Hi, I have been on here before, when I lost my beloved Doggie Lloyd, he died 30th April 2012 and my god I miss him still so very much, we had his sister Peggy as well, they were both from the same litter, we had them 21st September 2001, so Lloyd was almost 10 when he passed away ...Peggy was heartbroken that she had lost her brother, as we all were....so 2 months later we rescued another doggie and named him Lenny, Peggy was thrilled to have another doggie in the house

Anyway 6 weeks ago we rescued another puppy, as we knew Peggy wouldn't be with us for many more years as she was almost 13 and we didnt want to leave Lenny alone when her time had come, so along come another doggie, Poppy all 3 of them got along so well, I felt blessed, I still do even now...

On Monday 28th April 2014 Peggy was fine, her normal happy OAP self, the normal happy staffy....Tuesday she was a little ill, we thought maybe she had eaten something and given her a tummy upset, but Wednesday she was in a terrible way, she looked so awful, we took her to the vets who gave us the shock of our lives and told us our precious girl was dying :,(....we just couldn't believe it, the vet said she had a lot of fluid on her lungs and due to her age and the way she was we should do the kindest thing for her, so we did, oh my god how im hurting all over again, I cant believe my princess is gone....

Whats even scarier is the fact she was ok 3 days ago and now shes gone, and she passed over to the bridge on the EXACT same date as her Brother 30th April, but 2 years apart.....

Do you think Lloyd wanted Peggy???? Or is this just a coincidence??? The only happiness in my heart at the moment is Peggy and Lloyd are back together again...

I have had Lloyd ashes put in with Peggys now and they are due home soon, I cant wait to have them here, I miss them so much, I cant believe my girl has gone, I haven't got over losing my Lloyd yet and now I have lost Peggy.....I know 13 is a good age, I had her and Lloyd since they were 9 weeks old and now I feel so empty, the house feels empty even though I still have Lenny and Poppy.......

Im hurting so much, I cant believe my two babies (brother and sister) passed away on the same date

Thank you for reading this

Jodie ******xx

Hi, Jodie, please permit me to offer you my sincerest sympathies in the physical loss of your beloved Peggy. Losing a companion is never easy regardless of the circumstances or how long we are blessed with the privilege of their company. Euthanasia is the last gift of love we can give to our companions at great sacrifice to ourselves so that they can be restored to their former youthfulness in the company of the angels.

Jodie, as you know this grief journey is one of the hardest experiences you will know on this side of eternity. It is a journey that cannot be reconciled in a minute, an hour, a day, a week, a month, or even 6 months - - for you are now on a journey that is filled with all the first withouts and the memories that can be all too painful right now that include "this time yesterday, last week, last month, last year" to endure. It is a journey that can only be traveled one day at a time, sometimes one moment at a time in your own way and in your own time - - with the reassurance that you are among friends here who truly do understand what you are going through, and we are here for you for as long and as often as you need us.

I do so understand how you are feeling losing the physical presence of your beloved Peggy so quickly after your beloved Lloyd transitioned home to the angels - - and on the same day. No, I don't think this is a coincidence, for I have expereinced very similar situations with my beloved companions as well. Within a 3.5 year time frame, three of my beloved companions joined the angels: My number one kitty son Eli joined the angels on Monday, December 11, 2006, due to end stage Lymphoma at 6 years of age, my handsome Black Lab Oslo joined the angels on Sunday, November 29, 2009, at 15 years of age due to a sudden stroke, and my beautiful baby kitty girl Abbygayle (my surviving Noah's sibling sister) joined the angels on Monday, March 15, 2010, due to end stage Fibrosarcoma at 6 years of age. In previous years, each of my beloved companions have joined the angels in March or around the holidays. This is a pattern that is significantly undeniable.

Sadly, our companions are very adept at disguising how they are feeling until the illness or consequences of an injury have taken a toll on their bodies. This is a genetic trait they inherit from their wild cousins - - which of course does nothing for us as their human caregivers. As with human medicine, sometimes veterinary medicine is able to intervene and restore good health to our companions so that they can continue to enjoy a good quality of life. Likewise, as with human medicine, there comes a time when our companions are so very ill there is nothing in the treatment arsenal that can help them. The "salvation" with veterinary medicine is that we can legally ease the transition journey for our companions from their frail, failing, painful physical bodies through the merciful act of euthanasia, even though our hearts are breaking under the heaviest burden of deepest sorrow. This is what love is - - it puts the needs of our beloved companions first and foremost at a time when they are desperately in need of it.

Jodie, I also very much understand how you're feeling when you share with us: "I know 13 is a good age, I had her and Lloyd since they were 9 weeks old and now I feel so empty, the house feels empty even though I still have Lenny and Poppy......." Jodie, scientific studies prove that every living being has an "energy", and when this "energy" is no longer present there is undeniably a huge hole in the family unit that takes time to adjust to the physical absence of this "energy." This doesn't mean you love Lenny and Poppy less - - not by any stretch of the imagination. The physical losses of your beloved Lloyd and Peggy are REAL - - and it can feel as though the house structure itself is mourning the physical losses of your beloved Lloyd and Peggy as well. This is all a part of this painful grief adjustment journey, and you and your precious Lenny and Poppy will find comfort with one another as you travel your grief journeys together.

The "good news" in the midst of your deepes sorrow is that the love bond you and your beloved Peggy, and Lloyd, share is eternal. It is not restricted to the physical laws of time and space. Your beloved Peggy's and Lloyd's sweet Living Spirits continue to share your earthly journey as they always have and always will - - for they are always and forever a part of your heart and memories, Jodie - - they are always and forever a heartbeat close to you.

I know so very well from first hand experience that when our hearts are entrenched in deep grief there are no adequate words in any language that can soothe the searing pain of sorrow. Still I hope the words I share with you will offer you some measure of comfort, support, encouragement, and hope as you travel your grief journey.

Thank you so very much for honoring us in sharing your beloved Peggy with us, Jodie. Perhaps sometime you will feel up to sharing a picture of her with us, but only when / if you want to. Please know you and your precious Lenny and Poppy are in my thoughts and prayers, Jodie, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Thank you so much for taking the time to reply to me, your words helped me and its so nice to know there are lovely people on here who will listen to me and understand what I am going through.....

I feel so very alone at the moment, I feel numb with the shock that Peggy was taken so very suddenly, I feel guilty too, maybe I should have tried medication, but would I have been doing it for my own feelings, I just dont know...I miss her so much, I just want to cuddle her, and see her happy smiling little face, she was always so happy, as was Lloyd....

I have been truely blessed to have had such wonderful doggies, I hope I will be reunited one day with them....

I just wish I knew she had made it to Rainbow Bridge safely and that she is with Lloydy....my precious little doggies, nothing seems real at the moment, I just cant come to terms shes gone , I love her so much, I love them all so much

I would love to share a picture of them both, Peggy is the fawn and white one, and Lloyd is the white one

Again, thank you so much for replying to me, you dont know how much it means ***

I cannot upload the pictures as its says they are too large

Hi, Jodie, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. First I want to share with you a post by our Site Administrator on uploading pictures: "please keep your photos on the small side. photos should be sized to be 640x480 or 800x600 at their largest, and be under 400 kilobytes in size. if you receive an error when uploading a photo, it is because its size or weight is too large. you can use this handy online tool to remedy the problem, please save it as one of your favorites for future use. : http://www.splashup.com/splashup/." I hope this helps you. If you continue to have problems uploading your pictures, please feel free to e-mail the Site Administrator who will be more than happy to assist you.

This grief journey is filled with many different emotions, and guilt / remorse is one of the harder emotions to reconcile because it comes from the looking back and trying to reconcile all the "whys" "what ifs" and "if onlys" that haunt the very core of our hearts and minds. I hope in time as your deep grief eases you be able to find comfort and peace in your heart when I say that you ALWAYS did the very best for your beloved Peggy and Lloyd, and the decisions you made for them were the BEST for THEM according to their needs.

Jodie, this grief adjustment journey is both emotional AND physical, and both are very painful in their own special ways. You may find it helpful to hold something that belongs to your beloved Peggy - - one of her favorite toys, her collar, a blanket - - SOMETHING that belongs only to her when the pain is more than you can bear not being able to hold her and look at her. For many months I slept with one of my beloved companion's collars, and held tightly to one of their toys when the searing pain of physical separation was more than I could bear. Every time our companoins rub against us, lick / kiss us they are literally chemically imprinting themselves onto us so that they can identify us from all the other millions of people on this planet. When they precede us to the angels we literally experience a withdrawal from this chemical imprint - - which is one of the many reasons why this grief adjustment journey is so painful physically as well as emotionally.

Also, please let me try to reassure you that your beloved Lloyd and Peggy are reunited in eternal joy and are patiently waiting for you to join them at your appropriate time. Until then, you are their living legacy and their sole, and soul, heir to their eternal love. Their sweet Living Spirits are forever with you as you continue with your earthly journey, - - they are always and forever a heartbeat close to you.

I hope today is treating you and your precious Lenny and Poppy kindly, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Lloyd's and Peggy's sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

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These are my beautiful babies just looking at their beautiful little faces makes my heart hurt so much, I miss them both so very much ***

Jodie, my deepest condolences for your loss. Peggy and Lloyd look like beautiful dogs, and I find it very odd that they passed on the same day like that, perhaps it really was Lloyd calling her back to him. Either way, I am sure they are reunited happily now and awaiting the day they get to see you again. I lost my 13 year old boy Rocky three weeks ago and the grief is still so strong, I don't know how I could ever deal with this feeling twice in two years like you've had to. I hope you manage to find comfort somewhere and my thoughts are with you.

Im so sorry for your loss too Rockyboy, its unbearable losing them isnt it..........I feel like a big black cloud is all around me and I just cant breathe at times....I honestly have no idea how im getting from one hour to the next.....it all seems unreal at the moment. Peggy was fine and then she was gone I miss them both so very much, they truely were the most wonderful funny furbabies!

Thank you for taking the time to reply to me and its nice to know there are people out there who really do care, I send hugs to you xx

Hi, Jodie, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing, and for these wonderful pictures of your beloved Peggy and Lloyd. There is no doubt in looking at these pictures that they know they are loved, and are so very blessed to have you as their Forever Mom. I can imagine today is one of many mixed emotions. Still I hope in some way you will feel the blessing of the many treasured memories you and your beloved Peggy and Lloyd share, and that this will bring comfort to your heart.

I hope today is treating you and your precious Lenny and Poppy kindly, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Peggy's and Lloyd's sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Jodie, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam