My Sammy died 16 days ago, and in the first days after his death, I was just in no shape at all to do anything but sob the heart wrenching sobs that come when you lose someone that has affected your life as deeply as Sammy had affected mine.

Somehow I found this site though, and it turned out to be the beginning of such desperately needed healing for me. When I first found this site, I was overwhelmed at how many people were feeling the same kind of grief I was feeling. So many similar stories of loving a special friend and the same lost feelings, like a nuclear blast just went off, after the dreaded experience of their best friends death. I felt like I had found a place where my words, and feelings about Sammy could be understood totally.

This was vital to me at that time, because I found myself feeling utterly alone in my own family. It has taken the over two weeks since Sammy's death to help my family understand the level of grief I was feeling about Sammy's death. My husband and daughters all felt that I surely loved Sammy more than I loved them. They had never seen such horrendous sadness in me and they felt that my heart only had room for Sammy.

This forum has allowed me to fully express my grief without judgment and with the kindest of love and compassion that can only come from those that truly understand the same loss I feel about Sammy. It's been a long two weeks since Sammy's death...many ups and downs, many adjustments to my daily life. I was Sammy's total care hospice nurse for nearly the last two years of his life, and I still catch myself thinking I have to go attend to him...but remember he's not here anymore.

Without everyone here, and their kind loving words of support, and the sharing of their own story, helping me not feel so alone...I can't begin to guess how I could have coped in the beginning. I'm sure I would still be stuck in the last moments of his life, filled with needless pain.

So, with this post...my heartfelt intention is to thank everyone that took the time to read about my precious Sammy and then to further leave words of love, encouragement, advice....and hope that the horrendous grief would someday subside, and that my feelings were understood.

I clung to every word of advice, every word of hope, every word of understanding...like someone hanging onto a piece of debris after a ship wreck. I read, and reread every word left for me, and it's my heartfelt hope that everyone knows how truly grateful I am for everything given to me in those hours of deep need.

I still miss Sammy terribly, and sometimes the pain of not feeling his little body next to me washes over me with huge intensity. Yet, I'm still functioning somehow, and managing to remember more and more of what a gift Sammy was to me during his 17 years of life, remembering more than the sick days, and his death...remembering that having him in my life changed me to be more open than I was when he first came to me...and I feel in large part I owe my ability to heal to everyone here on this site.

With the deepest of gratitude, I thank you all for helping me navigate out of the worst pain I've ever felt...to be here today, without sobbing and able to help others along the same path I was on two weeks ago...Thank you all, so very much.

Love and Light

Sammy's Momma

Hi, Sammy's Momma, you are very welcome. May each of your days be filled with your precious Sammy's sweet Living Spirit to comfort and cheer you. And please know we are here for you - - always. We are a lifeline for each other here. For me, it is a personal honor and blessing to be able to offer you hope, encouragement, comfort, and friendship, and it's always here for you - - there are no "expiration dates" here.

Sammy's Momma, please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to know how life is treating you whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Sammy's mom,

Sorry I haven't been here much lately. I just read your first post and I am in tears for you. I could so relate to what you have gone through. I found this site after my 3 year old Schnoodle was hit by a car and killed in January but your post took me back several years. I also had cats who had declined in health to the point that they were euthanized much like your Sammy.

I just want to send you a cyber hug and tell you how much I hope you get the support from your family that you need, In any case you found this site and the people here are so understanding and supportive. I would just encourage you to keep writing here and in time you will feel better.

Dear Sammy's mom

Thank you for your wondeful letter. I'm so happy that you have made it through two of the worst weeks of your life. And I'm so glad that you, like me, somehow found this life-saving site. People here all seem to have experienced the life and love of a soul-mate animal. Not just ordinary animals, not even really good animals. These are our souls - the other halves of us. Out of all the billions of people in the world and all the billions more of animals, our soul, our heart searched for us and found us. It's destiny. It has to be. You said it beautifully - people's confort and caring on this site are literally life-savers. Every one of us has been where you are - and, thank God, we don't have to convince our Lightning Strike friends of our deep love and being loved and now our wrenching agony. Moonbeam is especially good at carrying us through the many rough spots, horrible downs, in our path to tomorrow. One thing all of us DO know - that we WILL meet our soul mates someday - in the Perfect World to which they have made it and where they continue to watch over us and send us tiny signs once in a while to let us know we're on the right track and not alone. Please stay here, Sammy's mom. Speaking from the heart helps me - helps all of us walk this lonesome road. We're all here for each other. It's a blessing.

For now,

Gretta's mom

I am humbled by everyone's response to me, Sammy, and my words!

The truth is...we can't do this alone. Sammy was my first experience with "close loving soul" death. I have experienced my father and then my mother's death. I have lost a child too! Death is not unfamiliar to me. Sammy though, his loss is extremely tough because we were soooo close for so long (17 years).

Sammy helped me raise the children God did let me have. Sammy was always there to talk to...telepathically, to hug and hold when I was confused about anything in my path. His neck was sooooo soft and his body just held me....like I needed all through the entire 17 years that I had him in my life.

The worst part for me is missing his silent love and guidance I think. Maybe I placed too much on him, I don't know. All I know is that I feel a gaping hole in my life now that he is gone...a hole I didn't know could ever exist.

Yet, somehow I get up and take my child to school, somehow I can even drive! Last night I went to my child's last high school band performance for the year. I actually dressed nicely because...I didn't have to race home to make sure Sammy was ok. I felt a huge twinge of guilt...but had a great time regardless....a HUGE step for me.

This grief is horrible...it's a life changing thing really, for me anyway. Sammy has been my focus for so many years...especially since he got sick. What do you do with your life after your precious soul mate is dead?

For me, I'm slowly getting to the books I couldn't read because I needed to be with Sammy. I'm slowly getting back to crocheting that afghan my husband has always wanted me to make him. I'm seriously going to write letters to my Aunt and tell her how much I love her.

How can life go on when your precious soul mate is gone? It goes on though, and I couldn't do it without the people here giving me words of advice (Moonbeam) and holding me up in loving support (Gretta) and writing to me giving me such sweet words of support (Joannel)

I'm a lucky girl to have found such friends here. Thank you all for everything you have given me....I lay in my bed at night and think of the words you write to me....words cannot describe how grateful I am to all of you.

Love and light

Sammy's Momma

Dear Sammy's Momma,

I know how difficult it is to continue moving forward after having lost such a big piece of your life and your heart. It's a challenge to do the things we used to share and now we have to learn new habits, while releasing the old habits we shared with our loved ones. I know how difficult this is for you and I am happy that you're reading and crocheting again. I know it's difficult at first but the familiar will bring some comfort, even as you miss your beloved Sammy.

Please know that you remain in my thoughts and prayers and I hope the pain in your heart eases soon.

Please take care,

Peggy (the human)

"How can life go on when your precious soul mate is gone?"'

Hi, Sammy's Momma, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. Your question is so poignant and can only be answered one day at a time. We continue on because our beloved companions want us to. We continue on because we are their living testamony to the eternal love they give to us during their earthly journey. We continue on to make them proud of us - - even when each day, particularly during the deep grief, our hearts are consumed by the deepest piercing pain we will ever know on this side of eternity. In the beginning and for what seems like an eternity our hearts feel like they are shackled by iron chains - - and the only key to loosening them is to grieve - - to cry - - to submit ourselves to the deep gut-wrenching sobbing that feels like our hearts are being ripped apart. These are healing tears, Sammy's Momma, because they cleanse our hearts and bodies from the grief and the stress we are going through. And also immensely important is knowing you are not alone in this grief journey.

Our lives do change for the better when our beloved companions come into our hearts and home. And they change again when they precede us to the angels. The good news is that we are blessed with their cherised memories and the warmth of their eternal love in our hearts continuing to share our earthly journey just as they always have and always will.

Sammy's Momma, each day is one step forward to the time when you can remember your precious Sammy with a happy heart. Sometimes it may feel like you take five steps forward and 20 steps backward. But we are here for you, Sammy's Momma, to help you feel confident in moving forward again, to share your better days, and to surround you with our individual and collective strength to hold onto you when you feel like you just can't take another step forward. You are never alone, Sammy's Momma - - your precious Sammy's sweet Living Spirit is forever with you in your heart and your memories, and we are always here for you, with you, and beside you as well for as long and as often as you need us.

Sammy's Momma, establishing a "new normal" is a part of this grief adjustment journey, and in the beginning it's a very difficult adjustment to make. But your precious Sammy wants you to enjoy each day - - as you enjoyed every day with him - - without any guilt or sorrow in your heart.

Sammy's Momma, please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and will look forward to knowing how you're doing whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Thank you so much Peggy and Moonbeam, as with every post you give me, your words bring healing and comfort to my heart, and I'm very grateful. This grief is tough to be sure, and you're right...sometimes it feels like you've taken five steps forward...and then suddenly it feels like 20 steps backward...but I can feel healing taking place within me. Just having a place to write about Sammy has helped me so much, the writing itself is very healing, but the loving comments left by others who care, is extremely healing as well.

When Sammy died I knew I had to write about him...it was the only thing I could do to feel better at the time. I registered on this site first, but it took a few days for my registration to be approved. I was in such horrendous pain and needed to reach out to others in my place so I found another site to post on as well. Several days ago I started a thread on that site telling of my positive memories of Sammy. It's been tremendously healing to write about the funny things Sammy did before he got sick.

I would love for you to read what I've written so far, and will gladly post a link to the thread if it's appropriate to do so. Let me know if it's ok to do that, and if it is....I will post the link. In the meantime, thank you again for your loving words of encouragement, my soul is beginning to feel peace and smiles

Love and light

Sammy's Momma

Hello Sammy's mom

Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us. As you've experienced, reaching out to others who have shared a life with a soul-animal and now are not with them for a time, also helps US. A lot like our loving our soul-mate with everything we have, and getting millions of times more love back from them, just from their being there. I'm not yet at the point where I can write about fun and funny Gretta-things. I'm still feeling too much the Gretta-shaped hole in my heart. But I know, from my Lightning Strike friends like you, that, in the words of a old gospel song, a brighter day is gonna' come.

Thank YOU for making my days brighter.

Gretta's mom

Hi Gretta,

So nice to hear from you again! You are so very right, reaching out to others that have felt the same deep soul pain is really the first step in healing...or it was for me. My family knew how much I adored, worshiped, cherished and just plain loved Sammy. But they couldn't identify with my deep sense of loss that kept me from being my "regular" positive self for weeks. I was on automatic pilot, somehow functioning...but just barely...hurting so bad.

As I mentioned I do visit another site that has helped me just as much as this one, and it was there that I began a thread on the great memories I have of Sammy. It's a work in progress...as I have 17 years of memories with Sammy and all that he taught me. I haven't seen anyone being unwelcome of my posting the link there so I will post it and hope that all that see this link...know that my intention is of healing.

Please read what I've written there Gretta. I know your grief soooo well, and also know that Sammy showed me how short life can be, so it's our choice to move out of that grief and into a happy place, as hard as it can be. For me, I have to get out of the terrible grief for health reasons. I've discovered that while Sammy was slowly dying in the weeks before his death, and I was so filled with hurt and fear of him dying...that I had a silent heart attack I had no idea about.

I want my friends here, and at the other site to know what Sammy was while he was alive...before it's too late. And ironically...the telling of the happy times with Sammy, and the reading of other peoples loving creatures happy days has healed me tremendously. I was able to take his carrier out of my truck today without soul wrenching grief....a huge step for me...since it's been in the back seat for over two weeks...since I came home without him that last day.

I promise you Gretta...a brighter day will indeed come...I can truly say this from heartfelt experience. My love, thoughts and prayers are with you (((hugs)))

Love and light

Sammy's Momma

(here's the link... http://forums.rainbowsbridge.com/post?id=5...21&trail=15

Hi Sammy's Momma,

Just wanted to stop by and let you know you've been on my mind. I hope you're heart is a little lighter today. Making your way through the grief is a very unpredicitable journey of the heart and you never know what's going to trigger tears. Believe me. This past weekend, even as Mom and I discussed our new family member who's expected to arrive this coming Saturday (Gilda the rescue dog!), our conversation turned to Peggy The Dog and we were both fighting tears, yet again - and it's been 12 weeks since she passed.

My poor mother has had to deal with more illness and loss of loved ones than most people deal with in 2 lifetimes. Way too much to get into on this site but from the time she was a small child, she was dealing with loss of immediate family members and being a care taker while others suffered. She has more experience with releasing loved ones in this life than anyone should have to endure and I know of nobody who's had to deal with as much. The day Peggy died, Mom had a dream (before we even knew Peggy was sick) about my younger brother dying - he passed from SID's when he was 6 months old and before SID's was even a recognized problem. His death knocked her down emotionally for a very long time. Turns out, she carried a lot of guilt for years thinking she should have realized something was wrong - just to add context, the night he passed, my parents had called the sweet older lady next door to babysit my older brother, baby brother and I and then rushed out the door to get to Boston City Hospital because they had received a call that my mother's father was dying. When they arrived, the nurses told them to get to Framingham Union Hopsital immediately because their youngest son had been rushed there (50 minute drive from Boston back in those days). My parents didn't know that they were rushing there only to be told that my brother Lawrenece had passed on. He actually passed before the rescue crew had even gotten him out of the house, they were never able to revive him.

Mom confided in me after Peggy passing that the depth of grief she felt was similar to her greatest losses in life, including my father and brother. I told her it reminded me of how I felt after Dad passed. She felt the dream she had that very morning was trying to let her know that Peggy was going to be leaving and to help her understand the emotional connection she had with her. Both of us were stunned by the level of pain and despair we felt when Peggy passed. We knew we both adored her and she was a huge part of our lives but neither of us had ever been so destroyed by the passing of an animal family member before. It took us by surprise and we each questioned our grasp on reality. It took us a little time (and me finding this site) to realize we're not 'damaged' at all. We just loved another soul to the depths of our being and that wonderful little soul was a huge part of our lives and happiness. Like you with Sammy, Peggy shared everything with us. As a wise friend of mine said, 'love is love'. The heart doesn't make a distinction between species. It makes a distinction between those who are a loving, intergral part of our lives and happiness and those who are not (and everything in between). When you love with your entire heart and receive unconditional love in return, how can you avoid experiencing soul rocking despair when that one and only connection is lost?

So the short point to my long story is, there is nothing wrong with you for feeling so deeply and missing your beloved Sammy who was such a critical component to your heart and happiness. Having the ability to love so deeply means it's going to take time to adjust to Sammy's absence. Something would be wrong if you felt that deeply and were able to let it go overnight (or you'd be the most spiritually attuned human to ever walk the planet!). Your response is entirely normal and all of us on this site completely understand your feelings and are here for you when you need support or validation. Big hug to you!

I would love to read about Sammy but am not sure about the rules for posting a link to another site. Maybe you can reach out to the Site Admin and ask? There's a link on the Home Page of this site that allows you to send the Admin questions, that would probably be the best bet. If you don't have time, the other solution would be to send any of us you select, a private message by moving the mouse to point at our name, click the drop-down arrow and select Send Message from the menu. I don't think it would be a problem to include the link in the message, as long as you're sure it's a safe site.

Please take care of yourself and now that you are in my prayers.

Peggy

Peggy,

My heart is feeling exactly what you and your Mom felt when Peggy left this earth. Thank you for the loving story you told me about your life....your Mom's life. Man is it healing to know I'm not alone!! I did post the link to my thread on the other site, but in case it's not appropriate to click there I want to share with you my last post on that site. It reminds me of your Mom's ordeal. Thank you sooooo much for giving a crap about me ...and Sammy (((hugs))))

You see, last night I read Jim's page and his fabulous stories of Jamie. My mind is swirling with the moments Sammy and I had too in relation to his story.

Jim talked about a knee surgery he had and how sensitive Jamie was by instinct to his hurt knee. I totally identified with that, because Sammy did the same for me many times. Cats, dogs, creatures we love can sense pain....and definitely want to help us heal.

Immediately after I gave birth to my 17 year old child I became pregnant with Katelyn. Sammy was still a kitten then, growing as he did. Katelyn was delivered 2 months early because I had complications. The "complications" became life threatening at one point.. I had an emergency c section with Katelyn. My baby girl was rushed to the children's hospital for emergency care while I stayed behind in the hospital I gave birth to her in.

I was vomiting...green bile...not a good sign. But I hid this symptom from my Doctor because I needed to go hold my baby, and to do that....he had to release me from the hospital.

I remember standing in the shower the night I was planning to go visit Katelyn. My husband had just got off the phone with the hospital where Katelyn was...she had just died. They were trying to insert a tube into her heart to feed her and it punctured her pericardium, she died within minutes.

All I could do was fall to my knees....in the shower....in utter grief. Somehow I got out of the shower and headed for my bed...and there was Sammy. This black cat laid next to me for the next few days. He didn't try to get on my chest....which was his new habit since the face attacking days.

He "knew" my tummy hurt from the c section, but he laid next to me sooooo close during those hours that I thought I would die finding out my child was gone. I wasn't out of the woods yet, and maybe he knew it...because after vomiting buckets of green bile in my usual cleaning bucket, it became clear there was something wrong.

I remember looking at my husband, and my two living daughters...and Sammy and thinking....you know....I really can't "go" yet. So I agreed to go to the hospital to find out why I was vomiting so much green bile. Turned out I had an abscessed bowel that needed to be removed. After 30 days in the hospital...who was laying on my bed waiting for me when I came home? Sammy.

When Sammy came to me, I was pregnant and full of life. I gave birth to that daughter and Sammy and I continued our relationship. Then Katelyn's death came. Sammy and I have always been close...but a shift happened between us when Katelyn died. Sammy was there for me like no one else on this planet ever could have been at the time....a gift from god I think now.

Sammy layed next to me in his quiet silence....telling me with his mind....that all would be ok. I didn't believe him 95% of the time...but it was to be proven true, I made it through Katelyn's death...in large part to Sammy laying next to me showing me how much he loved me.

Sammy helped me through soooooo many hard times in life. My words just don't do justice to the love he gave me all of these years...I never would have made it without him

Dear Sammy's Mom,

Thank you for sharing your story. It was so sad to read and yet heart-warming, at the same time. I am so very sorry for the loss of Katelyn. What a tragic event to have to deal with and God love Sammy for helping pull you through it. Our furry family members are often the greatest source of comfort during times of extreme stress and grief. They are so intuitive and often know just what needs to be done for us to be comforted. It's no wonder we fall in love with them and are then at a loss at how to go on without them. I have no doubt that Sammy is still around, watching out for you and trying to offer comfort in spirit.

Thank you again for sharing your story.

Please know you remain in my prayers.

Peggy
P.S. Thank you for the link to the other site. I read your wonderful stories there and then saw that you had ported them over to this site. What a charming, personality filled kitty Sammy was (or should I say black panther?!)!

Peggy

You know, when I told the story of Katelyn, I thought it was behind me, yet the grief is still there (tears). What kind of mess would I be without Sammy? He taught me soooooo much! He and I Learned how to be "near" each other after Katelyn. Having a c section, and then an abscess surgery, with a tube hanging out of your abdomen for a month, Sammy learned just where to "be" for me, and it was usually at my right side.

He was truly the sensitive kitty and laid next to me for pure comfort for years. Once the healing was over though regarding c sections and such...Sammy knew who's chest to lay on, and it was mine...until my oldest daughter was pregnant with her first baby. Sammy was heavy then, he weighed nearly 18 pounds and was a force to be reckoned with if you didn't do what he wanted. And he loved her nails. I didn't have long nails like her and he chose to lay on her when she was in my room with me, because he got the best tail back rubs from her. She would get irritated with this ritual Sammy put her through, and I would always tell her to treasure the moments with him, as they may not last long. She would "pfffft" me thinking I was insane., Sammy would NEVER die!

Sammy died on her first sons 4th Birthday...the one she was pregnant with when she stayed in my room and he insisted on being rubbed by her nails. Her husband is in the Army and stationed elsewhere from me...so the day Sammy died was particularly hard for her, I know.

Thank you for your kind words regarding Katelyn, Sammy really helped me with the loss of her. How do you get over an 7 month pregnancy just to deliver a child you need to bury 30 days later? You can't talk to your children about this devastating loss....they were too young to understand the implications. My husband, always as he has been, was of the attitude "please don't hurt now, I don't know how to help you out of it" So Sammy was HUGELY healing with Katelyn to be sure.

It's funny that my husband has always been jealous of Sammy. He didn't understand the "silent" healing that Sammy gave me over the years. My husband has been working in Afghanistan for the last 6 years, and every time he came home for a visit...Sammy was right next to me, either by my side or on my chest, as usual. I refused to "remove" Sammy from his space, which caused "issues" but I told my husband that we would have plenty of time together if Sammy ever left. Now he is gone, and I'm infinitely sad inside, and can't possibly explain to this man what Sammy is/was to me for all of these years. He helped me raise the children I DO have and helped me transition into Grammahood which is probably tougher than raising children. I definitiley wouldn't be walking with insight today if Sammy weren't the quiet presence that he was for so many years....I didn't have friends or family to talk to....only Sammy.

I hope and pray that something I say sparks some kind of recognition and healing in someone. Sammy was the KING of cats....the personification of a "little panther" . I can't possibly describe what he was to me in this post....but know, that Sammy stands above all black cats and is a force to be reckoned with....he has a ford F150 named after him, and he helped raise two children and saw two grandsons in this world. What else is there to say!

Love and light

Sammy's Momma/Wendy

Hi, Sammy's Mama, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. I can so relate to your relationship with your precious Sammy when your baby daughter Katelyn died. How so very tragic, my heart goes out to you. My first canine companion, Samson, was a gift to me from my mom. I was her caregiver. While I was at work, Samson's "grandmother" taught him all the things he needed to learn such as how to jump up on the sofa, how to play ball, etc. When I got home from work, I taught him his "good dog manners" of come, sit, stay, etc.. Every evening was a joy as he would very proudly show me all the things his grandmother taught him to do. He would play ball with us in the evening - - never showing any partiality. He would take the ball to mom first to throw, then after catching it he would bring the ball to me - - and so it would be for as long as we could muster the energy to keep up with him. Samson is a mixed Labrador / Border Collie. When he was a baby puppy he had a typical Lab body, but when he grew into his "manhood" he blossomed into the most handsome Border Collie body.

On August 17, 1985, at 10:10 a.m. our lives were changed forever. I was taking my mom to a dental appointment and a driver on the opposite side of the road lost control of his car and crossed over into our lane of traffic hitting our car head on. I suffered severe permanent injuries. My mom died from her injuries 6 weeks later. It was Samson who helped me through the recovery of five surgeries in a three year period on my right leg to be able to use it - - each time starting at ground zero with learning how to walk all over again. It was my Samson who helped me through the very deep depression of not only mourning the loss of my own body as I had known it up until that traumatic moment but also the deep depression and anger of losing my mom in such a tragic and traumatic way. She had just been given her "cancer free" survivor designation - - her struggle could have taken her from me at any time and would have been a blessing. But she had SURVIVED ALL OF THAT, and was just beginning to enjoy life again when - -. And on top of that the driver of the other car was absolved of all responsibility for losing control of his vehicle - - the judge said it was "an unfortunate accident that just happened to result in the death of a person." It took three years of a civil suit against the other driver to receive a financial settlement - - which I would have gladly torn up if it meant I could have my mom back healthy and happy.

When my Samson joined the angels on March 18, 1998, I felt like I was losing my mom all over again, for he was my connection to her. It was a very hard time, indeed. When Samson entered the Pearly Gates I KNOW beyond all shadow of a doubt that he looked at our Heavenly Father Creator and said, "You've got to do something - - You can't just leave her there all alone." And it was between my Samson and our Father Creator that Oslo first came into my life in November 1998 (joined the angels November 29, 2009), then my number one kitty son Eli in June 2000 (joined the angels on December 11, 2006), and then my beautiful baby girl Abbygayle and her sibling brother - - my precious Noah in August 2003. Abbygayle joined the angels on March 15, 2010. It is my precious little Noah and me now.

I guess in sharing all of this with you is to let you know that I do sincerely know how you feel about your precious Sammy and the connection you have with him - - you will ALWAYS have with him - - for this love bond you share with your precious Sammy is eternal, Sammy's Mama - - it is not restricted to the physical laws of time and space.

Thank you so very much for sharing your precious Sammy with us, Sammy's Mama, and for honoring us by sharing your heart as well. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Sammy's Mama, and look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Hi Moon_beam,

What a beautiful message to me...I was in tears reading your story about Samson's connection to both you and your Mom....and the tears really started flowing when I read about the terribly tragic accident that hurt you and caused your Mom's death! Sometimes things in life happen that make you wonder how we can even survive...that's why I know our creatures are indeed gifts from God that help us through some of the worst things ever we experience.

I truly admire your strength of character to have dealt with so much pain, and to still come to this site offering so much love and unconditional support to others with your words. My prayers will always have you and your Mom in them...I'm so sorry that she isn't physically here with you now (((hugs))) I feel she is still with you though, as is Samson, Oslo, Eli and Abbygayle. As you said to me...we will ALWAYS have them with us, because love never dies, never.

Thank you so much for sharing your story with me Moon_beam, I treasure you and your wisdom, more than I can put into mere words. You inspire me to continue to give to others, despite the loss in my life. I hold you in my heart (and Noah too)

Love and light

Sammy's Momma

Hi, Sammy's Mama, thank you so very much for sharing with us how you're doing. Your statement, "Sometimes things in life happen that make you wonder how we can even survive...that's why I know our creatures are indeed gifts from God that help us through some of the worst things ever we experience" is very beautifully said, Sammy's Mama, and is so very true.

If what I have expereinced in my life journey can be a source of comfort and encouragement to you, to others, then what I have experienced has a purpose. It is a blessing to know you, Sammy's Mama, and to have the privilege of sharing your journey. Thank you so much for keeping my Noah and me in your thoughts and prayers, as you and all of your family are in mine. I will look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam