon_beam,
I cried when reading your post to your precious Abbygayle. I cried because it's so touching and the love you feel for her jumps right out of your words. But I also cried because of the pain you're feeling and because I wish we didn't have to go through this. I'm sorry that you had a "rough" weekend too. As you read on my thread, I was right there with you. As the holidays draw closer, it's just going to get harder for us all. I'm just so glad that we all have each other on this wonderful forum, for a cyber shoulder to cry on, and a cyber hand to hold to help pull us through. I'm leaning my shoulder towards you right now for you to rest your weary head, and I'm reaching out my hand for you to hold, moon_beam. Thank you for your support and friendship.
Big hugs, Cheryl xx
I cried when reading your post to your precious Abbygayle. I cried because it's so touching and the love you feel for her jumps right out of your words. But I also cried because of the pain you're feeling and because I wish we didn't have to go through this. I'm sorry that you had a "rough" weekend too. As you read on my thread, I was right there with you. As the holidays draw closer, it's just going to get harder for us all. I'm just so glad that we all have each other on this wonderful forum, for a cyber shoulder to cry on, and a cyber hand to hold to help pull us through. I'm leaning my shoulder towards you right now for you to rest your weary head, and I'm reaching out my hand for you to hold, moon_beam. Thank you for your support and friendship.
Big hugs, Cheryl xx
Dear Dottie and Cheryl, thank you so much for sharing Abbygayle's, Noah's, and my 7 month anniversary with us. As you know some days are easier than others, - - sometimes I just get focused on "this time last year" - - but this time last year my Abbygayle was recovering from her second cancer surgery, and my precious Oslo was becoming weaker. I was amazed that he made it to his 15th birthday - - a testimony to his determination to be with us for as long as he possibly could be.
This time last year I was "preparing" for the inevitable reality that my Oslo and my Abbygayle would be joining the angels. But I still had their sweet precious physical bodies to hold and comfort, - - now I hold their sweet Living Spirits firecely in my heart and memories.
Thank you again for sharing this anniversary with us. Please know the both of you are close in my thoughts and prayers.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
This time last year I was "preparing" for the inevitable reality that my Oslo and my Abbygayle would be joining the angels. But I still had their sweet precious physical bodies to hold and comfort, - - now I hold their sweet Living Spirits firecely in my heart and memories.
Thank you again for sharing this anniversary with us. Please know the both of you are close in my thoughts and prayers.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
QUOTE (moon_beam @ Oct 18 2010, 04:03 PM) 
Dear Dottie and Cheryl, thank you so much for sharing Abbygayle's, Noah's, and my 7 month anniversary with us. As you know some days are easier than others, - - sometimes I just get focused on "this time last year" - - but this time last year my Abbygayle was recovering from her second cancer surgery, and my precious Oslo was becoming weaker. I was amazed that he made it to his 15th birthday - - a testimony to his determination to be with us for as long as he possibly could be.
This time last year I was "preparing" for the inevitable reality that my Oslo and my Abbygayle would be joining the angels. But I still had their sweet precious physical bodies to hold and comfort, - - now I hold their sweet Living Spirits firecely in my heart and memories.
Thank you again for sharing this anniversary with us. Please know the both of you are close in my thoughts and prayers.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
This time last year I was "preparing" for the inevitable reality that my Oslo and my Abbygayle would be joining the angels. But I still had their sweet precious physical bodies to hold and comfort, - - now I hold their sweet Living Spirits firecely in my heart and memories.
Thank you again for sharing this anniversary with us. Please know the both of you are close in my thoughts and prayers.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
{{{{{Moon Beam and Your Angels}}}}}
"The Feline Spirit"
And God asked the feline Spirit,
Are you ready to come home?
Oh yes, quite so, replied the precious Soul.
And, as a cat, you know I am most able
To decide anything for myself.
Are you coming then? asked God.
Soon, replied the whiskered Angel.
But I must come slowly,
For my human friends are troubled.
For, you see they need me quite certainly.
But don't they understand, asked God
That you'll never leave them?
That your Souls are intertwined for all Eternity?
That nothing is created or destroyed?
It just is ... Forever and ever and ever.
Eventually they will understand,
Replied the glorious cat.
For I will whisper into their hearts
That I am always with them.
I just am ... Forever and ever and ever.
~ Author Unknown ~
Dearest Dottie, thank you so o o much for the beautiful graphics and the wonderful poem. You are so o o special, Dottie. Thank you again so o o much. It means a great deal - - more than words can express.
Hope life is treating you kindly, my friend.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Hope life is treating you kindly, my friend.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Moonbeam, I'm sorry I've been away. I must admit for selfish reasons but also because we're having internet problems. It keeps locking up so we'll have to try a new provider soon. So, many times when I"m off work, I don't even bother with the computer because it's so frustrating to be in the middle of something and lock up.
Anyway, I read your letter to Abbygale. It made me ache because I could feel what you are feeling. I hope you are doing better today. I went for a little while shortly after I got my good test results, feeling ok. But then the other night I was in my bedroom and I heard music. I knew my husband was listening to something on the computer (not on the internet). Whenever he listens to music on the computer, he's usually having a hard time. I crept down the hall and saw him sitting with only the light from the screen on his face. Buck's picture is on the computer desktop screen and he was staring at it - tears rolling down his face. My heart sank. We'd been doing well. And ever since, I've had a hard time.
Yesterday as I was driving home I was missing Buck so much. I was thinking that if I could just see and touch another dog that looked like him, that it would be, I guess, nice. I came to a four-way stop and in front of me was a man about my husband's age walking a Boo-dog (that's what we call dogs that look like Buck). He looked how Buck did in his older years. My mouth dropped open and I looked away only to see a woman walking her young Boo-dog! He looked just like Buck when he was young. And she was untangling the leash from his legs like I used to do. I wanted to stop and ask if I could hug their dogs, but, of course, I didn't. I cried the rest of the way home. I came inside and my husband was standing there. He could see the tears and he just hugged me and said, "I know." I don't know how he knew I was upset about Buck, but he did.
It's a wet blanket on me, at times. Thank you for checking on me on my thread. Thank you for everything. Whenever I feel alone in my heartache, I think of you. And I'm reminded that there are people out there with the same heart as mine. My boys were my children just as Eli, Oslo, Abbygale and Noah are yours. I loved taking care of them. And I know you did too. Kisses to Noah. Take care.
-Donna
Anyway, I read your letter to Abbygale. It made me ache because I could feel what you are feeling. I hope you are doing better today. I went for a little while shortly after I got my good test results, feeling ok. But then the other night I was in my bedroom and I heard music. I knew my husband was listening to something on the computer (not on the internet). Whenever he listens to music on the computer, he's usually having a hard time. I crept down the hall and saw him sitting with only the light from the screen on his face. Buck's picture is on the computer desktop screen and he was staring at it - tears rolling down his face. My heart sank. We'd been doing well. And ever since, I've had a hard time.
Yesterday as I was driving home I was missing Buck so much. I was thinking that if I could just see and touch another dog that looked like him, that it would be, I guess, nice. I came to a four-way stop and in front of me was a man about my husband's age walking a Boo-dog (that's what we call dogs that look like Buck). He looked how Buck did in his older years. My mouth dropped open and I looked away only to see a woman walking her young Boo-dog! He looked just like Buck when he was young. And she was untangling the leash from his legs like I used to do. I wanted to stop and ask if I could hug their dogs, but, of course, I didn't. I cried the rest of the way home. I came inside and my husband was standing there. He could see the tears and he just hugged me and said, "I know." I don't know how he knew I was upset about Buck, but he did.
It's a wet blanket on me, at times. Thank you for checking on me on my thread. Thank you for everything. Whenever I feel alone in my heartache, I think of you. And I'm reminded that there are people out there with the same heart as mine. My boys were my children just as Eli, Oslo, Abbygale and Noah are yours. I loved taking care of them. And I know you did too. Kisses to Noah. Take care.
-Donna
Dear Donna, it was so nice logging in to see your most welcome message waiting for me. Your thoughtful, caring, comforting words are a soothing balm to my heart and soul. Thank you for sharing how you and your husband are doing. Sometimes it truly does feel like it's two steps forward and ten steps backward. What a treasure it was for you to see TWO boo-dogs - - each representing the youthful and the senior Buck - - just when you needed to see them, although still very painful. Perhaps one day when you see them again, or another boo-dog, you will feel stronger to ask to hold them. When it's the "right" time for you, Donna, - - and only then.
I'm sorry you're having internet challenges. High technology is great - - when it works - - but when it doesn't it's really the pits.
Donna, I wish there was an easier way through this grief adjustment journey for you, and for all of us here on this forum. Knowing that I have you, Dottie, Cheryl, and everyone here to share my precious babies with me means more to me than words can ever express. Donna, please know you and your husband are frequently in my thoughts and prayers every day, and I look forward to hearing from you whenever possible.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
I'm sorry you're having internet challenges. High technology is great - - when it works - - but when it doesn't it's really the pits.
Donna, I wish there was an easier way through this grief adjustment journey for you, and for all of us here on this forum. Knowing that I have you, Dottie, Cheryl, and everyone here to share my precious babies with me means more to me than words can ever express. Donna, please know you and your husband are frequently in my thoughts and prayers every day, and I look forward to hearing from you whenever possible.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
QUOTE (moon_beam @ Oct 19 2010, 02:39 PM)
Dearest Dottie, thank you so o o much for the beautiful graphics and the wonderful poem. You are so o o special, Dottie. Thank you again so o o much. It means a great deal - - more than words can express.
Hope life is treating you kindly, my friend.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Hope life is treating you kindly, my friend.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
You're very welcome, Moon Beam.
I Wish This For You.
These flowers are to you from your Fur Kid Angels!
Keeping Candles Lit for You and Them.
Always, Dottie xoxoxox
I Wish This For You.
These flowers are to you from your Fur Kid Angels!
Keeping Candles Lit for You and Them.
Always, Dottie xoxoxox
Hi, Dottie, thank you so much for keeping my fur angels' "eternal flames" burning. Thank you so much for being you, and I thank God for blessing my life with you, and for blessing my life with all the wonderful Forum participants, each of you my dearest friends.
Please know you, Dottie, and each of you who read this post are close in my thoughts and prayers.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Please know you, Dottie, and each of you who read this post are close in my thoughts and prayers.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
I am so sorry about Abbygayle. I loved seeing her pictures. How beautiful! She was lucky to have a mom like you. What a beautiful life.
I just wanted you to know that I was thinking of you and sending love. I am very grateful for you supportive posts.
I just wanted you to know that I was thinking of you and sending love. I am very grateful for you supportive posts.
Hi, Lammy, thank you so much for sharing my beautiful baby girl with me. I can't believe that it has been 7.5 months already since she joined the angels. This year has been a difficult one for my precious little Noah and me. I never imagined in my worst nightmares that he would be the sole survivor at 7 years of age in a household that once embraced four furkids. Sometimes my heart is so very saddened for Noah having to live to seei each of his family fur members having to leave him, and two of them within 4 months of each other. I know what it's like to be "the one left behind" and it's not always an easy load to carry. So, every day as often as I can I tell him how special he is and how proud of him I am, and how much I love him with all my heart.
Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Lammy, and thank you again so very much for your kind, heartfelt comfort and encouragement.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Lammy, and thank you again so very much for your kind, heartfelt comfort and encouragement.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
My beautiful baby girl, today commemorates 8 months since you joined the angels. It is also your doggie brother's, Oslo's, earthly birthday, so I hope in some way you, Eli, and the angels are helping him celebrate the years of his earthly journey with us.
I must confess I am missing the sweet physical presence of you both today. There are times when the sadness of "this time last year" creeps into my heart. - - the sadness of not having you here to hold in my arms, to touch, to feel the warmth of your precious body close to me. But this time last year I could see the tiredness in your doggy brother's face, and eyes, and body, and you, my sweet girl, were recovering from your second major surgery for cancer. How I prayed with all my heart that it would not come back, that you would be spared. Well, my precoius girl, you are free of alll illness now, and I am very thankful for that. If it had not been the cancer I know some other illness would eventually have physically separated us, but I would have eagerly embraced the longer time together, my beautiful girl, if it meant that you could have been healthy and happy. I am of the age now where each day becomes one day closer to the hope of finally being reunited with you in eternal joy at my appropriate time, and I am looking forward to never being separated from you again.
For now, though, my beautiful girl, your sweet brother still needs me, and so we are enjoying each day we have together. I know he misses you, my baby girl, but I am doing my best to help him be happy.
My beautiful baby girl, I love you with all my heart, and am forever grateful for the opportunity of having been your earthly caregiver. I love you with all my heart, my precious, beautiful baby girl - -
Forever and through all eternity,
mom
I must confess I am missing the sweet physical presence of you both today. There are times when the sadness of "this time last year" creeps into my heart. - - the sadness of not having you here to hold in my arms, to touch, to feel the warmth of your precious body close to me. But this time last year I could see the tiredness in your doggy brother's face, and eyes, and body, and you, my sweet girl, were recovering from your second major surgery for cancer. How I prayed with all my heart that it would not come back, that you would be spared. Well, my precoius girl, you are free of alll illness now, and I am very thankful for that. If it had not been the cancer I know some other illness would eventually have physically separated us, but I would have eagerly embraced the longer time together, my beautiful girl, if it meant that you could have been healthy and happy. I am of the age now where each day becomes one day closer to the hope of finally being reunited with you in eternal joy at my appropriate time, and I am looking forward to never being separated from you again.
For now, though, my beautiful girl, your sweet brother still needs me, and so we are enjoying each day we have together. I know he misses you, my baby girl, but I am doing my best to help him be happy.
My beautiful baby girl, I love you with all my heart, and am forever grateful for the opportunity of having been your earthly caregiver. I love you with all my heart, my precious, beautiful baby girl - -
Forever and through all eternity,
mom
Moonbeam......I just read the very moving story of your beloved Abbygale. What a light in your life she was. I so understand how hard it is to lose multiple creatures, the pain multiplies also.
I thank you for all the effort you have put into helping heal others and I so hope for your own continued healing as well, what a caring person you are, so many have been so lucky to have you for a Mom.
Please keep in touch and remember that we are all carrying a similar burden, trying to cope with a unimaginable loss and struggling with a heavy heart.
Jan
I thank you for all the effort you have put into helping heal others and I so hope for your own continued healing as well, what a caring person you are, so many have been so lucky to have you for a Mom.
Please keep in touch and remember that we are all carrying a similar burden, trying to cope with a unimaginable loss and struggling with a heavy heart.
Jan
Thank you for sharing these thoughts and memories with us all. Whenever I read your posts, you have the most comforting way of helping others with their own loss. I wish I could do the same for you as you have endured great loss yourself. Like Jan said, I appreciate all the words of wisdom you share with everyone here and hope in some small way that is able to help you heal.
Dear Moonbeam
Those were wonderful words to you precious, beautiful Abbygale. I'm sure that she will be surrounded by your dear Angels and watching over you and dear Noah.
I am thinking of you and sending love and hugs.
Jan and my Angels and Pixie xx
Those were wonderful words to you precious, beautiful Abbygale. I'm sure that she will be surrounded by your dear Angels and watching over you and dear Noah.
I am thinking of you and sending love and hugs.
Jan and my Angels and Pixie xx
Hi moon_beam,
Thank you so much for sharing your touching letter to your beautiful Abbygale. I know she is hearing your words, and sensing your upset, and surrounding you with her loving Spirit to soothe your pain. If you close your eyes, I'm sure you will feel her. Feel the warmth, the comfort, the glow in the part of your heart that belongs only to her.
Thinking of you, moon_beam, and of all of your Angels, and not forgetting little Noah!
Hugs, your friend, Cheryl xx
Thank you so much for sharing your touching letter to your beautiful Abbygale. I know she is hearing your words, and sensing your upset, and surrounding you with her loving Spirit to soothe your pain. If you close your eyes, I'm sure you will feel her. Feel the warmth, the comfort, the glow in the part of your heart that belongs only to her.
Thinking of you, moon_beam, and of all of your Angels, and not forgetting little Noah!
Hugs, your friend, Cheryl xx
Hi, JanEeee, Aaron, Jan, and Cheryl, thank you so much for your comforting words. Yesterday was a bit of a double whammy, as you could tell from my post.
Noah is doing a little better recently. He has started to show some interest in the toys he and Abbygayle shared together, including a little feather wand that I keep close by the bed - - he will now play with me a little bit. We're both slowly traveling our grief journey, and as you know, some days are better than others, and each day is a blessing with my little Noah.
I hope and pray that the days are treating each of you kindly. Each of you are in my thoughts and prayers every day. And thank you again so much for your comforting, caring, friendship.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Noah is doing a little better recently. He has started to show some interest in the toys he and Abbygayle shared together, including a little feather wand that I keep close by the bed - - he will now play with me a little bit. We're both slowly traveling our grief journey, and as you know, some days are better than others, and each day is a blessing with my little Noah.
I hope and pray that the days are treating each of you kindly. Each of you are in my thoughts and prayers every day. And thank you again so much for your comforting, caring, friendship.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
My beautiful baby girl, today is 9 months since you joined the angels. This time last year you were recovering from your third and final surgery on your left hip. Of the three surgeries, my precious baby girl, this one was the hardest. I was very concerened about how having surgeries so close together would affect you emotionally. I'm sorry that you had to go through that, my baby girl, but at the same time I had to give you every chance to be rid of the cancer, and the only way your doctor and I could do that was through the surgeries. When I saw how hard the last surgery was on you, I promised you no more, my baby girl. You looked at me and I could see in your eyes that you understood and believed me. While I had hope, I also suspected deep in my heart that it would be our last physical Chrsitmas on our earthly journey together. My deepest sorrow is that within 6 weeks the tumors returned with a vengence, my baby girl. There was nothing more your doctor or I could do except to keep you as comfortable and happy as possible. I tried to savor every moment of every day we had together, my precious girl.
Our little home isn't the same this Christmas. Your brother and I are trying our best to cheer and comfort one another, but you know there are still some challenging times for us in missing your sweet physical presence, my beautiful girl. You are my precious beautiful baby girl.
Noah and I hope that you are enjoying the festivities with the angels and Eli and Oslo and all the wonderful residents of heaven's perfect garden. This Christmas you are healthy again, my beautiful girl - - no more cancer. You can frolic in the garden, and I can see you chasing the butterflies, or stretched out under one of the trees watching the squirrels and birds play. I am so glad you are no longer burdened with the physical challenges of illness, my beautiful baby girl. I am so glad to you are now free to enjoy an eternity of happiness.
We love you, precious girl. I love you with all my heart - - you are forever a part of me, my beautiful precious baby girl - - you are forever a part of us, my love,
For all eternity,
mom and Noah
Our little home isn't the same this Christmas. Your brother and I are trying our best to cheer and comfort one another, but you know there are still some challenging times for us in missing your sweet physical presence, my beautiful girl. You are my precious beautiful baby girl.
Noah and I hope that you are enjoying the festivities with the angels and Eli and Oslo and all the wonderful residents of heaven's perfect garden. This Christmas you are healthy again, my beautiful girl - - no more cancer. You can frolic in the garden, and I can see you chasing the butterflies, or stretched out under one of the trees watching the squirrels and birds play. I am so glad you are no longer burdened with the physical challenges of illness, my beautiful baby girl. I am so glad to you are now free to enjoy an eternity of happiness.
We love you, precious girl. I love you with all my heart - - you are forever a part of me, my beautiful precious baby girl - - you are forever a part of us, my love,
For all eternity,
mom and Noah
Hi, moon_beam.
Your letter to your precious baby girl, Abbygale, is so beautiful. I hope that when you and Noah are snuggled together on Christmas day, you both strongly feel the love and presence of the rest of the family. Abbygale, Oslo, and Eli, will be right there with you both. I'm sure they will do whatever they can to let you know this -- so don't be surprised if you smell their scent, or suddenly feel your heart warm. Who needs an angel on a Christmas tree, when we have our own special angels watching over us?
Please know, also, that you and darling Noah will be in my thoughts. Wishing you both peace and happiness.
Big hugs, Cheryl xx
Your letter to your precious baby girl, Abbygale, is so beautiful. I hope that when you and Noah are snuggled together on Christmas day, you both strongly feel the love and presence of the rest of the family. Abbygale, Oslo, and Eli, will be right there with you both. I'm sure they will do whatever they can to let you know this -- so don't be surprised if you smell their scent, or suddenly feel your heart warm. Who needs an angel on a Christmas tree, when we have our own special angels watching over us?
Please know, also, that you and darling Noah will be in my thoughts. Wishing you both peace and happiness.
Big hugs, Cheryl xx
Hi, Cheryl - - AMEN to your wonderful observation: "Who needs an angel on a Christmas tree, when we have our own special angels watching over us?"
Thank you so much for your friendship, Cheryl. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, my friend.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Thank you so much for your friendship, Cheryl. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, my friend.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Oh...I love what Cheryl said also. I'm so glad you have Noah there to bring you comfort. I'm sure Abbygale comes during the night and snuggles with him and bathes him before bedtime...you know how little boys can be...gotta make sure to clean behind those ears.
Thank you for sharing your letter to your baby girl with us.
Lots of hugs,
Annette
Thank you for sharing your letter to your baby girl with us.
Lots of hugs,
Annette
Thank you for sharing your letter with us all. I hope it helps you to know that your words not only help you heal from your loss, but they help us all through our respective difficult times.
Hi, Annette, Aaron, thank for stopping by to say "hello" and for your comforting friendship. Annette, I'm smiling about your comment about washing behind the ears - - they would clean each other's ears and faces after eating until they sparkled - - it was so o oo cute to watch, and this memory your words stirred have brought a smile to my face. Aaron, thank you for your comforting encouragement. It is always a blessing to know that others find comfort and encouragement in what I share.
Thank you both very much for your comforting friendship, and please know you are frequently in my thoughts and prayers.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Thank you both very much for your comforting friendship, and please know you are frequently in my thoughts and prayers.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Dearest Moonbeam,
Was just thinking about you and looked at your lovely pictures of your little darlings, what gorgeous faces. I just felt like kissing them and stroking their silky coats. Its no wonder you miss them so much.
Well i want to thank you Moonbeam for the fantastic job you do on here, I always think "there she is again comforting and supporting everyone".
Credit to you and good on you. Take good care of yourself, you are a treasure.
Love Gloria ***
Was just thinking about you and looked at your lovely pictures of your little darlings, what gorgeous faces. I just felt like kissing them and stroking their silky coats. Its no wonder you miss them so much.
Well i want to thank you Moonbeam for the fantastic job you do on here, I always think "there she is again comforting and supporting everyone".
Credit to you and good on you. Take good care of yourself, you are a treasure.
Love Gloria ***
Hi, Gloria, thank you so much for your most thoughtful note. I do miss my precious furkids, but I also know they are in the best place of all - - heaven's perfect garden. And I have their peace and happiness in my heart knowing they are well and happy.
I am honored to be able to offer comfort, encouragement, support, and hope to others whose hearts are shattered and broken. And I thank you and all of my dear friends here for each of your thoughtfulness, encouragement, comfort, and most importantly - - your friendship - - always -- including in my times of need. We are here together, and from each other we obtain the strength and courage to live our lives in a way that will honor our beloved companions.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
I am honored to be able to offer comfort, encouragement, support, and hope to others whose hearts are shattered and broken. And I thank you and all of my dear friends here for each of your thoughtfulness, encouragement, comfort, and most importantly - - your friendship - - always -- including in my times of need. We are here together, and from each other we obtain the strength and courage to live our lives in a way that will honor our beloved companions.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
QUOTE (moon_beam @ Dec 29 2010, 09:59 PM)
We are here together, and from each other we obtain the strength and courage to live our lives in a way that will honor our beloved companions.
I love this
Hi, Cheryl, I can't remember which group it was that sang the song but I think the title is "Lean on Me". It's an honor to be one of many you and others can rely on to be here.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
My dearest beautiful baby girl, I know it has been awhile since I have written to you, but I know you know you are always in my heart and thoughts - - you are always with me and Noah each and every day every minute of every hour of every day. My precious girl, today is one year to the date that you joined the angels. It is one year to the date that Noah became the sole survivor in a home that he has witnessed each of his fur family members leave him behind - - with me as his only companion. I know he misses you, my baby girl. I know he misses looking after you. I miss your cuddles, my beautiful baby girl. I miss watching you and Noah with your noses pressed to the window every morning watching the sunrise, the birds flying among the trees, the leaves whipped in the wind - - watching you and being your earthly caregiver are the sweetest joys I had during your earthly journey, and are forever the sweetest memories in my heart. I would have that lifetime again with you, my baby girl, if it meant that you could be spared the pain of physical illness and we could be together here forever. But I know if you were here you would eventually have to physically leave me. So it is truly best that you are with the angels, my beautiful baby girl, where I know you are happy and once again healthy - - no more cancer, no more surgeries. And my heart is comforted in knowing that when I see you again, my beautiful baby girl, we will never be separated again. What a joyful day that will be!!!
My beautiful baby girl, in a few days the calendar will say that it's spring - - this will be our second spring without your physical presence here with Noah and me. Last year I really didin't care if spring ever came. It has been a hard year for both Noah and me adjusting to the "new normal" without your sweet physical presence with us. But a new spring is once again coming, and I find myself not feeling quite so burdened by it - - but rather enjoying listening to the birds and remembering how excited you got when you watched them build their nests and tidy up their homesteads for a new season of raising their feather families. Noah and I look out the windows together, and I feel your sweet Living Spirit there with us as I hold him in my arms.
My beautiful baby girl, I love you so much, and Noah loves you, too. We miss you, my beautiful baby girl, but I am comforted in knowing that you are safe with the angels and your big doggy brother Oslo and your big adopted kitty brother Eli. I know they are keeping a watch on you and that you are truly happy. And I'm trying my very best to keep Noah comforted and happy, too. Before you both were rescued, I know it was Noah's loving care of you that kept you alive, my beautiful baby girl, and I am eternally blessed to have the privilege of being your earthly guardian. Your brother is a precious little soul, and I am so blessed to have his sweet physical presence still with me. Thank you, my beautiful baby girl, for touching my life with you.
Noah and I love you, my baby girl - - my precious beautiful baby girl - - my beloved - - always and forever - -
Eternally,
mom
My beautiful baby girl, in a few days the calendar will say that it's spring - - this will be our second spring without your physical presence here with Noah and me. Last year I really didin't care if spring ever came. It has been a hard year for both Noah and me adjusting to the "new normal" without your sweet physical presence with us. But a new spring is once again coming, and I find myself not feeling quite so burdened by it - - but rather enjoying listening to the birds and remembering how excited you got when you watched them build their nests and tidy up their homesteads for a new season of raising their feather families. Noah and I look out the windows together, and I feel your sweet Living Spirit there with us as I hold him in my arms.
My beautiful baby girl, I love you so much, and Noah loves you, too. We miss you, my beautiful baby girl, but I am comforted in knowing that you are safe with the angels and your big doggy brother Oslo and your big adopted kitty brother Eli. I know they are keeping a watch on you and that you are truly happy. And I'm trying my very best to keep Noah comforted and happy, too. Before you both were rescued, I know it was Noah's loving care of you that kept you alive, my beautiful baby girl, and I am eternally blessed to have the privilege of being your earthly guardian. Your brother is a precious little soul, and I am so blessed to have his sweet physical presence still with me. Thank you, my beautiful baby girl, for touching my life with you.
Noah and I love you, my baby girl - - my precious beautiful baby girl - - my beloved - - always and forever - -
Eternally,
mom
Dearest moon_beam.
Thinking of you today; on the day of your sweet Abbygale's one year "Angelversary". In two months time, I too, will be dealing with this anniversary. I don't know about you, but isn't it crazy how quickly the time goes? Yet our love for them, and our memories of them, has no part in the boundaries of time. They are ours forever and always; ours to rewind and "play back" in our minds and hearts as often as we need to.
moon_beam, I wish you could see how much I smiled reading this. I'm so glad that you are comforted by this knowledge. And Amen! to it, is all that I can say
Take care of yourself, moon_beam. You and Noah are in my thoughts and prayers
Your friend, Cheryl xx
Thinking of you today; on the day of your sweet Abbygale's one year "Angelversary". In two months time, I too, will be dealing with this anniversary. I don't know about you, but isn't it crazy how quickly the time goes? Yet our love for them, and our memories of them, has no part in the boundaries of time. They are ours forever and always; ours to rewind and "play back" in our minds and hearts as often as we need to.
QUOTE (moon_beam @ Mar 15 2011, 10:08 PM)
And my heart is comforted in knowing that when I see you again, my beautiful baby girl, we will never be separated again. What a joyful day that will be!!!
moon_beam, I wish you could see how much I smiled reading this. I'm so glad that you are comforted by this knowledge. And Amen! to it, is all that I can say
Take care of yourself, moon_beam. You and Noah are in my thoughts and prayers
Your friend, Cheryl xx
Dear Cheryl, thank you so o o o much for your most thoughtful and caring note. I love your "Angelversary" - - how very sweet and oh h h so wonderfully true!!! Thank you so o o much for this wonderful word!!!! You are so right - - it doesn't matter how much time passes - - they are forever with us - - always a heartbeat close to us.
My friend, I do so know how much you miss your sweet precious Daisy's physical presence. I know this has been a tremendously difficult year for you as well. I thank you so o much for your comforting friendship, my friend, particularly during a time that has been equally painful for you.
Today I had the leak under the basement kitchen sink repaired. Turned out the faucet was bad and had to have a new faucet installed. The plumber, bless his heart, went to two different plumbing stores both next door to each other, before he bought one for me that was close to what I had. The entire job took close to 3 hours, but he did a really nice job and - - NO LEAK!! It wasn't cheap but hopefully it will be another 13 or 14 years before another leak starts. Noah had the upstairs to retreat to, but close to the time when the plumber was almost done he got brave and came downstairs and made sure that the job was done. The plumber has a picture of his cat on his cellphone and showed it to me - - a very proud "daddy."
Thank you again, Cheryl, for sharing my baby girl's "Angelversary" with me, and thank you so much for your cherished friendship. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and hope that you have a very pleasant evening filled with your precious Daisy's sweet Living Spirit for company.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
My friend, I do so know how much you miss your sweet precious Daisy's physical presence. I know this has been a tremendously difficult year for you as well. I thank you so o much for your comforting friendship, my friend, particularly during a time that has been equally painful for you.
Today I had the leak under the basement kitchen sink repaired. Turned out the faucet was bad and had to have a new faucet installed. The plumber, bless his heart, went to two different plumbing stores both next door to each other, before he bought one for me that was close to what I had. The entire job took close to 3 hours, but he did a really nice job and - - NO LEAK!! It wasn't cheap but hopefully it will be another 13 or 14 years before another leak starts. Noah had the upstairs to retreat to, but close to the time when the plumber was almost done he got brave and came downstairs and made sure that the job was done. The plumber has a picture of his cat on his cellphone and showed it to me - - a very proud "daddy."
Thank you again, Cheryl, for sharing my baby girl's "Angelversary" with me, and thank you so much for your cherished friendship. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and hope that you have a very pleasant evening filled with your precious Daisy's sweet Living Spirit for company.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Dear Moon_Beam,
Mere words can not express how sorry I am that your gentle heart has to endure yet another loss. Your sad news brought tears to my eyes. You are a very sweet hearted, emotionally generous soul and I wish there were a way to help ease your pain. Your pics of Abbygayle (and Noah) are beautiful. She was a stunning, stunning girl. She looks almost exactly like my Sweetie Pie, who was with me many years ago. It sounds like they had very similar personalities, very loving and cuddly, which makes for wonderous harmoney for the time you're allowed to share but so painful and difficult to let go. I wish there were something I could do to help ease your pain but aside from sending you a big cyber-hug, I can think of no words that could possibly begin to lighten your greiving heart.
I hope you and Noah continue to find comfort in one another during this difficult time. I will keep you, Noah and Abbygayle in my thoughts and prayers. Abbygayle could not have hoped for a better Mom or family with which to share her life .
From the bottom of my heart, I offer my condolences and my thanks to you for being such a self-less, compassionate and supportive person. Your messages to me have helped me as I've traveled my difficult road getting over Peggy's sudden and untimely passing. You have been so supportive and kind, even while trying to navigate through your own pain. You are truly one of God's special people on this planet.
I will be praying that all of you find peace and happy dreams of joy filled days.
Please take care of yourself.
Peggy (the human)
Mere words can not express how sorry I am that your gentle heart has to endure yet another loss. Your sad news brought tears to my eyes. You are a very sweet hearted, emotionally generous soul and I wish there were a way to help ease your pain. Your pics of Abbygayle (and Noah) are beautiful. She was a stunning, stunning girl. She looks almost exactly like my Sweetie Pie, who was with me many years ago. It sounds like they had very similar personalities, very loving and cuddly, which makes for wonderous harmoney for the time you're allowed to share but so painful and difficult to let go. I wish there were something I could do to help ease your pain but aside from sending you a big cyber-hug, I can think of no words that could possibly begin to lighten your greiving heart.
I hope you and Noah continue to find comfort in one another during this difficult time. I will keep you, Noah and Abbygayle in my thoughts and prayers. Abbygayle could not have hoped for a better Mom or family with which to share her life .
From the bottom of my heart, I offer my condolences and my thanks to you for being such a self-less, compassionate and supportive person. Your messages to me have helped me as I've traveled my difficult road getting over Peggy's sudden and untimely passing. You have been so supportive and kind, even while trying to navigate through your own pain. You are truly one of God's special people on this planet.
I will be praying that all of you find peace and happy dreams of joy filled days.
Please take care of yourself.
Peggy (the human)
Hi, Peggy, thank you so much for your most thoughtful and comforting note. There is no denying this past year has been a challenge. I am so blessed to be here with the closest friends I have the privilege to know who truly understand what I am feeling. This is a tremendous comfort.
It's hard to talk about Noah without Abbygayle, and vice versa. They were inseparable during their earthly journey together. And it will always be hard for me to think of Noah without including his beautiful baby sister, my precious Abbygayle. Since I am into my senior years now and the physical challenges due to injuries 25 years ago are now becoming more progressive, my little Noah may very well be my last fur child. So I am truly treasuring this time we have together, and am thankful for his precious company.
I thank you again, Peggy, for your comforting note, particularly at a time that is filled with great sadness for you, and most of all your friendship. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
It's hard to talk about Noah without Abbygayle, and vice versa. They were inseparable during their earthly journey together. And it will always be hard for me to think of Noah without including his beautiful baby sister, my precious Abbygayle. Since I am into my senior years now and the physical challenges due to injuries 25 years ago are now becoming more progressive, my little Noah may very well be my last fur child. So I am truly treasuring this time we have together, and am thankful for his precious company.
I thank you again, Peggy, for your comforting note, particularly at a time that is filled with great sadness for you, and most of all your friendship. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Greetings MoonBeam,
I'm so glad that this spring is bringing happy memories of Abbygale for you. When I read: "Last year I really didn't care if spring ever came" I thought, that's exactly how I feel right now. But as I read your loving letter to Abbygale, I know that there is hope for me, and next spring I will have moved forward and spring will be spring again, just like it is for you.
You are such a good mom, MoonBeam. And such a good friend to all of us here. Thank you for helping each and every one of us move forward in our journey.
Lots of Hugs
Annette
I'm so glad that this spring is bringing happy memories of Abbygale for you. When I read: "Last year I really didn't care if spring ever came" I thought, that's exactly how I feel right now. But as I read your loving letter to Abbygale, I know that there is hope for me, and next spring I will have moved forward and spring will be spring again, just like it is for you.
You are such a good mom, MoonBeam. And such a good friend to all of us here. Thank you for helping each and every one of us move forward in our journey.
Lots of Hugs
Annette
Hi, Annette, thank you so much for your comforting and thoughtful note, particularly during a time that is challenging for you. I can't believe Sunday is officially the first day of spring - - according to the calendar. It is an honor and a privilege to be able to be here to try to offer some comfort and reassurance to you and all of our wonderful forum friends in their time of deep sorrow. A heart without hope withers. How well I know. It is imy sincerest prayer that you will find hope in your heart, Annette, and in finding hope you will then find a renewed enthusiasm as you continue your earthly journey knowing that your precious Daisy is truly sharing your life now just as she always has, and always will. And always the comfort in knowing that we are here for you, with you, and beside you to share whatever is in your heart and on your mind.
Thank you again, Annette, for your most thoughtful note, and equally for your friendship.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Thank you again, Annette, for your most thoughtful note, and equally for your friendship.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Dear Moonbeam,
Your presence here is warm and ubiquitous. I see now why. Reading about your last year's journey gives me a map to my next 11 months. When I was in the first few days of losing my boy, I seriously wasn't sure how I could continue to live--the grief was so horrid (I'm not a suicidal person in the least, but I have to admit there were a few moments that I just wanted to die because there was simply nothing but excruciating pain). This forum and all of your posts to all of us really saved me. I don't think I've ever seen such kindness and understanding by an unknown cyber person as you. I'm sorry for your loss, beyond words. But I really can see how you've taken his loss and put the energy of grieving into helping others.
Wow. I know Abbagayle is proud and taught you well. She was clearly a Buddha that was meant to entrust you with this important task. You are an amazing person.
ConnieJ
Your presence here is warm and ubiquitous. I see now why. Reading about your last year's journey gives me a map to my next 11 months. When I was in the first few days of losing my boy, I seriously wasn't sure how I could continue to live--the grief was so horrid (I'm not a suicidal person in the least, but I have to admit there were a few moments that I just wanted to die because there was simply nothing but excruciating pain). This forum and all of your posts to all of us really saved me. I don't think I've ever seen such kindness and understanding by an unknown cyber person as you. I'm sorry for your loss, beyond words. But I really can see how you've taken his loss and put the energy of grieving into helping others.
Wow. I know Abbagayle is proud and taught you well. She was clearly a Buddha that was meant to entrust you with this important task. You are an amazing person.
ConnieJ
Dear Connie, thank you for your most thoughtful and comforting note. Even though we are "unknown" to each other in terms of a face-to-face meet and greet, our bond as friends is grounded in the best friendships we will ever know during our earthly journey - - the eternal friendships we share with our beloved companions. And when we are finally reunited with our beloved companions, we will not be strangers to one another when we finally meet face to face in heaven's perfect garden, for our beloved companions have already done the formal introductions through this wonderful forum.
My precious little Noah is taking a nap as I'm writing to you. Sometimes my heart still breaks for him being the sole survivor in a household that once had four furkids.
Connie, thank you again for your most welcome note. I hope you will have a peaceful evening, and please know you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
My precious little Noah is taking a nap as I'm writing to you. Sometimes my heart still breaks for him being the sole survivor in a household that once had four furkids.
Connie, thank you again for your most welcome note. I hope you will have a peaceful evening, and please know you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Since I am into my senior years now and the physical challenges due to injuries 25 years ago are now becoming more progressive, my little Noah may very well be my last fur child. So I am truly treasuring this time we have together, and am thankful for his precious company.
Hi Moon-Beam,
I hope today finds you and Noah well and making happy memories together. I am sorry to hear that past ailments/injuries are intruding into your life and I find it very sad that Noah may be your last fur child. That is something I never gave much thought to since my mother lives with me and gets to enjoy any animal I bring home. She is free to bring in anyone she'd like, as well. And as long as I have a home, so does Mom and any animal that happens to wander in. So I never really gave any thought to reaching a point in life where having animal companionship was no longer an option. What a sad thought. I do suspect though, I may eventually reach that point as well someday.
It's funny becasue I used to worry about Peggy and what would happen to her if something happened to me. Her first 2 and a half years of life were horrible, to say the least. I never wanted her to deal with abuse or neglect again. I made clear to my family that if something happened to me, while travleing or whatever, Peggy was to stay with Mom and if Mom were not in a position to care for her, she was to go with my brother Scott, whom she adored. I even had a financial plan in place to help them take care of her needs. The really strange part of that is, my gut feeling from day one was that this gentle little soul would not be in this world very long. I can't even say it was a feeling, it was more of a knowing. I told the family that and they thought i was paranoid. Not sure why they thought that since they had never heard me say that about any other animal we ever had. There was just something so delicate about Peggy and my instinct told me to watch her closely and enjoy every moment I was blessed with because we were on borrowed time. The night she collapsed, I knew it was over while I was still in the kitchen with her. I could feel it. I'm sorry, I seem to be ranting, and on your post. I'm just not sure which is worse. No longer being able to have an animal in your life or having them, passing away and worrying about their being properly loved and cared for. It feels like a no-win situation and my heart hurt for you when I read that line.
I hope you are never in a position where you are animal deprived and always have loving people around to assume reponsibility for them if you can no longer care for them. You are an amazing sould and I'm honored to have you as a cyber-friend.
Take care of yourself,
Peggy
Hi Moon-Beam,
I hope today finds you and Noah well and making happy memories together. I am sorry to hear that past ailments/injuries are intruding into your life and I find it very sad that Noah may be your last fur child. That is something I never gave much thought to since my mother lives with me and gets to enjoy any animal I bring home. She is free to bring in anyone she'd like, as well. And as long as I have a home, so does Mom and any animal that happens to wander in. So I never really gave any thought to reaching a point in life where having animal companionship was no longer an option. What a sad thought. I do suspect though, I may eventually reach that point as well someday.
It's funny becasue I used to worry about Peggy and what would happen to her if something happened to me. Her first 2 and a half years of life were horrible, to say the least. I never wanted her to deal with abuse or neglect again. I made clear to my family that if something happened to me, while travleing or whatever, Peggy was to stay with Mom and if Mom were not in a position to care for her, she was to go with my brother Scott, whom she adored. I even had a financial plan in place to help them take care of her needs. The really strange part of that is, my gut feeling from day one was that this gentle little soul would not be in this world very long. I can't even say it was a feeling, it was more of a knowing. I told the family that and they thought i was paranoid. Not sure why they thought that since they had never heard me say that about any other animal we ever had. There was just something so delicate about Peggy and my instinct told me to watch her closely and enjoy every moment I was blessed with because we were on borrowed time. The night she collapsed, I knew it was over while I was still in the kitchen with her. I could feel it. I'm sorry, I seem to be ranting, and on your post. I'm just not sure which is worse. No longer being able to have an animal in your life or having them, passing away and worrying about their being properly loved and cared for. It feels like a no-win situation and my heart hurt for you when I read that line.
I hope you are never in a position where you are animal deprived and always have loving people around to assume reponsibility for them if you can no longer care for them. You are an amazing sould and I'm honored to have you as a cyber-friend.
Take care of yourself,
Peggy
Hi, Peggy, thank you so much for your most welcome and comforting note. I have a Will that will take care of Noah if something were to happen to me that I would precede him from this earthly journey. He will be 8 years old in May, so I know our years together are pretty much at the "mid point" should he continue to enjoy good health. While I have to deal with the reality that I may no longer be able to have another furchild to care for, there is the wildlife - the birds, the squirrels, the rabbits, etc., that I could feed and enjoy. I would not be responsible for their medical needs, so I would not have to be concerned as to how I would be able to get them to a vet were there to come a time when I could no longer drive the distance to the vet.
When my Oslo and I made AAT visits to the hospital and nursing facilities, the patients would frequently share with me about the beloved companions they had "once upon a time." A few patients sometimes shared that other family members have companions who come to visit them, and some would sadly have no companion visitors. So, I would tell them that they had the company of the woodland critters for company, and they would smile and say, "yes, I do that - - I enjoy watching the birds and squirrels, and the deer will come right up into the yard, too". And that comforted them. So, now, I am at a point where I need to find comfort in what I used to say to others. I know I cannot count on any of my family members to assist me - - that would be a major mistake for me to even consider. And there are no veterinary practioners who make house calls unless you have a horse or livestock, which I don't. So, I'd rather start the "adjustment" journey now while I still have my precious Noah with me rather than having that to deal with at the same time that I have to let my little boy join his sister and big adopted kitty brother and doggie brother at his appointed time.
Today has been a very pleasant day, thank you. It was a very sunny day here in Virginia, temperatures in the low 70's the wind not as gusty as had been forecasted for which I am very thankful. Noah enjoyed the sunbeams, and when it got warm enough I opened the big basement door and gated it off so that Noah and I could enjoy listening to the woodland critters chitter and conversing, as well as have some fresh air in the house. I still did not feel up to working out in the yard with the winter leaf clean up project, so I did laundry instead and got caught up on e-mails. Very pleasant quiet activities. Noah has had his dinner and is now snuggled next to me as I'm writing to you.
Peggy, I hope and pray that you do not have to "cross the bridge" of not having a fur child in your home. In my younger years I never imagined not being able to have fur kids in my home either, although there have been times, years, when I was "childless." Life happens, and not always as we'd like it to, so "adjustments" are needed in whatever "new normal" we are faced with. I thank God for His gracious mercy that He has given Noah and me a respite in any additional "major adjustments"to our earthly family unit for now, and I thank Him for blessing me with the wonderful friendship of you, Cheryl, Jan, Sonya, Joanne, Juturna - - and ALL of my cherished friends here in this forum.
Peggy, thank you again for your most thoughtful and comforting note. I hope you and your mom will have a very peaceful evening, and please know you both are in my thoughts and prayers.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
When my Oslo and I made AAT visits to the hospital and nursing facilities, the patients would frequently share with me about the beloved companions they had "once upon a time." A few patients sometimes shared that other family members have companions who come to visit them, and some would sadly have no companion visitors. So, I would tell them that they had the company of the woodland critters for company, and they would smile and say, "yes, I do that - - I enjoy watching the birds and squirrels, and the deer will come right up into the yard, too". And that comforted them. So, now, I am at a point where I need to find comfort in what I used to say to others. I know I cannot count on any of my family members to assist me - - that would be a major mistake for me to even consider. And there are no veterinary practioners who make house calls unless you have a horse or livestock, which I don't. So, I'd rather start the "adjustment" journey now while I still have my precious Noah with me rather than having that to deal with at the same time that I have to let my little boy join his sister and big adopted kitty brother and doggie brother at his appointed time.
Today has been a very pleasant day, thank you. It was a very sunny day here in Virginia, temperatures in the low 70's the wind not as gusty as had been forecasted for which I am very thankful. Noah enjoyed the sunbeams, and when it got warm enough I opened the big basement door and gated it off so that Noah and I could enjoy listening to the woodland critters chitter and conversing, as well as have some fresh air in the house. I still did not feel up to working out in the yard with the winter leaf clean up project, so I did laundry instead and got caught up on e-mails. Very pleasant quiet activities. Noah has had his dinner and is now snuggled next to me as I'm writing to you.
Peggy, I hope and pray that you do not have to "cross the bridge" of not having a fur child in your home. In my younger years I never imagined not being able to have fur kids in my home either, although there have been times, years, when I was "childless." Life happens, and not always as we'd like it to, so "adjustments" are needed in whatever "new normal" we are faced with. I thank God for His gracious mercy that He has given Noah and me a respite in any additional "major adjustments"to our earthly family unit for now, and I thank Him for blessing me with the wonderful friendship of you, Cheryl, Jan, Sonya, Joanne, Juturna - - and ALL of my cherished friends here in this forum.
Peggy, thank you again for your most thoughtful and comforting note. I hope you and your mom will have a very peaceful evening, and please know you both are in my thoughts and prayers.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Dear Moon_Beam I see our babies joined the angels the same day. Maybe they are watching the birds together. Give Noah lots of extra love he needs it and it will help you in the healing process. Prayers out to you.
Hi, Lynn, thank you so much for your kind and thoughtful note. I know your precious Jasmine and my beautiful baby girl are in heaven's perfect garden enjoying the company of the angels together. This brings a smile to my heart, as I hope it brings one to yours as well.
Today is a quiet day for Noah and me. I usually try to keep Sundays as low key as possible because the whirlwind of another week's activity begins once again come Monday morning when I must leave him for the day to go to work. I wish I could be here 24 / 7 with him, but I'm not sure he would want that - - even our furkids need some separate time from their human caregivers. This is why Sundays are truly snuggle cuddle days with my little Noah.
Thank you again, Lynn, for your thoughtful and most welcome note, and equally important - - your friendship. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, too, Lynn. I hope today will be a peaceful one for you.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Today is a quiet day for Noah and me. I usually try to keep Sundays as low key as possible because the whirlwind of another week's activity begins once again come Monday morning when I must leave him for the day to go to work. I wish I could be here 24 / 7 with him, but I'm not sure he would want that - - even our furkids need some separate time from their human caregivers. This is why Sundays are truly snuggle cuddle days with my little Noah.
Thank you again, Lynn, for your thoughtful and most welcome note, and equally important - - your friendship. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, too, Lynn. I hope today will be a peaceful one for you.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Dear Moon_Beam,
I'm so sorry to read about your loss, all your losses. I am also sorry to hear that you baby Abbygale was suffering and in pain. Watching a love one suffer is such a heartbreaking experiences, especially when you can't do anything to make them feel better.
My thoughts are with you,
LeoTheLion
I'm so sorry to read about your loss, all your losses. I am also sorry to hear that you baby Abbygale was suffering and in pain. Watching a love one suffer is such a heartbreaking experiences, especially when you can't do anything to make them feel better.
My thoughts are with you,
LeoTheLion
Hi, LeotheLion, thank you so very much for your most thoughtful and kind note. Fortunately it was only the last few days of my beautiful baby girl's illness that she really began to let me know that she was most uncomfortable in her body. I promised her I would not let her suffer, and I believe I kept that promise to her. Her sibling brother, Noah, and I miss her very much, but I know she is now restored to her former youthfulness in the company of the angels, and this brings me much comfort.
Thank you again so much for your most kind and comforting note. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and I hope life is treating you kindly, Leo.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Thank you again so much for your most kind and comforting note. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and I hope life is treating you kindly, Leo.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
QUOTE (moon_beam @ Mar 15 2011, 05:08 PM)
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My beautiful baby girl, in a few days the calendar will say that it's spring - - this will be our second spring without your physical presence here with Noah and me. Last year I really didin't care if spring ever came. It has been a hard year for both Noah and me adjusting to the "new normal" without your sweet physical presence with us. But a new spring is once again coming, and I find myself not feeling quite so burdened by it - - but rather enjoying listening to the birds and remembering how excited you got when you watched them build their nests and tidy up their homesteads for a new season of raising their feather families. Noah and I look out the windows together, and I feel your sweet Living Spirit there with us as I hold him in my arms.
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Eternally,
mom
My beautiful baby girl, in a few days the calendar will say that it's spring - - this will be our second spring without your physical presence here with Noah and me. Last year I really didin't care if spring ever came. It has been a hard year for both Noah and me adjusting to the "new normal" without your sweet physical presence with us. But a new spring is once again coming, and I find myself not feeling quite so burdened by it - - but rather enjoying listening to the birds and remembering how excited you got when you watched them build their nests and tidy up their homesteads for a new season of raising their feather families. Noah and I look out the windows together, and I feel your sweet Living Spirit there with us as I hold him in my arms.
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Eternally,
mom
Moon_beam, this is a very touching letter to your little girl. She was such a beautiful little cat with lovely green eyes. What a joy it must have been for you to hold her and cuddle her. Our furry companions give us so much joy just by their very presence, and I have always enjoyed the calming presence of a napping little kitty friend. They look so peaceful when the sleep. Thankfully your little Noah was able to adjust to not having his little sister around anymore. Some cats grieve very deeply and just stop eating when they lose a companion. I am sure this Spring brings back some memories of earlier times when you had all your fur kids together.
Hi, DannysMom, thank you so much for your very thoughtful and kind note. Each of my furkids have joined the angels either around the holidays (Thanksgiving / Christmas) or in March. Don't ask me why - - it's just the way it has been. Another spring is coming and I already hear the birds warming up their voices from the winter's silence singing to one another and to the world their beautiful songs of joy and love. I know my beautiful baby girl Abbygayle, my handsome Oslo, my number one kitty son Eli, and each of my beloved companions are sharing this time of rebirth with my precious Noah and me from their heavenly home.
Thank you for sharing my beautiful baby girl and each of my beloved companions with me, DannysMom. I thank you again for the blessing of your very thoughtful and comforting note, and I hope life is treating you kindly.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Thank you for sharing my beautiful baby girl and each of my beloved companions with me, DannysMom. I thank you again for the blessing of your very thoughtful and comforting note, and I hope life is treating you kindly.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Hi moon_beam
What a journey you have been down. And this is why you can give all the wise words you give to every single on of us that comes to this site. You truly are an amazing person and your babies have all been lucky to have you as a parent.
I also think these babies must have been very special to make you love them this much and understand true grief for them when they have past.
I hope you and Noah are doing well today.
xxForeverxx
What a journey you have been down. And this is why you can give all the wise words you give to every single on of us that comes to this site. You truly are an amazing person and your babies have all been lucky to have you as a parent.
I also think these babies must have been very special to make you love them this much and understand true grief for them when they have past.
I hope you and Noah are doing well today.
xxForeverxx
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