ladywolf
Jun 9 2010, 08:23 PM
Hi Cheryl and Sad--
thanks for the good thoughts. There are a lot of pictures of Ladywolf in my past thread called "Ladywolf is doing really well." Thank you for asking!
Hugs--
Margi and Spiritwolf
Berta
Jun 9 2010, 10:01 PM
Margi, I am so sorry that you have lost Ladywolf. I have been reading your posts for months and I am so very sorry to check in and see that she has passed. Your life journey with her is incredible and the bond you have had and I'm sure you still have. I'm also sorry that you are going through such trying times at this difficult time. My prayers are with you.
ladywolf
Jun 9 2010, 10:35 PM
Hi Berta--
Thank you for "coming out of the closet" and posting in my thread! It's amazing how many friends Ladywolf had whom I wasn't even aware of! Yes, the journey was a long and treasured one, every bit of it, even THIS part, which ain't so much fun. But I consider this part of the journey too.
Thank you again for your kind wishes and your prayers.
Big Hugs--Margi and Spiritwolf
Berta
Jun 10 2010, 04:03 PM
Margi...Ladywolf obviously had many friends praying for her and sending loving thoughts and well wishes her way. Who knows, maybe that is why her transition was so gentle and peaceful. In any case, that is a blessing.
While I seldom ''come out of the closet'' to post, I do come here regularly to read the posts. I will probably be posting a topic soon about my own dilemma with Chico. Things are getting quite stressful with him.
I hope your grief and lonliness subsides soon. I'm sure your world is much emptier without Ladywolf and Sweet Pea in it.
Good luck, and my prayers continue your way.
Hugs.....Berta
MishasMom
Jun 10 2010, 07:49 PM
Margi,
So sorry to hear about Ladywolf. As you take each step know that we are thinking about you and praying for you.
hugs,
Misha's mom - Karen
tanbuck
Jun 11 2010, 07:09 AM
Margi, I'm thinking about you today. I hope you are ok. I've been thinking alot about that Husky who wandered into our yard Sunday morning. I never saw it again. We don't have many animals running around loose around here so it was very strange. Maybe it was Ladywolf appearing like an angel to say it's time. I don't know. I know in these types of situations we stretch ourselves for signs and meanings. But the sight of that dog was very unsettling to me that day. But anyway, I just wanted you to know I'm thinking of you and sending hugs your way.
-Donna
ladywolf
Jun 11 2010, 02:41 PM
Thanks Karen and Donna--
I don't know about that husky, Donna. Perhaps it *was* a sign. Kind of sad if it was. But, as you say, we sometimes stretch ourselves looking for signs and symbols...
I've been very distracted the past couple of days. New neighbors (whom I know) are moving into the tiny house right next door--I mean, RIGHT next door--a few feet away--and they've been traipsing in and out using my refrig, shower, sink, stove etc. because they don't have utilities yet. I also helped a lot with the move yesterday, so it's been chaotic and exhausting around here. Sure has taken my mind off Ladywolf.
I feel a little badly that I haven't grieved for her more. I feel like I "should" be crying every day, but that's ridiculous. I'm doing what I'm doing, which is feeling sad in between bouts of being wildly busy... I do miss her terribly, it's so weird not to have her in the house. But the neighbors will be moving in their dog, an old-timer named Pepper, a large white dog of unknown heritage. Dalmation and Healer, perhaps, or Lab. That will help to take the edge off my grief--she's a good old girl, and I expect that she'll be over here a lot when she finds out what a dog-maniac I am!
So I'm all right. I do think that having had 11 dogs in my life, and now my Ladywolf, has made me more philosophical about their deaths. And I'm not alone--I have MORE than enough company right now!!
Hugs from Margi and Spiritwolf
moon_beam
Jun 11 2010, 04:19 PM
Hi, Margi, I'm so glad that you have neighbors you know, and who have a fur child for you to care for, dog sit, visit with, etc.. I hope this will help you through your grief journey of Poppers and Ladywolf, and Sweet Pea.
Margi, we each grieve differently on different levels at different times. I do believe that as we acquire some life experiences through the years we do view things through different focused spectacles. This doesn't necessarily lessen the grief of loss. It just means that we listen less to the "should have's" and "why don't you's" and "why aren't you's" imposed by society in general and some very stupid people we may have the misfortune to encounter during our grief journey.
Your precious Spiritwolf and Poppers and Sweet Pea know that you love them, Margi. What is in your heart is the most important.
I hope you can take some time now to rest and get your strength back from helping your neighbors move into their new home. And I hope your new fur neighbor will be a great source of comfort to you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Margi, and please let us know how you're doing.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
ladywolf
Jun 13 2010, 03:18 PM
My domain name for my website, ladywolfediting.com, expired without the server letting me know., and I couldn't get it back. So today I changed the name to tucsonediting.com , and removed the whole section about ladywolf, all the pictures, references, etc. This is so sad, but will probably bring me more direct business. I was crying while I took everything out, though...
Margi and Spiritwolf
ladywolf
Jun 13 2010, 04:57 PM
I'm going to try to post one of the pictures from the site:
janika
Jun 14 2010, 01:12 AM
That is so cute, Margi. What an Intellectual, Wonderwolf. Bless her. Think she's saying she wants you to write her story Margi, on her behalf.
Hugs
Jan and my Angels and Pixie xx
moon_beam
Jun 14 2010, 03:45 PM
Dear Margi, I'm so sorry about your domain server. That is just another "adjustment" in your loss of Ladywolf, one that you shouldn't have had to make until whenever YOU were ready. I hope you have peace restored to your home today, and perhaps that will help you to feel your precious Spiritwolf, Poppers, and Sweet Pea close to you again.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
smokey/lady/max
Jun 14 2010, 11:54 PM
Click to view attachment Hi Margi hope you are doing ok.
Hugs
Anna
ladywolf
Jun 15 2010, 12:34 PM
Thank you, Anna--that's beautiful!
Well, I finally lost it, folks. I was at a ladies' tea party when the hostess's Great Dane came streaking through the room, and I used to raise Great Danes, and I just started to cry. It was the same day that I removed all of my stuff about Ladywolf from my website, and I was feeling really sad anyway, and kind of out of place (it was a group of successful business women having the tea), and I had to run outside and sob for awhile. When I came back in, it was obvious that I had been crying, so I explained to them all WHY I was crying, and everyone was very nice about it. In fact, one woman came up to me and told me that her son had committed suicide in December, and I told her that my mother had committed suicide in 1982, and we had a bit of a cry together...
First time, really, that I've cried much since Ladywolf passed. It was good for me, but did take me by surprise, as grief often does. All the women were laughing at the time that I got hit by the grief attack--it was kind of weird...
I'm okay now. Haven't been posting a lot the past couple of days because I had to go to Tucson, which is always a big deal trip involving about ten hours of errands in the hot, hot sun. But I'm back now.
Love to all--
Margi and Spiritwolf
moon_beam
Jun 15 2010, 03:48 PM
Hi, Margi, grief sure has its own way and own mind of what it does. You have been so busy since Ladywolf's joining the angels and preoccupied with helping neighbors move, etc., that you have been funcitoning on what I call "automatic pilot."
Margi, I hope that you are able to rest now in the peaceful solitude of your home. As always please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Margi, and will look forward to knowing how you're doing.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
ladywolf
Jun 15 2010, 04:02 PM
There IS no "peaceful solitude" of my home, Moon Beam. I still have people tramping in and out, the sound of a radio going ALL the time, just a general experience of total chaos. These two houses are approximately 10 feet apart--this is going to be a real problem. I have to try to figure out how to set boundaries in an almost impossible situation.
Oh well, it was either the highly intrusive daughter Rosie (which is what I got), or the drug dealer who looked at the place, or the woman about to have a new baby and a lot of fights with her BF. Sigh. I may be moving sooner than I planned to, but with no money...not possible. I'm going mad today and will have to leave my house in order to find some peace somewhere...
This is bad. I can't even hold a phone conversation without being overheard.
Hugs--Margi (I'm not even going to bring the poor Spiritwolf INTO this situation!)
moon_beam
Jun 15 2010, 04:16 PM
Oh, Margi, this sounds like the absolute P I T S!!!! Not having any peace and solitude is what drove me out of the city as far into the outlying country side as I could get without moving into an undiscovered cave. I am really very sorry that you're in this horrible situation.
I do so hope that things can settle down quickly for you. You are close in my thoughts and prayers frequently throughout the day, Margi. You definitely need a BIG break about now - - a GOOD big break.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
ladywolf
Jun 15 2010, 05:48 PM
Hi Moon Beam and everyone-
Well, I'm at a friend's house escaping while my other friend Joan, who knows the new tenants as well as I do, is laying down some rules with them about proper neighborhood etiquette. I don't know if they will get it or not, but I can't go on escaping my house just to get some peace and quiet. Rosie, the 48-year-old daughter of the mother/daughter pair who moved in, is a drug addict who is trying to go clean, but only has about ten days right now, and she's still totally locked into addict behaviors. I'm a little afraid of her, truth be told.
This was JUST what I needed to make my healing process smooth and gentle. (NOT!) I am pretty freaked out today, but maybe what Joan tells them will have an impact. I won't know right away.
Oh well, no time to be "bothered" with little things like grieving. No opportunity.
Yes, Moon Beam, I am ready for less drama, more peace, and some kind of really GOOD break right about now, before I "break."
Hugs--Margi and Spiritwolf (she came with me to my friend's house)
moon_beam
Jun 15 2010, 05:57 PM
Margi, I am so glad your friend Joan is trying to help you with this horrible situation. I so do wish that you didn't have this to deal with. I don't blame you one little bit for being afraid of Rosie. I used to work for the Drug Enforcement Administration many eons of years ago, and know precisely what you're talking about.
I wish it was more but I hope this helps: Please know you truly are in my thoughts and prayers, Margi, and please do let us know how you're doing.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
tahoeden
Jun 15 2010, 06:17 PM
Hey Margi,
Nice to see you back posting again. Wasn't sure if you were alright or not ( I know you are not alright after your recent losses). Hadn't even seen you in the chat room. I didn't realize how crazy it has been for you the last couple of days. Last we had spoken, the neighbors seemed like welcome company. Sounds so chaotic and intrusive in your life. In 1993, another 17 year old dog I had, Oreo passed. I was living in L.A. going to graduate school, trying to write some papers. Had a roommate who was ripping me off, and another who died in his bed of cancer. For two weeks, about 20 of his friends camped out in my backyard. I was so overloaded and coming out of my skin. I am relieved that you have been able to cry about Ladywolf and Poppers. Sounds like your honesty in setting with all those women, helped others open up about their pain. You know that I'm f__ed-up in many aspects of my life, but I can still lend an ear or shoulder to cry on. Sorry it's so hard just to feel like you have a home. Thinking of you.
Dennis
Cheryl83
Jun 15 2010, 06:23 PM
Margi,
Sorry to hear about your current situation. This is the LAST thing you need right now. I hope things turn around for you -- you sure could do with some luck right now. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Stay strong, like you always are.
Hugs -- Cheryl (and a furry one from my angel Daisy, you deserve it

) X
tanbuck
Jun 15 2010, 08:04 PM
Margi, I'm just getting caught up on your posts. I feel just awful about your current situation. (But I will say, I got a kick out of how you are signing your posts with and without dragging Spiritwolf into them!) But, back to your situation. At least you can type without being "overheard", right? Just keep coming here and telling us about it.
You know what, girl? I don't have any inspirational words for you right now. I don't think you and I have the same religious beliefs as we don't discuss that on here but I'm gonna get off this forum right now and pray for you. (I hope you're not offended) I just feel burdened for you. It's been one thing after another for you and I just can't believe it. You're such a sweet, caring soul and you deserve better than what you're getting right now and I'm afraid for you. So, I'm gonna hush and go. But I'm taking you with me!
Hugs to you and your sweet Spiritwolf,
Donna
ladywolf
Jun 16 2010, 06:03 PM
Well, the situation has improved, and I did get a good night's sleep by closing all my curtains and locking my doors and making it obvious that I did not want to be disturbed either last night or this morning. Everyone is so exhausted around here by now after all the moving that there's been a lot of nap-taking and more quiet time. The problem has not really been resolved, but the noise has abated for now.
I'm crossing my fingers and hoping this will last for awhile...
Thanks for your prayers, Donna. I never mind when someone wants to pray for me--I need all the help I can get!
Margi and Spiritwolf
moon_beam
Jun 17 2010, 04:47 PM
Hi, Margi, I am so o o o happy that you have FINALLY been able to get some peace restored to your home. I am so sorry for everything that you have been through. It just seems that you have had more than your share of challenges to contend with with no end in sight. I hope this respite will be the "beginning" of better times for you.
I was thinking about you on my way home from work and was thinking that if all else failed maybe you could pitch a tent next to Ladywolf's resting place until things settled down, providing of course that you have a tent to pitch. I hope you are spared of having to resort to doing that.
Margi, please know you are in my thoughts and prayers many times throughout the day, and look forward to knowing how things are going for you.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
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