Hi Jan,
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...I do think we get glimpses, and the more open we become, the more glimpses we get.
Yes, and many more people now are once again getting far more than just "glimpses", as they open back up to how it apparently
used to be, way back when. Wish I was already there, at that point, myself!
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That night she awoke to the cat kneeding at the bottom of her bed. She was frightened and didn't understand, but later realized the blessing offered by this visit.
Another "wow and a-ha!!" moment. And again, wish I could get the same! However, it's personal accounts just like this that we can open to, to at least come to the understanding that there's MUCH more to reality than what we've thought for so long. In fact, I'd like to share an ancient (Netsilik) Eskimo song that you may have seen before, which speaks to the fact that we've only FORGOTTEN how things really are:
in the very earliest time,
when both people and animals lived on earth,
a person could become an animal if he wanted to
and an animal could become a human being.
Sometimes they were people
and sometimes animals
and there was no difference.
All spoke the same language.
We've only forgotten - Who we are, What we are, how we're all part of the same "Organism". The full reality's still there as it's always been, but we've forgotten how to tap into it effortlessly. Some posit that this came about from the first idea/feeling of DOUBT. Some say the One wanted its own 'company', and so set about creating its own 'bits' to experience Itself in different ways. Some say life is all about lessons, while others say it's really only about experiencing all aspects of Life. Some say it was all a deliberate plan set up in advance, so 'we'd ' be able to experience this physicality in all its fullness, in order to make 'our' way slowly back to the original fullness.... but after having added even MORE experience of various forms of consciousness into the mix along the way, and
therefore to evolve the All even further, as a means for the Whole of Consciousness to grow and continue to expand. And so every bit of growth or evolution affects the Whole, as it must.
And even quantum physicists say that there ARE multiple dimensions, but with each particle affecting other (twin) ones in any or all dimensions. So it's not hard to see that we could have other lives in parallel planes, each different, yet each designed to take another road, in ORDER to experience ever more things and in different ways. And science is merging (finally!) with the knowledge from mysticism. It all makes sense and comes together as a grand whole, even if we're not sure of the beginnings of HOW or WHY this came about.
But what it can do for US, who mourn the physical absence of our beloveds, is to help us realize there IS no real separation, and there CAN'T be.....even if we're not personally adept at communing well with those who are not only a part of us, but who, in reality, are ALSO us. It's like we're individuals and yet also one big unit, the same but also unique parts of the Whole. And we're NOT just 3-dimensional. The 4th dimension (Time) is already here, but is now, itself, expanded, and so we're getting those "glimpses" into it more frequently now.
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It's like my idea of imagining that Ziggy is with someone else, who looks after her not just as well, but even better than me. That helps me to send her loving thoughts and not thoughts full of fear.
That's a fine way to think of it! And whatever works for you best is always what you need go with. As someone else here once said, it's like thinking that our loved ones are in a place where they're finally getting whatever they truly DESERVED all along - love and perfection in abundance, compared to the seeming IMperfection of the physical world.
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It is of course my self-centred grief that keeps me here! But I hope I can offer something to others too! I have been really exhausted lately and trying to sort of do the normal things everyone expects me to do here.
But it's NOT "self-centred" if you consider that the Whole (which includes
you) will evolve as an outgrowth of your grief, too. Grief is just another experience, albeit a most painful one to us, but it's neither right nor wrong. It just IS, and no differently than, say, JOY, it deserves its own place and honour
as another experience. And certainly, if one of the best ways to connect to our loved ones is through the heart, and grief is so much about "heart", then there's everything 'right' about grieving! If we did already remember (and so could fully sense/experience) our Allness, we wouldn't need to grieve. But we're not quite there again yet. So there's no self-blame needed, only self-acceptance for being just where you need to be right here, right now, and in every single "now" henceforth. Your BEING HERE
is an offering in itself. No one needs to be continually giving advice or coming up with answers in order to be offering something of great value. It is very often in the questioning that we come closest to our other parts. It is often in the confusion of others where we can connect most deeply, knowing we're not alone in our feelings or doubts. It's the SHARING that's more important, whatever slant that takes. It's the reaching out that matters, whether in need or to give back.
And I'll tell you, Jan, I sure didn't even bother trying to do anything anyone else "expected" me to do, or be like, especially in the earlier time of my grief. It was all I could handle just trying to keep breathing, get a drink of water, push myself to take a few steps....only if it HELPED me, personally, to do for others, could I manage that much effort. Naturally, I did for Nissa everything and even more than before after Sabin left, but ONLY for her and no one else. The rest of the world didn't matter one iota to me at that point, and so what? Things and other people went on anyway. Grief takes too much
actual energy out of us to worry about doing what's expected, unless it bothers you SO much that it's better for you if you follow that route. Or you can mix it up as needed. This is YOUR grief, not someone else's, and you need to look after YOU, first and foremost, whatever that 'looking after' entails, which may or may not include others' needs. As I've always said (not that most others around me ever took/take this to heart, mind you!
), if you can't fall apart during GRIEF AND MOURNING, then when exactly are you enti*tled to??? You won't have anything to offer anyone if you're nothing but an empty shell anyway, so self-care has to be at least a fairly decent chunk of the process.
And you're suffering greatly, no wonder, and who of any compassion could blame you?!?! And for me, after 'losing' Nissa.....it's still a struggle and more so if people try to PUSH me into 'normalcy'. It's not THEIR life; it's MINE, or at least my 'individual' aspect of the Whole. So I'll do what I want, when I want, and at the pace that's most helpful and comfortable for ME.
I hope some of this might help to hold you up in some way, if not now, then later.
Oh, and no, there are NO coincidences. Uh-uh. That word should be struck from the English language, I think, as it only helps us
keep the illusion of separation. How
could there be, if everything is one, big, unified entity? All parts are somehow linked.
And if it helps you to find even one aspect of meaning or connection, here are the meanings, according to Doreen Virtue's (you can Google her if you like) communion with the angels, of the
repeating numbers "23" (also my Nissa's transition date) and "28":
- 23 - you are working closely with one or more ascended masters such as Jesus, Moses, the saints or the goddesses. This is a message from your ascended-master guides, who can see the answer to your prayers is within reach. They encourage you to stay positive to ensure that you attract the best possible outcome.
- 28 - Money comes to you as you keep the faith that you, your loved ones, and your beautiful life purpose are fully supported by Heaven.
Purrs of comfort,
F's Mom
) for our joy. I guess a bit like old Frosty, huh...