One of my biggest fears when Sassy passed was forgetting her, forgetting the special things and also the not so special things, but the things I desperately wanted to remember.

Like how her ears did this crazy 'flying nun' contortion where one went up and the other went down, she would then give you a quizzical look with a tilt of her head.

So I started a blog, I don't post every day, it's too traumatic, but I know when I do it's a gentle way to talk about her without the absolute grief and severe sadness that overcomes me daily.

http://thehoundsoflove.blogspot.com/

hallo, dear Sassy
I love You

Cryss, thank you so much for your wonderful blog. What a tremendous tribute to your precious Sassy and to the earthly journey you shared with her. Your journey together has not ended - - it has simply transformed to a different dimension. Still, this does not diminish the emptiness and deep grief you are feeling in this deep grief adjustment journey. Please believe me, Cryss - - you will never ever forget your sweet Sassy girl, and hopefully one day you will come to know that it really is okay to smile again - - for in smiling, Cryss, you are honoring your precious Sassy girl with your whole heart - - and then you will be able to feel her love filling your heart and soul as she continues to share your earthly journey. She is forever a part of you.

Thank you for honoring us with the opportunity to share your blog. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Cryss.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

What is it that people say? You have to remember something in "context." Like her ears flying! I too, feel like I am already forgetting Lu. Who could forget that horrid tuna breath? The resounding clink of her tags? No, I picture her sitting on the side of the tub while I take my bath. I picture my oldest daughter carrying her around the house like a baby. I picture her lying on her favorite spot on the top of the love seat (where her indention still lies.) I picture her being subjected to "winter wear" and taking it all passively. We will never forget them! They live in our hearts. Thankfully the moments at the vet are subsiding and being replaced with who she really was...not who she was in the end.

Hang in there, friend across the world. Love unites us.

Crap, even reading my own reply hurts.

But on a positive note..I see Sassy and Lulu flying through the air! Along with all the other furkids on this site. They fly, run and play. And wait patiently for us, as they have always done.

Cryss,

Just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you and your loss of Sassy. It's just so sad and unbelievable. I start to write these posts and then get tongue-tied because I want to say something profound or meaningful. It's now 2:00am, having just got home from work to my empty house. I'm numb and fatigued but wanted to just say hi. I wish you some treasured moments, someday, of Sassy. You were/are a good mom to her. Please know that I and others respect your honesty in sharing with us. Peace to all of you for now. Take care

Dennis

Dennis, thanks for taking the time to write, your words are very throughtful and considered. I know how hard it is sometimes to put something in words with the intention of helping someone from the other side of the world. I struggle with what to say because I unlike many on the site, I still fail to see the light at the end of the tunnel where I will feel at peace with my loss, I’m angry, sad, empty and scared.

I have two other dogs Evie (10) and Jedi (7), Evie had some mast cell tumors removed a few months ago, I now live in constant fear of every lump or bump I feel on her, so much so that I’m struggling with the decision to get her scanned as I have felt a lump near her chest, I’m scared of what we might find and then I will have lost another golden soul from my life.

It’s unacceptable to me that this is our life, good people hurting so much.

Feel free to email me anytime you can’t sleep or are feeling especially sad, benefits of global communication, I can be around when you aren’t sleeping!