Hi Keesh,
Its time for my weekly letter to you- 9 weeks today. Wednesdays are the hardest for me because that was the day I lost you. Sunday evenings are tough as well as that was when you broke your leg and was the beginning of the end. I miss you so much. I saw your sister Mindy yesterday for the first time in a few years and she is doing well. Other than a little arthritis in her back legs she is very healthy. This kind of made me sad though because all I could think of was this isn't fair...your sister is in fine health and you're gone. You still had so much life in you, you still had that great personality and were so full of joy all the time. I don't know how long you had that awful bone cancer but you never let it show it was affecting you. You were the best dog ever Keesh and you'll never be replaced. No matter how many more dogs I have in my lifetime you'll forever be number one that I can promise you. I may love another dog as much as you but there is no possible way I could love another one more than you.
Maya is great and she's filling that void you left. I wish you could have met her- although you probably wouldn't have liked her much as you weren't a big fan of puppies or smaller dogs were you? She probably would have drove you crazy:) We left your bed under the bed in the spare bedroom and Maya found it the other day and chewed it pretty good which kind of made me mad knowing it was yours and all but I couldn't get mad at her as she didn't know any better- i was hoping to pass it on to her when she was ready to sleep out of her crate but i guess that is out of the question now.
I still wish you'd appear in some dreams- unless I'm having dreams of you and forgetting them I just don't recall having one since the first week without you. Pictures are great but I would like something more realistic and a dream is the only way I'll be able to get a realistic view of you again. Anyway I love you and miss you like crazy.
Trevor
Full Version: I Lost My Best Friend Keesha Recently
dear trevor. i just wish i could wave the magic wand and all of us could have our furbabies back. i know how much you are missing your keesha. im sure she misses you too. sounds like maya is a little handful 
she sounds like my lucy who chews and eats everything in sight. in fact lucy (about the second month that i had her) chewed up part of the little memorial i had set up for my fred (sigh) but i forgave her because she didnt know any better. maya is another chapter in your life. she can never and will never replace keesha. keesha is forever in your heart.
take it one day at a time trevor. this pain, it will pass and all that remains are the happy memories. youre right that life is never the same, doesnt mean it cant be good again, it just takes another route. be kind to yourself. its a rough road you are on now but time will make it all better. you are not alone.
you are in my thoughts and prayers
patricia
she sounds like my lucy who chews and eats everything in sight. in fact lucy (about the second month that i had her) chewed up part of the little memorial i had set up for my fred (sigh) but i forgave her because she didnt know any better. maya is another chapter in your life. she can never and will never replace keesha. keesha is forever in your heart. take it one day at a time trevor. this pain, it will pass and all that remains are the happy memories. youre right that life is never the same, doesnt mean it cant be good again, it just takes another route. be kind to yourself. its a rough road you are on now but time will make it all better. you are not alone.
you are in my thoughts and prayers
patricia
Thanks Patricia I appreciate it. I wish you could wave a magic wand and we all could have our furbabies back as well:) For the most part things have gotten better. There is still that emptiness that will probably stay with me forever and occasionally that pit in your stomach comes back. We will always miss them and it is still painful but I am starting to get to that point of remembering the good times and focusing on the good memories. I'm to the point where I can talk about her without tearing up. Its a long painful process and I don't think we ever get to the point where we are fully over the fact that they're gone but when it comes right down to it do we really ever want to be totally over it? I don't think i would because that would almost mean they've been forgotten. I pray everyday that they're in good hands and that we will get to see them again one day......believing we will makes the grieving process a little easier.
Oh no, Lucy chewed up part of Fred's memorial? I hope it was salvagable......and i thought Maya chewing up Keesha's bed was bad....puppies, you've got to love them:)
Oh no, Lucy chewed up part of Fred's memorial? I hope it was salvagable......and i thought Maya chewing up Keesha's bed was bad....puppies, you've got to love them:)
so lovely trevor. they ARE in good hands and we WILL see them again. i cant wait! but im glad to hear that things are getting better for you. its a slow process and sometimes it seems like we take two steps back back it does get better. many times ive written how i still can cry over the pets that ive lost so so long ago. thats the beauty of all of this. we couldnt ever forget them, even if we tried. they are always in our hearts. i still miss tiger my very first kitten that my parents gave me when i was 6. WOW i am so beyond 6 now but i remember him like it was yesterday. what a little sweetheart he was.
but i wanna share with you a little story that may cheer you up a little. yes lucy my little troublemaker came to me when she was 6.5 months old. (shes turning 1 this month). in my tall bookshelves, out of her reach, or so i thought, i had set up a little memorial for fred that included his bowl, pictures, his collar, and he was diabetic, so i had a bottle of his medication and one of his needles. well she was such a little tornadoe when she came, she would wear me out. one saturday i just needed a power nap really bad. she just wouldnt settle down at all. during the day, she was go go go. so i set my alarm for five minutes, thinking what can she do in five minutes? the next thing i know is my alarm is ringing and she is standing above me looking not so good and dry heaving. worried i put her down and sure enough her breakfast came out, then as i looked around there was a vomit trail ending in a little bottle of medication that had been chewed open and the contents were spilling out. that little girl had jumped up (shes part jack russell) brought it down somehow chewed it and drank half the contents in five minutes. i called her dr immediately and he asked me what she had injested. i HAD to tell him i didnt know as she had also injested the label. i knew freds meds werent serious (his insulin was in the fridge), but i didnt know how seriously it could affect lucy. so i rushed her in where they were all waiting for her. luckily freds dr was also there and was able to check the meds. 10 minutes later the dr came out, wiping his eyes as if he were crying. i gasped! was lucy ok? what had i done? omg!!! then he patted my arm and said dont worry, these are tears from laughing so hard. turns out lucy had injested freds laxative medication. so the only thing i had to watch out for was... well you know. my wonderful mom came to my rescue as she insisted i come over there and she would take care of lucy while i napped. i slept for a couple of hours and when i woke up, i found the "consequence" of injesting the bottle all over her beige carpet. even lucy came over and looked at it with me as if to say "wow, that came out of me?" 3 hours of scrubbing and steam cleaning the carpet, the carpet and lucy are just fine. (although shes gotten into more trouble since then but youre right: gotta love them. shes my little lucy-fur
from freds passing i realized how sometimes we neglect to tell them how much we love them while theyre here. so now i tell lucy how much i love her a thousand times a day maya is one lucky little girl
i pray that your heart continues to heal.
patricia
but i remember him like it was yesterday. what a little sweetheart he was. but i wanna share with you a little story that may cheer you up a little. yes lucy my little troublemaker came to me when she was 6.5 months old. (shes turning 1 this month). in my tall bookshelves, out of her reach, or so i thought, i had set up a little memorial for fred that included his bowl, pictures, his collar, and he was diabetic, so i had a bottle of his medication and one of his needles. well she was such a little tornadoe when she came, she would wear me out. one saturday i just needed a power nap really bad. she just wouldnt settle down at all. during the day, she was go go go. so i set my alarm for five minutes, thinking what can she do in five minutes? the next thing i know is my alarm is ringing and she is standing above me looking not so good and dry heaving. worried i put her down and sure enough her breakfast came out, then as i looked around there was a vomit trail ending in a little bottle of medication that had been chewed open and the contents were spilling out. that little girl had jumped up (shes part jack russell) brought it down somehow chewed it and drank half the contents in five minutes. i called her dr immediately and he asked me what she had injested. i HAD to tell him i didnt know as she had also injested the label. i knew freds meds werent serious (his insulin was in the fridge), but i didnt know how seriously it could affect lucy. so i rushed her in where they were all waiting for her. luckily freds dr was also there and was able to check the meds. 10 minutes later the dr came out, wiping his eyes as if he were crying. i gasped! was lucy ok? what had i done? omg!!! then he patted my arm and said dont worry, these are tears from laughing so hard. turns out lucy had injested freds laxative medication. so the only thing i had to watch out for was... well you know. my wonderful mom came to my rescue as she insisted i come over there and she would take care of lucy while i napped. i slept for a couple of hours and when i woke up, i found the "consequence" of injesting the bottle all over her beige carpet. even lucy came over and looked at it with me as if to say "wow, that came out of me?" 3 hours of scrubbing and steam cleaning the carpet, the carpet and lucy are just fine. (although shes gotten into more trouble since then
but youre right: gotta love them. shes my little lucy-fur from freds passing i realized how sometimes we neglect to tell them how much we love them while theyre here. so now i tell lucy how much i love her a thousand times a day
maya is one lucky little girl i pray that your heart continues to heal.
patricia
Patricia, nice story- you just never know what they are going to get themselves into next:) I can't say i've ever heard a story remotely close to that one though!
"they ARE in good hands and we WILL see them again."
I sure hope so. I just can't imagine not seeing Keesha ever again. But like I said believing I will makes this process a little easier. I'm currently reading a book called cold noses at the pearly gates and it has given me some reassurance that we will.
"from freds passing I realized how sometimes we neglect to tell them how much we love them while theyre here."
That's actually one thing I feel good about because I don't think a day went by that I didn't tell Keesha I loved her. Thanks again and you're in my prayers as well.
"they ARE in good hands and we WILL see them again."
I sure hope so. I just can't imagine not seeing Keesha ever again. But like I said believing I will makes this process a little easier. I'm currently reading a book called cold noses at the pearly gates and it has given me some reassurance that we will.
"from freds passing I realized how sometimes we neglect to tell them how much we love them while theyre here."
That's actually one thing I feel good about because I don't think a day went by that I didn't tell Keesha I loved her. Thanks again and you're in my prayers as well.
Hi Keesha,
Its 12 weeks today- hard to believe isn't it? I still miss you like crazy. I still think about you all the time. I wish so bad you were still here with us. For the most part I'm doing pretty well but there are times, like when I look at your pictures, that its really hard. At times I can look at your pictures and see how happy you were in them and smile but often it's just a reminder that I'll never see that happy face again and its hard to deal with. When I do have good days I kind of feel guilty I'm not missing you more or whatever-this grieving process really plays games with your mind.
Things are going well with Maya. I still feel a little guilty getting another dog- I hope you wouldn't be upset that I got another one. She reminds me of you in a lot of ways but at the same time she's very different than you. One of the things that bothers me about her is on walks she tends to use the bathroom almost every time. In 13 years of walking with me you never once pooped on a walk-people don't believe me when I tell them that but its the truth isn't it? I've got to be patient because she is still just a puppy so hopefully she'll grow out of it. Other than that though she's great Keesh and I wish you two could have met.
It just isn't the same around here without you. I've learned to accept it and the pain has weakened over time but there is still that emptiness with you gone that will always be there. I just pray that you're happy and healthy now and we will see each other again. I don't know what shape or form one takes when they leave this place but I'd like to think you look the same in heaven as you did on earth-with that beautiful black coat and the white chest and the white front feet. You were a beautiful dog Keesh and I love you and miss you very much. Talk to you later.
Trevor
Its 12 weeks today- hard to believe isn't it? I still miss you like crazy. I still think about you all the time. I wish so bad you were still here with us. For the most part I'm doing pretty well but there are times, like when I look at your pictures, that its really hard. At times I can look at your pictures and see how happy you were in them and smile but often it's just a reminder that I'll never see that happy face again and its hard to deal with. When I do have good days I kind of feel guilty I'm not missing you more or whatever-this grieving process really plays games with your mind.
Things are going well with Maya. I still feel a little guilty getting another dog- I hope you wouldn't be upset that I got another one. She reminds me of you in a lot of ways but at the same time she's very different than you. One of the things that bothers me about her is on walks she tends to use the bathroom almost every time. In 13 years of walking with me you never once pooped on a walk-people don't believe me when I tell them that but its the truth isn't it? I've got to be patient because she is still just a puppy so hopefully she'll grow out of it. Other than that though she's great Keesh and I wish you two could have met.
It just isn't the same around here without you. I've learned to accept it and the pain has weakened over time but there is still that emptiness with you gone that will always be there. I just pray that you're happy and healthy now and we will see each other again. I don't know what shape or form one takes when they leave this place but I'd like to think you look the same in heaven as you did on earth-with that beautiful black coat and the white chest and the white front feet. You were a beautiful dog Keesh and I love you and miss you very much. Talk to you later.
Trevor
Oh Trevor, your letter to Keesha made me cry. What sweet, wonderful words for an obviously wonderful pet who had a very special relationship with her dad! My heart goes out to you as I ache too for my special Frasier.
-Donna
-Donna
twelve weeks and sometimes it feels like just yesterday they were with us. hang in there trevor. youre not alone.
patricia
patricia
Thanks Patricia, I know what you're saying about it seeming like it was just yesterday they were here. I just can't believe its been that long because it sure doesn't seem it. Hope things are going well with you. Take care.
QUOTE (tanbuck @ Sep 23 2009, 08:37 PM) 
Oh Trevor, your letter to Keesha made me cry. What sweet, wonderful words for an obviously wonderful pet who had a very special relationship with her dad! My heart goes out to you as I ache too for my special Frasier.
-Donna
-Donna
Thanks Donna, Keesha and I did have a special relationship and I miss it dearly. I sure hope I can have the same type of relationship with new dog. Until last night I hadn't been on here for a couple weeks so i just read your story about Frasier and I am so sorry. I know what you are going through and it is awful but trust me it will get better. You did the right thing for Frasier by letting him go when you did. You were fortunate to be with him right to the end. Unfortunately for me I wasn't able to be with Keesha and that has really bothered me. The time leading up to the vet arriving at your house must have been awful- i just can't imagine. Frasier was very lucky to have his family with him right to the end and he was fortunate enough to go peacefully. Hang in there and take care.
Trevor I'm so sorry, heartbreaking story..I'm 48 and not a "cryer" until I lost Kito. Now like a little girl I weep.. My first dog, my best friend, my kid, never had kids so these are it..
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Its been 17 days since Kito died and its getting worse. Doesn't help I'm alone while wife is in another state looking for a house. I know no one down here. 1st time I've been w/o him alone in 10 years..all his food, toys, cookies , bed ..silenced... Lost one of our cats Frankie day after kito. So we have lost kito, franky and his brother sammy (in april) this year. We have a few indoor cats but these were all my boys. Sammy and frankie were mostly outside cats but there were fixed and on 5 acres ,3 acres wooded, no roads.. very private..Sammy got kidney stones and he was fine one day,the next bad, took him to vet and it was too late..this one bothers me because I didn't wait.. only a couple days before I took him to vet. Franky we have no idea what happened. Owl maybe? No coyotes or anything down here in this part of SW Mo.
We kept our brood with losing no one for a long time... its changing..
Kito was fine 3 months ago. Kidney, heart everything fine, gets a bad cold and it kills him. Anti biotics don't work.....should of taken him to another vet, he should of got IV food and meds...I know guilt is a phase of grief but a bad cold? 12 1/2 he was, not 15...we are moving soon and its going to kill me to not know what happened to frankie and leaving Kitos memory here..
my big beautiful snow bear.....
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Its been 17 days since Kito died and its getting worse. Doesn't help I'm alone while wife is in another state looking for a house. I know no one down here. 1st time I've been w/o him alone in 10 years..all his food, toys, cookies , bed ..silenced... Lost one of our cats Frankie day after kito. So we have lost kito, franky and his brother sammy (in april) this year. We have a few indoor cats but these were all my boys. Sammy and frankie were mostly outside cats but there were fixed and on 5 acres ,3 acres wooded, no roads.. very private..Sammy got kidney stones and he was fine one day,the next bad, took him to vet and it was too late..this one bothers me because I didn't wait.. only a couple days before I took him to vet. Franky we have no idea what happened. Owl maybe? No coyotes or anything down here in this part of SW Mo.
We kept our brood with losing no one for a long time... its changing..
Kito was fine 3 months ago. Kidney, heart everything fine, gets a bad cold and it kills him. Anti biotics don't work.....should of taken him to another vet, he should of got IV food and meds...I know guilt is a phase of grief but a bad cold? 12 1/2 he was, not 15...we are moving soon and its going to kill me to not know what happened to frankie and leaving Kitos memory here..
my big beautiful snow bear.....
Thanks holmeed. I'm so sorry for your losses of Kito, Franky and Sammy as well. Losing three pets in such a short amount of time is just awful. Kito-what a beautiful dog! Your first sentence fits me to a tee. I'm 39 and not a cryer...until Keesha died I honestly don't remember the last time I cried. Keesha was also my first dog and best friend. I don't have kids either so she was my kid and losing her was the worst thing I've ever had to go through by far. I know exactly how you are feeling. I'm sorry you have to do it alone as that would make it that much harder. Trust me though it will get better in time. I wouldn't have believed that when I first lost keesha as the pain was so intense those first few weeks. However it does slowly but surely go away. I still miss her like crazy and would do anything to get her back healthy but the unbearable pain has subsided. I still feel sad at times and there is still an emptiness but it has gotten better and it will for you too.
Try not to beat yourself up over not taking Kito to another vet.....guilt is part of this grieving process. I felt guilty as well. I think we all do. Its human nature to second guess ourselves after the fact. Have you thought of getting another dog? You'll never replace Kito but you'll be amazed how quickly you can fall in love with another one. I only waited two and a half weeks before I got another one and I felt guilty as heck for doing so so quickly but it was much needed. I needed another dog to help fill the void left by Keesha and to help me get through this process. I got a little siberian husky puppy and she's been a Godsend. She'll never replace Keesha(as she'll always be my number one girl) but she has her own special place in my heart. Take care.
Try not to beat yourself up over not taking Kito to another vet.....guilt is part of this grieving process. I felt guilty as well. I think we all do. Its human nature to second guess ourselves after the fact. Have you thought of getting another dog? You'll never replace Kito but you'll be amazed how quickly you can fall in love with another one. I only waited two and a half weeks before I got another one and I felt guilty as heck for doing so so quickly but it was much needed. I needed another dog to help fill the void left by Keesha and to help me get through this process. I got a little siberian husky puppy and she's been a Godsend. She'll never replace Keesha(as she'll always be my number one girl) but she has her own special place in my heart. Take care.
Hi Keesha, just wanted to let you know how much I miss you. It will be 15 weeks tomorrow. I'm doing pretty well but have really missed you the last few days. I would do anything to have another day with you. I talk to you everyday even though you probably can't hear me.....people would think I'm crazy if they saw me but oh well it makes me feel like you're still with me in a crazy sort of way. I wish I'd receive some type of sign that you're still around and watching over us whether its in a dream or whatever but I'm getting nothing. Maybe you've moved on and that's fine as long as you're happy and healthy up there.
I really wish you could be here now that the weather is getting cooler.....you always loved fall didn't you? You loved to sit outside and enjoy the cool crisp air. You loved going for walks in this type of weather. I just wish we were able to walk together again Keesh....that was our time, our bonding time wasn't it? You enjoyed it so much and so did I as I looked forward to taking you every night after supper. Just to see your eyes light up when I said that magic word-walk! Hopefully you're taking plenty of walks in heaven and I promise you when we meet again that's the first thing we'll do together....well the first thing will be to give you a long hug and kisses and then a long walk. I'll talk to you later baby girl, I love you and miss you terribly. Trevor
I really wish you could be here now that the weather is getting cooler.....you always loved fall didn't you? You loved to sit outside and enjoy the cool crisp air. You loved going for walks in this type of weather. I just wish we were able to walk together again Keesh....that was our time, our bonding time wasn't it? You enjoyed it so much and so did I as I looked forward to taking you every night after supper. Just to see your eyes light up when I said that magic word-walk! Hopefully you're taking plenty of walks in heaven and I promise you when we meet again that's the first thing we'll do together....well the first thing will be to give you a long hug and kisses and then a long walk. I'll talk to you later baby girl, I love you and miss you terribly. Trevor
QUOTE (trevor @ Oct 13 2009, 07:14 PM)
Hi Keesha, just wanted to let you know how much I miss you. It will be 15 weeks tomorrow. I'm doing pretty well but have really missed you the last few days. I would do anything to have another day with you. I talk to you everyday even though you probably can't hear me.....people would think I'm crazy if they saw me but oh well it makes me feel like you're still with me in a crazy sort of way. I wish I'd receive some type of sign that you're still around and watching over us whether its in a dream or whatever but I'm getting nothing. Maybe you've moved on and that's fine as long as you're happy and healthy up there.
I really wish you could be here now that the weather is getting cooler.....you always loved fall didn't you? You loved to sit outside and enjoy the cool crisp air. You loved going for walks in this type of weather. I just wish we were able to walk together again Keesh....that was our time, our bonding time wasn't it? You enjoyed it so much and so did I as I looked forward to taking you every night after supper. Just to see your eyes light up when I said that magic word-walk! Hopefully you're taking plenty of walks in heaven and I promise you when we meet again that's the first thing we'll do together....well the first thing will be to give you a long hug and kisses and then a long walk. I'll talk to you later baby girl, I love you and miss you terribly. Trevor
I really wish you could be here now that the weather is getting cooler.....you always loved fall didn't you? You loved to sit outside and enjoy the cool crisp air. You loved going for walks in this type of weather. I just wish we were able to walk together again Keesh....that was our time, our bonding time wasn't it? You enjoyed it so much and so did I as I looked forward to taking you every night after supper. Just to see your eyes light up when I said that magic word-walk! Hopefully you're taking plenty of walks in heaven and I promise you when we meet again that's the first thing we'll do together....well the first thing will be to give you a long hug and kisses and then a long walk. I'll talk to you later baby girl, I love you and miss you terribly. Trevor
{*{*{*{Trevor}*}*}*} I can truly feel your most palpable pain. You and Keesha are in my thoughts and prayers.
Your precious Angel Fur Child waits patiently for you at The Rainbow Bridge and has many playful pals until that One Sweet Day.
Many Comforting Hugs!!!
Always,
Dottie xoxoxox
Thanks Dottie! You're in my thoughts and prayers as well.....as is everyone else on this site. I read everyone's story and feel so bad because I know the pain everyone is going through and how hard it is to lose our beloved pets. I have a question for you I was reading "Sammy's Story" on page 3 a week or so ago and saw where you posted an awesome link of the rainbow bridge (musical thingy)and was wondering if you could post that link on my thread if at all possible...it would be greatly appreciated even though it brings tears to my eyes every time I watch it. Its sad but comforting at the same time. Thanks again and take care.
You're very welcome, Trevor. And thank you so much for your thoughts and prayers. So very dear of you!
Okay, I lost hundreds of my bookmarked Websites so did a google search and I'm pretty sure this is the one you're asking about since I've sent it to many people over the years and know I've posted it to friends here at Lightning Strike. Is this the one you're asking about? Please click on the Link, allow for a short loading time then click where it says "Click to begin." Here you go ...
http://www.indigo.org/rainbow/
While I was googling to find the above, there were You Tubes about The Rainbow Bridge. I never even thought to look.
This one is awesome! I hope your PC has the capability to view ...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZcQvYh_3Atw
Then I found another amazing one with the song "Rainbow Connection" that my Alex loved to hear when sung by Kermit the Frog.
Kermit isn't singing in this one, however the images are wonderful ...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lxp6PQI91Xk
And another very lovely video. More fur and feather Angels at The Rainbow Bridge ...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YqCZ79_KeSY
Here's a very pretty song and more fur kid Angels. Great images ...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O8kceQf9jYI
Ya gotta see this. Wow! Please click below ...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bb-znhUKIm0
Last one for now. Music is instrumental with no lyrics and more awesome images of Fur Kid Angels with The Rainbow Bridge prose ...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E--Ok9T1Td0
Many Comforting Hugs to you and your Fur Baby Keesha!!!
Always,
Dottie xoxoxox
Okay, I lost hundreds of my bookmarked Websites so did a google search and I'm pretty sure this is the one you're asking about since I've sent it to many people over the years and know I've posted it to friends here at Lightning Strike. Is this the one you're asking about? Please click on the Link, allow for a short loading time then click where it says "Click to begin." Here you go ...
http://www.indigo.org/rainbow/
While I was googling to find the above, there were You Tubes about The Rainbow Bridge. I never even thought to look.
This one is awesome! I hope your PC has the capability to view ...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZcQvYh_3Atw
Then I found another amazing one with the song "Rainbow Connection" that my Alex loved to hear when sung by Kermit the Frog.
Kermit isn't singing in this one, however the images are wonderful ...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lxp6PQI91Xk
And another very lovely video. More fur and feather Angels at The Rainbow Bridge ...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YqCZ79_KeSY
Here's a very pretty song and more fur kid Angels. Great images ...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O8kceQf9jYI
Ya gotta see this. Wow! Please click below ...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bb-znhUKIm0
Last one for now. Music is instrumental with no lyrics and more awesome images of Fur Kid Angels with The Rainbow Bridge prose ...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E--Ok9T1Td0
Many Comforting Hugs to you and your Fur Baby Keesha!!!
Always,
Dottie xoxoxox
Hi Dottie, that was the one I was asking about. The others were great as well. Thank you very much for putting the time and effort into posting those it was very thoughtful of you and is very much appreciated. Take care:)
I'm glad it was the right one, Trevor. You take care, too.
Big Hugs to you and Fur Angel Baby Keesha!!!
Always,
Dottie xoxoxox
Big Hugs to you and Fur Angel Baby Keesha!!!
Always,
Dottie xoxoxox
Hi Keesh, today is the 5 month mark. I can't believe you've been gone that long. It sure doesn't seem it. I still miss you so much. I think about you all the time and often wonder if you'd still be with us if I didn't go through with the euthanization. I know it probably was the best thing for you but I just can't help but wish I didn't make that decision and maybe you'd still be here. I know its selfish on my part as you would have suffered but I just hate not having you around. I think I'd feel a little better about everything if I was atleast with you at the end. I hate it that I wasn't by your side. I'm so sorry I wasn't there.
I'm really not looking forward to Christmas this year. It will be so weird without you. It will be my first Christmas in 14 years without you. It just won't be the same. I just hope there is an after-life and you're in heaven and you're young and healthy again. I hope you're watching over us and that you are here in spirit. At times I still feel guilty getting another dog and that you're up there looking down at us wondering why you're gone and why we have another dog here. I hope you understand and know that you will always be my favorite. You cannot be replaced Keesh. Anyway just wanted to let you know how much I miss you and that I love you. Talk to you later baby girl.
I'm really not looking forward to Christmas this year. It will be so weird without you. It will be my first Christmas in 14 years without you. It just won't be the same. I just hope there is an after-life and you're in heaven and you're young and healthy again. I hope you're watching over us and that you are here in spirit. At times I still feel guilty getting another dog and that you're up there looking down at us wondering why you're gone and why we have another dog here. I hope you understand and know that you will always be my favorite. You cannot be replaced Keesh. Anyway just wanted to let you know how much I miss you and that I love you. Talk to you later baby girl.
{{{{{To Trevor from Keesha}}}}}
"The Rainbow Connection"
Why are there so many songs about Rainbows,
And what's on the other side?
Rainbows are visions, but only illusions,
And Rainbows have nothing to hide.
So we've been told and some choose to believe it.
I know they're wrong, wait and see.
Someday we'll find it, the Rainbow Connection ...
The Lovers, the Dreamers and me.
Who said that every wish would be heard and answered,
When wished on the morning star?
Somebody thought of that and someone believed it,
And look what it's done so far.
What's so amazing that keeps us stargazing,
And what do we think we might see?
Someday we'll find it, the Rainbow Connection,
The Lovers, the Dreamers, and me!
All of us under its spell ...
We know that it's probably Magic!
Have you been half asleep? And have you heard voices?
I've heard them calling my name.
Is this the sweet sound that calls the young sailors?
The voice might be one and the same.
I've heard it too many times to ignore it.
It's something that I'm s'posed to be.
Someday we'll find it! the Rainbow Connection ...
The Lovers, the Dreamers, and me!
"You and me together, Trevor! We'll make a Rainbow Connection!"
"I Love You So Much!!!"
"Gonna go play with my pals at The Bridge Now. See ya later, Trevor!"
Why are there so many songs about Rainbows,
And what's on the other side?
Rainbows are visions, but only illusions,
And Rainbows have nothing to hide.
So we've been told and some choose to believe it.
I know they're wrong, wait and see.
Someday we'll find it, the Rainbow Connection ...
The Lovers, the Dreamers and me.
Who said that every wish would be heard and answered,
When wished on the morning star?
Somebody thought of that and someone believed it,
And look what it's done so far.
What's so amazing that keeps us stargazing,
And what do we think we might see?
Someday we'll find it, the Rainbow Connection,
The Lovers, the Dreamers, and me!
All of us under its spell ...
We know that it's probably Magic!
Have you been half asleep? And have you heard voices?
I've heard them calling my name.
Is this the sweet sound that calls the young sailors?
The voice might be one and the same.
I've heard it too many times to ignore it.
It's something that I'm s'posed to be.
Someday we'll find it! the Rainbow Connection ...
The Lovers, the Dreamers, and me!
"You and me together, Trevor! We'll make a Rainbow Connection!"
"I Love You So Much!!!"
"Gonna go play with my pals at The Bridge Now. See ya later, Trevor!"
Just read your story Trevor, it's difficult I know, been there myself, didn't get to say goodbye to my soul mate either. I know Ulriich loved me when he died even though I wasn't there and Keesh loved you too. The bond of love is way too strong to be severed merely by distance. It doesn't seem to matter what decisions we make, we always think we have made the wrong one when it comes to our pets, I think it's because we are trying to put some reason to it because we want them back so much. It will be my first Christmas without Ulriich too and it's not going to be easy, I just adored that cat. I will have a special thought for you this Christmas. I see Dottie has put one of her special posts on to cheer you up, hope it helps. Hugs.
madi xx
madi xx
Madi, thanks I appreciate it. I'm sorry about Ulriich....I read your thread and what a terrible way to lose a pet. It really stinks not being able to say good-bye to them. You're in my thoughts and prayers.
Dottie, thanks again for the video. All of them have been great and appreciated! They all seem to bring tears to my eyes but that's ok:) Take care and I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
Dottie, thanks again for the video. All of them have been great and appreciated! They all seem to bring tears to my eyes but that's ok:) Take care and I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
You're very welcome Trevor. Sometime tears are good and cleansing so one can see with a whole new perspective.
Many Comforting Hugs to you and your Angel Fur Kid Keesha!!!
Always,
Dottie xoxoxox
Many Comforting Hugs to you and your Angel Fur Kid Keesha!!!
Always,
Dottie xoxoxox
Hi Keesha, its been a while since I've written to you. Its not that I've forgotten you or miss you any less. Far from it actually as I think about you everyday and I still miss you like crazy. Believe it or not its 8 months today. Hard to imagine you've been gone that long. It still hurts but I've learned to move on without you but it just isn't the same without you around here.
I can't seem to get the last couple days we were together out of my mind and unfortunately those aren't necessarily the memories I want to remember you by as I wish I could just think of the good times we had together. I just can't help but remember the pain you were in with your broken leg.....it still makes me mad to think how long it took to find a vet who could get you into surgery. I still picture you in the back of the mini-van on that 4 hr trip to the animal hospital. Then sitting at the back of the van with me waiting for the tech to come out and get you. I knew you were in so much pain but you were still so upbeat and brave. I was very proud of you. I remember when the tech finally came out and carried you away--not knowing it would be the last time I would ever see you again. If I would have known that I would have hugged and kissed you a lot more than I did that day. I still think of that dreadful phone call I got the next day from the vet stating he found a large tumor on your leg and that you had bone cancer and it would be in your best interest to let you go. Of course what made matters worse was that I drove back home the night before and was 4 hrs away and couldn't be with you. That day was the worst day of my life and a day I'll probably never forget.
Anyways Keesh I just wanted to tell you how much I love you and that I miss you very much. I pray everyday that we'll be together again one day. Until then you take care baby girl!
I can't seem to get the last couple days we were together out of my mind and unfortunately those aren't necessarily the memories I want to remember you by as I wish I could just think of the good times we had together. I just can't help but remember the pain you were in with your broken leg.....it still makes me mad to think how long it took to find a vet who could get you into surgery. I still picture you in the back of the mini-van on that 4 hr trip to the animal hospital. Then sitting at the back of the van with me waiting for the tech to come out and get you. I knew you were in so much pain but you were still so upbeat and brave. I was very proud of you. I remember when the tech finally came out and carried you away--not knowing it would be the last time I would ever see you again. If I would have known that I would have hugged and kissed you a lot more than I did that day. I still think of that dreadful phone call I got the next day from the vet stating he found a large tumor on your leg and that you had bone cancer and it would be in your best interest to let you go. Of course what made matters worse was that I drove back home the night before and was 4 hrs away and couldn't be with you. That day was the worst day of my life and a day I'll probably never forget.
Anyways Keesh I just wanted to tell you how much I love you and that I miss you very much. I pray everyday that we'll be together again one day. Until then you take care baby girl!
Hi Keesh, its one year today that I had to let you go. It doesn't seem possible you've been gone that long. Its been a rough year to say the least. It seems like it was just the other day that I was taking you on that four hour ride to the animal hospital to have what we thought was going to be routine surgery on your broken leg only to find out you had bone cancer and it would be in your best interest to let you go and not suffer anymore. It was the hardest and most painful decision I've ever had to make. I miss you as much today as ever. I still talk to you everyday, usually on my way to work while glancing at a picture of you I have in my truck. I hope you can hear me and know I haven't forgotten you. Its strange but even a year later I occasionally walk in the house and expect you to greet me at the door or look outside and expect to see you sitting on the front steps. One thing that frustrates me Keesh is that I hardly ever have dreamed about you. I can remember four maybe five times tops in a year. I can dream about strangers or people I hardly know yet I can't have a dream about the thing that meant the most to me.
Something that bothers me is that I'm starting to forget things about you. Not major things but some of the smaller things.....I don't know if its because we have another dog now and seeing her everyday has made my memory fail me or what but I don't want to forget anything about you and it scares me a little seeing it happen already. One thing is for sure though I'll never forget what a great dog you were and what a great friend you were. I love you and miss you baby girl!
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I hardly post on here anymore but I do come on once or twice a week and I think I've read every thread on here and I just want everyone to know you're all in my thoughts and prayers.
Something that bothers me is that I'm starting to forget things about you. Not major things but some of the smaller things.....I don't know if its because we have another dog now and seeing her everyday has made my memory fail me or what but I don't want to forget anything about you and it scares me a little seeing it happen already. One thing is for sure though I'll never forget what a great dog you were and what a great friend you were. I love you and miss you baby girl!
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I hardly post on here anymore but I do come on once or twice a week and I think I've read every thread on here and I just want everyone to know you're all in my thoughts and prayers.
Trevor,
Just sitting here reading posts, and read your first one, and now see that a year has gone by. It's been close to 2 months for me now. I too feel robbed that I, like you, have few (actually only one) dreams about my Kota. Keesh knows you haven't forgotten. Kind of like at the end of the movie, Ghost, when he says, "It's amazing, you take the love with you wherever you go." When you think about it, a year has gone by, but it was just a small percentage of time compared to the time that the two of you had together. It just sucks. Anyways, wanted to commemorate this special, but painful day. Take care.
Dennis
Just sitting here reading posts, and read your first one, and now see that a year has gone by. It's been close to 2 months for me now. I too feel robbed that I, like you, have few (actually only one) dreams about my Kota. Keesh knows you haven't forgotten. Kind of like at the end of the movie, Ghost, when he says, "It's amazing, you take the love with you wherever you go." When you think about it, a year has gone by, but it was just a small percentage of time compared to the time that the two of you had together. It just sucks. Anyways, wanted to commemorate this special, but painful day. Take care.
Dennis
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Hi Keesha, Its been a tough couple weeks as were at that one year mark and i've really missed you a lot lately. Just wanted to say hi and tell you how much I miss you and love you. I think i've finally figured out how to post a picture of you so i hope it works.
Hi Keesha, Its been a tough couple weeks as were at that one year mark and i've really missed you a lot lately. Just wanted to say hi and tell you how much I miss you and love you. I think i've finally figured out how to post a picture of you so i hope it works.
Nice pics of Keesha. Was she lucky enough to live full time in the area where the pics were taken...amid the snow, trees and river. Time can heal, but not cure or take away the missing, love, caring and memories. Such a spirited looking dog. I wish you some peace of mind.
Dennis
Dennis
Thanks Dennis! Actually the pics were taken in New Brunswick(Canada) at my parents house. I live in Maine now but I'm right on the US/Canadian border so I'm only about 20 minutes away from their house so I used to take Keesha over their quite often as she loved visiting them and loved going into the brook and river. Living in Maine we obviously get plenty of snow in the winter time which Keesha loved.....she wasn't a big fan of the cold but loved sitting out on the snow on a nice sunny day.
You're right time can heal the pain to a certain degree but it cannot take away those emotions you mentioned. There will always be that void and that hole in your heart. Like you I'm sure with Kota, I'd do anything to have her back with me. I got another dog(a siberian husky named Maya) and I love her to death but I don't quite have that bond I had with Keesha. I can honestly say I'll never feel towards another dog like I feel about Keesha. That said as long as I'm capable of providing for one I'll always have a dog. As much as it hurts when you lose them the joy they bring to your life while they're here greatly outweighs that pain.
I know you're having a rough time dealing with the loss of Kota and I totally understand as I was in the same boat and still struggle a year later. Losing Keesha was worse than losing any of my relatives and I loved them dearly but there is just that special bond you have with your pet and when you lose them it is devestating. Its obvious from your posts how much you loved Kota and I think it would be great if you decided to adopt another dog. You could give another dog a great life like you gave Kota and that dog would obviously love you unconditionally in return. Its amazing how fast they grow on you....I got Maya as a puppy only 2 and a half weeks after Keesha died(guilt!) and I couldn't believe how quickly I fell in love with her. I honestly don't know if I could have gotten through this grieving process without her. Anyway do what's best for you and hang in there. You're in my thoughts and prayers.
You're right time can heal the pain to a certain degree but it cannot take away those emotions you mentioned. There will always be that void and that hole in your heart. Like you I'm sure with Kota, I'd do anything to have her back with me. I got another dog(a siberian husky named Maya) and I love her to death but I don't quite have that bond I had with Keesha. I can honestly say I'll never feel towards another dog like I feel about Keesha. That said as long as I'm capable of providing for one I'll always have a dog. As much as it hurts when you lose them the joy they bring to your life while they're here greatly outweighs that pain.
I know you're having a rough time dealing with the loss of Kota and I totally understand as I was in the same boat and still struggle a year later. Losing Keesha was worse than losing any of my relatives and I loved them dearly but there is just that special bond you have with your pet and when you lose them it is devestating. Its obvious from your posts how much you loved Kota and I think it would be great if you decided to adopt another dog. You could give another dog a great life like you gave Kota and that dog would obviously love you unconditionally in return. Its amazing how fast they grow on you....I got Maya as a puppy only 2 and a half weeks after Keesha died(guilt!) and I couldn't believe how quickly I fell in love with her. I honestly don't know if I could have gotten through this grieving process without her. Anyway do what's best for you and hang in there. You're in my thoughts and prayers.
Trevor, your pictures of Keesha are beautiful. I love the marking on her chest. She looked so happy laying on that snow! Good memories but painful as well, I'm sure. I'm coming up on one year since we lost the first of 3 precious babies. Isn't it funny how time flies and creeps by at the same time?
Anyway, I just wanted to comment on your pictures and say that I'm happy you have found love with another dog. Although, I totally understand what you mean about the bond that can't be replaced or duplicated. But, I'm glad you're loving again. That's the most important thing, I think. Take care.
-Donna
Anyway, I just wanted to comment on your pictures and say that I'm happy you have found love with another dog. Although, I totally understand what you mean about the bond that can't be replaced or duplicated. But, I'm glad you're loving again. That's the most important thing, I think. Take care.
-Donna
Thanks Donna, she did have beautiful markings and loved to lay on the snow.....oh to be able to see her do that again:( People say you'll eventually get to the point where you just think about the good memories but those memories can quickly turn to sad ones because you don't get to share those moments with them again. I know what you mean when you say its funny how time flies by yet creeps by at the same time. It seems like it was yesterday I lost her yet it seems like its been forever since I've seen her.
I'm so sorry you've lost Frasier, Niles and Buck all within a year....my goodness that is rough. Its bad enough losing one but three, I can't imagine. My heart goes out to you. Kudos to you though for taking in two kitties it shows how big a heart you have to be able to do that at this extremely painful time of your life. Your thread about Buck brought tears to my eyes....what a beautiful dog! I loved the picture you titled heaven with all three of your boys....i'd have that blown up and framed:) Your relationship with Buck reminded me of mine with Keesha.....it just sucks to lose them doesn't it. Anyway hang in there and take care.
I'm so sorry you've lost Frasier, Niles and Buck all within a year....my goodness that is rough. Its bad enough losing one but three, I can't imagine. My heart goes out to you. Kudos to you though for taking in two kitties it shows how big a heart you have to be able to do that at this extremely painful time of your life. Your thread about Buck brought tears to my eyes....what a beautiful dog! I loved the picture you titled heaven with all three of your boys....i'd have that blown up and framed:) Your relationship with Buck reminded me of mine with Keesha.....it just sucks to lose them doesn't it. Anyway hang in there and take care.
Hi Keesha, its 2 years today. I can't believe you've been gone that long. I remember your last day with me like it was yesterday. A day doesn't go by that I don't think of you and wish you were still here with me. To this day I still have regrets and guilt about how things played out in the end.....whether I made the right decision to let you go at that time. I will probably always feel guilty even though deep down I think I did make the best decision for you. Maya has turned out to be a great dog, I wish the two of you could have known each other. She's like you in so many ways yet very different at the same time. Anyway Keesha I just want to let you know how much I still love you and miss you. Until we meet again baby girl you take care:)
Hi, Trevor, thank you so very much for sharing your and Keesha's "angel-vesary" with us. These special dates are forever with us in our hearts. It is a special date set aside just between you and Keesha to reflect on the life and love you shared during your earthly journey together - - and the life and love you continue to share for she is forever a part of you, Trevor. She is always a heartbeat close to you. And Keesha and Maya already know each other - - for they share you as their FOREVER DAD.
I hope life is treating you and your precious Maya kindly, Trevor. Thank you again so much for sharing with us how you're doing. Please know you and Maya are in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to knowing how things are going.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
I hope life is treating you and your precious Maya kindly, Trevor. Thank you again so much for sharing with us how you're doing. Please know you and Maya are in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to knowing how things are going.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam