gravessa
Jul 18 2013, 08:29 AM
It 5 months nearly since Simba passed away with a single last quiet sigh of life, it is not only you Simba that died that day my heart died with you. Felt so lonely without my special boy, not being able to hold you, not seeing enjoy your garden especially in your favourite places where you always sat, hearing you call me or greet me with your special touch, seeing your lovely kind ginger furry face every day, words cannot express the emptiness I feel without you everything is pointless just wish it would end so I can come to you & your waiting for me comes to an end. I look in the places that you enjoyed being in & it is not right you are not there, not just thinking of my self for but you. Just wish if God truly cared that he would never separate us & that we could have gone together to his eternity at the same time. I felt as though you Simba, were the only 1 who cared when everyone else was too busy or too quick to make selfish demands regardless of what the consequences & no one gave a damn when we needed comfort or support, you gave your love freely & unquestioned - so glad I told you so when you where here with more importantly Simba I hope I made you feel special, loved, wanted & needed.
moon_beam
Jul 18 2013, 08:57 AM
Hi, gravessa, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing, and your and your beloved Simba's 5 month angel-versary. This grief adjustment journey is very painful indeed, and I can feel your deep sorrow not having your beloved Simba's sweet precious physical presence with you. It is a very painful adjustment to the "new normal" without your beloved Simba physically sharing your life. I know from first hand experience how empty the hours, days, weeks, and months feel after a beloved companion transitions home to the angels.
I have looked through your initial posting of your beloved Simba, and smile when I see his pictures. There is no doubt that he knows he is eternally loved, and is blessed to have you for his Forever Mom. I hope and pray that someday your heart will be able to once again enjoy the many treasured memories you and your beloved Simba share.
I hope today is treating you kindly, gravessa, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Simba's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, gravessa, and please let us know how you're doing.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
gravessa
Aug 12 2013, 03:04 PM
So sorry for the delay in my reply to say thank you for your kind words again Moonbeam. I knew it was going to bad even though we spent only just under 4 precious years together, but even now I feel as bad if not worse than when it happened, seeing his familiar favourite places empty as I am feeling for the loss of Simba to heaven's gain.
moon_beam
Aug 12 2013, 03:22 PM
Hi, gravessa, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. Unfortunately there is no easy way to navigate this grief adjustment journey, - - but I hope you are finding comfort, support, encouragement, and hope here. Although we will never personally meet, please know you are among friends here who truly do understand how you are feeling and what you are going through.
I hope today is treating you kindly, gravessa, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Simba's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, gravessa, and please let us know how you're doing.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
CritzyJ
Aug 13 2013, 08:13 PM
Gravessa,
My heart breaks for you as it breaks for my own self, losing my two cats on the same day just two weeks ago. Joe (age 20) and Steve (age 15) were our constant companions throughout our entire marriage. Life just doesn't seem the same without them here. There is a knot in my chest and a hole in my life. It is so awful to lose a precious fur baby. I do know how you feel. I just try each day to remember them, to talk to them. Each day I light a candle for each of them and hope they hear me through the flame somehow. I have found peace through this ritual. I cry every time I do it, but as sad as I am not to have them here with me, I hope they are happy on "the other side." Death is a part of life. I don't mean to sound insensitive, but we don't escape this life without pain and it is not something God has done to us purposely. You will be reunited with you sweet baby on the other side. Please hang in there and try to find hope and joy in the little things each day. We are all here for you!
CritzyJ
adamtperkins
Aug 14 2013, 09:28 PM
Dear Graveea I Know Simba was your light just keep it burning in your heart. This is a pain we can share having just lost my best friend in the whole world Pogo. After 16 years of welcome homes the house is a little more quit and dark with out my buddy to brighten it up. I think back to the last trip to the vet when
i brought her home, it was like she was saying "Not here Daddy,Iwant to go home with you" and at home she died, in her favorite spot by kitchen door. Every night as
i enter the house, i stop thinking Pogo will be running up the stairs welcoming me home, but only silence. Like Pogo I'm sure Simba was where he needed to be, not for himself but for you, giving us both in their own was one last gift. Hope this help
gravessa
Aug 20 2013, 01:45 PM
Thanks very much for your kind words, its tearing me apart my hubby has a cat called Walker but for some reason there is a barrier between us its not just my for grief for Simba something more than that. The vet (when I took Walker)said get another 1 but which I could easily do but Simba was THE ONE! even though it was for under 4 short years. You cannot switch off what was real love & affection just to switch it on for another with the best will in the world. I know death is part of life & Simba's suffering ended in a way with dignity humans are denied but it has broken my heart. Having previously had cats before knew it was going to be bad but not this bad, going through the motions each sad lonely pointless day. We were inseparable sometimes to my husband's irritation when he did make an appearance. Makes it so painful when they have such short lives & our lives can be so grindingly long.
moon_beam
Aug 21 2013, 01:56 PM
Hi, gravessa, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. I do so understand how you're feeling when you share with us "Makes it so painful when they have such short lives & our lives can be so grindingly long." Our earthly journey with our beloved companions is never long enough for we will always want and long for just one more minute, one more hour, one more day - - one more lifetime. We are the ones who must find the courage and strength to be the witness to their legacy they leave with us when they precede us to the angels - - to honor their unconditional eternal love. It is a very hard and painful journey adjusting to their physical absence - - and it is a journey that can seem to have no end particularly during our very deep grief.
I am sorry you received the response from your veterinary care provider to go out and get another companion. While some people would find this advice comforting others, such as you and I, would find it to be very insensitive. Some people find it comforting to adopt another companion quickly as having a precious companion to hold and love can help some people through the difficult and painful grief adjustment journey. Other people find it more helpful to wait until their deep grief has eased before embracing a new companion into their hearts and lives. Some people find it helpful to participate in rescue and foster care until they feel ready to adopt another companion. And some people never adopt again - - for many reasons. You, gravessa, are the only one who can make the decision as to if and /or when you are ready to embrace another companion. While your veterinary care provider's heart may have been in the "right place" to try to offer you encouragement to embrace a new companion to help ease your grief journey, it is obvious that - - for you - - the timing was not appropriate. I share your feelings, gravessa.
I hope today is treating you kindly, gravessa, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Simba's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, gravessa, and please let us know how you're doing.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
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