Hi My Angels
I miss you both soooooo much it hurts everyday that I have to go on without you. Dozer mommy wrote you a poem. I would post you your own forum but I know you would rather share one with your brother Max. It looks like you both were inseperatable even in death for you both have left us 3 months apart and both at 7. It must be meant for you both to be together. So Doz mommy will post it here for you.


In Memory Of You, Our Dozer

Dozer you were Daddy's buddy, and best friend
He has been very sad that your life had to end

His truck seat beside him, so empty and still
Just like our back yard and up on the hill

You were all that a bullmastiff should be
In your photos that is so plain to see

You were the best of the best
And stood out from all the rest

We could search the world over and over again
We will never find one like you Dozer, our angel and friend

You were one in a million, with such a personality
And now we must face that, and except the reality

You will always live on in our heart
So Dozer by death we will never part

Our house now just isnt a home
For you have left us to soon and all alone

Dozer our big sweet angel boy
I want you to know having you was such a joy

We were truley blessed to have you in our lives
Even though our loss feels like we have been stabbed with knives

You gave us much happiness, loyality and love
And was truley a gift, sent to us from god above

Remember one thing our angel boy, you will never be alone
For your ashes will always, remain in our loving home

Rest in piece our Dozer ,our angel and friend
Until our lives are no longer, and come to an end

I pray that one day, we will meet in heaven again
Where we will live for eternity, and life has no end

See You In heaven Our Angel

Written by: Anna Svec

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Dozer you are so beautiful mommy sends you bunches of kisses
Mommy
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Max Mommy loves you too very much and sends you your head scratches
XOXOXOXO

Dozer & Max
Hi My Angels missing you so much. I so sad that you both have left us so soon. We had so much more love to share.

Mommy
xoxoxo

Hi Anna...love your poem about Dozer.

Hope you are doing ok.

Hugs to you and your fur angels, Max, and Dozer,
Brutus's Mom

Thank you Sonya it has been very hard with losing both of our babies. I am trying to go on but it isnt easy we went to the Pittsburgh dog show today in hopes of finding a bullmastiff breeder after seeing the ones they had there it just made me cry even more. I cried the whole time I was there. There wasn't one there that could even compare to our beautiful boy. And I am not just saying that because he was ours but because it was the truth. I have breeders on the phone telling me he was one in a million one breeder even said to me he could not sell me one of his puppies because I would be disapointed after he seen dozers pictures. It makes my heart hurt even more knowing how wonderful he was. Hope you are doing ok as well I know we will never replace the angels that we have lost.

Anna
xoxo

Hi Anna
So sorry that you had a bad day and the show didn't help. I'm sure your darlings Dozer and Max will guide you to the right puppy when the time is right. Thinking of you. Hope to 'chat' soon.

Love Jan xx

Hi My Angel Boys
I am missing you both sooo much and just cant stop thinking of you both. My heart is just broken in two. It will take me along time to recover from the loss of both of you. It still just doesnt seem real at the moment, there are times I just want to wake up and you both be sitting right here. I love you both so much I still pray that there truly is a rainbow heaven and that you both and lady and smokey are togther.

Missing you
Mommy
xoxoxo

Hi Anna--

I just wanted to check in and say hi, and let you know that I am thinking of you. Man, what a beautiful boy Dozer was! I used to raise Great Danes, so I know those big bruisers very well!

Sending you wishes for peace in your healing process--

Margi and Ladywolf

Thanks Margi,
He certainly left a hole in my heart as big as his head. He was more then beautiful he was extrodinary words cant even begin to say all that he was and all that he meant to us. Max was my little idiot as my husband would call him but I loved him very much and he was very smart. Dozer was the clown and very very lovable. God it hurts sooo much to even talk about it sorry I have to get off here makes me cry way to much.

Hugs
xoxo

Anna...I'm so sorry for you. I wish I could take away your pain. I know what it feels like, but to have it twice so close together just isn't fair, I can't imagine how overwhelmed you are. Thankyou again for your poem about Brutus.


Hugs,
Brutus' Mom

Sonya you are quite welcome my angels seem to have givin me a gift through the loss of them. I hope through my own pain I can bring a smile to someone else. They have brought out emotions and feelings that I did not even know existed. When people say the power of love well I now know the the true meaning of it. I never wrote a poem until the loss of Max but seems now I can just sit down and write one with using no thought at all the words just seem to keep coming. Just reading everyones stories and heartache that one feels when losing a pet it is just so inspirational to me. Just being here at LS and seeing the bond between our fur angels and us humans keeps my faith that we will see them again in a better place.

Anna & My Sweet Angels
xoxoxo

Hi My Angels
Mommy found this beautiful angel that looks just like how I am feeling.
I wish it was that easy to think that way I am so thankful for you and thank
god for sending you to us. And I am so grateful for the 7 years but mommy just
wishes I had seven more with you. I just miss your presence so much. I love you

Mommy sends you kisses and head scratches

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Love you
Mommy
xoxoxo

Hi My Angels
just wanted to tell you I miss and Love you

Mommy
xoxo

Max & Dozer my Angels
I want you to know I am missing you both and want to wish my babies Happy Easter. My holidays will
never be the same without you here. But I want you to know you are in my heart forever.

Love you very much
Mommy
xoxoxo

Hi May Angels
I love and miss you very much. My days are so lonely without you here. Hope you both are watching over me and daddy.

Hugs and Kisses
xoxoxoxooxoxox
Mommy

Hi My Preciousn Angels
Mommy misses and loves you both so so much. Please guide me and daddy to a new puppy. We will never replace either one of you we know that, but we need something to fill the void in our heart that you both have left us with. It makes mommy cry just thinking about a new puppy I would give anything to have you both here instead.

Love You both very much
Mommy
Sending Hugs and Kisses to you Both
xoxoxoxo

I am so glad you have decided to get another dog. As you say, you'll never replace your lost darlings but sometimes a broken heart expands as it heals and makes way for something - or someone - new. Your fur-babies would understand and approve. Godspeed!

Barbara

Hi My Angels

Mommy is thinking of you to being togther. I miss you both very much the only thing that makes mommy
feel a little better is knowing you both are with each other forever.

Missing you
Mommy
xoxox

Hi My Angels
Thinking of you both and feeling very sad that we are going to look at a puppy this weekend. I feel like we are trying to replace you both. Please know that we could never replace either one of you. But in my heart it feels like I am letting you both down even considering looking at another dog. Its just that you both have left are home so lonely without your love and presence that its to hard to bare around here. Not seeing one of you at the steps waiting when we walk in. Oh how hard it has been without you here. I still cry quite alot and try to tell myself getting another furbaby isnt trying to replace you just fill in were you left us. I love you both sooo much and wish you were still here. Mommy has to go for I am starting to cry again

Love you
Mommy
xoxoxo

Deciding to take that step is hard. I know your babies understand. But I know it's still hard. My husband and I found ourselves in a situation where we felt compelled to take in a cat only a week after our Niles died. I wasn't ready but she desperately needed a home. Her heart is broken just as mine is and we're trying to work through it together. But, I will not tell people I have a "new" cat. That just doesn't feel right, you know? I just say another cat. She can't replace them. My relationship with my boys was all mine and theirs.
If you bring home "another" baby, try to do things differently than what you did with your other babies. Like food bowls in another place, not using the same cute sayings or games. I don't know, it's helped me to try to establish a different relationship. It makes me feel like I'm not trying to replace the boys. Maybe that will help you too.
Your letters to your babies touch my heart. I understand the longing that you have. Best wishes to you as you maybe bring a different story into your home.
-Donna

Thank you Donna for your support. This is very hard for me even though I know it will eventually help heal the emptiness in the home. It will never fill the hole left in my heart. It has just really hat amazed me that one could feel so much pain. I guess loosing two in less then three months and both at the same age has not helped. I hadnt even had time to fully greive my Max when I had to endure loosing our Dozer. I couldnt even stand the thought of getting another puppy when Max died my husband tried to tell me to go rescue one but now that Dozer too has left it truley is to much to bare with the silence of an empty home. My husband is so lost without Dozer that he too now dont know what to do with his time. I am just so afraid that It will make me think of them even more specially when I am doing things with the new puppy I will wish it were with my angels. The emotions that just keep running it is truley awful even though I know that is what we need around here to keep us from really going crazy. I am trying to tell myself that the new puppy will be in honor of our angels. They would want us to love another like we loved them.

Thank You for your kind words
Hugs
Anna

Dear Anna

I know just what emotions you are going through right now. I went through the same when we got Pixie, as you know, you were here for me to encourage me and support me in that decision, as you knew it was the best thing that I could do. You are echoing everything I wote about the dreadful silence and emptiness since losing both of my fur babies. The house and the people in it seemed lost and without purpose. Thankyou , and Madi and the other great people on here for helping me to make the decision to give Pixie a home. I know too that my Angels would want me to do that, just as I know that your Angels would want you to open your heart again to another fur baby.

I do hope that this beautiful Puppy is all that you are looking for. Yes, we know he's not a'replacement', but just give him a chance and I'm sure you will see that he will help so much to heal that big gaping hole in your heart. This is the biggest honour and tribute that you can give to your Angels, it shows just how much they mean to you and how much they enriched your lives, because you want to feel that love for a fur baby again. They will be there with you all the way.
I'll be thinking of you this weekend and send love to you and your Angels.

Jan and my Angels and Pixie x

Hi My Angel Boys
Mommy and daddy are headed to the dog show this weekend. I know I will be doing alot of crying just thinking of you two like I did the last time. I love you both very much and you will be with me in my heart.

Love You
Mommy
xoxoxo

Hi My Angels
Our dear sweet Dottie has returned.She helped mommy alot when you my angel Max had to leave me. I now hope she can help with you my angel Dozer. I know you have met sweet Alex at the bridge. I hope that you can all comfort each other until your human mommy's and daddy's are reunited with you. Dozer and Max I love and miss you both very very much.

Hugs and head scratches and lots of kisses
Mommy
xoxoxo

Hi Angels
Just want you to know you are on my mind and I love and miss you.

Hugs
Mommy
xoxoxo

Thinking of you Anna and your darling Angels.

Love and hugs

Jan and My Angels and Pixie x

Hi My Angels
Mommy is thinking about you. I miss you more and more as everday goes bye and you arent here.

Missing You and Love you both
Sending you kisses and head scratches and Doz your belly rub
xoxoxo

Hi My Angels
Mommy misses you. I have been here tonight reading others post and I know thier fur angels are with you at the rainbow bridge. All the angels there are so loved and missed. Its comforting knowing that you have so many angels there to keep you company until we are all reunited. I love the 4 of you there so much.
Sending you your head scratches and kisses
Mommy
xoxo

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Hi Angels
Mommy has had a very bad evening crying and just missing you both terribly. I havent cried like this for awhile. The weather today had alot to do with it I think, being outside and just missing you both in the yard and on the deck with us. Its been 4 months for you my angel Max and only 2 months for you my angel Dozer and oh how my heart is still hurting. Everything I did today reminded me of you both cooking on the grill and not having you Max standing there with that nose just sniffing. Dozer as I threw away the left overs and those cheesey patatoes I started crying thinking of how much you loved your cheese. Its just been a bad day. I love you both and wish you were still here with me so that I could touch and kiss you both. The tears just wont stop streaming down my face, I thought I had been doing good for the past couple weeks but I guess really I am not. Never relised how much you both were really part of everything in life that we did, from cooking to eating to just sitting on the deck. You both were always there no matter what we were doing even cutting grass, Max you would lay there and watch me then knew just when to move and go over to the place I had just cut. Nothing here is the same. Daddy cant even take the trash down the driveway with out thinking of you Doz. It is so true in life when they say you dont know what you really had until it is gone. I sure never thought we would be dogless, and how unbarable it is. Gosh mommy's human son grew up and left home and it never hurt like this not even close. Well my angels mommy has to go for now, because I cant see through my tears. Stay with me and help guide me through the pain I am feeling. I love you both more then life itself.

Missing You
Mommy
xoxoxo

Dear Anna

I am so sorry that you are having such a bad time again. It really has been such a terrible last few months for you and I know the pain you are feeling only too well. Remember all the wonderful signs that our Angels are sending to us, just to remind us that 'yes, mum we are still here with you, and we're doing our best to comfort you', just as they always did when they were in this world physically.
You have been such a comfort to us all on this forum, with your lovely poems and photos and messages from our Angels. I do hope that you can take comfort too Anna, from the fact that we are all thinking of you and your Angels, and sending our love and prayers.
I'm still convinced that you have a special 'gift' and you are linked to our Angels. I'm still in a state of euphoria over the realisation that you actually posted Pixie's name on one of your lovely photo's of my Sooty, before she was even in the Rescue Centre. You say the name just came from inside your head. We didn't even name her 'Pixie' the rescue centre gave her that name around February 10th, and of course we kept it as it suits her so well. I first e-mailed them about her on 15th February, and we brought her home 20th Feb. So none of us knew on the 4th Feb when you posted that picture of Sooty, that a rescue dog named Pixie would be coming into my life very soon . Anna it's so good that you happened to realise this as we might have missed the connection if you hadn't been looking back at the posts in my thread. Thankyou again for convincing me that our Angels are certainly helping us along.

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The picture you did for me, after his Angelversary, of Sooty going to the yet unknown to us, 'Pixie' s birthday party ! I'm sure your Angels will be ok about it being posted on their thread, as I'm sure they all played a big part in it.
Lots of love and hugs
Jan and Pixie and my Angels xx

Anna...I know what you mean about being outisde reminding you of Max and Dozer...I've been dealing with the same thing myself. I thought with the change in the weather and it getting nice outside would make me feel better, but it actually made me feel worse. Everything we do or spend time outside I think...Gosh, Brutus would of loved this.

Hugs, hang in there,
Sonya

Thanks Jan and Sonya
I had been ok untill yesterday. I dont know what really brought my tears on but I know my eyes were swollen by the time I went to bed. I looked like hell this morning. All I know is I miss them both so deeply. Having a double loss I guess is just really sinking in. There are no barks there are no tail wagging there is nothing but an empty home. Jan you know oh to much what I mean when we are left with complete silence and empty spaces all around us. I was atleast able to cope when max died with having Doz still here. I hate those 2 steps forward and 3 back. I know there are brighter days somewhere down the road. But for now I just have to try to remember that my angels are with me and with each other. Thank you both I thought I was doing so good then boom everything just seemed to set me off. I will be ok specially knowing I have friends like you both praying for me.

Hugs to you both
xoxo

I don't pray a lot, Anna, but I sure am sending good thoughts in your direction. That's the thing about grief that is so confounding--just when we think we're achieving a little equanimity about it all, we get blind-sided again. And your double loss is particularly hard to endure. I know, I'm facing it before too long myself. My grieving for poor Poppers got kind of short shrift, since Ladywolf's cancer followed right on the heels of Popper's passing--but you can bet that when the house is totally empty, I will feel much the same way that you do...

Be gentle on yourself and don't hold ANY expectations about how long the grief will last. As you know, there's no timetable for grieving--it's so similar for all of us, and yet also unique to each of us. I can still rouse some tears over a particularly painful doggie death from about 15 years ago...Not often, but once in awhile.

My heart goes out to you...

Margi and the Wolf

Thanks Margi,
You and ladywolf our in my thoughts and prayers also. It is the truth just when you think you are doing ok then we find out that we aren't ok. It just seems like a bad ending to a perfect love story. I know there is light at the end of the tunnel I have been here before just not two at once to grieve for, always had another dog here to comfort and make the pain alittle easier.

Hugs to you and Ladywolf
xoxo

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Hi My Angels
Mommy just wants you to know that I love you and have been missing you both more then words
can express. You are always with me in my thoughts and my heart. Mommy knows that you both are togther and that is what keeps me going

Sending you head scratches Max
Doz mommy also sends you kisses and hopes you are getting lots of Cheeze

Hugs
xoxoxo

Great Pics Anna...I really like the last one.

Hugs,
Sonya

Hi my sweet ANGELS
Mommy thought of you both so much today and Doz your dad thought of you specially today he bought a new truck and said how you would have loved riding in the front seat of it. You would have looked so beautiful sitting in the front seat of it with your head out the window his new truck is white and how that big red head of yours would have shown up. He sure misses you each and everyday and wishes your were sitting right beside him. I told him that you were there with him riding right in your favorite spot. Mommy would have been sitting in the back just so you were happy. We also left the dealer ship and went to get your ALL time favorite food your pizza. It brought tears to my eyes for it was such a sad day with you not here to share in dads joy and having his buddy right there beside him. Max you and I would have been home while daddy took his buddy for a ride in his new truck you and I would have had our lone time togther. I miss you both so much my angels but I know you were right there with us every the whole way. I love you

Mommy
xoxoxo

Hi Mommy's Angels
Last night mommy started crying when thinking of you Doz going for a ride in daddy's new truck. So when daddy seen me crying he ask why I was crying so then we decided to take you, are angel for a ride. Mommy held your ashes on my lap which we were never able to do, all three of us up front. After your ride I felt so much better. We love and miss you both very much. We are having license plates made with your pictures on them. Max mommy will put yours on my car and Doz you will be on dads truck. They are going to be so pretty when mommy gets them I will post them here. The last 2 weeks you both have been on my mind so much. I love you and miss you.

Head scratches and lots of kisses my boys
xoxoxoxo

Dear Anna, the license plates are such a great idea, they will be so lovely. I'm thinking of you and your darling Angels Max and Dozer.
Hope to catch you for a chat soon.

Love Jan and my Angels and Pixie

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Hi My Angels
I love you both and mommy is thinking of you both just chasing each other and having fun the way you did when you were here.

Missing you as always, and forever

Sending head scratches and bunches of kisses

Mommy
xoxoxo

Hi Angels
Just want you to know Max mommy could smell your presence tonight as I was posting to others. I know you are with me. I love you and mommy never wants you to stop letting me know you are still with me. Love you too Doz and love when you let me know that you are around me also. Missing you, but so comforting when I have these signs from you.

Mommy
xoxox

Hi Anna....I love the pic with the footprints.

Sending hugs to you and your fur angels,
Sonya

Thank you Sonya, I actually thought of you and your Brutus when I seen the picture since he loved the water.
I am also thinking of you and your Angel Brutus

Hugs
Anna and My precious Angels
xoxoxo

My Angels
A new Angel named Shyann has joined you please take her under your wings and watch over her. I know you will. Her mommy is very sad and I know how she is feeling. I stay sad since you both have left me but i know you both are togther and are with me all the time. You both come to visit and I love you both for that. I miss and love you both with all my heart.

Love you my Angels for ever and ever
Mommy
xoxoxo

Hi Anna...I ordered my plate...I didn't do anything fancy, used the same pic that is in my avatar (it is my favorite of Brutus)...I'll post a pic when I get it. My car is white so I think it will look good, although I'm worried about getting bugs on it..lol.

Thinking of you and your fur angels...hugs to you, Max, and Dozer,
Sonya

Hi My Angels
Mommy just wanted to let you know how much I miss you and think of you specially on the weekends when we would be outside alot this time of year. Your memory stays within my heart each and every minute of the day. No matter where I am or where I go you are with me.

Sending you belly rubs a lots of kisses
Mommy
xoxoxo

Hi My Angels
Mommy sure wishes you were here so I could give you both a big hug right now. I miss you both keeping me company when daddy works midnight. The house is just so still and quiet. Mommy has been searching for weeks for a new puppy but just havent found the right puppy yet. I hope you both can soon send one mine and daddy's way. I know you both will and I will know when its the right puppy that your are sending to us. Missing you with all my heart and love.

keep watching over us for I know you both have never left us and never will

Kisses my Angels
Mommy
xoxoxo

Anna...I'm so glad to hear that you and your husband will be giving your heart again....so glad....you have so much love to give, it would be a shame for that to go to waste. Max and Dozer will send the perfect one!

Hugs to you and your furangels,
Brutus' Mom

Hi My Angels
Mommy found this pretty picture I am blowing you bubbles filled with kisses. I love you and miss you so much.
Had a little cry this evening just thinking of you both.

Sending you lots and lots of kisses
Mommy
xoxo
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Hi My Angels
Mommy sends you both my love and wants you to know the light will always burn brite within my
heart.

Love Mommy
sending kisses and lots of belly rubs
xoxoxoxo
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Max And Dozer
Shine Bright My Angels

Hi Anna, lovely images on your thread. I got my license plate the other day and was curious how yours turned out. Mine turned out real good, but I didn't do anything fancy just used the pic in my avatar with no special graphics or anything. I'll get a pic up later today maybe. How is your search going for a pup? I think of you and your Max and Dozer alot, I hope today finds you in peace.

Hugs to you and your angels,
Sonya