My son's little chihuahua has been fighting a battle with asthma and congested heart failure and has been taking medicine for a long time now, close to a year. My son has had her since he was grown and on his own, she was around 10 weeks old when he got her. His litttle Chili Bean Bubbles was 10 years old this month on the 5th.

We have had her living with us the past 9 months since our son was afraid of not giving her the right amount of meds. This morning her nose was contorted and her nose holes were almost closed shut. She was panting so hard and her eye was swollen and buldging. Chili Bean could not get comfortable but paced and staggered some as she did.

My daughter thought it was from the new medicine that she has been taking the last few weeks. She has been on prednisone and liquid albuterol which the vet said was the last treatment available, and she has been doing pretty well on it. She was no longer coughing with every step she took. So my daughter thinking it was the new medicines called the vet and they said she needed to be seen right away.

So I took Chili Bean thinking maybe she had an infection and would get more pills to help with that. Dr. Tim took x-rays and said she had cancer on the pallet of her mouth and 2 masses, one inside under her nose and the other above her eye. He said that the cancer hit a nerve and that's why it contorted her nose and made her eyes buldge.

With many tears from me and a heavy heart, the vet put her to sleep as I held her in my arms. The rest of the family was working and I was alone, I called them and they said good bye over the cell phone to her before he gave Chili Bean the shot.

I have never had to put an animal to sleep in my life and it was hard. She stayed at my house a lot too and she was like my own. Chili would spend 2 weeks with me and 2 weeks with my son until the last 9 months.

This little girl was my son's world he was only 19 when he got her and now she is gone. I made a mistake and took Snookie with me to the vet along with his little girl. I didn't know she wouldn't be coming home alive.

Snookie whined and cried almost the whole time we were coming home with Chili Beans body in the car. Snookie knew she was gone. I feel so numb it does not seem real because I thought she would be coming home with me.
Ann
Chili Bean 11-5-95 to 11-11-04 We all love you so very much and I am so sorry so so very sorry.

ANN, I'M SORRY THAT YOU HAD TO GO THROUGH THAT TODAY, HOW HARD IT MUST HAVE BEEN FOR YOU. I AM GLAD THAT THEY HAD YOU. I AM PRAYING FOR YOUR STRENGTH TO DEAL WITH THE THINGS THAT HAVE COME YOUR WAY. I HOPE YOUR SON WILL BE OKAY PAMELA

Thanks Pamela,
I didn't even know I thought of this little girl as my very own until she got so sick. My husband and I took her on vacations with us and she spent so much time with us. Of course I am Grammy to all my fur grand kids but she spent the most time with us and we loved her so much. Chili Bean was a tiny dog but thought of her self as being the toughest around. She only weighed 6 pounds until she got sick and had to go on steroids and she put on 9 pounds in only 4 months. Even my husband Clair cried when we lost her and when we put her in the cold ground.
Love, Ann

Ann,

I'm so sorry for the loss of your beloved Chilli Bean. I had to have my dog put to sleep too so I know exactly what it's like to make the decision and wonder if you did the right thing. Having to give her up is heartbreaking for your entire family, but you did the right thing by ending her suffering in a very humane way.

It's so sad. She will be missed very much but I know you and your family will always treasure the ten wonderful years you had togther. I wish I knew the magic words that would help ease your pain....it's so difficult to find words that comfort. Please know I share your pain and I'm hoping you'll find the strength to get through this.

You're in my thoughts,
__Jim

Ann,
I'm truly sorry for your loss of Chili Bean. I know how you are feeling. We had to make the decision to put our Dieter to sleep and it was not an easy one. You did the right thing for her, know that, as she was suffering. Ann, I wish I had the right words to say. Just know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers and each day will bring healing.

Libby