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I took Lil'Dog in this morning and now she's gone. She was between 17 and 22 and had a huge growth that was bleeding and infected. I had her put down so that she wouldn't suffer. Now I feel that I should have gone to more lengths to see if I could save her even though the vet said that she was in pain. I should have put her on antibiotics to see. She was still eating. The vet said she was in pain. Now I'm in pain. I can barely breathe. I'm devastated.
Oh PuppyMom
My heart goes completely out to you in your devastation right now. No gift is greater but nothing hurts more than to be the one who decides to set a beautiful lil' dog free. You did the absolutely right thing - no doubt - none. A dog who is 17 to 22 years old and who is in pain needs release. Whether he was eating or not, whether he was wagging his tail or not. He loves you more than anything or anyone in the world. That's why you were chosen - oh, yeah, chosen - to set him free to pass along to the Perfect World. There all animals are always in the prime of their lives. In the Perfect World there is no sickness, no pain, no sadness - only happiness and joy forever and ever and ever. Whoever made this universe had some reason for making our dear animal's lives so much shorter than ours. We'll never know the reason until we, too, reach the Perfect World. Where we WILL be reunited with our beloved animals - this time forever.
Please take things slowly and kindly, PuppyMom. You did right and your Lil'dog is sending down his love to you and gratitude for - with your eyes open to how much it was going to hurt YOU - setting him free and sending him into a Perfect Life. Oh, it's a huge suffering for us earthlings who live, as Moonbeam says, in a world of senses. So when we cannot see or hear or touch somebody, we experience it as their absence. But it's not true. Lil'dog is right there by your side - now in perfect healthe happiness - watching over you, guiding your steps, protecting you from harm, and most importantly of all, loving and being loved by you. A mother's love is the dearest treasure in the universe - and Lil'Dog HAS that. Love is forever - in both directions. Love is unbounded - the more you give, the more there is. It's a miracle.
You've come to the right place (and who do you think guided you here? yup - Lil'Dog!). Every one of us has had the gift of having been found by his or her spirit animal(s) - the ones with whom we've exchanged a part of our souls. You carry a part of Lil'dog's soul and he carries a part of yours - from the beginning of time until its end, this has been so. Every one of us has experienced the gut-wrenching grief that you're going through - each in our own way - but all riding on the roller coaster of horrors that's called grief.
Slowly, slowly, gently, Puppy Mom. Tears will seem to flood the world - and they will - your world. These are tears, yes, of loss and grief, but they are also tears of love. We grieve in proportion as we love. Rest and care for yourself, PuppyMom. And I'll send my Gretta (the kindest chocolate lab who ever lived) to meet your Lil'Dog, show him the ropes, and settle down to a nice "brag' session about their moms. (Lil'Dog gets to win, cuz he's new.)
We're always here to support you - we're a family united, yes, by grief, but more importantly, by loving and ebeing loved by our soul-mate animals. It's a rare gift. That's why the transition hurts so much.
Try to have a calm night and I'll check on you tomorrow.
Blessings,
Gretta's mom
My heart goes completely out to you in your devastation right now. No gift is greater but nothing hurts more than to be the one who decides to set a beautiful lil' dog free. You did the absolutely right thing - no doubt - none. A dog who is 17 to 22 years old and who is in pain needs release. Whether he was eating or not, whether he was wagging his tail or not. He loves you more than anything or anyone in the world. That's why you were chosen - oh, yeah, chosen - to set him free to pass along to the Perfect World. There all animals are always in the prime of their lives. In the Perfect World there is no sickness, no pain, no sadness - only happiness and joy forever and ever and ever. Whoever made this universe had some reason for making our dear animal's lives so much shorter than ours. We'll never know the reason until we, too, reach the Perfect World. Where we WILL be reunited with our beloved animals - this time forever.
Please take things slowly and kindly, PuppyMom. You did right and your Lil'dog is sending down his love to you and gratitude for - with your eyes open to how much it was going to hurt YOU - setting him free and sending him into a Perfect Life. Oh, it's a huge suffering for us earthlings who live, as Moonbeam says, in a world of senses. So when we cannot see or hear or touch somebody, we experience it as their absence. But it's not true. Lil'dog is right there by your side - now in perfect healthe happiness - watching over you, guiding your steps, protecting you from harm, and most importantly of all, loving and being loved by you. A mother's love is the dearest treasure in the universe - and Lil'Dog HAS that. Love is forever - in both directions. Love is unbounded - the more you give, the more there is. It's a miracle.
You've come to the right place (and who do you think guided you here? yup - Lil'Dog!). Every one of us has had the gift of having been found by his or her spirit animal(s) - the ones with whom we've exchanged a part of our souls. You carry a part of Lil'dog's soul and he carries a part of yours - from the beginning of time until its end, this has been so. Every one of us has experienced the gut-wrenching grief that you're going through - each in our own way - but all riding on the roller coaster of horrors that's called grief.
Slowly, slowly, gently, Puppy Mom. Tears will seem to flood the world - and they will - your world. These are tears, yes, of loss and grief, but they are also tears of love. We grieve in proportion as we love. Rest and care for yourself, PuppyMom. And I'll send my Gretta (the kindest chocolate lab who ever lived) to meet your Lil'Dog, show him the ropes, and settle down to a nice "brag' session about their moms. (Lil'Dog gets to win, cuz he's new.)
We're always here to support you - we're a family united, yes, by grief, but more importantly, by loving and ebeing loved by our soul-mate animals. It's a rare gift. That's why the transition hurts so much.
Try to have a calm night and I'll check on you tomorrow.
Blessings,
Gretta's mom
Hi, PuppyMom, please permit me to add my sincerest sympathies in the physical loss of your beloved Lil'Dog. Losing a beloved companion is never easy regardless of the circumstances or how long we are blessed with the privilege of their company. Euthanasia is the last gift of love we can give to our companions - - at great sacrifice to ourselves - - so that they can be restored to their former youthfulness in the company of the angels.
PuppyMom, there are no adequate words in any language that can ease the seering pain that is in your heart right now. This grief journey is filled with so many different emotions that can overwhelm us - - sometimes all at once - - that we no longer know which way is up - - or out - - of this horror roller coaster ride.
PuppyMom, if I may try to offer you some comfort, your vet offered you the best for your beloved Lil'Dog. Considering the circumstances of the growth and Lil'Dog's age, your vet wanted to spare your precious Lil'Dog of further suffering. The infection from the growth with the combined bleeding probably had already taken an irreversible toll on your Lil'Dog's body. Granted, she was still eating -- but that could have dramatically changed within hours, minutes - - adding to a future emergency situation. As difficult as the circumstances were for you to make the greatest decision of ultimate love for your beloved Lil'Dog - - had you waited - - the circumstances could have been considerably worse - - and then you would have wondered why you waited. So, you see, PuppyMom - - there is always the second guessing to endure - - it's a normal part of the grief journey, and one of the hardest to reconcile. Why? Because we are mere mortals - - we are not omnipotent. We can only make the best decisions we can based on the information that we have at any given time. From what you have shared with us, PuppyMom, you did the very best out of the deepest love you have for your beloved Lil'Dog. I hope in time this will bring peace and comfort to your heart.
Unfortunately there is no easy way to travel this grief adjustment journey. There are no "fast forward" or "delete" buttons to press to speed up the process - - or eliminate it. The only way we can travel this journey is one day at a time, sometimes one moment at a time. Adjusting our lives to the physical absence of our companions is one of the hardest experiences we will know on this side of eternity. Our companions give to us their unconditional love and undivided attention, and we in turn surrender ourselves to them completely without reservation. The love bond we share with them is eternal - - it is not limited to the physical laws of time and space. Our companions are forever a part of our hearts and memories - - they are forever a heartbeat close to us.
As Gretta's Mom has so comfortingly reassured you, so I wish to affirm her words to you: Your beloved Lil'Dog is forever grateful to you for releasing her from her failing, frail, painful physical body. Her greatest joy is having you for her Forever Mom, and she continues to share your earthly journey just as she always has and always will. She knows that the minutes, hours, days, and coming weeks will be very difficult for you as you endure the process of adjusting your daily life without her physical presence with you. But her greatest hope is that, as your deep grief eases, you will be able to feel her sweet Living Spirit forever with you - - once again filling your heart with the warmth of the eternal love you share, and will be able to embrace the many cherished memories she shares with you, and continues to share with you through your earthly journey.
PuppyMom, thank you so very much for sharing your beloved Lil'Dog with us. Please know you are among friends here who truly do understand what you are going through, and we are here for you for as long and as often as you need us. Perhaps sometime you will feel up to sharing a picture of your beloved Lil'Dog with us -- but only if / when you feel up to it. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, PuppyMom, and please do let us know how you're doing whenever possible.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
PuppyMom, there are no adequate words in any language that can ease the seering pain that is in your heart right now. This grief journey is filled with so many different emotions that can overwhelm us - - sometimes all at once - - that we no longer know which way is up - - or out - - of this horror roller coaster ride.
PuppyMom, if I may try to offer you some comfort, your vet offered you the best for your beloved Lil'Dog. Considering the circumstances of the growth and Lil'Dog's age, your vet wanted to spare your precious Lil'Dog of further suffering. The infection from the growth with the combined bleeding probably had already taken an irreversible toll on your Lil'Dog's body. Granted, she was still eating -- but that could have dramatically changed within hours, minutes - - adding to a future emergency situation. As difficult as the circumstances were for you to make the greatest decision of ultimate love for your beloved Lil'Dog - - had you waited - - the circumstances could have been considerably worse - - and then you would have wondered why you waited. So, you see, PuppyMom - - there is always the second guessing to endure - - it's a normal part of the grief journey, and one of the hardest to reconcile. Why? Because we are mere mortals - - we are not omnipotent. We can only make the best decisions we can based on the information that we have at any given time. From what you have shared with us, PuppyMom, you did the very best out of the deepest love you have for your beloved Lil'Dog. I hope in time this will bring peace and comfort to your heart.
Unfortunately there is no easy way to travel this grief adjustment journey. There are no "fast forward" or "delete" buttons to press to speed up the process - - or eliminate it. The only way we can travel this journey is one day at a time, sometimes one moment at a time. Adjusting our lives to the physical absence of our companions is one of the hardest experiences we will know on this side of eternity. Our companions give to us their unconditional love and undivided attention, and we in turn surrender ourselves to them completely without reservation. The love bond we share with them is eternal - - it is not limited to the physical laws of time and space. Our companions are forever a part of our hearts and memories - - they are forever a heartbeat close to us.
As Gretta's Mom has so comfortingly reassured you, so I wish to affirm her words to you: Your beloved Lil'Dog is forever grateful to you for releasing her from her failing, frail, painful physical body. Her greatest joy is having you for her Forever Mom, and she continues to share your earthly journey just as she always has and always will. She knows that the minutes, hours, days, and coming weeks will be very difficult for you as you endure the process of adjusting your daily life without her physical presence with you. But her greatest hope is that, as your deep grief eases, you will be able to feel her sweet Living Spirit forever with you - - once again filling your heart with the warmth of the eternal love you share, and will be able to embrace the many cherished memories she shares with you, and continues to share with you through your earthly journey.
PuppyMom, thank you so very much for sharing your beloved Lil'Dog with us. Please know you are among friends here who truly do understand what you are going through, and we are here for you for as long and as often as you need us. Perhaps sometime you will feel up to sharing a picture of your beloved Lil'Dog with us -- but only if / when you feel up to it. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, PuppyMom, and please do let us know how you're doing whenever possible.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
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There is my sweet Lil'Dog. She was a little girl of a mere 35 pounds but ruled the roost. She is the last of a brood of 4 other larger dogs and a cat. My new dog, Teddy, never let her boss him around and I think it hurt her feelings a bit. Now she is back with them, buried at the head of all the others. Boss lady again. I so miss her. Your words really help me and I keep re-reading them. Thank you for being here. Sigh
There is my sweet Lil'Dog. She was a little girl of a mere 35 pounds but ruled the roost. She is the last of a brood of 4 other larger dogs and a cat. My new dog, Teddy, never let her boss him around and I think it hurt her feelings a bit. Now she is back with them, buried at the head of all the others. Boss lady again. I so miss her. Your words really help me and I keep re-reading them. Thank you for being here. Sigh
PuppyMom
What an extraordinary Lil'Dog! Her eyes, her coat, her beautiful head - everything about her says, "I love you Mom."
Peace and blessings
Gretta's mom
What an extraordinary Lil'Dog! Her eyes, her coat, her beautiful head - everything about her says, "I love you Mom."
Peace and blessings
Gretta's mom
PuppyMom
What an extraordinary Lil'Dog! Her eyes, her coat, her beautiful head - everything about her says, "I love you Mom."
Peace and blessings
Gretta's mom
What an extraordinary Lil'Dog! Her eyes, her coat, her beautiful head - everything about her says, "I love you Mom."
Peace and blessings
Gretta's mom
PuppyMom
What an extraordinary Lil'Dog! Her eyes, her coat, her beautiful head - everything about her says, "I love you Mom."
Peace and blessings
Gretta's mom
What an extraordinary Lil'Dog! Her eyes, her coat, her beautiful head - everything about her says, "I love you Mom."
Peace and blessings
Gretta's mom
The little rascal was over 15 years old in this photo. Caught her in the act. Many of her years before I found her as a stray with her brother, she must have lived out of garbage cans. Here is her story:
I lived in Alabama at the time with 3 golden retrievers (2 of them rescues) and a rescue cat. One day as I was sitting on the front porch, a little white dog appeared out of nowhere. She approached me and sat in front of me while I picked off numerous ticks and fleas. I ended up giving her a flea bath. Around that time, I realized there was another dog with her. A beautiful brown spaniel mix who was too scared to come to me. He circled the house for 3 weeks. Lil'Dog came right in the house and started Alfa-ing the goldens around. The beautiful brown spaniel, who I now called Cadbury, still circled the house crying. He never got closer than 100 yards. I put Milkbones out on the deck for him which were gone everyday.
About 3 weeks went by and Cadbury was crying for his Lil'Dog. We let her out and off they went. We figured we'd never see them again. About 4 hours passed and, again sitting on the front porch, along comes Lil'Dog with Cadbury in tow. He immediately came up to me and sat down right in front of me. I sat there and picked off numerous ticks and put Frontline on him. Didn't want to scare him with a bath just yet. To me, this proves that they have very definite communication between them. She must have taken him off and said, "Hey, I'm going back. You can do what you want, but this is a really good deal." They were the most loving animals I've ever had.
After that, I took them to the vet and got them all healthy. Both were treated for heartworm and extreme malnutrition. The vet figured they were about 7 at the time ... this was 1995!
Cadbury passed away last year on October 26, 2010 ... And Lil'Dog was October 25, 2011. How uncanny. I will post a picture of my Cadbury in the next post. I miss them so much. The goldens left this earth in 1999, 2006, and 2008. Thanks for listening to my story. Love, PuppyMom
I lived in Alabama at the time with 3 golden retrievers (2 of them rescues) and a rescue cat. One day as I was sitting on the front porch, a little white dog appeared out of nowhere. She approached me and sat in front of me while I picked off numerous ticks and fleas. I ended up giving her a flea bath. Around that time, I realized there was another dog with her. A beautiful brown spaniel mix who was too scared to come to me. He circled the house for 3 weeks. Lil'Dog came right in the house and started Alfa-ing the goldens around. The beautiful brown spaniel, who I now called Cadbury, still circled the house crying. He never got closer than 100 yards. I put Milkbones out on the deck for him which were gone everyday.
About 3 weeks went by and Cadbury was crying for his Lil'Dog. We let her out and off they went. We figured we'd never see them again. About 4 hours passed and, again sitting on the front porch, along comes Lil'Dog with Cadbury in tow. He immediately came up to me and sat down right in front of me. I sat there and picked off numerous ticks and put Frontline on him. Didn't want to scare him with a bath just yet. To me, this proves that they have very definite communication between them. She must have taken him off and said, "Hey, I'm going back. You can do what you want, but this is a really good deal." They were the most loving animals I've ever had.
After that, I took them to the vet and got them all healthy. Both were treated for heartworm and extreme malnutrition. The vet figured they were about 7 at the time ... this was 1995!
Cadbury passed away last year on October 26, 2010 ... And Lil'Dog was October 25, 2011. How uncanny. I will post a picture of my Cadbury in the next post. I miss them so much. The goldens left this earth in 1999, 2006, and 2008. Thanks for listening to my story. Love, PuppyMom
Hi, PuppyMom, thank you so very much for sharing these wonderful pictures of your beloved Lil'Dog, Cadbury, and Boulder with us. It is true that no matter how much time passes in our earthly journey there will always be a part of us that will miss the precious physical presence of our beloved companions. The good news is that their sweet Living Spirits are forever with us in our hearts and memories - - they are always a heartbeat close to us.
Thank you so very much for sharing your treasured memories of your beloved companions, PuppyMom. Please know that your beloved Lil'Dog, Cadbury, Boulder, and all of your beloved companions are now reunited as one family, and all of our beloved companions are gathered around them listening intently to the loving memories they are sharing with all of the angels and residents in heaven's perfect garden of your devoted eternal love. Each of your beloved companions have a part of your heart that belongs only to them to keep safe - - as you have a part of their hearts to have and to hold - - until it is your appropriate time to join them in eternal joy -- at which time you will be reunited with them for all eternity. But for now, PuppyMom, you - - as each of us - - have the task of continuing your earthly journey in a way that brings honor to your beloved companions' eternal devotion and love for you. In our deep grief this seems like an impossible daunting task, but I assure you, PuppyMom, that in time - - in your own time and in your own way - - your deep grief will ease.
Thank you again so much for sharing these wonderful pictures of your beloved Lil'Dog with us. I hope you are having a peaceful evening. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, PuppyMom, and look forward to knowing how you're doing whenever possible.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Thank you so very much for sharing your treasured memories of your beloved companions, PuppyMom. Please know that your beloved Lil'Dog, Cadbury, Boulder, and all of your beloved companions are now reunited as one family, and all of our beloved companions are gathered around them listening intently to the loving memories they are sharing with all of the angels and residents in heaven's perfect garden of your devoted eternal love. Each of your beloved companions have a part of your heart that belongs only to them to keep safe - - as you have a part of their hearts to have and to hold - - until it is your appropriate time to join them in eternal joy -- at which time you will be reunited with them for all eternity. But for now, PuppyMom, you - - as each of us - - have the task of continuing your earthly journey in a way that brings honor to your beloved companions' eternal devotion and love for you. In our deep grief this seems like an impossible daunting task, but I assure you, PuppyMom, that in time - - in your own time and in your own way - - your deep grief will ease.
Thank you again so much for sharing these wonderful pictures of your beloved Lil'Dog with us. I hope you are having a peaceful evening. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, PuppyMom, and look forward to knowing how you're doing whenever possible.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
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