I am new to this board. I want to share my Fayfay story with you. My dog Fayfay has died last week after battling with CHF and kidney failure. She was 19 years old, I have owned her since she was almost one. She was the sweetest thing in my life. Always slept on my bed, she can read my emotions and we are so attached to each other. It's been over a week, still so unbelievable that she's dead. Home doesn't seem home anymore. Letting go is so hard. I took her to the vet to put to sleep as I don't want to see her suffer anymore pain. During her last few days she has gone downhill so fast that it was so heart breaking. When she was diagnosed with kidney failure over 2 years ago, she lost her appetite, I have been hand feeding her and fed her with a syringe ever since. She was ok until her heart has gotten really bad, she had laboured breathing and even a small movement would take a lot of effort. It was such a painful decision to put her down. I can't stopped the tears, I know some of my friends and family don't understand why I grief so bad, must think I'm nuts. The only comfort thing is I know Fayfay is at peace now, no more suffering. It really hurts hell to see her parting, to be without her, holding her.....but I love her too much to have her stay. She was my best friend, my baby. RIP Fayfay.

See my precious Fayfay

I am so very sorry for your loss. Losing our beloved companions is so very difficult, and even if your family and friends don't understand, you've found a safe place where you ARE understood. We have all been where you are, and I think you'll find this one of the most supportive group of people around. I hope that we are all able to help you through your journey as you grieve for your dear Fayfay.

She is at peace, be assured. We hurt so that our animal friends don't have to. You'll be in my thoughts.

Hi, Remembering, please permit me to add my sincerest sympathies in the physical loss of your beloved Fayfay. Losing a companion is never easy regardless of the circumstances or how long we are blessed with the privilege of their company. Euthanasia is the last gift of love we can give to our companions on this side of eternity - - at great sacrifice to ourselves -- so that they can be restored to their former youthfulness in the company of the angels.

Please let me try to reassure you that what you are feeling is very normal grief - - very painful both physically and emotionally - - yet still very normal. This grief journey is one of the most painful experiences we will know on this side of eternity, for we are faced with the incredibly daunting task of adjusting our lives without the precious physical presence of our companions. This grief adjustment journey is a one day at a time journey, sometimes a one moment at a time journey. It is filled with so many different emotions which can overwhelm us all at one time that we can begin to feel like we are literally going insane. This is one of the many reasons why it is important that you know you are not alone in your journey. As Kel has so comfortingly reassured you, so I wish to affirm her words. Each of us here do understand what you are going through, and we are here for you for as long and as often as you need us.

Thank you so much for sharing your beloved Fayfay with us. Your video of her is a beautiful tribute to the eternal love you share together. Her sweet Living Spirit is forever a part of you, Remembering, - - she is forever a heartbeat close to you.

I know there are no words in any language that can soothe seering pain of loss that is in your heart right now. But I do wish to reassure you that someday when you least expect it you will find yourself smiling - - truly smiling -- and your heart will soar with the warmth of your and your beloved's Fayfay eternal love. But for now please know you are among friends here through every step of your journey.

I hope today is being kind to you, Remembering. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Dear Remembering Fayfay,

I am so sorry for your loss of your precious Fayfay. That was such a sweet video of her. She reminds me so much of my Mickey. He passed away here at home of CHF 13 months ago. He was Maltese-Pekingese, 14 1/2 yrs. old.

This is a long and hard grief journey, but try to remember the good things during the 19 yrs. you were blessed with....Rem Fayfay, you are in my thoughts and prayers.....God Bless..

LoveMyMickey

Dear Remembering Fayfay, please accept my sincere sympathies on the loss of your beloved Fayfay. She was a cute little dog, so adorable! I am very sorry that you are hurting so much right now, and I wish that there was something I could say to make the pain go away. Grief is hard and it takes a toll on us. Fayfay was truly loved very much by you. You cared enough to hand feed her when she was having kidney problems. And she must have been so thankful for all your love and care. Letting go of a beloved furry friend is never easy, but as moon_beam would say your little Fayfay is restored to her former youthfulness in the company of the angels. I am sorry that some of your friends and family members do not understand your loss and why it hurts you so much. Try to find comfort from the people who will actually understand your loss and know how much you are hurting. There are so many wonderful people here in this forum, and we have been there at one time or another. Please know that we are here to offer comfort, support, and encouragement.

Hugs,
DannysMom

Thank you for all your kind words and support. I hope it gets easier. I see flashes of images of her, the last look into her eyes.

From one pet lover to another.

See my precious Fayfay Here!

Im sorry for ur lost. You said ur friends prolly think urs nuts..thats how mine feel i lost my callico cat casper two months ago she woulda been 16 this month and i still cry thinking bout her. She was my bestfriend sometimes if im out and coming home i think imma come home findin her in her favorite spot but i have to remind myself shes not here anymore and thats the hardest part.