On Saturday jan 9 it will b a year since i lost my calico cat Casper,she was almost 16 years old.I had her more then almost half my life i was 22 when she had passed and her since i was 6 years old. Last year jan 9 2012 i had to make the decision to put her to sleep because over night she developed a blood clot in her back legs that paralyzed her back legs nd tail, the vet said even if he tried to treat her she prolly wouldnt have made it thru the day and he said she was in alot of pain but i didnt realize how much i loved her until she wasnt here anymore. My world crashed on jan 9 losing her. Even close to a year i still miss her. She will always be my babygirl. In a store called build-a-bear they got a new stuff animal in and it was a calico cat so i went there thinking i can get it and it wont bother me but i got to the store saw that animal and had a break down, this might sound crazy but it looked so much like her and had the same color eyes i couldnt do it, it just reminded me of how hurt i am still by the loss of her. Its crazy how much of an impact an animal can have on ur life but she really was my bestfriend. Idk how much i believe in religion and god after god took her away from me but i would like to believe that she is in a better place not in pain. I love her to death always will but sometimes im just sick of crying i feel like i cant think of a good memory of her without crying and crying over her is not the way i want to remember her. Ever since she left i focused on life because everytime i had a moment to myself i cried thinking about the pain im in losing her. My life is going pretty good but would b better if she was still here wit me to share it. Yea people say she was just an animal but she was my animal and she was my bestfriend.


"I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye"

-Mariah Carey "bye,bye"

I must of listened to this song everyday a million times because i feel like this is the only song that can express how i feel. I hope wherever she is now she knows how much im dying inside now without her and how much i will always love her.

She is a beautiful girl. So sorry about your loss. I know exactly how you feel... I miss my baby boy terribly.
I don't know what to say except that this forum does help to cope with this unbearable pain.
Share with us how you feel and hopefully it will ease your pain.
Stay strong.

Gizy's mom

I honestly thought being close to a year it wouldnt hurt so bad but it still hurts nd feels like she just passed

Hi EvEf,

Sorry for your loss of Casper. A year can fly by so fast, it's hardly any time to adjust when your kitty was in your life for so long. You never stop missing them, time only eases the pain so we can try to remember all the good times. Losing someone you love has to be the hardest thing we face in life. Your not alone here, people on this site are wonderful and offer a lot of support, talk about her as much as you need to.

Take care,
PomMom

EvEf, I was just thinking of you the other day and was wondering how you were doing. Thanks for sharing with us about Casper. The first year is the toughest, because there are so many "firsts". I'm sure you missed her very much this Christmas. I am very sorry for your loss. You know I adore calico cats, because they get so attached and are so devoted to their human. Casper was special, very special. She grew up with you as you were growing up. But please don't think that God took Casper away from you. Unfortunately, here on earth death is part of the order of things. God is grieved just as much as you are by your Casper's death, and He grieves with you. I can tell there is a huge void in your heart. Don't listen to those people who say Casper was "just" an animal. She WAS your best friend, and she's with the angels now, and she's still watching over you.

Hugs,
DannysMom

She choose to get sick less then a month before my birthday last year and it was hard to enjoy it knowing i lost her less then a month but now its been almost a year knowing my birthday is in less then a month dont make it any easier it still is hard to enjoy anything knowing she isnt here anymore. I thought a year would be less pain but its not and honestly im really just sick of the crying and im sick of keeping the pain inside cuz noone knowing that im still dying inside from the pain of losing her still.

EvEf, my heart goes out to you. My Danny has been gone over a year, but I still miss him very much at times, and it still hurts, so I can understand how you feel. You mentioned that you are "sick of keeping the pain inside". I know how that feels as well. Sometimes it helps to talk to someone who understands and just let out the pain and the tears. Your Casper was with you through your formative years and you developed a very strong bond to her and it hurts to be physically separated from her. What you are feeling is normal. You don't have to hold it inside. I know full well the feeling of not being able to enjoy things. This past Christmas was the first Christmas without Tina and Danny and I missed them both so very much. We are here for you, EvEf. Please know that you are not alone.

Hugs,
DannysMom

This was my first christmas without Casper and all i could think about is if she was around she would be playing with the ornaments and try getting them off the tree. Its hard going thru everything without her its different