Last Friday I got 2 kittens-6 wks old. One that I call LittleOne was the runt of the litter. When I got them, LittleOne was sick and I hesitated about him but I felt sorry for him and took him to. He had runny eyes and nose. He ate some over the weekend but by Sunday I knew we had to go to the vet and we did on Monday. I gave him Pedialyte, the amoxidrops, and the ointment for his eyes. He was given kitten formula to. He seemed to be perking up......he was eating some, and was more alert. Sinse I didn't have a water bottle to keep him warm the vet told me to hold him to keep him warm. I did all that and at 2am this morning LittleOne passed in my arms but before he did he wanted to crawl away from me and I finally let him and he fell off the loveseat arm onto the kitchen floor. I picked him up and he wasn't doing so well. I knew he was leaving me and my heart was breaking. When he passed I cried and cried because it brought back memories of my beloved furkitty, Fuzzball, passing in my arms in June. I am glad LittleOne experienced TLC in his short life but my heart is breaking because he didn't have a long life. I blame myself for his passing because if I had gotten him to a vet somewhere over the weekend then maybe he would have had a longer life. I blame myself for finally letting him crawl away from me and he falling off the arm of the love seat onto the hard kitchen floor and I feel the fall contributed to his passing. He was holding his head sideways and he was quite wobbly. I can only hope he wan't in pain. During my crying I asked Fuzzball to be there when LittleOne gets to Rainbow Bridge and to take care of him. I know LittleOne is at Rainbow Bridge with Fuzzball. I know he is well. I know he is doing all the things he wasn't able to.......running, playing, and having fun. When I first brought LittleOne and his sister, Chenook, home they were playing and everything was okay but then Sat. LittleOne wasn't as active. I feel so bad about all of it and I didn't do as I should have. I just hope LittleOne can forgive me.


Wanda

Wanda,

I'm so sorry about LittleOne's passing!

Please try not to feel guilty. It sounds as though from the start he was very sick and very possibly would have had a difficult time with his health. Thank God he got to experience your love, even for a short time. You are wonderful for taking him too.

I've been a member here for 8 months now, and I've read SO many stories about people's guilt. It definitely seems to be a universal thing. No matter what we do, or don't do, we feel sure that we did the wrong thing, or didn't do quite the right thing, or could have/should have done a lot more. Remember that you are human, and your heart was in the right place. LittleOne knows that!!! That is what matters.

LittleOne is with Fuzzball now---for sure. They are in bliss. They know no pain of any kind, and their spirits are around you. Their bodies had to pass on, for reasons we won't understand until it is our time, but their souls live on. When it is your time, you will all be fully reunited.

Please keep coming here. We will help you through this. You truly are a wonderful Mom.

Love,
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Kathy

Wanda I am sure LittleOne was well taken care of by you and was well loved in his last days. I know you did your very best to try to day him. Try not to feel so bad that he fell off the love seat it could have happened to anyone. Now you take little Chenook and give her some kisses on her face and head for me.
Ann