It has now been two weeks since I lost my darling Kasha to kidney failure. Although the tears have slowed, they have not stopped and I don't think they ever will. My family is just not the same with her gone, of course, and we miss her so much. My two other cats are wandering around the house like lost souls...her passing has been terrible on them. LeStat is 12 years old and spent his entire life with Kasha. When he was born, some horrible person took his entire litter and tried to burn them in a barbeque. It was a MIRACLE that a wonderful , caring neighbour saw what he was doing and called the police. All of the kittens made it through and every one of them was adopted (such a happy ending). LeStat found his way to us. He has spent all of his life terrified of people, loud noises, quick movements....everything. He has known me his whole life, has NEVER been struck or even yelled at but he still ducks away if I try to pet him with little warning and runs out of the room if I'm moving too quickly for his liking. He didn't even purr until he was 4 years old. This scardey-cat absolutely adored his big sister, Kasha. She was his guardian....everything that he was afraid to do, she would do first. When we moved and I introduced them to their new surroundings LeStat would have never come out of the carrier if Kasha hadn't. She walked out and sniffed around, stopping every few inches until LeStat got up the courage to follow. She walked him around every inch of the house until he felt comfortable enough to take a nap under the bed. They weren't always the greatest of friends, had their share of spats, but he loved her and he needed her so much. It's like he doesn't know what to do with himself now that she is gone. He just roams from the kitchen to the bedroom occasionally stopping at the back door to peek out....I think he is looking for her.

My kitten, Riley, is in a different boat. She is a whirlwind this one. She tears around the house, gets into EVERYTHING, and follows me everywhere I go. (LeStat isn't all that crazy about the energy level he'll let her know when he has had enough!) Kasha was her playmate, although she just lay on the floor batting at her with her front paws...she was tons of fun. Riley would jump on Kasha using the couch as a launch pad...she would sneak up behind her and nibble on her ears....she would just lie beside her and snuggle up for a nap. Kasha was an old girl and couldn't run around like Riley but she would lie under the couch leaving her fluffy tail sticking out and would swish it back and forth letting Riley chase it until her heart was content.

Akasha was a wonderful mommy to my Riley, a wonderful friend and protecter to LeStat and an amazing gift to me. She took care of all of us...never failed, when I was sick she was beside me until I felt better. She purred every time she saw me when I was pregnant and watched me every day to make sure I was alright. When I went into labour she sat with me for hours until my husband came home (he works out of town and I was terrified that he wouldn't make it on time...almost didn't!!!). She just kept purring and looking up at me...letting me know that I shouldn't be scared...that everything was ok and I wasn't alone. She even walked me to the door as I left for the hospital and then ran to the window to see me off. I loved her so much....I thanked her every day for being the best friend I've ever had (I'm so glad I did).

I miss her so much. LeStat is so sad it's like he lost his heart....I wish I could explain it to him. Riley has lost her playmate and her friend and clings to me like glue. I love her and spend as much time as I can with her but I feel like I'm neglecting LeStat because he never comes out. I have to go to him... which is hard to do (for the length of time he needs) with a new baby in the house.

We all miss our Kasha....she was a HUGE part of this family, and we will never be the same without her.

Thanks for listening..
Kristie, LeStat, Riley and company

Hello, I read with many tears of your wonderful babies and I am so sorry you lost Kasha. She most have been a sweet girl and I'm sure LeStat and the rest of your family will be lost without her.

Even at me age of 51, I have seen a lot of things but I am still shocked when people do horrible things to helpless animals that can't fight back. People like that are evil and they will get paid back in the end. LeStat is truly a miracle give him a hug from me.

There will be others on in a little while who will be able to give you words of wisdom and comfort. I have met wonderful people here who are so caring and have brought so much comfort to me. Again I am so sorry.
Ann

first I love the idea you named your two babies after vampires...go you!
Anyway I'm so very sorry for your loss. I can understand that feeling all to well. I lost my soul mate and will never be the same.
My heart goes out to you!

Kristie,

My heart goes out to you!

I'm so sorry about the loss of Kasha.

I read with tears about your journey as a family. Will LeStat come out from under the bed when it's time for some one-on-one time with you?

Keep in touch here. You will be in my prayers.

Love,

Kathy

P.S. And as Ann mentioned, I too am aghast at the evil some people inflict. I am involved with animal rights causes and believe that the violence toward non-human animals is at he root of the strife in the world. As Ghandi said, "The moral progress of a nation can be judged by the way its animals are treated."

Sometimes I wish we could "speak" our animals language.

My heart goes out to you for your loss of Kasha.

Sounds like LeStat is going through some grief like the rest of the family and all you can do is give him time. After what LeStat has been through he probably has "trust" issues and with out his mentor he needs some time to adapt.

I wish you the best and truly understand your famlies pain.

Luv Misshellkitty

Like LittleGirl's Mommy said (I have a picture of my Peanut with this saying as my wallpaper on my PC - " The strength of a nation is judged by the way it treats its animals"- Mahatma Ghandi

Thank you all for your kind replies. You are wonderful caring people....every time I come here I feel less alone.

Thanks so much for taking the time....it means so much.

Kristie

Kristie,
I too am so sad to hear about your family's loss. And that is ABSOLUTELY INSANE that anyone would try to do something like that to those cats! My Lord!

I know you and LeStat, Riley and Company will take comfort in each other and just love each other as you mourn for your baby Kasha. Kasha sounds like a wonderful kitty and a wonderful gift. I know you are all heartbroken, and I am so, so sorry.
Take care. Hold on tightly to each other.
Marcia