Maggie's Mommy
Feb 2 2012, 10:26 PM
I am heartbroken! I put my Maggie to sleep on Sunday. I know it's not even been a week but I have never felt this kind of pain before. I don't have children and I am a single person so Maggie was my family. I felt that with her I was a mommy. Now she is gone and my house and heart seems empty. I am now physically ill which I believe is due to lack of sleep and eating. I am not able to work and have called in sick a few days. My job is ok with it so far, partly because I am so physically ill but also because I have been at my company for years and I don't call in. Everyone says this is normal and it will pass but I am not sure I want it to. I don't want to not think of her and I feel guilty when I think of moving on. I just feel as though my heart doesn't beat the same without her.
Snicky's Mom
Feb 3 2012, 01:45 AM
Maggie's Mommie, I am so,so sorry for you. I know you are hurting and we are here to comfort you through this journey. What you are feeling is perfectly normal. If you have not experienced this before, let me recommend the website helpguide.org . They have some excellent articles about grieving for your pet and grieving in general that will let you know what to expect. We are all here for you. Try to get some rest and surround yourself with people who love you and care about you. Don't try to do this alone. I am praying for some peace and comfort for you. Jennifer
autumn leaves
Feb 3 2012, 04:27 AM
Maggies Mommy -
I am so sorry for your loss. Like you, I am single and live alone, and spent most of my time with my best friend Zoey for the past 7+ years, and she suddenly became ill and I had to put her to sleep New Years Day. I have such a hard time not having her in the room with me, she followed me everywhere. I have never felt such pain, but with the help of the others here, you will be OK, and I pray that happens soon. It's only been a month for me, but I still weep when I think about her. I try instead to think about the fun we had, and it makes me smile. You will meet Maggie again and she will be thrilled to see you again. I'm kind of a new at this, so keep coming on here and everyone will help you. I will be thinking about you, too.
Take care,
Jerry
mario8
Feb 3 2012, 06:30 AM
Maggies Mommy,
I am so sorry for your loss. What you are going through is normal and we are all here for you. If you have any family or close friends try and reach out to them. Hang in there and GOD bless.
xxForeverxx
Feb 3 2012, 01:46 PM
Maggie's Mommy
I am so sorry for your loss. I know how hard it is as I had to put my Chewy down on the 3rd of January. It is like losing a child no matter what anyone says. You feed them, lay with them, play with them, clean up after them and they show you in return this unconditional love that not even a human can give. They give us more than we can give them by showing us that love and allowing us to feel that love.
The website Snicky's Mom has mentioned is really good. I looked at that for myself and of course don't expect it to cure your sadness but it let's you know what you are feeling is normal and does give some advice. So thank you Snicky's Mom for that.
I have also purchased a book called 'so easy to love, so hard to lose.' I haven't read too much yet as I needed to purchase a special notebook for it as at the end of each chapter it asks you questions to write down in a notebook and answer as a tribute to your pet. I purchased my notebook today which is a beautiful one with a cat on it ready to start as soon as possible.
My deepest sympathies
xxForeverxx
moon_beam
Feb 3 2012, 04:05 PM
Hi, Maggie's Mommy, please permit me to add my sincerest sympathies in the physical loss of your beloved Maggie. Losing a beloved companion is never easy regardless of the circumstances or how long we are blessed with the privilege of their company. Euthanasia is the last gift of love we can give to our companions on this side of eternity at great sacrifice to ourselves so that they can be restored to their former youthfulness in the company of the angels.
Maggie's Mommy, this grief journey is one of the hardest experiences you will know on this side of eternity. Clinical professionals now recognize that the physical loss of a beloved companion is as hard as, if not more so, as the physical loss of a human family member or friend. So please let me try to reassure you that what you are feeling is very normal - - very painful, yes - - both physically and emotionally - - but still very normal. Grieving takes a lot of energy, and the stress of grief does take a toll on your immune system. It is very important that you try to keep the stress levels at a minimum as much as possible especially during the deep grief. It is also very important that you keep yourself hydrated for the stress of grief can lead to dehydration and other physical challenges. If you are not able to eat please be sure to drink plenty of fluids - - water, broth, - - etc.. The symptoms of nauseau, insomnia, depression, etc., are all a part of the deep grief, Maggie's Mommy. In time these symptoms will ease, but it just takes time - - and it is important that you take extra special care of yourself during this physical and emotional vulnerable time in your life.
Another important thing for you to understand is that this grief journey is not about "moving on" or "forgetting" your beloved Maggie. It is a journey of adjustment to the phsyical absence of your beloved Maggie - - which is a very difficult and painful physical and emotional adjustment. The love bond you and your beloved Maggie have is eternal - - it is not dependent upon the physical laws of time and space. Your beloved Maggie's sweet Living Spirit is forever with you in your heart and memories. She continues to share your earthly journey just as she always has and always will. NOTHING - - no matter how much time passes nor the dimming of your mind with age (and I promise you this as I am a senior citizen) - - will ever take your beloved Maggie away from you.
This grief journey can only be traveled one day at a time in your own way and in your own time. One of the many things you need to remember is that you are not alone in your grief journey - - not ever. Each of us here do understand what you are going through, and we are here for you for as long and as often as you need us.
Maggie's Mommy, I know there are no adequate words in any language that can begin to soothe the seering pain in your heart. I can only hope that the words I have shared with you will bring some comfort, encouragement, support, and hope to you as you travel your grief journey. Perhaps sometime you will feel up to sharing a picture(s) of your beloved Maggie with us - -but only when / if you want to. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Maggie's Mommy, and that I look forward to knowing how you're doing.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Maggie's Mommy
Feb 4 2012, 09:56 AM
Thank you everyone! Today I am going back home to remove all of the bubble wrap(when she went blind last year I wrapped all objects that could hurt her in bubble wrap), her ramp to my bed, her dog bed and her dishes. I have tons of pictures around on the walls and tables but those are staying. I wasn't going to move the stuff out just yet but looking at it is killing me. I am going to start a memory box with her favorite frog and some of her dresses. I have had friends tell me they would go and do it for me but I think I have to for the closure. Feels so weird to cook and not have her in the kitchen trying to steal a little bit of food or actually ALL of the food. My life has been turned upside down and for right now this is just gonna be my new normal. She was such a good and sweet girl. All of my friends and family are mourning. She was kind of the family/friend pet. She never met a stranger and she loved everyone. Even when she went blind when kids would come running to her she would just get so excited and happy. Maggie believed that people were good and love was all that was needed. Wish I was a kind hearted as she was.
moon_beam
Feb 4 2012, 11:44 AM
Hi, Maggie's Mommy, thank you so very much for sharing with us how you're doing. From personal experience of a different nature, please let me try to reassure you that it is very wise of you to do what you need to do to help you through your grief adjustment journey rather than have someone else do it for you - - such as removing the bubble wrap that protected your beloved Maggie from harm. It isn't about "closure" - - it is about sharing this with your beloved Maggie. Talk to her as you are doing this - - "my dearest Maggie, I put this up to protect you from harm, but now you don't need it anymore. You are now free of all your physical infirmaties - - you can see again, you can romp again and you are with beloved friends of many people in the company of the angels." She is there with you, Maggie's Mommy, "thank you so much for making sure that my earthly journey with you was happy and safe and loved, mommy. Thank you so much for your eternal love - - I'm still with you - - always and forever. I love you, and I am so happy to have you for my Forever Mom."
The memory box is an excellent idea, and I hope it will bring you comfort and happiness as you prepare it. This is the beginning of a "new normal" - - and it is going to be an adjustment that has many ups and downs, twists and turns and turnarounds - - it is frequently referred to as a horror roller coaster ride. But I promise you, Maggie's Mommy, that eventually the ride will become less painful, and this is what your beloved Maggie wants for you. As the pain eases your heart will be able to embrace the many wonderful and treasured memories you and your beloved Maggie share.
I hope today is being kind to you, Maggie's Mommy. Take it slowly - - if you find that things become too overwhelming then stop. Take it in stages. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Maggie's Mommy, and look forward to knowing how you're doing.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
EvEf
Feb 10 2012, 07:08 PM
i lost my cat exactly a month ago like u said pplz say u will move on but honestly i still havent
life sucks witout her
everytime i feel like im happi for once i feel so guilty for bein happi wen she isnt here wit me anymore
but just kno there will b a time again where u will start to feel sum sort of happiness again
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