Oct. 22nd i lost my best friend lucky to seizures, my boy lucky a 6 year old cao-de-fila (portuguese mastiff) he and his brother had been in the family since 6 weeks old. a year and a half ago Lucky started having seizures, we took him to the vet he ran all sorts of tests and concluded that it was Epelepsy, we started him on barbital with in 6 months he was up to 280 mg. a day the seizures weren't getting any better and he was turning into a vegetable so for the next 3 months we weened him off the barbital and started him on potassium bromide, still not much help but at least he didn't seem doped up all the time, the seizures continued once a month just like clockwork, they would last 2 or 3 day's sometimes clustering into 16 sezures over the 3 day's but they were all relatively mild and the vet said there was nothing to worry about the seizures would not kill him, when the episodes would start we would give him valium that would stop some of the clustering, then Oct 20 he started seizuring he had over 10 small seizures over the course of 3 hours , and almost seemed as though he had gotten them out of his system that night i was up all night with him, the next day he was running around playing with his brother and seemed back to normal, then one more seizure again very mild, he snapped right out of it and again was back to his usual self, Sat morn Oct.22nd we went for our usual walk, came home had breakfast, and i gave him his usual treats, at 10:00 am he came to me whining (he would alway's do this when he wanted more treats) but i just told him to go lay down a few seconds later he goes into his last seizure which would last 6 hours and at 4;00 pm he died. for 6 hours i watched helplessly has my boy lay on his side just shaking teeth chattering nothing would help the vet said as long as he was breathing he could snap out of it ( and i hoped and prayed ) but at 4 pm he pooed himself on a blanket i had layed him on and a dark reddish brown blood started pouring out of his mouth. My world fell apart i haven't shed a tear since i was 6 years old and i cryed like a baby so many night i lay awake in bed thinking back to that moment when he came to me whining and i told him to go lay down. i would give anything to have that moment back just to hold him and tell him how much i love him this is a pic. of my boy's at 3 months the darker one on the right is Lucky ohhh how i miss him

I am so sorry for the loss of your precious Lucky. His picture is very beautiful and he has such a sweet face.

It sounds like you tried very hard to help him. We all have our regrets when a pet passes. I keep remembering a few days before my Yorkie went into kidney failure. She kept rooting at my leg with her little nose, wanting me to sit down and hold her on my lap for a few minutes, but I didn't take the time right then. I think of it every day now, wishing I had stopped and held her for a while. But you couldn't possibly have known what was about to happen to Lucky. You were only trying not to overdo the treats. We all have to set limits with the treats or else our babies would be overweight and so full of treats they won't eat their regular food, so please try not to feel bad about it.

I too had a pet in 1999 that passed after a whole night of one long seizure and it is a horrible thing to watch. You and your vet did all you could for your dear Lucky and he is in a better place now.

Hoping your thoughts of Lucky will soon turn to just the good thoughts and happy memories.

Hi, giancarlo, please permit me to offer you my sincerest sympathies in the physical loss of your beloved Lucky. Losing a beloved companion is never easy regardless of the circumstances or how long we are blessed with the privilege of their company.

As I read what happened with your beloved Lucky is clear that you did everything you could for him to make his earthly journey a happy and healthy one. There are some epilepsy cases that are difficult to stop the seizures, but your vet helped you to find a medication that would help diminish their frequency and intensity.

Unfortunately this grief journey has many emotions that overwhelm us, and guilt is one of them - - the "wish I hads" "wish I could have" and on and on and on. Hopefully in time you will come to understand that you gave your beloved Lucky the best advice when he came to you - - to go lie down. Had he not be lying down the seizure that occurred could have perhaps caused additional injury.

You and your beloved Lucky shared an earthly journey filled with so many good memories, and hopefully in time as your deep grief eases you will be able to focus on your treasured memories instead of the last hours and moments of your beloved Lucky's transition to the angels. This is what your beloved Lucky wants for you - - to remember the good times you shared together, and to hold onto the eternal love bond you continue to share.

This grief journey can only be traveled one day at a time, sometimes one moment at a time, and can only be traveled one day at a time in your own way and in your own time. One of the many things for you to remember is that you are not alone during your grief journey. Each of us are here for you for as long and as often as you need us.

Thank you so much for sharing your beloved Lucky with us, giancarlo. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to knowing how you're doing whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
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