Hi Everyone,

Tomorrow marks the 3 week anniversary of my sweet little boy's departure from my world. He was only 8 years and suffered from diabetes. I found out he was diabetic over a year ago and it has been the most frustrating and heartbreaking year of my life. Test after test, poke after poke, different insulins, different doses, and mass amounts of money. It is the most difficult decision I have yet to make in my 44 years on earth, and one that will never be easily forgotten. Nothing can compare to the heartbreak of losing my precious Habibi.

Although I know I did the best thing for him, I have never felt guilt like this and I never thought I could feel such pain and grief. I have not cried, but sobbed everyday since July 8. Although I have 3 more beautiful and wonderfully loving cats with me, the loss of my Beloved is more than I can bear.

I am planning a memorial spot in the front of my house, where I will create a garden just for him. It will have the brightest orange flowers I can find (he was an orange tabby) and I should be recieving his memorial stone on Friday. He was my baby boy and I will never forget the unconditional love he gave me for 8 years. I miss my baby boy but I know I will see him standing at the Gates of Heaven waiting for me.

I am hoping that the pain eases and the guilt subsides...God knows I did all I could for him, but it just wasn't enough.

"If love could have saved you, you would have lived forever"

Thanks to anyone who took the time to read this. You do so in memory of my Baby Boy - Habibi Lee.

I'm very sorry for your loss. He was a beautiful cat. I have also lost a cat 3 weeks ago. It's still hard but day by day I try to remember the good times, not the pain. Your other cats will help, give them lots of cuddles. I think making a garden is a wonderful idea. I'm sure your kitty knew how loved he was and had a beautiful life with you.

What a gorgeous kitty. I'm so, so sorry for your loss. I know the pain is so intense that it's hard to even breathe. Take each day as it comes. We are all here whenever you need to talk about your baby boy.

Sending you hugs -- Cheryl x

I am so sorry for the loss of your Habibi, he was a beautiful boy. I lost my beloved cat Nikita seven weeks ago and it still hurts so much. The pain and guilt are common and they will ease with time. The memorial garden is a great idea; living plants are always a good trbute to a lost loved one. I also want to plant a flower for my Nik, a tiger lily because that was one of my nick names for her "my Tiger Lily". The grief can see unbearable but you are not alone. This site is such a wonderful place to share and seek sympathy and support. I'll pray or you, my heart goes out to you. Again I am so sorry.

John

Oh that's so sad. I have read that diabetes is really hard to treat in cats. I know the guilt of which you speak. Even when you know intellectually you made the right decision, the guilt is still there. Seems like diabetes and cancer take so many cats these days. I guess because they live so much longer. When I was a kid, an eight-year-old cat was considered an old cat, but these days it's barely middle-aged. My Flo just died last month about a week shy of her 17th birthday. I'm pretty sure she had cancer, but she might have had diabetes too.

I want to say that I'm very sorry for your loss of your beloved cat. I lost my cat Husker a week ago tomorrow to a urethral blockage that kept coming back. And I agree with you...deciding to put them to sleep is the hardest thing I've ever had to do also. Just know that your not alone during this time. Thinking of you..

Maranda

Thank you all so much for your kind and reasurring words. Though I read all of your responses thru tear-filled eyes, I am happy to have this site where I can come and grieve with all of you who are also feeling the deep pain of losing your baby.

He was a beautiful little guy (profile pic is when he was healthy and chasing his play mice). It helps to know I am not alone and that my grief is completely normal! When I get his memorial stone, I will put up a picture. I am hoping to plant his garden in the fall and when I do I will post something in the Spring. Yep...pretty sure I'll still be coming on here, but hopefully to be comfort to others.

Thanks again and God bless you guys.

I call him my Beloved because his name in Arabic means Beloved and boy did he live up to that name!

Wow, what a beautiful cat. I've always had a soft spot for orange tabby's.

I'm so sorry for your loss, but you've come to the right place. We're all pet lovers and here you're going to find support, sympathy, encouragement and plenty of shoulders to cry on.

Please let us know how you're doing.