I'm a happy person pretty much all the time, and always try to see the positive in everything no matter how bleak, sometimes I think this att*itude is just to fool myself of the reality, but I'm always trying none the less. I guess I am the eternal optimist if there ever was one!

On the other hand I see my view on this point as not a depressing way to live but as a logical and inevitable conclusion based on life experience.

May be I've just been unfortunate, may be it's just life, but I do know from experience that people aren't always available when I need then most, and logically they can't always be there and I can't always expect them to be there. May be just sometimes you are meant to deal with things yourself no matter how hard they are, no matter how much you need help, sometimes help just isn't there and you find yourself on your own.

Sometimes there are loads of different reasons as to why people aren't there for you, from, that they wouldn't have been there anyway because of the type of person they are or that they would if they could but at that particular time they can't because they are a million miles away.

So logic to me says don't expect any help when you really need it! This has been my reality of the situation. May be its just been down to cir%%stance or may be this is just my lessons that I have had to learn but it sure feels like you you are on your own most of the time, right down from when the smallest to the biggest things happen in your life.

So this is my explanation of the statement which may look bleak and depressing on the surface and extends to the reality of my current situation but also to the bigger picture of the world and events in general.

Sometimes I just feel like I am banging my head against a brick wall. Sometimes I get weary of fighting all the time for justice and whats right. It seems that any legislation that is there to protect you can be ignored, the rules can be literally changed as they go along because you are getting closer to the truth and they don't want you to uncover it. And this is from the very organisations whos job it is to protect you by law? I'm encountering the corruption of government organisations who lie and cheat to protect themselves and to have to take these on can make you feel like very small fish indeed. So even where it is written in law that legally they should be helping you, doesn't mean you will actually get it, and you are left fighting against their corruption too!

Everybody is different, everyones cir%%stances are different, and as much as I hope sometimes and think there will be help available should I really need it, sometimes it just isn't. And sometimes they just move the goal posts.

So can I now say life sucks????

Dawn,

I ended up doing just what you suggested yesterday, Dawn.....and ya know what? It worked out!! But I am sorry you're feeling as down as I'd been lately (and who knows how long my change of outlook will last, either?). I know well those moments and even days on end where I've felt like I truly was going to, or already had, lost any semblance of sanity. It's frightening, to be sure. You've got all my sympathy and empathy and I'm hoping the energy of my own good fortune in the last couple of days will reach you, too, and lighten your burden.

Debbie,

Yes, you certainly can!! Sorry, I wasn't trying to minimize your pain - just being a bit more philosophical for the moment, is all.

I've actually thought AND felt just like you do, more times than I care to count (hence the start of this very thread!), but am just attempting to try on a different pair of shoes lately....in severe hopes that it will help in the long run!

Yes, I'm well aware of how govt. works to serve itself, to the detriment and even harm of the individual. It's disgusting! (this must have to do with that ridiculous and nasty neighbour of yours, I'll bet) I've become very weary myself, so I know what you're talking about. Yes, the goal posts seem to move, and the rules seem to change based on what someone other than yourself wants....it's incredibly frustrating and draining, and it's because of just that kind of thing that I'm really, really hoping that this can be changed, based simply on how I (or anyone) think and feel, beforehand &/or during any tough periods. As with Dawn, the same sentiments from me apply - you, too, have all my sympathy and empathy, cuz I know too well how these 'spirals' of hard times can quickly escalate, sometimes right out of control, it seems! I'm hoping and praying for you both that there's an upswing in the 'wind'! With any luck, my own, though not exactly lengthy, will be 'contagious' and you'll 'catch' some of it really soon!! (maybe your recent sighting of your baby was to lend you some of that support you need especially much right now?)

Hang in there, both of you.....sending better vibes your way!!