Full Version: I'm In Tears
I miss him, I want to hold him. I feel no one understand. It wasn't his time. I'm suffering with his horrific death. I'm in pain. I'm in tears. it's been almost a week. It feels so surreal. I can't focus. I just sit in bed and read others stories about losing their pup. I feel I don't have the support I need because they don't understand. Why did this have to happen. I'm so sorry bear bear. I love you!
Oh Missing My Baby
Please accept my deepest condolences on the passing of your precious "Bear-Bear". It's one of the worst, saddest, most shattering experiences in this life. A few people, and from your writing, I think you must be one of them, are privileged to have much more of an ordinary "pet" experience. These are the people whose "spirit-animal" has found them. Spirit-animal? Yes. A being who is made of the same "soul stuff" as you are. A being who, since time began and until time ends, has carried a part of your soul and whose soul you, too, have carried a part of. These incredible animals have searched the entire universe, among all those billions of people, and found YOU, THE one who has the other part of their soul. Imagine that! Not only that, but then they put themselves in our paths so we would find them. And the rush of love at that moment lets both of us know that "She's the one!"
Our soul-animals see thing as they ARE, not as they SEEM. They know hearts, they know intentions, they KNOW who loves them and who doesn't. Most of all the KNOW and LOVE their soul-mate. They've had this knowledge since time began and will have it forever. Their almost psychic - my Rufus, for example (the big lab-Newfie that my Gretta sent me after she went to the Perfect World in April) knows EXACTLY when I'm crying - even though I think I'm not making a sound. He gets up, lumbers over and sticks his nose between my hands and the computer and doesn't give up until I get up and take a break.
"Bear-Bear" is right there with you. You just can't see him or hear him or touch him any more - and that hurts like ^&(*^(*&. But Mr Bear is there watching over you, guiding your steps, protecting you from hurt, harm or injury - and most of all loving and being loved by you - exactly the same as before. You have given Bear-Bear the most precious gift of all - a mother's true love. This wrapped him in a cocoon that protected him from all fear, sadness, loneliness for his whole life - on earth and now on into the Perfect World. My vet, the ultimate man of science and the most caring person I know, his words were, "She's in a safe place now." These words broke my heart but they also sustain me, especially on awful, tearful days.
I'm sure my Gretta has already met Bear-Bear and that the two of them are lying in the warn sun bragging about their moms. They can see us, too. They're us there saying, "You'll be OK, mom. I'm in charge now and I WILL NOT let anything happen to you."
You've come to the right place, Bear-Bear's mom. All of us have been through or are going through this searing grief and loss. We DO get it. Moonbeam often says that every grief journey (which has been described as a roller coaster of horrors) is different - and that's true. But every grief journey of one who has shared love and life with their spirit-animal is special. That's why we get it and that's why we're here for each other 24/7. Alone we perish, but together we are strong. If one of us is down, someone(s) else gently lifts them up with love and a little extra strength. We're a band of sisters and brothers. A family. Welcome, Bear=Bear's mom.
Blessings,
Gretta's mom
Please accept my deepest condolences on the passing of your precious "Bear-Bear". It's one of the worst, saddest, most shattering experiences in this life. A few people, and from your writing, I think you must be one of them, are privileged to have much more of an ordinary "pet" experience. These are the people whose "spirit-animal" has found them. Spirit-animal? Yes. A being who is made of the same "soul stuff" as you are. A being who, since time began and until time ends, has carried a part of your soul and whose soul you, too, have carried a part of. These incredible animals have searched the entire universe, among all those billions of people, and found YOU, THE one who has the other part of their soul. Imagine that! Not only that, but then they put themselves in our paths so we would find them. And the rush of love at that moment lets both of us know that "She's the one!"
Our soul-animals see thing as they ARE, not as they SEEM. They know hearts, they know intentions, they KNOW who loves them and who doesn't. Most of all the KNOW and LOVE their soul-mate. They've had this knowledge since time began and will have it forever. Their almost psychic - my Rufus, for example (the big lab-Newfie that my Gretta sent me after she went to the Perfect World in April) knows EXACTLY when I'm crying - even though I think I'm not making a sound. He gets up, lumbers over and sticks his nose between my hands and the computer and doesn't give up until I get up and take a break.
"Bear-Bear" is right there with you. You just can't see him or hear him or touch him any more - and that hurts like ^&(*^(*&. But Mr Bear is there watching over you, guiding your steps, protecting you from hurt, harm or injury - and most of all loving and being loved by you - exactly the same as before. You have given Bear-Bear the most precious gift of all - a mother's true love. This wrapped him in a cocoon that protected him from all fear, sadness, loneliness for his whole life - on earth and now on into the Perfect World. My vet, the ultimate man of science and the most caring person I know, his words were, "She's in a safe place now." These words broke my heart but they also sustain me, especially on awful, tearful days.
I'm sure my Gretta has already met Bear-Bear and that the two of them are lying in the warn sun bragging about their moms. They can see us, too. They're us there saying, "You'll be OK, mom. I'm in charge now and I WILL NOT let anything happen to you."
You've come to the right place, Bear-Bear's mom. All of us have been through or are going through this searing grief and loss. We DO get it. Moonbeam often says that every grief journey (which has been described as a roller coaster of horrors) is different - and that's true. But every grief journey of one who has shared love and life with their spirit-animal is special. That's why we get it and that's why we're here for each other 24/7. Alone we perish, but together we are strong. If one of us is down, someone(s) else gently lifts them up with love and a little extra strength. We're a band of sisters and brothers. A family. Welcome, Bear=Bear's mom.
Blessings,
Gretta's mom
Gretta's mom, again, Thank you for the support I need. I'm gladbi found this place.
Missing my baby
Please take my strength and use it to lean on. I'm much farther along on this terrible journey and I have some to spare. Gretta, find Mr Bear and you two send down some love beams for his mom. She needs them.
Gretta's mom
Please take my strength and use it to lean on. I'm much farther along on this terrible journey and I have some to spare. Gretta, find Mr Bear and you two send down some love beams for his mom. She needs them.
Gretta's mom
QUOTE (Missingmybaby @ Oct 13 2011, 11:52 AM) 
Gretta's mom, again, Thank you for the support I need. I'm gladbi found this place.
I'am so sorry for your lose No words will compare to the love your friend holds in your heart that sits by your side and waits for you to heal and be happy once more
Grettas Mom is right and has loving words that heal what your feeling is a connection your heart is full of love and kindness and you have given this to
a friend that looks to you and is full of joy for the life and the love that you share.
What has helped me is to honor your friend with words
A special place to Kneel next to a friend Speak your thought's
You must realize your friend follows you everywhere
Your Kindness fills His Heart he could not ask for anthying More
He makes Sure that you are safe and he is always by your side
Do you have a Time a Place something Special walk in the park a Moment in Time you can share looking through a friends eye's what does he see
how does he feel everyone her is a good soul that cares for those that can not speak for themselves as we stand in the Rain that falls after they have
moved forward in time as they hold are Hearts until we Return;)
MissingmyBaby Take your time The pain you feel the breath that leaves you in time of need is a special connection you share with a friend that waits for you
in the Door way of life as his joy to see your face and to share Happiness with a friend I know your Search for i have found LS also in a time of need
and Kind words from others move us forward passed the Separation of the ones we hold above all for we stand Guard so others play in the pound of life
Your Kindness to a friend as you stand by his side you have a gift and he gives all of his love back to a friend that Kneel's by his side in time
of Need when all is Silent and Time stands Still as we must move forward to Honor are Friends Speak the words that He Feels for a friend
that Holds His Heart.
A book <Saying Goodbye to Your Angel Animal> Allen and Linda Anderson Find the Things that speak to you and a friend
for my words bring me to my Knee's i look to others for help when my Strength is gone and words carry me
We are Connected to are Friends as they are connected to us
I Stand Tall at this time as i Kneel for i have lost my Best Friend i have given her a great life i should be happy i feel sorrow
It's choosing Life and Death that brings Guilt that is no less then Compassion for a friend that would do the same;
Speak of your Friend show Pictures of the one that stands by you Let him be Heard for he has no Voice only the love
he has for a friend that will last a life time.
Bring those back to life for others to see and the Dreams that wait in the Night bring peace for are friends wish Happiness
and they see are Tears that fall for the joy of life that fills them is great as they run into the Night free of pain we should Smile
and we wish to hold them forever;) As the Moon light Shines upon all for we stand strong for a friend that calls in the night.
Hold your friend close to your Heart He has not left you he waits for Summers Return as you smile once more.
My Doxie and me, thank you for sharing and understanding. You are greatly appreciated.
Missingmybaby,
I feel like this myself a little. I still feel like it is surreal and didn't happen the way that it did. I can't help much as far as the way you are feeling, being in the same boat myself. However, I want you to know that you are not alone and that I do think of you and everyone else on this site. I constantly read stories on this myself. I guess if nothing more than to maybe shed some light on how others are feeling and see if I am thee only one feeling the way i do. I hope today is a better day for you. I wish I could reach out to you and everyone else and give you all a big hug.
Cass
I feel like this myself a little. I still feel like it is surreal and didn't happen the way that it did. I can't help much as far as the way you are feeling, being in the same boat myself. However, I want you to know that you are not alone and that I do think of you and everyone else on this site. I constantly read stories on this myself. I guess if nothing more than to maybe shed some light on how others are feeling and see if I am thee only one feeling the way i do. I hope today is a better day for you. I wish I could reach out to you and everyone else and give you all a big hug.
Cass
Cass,
Today was a little bit better since I got up and did stuff. But I can't help but still think about everything. I can't accept that I lost him.
I'm sure we all need hugs. I have my other 3 furbabys to hug and love. But of course it is not the same missing one.
We need to take each day gently.
With Love & Hugs,
Bears Mom
Today was a little bit better since I got up and did stuff. But I can't help but still think about everything. I can't accept that I lost him.
I'm sure we all need hugs. I have my other 3 furbabys to hug and love. But of course it is not the same missing one.
We need to take each day gently.
With Love & Hugs,
Bears Mom
Hi, Missingmybaby, thank you so very much for sharing with us how you're doing. You have made a statement reflecting truth and wisdom: "I have my other 3 furbabys to hug and love. But of course it is not the same missing one."
Scientific studies prove that every living being has an "energy", and when this "energy" is no longer present, there is a definite physical and emotional loss to the group. There is a "new normal" that has to be established to daily routines, and this takes time to adjust to. When there are other precious companions in the group who need our love and attention, - - including for them - - there is an adjustment to the reality that a very important member of our family unit is no longer physically with us. This doesn't mean we love our companions who continue to be with us less - - it simply means that every member of the group - - both individually as well as a whole group - - grieves the physical absence - -and hopefully in comforting one another it will bring you closer together.
I hope today is being kind to you, Missingmybaby. Thank you very much for sharing your beloved Bear with us. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to knowing how you're doing.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Scientific studies prove that every living being has an "energy", and when this "energy" is no longer present, there is a definite physical and emotional loss to the group. There is a "new normal" that has to be established to daily routines, and this takes time to adjust to. When there are other precious companions in the group who need our love and attention, - - including for them - - there is an adjustment to the reality that a very important member of our family unit is no longer physically with us. This doesn't mean we love our companions who continue to be with us less - - it simply means that every member of the group - - both individually as well as a whole group - - grieves the physical absence - -and hopefully in comforting one another it will bring you closer together.
I hope today is being kind to you, Missingmybaby. Thank you very much for sharing your beloved Bear with us. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to knowing how you're doing.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
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