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Abby's Mommy,
I'm sorry for all the pain you feel and for your husband's pain. I guess my husband and I should count our blessings that all four of our children live so close to us. Three of them live about a mile away and our oldest daughter lives 4 miles from us.

I know what you mean about not having your baby sleep in bed with you. Snookie slept with her head on the pillow with her body next to me.

I have taken care of my childrens furbabies for years. It started out I would keep them when they went to the store or the doctor. Then we kept them while the kids were at work and things like that. We have them most of the time now.

Oh thoses kisses our babies gave to us are so special and I know how you feel about that. The worst part with a schnauzer is if they just had a drink their beard soaks you but I loved it anyway. May God bless you and bring you comfort.
Love, Ann

Dear Abby's Mommy and your Hubby,

You're right about the dark place in your soul where the sunlight will never touch again. I am feeling the same way.

We have a wonderful dog, Heidi but the emptiness we feel in our house is so awful. Heidi is big (75 lbs.) and we have 2 big bird cages (with birds , on our dining room table) yet when we walk into our tv room and our 17 lb. Rusty is not there, the emptiness is so apparent. My husband said he feels like we are living in someone else's house and living another life. Everything changed when Rusty left. He was always there, ready to spend time with us. That was his favorite thing to do...........just sit as close as possible to his family. I have felt physically sick since he died. I feel like there's a constant lump in my throat, tightness in my chest and just a huge emptiness inside. It's awful. I am sorry you both are going through this, too.

I am so sorry about Abby. She sounded like a terrific dog with a great personality and a wonderful friend.

I honestly don't know what I would have done had I not happened upon this wonderful site. The people here are all so caring. Even though we all feel so awful, everyone is willing to reach out and do what they can to help others. It helps so much to know that others feel the same way about their pets and can understand exactly what we are going through.

Well, take care for now.

Lynn

XXOO

I'm sooo sorry everyone is having a rough go of it. I know for the first 2 months I literally walked around in a fog on autopilot. Even though it doesn't feel like it now, you will make it through this time, but, yes, life is forever changed. It's the firsts of everything without our furbabies that hurt me the most. The first time I left the house and came home to no Dieter, the first Christmas, etc.

I will always have a huge hole in my heart that nothing can fill, but I can't stop living. Dieter added so much to the lives of my husband and I and if I can only cry and be sad, what does that say to the world about the meaning of his short but incredible life? I want everyone to know how amazing he was, how much he made my life better, what a truly special dog he was, and by being sad I know I'm not doing that. Granted it has taken me some time to think like this, as today is 4 months since he crossed over the bridge. Keep writing your feelings down, sharing with all of us here, we truly care and want you to know that you are not alone in this road your traveling. (((((huge hugs)))))
Libby

Abby's Mom,
I am really sorry you and your husband are having such a hard time. I do understand. I know what it feels like, and I know your house must really feel even more lonesome (if possible) after the kids left. After I have had company, it always seems a little lonely when they go. Not to have your girl too to snuggle back in with -- well . . . devastating, I know. And those kiss, kisses, how I miss them so, and her Hannah hugs! You are very lucky to have something that smells like Abby! Gosh, I wish I had something that smelled like little Hannah.

You are right. Our lives won't ever be the same, but I believe we can all have good meaningful lives and somehow share the love we were all lucky to have had with all precious little "angels." You will, in time, find that the unbearable pain ebbs somewhat, comes back again for reasons you sometimes don't even know, and then, it gets a little better. It's a long, sad, incredibly painful journey, but one day you will find that you do feel better most of the time. It's a real roller coaster ride, for sure.

Libby, what you said is so true about their being so special and adding so much to our lives and the need to live in a way that reflects all that -- I find myself feeling GUILTY about that sometimes too (if there's anything to find to be guilty about, I can do it!) because I feel like I am not doing justice to her memory, if ya'll understand what I'm trying to say.

Abby's Mommy, so you had a Hannah too -- Hannah Rose -- that's so pretty.

Bless you and your husband. Please tell him he's in my thoughts and prayers also.
Love,
Marcia

Dear Abby's Mom,

I wish I had words of wisdom or advice, but right now I don't. All I can say is I can empathize with how you're feeling. The last couple of days have been so hard. Shiloh's been gone for 3 1/2 months and lately I've been crying like she just died yesterday. I miss her so very much. I wish I had one of her toys to sleep with, but she was so rough with her toys (she insisted on tearing the squeekers out) that all I have are little shreds of toys.

You're in my thoughts.
Kathleen