It's her birthday today and she's still with me

My girlfriends grandma is making her favourite meal, a beef joint all for herself. Hopefully she'll eat it, if not, i will make the call sooner, rather than later

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLYDE!!! I am filled with joy this morning having come immediately here to learn that Clyde have survived all this time. Both of you have received a miracle of hope together. The special love and time you have had together is truly the best birthday gift of all for both of you.

Here's hoping for a birthday filled with love and thanks. Both of you will continue to be in my prayers.

May God bless you both!
Beth

Sad news, she hasn't eaten her beef and is showing no interest in it. I built up the courage and called the vets, i managed to book for a vet to come out in the morning through all the tears and blubbering. She will be gone this time tommorrow.

If you love them, you have to let them go when the time comes, even if your heart feels like it will stop

I'm glad you got your wish about Clyde's birthday. I wish to say a soft Happy Birthday, Clyde...with a big hug and a kiss. I had marked this date on my calendar but I was waiting for you to come here first for an update.

I'm so sorry things didn't stay better. This is definitely the worst of times so today, on her special day, give her lots of hugs and kisses and tell her you will love her always. I know all of this will come naturally to you to do.

I am now typing through tears because I have been where you are and I remember that pain so well. It never goes away 100% but in time it stops overwhelming us.

When my Little Guy was ill, I took some of his hair from a brush and put it in a ziplock bag with a favorite toy and I had done the same thing with his twin brother, Keeper, who was at home for a mobile vet...who first gave him a tranquilizer so he would just be relaxed and allowed us a few moments to change our minds before the second shot.. He was having trouble breathing due to masses in his lungs and as much as we wanted to stop everything...we just couldn't do that to him. That was in 2002 and his lock of hair in his special bag is as soft as the day I put it in there. Sometimes I handle it and remember and know that is the only physical thing I have left of any of them but I can still touch them physically through their little bit of fur.

You said: If you love them, you have to let them go when the time comes, even if your heart feels like it will stop .

That is so true..letting them go is as close as we get to giving back to them unconditional love....they come before us.

Hugs to all of you. The tears are also flowing here. Clyde, you are a beautiful, wonderful girl and we will see you as an angel looking down at your loved ones and being there always for them.


For Clyde:

As your Clyde soars amongst the angels, may you remember and love her always for the difference she made in your life. Her memory will live on forever in your heart. Rejoice in the wonderful times you had together.

Even though you must say "Goodbye for now, " One day you will be saying, "Hello again."

Much love and many comforting hugs are sent your way from my heart to yours.

I don't know what to say because I'm still going through the aftermath of the same thing with Lenny.

I do know that although it hurts terribly, love is all about doing what's right for others and not yourself. It helps me a little to focus on that - maybe it might help you too.

Know, at least, that our thoughts are with you, and that there are people here (e.g. me just 4 weeks ago) who have been through this so you're not alone.

Take care, and don't let this stop you enjoying the good times that will pop into your mind. And don't be afraid to cry about them either.

Today all I can say is:


HUGS, Sinjii, many many hold tight hugs. And crying together. You are not crying alone. I feel that familiar pain coming back today and can give in for a while so I can shed some tears with you.

So sorry to see how much you are suffering like I am too. I just find out last monday afternoon 5/19/08 that my 11 y/o son Buster Australian/Shepperd Mix has two tumors inside his nose and it is getting to hard on him to breathe right, me like you don't know what would I do when the day comes to say goodbye, just can not believe this is happening to me too. I have been crying for a week now and no one know about it but me and feel like am going crazy and totaly lost just thinking that he will not be with me soon.
Some people have had told me to get rid of him and get another one [was hurt so much to hear this] can't believe that some people have no heart like we do, I only ask god to let me have him till the last minute and I know that will be together someday, he is still hear with me and miss him already, what can I do?
please help me! need to hear something from someone, till later Buster and havana.

Havana...........My name is Beth. I am here for you and so are others. Have you started a thread yet for you and Buster? My heart goes out to you just as it did to the writer here in Clyde's thread. The writer of this thread has not posted since he had Clyde put to sleep on May 21. I am keeping him in my prayers in the hopes he will rejoin us all soon.

I am sure you are very scared and ridden with grief right now. If you haven't done so already, start a thread and keep talking about what is going on with you and Buster. We can help support you during your time of need.

Remember that you are not alone. All of us here have suffered the anguish and grief of having had a furlove pass away.
Keep coming and sharing Havana. I will look for your thread very soon.

Many hugs and love to you Havana...........Beth

Here in this forum we help each other through the difficult and sad times and rejoice in our happier memories as well

Havana, as Beth said, stay with us. Start a thread and keep posting to it. It may not change what is happening, but it can help very much with how we cope with it.

Many of us have been through some very sad times - and many are still going through them. This is one place where you can pour out your heart and feelings and know that people will understand and not think you are weak or silly. Here, at least, we know how important our (furry) friends are - and we have all cried and still do for them.

how are things Sindii? I hope you're coping. Please come back to us - when you can.

Really like to thanks to all of you such dedicated and pets lovers for answering to me at this time when I need it the most, thank you for understanding my pain and for giving me a hand and word of compation cause I really need it and as I feel very sad now.
I just finished working today got into my car and drove home as soon as I could to meet my son and there he was so happy to see me as always [he has some good days and others not so good] I am following some instructions from our Vet giving him some 1 twice a day Tramadol 50mg to make the tumors smaller, 2 twice a day Prednisone 20mg for the pain and 1 twice a day Benadryl to stop the bledding do to, to much sneezing.
Today he had a good full dinner and love to drink lots of water with ice-cubes in it. I hope evertything it's going to be ok, I pray to God and to Santa Rita de Cascia [the Lawyer of the Impossible] to give him the miracle of Sanation, and to you all thanks again for every kind words for us.

Sindii: I know things are very hard but I urge you to talk to us. It really can help just writing thoughts and feelings out.

You are never alone in this forum. We care about you because we are brothers and sisters from the same place....the love of a special wonderful baby that will stay with us forever in our hearts and memories. Many times, I type through tears, and that is okay.

We are here to give you a hug and say we understand exactly what the sadness is all about. Sometimes we think we don't know what to say until we start typing...then maybe the tears and words flow.

Take care and we are watching and waiting to hold your hand and wish we could give you such a fierce big hug to let you know we do share everything you are going through and......WE DO CARE so very much.

Hi guys, i found it hard to post about my loss, the feeling of never seeing her again kills me inside and i find it very hard. Like many of you i feel i can offer help more than deal with my own issues right now but i hope to heal in time.

Last night i had a great sleep and dreamt we were together again, even when i woke and went back to sleep i dreamt of her again. It is the first time i have dreamt of her since i lost her and it felt special to me, i didn't want to wake up because it felt so real. It felt like a message from her that she is still with me in my heart, mind and my soul.

The feeling of losing her and having lost her felt so different. When i found out about her tumors i was almost physically sick and went light headed with fear of losing her. Now that i've lost her, i feel numb and always feel like im suffocating when i think about her. I miss looking after her and even wiping her poor little bum.

I have 3 others but the bond with clyde was something amazing for me. They have helped me manage by spending more time with them though, especially holly, the youngest who is a peculiar and very loving little dog and it feels like me and her a going to have great time together.

Like everyone on here, i have to manage and try to live the rest of my live, remembering that i was given something special, that people who never bond with an animal will never be able to comprehend.

My love and heart is with everyone who has this special gift, knowing that it will be taken away from them way too early. We just need to remember their are more queueing up to steal and break your hurt. None replace the last, how can they when each and everyone is unique and special, but each will give you something different along with love and friendship. Just do it when ready and don't rush the healing, it hurts so bad, i always have moments everyday where i just sit and cry or stare at a wall feeling helpless and lost.

You have written a very meaningful post. So many of us here understand exactly what you are feeling and it is hard to put into words but I think you managed to do it just beautifully.

I see acceptance in your words and that is a big part of starting to heal. I know what Clyde means to you and I know how hard acceptance is but I find knowing my special one is at peace and not suffering in any way tells me that is why I must accept it and do my best at healing. I see you are doing that already and also I am so glad to read there is something special forming between you and Holly.

You have made some very wise observations about this process of losing a part of our lives and hearts and I truly agree, especially your last paragraph.

In time, you will feel like posting more pictures of Clyde and telling some stories of her that make you smile at the memory.

Whatever feels right is the right thing to do.

I started with 3 siblings myself this last time and as each one left I too turned to the others and gave them extra love and attention because it was through losing the 1st one of the 3 that I realized how quickly they can be taken away so the important thing is to enjoy them and love them as much as we can while they are here. And love them and miss them forever when it is their time to become angels who watch over us and we still can feel their love almost as though it was physically present.

Write anytime..we are listening.. Take Care and hug your other ones for us. They are all special loves in their own way.

I thought i'd revive this post, just lost bonnie on june 26th, my rottweilerX :-(

So soon after I lost clyde, bonnie got nose bleeds in november 08 but we only realised in dec 08 as we saw an od speck in the kitchen and thought she'd been playing rough with holly and fully checked her. At this time i was working in essex, a choice i'd taken to be away from home and the sadness i was feeling. When my girlfriend let me know in december, i tried to get out of it and eventually came home early in january.
This is when things just went crazy, took her to the vets, had scans etc done to rule out any nasal cancers etc, bonnie was fully fit and healthy, nothing was found.

We took her in regular after that to make sure nothing popped up, then late march/april she developed a limp, we just though arthritis due to age. More checks and lots of nagging the vet and nothing. At this point she became very imobile, sad and rarely did anything, we wouldn't even manage a 5min walk, continuosly groanin. We kept taking her for checks and still nothing, finally vet reccommended rymadyl, wow within hours she was walking about, managing on her lame leg and really happy, she could actually walk more than 20yards now!!!

End of april, vaccinations came up, asked the vet if we should get her done and he was like amazed how well she was doing, thought she be here long time in the future so advised so. My emotions were all over the place, she was suffering, then wasn't, then was and so on.

Anyway wed 17th june, my girlfriend rings me at work, bonnie's got a massive lump on her shoulder, same as the lame leg....i hadn't seen it the night before so though she had blown it out of proportion...work dragged, i was scared and got home, her shoulder was huge ie half of a soccer ball...i knew then what it was, the vets had let me down, they were incompetent, and after 11years+ i'd let bonnie suffer.

She had given me so much pleasure, she was so happy, fussy and friendly with everyone - dogs, cats and people. When i rescued her i wondered why someone would get rid of her, and 11yrs later i was suprised she hadn't change her puppyness once til this period in her life.

We got bonnie into the vets and got the results a ###ing week later, it was confirmed, i spent a few more days with her, she was still on rymadyl and managed even to play in the lake, vet said take her leg off etc but we knew i was too late, she'd had nosebleeds since dec!! Again, after last year, through many tears, planned it all, booked a homecall out for the vet, caledl the crematorium to booked her in. Vet cam at 26th of june at 11.15am, bonnie was gonne 15mins later.
It was such as hard but simple decision - even on this day she ate a full cake as her last meal and played in the lake, sticking her head in as normal to pull up rocks.
Nearly all her days were spent looking sad and restless, trying to get comfy and always panting, only time she was ok or looked it was when at the lake, it was to painful to now watch.

Bonnie had osteosarcoma, i've read up about it alot and the pain she suffered for many months both down to pathetic vets and me, is unimaginable, her leg had shattered from the inside and the tumor spread to her shoulder. Basically the days leading up to her massive lump it looks like it exploded through her shoulder blade!!! It tears me up inside to think how much she suffered. I can't cry at her loss anymore because i feel sick with hate and sadness. When i try to remember her now all i think of is how down she was and the pain she felt. I punched a wall in rage a few days later many times, splitting my knuckles apart and damaging both hands badly cos i was furious, almost broke both feet too from kicking the wall too. I feel like im gonna explode at this moment and am trying to take things a moment at a time. I can't talk to my girlfriend, she says she cares but hasn't shown anything or said anything since we put bonnie to rest!!

Losing a dog isn't easy but the way you lose them lives with you forever, in your dreams, in your thoughts, in your daily life, i feel like i seriously am gonna explode as it's consuming my every breath - i feel like the vets are a business, they don't give a ~~ and exploit us for our money. I nagged the vet for months and discussed every possible situation yet everytime they told me it wasn't this or that, all my memories of bonnie have been wiped for thoughts of her suffering, her restlessness and pain in her eyes!!

I find it hard to post on here still, so many sad, broked hearts, again I feel so sorry for everyone who, like me is going through their losses, it truly is unbearable at times.

I am so sorry. I can't imagine the devastation of losing both of them so close together. She looks like such a nice girl. I wish I had better words of comfort for you.