On sunday night I had to put my 3 year old Millie to sleep. She was the most beautiful yellow lab I had ever seen both inside and out. My husband and I had got my little angel because we were struggling in our marriage together and i guess we needed to learn love again. And we saw my Millie or my nickname my love love. Such a cute pink nose we had to have her but bring her home to our pack with an alpha female named Swiss and Byron our old coon hound was going to be tough. And it truly was Swiss didnt take a liking to her at all, but my love love didnt care she was bound to make everyone love her. It didnt take long and you would see a yellow and brown ball of labs running through the woods together. Or the morning kisses she would give to Byron whether he wanted them or not. She was 55 lbs of love soft silky fur and all heart. Not only did she teach those two how special they were she fixed my husband and i too. She taught us how special we were and to always smile and have fun. If not our faces would be covered in kisses and love nibbles on our ears and noses. It was just her and i loved it. I know many can say that they had the perfect pet but i truly did, there was not a thing i would change.

This past fall she scared us half to death with eating a corn cob and getting it stuck in her tummy. I hated those eyes she gave me as i walked away from her leaving her at the vet for surgery. I vowed i would never see those eyes again because when she was with her pack she was always happy never sad always proud. However saturday night i seen those i eyes again i told her i loved her and would be back to pick her up when she was fixed again. This time though turned different she had twisted her intestines and her chances were minimal i knew she would not make it cause she was a marshmallow with the biggest heart. We decided it was time for god to have my love love back.

I never thought it would be this hard. She slept by my feet at night and i have found the last nights are restless as my feet look for her comfort and she is not there. I am trying to be happy for the rest of my pack right now but she brought so much love and joy to my heart, my house, my pack and anyone that met her.... i hope the pain starts to go away but right now i keep thinking its not fair i only got three years of[ the most pure and true love of my life.

Rest in peace my love love i cannot wait to be reunited with you some day.

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Hi, tammysangel, please permit me to offer you my sincerest sympathies in the physical loss of your beloved Millie. Losing a companion is never easy regardless of the circumstances or how long we are blessed with the privilege of their company. Euthanasia is the last gift of love we can give to our companions at great sacrifice to ourselves so that they can be restored to their former youthfulness in the company of the angels.

Tammysangel, this grief journey is one of the hardest experiences you will know on this side of eternity. It is filled with many different emotions that can overwhelm us all at one time - - it is a journey that is frequently referred to as a horror roller coaster ride. It is a journey that can only be traveled one day at a time, sometimes one moment at a time in your own way and in your own time for it is a journey that is now filled with all the "first withouts" and the "this time yesterday, last week, last month, last year" to endure.

The good news in the midst of all your deep sorrow is that the love bond you and your beloved Millie share is eternal - - it is not restricted to the physical laws of time and space. Your beloved Millie continues to share your earthly journey as she always has and always will, for she is always and forever a part of you - - she is always and forever in your heart and memories - - she is always and forever a heartbeat close to you.

I know there are no adequate words in any language that can soothe the seering pain of sorrow that is in your heart, tammysangel. I can only hope and pray that the words I share with you will somehow be able to offer you some measure of comfort, support, encouragement, and hope as you travel your grief adjustment journey. One of the many things you need to remember is that you are not alone - - each of us here do understand what you are going through, and we are here for you for as long and as often as you need us.

Thank you so very much for sharing your beloved Millie with us, tammysangel. She is a sweet girl - - and the love in her eyes is a reflection of the eternal love she shares with you and your husband. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, tammysangel, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Tammysangel, I'm so sorry for your loss of your beloved Millie. She was certainly a beautiful dog and I know that you miss her a great deal. Look forward to being reunited with her someday at the Rainbow Bridge. Her spirit awaits you there.

Thank you all for you words and prayers. It helps my pack out a lot! I know I will be greiving for awhile for my love love but I will never forget!

Tammysangel,

I hope you are doing well today, it is my third day without my pretty girl Esme and I have found that the pain is getting to be a little more tolerable. It helps knowing that others are going through the same thing as me and are incredibly supportive. My thoughts and prayers are with you during this trying time.