Is anyone out there? I feel like I'm going crazy!! This hurts so, so much! I miss my Cassiopia angel so, so much! I just don't know how to go on living without her!
Christina
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awww, Christina, I'm here, and I know exactly how you feel.
One of the worst things about your beloved pet dying is that no one else seems to care at all, even close family members can be quite callous. You had a special bond with your Cassiopia, and remember how you said she got you through very tough times, she turned your life around? Cassiopia would want you to keep on living the good life you learned from her, to be happy in your days. Remember the things she gave you, something to take care of which made you have a better life...
maybe when you feel so desparately lonely for her you can shift your focus onto your new little girl -- I have a feeling Cassiopia would want you to get an A+++ in the lssson she came to teach you: to see your life expand and grow via the love you give to all the needy little creatures that end up in your life!!
I had the same terrible feelings at first too about the vets and how they failed me, and feeling like I had failed my dog Jake by not getting him good enough care or whatever, and I too had sworn he would die at home but he ended up dieing at a Vet ER Hospital and he HATED going to the vets -- but really, the truth comes down to I felt like a failure because I had to let him die, and maybe you feel this way too, because you could not stop it. But there is nothing you could have done and I am sure you spared your Cassiopia great suffering by not taking her home, out of the care of professionals. The whole grieving process is so uncomfortable, but hang in there -- alot of us DO understand even if your mother or husband don't.
BTW, where does the name Cassiopia come from, did you make it up? that is a pretty name!
One of the worst things about your beloved pet dying is that no one else seems to care at all, even close family members can be quite callous. You had a special bond with your Cassiopia, and remember how you said she got you through very tough times, she turned your life around? Cassiopia would want you to keep on living the good life you learned from her, to be happy in your days. Remember the things she gave you, something to take care of which made you have a better life...
maybe when you feel so desparately lonely for her you can shift your focus onto your new little girl -- I have a feeling Cassiopia would want you to get an A+++ in the lssson she came to teach you: to see your life expand and grow via the love you give to all the needy little creatures that end up in your life!!
I had the same terrible feelings at first too about the vets and how they failed me, and feeling like I had failed my dog Jake by not getting him good enough care or whatever, and I too had sworn he would die at home but he ended up dieing at a Vet ER Hospital and he HATED going to the vets -- but really, the truth comes down to I felt like a failure because I had to let him die, and maybe you feel this way too, because you could not stop it. But there is nothing you could have done and I am sure you spared your Cassiopia great suffering by not taking her home, out of the care of professionals. The whole grieving process is so uncomfortable, but hang in there -- alot of us DO understand even if your mother or husband don't.
BTW, where does the name Cassiopia come from, did you make it up? that is a pretty name!
Thank you so much for being there for me. I just feel so lost and empty and alone. I really need someone to understand, and you all have been so kind to me! I know that my Mom loves me very much. She lives a couple of minutes away, and we have always been very close. She has lost animals that she has loved in her life, too. I know she's trying, but I don't think she knows how to be there for me right now.
I am having such a hard time with how Cassie went. I knew she was sick, but I didn't know just how much. When we took her to the specialist last week, i thought they would tell me how to help my baby feel better. Instead, they basically told me she was too sick for them to help her. My husband and I were staying in a hotel, and the docs only let us visit Cassie a few times a day. I kept asking the doctors what I could do to get her comfortable at home. I didn't want her to end her life in a hospital! The docs said she needed more tests in order to treat and stabilize her. They did a liver biopsy and my poor angel was bleeding internally. Why did I put her through so much?? A week ago, she didn't seem nearly as sick!! She seemed to get so bad so quickly. I should never have taken her to the hospital, but at the time, I really thought they would be able to help her. I hate myself so much for having to put my baby to sleep in a hospital. I was with her in the end. But, I should have known before I took her there that she was too sick. I just didn't know.I thought they would be able to help her. God, I let my angel down so much!!
I really, truly don't know how to face living without her. I can't imagine the world without my angel. I know my sweet Morgan needs her Mommy, but if I didn't have her, I'd go and be with my Cassie angel!!
You asked how my Cassie got her name. 10 years ago, when I first got my angel, she had been abandoned, thrown out of a car window. My neighbor at the time, found her. She was way too young to be away from her mother. She was so tiny and sweet. My neighbor had rats for pets, and couldn't have a kitty. He told me about Cassie. I came over to his house. I fell in love with this sweet little kitten instantly. He(my neighbor)had given her the name Cassiopia, because her beautiful markings were similar to the formation of the star constellation. The constellation is spelled differently, but I spelled it Cassiopia. Anyways, Cassie was in the back of the house, and my neighbor called out her name, and she just came running! She was so young, so tiny, and she was so smart she already knew her name. I took her in my arms and held her. From the time she was so tiny, she loved to climb on my shoulder. I always walked around with my angel on my shoulder. And she always came when you called her name. God, I miss her so much. I can still feel her on my shoulder, cuddling up to me. She was only 10!! Her life was cut way too short. And, I feel like I'm to blame. She saved my life! Why couldn't I save hers? I let her down so much. I can't stand it. I miss her so much!! I don't know what to do. Thank you all for being there for me.
Christina, and my sweet angel in heaven, Cassiopia
I am having such a hard time with how Cassie went. I knew she was sick, but I didn't know just how much. When we took her to the specialist last week, i thought they would tell me how to help my baby feel better. Instead, they basically told me she was too sick for them to help her. My husband and I were staying in a hotel, and the docs only let us visit Cassie a few times a day. I kept asking the doctors what I could do to get her comfortable at home. I didn't want her to end her life in a hospital! The docs said she needed more tests in order to treat and stabilize her. They did a liver biopsy and my poor angel was bleeding internally. Why did I put her through so much?? A week ago, she didn't seem nearly as sick!! She seemed to get so bad so quickly. I should never have taken her to the hospital, but at the time, I really thought they would be able to help her. I hate myself so much for having to put my baby to sleep in a hospital. I was with her in the end. But, I should have known before I took her there that she was too sick. I just didn't know.I thought they would be able to help her. God, I let my angel down so much!!
I really, truly don't know how to face living without her. I can't imagine the world without my angel. I know my sweet Morgan needs her Mommy, but if I didn't have her, I'd go and be with my Cassie angel!!
You asked how my Cassie got her name. 10 years ago, when I first got my angel, she had been abandoned, thrown out of a car window. My neighbor at the time, found her. She was way too young to be away from her mother. She was so tiny and sweet. My neighbor had rats for pets, and couldn't have a kitty. He told me about Cassie. I came over to his house. I fell in love with this sweet little kitten instantly. He(my neighbor)had given her the name Cassiopia, because her beautiful markings were similar to the formation of the star constellation. The constellation is spelled differently, but I spelled it Cassiopia. Anyways, Cassie was in the back of the house, and my neighbor called out her name, and she just came running! She was so young, so tiny, and she was so smart she already knew her name. I took her in my arms and held her. From the time she was so tiny, she loved to climb on my shoulder. I always walked around with my angel on my shoulder. And she always came when you called her name. God, I miss her so much. I can still feel her on my shoulder, cuddling up to me. She was only 10!! Her life was cut way too short. And, I feel like I'm to blame. She saved my life! Why couldn't I save hers? I let her down so much. I can't stand it. I miss her so much!! I don't know what to do. Thank you all for being there for me.
Christina, and my sweet angel in heaven, Cassiopia
sounds like your mom can provide at least some support for you, i think many of you will find that support give by those who have recently lost a pet can often be more satisfying than that given by people who lost a pet in more than the recent past. the combination of the two may work well for you. also, please, if the pain gets too much to bear please seek out professional advice...more often than not clinical support can be a good way to slow down the rapid thinking and smooth out the grief cycle a bit. condolences on the loss of Cassie, i am sure she looks down upon you from above with only the fondest memories and love.
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