I still need my victor so much I just sat in my room today lookin at his photo album and smelling his old collar and cried.
I cant believe how long its felt like hes been gone it has been a while but its felt like a year but doesnt fell that long ago it happend if you get me?
Last weekend i we got a vet reminder threw the post sayin your pet victor is due for his boosters and checkup it made me stare at it and cry i was like i so badly wish i cud just take him to the vets And wen we tell them it seems so final kind of even though i no it is i fell like its not true he well be back soon.
Love Jay

Hi Jaymie:

It hasn't been that long Jaymie that you still shouldn't be crying over your sweet Victor.........
My goodness..........he was your love

Things get better, and then you get sad again......and it goes on and on for awhile..........
What you are feeling is very, very normal!!

Did your vet's office know that Victor had passed away????
If they did, then their "record keeping" stinks!!!!

But, if they didn't know........then, they were sending out a reminder...

Sweetie, your darling, beloved Victor is with you every single day........He's right on your shoulder,
and he goes with you where ever you go, my friend....

It's a very, very TOUGH THING TO IMAGINE.........but, Victor knows how very, very much
you loved him.......

You can't see him.....but, he's still with you.... I know that!!!!

You take good care, my good friend Jay!!! (and, please know that you are in my thoughts!!!)

Love, Denise

p.s. Thank you for your kind words about my Sweet Lucy.....It means a lot!

Jaymie,
I'm so sorry you are sad. I know how lonely it feels, and how badly you just want to hold Victor again. I've been feeling the same things these past 3 weeks since we had to put our dog, Dieter to sleep. I so understand how much you miss him. At first I didn't want to look at his photos as I just couldn't it would make me cry for hours. Now I find I want and need to see him and have placed a few photos around the house and in away it's comforting. I can only imagine the hurt you felt when seeing the vet reminder. I think going through this grief and mourning process is something we do because we loved our little furbabies so much.

Today my husband and I went to our local Petsmart store where they have animal adoptions and it was nice to see the dogs and cats and also sad knowing they really need to find homes. I called it my puppy therapy for the day. I know I will want to bring another dog home, as I have so much love to give to an animal and they have 10x more to give back to us. I know your Victor gave that to you and you miss it. Denise is right, Victor is right there with you, he lives on in your heart and your memories and just remember you are better for whatever time you had with him. That's what I keep reminding myself, at least God gave me my little guy, as I am such a better person for having been given the opportunity to love him.
Your in my thoughts
{{{{Jaymie}}}}
Libby

Hi Jaymie,

It's not surprizing how much you continue to miss Victor. You loved him very much and you'll miss him for a long time. We would all very much like to hold our beloved pets in our arms just one more time, but it just isn't possible. Our pets live in our hearts and minds now. We can close our eyes and open our hearts and minds and we can see them there and feel the love we have for them and they for us.

It's not quite as good as still having them here on earth with us, but the love that lives in our hearts and minds is something that can never be taken away. We'll always have it, no matter what.

Victor misses you too, Jaymie. But he is happy at the Rainbow bridge and he wants you to be happy too.

___Jim

I fell so mean i want another kitty sometime not to replace him i know we cant And i would never want to i love him so much i wouldnt ever, but i love kittys so much and i do fell lonely and i prob cant get one for ages but i fell nasty for this
as the fact i miss him evryday and still cry, but the fact i jsut want my victor back but i know thats not going to happen
Love jaymi x

Sweet Jaymie:

YOU ARE NOT MEAN!!!!!!!!! Please, do not EVER THINK THAT.......................OKAY???????

You are a very sweet, warm & caring young lady, who happened to love her furbaby......but, God called her lil' Victor
home to do some other special duties, my friend!!!!!

I know that your darling Victor would be A-OK with it Jaymie, if you decided to bring home another little kitty from a
shelter.............someone who DESPERATELY NEEDS A HOME...................

I KNOW THAT ALL MY FRIENDS (AND YOUR FRIENDS), AT LIGHTNING STRIKES WOULD AGREE WITH ME............. You have a
beautiful, huge & loving heart Jaymie............
Any kitty would be very, very, very lucky to have you as their parent..............
And, I know that your sweet Victor would look down at you and your new kitty with smiles and smiles..........

Victor ( ) would probably say, "Oh new Kitty...............you're very, very lucky...........Jaymie was (and always will be, my Mommy)...........So, you better mind her and be good to her............. She will always love you... "

It's okay dear Jaymie, that you cry for your darling Victor..................In fact, it's very, very normal!!!! That is so very true, my sweet Jay........
Can you understand that to be true????????
It is NORMAL!!!!!!!!!!

But, can you remember (back when), if you were sad.........then your Victor was sad as well?????? He was saying, "Mummy, what's wrong with you.................are you okay????? I love you, you know... Please, please don't
be sad"......

Victor's at Rainbow's Bridge right now with my sweet girl Ernestine.............and they are friends now..... My Ernestine helped Ben and I to pick out our new kitties Ms. Lucy (age ?7), and Mr. Yoster (age ?6&1/2).......
I KNOW THAT VICTOR WILL HELP YOU TO PICK OUT A NEW KITTY OR TWO..............

In your area, is there ANY WAY TO KEEP A NEW KITTY AS AN INDOOR KITTY???????????

I know that DJ (one of our very wise and wonderful posters here at Lightning Strike can tell you all the reasons to keep a kitty and INDOOR KITTY)..........

Basically, "furcats", are meant to be indoors............ But, DJ can explain all the reasons MUCH BETTER THAN I...........

I still try to e-mail you, but I'm not ever sure that you are receiving my e-mails (over the ocean)..............
Could it be your "firewall"?????

The e-mails that I've sent to you keep coming back "DENIED".....................

If you would e-mail me and say, "Denise, e-mail me now as I've just disabled my firewall................" I would do so Jaymie,
right away........................
It would be be fun to be e-mail friends!!!!

Your sweet, darling Victor...........Jaymie.....is with you, ALWAYS!!!!!!!
He is right on you shoulder.................
He is always in your heart............(and you have a big one, that I am very, very sure of)........

God Bless you, Jaymie.............
I'm sure that you are sleeping now, but you will get this before school, or right after...........

You are loved very, very much here at LS..............

I HOPE THAT YOU KNOW THAT!!!!!!!

YOU MEAN A LOT TO ALL OF US!!!!!!

You and I..................We will talk very, very soon!!!!!

Love, Denise xo

Thankyou so much for youre post denise it was really nice to read it mad em cry but in a good way i think. Yeah when i get another kitty i would get them from cats protection league were i got my baby from but what if they dont let us have another one? they might think were bad owners but it wasnt our fault i love him if i could ahve prefented it i would have done so without a secound thought, i hope victor helps us choice a kitty i odtn even mind if he or she is a older one yeah i would prefer one that liked being indoors or just there own backgarden, But Victor loved being in the garden beign outside it would have been cruel to have suddenly took that away from him. Victor dotn ever forget this i love you i know i say it so much but please dont ever doubt it!
Yeah denise it would be cool to be email pals, i dont no why its says denied maybe because i have hotmail hmm im not sure though!
Love Always jaymie x

Hi Jaymie:

I remember when I first came here, and for quite awhile............I would read posts that people sent to me, and
I'd read posts that other people got.........
And, I'd just cry and cry and cry!!!!!

But, you know???
That's OK!
We call those tears, "HEALING TEARS"........
I know that you and I and everyone else on this site has cried and ocean of tears......
But, that's how we all will feel better.....

Don't you worry about not being able to get another kitty from the Cats Protection League.......
You didn't do anything wrong..........
Of course you would have prevented Victor in a second, my friend.....

Don't you worry.........
There are sooooooooooooooooooooo many kitties that need good homes, and you loved your sweet Victor.
I know there's plenty more love in your heart to give!!!

You are right............I'm sure Victor wouldn't have been happy staying inside...........

People are different, and we all think differently about "should we have an indoor cat" or "an outdoor kitty??"
Where we live, it's just too busy to have Ms. Lucy and Mr. Yoster be "outdoor kitties"......

Plus, Mr. Yoster "lives under the lampshade --- he loves the heat of the light bulb".....

I'll try your e-mail address again, sometime tomorrow Jaymie........ I know it's early AM in England, so hopefully
you're fast asleep!!

Victor knows you love him, Jaymie...........and, he will always love you and be in your heart!!
Don't you ever forget that, okay??

Love you,
Denise

It's been 7 weeks today.
I went and talked to him and it really felt like he was listening i hope he was!
I cant say how much i love him words cannot describe hes my best friend!
Il post a pic of him its still rubbish qualit because its taken on webcamera!
Love you all Jaymie x

Hi Sweet Jaymie:

Seven weeks today, huh???
The "anniversaries" are very, very hard...........
Especially in the beginning....
We all know that.....

Your sweet Victor........He really WAS JUST THE CUTEST........

I am sooooo very happy that you came to lightning strike, my friend........Because
you are helping sooooo many people by writing to them, and helping them....

Victor will always & forever love you!!! He loves you now....
And, I know that even they it's very hard - that we "can't see them"...
I think you will agree that "Victor is around you.............."

He's looking down from Heaven at you all of the time.........
I'm sure he says to all the other furkids, "That's MY MOMMY, AND SHE'S THE GREATEST....."

In a long, long time ------------- after you have had a wonderful life here on Earth.......
You and Victor --- You'll be together again......

BUT, until that time Jaymie, I know that Victor wants you to be HAPPY..........

He's right there with you.......everyday.....
Even though our furkids have gone to Rainbow's Bridge,
THEY STILL "STICK AROUND US -- TO MAKE SURE THAT WE'RE OKAY".....
I KNOW THAT'S TRUE JAYMIE...........I THINK THAT YOU'LL BELIEVE ME....

Until we talk again, just know that I think of you often, way over the Ocean......
And you're a very dear friend.....

Goodnight & God Bless You,

Love, Denise

Yeah i beleive that its a great thing to believe in the thing is i fell so mean sayin this but i know my mum, dad and my sis loved him so much and they love him forever and that but i fell in away i had more of a connection with him i dont no if he felt like that but i hug him everyday and makesure i picked him up my sister didnt really not cos she didnt want to or didnt love him she just didnt she always made fuss of him (im making sure you know how much they loved him aswell!) but he was my best friend and that he seriously will always be my best friend!
Thanks denise you have helped me so much youre a great friend!
Love jay x
ps- why cant i add actual pictures of him?

another piccie

Hey Jaymie:

I'm going to move YOUR WHOLE THREAD to "Death and Dying", Okay?????

I think you'll get more people replying to your posts, okay?????

I know that "Gort" seems to have "the answer" in how to put a photo on here...........
You've done better than I have, Jaymie........

At least you can get photos on............
I must be real illiterate with the computer, because I haven't figured out how to do it.......

Okay...............I'm going to move this now........

Love, Denise

Thats ok you moved it.
I want to post this pic of him in this little visor he wore off my teddy bear its so funny and cute!
xx

Hi Jaymie,

Thank you for sharing the pictures of Victor! What a beautiful cat he was! Years ago I used to have two black kitties with white on their necks. It brings back nice memories of them for me.

When you mentioned that you smelled his collar and cried, I couldn't believe it! I thought I was the only one that did that. I pick up my Rachael's collar every day and I can still smell her. I have it hanging by my bed right now. I am so sorry for your loss and all your pain. As many others have said, the tears will help heal. Everybody has to deal with the pain in their own way. I think I am now ready to create a special memorial of Rachael for my wall. I plan on buying a shadow box picture frame for display. Believe it or not I have some of her baby teeth and part of her tooth that broke off just last year. I have some of her fur, her collar and tags (I had one made that said "I'm A Mommy's Girl"), some pictures, etc... When you are ready, I'm sure you will find a way to keep Victor close to you (other than in your heart, of course).

I do hope you will be ready some day to adopt another kitty. I know many people feel that they just can't get another furbaby because of the pain when their life ends. However, I find that so sad. All the people in here, including you, have SUCH a big heart and SO much love to give to a devoted furbaby. There are so many furbabies that need a good home and all that love. As a matter of fact, because I love labradors so much, I am checking into adopting one from a labrador rescue organization.

Please keep posting and all these wonderful people will help you get through this, just like they have been helping me.
Cheri

Thankyou for youre reply ive seen youre rachael shes gorgeous she still is shes up there having fun hopefulyl maybe with victor!
Maybe all our babies find friends with thee other peoples babyfriends on here.
yeah i have his first ever collar around this clip frame with loads of his pictures on there.
i have lots of picturs in frames a well around my bedroom!
Love jaymie x