Hi Margi
Just want you to know i am thinking of you and Ladywolf even though I dont post as much. I am sure you understand how I am feeling. I do try to write my feeling and thoughts in poems and hope that they help those who read them because I know we are all feeling the same way. Hope Ladywolf has better days ahead.

Thinking of you both
Hugs
Anna

I hope Ladywolf has picked up since your last post Margi. I may be the other side of the world, but you and your beautiful Lady are never far from my thoughts.
Irene.

Ladywolf is beautiful. Thinking of you, Margi and Ladywolf.

Hugs,
Sonya

Thanks, Ladies. We are having a string of bad days right now, with Lady stumbling and falling a lot. I wish she could just TELL me how much pain she is in. She looks so pathetic when she falls, and since she weighs 115 pounds, I can't really pick her up and help her a lot. On top of that, I have been "betrayed" (my perception) by my closest woman friend, who fell in love a few months ago and forgot me, and by my ex, who reestablished contact some time ago, and now seems to be seeing other women too. No one has really "betrayed" me, of course--it just FEELS like that, while Lady is ailing. Old abandonment issues are coming up big time...

Thanks for listening! Lady is still perky and eating really well--she just can't WALK very well!

Hugs--

Margi and the Wolf

Hi Margi,

I am so sorry Lady is having a problem walking. Callaway was like that too toward the end and he weighed 80 pounds.

I say if Lady is still perky and eating that she isn't in much pain. Callaway was eating up until the very end but he wasn't at all interested in anything and he was clearly in pain, so I had to make the decision.

I understand what you mean by feeling that you've been betrayed. Your Lady is ailing and the people you thought you could depend on aren't there to help you thru. On the upside, we are here to help you and totally understand what you are going thru.

BTW... Lady is just so beautiful! Her eyes remind me of my Callaway's eyes. I am looking to adopt a big dog, maybe a German Shepherd or Alaskan Malamute. I would love to have a wolf but have been told it's not legal in Michigan.

Take care Margi and remember we are all here for you.

Rhapsedy

Thanks Rhapsedy, for all the moral support.

A wolf/malamute MIX might be legal in Michigan, and you won't find a better animal! That's the tiny bit of mix in Lady, a little malamute.

If I do get another dog, it will probably be a Great Dane. I used to raise them, and I adore them, short as their life-spans are. (Although my last dane lived to be 13.5--almost Guinness book of world records, which is 14!)

Yeah, it's been a disappointing, abandonment-feeling couple of days. Lady seems a little perkier, though, today. My at-home support system is very small, so when I lose some of it, I feel it keenly.

God bless this wonderful Forum!!!

Hugs--Margi and Ladywolf

Hi, Margi, I'm checking in on you and see that life is treating you kind of rough with feeling deserted by folks you thought you could count on. Well, you know you can count on us, Margi - - we will ALWAYS be on YOUR side. As others have shared with you, my Oslo developed degenerative neuropathy in his rear legs - - I think it was part of the degenerative process from the Laryngeal Paralysis in part - - and he did have mobility problems, too, but his appetite was excellent up to the Sunday morning on Thanksgiving weekend when I knew he had suffered a stroke - - and then I knew he couldn't eat anything. I tried giving him some water out of my hand but he could barely lick and swallow that. And you know from my post that was the day he joined the angels.

Just take it slow and easy with your precious Ladywolf - - no fast or sudden moves.

I do know what you're feeling about "abandonment." I have been going through that as well with a couple of folks local to me who I thought I could count on, but - - no surprise really - - but it still doesn't stop the hurt feelings. But I do know I have the most wonderful support here in this forum, and I feel blessed to have each of you.

Margi, please know you and Ladywolf are in my thoughts and prayers, please know you are never alone for each of us are here for you, and please keep us posted as to how things are going for you and your precious beautiful Ladywolf.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Hey Margi
Always thinking about you and beautiful Ladywolf -- hope things are okay.
Sharon

Dear Margi and Ladywolf

Hope today is 'good' for you both. It's great that Ladywolf has perked up again. I'm so sorry that you have been hurt and let down Margi. Unfortunately some humans have the ability to 'hurt' us so easlily. Not so with our fur babies, that's why we all love them so on this forum.
As others have said, you know that we are all here for you. Please don't feel that you are alone.
Hug that dear Ladywolf for me, and I'm sending one to you too.
Thinking of you.

Love Jan and Pixie and my darling Angels xx

I'm going to check into that, I would love a wolf/malamute MIX.

I love Great Danes too, well come to think of it I love all dogs. The only reason I haven't gotten a Great Dane is because their life span is so short. WOW! A 13 1/2 year old Great Dane, that is AMAZING!

It is very disappointing when people let you down, especially people that you always thought would be there for you. I think that's why I would rather be around animals then most people, animals don't let you down and they are always there for you. I think we are very fortunate to know the love of animals, some people don't know that love and they have no idea what they are missing.

I am so glad that Lady is feeling a bit perkier. Give her a big hug for me. Callaway had the same type of hair that Lady has and I so miss hugging him, but I can still remember how it feels and that gives me comfort.

Love to you and Ladywolf,
Rhapsedy

Hi Margi, I just wanted to say that I hope today is one of the good days for you and Lady. Even though you know this journey will end, I have to say that your story is a true testament to the love you two share. Lady couldn't have asked for a better mommy! I know you know that already but don't forget it when things get harder. From what I can tell, you should have no regrets about her life or her passing when that happens. I'm only saying that because it seems like we always want to regret something but your journey is proof to me that you really shouldn't have any regrets about Lady. Your devotion to her is remarkable.
-Donna

Ladies--

You're all so kind to us, it makes me want to cry sometimes. But, then we need all the kindness we can get these days. Lady is definitely in a downturn--she's walking with much more difficulty and falling from her back legs a lot. But then, i put her through some challenges, like my other closest women friend's floor is all slippery tile--hard for a normal dog to stand upright on it, I think...

Now I'm feeling guilty that Ladywolf and I haven't been camping and swimming yet this spring. It's one of the things we have always done together joyfully, but she might not even enjoy it all that much right now--she likes the comfort of her cushions and her futon. If we do go, I'll make sure she's as comfortable as she can be, but it still might be a bit of a hardship. I keep thinking in odd moments that I still have the old wolf, because she LOOKS the same--but clearly, I don't--because she doesn't FEEL the same. She's really not very mobile anymore, and I'm kind of in denial about that. But she's still perky and hungry, and can still get outside to do her business.

Thank you all for your compliments. Yes, I am devoted to her and her well-being--how could I not be?--I always have been, and now she has special needs. She is the light of my life, and I of her's, and it's sure hard to watch that light dimming...

Oh well, on with the day...

Hugs from Margi and Ladywolf

Hi Margi
How are you and Ladywolf today? I'm sending big hugs and good vibes your way.
Sharon

Thanks Sharon and everyone--

Not doing very well today, unfortunately. Lady is almost staggering around these days--I don't know what to do. When she's lying down, she seems peaceful and comfortable, but when she tries to get to her feet, she has a really hard time. I have a super-busy weekend--a two-day art show, so I'm not going to have a lot of time for her, though she'll be well taken care of.

I find I don't have much energy to contribute to other peoples' posts right now, and I am sorry for that. But it's taking all I have to keep mind, body and soul together--as I'm sure it's taking all that Lady has. I feel very sad almost all of the time.

The ex-boyfriend issue has more or less "cleared up" now, thank god. (No, I didn't "leave" him--how could I, really, since he lives 1000 miles away? We just straightened things out. But the close girlfriend issue has NOT cleared up and probably never will, long as she stays with "that man...")

I feel very depleted and low energy. I suppose that's normal, given the circumstances.

Thanks for all your support--

Hugs--Margi and her Ladyship

ladywolf, I will be thinking about you and your precious girl today. *positive thoughts*

Thinking of you Margi and Ladywolf. There are many people here who care about you and precious Ladywolf. Stay positive .I hope the weekend goes ok and look forward to hearing from you when you can post.

Love and Hugs

Jan and my Angels, and dear Impish Pixie, who has had fun chasing a rat today !!

Hi, Margi, I am so sorry that Ladywolf is having mobility problems. If my Oslo could at least get to a half standing position I would put my hands under his rear legs and then help him stand from that position and steady him and then he was able to walk from that point, as best as walking could be on failing hips. I could not lift him - - my back and my balance are not strong enough to have been able to do that - - but I could help him if he could at least get to a half standing position. I did try one of those standing harnesses - - neither Oslo nor I liked that at all. I'm sure you have tried everything you can think of to help your precious girl, Margi. And sometimes even though it looks like a struggle sometimes it's just best to let them sort out how the best way is to do something - - like stand -- because they know how the bones and joints are working and trying to "help" can sometimes be worse. Any way you look at it, my friend, it's a very difficult and heart wrenching situation.

And please don't feel the need to apologize for not being able to post - - we all do understand your priorities. Just know we are thinking of you and your precious Ladywolf. I hope all goes well with your art exhibit this weekend, - - I hope it will be a source of some income for you. Please know you and your precious Ladywolf are in my thoughts and prayers, and please do keep us posted as to how things are going - - as you are able and up to doing so.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Ladywolf's light is slowly dimming...

So is mine...

Hugs--Margi and her Wolf

Hey Margi - My thoughts and prayers and good wishes are with you and Ladywolf. I wish you both peace....

Sharon

Thank you, Sharon. I have tears in my eyes...

Margi and Ladywolf

Thinking of you and praying for you and your dear Ladywolf, Margi.

Love Jan and my Angels and Pixie x

Just letting you both know that you are in my thoughts
Irene xx

Margi, I'm so very sorry. Belle, Katie and I will be sending you lots of white light today. Charlie will too, and I have asked him to be there to greet Lady when she arrives.

Hang in there. We're all pulling for you.

Barbara

Thank so much, ladies. Lady is in a gradual decline--still eating, still perky some of the time, but unable to walk further than the end of the driveway. All of my long midnight rambles have come to an end now, and I feel the loss keenly. (I'm not going to go out and wander around late at night without her!) We used to love to go out and see the stars and the moon--there''s no traffic around here, and no threatening people--it was just a huge part of our lives.

She spends most of her time on the floor now, not upright, on one cushion or another or the carpet. Yesterday she was a little zingier than usual because she was with me at the home of the friend where we were part of the local art studio tour, and there were lots of strangers coming and going, and that piqued her interest. But mostly she is just tired and in pain, I'm afraid.

I'm depressed. It's as simple as that. (And as complex.) I don't feel like doing much--but I don't have the luxury of not doing much, since there's only her and me and no one else to put bread on my table and chicken in her bowl, so I have to go on trying to work when I can. Really, I just feel like lying around with Lady, but I keep on truckin' somehow.

That's an update. I don't know what will happen next, and when. She's still too "well" for euthanasia, but not really well enough to have a life. I don't have much of a life either right now...

Hugs from Margi and the Wolf

Hi, Margi, just adding my sincerest heartfelt wishes for you and Ladywolf. Anticipatory Grief is as bad as the post-loss grief, if not worse in some respects because the "declining" stage is what we remember - - is what tears at our hearts - - post-loss, and fills our hearts and minds with all those ugly "what ifs" and "why didn't I's" and "why couldn't I's" and "if only's" - - that nearly drive us insane in the midst of our deep grief -- almost to the point of not being able to remember our precious beloved companions as they were in their prime - - the good memories - - which is what they want us to remember and treasure and hold onto.

Margi, this is your "golden" time with your precious Ladywolf - - to give her comfort and love - - as you always have - -yet knowing that these are your "golden" days together as though the moment you are sharing might be the last one you have. They are precious to Ladywolf, too - - make no mistake about that. You give your precious girl everything she needs and wants, Margi, and that is your heart-filled love which is reflected in your tender loving care.

Margi, please know that you and Ladywolf are in my thoughts and prayers, and each of us are here for you walking right beside you and Ladywolf in your journey.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Thanks for writing, Moon-Beam. I always appreciate your posts and P.M.'s.

I'm trying really hard not to fill myself with "what if's" and "if only's." Lady is 15, after all--something would eventually get her, if not this cancer. Just pure "old age," I suppose...

Yes, doggie hugs are really special now. I have to keep on remembering to give and receive them, since she's on the floor so much these days. When I bury myself in her fur, I can't imagine not always having that...

But I don't think that I'll be a total wreck when she finally does go, because I'm having such a good long time to get used to the idea. I think I'll live--whereas if something sudden had happened to her, I'm not sure HOW I would have lived. It all fits together, somehow, in a strange way.

Thanks for everyone's support!

Hugs from Margi and the Wolf

Oh Margi, I'm so terribly sorry. Please know that you and your precious Ladywolf are in my thoughts and prayers.



Many Comforting Hugs and Oceans of Love to You and your Fur Baby the Wolf!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

DOTTIE!!! You're BACK!!! Halleujah!!!

Margi and the Wolf

Hi Sweet Margi,

I've brought a Ladywolf Dreamcatcher for both yourself and your precious Fur Kid. This is a mystical Dreamcatcher. But, you knew that already. Please turn up your volume and click on the Ladywolf Dreamcatcher to see what dreams the Dreamcatcher has caught for you and the Wolf.





There's more. See the Wolf Spirit above the Native American in the Teepee? Just as you are one with Ladywolf and she is with you , all of us are at One with the Wolf Spirit. Please turn up your volume and click on the Sacred Wolf Spirit and Native American to join in their journey.





Big Hugs to you and your loving, lovely Ladywolf!!!


Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Oh Dottie, thank you so much for those beautiful images, the chant, and the Enya song. It all brought tears to my eyes, but that's okay--I need to cry sometimes throughout this process.

Poor Lady is dragging her cancerous leg around like some kind of foreign object. I'm not quite sure what to do right now. I think she needs a stronger pain med, but I fear that among the few choices there are, there won't be anything I can afford. Just a visit to the vet to TALK about it is over $50, even if I don't even take Lady herself in! That's highway robbery!

I just hate seeing what a struggle her body is becoming for her. While at rest, she still seems perky and peaceful, but when called upon to move around, it's getting harder and harder for her--and for me to watch. This slow dying process is agonizing--but it's still too soon to take any affirmative action, because she is still enjoying her limited life. I, on the other hand, am not enjoying the limitations. I haven't taken a real walk in weeks, because I don't want to have to leave Lady at home.

How difficult this all is. But she IS, after all, 14 or 15. So if cancer wasn't getting her, something else probably would be.

Poor Poppers. I barely make a moment to think of her anymore, and I just lost her before Christmas. But my worry about Ladywolf is just consuming all my canine attention. Poppers, I love you and we miss you too!

When Lady does go, probably some friends and I will be dragging her out into the desert somewhere to join the food chain. Things are done a little differently around here where there's lot of untraveled open space. That's what we did with Poppers too. It feels kind of cold, in a way, but kind of right in a way too. This time I'm going to pick a spot I really like--somewhere that I like to go, which we didn't have time to do with Poppers. One of these days, I'll have to go scouting--WITHOUT Ladywolf--that would be too lugubrious, I think, if I took her with me.

So I still live with my wolf-girl, and I ponder her final resting place at the same time. It's a weird, unhappy process and I'm depressed a lot, but I'm okay.

Thank again, Angel Care!

Big hugs from Margi and Ladywolf

Sending lots of thoughts to you and Ladywolf Margi,

Hugs,
Sonya

Oh Margi the part of your post where you describe Ladywolf dragging her leg brought tears to my eyes, that's exactly how Foxy was. At night she would chew on that leg almost as if she was trying to bite it clean off, it's so heartbreaking. I'm sending lots of positive vibes your way and praying for Ladywolf. Here's a hug for you both ((((hugs)))
Irene.

Hi Margi,

I am praying extra hard for you and Ladywolf. I am so sorry that you have to go thru this pain. You are such a great mom to Ladywolf, you have done everything you possible could do to make her comfortable and have cooked her great food to prolong her life. I know this doesn't help with the pain but you do need to remember that you are taking such great care of her and that she has lived a long life. You will know when it's time to let go or maybe Ladywolf will make the decision. Either way it will be very hard and we are all here for you.

Rhapsedy

Thanks, Sonya, Irene, and Rhapsedy--

We truly appreciate your support--it really helps!

I didn't mean to give the wrong impression--Lady isn't really dragging her leg around uselessly--it's just that it's much more swollen than her "normal" back leg, and hard for her to get up on it, get into the car, etc. Luckily, she can't really reach the tumors, as they are on the inside of her groin, so there's no incessant licking or chewing going on, thank God. It's just that it's (literally) weighing her down and making her movements and balance very awkward and clumsy. But she's still alert and loving and HUNGRY and able to get out to take care of her own toilette, which were the criteria suggested by one vet as being the things on which to base a judgement call...

She sure loves her CHICKEN, spoiled brat! I HATE dealing with de-boning dark meat chicken, but it's the most economical meat I can find, and her favorite...

It's like I'm dealing with two Lady's--the one who is lying around comfortably, acting like her old self, and the one who can't walk past the end of the driveway. But it is what it is; god knows, I don't want to take any action any sooner than I know is right, and that time isn't here yet. So I get to watch her slowly deteriorate. I'm going to have to make the decision one of these days to leave her home while I take a real walk with a friendm or I will start getting really crabby.

There IS a certain elegance to watching a lifespan all the way through--it sure beats sudden death, I think--but it sure is painful too,

Love to all--

Margi and the Wolf

Hi, Margi, just getting caught up on how things are going with you and your precious Ladywolf. It sounds like the cancer is becoming more aggressive, and I am so sorry about that. Abbygayle's hip was actually very warm to the touch - - you could feel the heat from the tumors through her skin.

I know what you mean about having your focus on Ladywolf with little time to think of anything - - or anyone - - else. It seemed that when Oslo died I had very little time to grieve for him because Abbygayle was in need of another surgery and I had to focus on her needs and care, and now that the both of them are gone - - I feel like I've been hit with a compounded grieving - - which is exactly what it is.

Once your beautiful Ladywolf no longer needs her physical body it would be a fitting tribute to her for her physical body to provide life food for wild residents. It's whatever you feel comfortable doing, Margi.

I am so sorry that your vet is compelled to charge you for a consult - - $50 a pop. WOW - -

Margi, I'm glad your precious girl still has a great appetite. That is such good news. The rest is one day at a time and savouring every moment you have together. Please give your precious girl a hug from me, and please know you both are in my thoughts and prayers. I will look forward to knowing how things go for the both of you.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Dear Margi and Ladywolf

Just wondering how you are both doing. Please know that I'm always thinking of you both and sending prayers that you are sharing better days and precious moments.

Love and hugs

Jan and my Angels and Pixie x

Thanks, everyone -- An update on Ladywolf--

She continues to have her good and bad days. Yesterday, she had a terrible time with the stairs at a friend's house (there are only three of them), so she sort of slid up them and into the house on her belly. Janice was horrified. but I made a joke about "just not being able to get those darned legs ORGANIZED," which is really what the problem is. Today she's resting peacefully, but we haven't tried to actually do much of anything yet. (I've been in bed with a bad cold, so it's been pretty quiet and uneventful for us for the past few days--no mountains for Lady to try to climb...nor me)

I've gotten used to having a wolfdog who is more or less stationary now--I no longer try to take her on walks, though she still loves to take long rides in the car. She can generally manage to get in and out of the car without too much trouble. Her appetite is still good, though she has recently decided that tuna fish is NOT an acceptable substitute for her favorite roast chicken--that NOTHING is, really...so I go on roasting...roasting...roasting.

As for me, I'm in at least a low-level depression all the time--some days are much worse than others. Some days I can be rather matter-of-fact about the whole process, and other days it tears me to shreds. Lady sure is taking a good long time to leave me. While I'm grateful for that, it does take its toll at the same time. But I have more matter-of-fact days than torn to shreds days, thankfully, right now, anyway, since Lady seems to be in a sort of "holding pattern."

Not a lot to report, really. Back when I consulted the vet in January, she gave her a month or so to live. That was almost five months ago now, and Miss Wolf is still with us, still eating and drinking, using the outdoors for her needs, still alert and perky and "with it." I thank the heavens for giving me so much time with her. I KNOW it must come to an end, but it won't be today and tomorrow...and today I'm okay with that.

Love to all--

Margi and Ladywolf

Hi Margi
Just want you to know I am still thinking of you and Ladywolf. Keep on enjoying and treasure the moments you still have. God bless

Anna
xo

Hi Everyone--

I just need a place to let it all out a bit. Tomorrow is my sixtieth(!) birthday, and today Lady is having the worst day she has ever had. It started with me having trouble getting her up to get into the car at 7 a.m., as I was getting ready to go off to substitute teach. Then we reached the home of the friend who takes care of her for me, and Ladywolf couldn't get up Janice's little 3-stair staircase. So I had to coax her back into the car and drive her home and leave her here alone while I FLEW off to teach, quite late by then. The students--6th graders--were bloody HECK on me today--and I was SO worried all day long that I could have throttled the little brats!

I came home to find my neighbor Mark in my bedroom with Lady, keeping her company til I got home. She had somehow finagled her way into a tiny back room and was all wrapped up in vacuum cleaner hoses and the like. (I had asked him to check in on her.) Now she's all untangled and resting on her bed--but the reality is, she really can't walk much at all anymore, I guess.

Happy Birthday, Margi. Not.

And tonight I have a class that I really can't miss, and I don't know what to do. I guess I'll have to leave her and ask neighbors to check in on her again until I get home.

Longer-term, I don't know what to do. She is such a proud wolf, this is all humiliating and terrifying for her. She's embarrassed and stressed and I'm no model of perfect mental health either...

I could use some support. Thanks...

Margi and the Beautiful Wolf

P.S. I decided to stay home with Lady tonight, no matter what, and miss a birthday party in class that was going to be held for ME...

oh Margi...I'm so sorry. I will be praying for you and Ladywolf.

Hugs,
Sonya

Hi Margi
Just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you and Ladywolf -- all the time as a matter of fact. Happy Birthday tomorrow too. At least I hope you can make it be a happy one. I'm sorry to hear that Ladywolf is starting to fade more and more on you -- I know that has to be terribly hard. I remember watching Sammy slowly disappear before my eyes. It was heart-breaking to say the least. You and I both know there isn't going to be an easy away around this -- so please go through it as gently as you can for you and Ladywolf. My heart is breaking for you. Take care my friend.
Sharon

Hi, Margi, I, too, am so sorry about Ladywolf's latest events. It is so hard to watch a proud spirit decline. The question still remains: Is this a "significant quality of life" decline, or is it still a manageable change in lifestyle. Knowing that this is quite likely your last birthday with your precious Ladywolf makes it even more difficult to bear. I am so glad you decided to stay home this evening with Lady - - especially since the day's events evolved as they did. The both of you need to be together tonight - - no matter what.

Margi, please know that you and Ladywolf are in my thoughts and prayers. I hope you both have a peaceful evening together, and thank you so much for keeping us posted as to how things are going.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Margi,

I am so sorry to hear that Ladywolf is declining more. I am praying for both of you.

Rhapsedy

Thanks so much, ladies--your words mean so much to me.

Lady is doing better tonight. She's still staggering around like she's drunk, but she doesn't really NEED to walk very much, so we're spending some very peaceful time together on the floor. I'm so glad I stayed home. It was a "First Responder" class--this one on "trauma and triage"--and I really didn't feel as if I would handle any more TRAUMA very well today!

Thanks again for your well wishes--

Margi and the Wolf

Dear Margi and Ladywolf

I am so glad that you are home together and sharing precious time. I am thinking of you and sending prayers and asking our Angels to take care of you both. You are doing just as I did with Tasha, by just laying on the floor with her and 'spooning'. Like Ladywolf, she couldn't get up or walk around but she still enjoyed me feeding her and she barked and wagged her tail whenever anyone came in the house. We did that for quite some time, I don't know if I let her carry on in this physical world too long... I don't think so , as I seemed to know when it was the 'time'. I used to pray that she would just fall asleep, that final sleep, in my arms, but she seemed to want to stay, until that final day, when she just wasn't herself anymore. It was as if she was saying 'now mummy, you must let me go'.
Please give Ladywolf a great big HUG for me, and also I send one for you. Your Lady has stayed with you for your Birthday, and I do so hope that you can find Happiness in each others company today. I do send you Congratulations and best wishes for this Special but poignant, Birthday.
I wish we could be there with you to help you through this, but remember even though that isn't possible the love and thoughts and prayers of so many 'forum' buddies and our Angels and fur babies are with you and your beautiful Ladywolf.
Love and hugs, dear friend.

Jan and Pixie and my Angels xx

Hi Margi, I'm so sorry that dear Ladywolf's health is deteriorating and she isn't moving around much any more. These moments you are spending with her are so predious to you both. I feel our special angels including Ulriich are watching over her now, she has made many friends and is much loved. Please know that I am thinking of you Margi and know how difficult things are for you right now. Hugs xx


madi xx

Hi Margi
Just wanted to wish you a happy birthday. Give Ladywolf a hug from me and tell her to give you one from me! Take care of yourself and enjoy every moment with your Lady.
Sharon

Thank you, ladies. I just loaded the wolf into the car--she is GOING to my birthday tea party (a bunch of old hags sitting around in silly hats!) whether she wants to or not! Then I'm going to go shoot some pool and drink some beer with my neighbor. I nicely-rounded sixtieth, I think.

Lady a bit better this a.m. I think I have to make sure that she gets her pain pill IMMEDIATELY upon waking up--that way it has time to work before our morning activities. Yesterday WAS really rough on both of us...

Off to tea--catcha' later!

Love--Margi and Lady

Hey Margi, try try try to enjoy this day. We're all thinking of you and feel your heavy load. I know all too well what it feels like to watch a soulmate slip away. If only we could do the passing for them. Like Moonbeam said, I think it's important to think of her changes in terms of a manageable change in lifestyle. Only you and she can figure that out unfortunately. I do so hope that she gets a little strength in her for your birthday. If not, then try to enjoy the peacefulness of lying beside her. I spent many hours next to Niles speaking to him in my head. Somehow, I believe he really knew about our conversations even though they weren't out loud.
Anyway, I'm thinking of you on your special day and I really hope it is just that....special.
-Donna