I lost my dog Emma several months ago. I miss her terribly .... my life revolved around her medical (and emotional) needs for the 7 years we were together. Every day either held sorrow that she was not feeling well or great joy that it would be a good day for her. My work suffered and I had no social life, but I never doubted she was worth it. Every free minute I had was spent with Emma.

Now that she has left me, I feel like I don't care about anything. I can see it's a beautiful day and I remember the joy I felt with Emma on beautiful days. But I don't feel it anymore, just sadness that I am no longer spending this day with my precious Emma. I feel like I will never be happy again and I don't know what to do. I wish Emma was with me to help me through this as she always did. Just feeling her against me would bring me joy. And I knew it brought her job to be near me. What can ever compare to that love? Nothing.

Dear Emma's mum,

I feel exactly the same as you are......I feel your pain and sorrow. Nothing will fill this void. I also live alone like you. It was just me and George for 10 years. I did not need anyone else. Two of us against the world. Perfectly happy.

I read your other posts about Emma, saw her beautiful photos. She is so so beautiful and I feel her clamness in her soulful eyes.

One thing I know for sure is You are her forever mommy. You gave her second chance from the dreadful life of a puppy mill. You took good care of her despite her many of medical problems that no one else could. She had 7 years of life filled with love.

I envy that she passed peacefully in your arms.....only, only if I had that with my George. My George did not get that peaceful end....it kills me. He died with me but in terrible agony.....I will never forget that moment. I now know the true meaning of 'broken heart'. My heart is shattered.

I send you big hugs and kisses in your way.

Emma, please find George and play together. He will look after you. He is a big boy but a very gentle friendly soul. Until we meet again.....wait for your mommies......kisses

Hi, EmmasMom, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. Please let me try to reassure you that what you are feeling very normal deep grief - - very painful both emotionally and physically, yes - - still very normal. Unfortunately there are no fast forward or delete buttons we can press to speed up the grief adjustment journey or make it automatically disappear. It is a journey that can only be traveled one day at a time, sometimes one moment a time, - - which include the not so bad days, the not so good days, and the days, moments, when we feel like we can no longer bear the deep seering pain of sorrow that is piercing our heart.

I promise you, EmmasMom, it will not always be this way. One day when you least expect it you will be thinking of your beloved Emma and you will find yourself smiling - - truly smiling - - and your heart will once again feel the warmth of the many treasured memories you and your beloved Emma share. Does this mean you will stop missing her? No, - - but it does mean that your heart will be able to focus on the JOY of being Emma's Forever Mom and the eternal love bond you and your beloved Emma share - -and this is what your beloved Emma wants for you.

But until this day comes for you, EmmasMom, please know we are here for you for as long and as often as you need us. And if I may make a suggestion - - it is recommended that you post to one topic for your beloved Emma so that people can read through your posts on that one topic instead of making several topics. Each time you make an entry in your topic an e-mail alert is sent to people letting us know you have made a new entry. Consider your topic like a journal or diary - - keeping to one topic will help people to share your and your beloved Emma's "love story" in continuity.

I hope today is treating you kindly, EmmasMom, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Emma's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Thank you. I will try to think of Emma and George together and happy, and not missing us as much as we miss them.

I am sorry that I have not used this website correctly. I have made several new posts about my precious Emma, and I understand I should only have made one. I have to admit that I have not really been in my right mind since I lost Emma. I sometimes sort of fade out and really don't care.

Emma is the most important entity to me and I will always love her and miss her physical presence beside me.

Hi, EmmasMom, please let me try to reassure you that EACH of your topics are perfectly okay. The only reason why I suggested you try to keep to one topic is so that people who come to your topic will have as complete a history as possible of your grief journey instead of having to search through the topics to find several on your beloved Emma. Please know EACH of your topics are perfectly okay.

I do hope and pray that today is treating you kindly, EmmasMom, and that you will have a very peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Emma's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and please do let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

This is exactly what going on with my heart. Things I used to love are not important to me anymore. I had a few hobbies I quit, because I realize those things just don't matter. Even shopping therapy which could make my day better doesn't work. I actually started getting rid of all the stuff that are not important. I started getting rid of people that are not good in my life. People, who looked at me like I'm insane for being so depressed over "a cat". People who can't understand that my fur babies are my kids and I love them endlessly are getting out my life now.
I think people who could experience this very bond with an animal are blessed. Because not every human can feel what we do. Not everyone knows what it's like to be the best friends with an animal!

Hi, EmmasMom, it has been a few days since you last shared with us how you're doing. I hope today is treating you kindly, EmmasMom, and that you will have a very peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Emma's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Hi, EmmasMom I really do know exactly what you mean. My Sarah is my precious baby girl and by not having her with me physically is tearing at my very soul. It's more than a part of me missing, it's not easy to explain but I do know the depths of your sorrow. I know how much you love your Emma, because I love my Sarah the same. Like you my Sarah is the focus of my one love. I get scared sometimes because I so desperately want her with me. It hurts really badly. But feel I can tell you this in all sincerity that your Emma is by your side wherever you are. The intense forever love we have for them forms a bond that none can separate, not even death.
I know this to be true, I had something happen a few weeks ago that gave me confirmation of what I just wrote. I may tell my story sometime but it's hard to put into words. God knows your love for Emma and so does she. Everyday I talk to Sarah as I normally would, and she hears those words I Love You. God bless you,

Hi Emma's Mom.

She is beautiful. She looks just like my Izzy. She too was rescued from a puppy mill. Also a breeder. We got her when she was four and although she never had any medical issues (thank goodness) she was afraid of everyone. It's been a long journey but she is such a wonderful being. My love for her and her siblings is unbelievable. So I understand how you are feeling. She was your world. And your world was shattered the moment she had to leave. But she had a good life with you and she loved you.

I just lost my George last Thursday. He was five. He was hit by a truck. No one was there when he left and that hurts like crazy. Poor Izzy is having a hard time with losing George. He was her best friend. She also lost Hunny just eight months after we got her. So she's been through a lot in her life. Plus we had just lost Lily a few weeks before Izzy came along. Actually Lily died the day Izzy was rescued.

It's true what they say about time healing all. It does - eventually. I'm still grieving for my babies who died five years ago, so I can't say it doesn't take long. But I found adopting another dog in need helped the healing. I know it's hard to think of another pet, but it's not a replacement, just another soul who needs your love. But then I have a yearning to help every dog I can.

Please don't feel bad about not putting any of Emma's things away. I still haven't buried Hunny. We were supposed to have buried her ashes next to Lily's but I could just never do it. George is laying next to Lily now so at least I don't have the guilt of Lily being alone. I love dogs so much and it hurts so much when they leave us but I've found that I just can't be without them. I have three dogs now - all mourning the loss of George. He was their big brother and they feel so lost without him too.

Sorry to ramble on about my heartaches. I just know exactly how you are feeling. And this one touched me most because Emma looks just like Izzy.

Joining this site helped me with my sorrow. Moonbeam is wonderful. Such wisdom and comfort comes from Moonbeam.

This might sound crazy but I talk to my babies every single night. I don't think I've missed one since my first baby died 33 years ago.

Take all the time you need to grieve and heal. Cry all you want and when you want. I know when I lost Lily I couldn't even breathe. But we got Izzy two weeks later and she has helped tremendously. Lily will never ever be forgotten - ever, nor will Hunny and George.

I am so very sorry for your loss.

Lynette