Well, I had just started a job when Moose passed, it was a temp job, I had only been there one month, they let me go because they could not give me time to grieve over my dog, that is okay cause I would not have been able to work for at least 6wks, I was a basket case. I thought I had this job in Yakima....well, it did'nt work out, they did'nt give a reason, just thanks for applying...kick kick kick...........I was sure I had the job, I think the credit check did me in, life has been a struggle trying to make it on my own (used to be me and Moose) Procrastanation has been my closest friend lately, just am so discouraged it has been a rough couple of months, my job, my dog, and possibly my home, now I have to catch up to the world that just kept going when mine stopped.
Ironically I may have to move out to Birch Bay again, the place I and Moose loved the most, I never wanted to go there again, I am thinking things are working out this way because the lord wants to teach me not to run from pain, that is why I am still in this rental, still driving past the place Moose was hit by the car, not getting that job 4 hours away, I feel like I need to learn to be stronger and not run when I am hurt. Does that make any sence? I always look for the lesson in the hard times. Well, guess I better start working on my resume. Pamela

Dear Pamela,
Do not be discouraged my friend God has a job and a place for you to live that will be better than you have ever hoped for. He sees your pain and your tears and Pamela He bottles all those tears. They are not cried in vain, He knows how much you loved Moose and how much you miss him.

You are right we can not run from our problems and even when people manage to run and escape some of them, new problems are made. Maybe you are waiting for a sign but Pamela sometimes no signs come and we beome discouraged and feel on the verge of giving up. Hold fast Pamela good things will come to you I believe that with all my heart.
Love, Ann

Hi Pamela,

I second what Ann said.

I think we do tend to have to face the same things over and over again until we resolve them. It's definitely one of life's frustrations for me! And having to function while in the depths of grief, that's the worst.

But eventually things do turn and afterward, in retrospect, we often see that it does make an odd kind of sense -- that we couldn't have gotten to the happy place where we suddenly find ourselves if we hadn't traveled the thorny roads behind us.

Hang in there, Pamela.

-- Daryl

Dear Pamela,

What a brave strong person you are! I have watched you come SO far since you lost your precious Moose. You have become such strong support for myself and others lately. Now, your wisdom and strength once again blow me away! I think you are SO blessed to look for the lessons learned when times get really rough. I don't even know that I am that wise. I tend to wallow in that self-pity for a while first, which only makes it worse for me.

I have absolutely NO doubt that your life will turn around for you. I am THAT confident in your strength and determination. I have mentioned before that I believe that God doesn't give us more than we can handle. Without the sorrow, we would never appreciate the joy. You have fallen down for a while, but you have been picking yourself back up, week by week. If this job fell through, there MUST be a better job just waiting around the corner for you. You only have to work towards it, because it will not come to you.

As you stated, you must also allow yourself time to grieve the loss of Moose and heal. Yes, the world will still go on, and you need to get out there and live it too. That doesn't mean you can't still spend your moments of reflection on all the joy and happiness you shared with Moose. I hope you are reflecting on more of the joy now, and not as much on his passing. I think I have reached that point in my greving now. I still miss my Rachael terribly, and even more now at the holidays, but I try to remember the joy she brought to me, and ALL the lessons in life that she taught to me, even in her death.

God Bless you Pamela!
Cheri

It makes purfect sense to me.

I am a stronger more compasionate person even if i do say so myself

I feel that Jude and Sadie helped me beyond measure while alive and here by my side, now from the other side they are helping even more, they have made me Spiritual, stoped me smoking. they are now working on the drinking <_<

Because we find it so hard to trust that they are still alive just not visible we dont appreciate what they are doing for us still, just in a more magical way.

Love Sue