Kit Kat.....may the angels of heaven rejoice upon your entry into the kingdom..no more pain.....run through the streets of gold my friend and drink from the fountains of living water.......you are once again whole....free from all of lives trials.....no more seizures my faithful wonderful friend......I love you Kit Kat forever......until we meet again my faithful friend....your bark will forever ring in my ears...and you will run to me once again and give me high five like you always do.......I miss you so much.......my heartaches for you.....i will forever miss your cold nose pressing against my arms to take you out....last night was my first night without you faithful friend in bed by my feet....it was a restless night......but i know my love that your work on this earth is done......9 years my friend you have been my loving, loyal companion........my best friend......i will always love all the days of my life.......Rest in Peace with the angels of God.......Run Free my love......until we meet again.......

I remember him the first time I saw him.....my girlfriend had called me and said that she had this yapping dog that didn't get along with her cats and turtles.....if I wanted him I could have him.........she'd found him on the side of the road...coat all matted and dirty......she took him home cleaned him up....took him to the vet.....he lost his manhood that day....and they diagonosed him with cancer of the testicles....they removed all the cancer.....her husband named him Kit Fox Carson....silly name, but it was cause he looked like a fox.

From the moment i saw him, i knew that he was to be my best friend.....my little girl was 3 or so at the time....and she went at squeezed the life out of him........and he licked her all over......we bonded at that moment.....it was determined that he was about 3 years old...........

We brought him home.....and he proceeded to chew the barbie doll hands and feet....never the heads........and he would only eat the red, green and yellow crayons.......so his stinkies were always so colorful.........he loved to get up on the furniture......up on the shoulders of the couch and look out the windows as to say I am king ... listen to me roar....and he loved to sit up on the dining table......and when i'd come into the house.......he'd jump down......thinking i didn't know he was up on the table......he was such a rasquel........he was the love of my life......

as time went on.......he started seizuring........the vet diagnosed him as epeleptic grand maul seizures.....but it never got him down.......he'd have a seizure.......in the beginning they were short and separated......but as he got older they became longer and more frequent....

he had a beautiful coat of hair.......shiny and long........he strutted around with his tail all foo foo and curled above his back.......until the last few years of his life.......

the tail began to droop and his hair on his back began to fall out.....his back side became bald......but we did not care....he was our best friend.......people would ask.....what in the world is wrong with your dog......or my goodness your dog is ugly.......but in our eyes he was beautiful........

my little one changed his name to Kit Kat and would sing the Kit Kat candy song to him....and he'd sit and howl sometimes.......he knew how to "give you five" and if you asked for "ten" he'd lay on his back and give you ten......

its been 2 days now.......i still can hear his bark.......i still can hear his toenails on the linoleum floor.....i can feel his presence all around me........

wednesday morning........he was fine......he ate and we played......he laid with me in bed and we played our favorite game of "the claw".........then it was 3:00......my little called and said she missed the bus.......so i had to go get her....he wagged his tail......cause i always took him with me to take her to school and in the afternoons........but I said, "not today Kit Kat.......mama's gotta go to the store with Jess" and............i left........

I came home by 5:45......and found him laying at the top of the entry stairs........he had left me.......he was alone when he passed...i do not think that it was a seizure because when he has a seizure he tries to go under blankets or the bed....perhaps it was a heart attack.....Bebee my toy poodle was laying close by......and my 3 cats were all around in the same room ........ as if to help him with his passing......i only pray that it was painless......i miss him so much........he was my world ........ i feel so much guilt of not being there to help him ........

i'm sorry i rambled on and on.....i will close now for the tears are blurring my sight.........thank you

I should have taken him with me that day........he would be here with me now........

I am sorry for your loss and it is a beautiful letter you have written. Please don't be too hard on yourself. He might not have still been here if you took him with you. The guilt is part and parcel of the mourning process - do not hang on to the guilt. It serves no purpose. You gave him a beautiful life and, in time, the memory of him will be less painful. It may just have been Kit Kat's time to move to the other realm.

Mourn the loss of your good friend because it shows your great capacity to love. And although it is painful, your life was much richer having shared it with Kit Kat.

Dee Dee

Hugs to you, Sora No Yume

Bless you for taking care of a stray dog who had epilepsy, I think that must have been so very hard to watch Kit Kat with his seizures. My dog had only one seizure, he had a grand mal seizure out of the blue on August 15th while we were watching TV. It only lasted for less than 2 minutes, but when he got up, he had lost most of his personality and coordination and some other things; and he started a cycle of pacing for 3 hours/sleeping for 3 hours, on and on. He lasted for a week after the seizure and then we had to put him down -- his fit was caused by either a brain tumor or an aneurysm, we think; there were no warning signs at all.

But I will never forget standing there watching him seize and not being able to do anything for him, knowing that damage was occuring to his brain and being so very helpless. So I know you are a very special person to have taken care of Kit Kat with his problem.

It is never easy to lose them, whether they die naturally like Kit Kat or have to be put to sleep like my dog. I think the feelings of guilt are the same - you either wish you had been there to help him, or you wish you didn't HAVE to make the decision to help him.. it's just a no win situation.

I read an article about the guilt, I will try to find it again, but she was saying that we take care of these creatures, it is an artificial situation anyway -- in nature the sick or weak ones would not survive. You may not have been there at the moment Kit Kat passed on, but just remember what a long and wonderful life you gave to him, he would not have had that without your love.

Oh, Im so sorry, I know just where you are. I lost my dog on Wednesday and I know it hurts so much. The pain lessens in tiny bits as time goes on. Im starting not to feel such desperation now after 4 days.

What a blessing it was for him to have you in his life. What a incredible person you must be to take on a orphan with such problems. You gave him a wonderful life an you were so unselfish about it. Its sounds like he had a wonderful life with you and your family.

I will pray for you and your family !
Colleen

What a beautiful letter and biography I am so sorry that you lost your friend but so glad that you were brought together in the first place. Here is a hug for you---
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Love
Patti

Tomorrow and it will be a week....7 days........the house is quiet without his loving barking...when my daughter plays her violen there is no longer any singing along by Kit Kat...so much has changed in these past few days....

I see my BeeBee....a minature poodle of 12 years old....she's senile now....her tongue protrudes out of her mouth....and she has lost very much hair.....Kit Kat and her never cared for each other much.....but Kit Kat watched out for the old lady dog....

She seems to notice that he is gone......when we go for rides in the car......she begins to walk but always looks back at me....as if to ask me where he is......I suppose she misses him too.......she wasn't eatting for a few days......just looking over at where he would lay....

All of your words of kindness have touched my heart deeply......I feel for each one of you who have lost their loved ones........the pain is so immense......but I know with each passing day the good memories begin to over shadow the guilt and the vision of his death....each day I try and remember his goodness and love.......

I have 3 cats and 3 kittens........and my husband brings home 4 strays maybe 5 weeks old on Sunday night.....it has kept me busy trying to find homes for the little ones.....God works in mysterious ways......he takes one life and blesses 4 more into my life, even if it is temporary.......

I thank you so much for all of you.......your words mean much to me.......
Love,
Sora

I feel deeply for your loss. My condolences.

But I want to say that I think the real angels here are the ones saving a bunch of little kittens and finding them homes.

Temporary it may seem, but your kindness will affect their entire lives. And I truly truly believe that the good karma you will receive in return will be tenfold.

Four little journeys beginning - thanks to the beauty within your and your husband's spirits.