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cat mom
Hi Leejaye and Moon Beam and all of you who have been reading about my kitty, Zilla

Thank you all for continuing to read about Zilla's antics. I'll tell a few more memories about him today, but I think this posting will pretty much wrap it up. I don't want to get boring, blathering on and on about "Zilla the Wonder Cat" biggrin.gif

You may remember the posting where I mentioned getting Zilla's "Great Escape" on video, only to later accidentally tape over it. One of his quirks was always wanting to go where he shouldn't. His biggest goal was to try to sneak out to the front yard. We would use this to sometimes tease him. Our house is set up to where you can see from the back yard through the French doors and see through the house to the front door. Zilla would often sit outside at the French doors, waiting to be let in, even though he had a cat door of his own that he could go in and out to the back yard as he pleased. Sometimes, when we would see him at the French doors, we would go and open the front door widely, so Zilla could get a good look. His eyes would get big, and he would get all excited and race around through his cat door and try to make it out the front door. Of course, we would always close the door just before he got there, and he would just glare at us and give a big, disgusted huff and walk off. As many times as we would do this he always came racing in, thinking that THIS TIME would be the time that he made it out to the front yard. Such an optimist!

He loved the snow, especially when it was fresh and fluffy. He would go out on the deck and "snow plow" through it, pushing up little snow berms all over the deck. One time he came running in all the way from the back fence through the snow. It was about a foot deep, so he didn't quite see where the edge of the deck was, and he tripped on it and did a huge face-plant and slid about two feet. He got up, shook himself off and gave me one of those "I meant to do that" looks, and walked the rest of the way into the house.

Zilla was my little shadow, where ever I was, he was there. He seemed to know when I was having a bad day or not feeling well, he would crawl up into my lap and start purring like a race car, and it would make me feel better almost instantly. When I would be typing at my computer, he would jump up on my desk and sit just to the left of my keyboard. He would sit patiently for a few minutes, and I would purposely ignore him to see what he would do. He would start huffing, and shifting his weight from side to side, then finally reach out and very gently touch my face with his paw, begging for attention. Of course, I gave it to him in bucket-loads!

Zilla was my once-in-a-lifetime cat, and I thank all you again for reading about him and sharing his memories with me, and keeping him alive through these writings. I will always love him and miss him. I hope these stories of Zilla have brought you a few smiles and I also hope that when you feel it is right and the pain of your loss has eased enough, maybe you will want to share some of your memories of your own fur-kids with us.

Bless you all, Moon Beam, Leejaye, LoveMyMickey, Gretta's Mom and all of you who are here to grieve and heal. I'll check back from time to time to see how you all are doing.
Big Hugs and Warm Thoughts to you all.

Cat Mom

PS Attaching one final picture of Zilla in his deck hammock - instead of "Barcaloungers" I called them "Meowaloungers"


LoveMyMickey
Hi Cat Mom....Zilla's pictures are so funny and cute. I have truly enjoyed Zilla's stories, they made me smile on days that I wanted to cry.........I hope you come back with more stories and pics when you can.

I hope you find some peace on your grief journey. You and family are always in my thoughts and prayers.

Hugs,

LoveMyMickey
leejaye
Hi cat mom, Just adding my thanks to LoveMyMickey - none of your Zilla tales are boring, and you are certainly not blathering! (He IS a wonder cat!). Please make sure you check back in when you feel like it!! Sending my best wishes and hugs to you and yours, Leejaye
moon_beam
Hi, cat mom, I read your most thoughtful and touching response to Tom's Dad, and wish to offer you my sincerest sympathies in the loss of your husband. Although I have never been married I do know what it is like to lose someone deeply loved. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, cat mom, and please do let us know how you're doing whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
LoveMyMickey
Dear Cat Mom.....Like moon_beam I also read your thoughtful response to Tom's Dad.....Please accept my sympathy in the loss of your dear husband. You are in my thoughts and prayers. God Bless You.....

Hugs,

LoveMyMickey
cat mom
Hi Moon-Beam and LoveMyMickey
Thank you for the caring thoughts and good wishes. I know this is going to be an ordeal for a while, but my Mom taught me well. She always hammered into me a sense of self-reliance. She told me "Always be able to take care of yourself, because you never know when you might have to." So, I know I have a rough journey ahead of me, but I will make it out the other side just fine.
I wish you both a peaceful Thanksgiving tomorrow.
Cat Mom
moon_beam
Hi, Cat Mom, thank you so very much for sharing with us how you're doing. I am so very sorry about what happened with your husband. Cancer is a horrible and cruel illness. My mom had non-Hodgkins Lymphoma and endured a year of total hell with the treatments (both radiation and chemo) all of which nearly killed her. She had a very long and painful recovery, but she "survived", and 5 years later was just beginning to feel like a human being again when we were hit head on by a driver who lost control of his car due to excessive speed. Six weeks later she died from her injuries - - and I physically survived. I share your feelings when you shared with Tom's Dad, "I feel like my whole world is crumbling". It has been 26 years now since that horrible August morning, and it is still one day at a time for me. Like you, I would not have gotten through the years of surgery and rehab without my precious furkids who were with me during that very dark time. They were my purpose for trying, they were my earthly guardian angels.

I wish you peace in your heart, Cat Mom. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to knowing how you're doing whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
LoveMyMickey
Dear Cat Mom...I just want you to know I am thinking about you and saying prayers for you. I know this will be a long and hard journey, but I hope each day will be more peaceful........Try to relax and enjoy your furbabies today.....Hugs..

LoveMyMickey
Tom's Dad
cat mom

I also wanted to drop by and let you know that you and your fur babies are in my thoughts and prayers. I hope you had a peacful Thanksgiving. Take care.


TTT
Kristina
Hi Catmom

I thought I had posted in here before but apparently had not. I really enjoyed looking through your pictures, what a happy baby you had! Some made me laugh out loud. I want to add my sincere condolences for your loss. I won't say that I know what you are going through, because I don't, but I will say that if you need someone to talk to I am here and more than willing to listen. I hope you have a good night, and a better day tomorrow. Sending lots of prayers your way.
leejaye
Dear Catmom, Sending you my hugest hugest hugs - please know you are in my thoughts, Leejaye PS I wrote this about 10 times, no words seemed adequate...
cat mom
My sweet boy Zilla, how much I still miss you. It's been one year and 17 weeks this Christmas Eve since you
made your journey over the Bridge. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of you, and now Gary. This will
be your second Christmas that we have been apart, but at least now, I know you are not there alone. Gary came
to join you when the angels came for him last month, and I know the two of you are having a great time and you
are showing Gary all your new tricks. You are now both healed and healthy and happy, young and full of life again
but I still miss you both more than I can put into words, and I think you both know the depths of my love.

I'm having a hard time adjusting to you both being gone from me, but I know that as long as I hold you both close
in my heart, you will always be with me, your spirits keeping watch over me.
This is another Christmas where there will be no joy in this house. Tank, Boomer and Munch are wonderful
company for me, and are doing their best to give me comfort, and I am so grateful to have them with me.
I send Gary and you my love and blessings this Christmas, I miss you so much.

To all of my L/S friends - Thank you all for your kind wishes and support over the loss of my husband. I wish you
Peace and Joy this night and always. May your hearts be healed by the Spirit Of Christmas.
Cat Mom
Tom's Dad
Cat mom

My deepest condolences on your losses at this difficult time of year in dealing with such. Your 'Zilla and Gary are indeed reunited in a peaceful beautiful place. I hope they have met up with Sir Thomas and all the other wonderful fur kids that have passed from our loving arms here on earth. I hope you can find some peace and comfort in this holiday season. Hugs from

Theresa, Tang and me.
moon_beam
Hi, Cat Mom, thank you so very much for sharing with us how you're doing and your beautiful love letter to your beloved Zilla. How well I know the deep sadness that is in your heart, Cat Mom. It is very hard to feel "joy" in your heart - - as advertised with the commercialism of the season - - when you are struggling with the painful adjustment of the physical loss of a loved one - - your husband and Zilla. As hard as we try to keep focused on our blessings, there is no denying that our hearts are yearning for those who are no longer physically with us.

I truly hope and pray that somehow your heart will know the true joy and peace of this blessed season of celebration that will bring comfort to your heart both now and throughout the coming new year. And please always remember, Cat Mom - - you are never alone. Each of us are here for you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Cat Mom, and that I look forward to knowing how you and your precious furkids are doing, and to sharing your cherished memories of your beloved Gary and Zilla.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
cat mom
For my sweet Zilla,
It's hard to believe that it has been two years since you have been gone. I still think of you and miss you every day. I hope you and Gary are having lots of adventures, and you are meeting the other furkids that have come to join you there. There have been so many.

Life is moving on for me, as it should, but I will always carry you both in a special place in my heart. As the saying goes, "Always missed, never forgotten". It sounds so trite, but it is so true.
For my friends here on L/S, leejaye, LoveMyMickey - I've stopped in from time to time to see how you all have been doing.

MoonBeam - it is so wonderful that you finally left that toxic pit and can now enjoy a peaceful life with Noah.

Tom's Dad, I am glad to hear that you are employed again, maybe not the perfect job, but at least it's a paycheck. I'm sorry that you have such a difficult commute, I know how wearing that must be on you, but you are doing such a wonderful job for Teresa and Tang - just think where they would be without you.

For all the other L/S members - I know how bad this grief journey can be - there are times that you feel like you just don't want to go on. But I can tell you that it does get better. Time does heal. You will never forget your furkids, they will always be a part of you and will always live on in your heart and memories. You have found a safe haven here, where you can share your grief with others who understand and can offer support and compassion. I am so thankful that I was lead here, you all have no idea how much L/S helped me.
Blessings to you all,
Cat Mom
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