I lost my dear bunny Harry suddenly yesterday, Saturday, February 13, 2016. He was the most loving, adorable little rabbit. My heart is broken. It's all my fault that he's gone.

I adopted him on June 27, 2008 from a rabbit rescue organization. They thought he was 2 or 3 years old at that time. Harry and I had never been apart a single day since then. From the beginning, he was an extremely anxious bunny. According to his rescuers, he "was rescued from Prince George's County Animal Management in Maryland. He had been confiscated from the home of an arrested drug dealer who intended to eventually feed him to a snake. When [he] came into Friends of Rabbits he was terrified. After months of living in safety and love, he grew to enjoy being around people. On June 27, 2008 he was adopted."

From the day I brought him home to his last day with me, he lived at home, cage-free, running around the whole place. As he was anxious and hard to handle, I was unable to catch him and hold him for the first few years. Even petting him was a challenge for the first year. Ironically, the first few weeks at home, he developed a habit of hopping onto my bed and sitting next to my pillow, next to my head. He would just look at me. I would wake up to see his cute face staring into my face. When I tried to pet him, he would dash away quickly. In the last couple of years, he finally calmed down enough to really snuggle with me. At night, while I would be reading a book in bed, he would hop onto my bed, right next to my pillow, and back up his fluffy bottom to nuzzle my face and neck. He would sit like that for hours while I read. If I moved a little, he would adjust his position to maintain full contact with my face. Oftentimes, he would turn around and look into my face, making sure we made eye contact, before turning back around and pressing his furry bottom to my face again.

He was the sweetest bunny, eventually trusting me enough to let us be close in the end. Now he's gone. I miss him so much. I can't stop crying.

His health started to decline last summer. I immediately took him to a new vet. His previous vet had made him scream his heart out. His last visit with that vet was disastrous. Even after I warned the vet about how anxious Harry was, he picked him up under his armpits, letting his legs dangle in the air. Harry started screaming bloody murder for at least 15 seconds before he handed Harry off to the technician, who also held him under his arms with his legs dangling in the air. He continued screaming for several seconds more until the technician finally put him on the floor. Harry ran to the corner of the room, scrabbling at the wall, eyes bugged out, his whole body shaking. I ran to pick him up, and as I held him close, he defecated liquid stuff all over me.

I never took him back there again. I should have known then that those vets were incompetent and dangerous. They had killed my baby bunnies Hermione and Albus.

At the new vet clinic last summer, Harry was diagnosed with pneumonia in his right lung, bladder sludge, overgrown teeth, and GI stasis. He liked his new vets and the technicians. He never screamed there. His problems were treated successfully, except for the persistent sludge in his bladder. He went in for a check-up last Friday and the vet found overgrown teeth again, so he had a dental procedure and x-rays that day. His x-rays showed persistent sludge. The vets considered flushing out his bladder that day, but they had already woken him up from anesthesia. They recommended supportive care: fluids, medications. He did well that weekend and the beginning part of last week.

Around Wednesday of last week, he started to behave strangely--bumping my leg with his nose insistently, knocking photos of his deceased mate Hermione onto the floor, chewing cardboard and blankets. I just pet him and didn't investigate further. I should have known something was wrong. By Thursday afternoon, after coming home from work, I noticed he hadn't eaten much, but he had urinated and defecated. By Friday morning, I noticed that he had not urinated or defecated enough and he had not eaten much again. He was acting strangely. He would look up, as if he was looking at something or someone, but there was nothing to look at. He would look up at the glass shower door, but no one was inside. I didn't know if he was looking at his reflection. He had never done these things before. I immediately made a vet appointment for early afternoon.

X-rays showed an enlarged cecum, full of gas, and a sludgy but normal-sized bladder. His urinalysis and blood work were normal, but his temperature was low. They recommended hospitalization, but they allowed me to sit with Harry and massage his belly for several hours. His temperature improved, but he still did not pass any stool or urine. I asked if I could take him home to continue massage and medications overnight, thinking that his anxiety might have been the reason he refused to go to the bathroom. The vet allowed me to do this, advising immediate return to the hospital if he doesn't improve. I massaged his belly hourly throughout the night and gave him his fluids and medications as scheduled. By morning, he had urinated clear urine twice in his litterbox and produced over 20 little poops. I thought he was getting better. I was wrong.

I called to update the vet at 8 a.m. and emailed a photo of his litterbox. The receptionist who answered the phone said Harry has a 9 a.m. appointment scheduled if he is not doing well. I said I thought he was doing better and cancelled that appointment. By the time I got the vet's email at 12:30 p.m., Harry had stopped urinating and defecating again. He was eating a bit though. I called immediately and they told me to bring him in at 5:00 p.m. When I arrived there, they took my poor Harry to the back for x-rays. His bladder was huge! They tried putting in an IV, but it was difficult and required two rounds of sedatives. They tried catheterizing his bladder, but they were unable to pass it in. They recommended cystocentesis right away but allowed me to visit him before that procedure.

My poor, poor Harry! He looked so stressed, breathing rapidly, laying on his side, eyes glazed over. I told him I love him so much. I told him not to die on me. I told him I'm sorry, that this was my fault for not acting sooner. I told him to be strong. I told him I'm not abandoning him. I'm not sure if he heard anything I said. I'm not sure he even knew I was there. I pet him for the last time, stroking his head and side.

They took him for the procedure. Minutes later the vet came to get me from the waiting room. The look on her face said it all. His heart stopped. He was gone. I asked to see him. They were doing CPR on him. He was floppy. His eyes were blank. He was gone. They let me hold him right away. I kissed him over and over. I held him tightly, but he was already gone.

The vet said they took out 80 cc of urine, and then his heart stopped. Oh, Harry!!! It's my fault for letting this happen. He was in so much pain. He was so stressed. I should have taken him in sooner. I should have left him there overnight. This shouldn't have happened. He shouldn't be gone.

I feel awful. I let Harry down. He tried telling me something was wrong, but I didn't listen until it was too late. I miss him so much! I don't know if he's angry with me. I don't know if he knows how much I love him and miss him, how sorry I am for letting this happen to him.

Even though the vet told me that he didn't suffer, I know he did. I let him suffer. And even though the technician said that at least I had one more night at home with Harry that night, I feel he probably would still be alive had I left him there.

I didn't get to hold him or kiss him one more time before he died. My last contact with him while he was still alive was just a stroke of his face and side. He probably thought I was abandoning him and just gave up.

I am heartbroken. I hope my Harry knows I love him. I will always love him.

Thank you for allowing me to share Harry's story.

Harry's Mommy
(Hermy and Albus's Mommy)

I will respond in just a few minutes. Have many things to say.

In the meantime let me just tell you 2 things :
Harry absolutely loves you and he knows how very much you love him.
There couldn't be a Mommy any better than you. That is the reality, but in your deep grief you are not seeing that it's true.

Back in a bit -

Hi, Lisa, please permit me to add my sincerest sympathies in the physical loss of your beloved Harry. Losing a companion is never easy regardless of the circumstances or how long we are blessed with the privilege of their company. It doesn't matter if our grief experience is our first or our thousandth - - each grief journey is uniquely painful.

Lisa, unfortunately guilt / remorse is a part of the package of this grief adjustment journey. There is no way to escape it, but we can deflect it by remembering when we feel overwhelmed by the demons of doubt and guilt that we did everything in our power to give our beloved companions a happy, healthy earthly journey - - and you certainly did that with your beloved Harry. When we are entrenched in deep grief we are emotionally vulnerable to all the whys, what ifs, and if onlys that consume our hearts and minds. From what you share with us there is no guarantee that if you had left Harry at the vet hospital that he would have survived. I totally agree with your vet tech that you and Harry are blessed to have had one more night together, and I also agree with your veterinary practitioner that your beloved Harry did not suffer for he already had been given sedatives in preparation for an IV. Your beloved Harry does not want your heart and mind consumed with the final events of his transitioning from his earthly journey. He DOES want you to remember all the wonderful memories you share - - with the absolute reassurance that his love for you - - and your love for him - - is eternal - - nothing can ever change that.

Thank you so much for honoring us in sharing your beloved Harry with us. He is adorable and you are sooooo blessed to be his sole, and soul, heir to his eternal love. I know there are no adequate words in any language that can soothe the searing pain of sorrow that is in your heart, but please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Lisa, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Dear Harry, Hermy, and Albus's wonderful Mommy Lisa,

I am heartbroken for you, to hear of the physical loss of your precious Harry.

Please believe me when I tell you that NOTHING was your fault. I believe that Harry might have passed in the night at the hospital had you not taken him home with you. You sensed that he needed you, and if it was medically possible to do what needed to be done (massage and medications) at home, you were going to make that happen, and you did!

When you petted him and told him you weren't abandoning him, he KNEW that. And he heard you telling him how much you love him (he already knew that too). His physical self at that point was deteriorating, but he was (and will always be) the same Harry that you've always known. He absolutely is NOT angry with you. He knows he had a quality of life in the top .000001 % of any bunny who's ever lived. He wants you not feel an ounce of guilt. (Unfortunately, guilt seems to come automatically with grief, but please keep reminding yourself of all the unbelievable good you did for these 3 lucky bunnies. You are amazing.)

The story of how you came to adopt those precious 3 bunnies is truly heartwarming. The fact that they survived---and thrived---is completely thanks to your care and immense love. Not many people could or would have done what you did throughout their lives! (I hope one day, soon, you will be able to believe what an outstanding Mom you are. )

How Harry evolved from an anxious little guy into a cuddler is just remarkable!!! You worked miracles with your love.

If I remember right, didn't Harry kiss the pictures of Hermione? All three are together---while at the same time with you. In the blissful realm they're in, there are no time / space limits! I am wondering whether he was seeing her when he knocked her photos off last week (probably trying to kiss them again)! They might have been in touch, possibly with Hermy sensing it was his time to pass on from his physical self.

Do you have supportive friends / family? And I can't remember whether you have other pets? If not, would you be open to Harry, Hermy, and Albus guiding you to another animal who needs you (someone very lucky indeed to end up with you)?

Please keep in touch here! I want to know how you are doing. Sending you heartfelt prayers, hugs, comfort and understanding,

Kathy
P.S. Harry is SO handsome!!

I also lost a friend yesterday, and I have lost rabbits in the past too. I still have one rabbit with me now.

Rabbits are fragile creatures. I'm sorry to hear about Harry. He was obviously very loved and he knew.
I'm not too good with words, but know he is not suffering anymore and we will support you. He is always with you, even if you can't see him.\
He was very pretty.

Thank you so much, Kathy! Your kind words are much needed at this sad time. I hope Harry knows I love him dearly.

Harry is my "love-at-first-sight" bunny! I had planned on adopting two baby bunnies, Hermione and Albus. When I went to the foster mother's house to pick them up, the first bunny I saw when she opened the door was this beautiful, fluffy, scared, bug-eyed rabbit huddled in the back of his cage. I fell in love with him instantly. After completing all the paperwork for the baby buns, I asked the foster mother about Harry (previously named Nacho). She said he was adoptable but very anxious and skittish. He smushed himself against the back of his cage when she struggled to pick him up to show me. Of course, you can't stop true love. I told her, "I'll take him!"

Fast forward 7 years and 7 months later and I'm grieving the loss of my very special love bun, who learned to trust me and, I hope, love me. My love for him only became stronger with the passage of time. I will forever miss his nose kisses and his furry bottom smushed against my face. I will be forever grateful to him for letting me be his bunny mommy.

Thanks again, Kathy!

Lisa (Harry, Hermy, and Albus's Mommy)

Dear moon_beam,

Thank you very much for all your words of comfort and wisdom. I have found your support and understanding, as well as Kathy's, in this forum absolutely life-changing (and life-saving!) over the years. I cannot thank you, Kathy, Trevor's mom, Gretta's mom, sapphireluna, and everyone in this forum enough for the help you have given me as I have lost my precious bunnies.

Thank you especially for your reassurances. You are absolutely right about doubt and guilt. I'm currently in a sort of "fog" of self-doubt, questioning everything I could have or should have done for Harry. I am so grateful to Harry's new vets and vet techs. By the end, he had seen all 3 vets and all the techs. Through all of his medical issues and crises, from last summer to last night, these veterinary professionals have shown Harry (and me) not only superior veterinary knowledge and skill but also great compassion and empathy. What a refreshing change from poor Hermy and Albus's experiences at the end of their journeys.

I agree with you--I do need to focus on the wonderful memories with Harry. I am trying, but it is so painful to relive those last moments with him: the last time I talked to him and pet him while he was alive and the last minutes of CPR. Unlike in Albus's case, I feel some sense of closure or peace, seeing those caring professionals do everything possible to save my Harry's life.

Thank you again, moon_beam. May you have a restful evening.

Hugs,
Harry, Hermy, and Albus's Mommy

Dear sapphireluna,

Thank you for your comforting words. I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful Haruka. I will post on your thread as well.

You are right about rabbits being fragile creatures. They hide their pain, and for me at least, it is always too late for me to realize how sick they are.

Thanks for being so supportive. It is wonderful to have a such a warm and caring place to share our grief with others who understand and have experienced what we are going through. There is no pain like this pain, right?

I wish you a peaceful and restful night, sapphireluna.

Hugs,
Harry, Hermy, and Albus's Mommy

Dear Kathy,

Thank you SO much for your kindness and support. Without you and moon_beam and this forum, I would be grieving alone. So a big thank you!

It is unbelievably comforting to read your words "I believe that Harry might have passed in the night at the hospital had you not taken him home with you. You sensed that he needed you, and if it was medically possible to do what needed to be done (massage and medications) at home, you were going to make that happen." I felt that he might have given up or let go overnight at the hospital. With his history of extreme anxiety and with our history of never being apart (aside from going to work), I was fearful that he would see it as abandonment and give up fighting.

You are right about his physical body deteriorating. However, that is my fault and a direct result of my inaction and delayed action. I can never forgive myself for not taking him into his 9 a.m. appointment that morning. I let my fear cloud my judgment. Those 8 hours might have made a difference. I will never know, but I do know that I will continue to beat myself up over it.

You have a great memory, Kathy! Harry is indeed the one who would kiss the photos of Hermy and then appear to wipe his nose on some Kleenex (he was probably chewing it). I'll try to post a photo. I have always known that he misses his mate Hermy tremendously. They were very much in love. For some reason this week (maybe telepathically), I felt that he was trying to tell me how much he wanted to be with Hermy again. We even talked about it. I said, "Harry, I know how much you miss Hermy, but I really wish you would stay here with me." He lowered his head and looked sad. I said, "Please, Harry, please. I love you so much. I would miss you so much if you left me." I believe he might have been communicating with Hermy somehow. The last two days he was alive, I noticed his strange behavior of looking upward at nothing in particular. He looked like he was looking at someone or listening to someone. His head was tilted up and his gaze was very intense as he stared at a point in space in front of and slightly above him. Perhaps he had been doing this before I noticed, communicating with Hermy or Albus.

I know I should be happy that Harry, Hermy, and Albus are together once again and for forever this time, but I miss them so much. They have left me behind. I wish I could be with them too. I love them and will always love them. I hope they won't forget me, especially when the time comes for me to join them again.

I still have Ron with me. He's a very good bunny, but for whatever reason, I am not as strongly bonded to him emotionally as I am to the others who have passed. Maybe it is because I adopted him later or because he never got along with the others. I'm not sure why, but I do love him, just differently.

Thanks again, Kathy, for everything! I have been unable to sleep and eat since Harry passed, but I will try to rest a bit now. I'll write again tomorrow.

Good night! Warm hugs!

Harry, Hermy, and Albus's Mommy

Hi, Lisa, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. Like our forum friend Kathy, I also believe that your beloved Harry and Hermy were communicating with one another as I have witnessed similar behaviors with my companions prior to their transitioning from their earthly journey. Your beloved Harry's physical body could no longer endure the many medical challenges he had and the only way he could be restored to his former youthfulness was to have his sweet Living Spirit released from his physical form. This grief journey is both an emotional and physical adjustment to the physical absence of our beloved companions which is one of the many reasons why it is a very painful journey.

Each relationship we have with each of our companions is uniquely different because each of our companions is individually unique. Perhaps as you and Ron comfort one another now you and Ron will discover a new dimension to your relationship that will bring you closer together in a special way just for you and Ron.

I hope today is treating you and Ron kindly, Lisa, and that you both will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Harry's, Hermy's, and Albus' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Lisa, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Dear Lisa,

Your story of how Harry came to be adopted is really touching. Little did Harry know at that moment how his life was about to change!!

(By the way, I have a similar "love-at-first-sight" story with my cats. I had planned on adopting 2, then, there was Sunny [previously named Nomar]. And, he has severe separation anxiety; he and I, like you and Harry, have rarely been apart).

There is no pain quite like the pain you are going through right now. Wondering how the night was for you and how today has been so far. Have you been able to sleep or eat?

Harry's worsening physical condition was not your fault ! I truly think he knew somehow that it was his time to pass; I'm thinking he felt he needed to be directly with his soulmate, Hermy. (I love the Kleenex story!!! And the picture of him looking at Hermy's picture is heartwarming.) I do think they were in communication.

Your precious trio will not forget you. To them, it will seem like a split second has gone by between now and the time that you join them in that blissful realm. They don't have to deal with the time/space limitations that we have to.

That's right -- You have Ron! I remember now. Maybe you will find that you and he need each other now and will really bond emotionally. Somehow I'm thinking that Harry, Hermy, and Albus know that you will be okay and I think it has something to do with Ron. Speaking of Ron, could you post a picture of him sometime? I'd also like to see more pictures of Harry, Hermy, and Albus, if you are up to it.

Am eager to hear from you and know how you are doing. My biggest wish for you---and it's Harry's, Hermy's, and Albus's wish for you too, I have no doubt---is that you are able to quickly let go of any guilt. You don't deserve to be consumed with any guilt. Maybe make a list of all the good experiences and good things you did for them? Numbers 1 and 2 on that list should be that you adopted them and that you gave them real love. And in Harry's case, with his skittish personality, he would have been unlikely to get adopted! But then you came along and showed him patient, unconditional love. I believe God gave you Harry, Hermy, Albus, and Ron because there was no one more perfectly suited to be their Mom.

Check in soon! Comforting hugs,

Kathy

Dear moon_beam and Kathy,

Thank you so much for your posts. They are so comforting and truly life-sustaining. I believe you both have told me in the past that this is an emotional roller coaster. You are so right! I am on this roller coaster again.

Because of the snow/ice/sleet/freezing rain today, my office was closed and I've stayed at home all day. Even though I worked from home for a few hours this morning, I had moments when I just broke down and cried uncontrollably. Sprinkle in a generous amount of guilt and self-doubt and away I went with the blubbering and sobbing.

moon_beam, thank you so much for sharing your comment about witnessing similar behaviors in your cats. I shared my observations with my parents, and they thought I was crazy. Knowing that Harry's spirit has rejoined Hermy's and Albus's spirits gives me some comfort. My heart is split: I am happy for Harry because I know how much he was missing Hermy and how much they love each other, but I feel such pain and sadness at the loss of his physical being too. I feel guilty as well for being so selfish.

I know Valentine's Day is sort of a made-up holiday, but I was thinking last night that Harry and Hermy are finally together again on Valentine's Day and all three of them will be together every single day forever and ever. He is my love bun and cuddle bun, but he is really and truly Hermy's only love. And she is his too.

Kathy, thank you too for your reassurances. I agree with you and moon_beam about Harry being in contact with Hermy somehow. I think I sensed it too last week but stayed in denial.

I haven't been able to eat yet. Harry and I used to eat dinner together every night. He would munch on his salad while I read the newspaper and ate my dinner. When he finished dinner, he would stretch out next to me and just relax the rest of the evening before our nightly cuddle. I miss him so much!

As for Ron, I feel guilty about not showing him the same affection as I did the others. I agree with you that I can start a new relationship with Ron. Under these different circumstances, Ron and I can learn more about each other and hopefully become closer.

I appreciate your support and encouragement. I really do. Your gentle reminders about letting go of guilt and embracing good memories and experiences are very helpful. I'm so busy beating myself up that I forget everything and everyone around me. It feels like I'm literally drowning in guilt and regret.

I will try to stay positive and honor their memories by remembering how wonderful and lovable they are and how much I love them.

Wishing you a peaceful night.

Hugs,
Harry, Hermy, and Albus's Mommy

Hi, Lisa, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. As I was reading your post I could not help but smile - - as a thought came to my mind about your beloved Harry, Hermy, and Albus - - looking at their picture - - the "three musketeers" - - "all for one and one for all". How much joy they brought to you during their earthly journeys - - and the infinite wonderful memories you share together now.

I hope today is treating you and Ron kindly, Lisa, and that you both will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Harry's, Hermy's, and Albus' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Lisa, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Dear moon_beam,

Thank you so much for your post today. I went to work this morning, going through the motions, but my heart and mind were with Harry. I miss him so much. Harry, Hermy, and Albus really are my three musketeers! They did everything together--eating, sleeping, playing, grooming, relaxing, putting up with their mommy's picture taking. They always made me smile. They made my heart so very happy!

I hope they are happy to be together again. Harry grieved deeply when Hermy and Albus passed away. I can only imagine how Hermy and Albus welcomed him "home" and kissed him and cuddled him. Even so, I miss them all tremendously, and I selfishly wish they could be here with me again.

Thank you again for thinking of me. I am trying to be strong, but my heart hurts so much. Still crying...

Wishing you a peaceful evening.

Hugs,
Harry, Hermy, and Albus's Mommy

Lisa,

I LOVE the picture of the 3 of them!! (the 3 musketeers)

Hoping the guilt might be lessening...

Hoping you and Ron might be snuggled up tonight. Thinking of you both. Please stay in touch. Will write more soon.

Warm hugs to you tonight,

Kathy

Lisa, I'm so very sorry for your loss. Your story of how you came to eventually forge a trust and bond with Harry is so heartwarming and the story of his eventual passing made me cry. I do know firsthand about the guilt and regret that permeates so much of the days and weeks following the passing of our furry loved ones. What could I have done differently? I should have been a better parent. I should have, would have, could have... the list goes on. The blame I heap on myself for what I should have done differently (so many things) is overwhelming. Both Kathy and moon_beam have helped me immensely over the past couple of days. Their compassion and thoughtfulness is life sustaining.

Please don't blame yourself for anything that you may think you did or didn't do. The wonderful life and love you gave Harry is so evident in your words. The worst thing we can do is second guess our decisions after the fact. When we are immersed in the moment, the decisions we make are the best we can manage considering the horrible circumstances we're faced with. If you hadn't take Harry to the vet and he had passed away at home you would probably blame yourself for not taking him in. There seems to be no perfect choice in situations like this when the outcome is so hurftul. Harry clearly loved you so much and that never faltered. Our little fur babies love us unconditionally.

Like you though the self-doubt haunts me. What if I had taken my dear Fiona to the vet sooner? I delayed because of the stress it always caused her. What if I had just waited another couple of days before making the decision to end my little fur baby's pain? Would she have gotten better? These questions haunt me. They may haunt me for years to come. I can't imagine my life without her by my side. So you are not alone in the guilt. Like Kathy and moon_beam told me, it is something we all share after losing our best friend. It's a natural part of grieving. I wish it wasn't so, but it helps to know we aren't alone and that there are such wonderful people as Kathy and moon_beam to help guide us through the grief.

Thank you for sharing your story and letting me know Harry. Such a handsome little boy.

John

Hi, Lisa, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. I truly can so relate to how you're feeling as you share with us "I went to work this morning, going through the motions, but my heart and mind were with Harry. I miss him so much. I am trying to be strong, but my heart hurts so much. Still crying..." I remember so well the gut-wrenching sobbing during the drive into work and for being thankful for the privacy of the restroom where I could retreat to regain my composure so that I could go back to my desk to resume my work. And then once in the car for the drive home the dam of tears bursting once again into gut-wrenching sobbing. During the deep grief it feels like the searing pain of sorrow will never ease -- but eventually it does - - one day at a time, one moment at a time. We are here for you, with you, and beside you, Lisa, during the not so bad days, the not so good days, and the days when it feels like your heart can no longer bear the burden of your deepest sorrow for as long and as often as you need us.

I hope today is treating you and Ron kindly, Lisa, and that you both will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Harry's, Hermy's, and Albus' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Lisa, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Hi John,

Thank you so much for your post on this thread, and thank you for reading Harry's story. Your words of encouragement and understanding are much appreciated and much needed at this time. I wish none of us would have to experience this kind of pain, but that would probably mean we never would have the opportunity to experience this kind of love either. Our furbabies' love is truly unconditional.

I hope you have a good night and will try to get some rest. I'll write more later.

Hugs,
Harry, Hermy, and Albus's Mommy

Dear moon_beam,

Thank you so much for your note today. I am trying to hold it together at work and then letting loose at home. It truly is a "dam of tears."

I think I must have said, "I miss Harry!" over 10 times at work today. Bless my co-worker. She gets to work with a broken record for the next several weeks, at least. But I DO miss Harry. I love him so much!

I am taking it one day at a time. I don't think there is any other way around it, unfortunately. I watched a short video of my bunnies tonight. It helped a little bit, but I yearn to touch them, stroke their soft fur, nuzzle their noses, and give them big hugs.

I'll write more tomorrow, moon_beam. Thank you again for everything you and Kathy do for us here.

I wish you a restful night.

Warm Hugs,
Harry, Hermy, and Albus's Mommy

Hi, Lisa, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. I can so relate to how you're feeling when you share with us "I watched a short video of my bunnies tonight. It helped a little bit, but I yearn to touch them, stroke their soft fur, nuzzle their noses, and give them big hugs." The physical adjustment to our beloved companion(s) physical absence is excruciatingly painful. I found holding one of my beloved companion's toys, blankets, collar -- something that belonged only to them - - helped to bridge the physical void of not being able to hold them. No it isn't the same as holding them - - but sometimes it does help.

I hope today is treating you and Ron kindly, Lisa, and that you both will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Harry's, Hermy's, and Albus' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Lisa, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Hi Lisa,

Thinking of you and hoping you are getting through today okay. Are you working? How did you sleep last night? Does Ron sleep with you?

I like that you watched the video of your sweethearts! And I so agree with what moon_beam said: "The physical adjustment to our beloved companion(s) physical absence is excruciatingly painful. I found holding one of my beloved companion's toys, blankets, collar -- something that belonged only to them - - helped to bridge the physical void of not being able to hold them. No it isn't the same as holding them - - but sometimes it does help."

I like the sounds of having their pictures around the house.

Please write again soon, when you are up for it. Sending you warm hugs and prayers!

Kathy

Hi again Lisa,

Another thing is that I have found writing letters to my precious "kidz" whose physical selves have passed on to be really comforting and healing. I have also written letters "from" them to me and it has felt healing to "read" what they want me to know, how much they love me.

Write again when you are up for it. Hoping to hear more Harry stories and wanting to be there for support.

Kathy

Dear moon_beam,

Thank you for your suggestion to hold one of Harry's belongings. You're right--"the physical void of not being able to hold them" and smell them and see them is very painful. I even miss hearing Harry's sneezes. He had intermittent nasal discharge from his right nostril for many years, despite trying different antibiotics. He would sneeze this funny series of short, quick sneezes, and sometimes there would be a small blob of white discharge on his nose or on his paw or on the floor. I miss cleaning up after him. Isn't that crazy?

Work is keeping me busy, which may or may not be a bad thing. I'm working this weekend as well, but I would prefer to spend all my time mourning Harry. I'm trying to hold it together until next weekend when I plan to let myself fully start grieving for my Harry.

It's been exactly a week since Harry passed away, and I think I've been in shock and/or denial this entire time. I'm afraid to admit to myself that Harry is really gone. My rational self says, "Of course Harry is gone," but my emotional self says, "Maybe he's not really gone. This is just a nightmare. I'll wake up soon and Harry will be sitting by my pillow." If only that were true...

Thank you again, moon_beam, for everything! I'll keep you posted.

Wishing you a good evening,
Harry, Hermy, and Albus's Mommy

Dear Kathy,

Thank you so much for your posts and for thinking of me. I feel like I'm in a fog. Tonight marks exactly one week since Harry joined Hermy and Albus. I'm still in shock, but I'm very, very sad. For some reason, I haven't been able to cry much this week. Work is keeping me distracted, but I feel numb this weekend. And of course now I feel even more guilty for not crying and not feeling more feelings this week. What is wrong with me?

Sleep has been fitful for me. I keep reliving in my mind Harry's final moments. I keep thinking about how I never got to say goodbye to him, how he probably thought I abandoned him, how I wasn't with him when he passed. I was there for the last round of CPR, but he was already gone. I can only hope that Harry's spirit was still somewhere in the room and saw me holding his body.

These thoughts are torturing me, especially at night when I try to close my eyes. His spot next to my pillow remains empty. I stare blankly at this spot every night. I try to imagine his warmth, his fluffiness, his eagerness to snuggle with me. I miss him so much.

I've started writing a letter to Harry. I'm on day number 7. Your suggestion to write a letter from Harry to me is wonderful. I will definitely work on it. I will also try to post more photos of my babies in the coming days.

Thank you, Kathy, for your encouragement and support. I'm so grateful.

Wishing you a good night,
Harry, Hermy, and Albus's Mommy

Hi, Lisa, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. Please let me try to reassure you that what you are feeling is very normal deep grief when you share with us "It's been exactly a week since Harry passed away, and I think I've been in shock and/or denial this entire time. I'm afraid to admit to myself that Harry is really gone. My rational self says, "Of course Harry is gone," but my emotional self says, "Maybe he's not really gone. This is just a nightmare. I'll wake up soon and Harry will be sitting by my pillow." If only that were true... For some reason, I haven't been able to cry much this week. Work is keeping me distracted, but I feel numb this weekend. And of course now I feel even more guilty for not crying and not feeling more feelings this week. What is wrong with me?"

Please let me try to reassure you that there is NOTHING wrong with you. You have experienced multiple losses in a relatively short period of time with your beloved Hermy, Albus, and now Harry. When we are in deep grief our bodies literally go into a "survival mode" - - an automatic defense mechanism that protects us from being overwhelmed by our deepest grief. As we are able to process our grief this defense mechanism decreases so that we can endure the many different emotions that are a part of this grief adjustment journey.

I truly wish there were an easier way to navigate this grief adjustment journey but unfortunately I don't know of any other way except one day at a time one moment at a time. One of the many important things you need to remember is that we are here for you, with you, and beside you through every step of your journey.

I hope today is treating you and Ron kindly, Lisa, and that you both will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Harry's, Hermy's, and Albus' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Lisa, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Dear moon_beam and Kathy,

Thank you for your encouragement and continuing support.

Today has been particularly difficult for me. I tried to stay busy with work most of the day, but now it is early evening and my thoughts have turned to Harry, especially his last few days.

I keep thinking over and over again about what happened, what I did wrong, what I should have and could have done. I keep replaying the vet's words from Friday, February 5, when we went for his routine follow-up. She recommended the molar trim procedure and x-rays to follow-up with his bladder sludge issue. She arranged to have the other vet perform the dental procedure the same day. He had the same procedure several times before without complications. I left the clinic to run some errands and returned a couple of hours later. Now I blame myself for not having stayed there during his procedure.

He recovered well, and I saw him eating lettuce and hay in the back treatment room of the clinic when the vet took me there to view his x-rays. She said his bladder sludge looked the same (still sludgy, but no obvious stones). She said they would have flushed his bladder with a catheter while he was under anesthesia but they only looked at his x-rays after he woke up. Now I wonder if they would have done it had I stayed in the clinic or if I had reminded them to look at his x-rays before his dental procedure.

He came home with me that day and continued to do well over that weekend. He ate well. He urinated and defecated normally. He seemed happy. He was running around and following me around the house. I was instructed to give him some medicine for his bladder, and he didn't seem to mind it. He was such a good bunny.

Then, by Tuesday or Wednesday, I think (I can't remember for sure), I must have noticed something was not quite right. My medication record for Harry shows I gave him a dose of his special bladder medication (one he took daily in December but was told to stop in January). I must have noticed decreased urination that day. Why didn't I take him to the vet that night or the following day?

By Thursday night, I clearly noticed his decreased appetite and decreased elimination (urine and poop) because I thought to myself that I would make an appointment for him for Friday afternoon. Why didn't I take him to the vet that night? What was I thinking? Obviously, and especially in hindsight, I wasn't thinking at all.

I'm sorry I sound like a broken record. I feel like a broken record, going over this in my mind on repeat. I keep thinking of all the chances Harry gave me to save him from the end but I failed to take action. I failed at each point. Then it was too late. By Friday afternoon, it was definitely too late. I selfishly asked to take him home that night to treat him myself. I thought he would like his own litterbox, his own bowl, his own blanket. I'm blaming myself again for that. I didn't take him the next morning right away, instead waiting until 5 p.m. I thought he was getting better. I'm kicking myself for that too. Then two hours later, he was gone.

Why didn't I ask to hold him one more time before he underwent the cystocentesis? Why didn't I ask to be there for the procedure? Why wasn't I by his side when he passed? I was sitting in the waiting room. My poor Harry was alone with the vets and technicians, probably wondering why his mommy abandoned him.

These thoughts won't go away. I've tried reading the newspaper and a book to distract myself, but my mind strays back to those moments again.

I am also thinking about how happy he acted before those last days, how excited he became when he heard the chip or cereal bag crinkling. I gave him a few small pieces of tortilla chip and corn flakes as a treat. I only gave a few to him after he recovers from a stressful procedure or exam. I probably harmed him and endangered his health even more. I couldn't resist his happy leaps onto my lap, his mad dash across the room, his soft paws on my knee as he waited impatiently for me to open the bag.

I miss him so much! I miss everything about him, everything he did, every look he gave me.

Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. You're right about taking this grief journey one day at a time. We have no other choice. I will try to be stronger tomorrow. I hope Hermy, Albus, and Harry know how much I love them and miss them. I'll try to be strong for them and for Ron.

I hope you all have a peaceful evening.

Hugs,
Harry, Hermy, and Albus's Mommy

Hi, Lisa, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. Please let me try to reassure you that this grief adjustment journey is not at all about being "strong" - - it is about allowing ourselves the opportunities we need to grieve for our beloved companion(s). You and your beloved Harry experienced a traumatic event which is now replaying in your mind like a broken record - - a classic symptom of PTSD. Lisa, everything you share with us shows us how much you did everything in your power to give your beloved Harry a happy, healthy earthly journey. As with human medicine, the same is true for veterinary medicine - - just because a procedure can be done does not mean it is in the best interest of every patient to be done. Being there when your beloved Harry was having his dental procedure done does not mean you would have been able to make sure that the bladder cleansing procedure woudl have been done at the same time. That responsibility lies solely with the veterinary staff. Because of his ongoing history with bladder sludge there was no reason to think that he would not respond to the medication as he had in the past. You did NOT fail your beloved Harry, Lisa - - you did not abandon him. I hope in time as your deep grief eases you will be able to find a peace in your heart and know this is true.

I hope today is treating you and Ron kindly, Lisa, and that you both will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Harry's, Hermy's, and Albus' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Lisa, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Dear moon_beam,

Thank you! Your reassurances and words of wisdom are very comforting and bring me back to reality. I can't thank you enough. It had not occurred to me that I am experiencing symptoms of PTSD, but it makes sense. Losing Harry, my third furbaby loss in 4 years, has triggered flashbacks to when I lost Hermy and Albus and the recent events leading up to the loss of my precious Harry.

It is so true when you said, "As with human medicine, the same is true for veterinary medicine - - just because a procedure can be done does not mean it is in the best interest of every patient to be done." I will never know if flushing his bladder that day would have helped or hurt him in the long run. I will never know if he would still be alive had I made different decisions, different choices, taken him to the vet sooner. Would there have been a different outcome? My mind is tortured by these thoughts. These regrets haunt me every night.

Thank you for saying, "You did NOT fail your beloved Harry, Lisa - - you did not abandon him. I hope in time as your deep grief eases you will be able to find a peace in your heart and know this is true." I hope so too.

I hope my precious Harry, Hermy and Albus are together in Heaven, snuggling together, grooming each other, and being happy and free of all suffering. I hope they haven't forgotten me.

Wishing you a restful evening.

Warm Hugs,
Harry, Hermy, and Albus's Mommy

Hi Lisa,

I just saw that you had written 2 days ago, but for some reason I couldn't see your posts until tonight ! I will be reading them and writing back to you tomorrow.

Hugs and prayers your way!

Kathy

Hi, Lisa, thank you for sharing with us how you're doing. Each of your losses with your beloved Hermy, Albus, and Harry have been traumatic, so it is perfectly understandable that you are now engulfed in a horrific grief journey that not only involves adjusting to the physical absence of your beloved Harry but is also re-surfacing the painful memories of the events of losing your beloved Hermy and Albus. If your beloved Harry had undergone the bladder cleansing procedure and he still did not respond well you would be wondering "what if" he would still be with you had he NOT had the procedure. You also need to take into account that it is stressful on us when we see the doctor - - our companions also are stressed seeing their doctors even under the most simple of circumstances. Your beloved Harry KNOWS you ALWAYS did what you thought was best at all times and in all circumstances for him. And I promise you that your beloved Harry, Hermy, and Albus are forever blessed to have your for their Forever Mom, and will be eagerly greeting you when it is your appropriate time to join them in eternal joy. For now, though, you are their earthly ambassador to hold and share the many treasured memories of their earthly journey with you. Without you here sharing their lives with us no one would know they graced this physical realm.

I hope today is treating you and Ron kindly, Lisa, and that you both will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Harry's, Hermy's, and Albus' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Lisa, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Lisa,

I feel your pain. This grief is truly torturous.

Harry never felt you had abandoned him. Your love was always with him and continues to be, and he was AND IS aware of it.

I agree with what moon_beam said about PTSD. You have suffered so much heartrending loss in such a short time!

Something I often overlook when in deep grief is the fact that I will be with my babies again and that in the meantime they truly are fine in the realm they're in (and they're still with me but since I am stuck in my physical body I have a hard time feeling that connection, even though I know it's true). I tend to dwell a lot on my regrets, my guilt, etc., just as you are doing.

My thoughts are a bit disjointed today. But I wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you and Ron. Will write more next time.

Kathy

P.S. Harry, Hermy, and Albus are snuggling together, and they will never suffer.

Dear moon_beam,

Thank you for your post. What you said makes so much sense: "If your beloved Harry had undergone the bladder cleansing procedure and he still did not respond well you would be wondering "what if" he would still be with you had he NOT had the procedure. You also need to take into account that it is stressful on us when we see the doctor - - our companions also are stressed seeing their doctors even under the most simple of circumstances."

One of Harry's vets called him a "stress bun" because of his history of screaming at the other clinic and his overall nervousness. Just going to the vet made him shake and breathe rapidly. Any procedure would have stressed him tremendously, not only physically but psychologically. So I agree with you. I'll just have to keep wondering "what if."

I miss Harry terribly. I miss them all so much. I do look forward to being with them again one day.

Have a restful evening, moon_beam.

Hugs,
Harry, Hermy, and Albus's Mommy

Dear Kathy,

Thank you for your post, especially your reminder: "Something I often overlook when in deep grief is the fact that I will be with my babies again and that in the meantime they truly are fine in the realm they're in (and they're still with me but since I am stuck in my physical body I have a hard time feeling that connection, even though I know it's true)."

I constantly forget that one day I will be with my babies again, at least I hope so. This belief sustains me. Thank you so much for reminding me of this. I truly hope that Harry, Hermy, and Albus won't forget me. I also hope that they will forgive me.

Sorry for the short posts today. Rough week again. It seems like sometimes when one thing goes wrong then everything goes wrong. My workplace started to have some challenges 15 days ago. My beloved Harry passed away 11 days ago. Now my workplace is entering crisis/panic mode. I just want some time to grieve for Harry. Postponing my mourning makes me feel even more guilty.

One day at a time, I tell myself. One day at a time.

Thanks again for your support and encouragement. It means alot to me.

Hugs,
Hermy, Harry, and Albus's Mommy

Hi Harry, Hermy, and Albus's Mommy,

I'm so sorry to hear that things have been rough all the way around. Do you think the workplace issues are going to be resolved? What are your plans for the weekend? Would there be anything you could do for part of the weekend that would make you feel good? Maybe an uplifting or engaging movie, something that would help to balance out the pain you're enduring?

I hope you can try and realize that Harry, Hermy, and Albus don't want you to feel guilty about anything. They want you to be nothing but kind to yourself. You have been through too much as it is--and now a work crisis on top of it all !

Please keep us posted. Thinking of you!

Kathy

Hi, Lisa, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. I can soooo relate to how you're feeling when you share with us "t seems like sometimes when one thing goes wrong then everything goes wrong. My workplace started to have some challenges 15 days ago. My beloved Harry passed away 11 days ago. Now my workplace is entering crisis/panic mode. I just want some time to grieve for Harry. Postponing my mourning makes me feel even more guilty." Please know your beloved Harry completely understands what is happening in your life, and hopefully you will hear his soft voice in your heart tell you "it's okay, mom - - you do what you need to do. I'm always here with you - - I'm always a heartbeat close to you."

I hope today is treating you and Ron kindly, Lisa, and that you both will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Harry's, Hermy's, and Albus' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Lisa, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Hi Kathy,

Thank you! You and moon_beam are truly lifesavers. I'm working on the workplace issues and hope to resolve things in the next few weeks. I know no one really likes change, especially me, but when life makes changes for us, what can we do? I feel helpless and hopeless in the face of these changes, but your gentle and kind words of support really do help me through each day.

Today is exactly two weeks since Harry joined Hermy and Albus. I had a mini-meltdown today while working on office issues. I cried a good bit (which helped!) and then continued working. I hope Harry knows how much I miss him. I hope they all know how much I love and miss them.

I'll write more later.

Warm Hugs,
Harry, Hermy, and Albus's Mommy

Hi moon_beam,

Thank you so much for your post. You said, "Please know your beloved Harry completely understands what is happening in your life, and hopefully you will hear his soft voice in your heart tell you "it's okay, mom - - you do what you need to do. I'm always here with you - - I'm always a heartbeat close to you."" Your words brought tears of bittersweet joy to my eyes. I needed to hear that. Thank you.

I apologize for sharing (or oversharing as the case may be) the issues complicating my grief journey. As you and Kathy may remember from my previous threads, I run my own small business (a solo medical practice). My only employee ("K") and I went our separate ways on February 9. Harry passed away on February 13. "K" had been with me for 8 years. She was not only a solid employee but also a trusted friend. She accompanied me when I adopted Harry, Hermy, and Albus in 2008. We always said she was their "godmother." For reasons still unknown and unclear to me, she was unhappy and looked for a new job elsewhere, leaving me suddenly stranded. I blame myself even more now for Harry's passing because I neglected him those 4 days before he passed. I failed to notice his loss of appetite and decreased elimination until it was too late. I should have noticed and taken him to his vet right away. Instead I went to work early and stayed much later than usual. I brought more work home with me too. I didn't pay attention to Harry when he nose-butted my leg over and over to get my attention. I just petted his head distractedly and kept working. As I worked late into the night, he sat patiently by my pillow on the bed those last few nights, waiting for me to go to bed and snuggle with him like we always did. I failed him miserably.

Now that he's gone, I am still unable to grieve for him properly and give him my full attention. Trying to find someone to fill the job vacancy is almost like having another full-time job. During a moment of silence tonight when I observed Harry's passing, I promised myself and Harry that I would give him my full attention soon. I hope he forgives me.

I'll write more tomorrow. Thank you again, moon_beam.

Hugs,
Harry, Hermy, and Albus's Mommy

Hi, Lisa, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. Lisa, I can soooo feel your deepest pain as to what happened with your beloved Harry. What happened with "K" leaving was a major event for your practice, - - and it was perfectly natural for you to be overwhelmed with the work that "K" would normally do. There have been circumstances while I was employed when I had to do the same thing - - just to try to keep the chaos of workload to a dull roar. Your beloved Harry knows EXACTLY what was happening - - he doesn't want you filled with guilt about what happened with him - - he doesn't want you burdened with the "if onlys" that are haunting and torturing your heart.

Contrary to what we'd like to believe we really don't have a lot of "control" over what happens in our lives at any particular time. We can only focus on so many things - - and it is perfectly understandable that your focus is on keeping your medical practice functioning while you hire and train a new employee. You are NOT short-changing your beloved Harry in any way, shape, or form. Harry KNOWS you always did the best you could for him at all times and in all circumstances - - the fact that "K" made her decision to leave the practice when she did and your beloved Harry's medical crisis began were not in your control.

I hope today is treating you and Ron kindly, Lisa, and that you both will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Harry's, Hermy's, and Albus' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Lisa, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Hi Lisa,

I so agree with moon_beam in her assurances to you: "Contrary to what we'd like to believe we really don't have a lot of "control" over what happens in our lives at any particular time. We can only focus on so many things - - and it is perfectly understandable that your focus is on keeping your medical practice functioning while you hire and train a new employee. You are NOT short-changing your beloved Harry in any way, shape, or form. Harry KNOWS you always did the best you could for him at all times and in all circumstances - - the fact that "K" made her decision to leave the practice when she did and your beloved Harry's medical crisis began were not in your control."

Life is so unpredictable! And the requirements that work entails are something we can't always get around. Sometimes everything hits at once.

Your precious trio (plus Ron!) all love you to pieces and always will. They have a Forever Mom beyond their wildest dreams. In time it will be more obvious to you how wonderful you truly were and are, and that you should be very good to yourself. Harry, Albus, Hermy, and Ron all want that.

Check in again soon if you can.

Thinking of you and praying that things start smoothing out,

Kathy

Hi Kathy and moon_beam,

I hope you both are doing well. I wanted to give you an update. Today marks 4 weeks since Harry went to join Hermy and Albus at the Rainbow Bridge. I still miss him terribly. He'll always be my special bun.

I felt I was unraveling over a week ago--losing Harry, losing a long-time employee, not eating, not sleeping. I felt my mind was so overloaded with stress, guilt, and sadness that my mind eventually just went numb and blank. I believe what happened next was a gift from Harry. My sister and I had been estranged for a year, ever since Albus passed away last March. My mother called my sister to tell her that I'm not doing well and not handling so many losses and changes at the same time. To my surprise, my sister immediately dropped everything and came here from New York to help me. She cooked comfort foods, and I started eating again. She helped me at the office. She prepped and cooked enough food to last me another week before she left. She listened to me repeat myself over and over again about how guilty I felt about Harry's passing. She took me to see the movie Zootopia last weekend (the main character is a cute rabbit!).

Then I believe I got a real sign from Harry! Exactly 3 weeks after his passing. My sister and I went for a walk outside and then went window shopping, and what did I see in the front window display of Pottery Barn? Harry! Harry was all over every single plate, platter, and dish! It was definitely Harry! Same eyes, same face, same fur, same color, same look. I couldn't believe it. Yes, of course, it was their Easter display, but I took it as a sign from my beloved Harry! (see attached photo)

Seeing him (his image) was bittersweet. It gave me a jolt. I had been walking around like a zombie, just going through the motions of everyday life, pretending to be "normal" at work and at home, in front of my sister and in front of strangers. Seeing Harry in the display window made me exclaim, "Look! Oh my gosh! Look, it's Harry!" I probably looked like a crazy person on the sidewalk, but I didn't care. There was my Harry, looking back at me from a very large platter and multiple small plates.

I hope Harry sends me another sign. I hope Hermy and Albus send me a sign. I REALLY hope they haven't forgotten about me. I think about them every single day.

Thank you both for always being here for me and all of us here in this forum. Have a wonderful, peaceful evening!

Love and Hugs,
Harry, Hermy, and Albus's Mommy

Lisa,

Crying as I read your note. Had a very emotional day myself but I wanted to let you know how grateful I am that your sister came through for you! That is truly heartwarming !! And your sign from your precious Harry is the best.

I will write more tomorrow or Monday.

Kathy

Hi, Lisa, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. Like our forum friend Kathy I too am so very happy that your sister came to offer you support, comfort, and encouragement. I know from first hand experience how difficult family dynamics can be, - - and I can imagine how much it means to you to have had your sister visit you.

I'm sooooo smiling about the plates with your beloved Harry on it. We know in our heart when we have received a "sign" or "communication" from our beloved companions, and I truly believe as you that seeing your beloved Harry on the plate is one of his many ways of letting you know he is still with you. I know if it were me I would have been very tempted to buy the entire set!!! Please let me try to reassure you that your beloved Harry, Hermy, and Albus will NEVER forget about you - - will NEVER abandon you - - for love is eternal - - they are always and forever a part of your heart and memories, Lisa - - they are always and forever a heartbeat close to you.

I hope today is treating you and Ron kindly, Lisa, and that you both will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Harry's, Hermy's, and Albus' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Lisa, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Hi Lisa,

It is so heartwarming that your sister came and stayed with you and helped you.

And, that sure is Harry all over the dishware at Pottery Barn !!! I have absolutely no doubt that he was sending you a sign! Also, on the picture of the plate that you sent, he is depicted as being surrounded by beauty---symbolizing his blissful existence with Hermy and Albus.

I was so happy to get your update.

Keep in touch. Continuing to think of you,

Kathy