Hello,
I'm here because it's been a month and a half since my girl passed away- a beautiful yorkie, named Sosso.
All this time, I found out how many people out there experienced the same thing..I feel so deeply sorry for everyone, I deal with all these painful feelings since she's gone.
I've read so many stories that are similar to mine, trying to fιnd some compassion- I must say, that somehow did work..
But the pain didn't go away, at all..
I'm trying to go on with my life, pushing myself to do everyday things, but I'm finding it so difficult at the moment.Some say it's ok to feel this way and I agree.
I keep crying and crying every day, I've kept all of her things at the same place (her little chair, her bowl, her clothes), everything is still around the place like she's never gone..everything but her..
Every day I wake up and hope to have a sign of her, anything that would show me that she is somewhere, she is fine, she is with me in spirit.I "talk" to her through my heart, trying to send a message.I can't believe that the love we shared had just disappeared!
Nothing happens at all, except that sometimes I feel intensely her presence- but this could be just my imagination.Every night I hope to have a dream of her, I "talk" to her again, but nothing..Some days I have the feeling that her death is a lie.
We've been so close, I knew then but now I realize how much she meant to me.I feel so lost.I don't know how to be without her.I thought that I was prepared of her loss, since she was old, but I couldn't imagine these terrible moments.
She's been more than a dog to me- I'm sure most of you understand.
As I said before, I can't accept that all of our love is gone.I need to believe.There must be something that lives forever.I just need a sign..
Thank you for listening, I wish we all feel better in the future.
Love & peace
(p.s. please excuse my english, is not my mother-language)
Full Version: Missing Her So Much!
Hi, leftbehind, please permit me to offer you my sincerest sympathies in the physical loss of your beloved Sosso. Losing a companion is never easy regardless of the circumstances or how long we are blessed with the privilege of their company.
Leftbehind, please let me try to offer you some words of encouragement and comfort as you travel your grief adjustment journey. This grief journey, as you already know, is one of the most painful experiences you will know on this side of eternity. What you are feeling is very normal deep grief - - very painful both emotionally and physically, yes - - still very normal. It is a journey that can only be traveled one day at a time, sometimes one moment at a time in your own way and in your own time. It is a journey that cannot be reconciled in a minute, an hour, a day, a week, a month, or even 6 months - - for you are now on a path that is filled with all the "first withouts" and the memories that right now are so very painful of the "this time yesterday, last week, last month, last year" to endure. It is a journey that has many emotions that can overwhelm us all at one time - - it is a journey that is frequently referred to as a horror roller coaster ride.
Please let me try to reassure you that your beloved Sosso's sweet Living Spirit continues to share your earthly journey as she always has and always will. One of the many painful adjustments we go through when our beloved companions precede us to the angels is to their physical absence. We live in a physically oriented world governed by the 5 senses of taste, touch, sight, sound, and smell. We are conditioned through our life to come to believe that what isn't known by these 5 senses does not exist. But there is another dimension that transcends all of the physical senses - - and that dimension is known as eternal love - - which is not restricted to the physical laws of time and space. The love bond you and your beloved Sosso shared during her earthly journey continues on - - through all eternity. Even though your beloved Sosso is no longer physically with you, she is always and forever a part of your heart and memories, leftbehind - - she is always and forever a heartbeat close to you. When you feel her presence with you, it is not a figment of your imagination - - it is her way of letting you know that she is always with you - - whether or not you feel her.
It is so nice that you continue to talk to your beloved Sosso - - for the sound of your voice is as sweet to her now as it was during her earthly journey with you - - for she is always listening intently to every word you share with her.
I know from first hand experience that when our hearts are entrenched in deep grief there are no adequate words in any language that can soothe the deep seering pain of sorrow. Still, I hope the words I share with you will be able to offer you some measure of comfort, support, encouragement, and hope as you travel your grief adjustment journey. One of the many things you need to remember is that you are not alone in your journey - - each of us here do understand what you are feeling, and we are here for you for as long and as often as you need us.
Thank you so much for honoring us by sharing your beloved Sosso with us, leftbehind. Perhaps sometime you will feel up to sharing a picture(s) of her with us - - but only when / if you want to. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, leftbehind, and please let us know how you're doing.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Leftbehind, please let me try to offer you some words of encouragement and comfort as you travel your grief adjustment journey. This grief journey, as you already know, is one of the most painful experiences you will know on this side of eternity. What you are feeling is very normal deep grief - - very painful both emotionally and physically, yes - - still very normal. It is a journey that can only be traveled one day at a time, sometimes one moment at a time in your own way and in your own time. It is a journey that cannot be reconciled in a minute, an hour, a day, a week, a month, or even 6 months - - for you are now on a path that is filled with all the "first withouts" and the memories that right now are so very painful of the "this time yesterday, last week, last month, last year" to endure. It is a journey that has many emotions that can overwhelm us all at one time - - it is a journey that is frequently referred to as a horror roller coaster ride.
Please let me try to reassure you that your beloved Sosso's sweet Living Spirit continues to share your earthly journey as she always has and always will. One of the many painful adjustments we go through when our beloved companions precede us to the angels is to their physical absence. We live in a physically oriented world governed by the 5 senses of taste, touch, sight, sound, and smell. We are conditioned through our life to come to believe that what isn't known by these 5 senses does not exist. But there is another dimension that transcends all of the physical senses - - and that dimension is known as eternal love - - which is not restricted to the physical laws of time and space. The love bond you and your beloved Sosso shared during her earthly journey continues on - - through all eternity. Even though your beloved Sosso is no longer physically with you, she is always and forever a part of your heart and memories, leftbehind - - she is always and forever a heartbeat close to you. When you feel her presence with you, it is not a figment of your imagination - - it is her way of letting you know that she is always with you - - whether or not you feel her.
It is so nice that you continue to talk to your beloved Sosso - - for the sound of your voice is as sweet to her now as it was during her earthly journey with you - - for she is always listening intently to every word you share with her.
I know from first hand experience that when our hearts are entrenched in deep grief there are no adequate words in any language that can soothe the deep seering pain of sorrow. Still, I hope the words I share with you will be able to offer you some measure of comfort, support, encouragement, and hope as you travel your grief adjustment journey. One of the many things you need to remember is that you are not alone in your journey - - each of us here do understand what you are feeling, and we are here for you for as long and as often as you need us.
Thank you so much for honoring us by sharing your beloved Sosso with us, leftbehind. Perhaps sometime you will feel up to sharing a picture(s) of her with us - - but only when / if you want to. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, leftbehind, and please let us know how you're doing.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
QUOTE (moon_beam @ Aug 16 2013, 06:02 AM) 
Hi, leftbehind, please permit me to offer you my sincerest sympathies in the physical loss of your beloved Sosso. Losing a companion is never easy regardless of the circumstances or how long we are blessed with the privilege of their company.
Leftbehind, please let me try to offer you some words of encouragement and comfort as you travel your grief adjustment journey. This grief journey, as you already know, is one of the most painful experiences you will know on this side of eternity. What you are feeling is very normal deep grief - - very painful both emotionally and physically, yes - - still very normal. It is a journey that can only be traveled one day at a time, sometimes one moment at a time in your own way and in your own time. It is a journey that cannot be reconciled in a minute, an hour, a day, a week, a month, or even 6 months - - for you are now on a path that is filled with all the "first withouts" and the memories that right now are so very painful of the "this time yesterday, last week, last month, last year" to endure. It is a journey that has many emotions that can overwhelm us all at one time - - it is a journey that is frequently referred to as a horror roller coaster ride.
Please let me try to reassure you that your beloved Sosso's sweet Living Spirit continues to share your earthly journey as she always has and always will. One of the many painful adjustments we go through when our beloved companions precede us to the angels is to their physical absence. We live in a physically oriented world governed by the 5 senses of taste, touch, sight, sound, and smell. We are conditioned through our life to come to believe that what isn't known by these 5 senses does not exist. But there is another dimension that transcends all of the physical senses - - and that dimension is known as eternal love - - which is not restricted to the physical laws of time and space. The love bond you and your beloved Sosso shared during her earthly journey continues on - - through all eternity. Even though your beloved Sosso is no longer physically with you, she is always and forever a part of your heart and memories, leftbehind - - she is always and forever a heartbeat close to you. When you feel her presence with you, it is not a figment of your imagination - - it is her way of letting you know that she is always with you - - whether or not you feel her.
It is so nice that you continue to talk to your beloved Sosso - - for the sound of your voice is as sweet to her now as it was during her earthly journey with you - - for she is always listening intently to every word you share with her.
I know from first hand experience that when our hearts are entrenched in deep grief there are no adequate words in any language that can soothe the deep seering pain of sorrow. Still, I hope the words I share with you will be able to offer you some measure of comfort, support, encouragement, and hope as you travel your grief adjustment journey. One of the many things you need to remember is that you are not alone in your journey - - each of us here do understand what you are feeling, and we are here for you for as long and as often as you need us.
Thank you so much for honoring us by sharing your beloved Sosso with us, leftbehind. Perhaps sometime you will feel up to sharing a picture(s) of her with us - - but only when / if you want to. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, leftbehind, and please let us know how you're doing.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Leftbehind, please let me try to offer you some words of encouragement and comfort as you travel your grief adjustment journey. This grief journey, as you already know, is one of the most painful experiences you will know on this side of eternity. What you are feeling is very normal deep grief - - very painful both emotionally and physically, yes - - still very normal. It is a journey that can only be traveled one day at a time, sometimes one moment at a time in your own way and in your own time. It is a journey that cannot be reconciled in a minute, an hour, a day, a week, a month, or even 6 months - - for you are now on a path that is filled with all the "first withouts" and the memories that right now are so very painful of the "this time yesterday, last week, last month, last year" to endure. It is a journey that has many emotions that can overwhelm us all at one time - - it is a journey that is frequently referred to as a horror roller coaster ride.
Please let me try to reassure you that your beloved Sosso's sweet Living Spirit continues to share your earthly journey as she always has and always will. One of the many painful adjustments we go through when our beloved companions precede us to the angels is to their physical absence. We live in a physically oriented world governed by the 5 senses of taste, touch, sight, sound, and smell. We are conditioned through our life to come to believe that what isn't known by these 5 senses does not exist. But there is another dimension that transcends all of the physical senses - - and that dimension is known as eternal love - - which is not restricted to the physical laws of time and space. The love bond you and your beloved Sosso shared during her earthly journey continues on - - through all eternity. Even though your beloved Sosso is no longer physically with you, she is always and forever a part of your heart and memories, leftbehind - - she is always and forever a heartbeat close to you. When you feel her presence with you, it is not a figment of your imagination - - it is her way of letting you know that she is always with you - - whether or not you feel her.
It is so nice that you continue to talk to your beloved Sosso - - for the sound of your voice is as sweet to her now as it was during her earthly journey with you - - for she is always listening intently to every word you share with her.
I know from first hand experience that when our hearts are entrenched in deep grief there are no adequate words in any language that can soothe the deep seering pain of sorrow. Still, I hope the words I share with you will be able to offer you some measure of comfort, support, encouragement, and hope as you travel your grief adjustment journey. One of the many things you need to remember is that you are not alone in your journey - - each of us here do understand what you are feeling, and we are here for you for as long and as often as you need us.
Thank you so much for honoring us by sharing your beloved Sosso with us, leftbehind. Perhaps sometime you will feel up to sharing a picture(s) of her with us - - but only when / if you want to. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, leftbehind, and please let us know how you're doing.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Hi, moon_beam!
I want to say a huge THANK YOU for your kind words and your support!It's been a true relief to me.
The fact of knowing that there is a person in the world that knows exactly my thoughts, made me feel I'm not alone..
I realized that sorrow and grief is a circle..Some days I feel a little bit better and then something happens and I go back to pain.I'm trying to deal with it...
She is in my thoughts and my heart every moment, I still talk to her and hope that she listens, as you mentioned.
Let me express my sympathies for your loss, too.I hope you're feeling better and
only happy memories are left there for you.I'm here to listen if you need somebody to talk to.
I wish all the best for you moon_beam, you seem to be a person with a kind heart and you deserve it!
THANK YOU, once more!Although, two words cannot express how thankful I am!
Have a beautiful day!
Hi, leftbehind, thank you so very much for sharing with us how you're doing. It is a privilege for me to be here on this forum to try to bring comfort, support, encouragement, and hope to you and others who are traveling a very painful journey in their lives - - one of the most painful experiences ever to be encountered during your earthly journey. I know from first hand experience how painful this grief adjustment journey can be, and if my experiences can help you, and others, in whatever way possible to know you are not alone in your deep grief, then my experiences will have some meaning. Although we will never meet face to face on this side of eternity, please know we share the best friendship possible on this side of eternity - - for we are brought together through the most wonderful bond of love we will will know - - the bond of eternal love we share with our beloved companions. There are no strangers here.
I hope today is treating you kindly, leftbehind, and that you will have a very peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Sosso's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, leftbehind, and please let us know how you're doing.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
I hope today is treating you kindly, leftbehind, and that you will have a very peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Sosso's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, leftbehind, and please let us know how you're doing.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
I’m so very sorry for your loss. Our animals are more than just pets to us, they are part of our family. When a human dies, we are surrounded by supportive thoughts. People send flowers, cards, and comfort food. Yet, when our animals die only true animal lovers understand what we are going through. If anything, animals make us more compassionate humans. They gift us the gift of compassion that we can understand and emphasize with others who have lost their precious animals. I know that it has been very hard for me this past month since Scout died. .. The house is so quiet, grocery shopping hurts (don’t look at the pet aisle), hard to go into the laundry room where his litter box was. Still don’t wanna wash the sheet on the spare bed he loved sleeping on. Seeing other cats even hurts. Why should those cats run free and my Scout who was so amazing is no longer here???? It’s not fair. Most people don’t understand. I never expected to lose him so soon. Yet, some things that have helped me deal with my grief—I created a photo tribute slideshow to Scout’s life. It was really hard and I had a box of tissues on hand, but it also made me smile and gave me a small amount of comfort looking at how happy he was with us. I am also re-doing my backyard and creating a memory garden for Scout where eventually I will spread his ashes. It is healing for me to plant living things to deal with my loss. I also wrote several letters to Scout and a parting prayer for him. I even called a pet psychic. She told me some interesting things. Talking to other animal lovers on these boards has helped immensely. Talking to friends who have lost animals helps as well. No one understands better than other animal lovers. None of this is what I wanted but I try to remember the love I gave him during his life and be happy for the short time we had together. I hope soon that the memories of your beloved pet’s life will bring comfort to your heart as you remember the unique love you shared as well as give you compassion to live with the rest of your life. Until you meet again someday. Be well.
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